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DREAM SYMBOLS 2-20-20

2-20-20-YOUNG MALE SAVANT BECOMES MY GURU PARTNER

Dream interpreted for a friend

I am somewhere where there is a young male on display. He is strange, in that he’s standing there partially nude – he has no shape, overweight, & seems to be blind, but he’s some sort of celebrity & people are around honoring him.

Earlier there was myself, & I was dealing with birds. There is a large group of birds, with legs & bodies like Flamingos, but they are with almost no feathers, have only downy ones, & all the birds are the same except one in the middle. Their color is pale yellow, like baby chicks, & their beaks are different from flamingos, they are more like chicken beaks.

(THIS ALLUDES TO JOHN, WHO IS TALL & THIN, LONG THIN LEGS LIKE THIS BIRD. BUT HE IS A BABY IN MATURITY, YOUNG & DUMB.)

The bird in the middle is active, while the rest do nothing, are just milling about. Something is given to the middle bird, a lump of what looks like ricotta cheese, & the bird pecks at it, eats it. It is different than the crowd of other birds by its activity.

(THIS SHOWS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THIS PARTICULAR PERSON IN YOUR LIFE & THE OTHERS. THEY ARE ALL MALES WITH WHOM YOU CONNECTED. THEY WERE ALL IMMATURE, BUT ONLY ONE OF THEM WAS ACTIVE, THE REST DID NOTHING. THIS SHOWS THAT HIS ACTIONS CALLED YOUR LOVE TO HIM—HE RECEIVED IT, IT MADE HIM GROW.

THE IMMATURITY OR YOUTH IS SHOWN IN THE LACK OF FEATHERS—COVERED IN BABY DOWN.

RICOTTA CHEESE IS MILK, SO IT WOULD BE INGESTING LOVE.

THIS INDICATES JOHN GREW BY BEING NOURISHED WITH LOVE.)

Now when I approach this unusual male & speak to him I tell him, quietly,

“I AM THE ONE CONCERNING THE BIRDS.”

It was like he didn’t know who I was, but we had something to do with those birds, & I ask him,

“ARE YOU A SAVANT?”

He answers yes.

(THIS IS ABOUT GROWTH IN LOVE.

WHEN HE STARTED HE HAD ‘PUPPY FAT.’ HE WAS BLIND TO THE TRUTH, HE COULD NOT SEE IT.

BUT IN THE NEXT SCENE, HE’S LOST HIS PUPPY FAT.

HE WAS A ‘CELEBRITY’ OF SORTS FROM THE TIME YOU MET HIM IN THAT FEMALES WERE ATTRACTED TO HIM & STILL ARE.

THE WEIGHT LOST IS THE UNNECESSARY FAT – THAT WOULD BE EGO, ATTACHMENT TO THE WORLD, ITS THOUGHTS & FEELINGS, HOLDING DOWN THE SOUL. THIS EGO BLINDS US TO THE THINGS OF THE SPIRIT, ONCE GONE WE CAN SEE.

IT WILL BE SHOWN THAT THE OTHER FEMALES HAVE RECEDED FROM HIS HEART & YOU’RE THE ONLY ONE THERE, & THEY KNOW THIS IS HOW IT SHOULD BE.)

The scene changes: We are now at another place where the ‘savant’ is honored. He’s reclining on some sort of ‘display’ area surrounded by admiring women of all colors hair, with a couple guys in front. I am one of the admiring women, but closer to him than the others.

He has now completely changed. He is tall & thin & later I see his skin is medium dark brown. I am near his middle like chest & abdomen, which now have not an ounce of fat, his stomach is completely flat & buff.

And it seems I am attracted to this person, like infatuated or in love, & I sort of bend my face to touch his chest-abdomen area, & at the same time, all the other women recede several feet away {before we were all piled up around him}, as if they agree that I should be the one close to him, & they more distant.

I especially take note of their hair. I see blondes, a few of them, & other colors, their hair thick & well groomed, they’re all smiling.

One of the men in front says,

“IS HE REALLY BEAUTIFUL?”

I then move forward & look back at his face. It’s brown & he has a jaw that is completely round in front, like a doll I have seen or a certain kind of ape. Objectively, he is not beautiful, but I say to the man,

“IF YOU LOVE HIM, HE’S BEAUTIFUL.”

(THIS IS A TELLING SYMBOL. IT HINTS THAT HIS GROWTH TOOK PLACE BECAUSE OF THE LOVE YOU GAVE HIM – IT NOURISHED HIM, IT MADE HIM GROW.

THE BEGINNING IDENTIFIES HIM AS A SAVANT, WHICH MUST MEAN HE HAD THE POTENTIAL, & HIS POTENTIAL WAS REACHED.

HIS FACE BEING DARK SKINNED: THIS IS HIS LOWER SELF. HE WAS A ‘SAVANT’ OR ELEVATED IN HIS SOUL, BUT NOW THIS ABILITY HAS REACHED HIS LOWER SELF, LIKE THE STATEMENT ‘NO LONGER I LIVE BUT CHRIST IN ME {words of St. Paul}.’ THIS IS WHEN OUR FLESH IS CORRECTED; IT TAKES A BACK SEAT TO THE GOD-SELF. THIS IS ENLIGHTENMENT. SOMETHING BIG HAS HAPPENED TO HIM.)

I see then about 8-10’ away on a bureau are flowers & I wonder if they’re garlands. {I didn’t want to get up to leave his side to get the garland.} I get the idea of putting a garland around his neck, like he’s a GURU, & I know I am, & then the two of us can preside over devotees, serve them together. The flowers are big, bright yellow blossoms with stamens inside.

(GARLANDS ARE THE SAME AS A CROWN ON THE HEAD, OR THE LAUREL LEAF CROWNS ON THE HEADS OF ANCIENT OLYMPIC WINNERS. THEY ARE VICTORY, HAVING WON A RACE, HAVING OVERCOME A HURDLE, SUCCESS. HE HAS OVERCOME HIS LOWER SELF, HE HAS LEARNED, HE HAS RISEN UP.)

This thought gives me a lot of satisfaction, like it brightens up my thought of the future like,

“WE CAN DO THIS TOGETHER, HELP PEOPLE, & HAVE SO MUCH PURPOSE & IT WILL BE FUN.”

The thing is, this person is a savant & has great abilities, & I already know who I am & what I have. I didn’t see it in the beginning, but I see now we could have purpose together, for God. (In the beginning we were not together, I was one of the many admirers.)

(THIS NOT BEING TOGETHER– YOU WERE TOGETHER IN THE FLESH, BUT HE DID NOT MAKE A DECISION TO HAVE YOU FOR A PARTNER. HE WAS PLAYING GAMES & FOOLING AROUND WITH MANY WOMEN.

THIS IS ABOUT JOHN CHANGING FROM WHO HE WAS TO A MUCH SUPERIOR PERSON. HE HAS GROWN TREMENDOUSLY FROM THE LOVE GIVEN; HE IS NOW ABLE TO WORK FOR GOD, IN PARTNERSHIP WITH YOU.)

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SYMBOLS that come up in this dream of 2-20-20 or relate to it:

FLAMINGO (THE BIRD): Symbolizes a male who is tall & thin & has the long, thin legs of the flamingo {in this dream}. Its pink color can symbolize ‘in the pink’—all set with happiness–or something to do with sex {the pink of the vagina.} Other applications can be its beak being large & strong, or it dwells in warm climates.

CHICKEN-CHICKEN BEAK: This is a definite clue to being young, as in one movie I saw, ‘The Roman Spring of Mrs. ?’ females who are looking for young males who are called ‘chickens’ & the women who want them are called ‘chicken hawks’—this is disparaging of course, but females, usually young are also called ‘chicks.’

DOWN, covered in down, no feathers: Refers to being young, immature, a baby or fledgling. ‘Flying’ is an ability a baby doesn’t have, just as if walking or running is not possible for a human infant. Whereas:

FEATHERS show power the ability to fly, to get some place. Can hearken to angels or celestial beings.

WINGS: Ability to rise above situations, the power to get some place, can refer to people or celestial beings, notably angels or someone who represents ‘an angel’ in your life.

ANGEL: Someone who’s ‘an angel’ in your life. I was once stranded in Gary, Indiana, with no buses back to the house I was staying. I sat at the counter of a coffee shop praying for God to send an angel. An older Russian man sat next to me, we talked, I told him my dilemma. He offered to drive me there & when he did, he didn’t try anything. I was shocked as usually men harassed me & I asked God why he didn’t. And God said, ‘Didn’t you pray for an angel? He was it.’

RICOTTA CHEESE: Anything made of milk such as cheese, yogurt, cottage cheese, refers to ‘Mother’s milk’ or love, nutrition.

BIRDS: Refers to creatures who can or cannot fly or get somewhere. In the dream here one cannot do so as he has not grown feathers, but being nourished with love, he matures & grows.

SAVANT: Someone extremely intelligent with a potential.

FAT-PUPPY FAT: This dream portrays someone who is immature & weighed down by ego or connection, attachment to the lower things of life rather than the eternal truths or higher realities, or even lacking the ability to see logical facts due to lack of experience.

BLIND: Not being able to ‘see’ with the mind or understanding, not aware.

CELEBRITY: Someone who is desired by others, stands out like a star, is ‘celebrated’ or discussed by others.

RECEDE or COME CLOSER: In this dream, some recede from this person while one remains close in affection, near his chest & abdomen. That which recedes fades away, becomes less important, becomes ‘distant’ or does not touch one’s emotions, while the one close to the chest & abdomen becomes dear in one’s heart & emotions. Note also the stomach, ‘the way to a man’s heart is through his stomach.’ This portrays the subject’s emotions.

CHEST & STOMACH: In this dream it’s about love. One person becomes dearer, as closer to chest (heart & stomach) while others go farther away. It’s in the heart of the man this is happening, he is receiving the love of one particular woman as he grows in maturity & sees the true nature of this love, which is lacking in the other women he ‘plays’ with–& with his new understanding the other women ‘recede.’

In other dreams, we see that anything ON THE CHEST such as a vest, a shirt, a top, anything in the area of chest {& sometimes stomach when it’s close to the heart} refer to HEART & LOVE & all that this may signify.

THIN, BUFF, HARD BODIED, HAVING LOST ONE’S FAT: In this dream the fat was the ‘puppy fat’ or ‘baby fat’ where the young person is unable to see truth for various reasons, but having lost this unnecessary weight, they then become thin, & a guru in partnership with a mature guru. {Guru is dispeller of darkness or teacher of God, so this is a giant advancement.}

DARK SKINNED: The flesh, the ‘lower self’ rather than the soul. In this dream it strongly alludes to our human nature being descended from an ape, & it says his nature has improved.

GARLAND: The same as crown – being special or victorious. The yellow in the flowers of the garland refer to sunshine, joy, happiness as on a sunny day.

YELLOW FLOWERS: Yellow is like the rays of sunshine in this dream; joyful, happy.

CROWN: same as garland or laurel leaf crown—victory, success.

LAUREL LEAF CROWN: A sign of victory, success, accomplishment fulfilled.

BEAUTIFUL: In dreams, as in this one, beauty is referred to as an inner state rather than a cosmetic one, & also ‘beauty is in the eyes of the beholder,’ which means when a person has love, all of nature is beautiful, all life is beautiful.

PARTNERS, GURU PARTNERS: In this dream: We can both be a Light in the darkness helping others, bearers of the Truth. Here I am sitting on the left side of the young man, our bodies touching, as if ‘joined at the hip’. This would be ONENESS as in Mystical Marriage, the Sacrament where two become one, ordained so by God. “Guru partners” is a significant relationship, something that does not happen often.

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RELIGIOUS IMAGES

RELIGIOUS IMAGES FOR OUR NEW RELIGION

These I have put for my assistant to insert into

‘The New Religion’ book.

They are here for his convenience but of course

you may enjoy them.

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NIGHT VISITOR & GRACES

NIGHT VISITOR & GRACES

2-2-20-PEEPING TOM & ICY SLUDGE 4’ THICK-Refers to male seeking my secrets & forthcoming grace

It’s the middle of the night, dark. My daughter & I decided to lie down & rest together on my front porch, not sure why – maybe we just wanted to enjoy the fresh air, the beauty of the night. (Our view is lovely, across the road is a sloping hill with large trees, a creek running through the middle.) As I said, it’s night but not pitch dark, sort of in between moon, dim, but we can see.

(THIS BEING ABLE TO SEE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT HINTS AT PSYCHIC OR SPIRITUAL VISION. THE NIGHT IS A TIME OF DARKNESS / MYSTERY, BUT IF YOU CAN SEE WITHIN IT THEN YOUR VISION / UNDERSTANDING IS STRONG.

‘DAUGHTER & I’ IS FLESH & I. I AM 99% OF THE TIME THE DREAMER, IT’S THE GOD-ME. MY DAUGHTER IN MOST OF MY DREAMS IS THE LOWER SELF. LATELY I’VE SEE HER CLOSE TO ME A LOT BECAUSE WE’VE BEEN WORKING ON THE UNION WITH ME OR THE ‘NONDUALITY.’)

Then to our surprise a truck stops across the road right in front of our house, an old truck & the back of it (with no railing or gate, open) is loaded with what looks like Cole slaw & maybe other veggies, – there’s a light glowing around the veggies.

(STUMPED. WHAT WOULD VEGGIES REPRESENT, ESPECIALLY COLE SLAW, MOTHER GOD?

SHE: A TRUCKLOAD OF HEALTH FOODS—THEY ARE RAW. YOU ESPECIALLY LIKE COLE SLAW & KNOW IT’S HEALTHY, MOM ALWAYS SAYS THE CLICHÉ ‘EAT YOUR VEGGIES.’

BUT WHAT DOES IT MEAN IN THE CONTEXT OF THIS DREAM?

WHAT A MAN CARRIES – HIS LOAD, IS GOOD OR BAD. THIS MAN CARRIES GOOD. THE LIGHT AROUND THE VEGGIES CONFIRMS IT’S GOOD. THIS IS PROBABLY SPIRITUAL IDEAS, THOUGHTS, FEELINGS THIS MAN CARRIES.)

The man gets out of the struck, comes up to our porch where it looks like he doesn’t see us lying there. We don’t know who he is, why he’s here, we don’t feel totally safe. He’s a man we don’t know, what if he attacks us?

(THIS MAN IS EXTREMELY CURIOUS ABOUT YOU. IT MIGHT BE THE NONDUALITY TEACHER YOU CONTACTED WHO DISMISSED YOU, BUT NEVERTHELESS, HE’S THINKING ABOUT YOU & HE WANTS TO KNOW YOUR SECRETS.

LOWER SELF TOGETHER ENJOYING THE NIGHT IT REPRESENTS MY NONDUALITY OR UNION WITH GOD—WHICH HE DOES NOT TAKE NOTE OF.

LOOKING IN SOMEONE’S KEYHOLE WOULD BE SPYING ON THEM, WANTING TO KNOW SOMETHING THEY DON’T KNOW, TRYING TO FIND OUT.)

But all he does is bend down & look at the keyhole of our front door – perhaps both doors. I see the keyhole/lock in my mind’s eye – it’s golden, is it the old-fashioned kind, you know, when you had those huge old-time keys? (this is vague, however, I might not take it too seriously.)

He then notices us, turns to us & says,

(IT SAYS AT FIRST HE DID NOT SEE US LYING ON THE PORCH. SINCE IT IS MY GOD-SELF & FLESH, IT MEANS HE DOESN’T SEE—PERHAPS WHAT HE IS SEEKING—AM I REALLY IN GOD UNION OR NOT?

AFTER LOOKING AT THE KEYHOLE HE SEES US, WHICH MEANS HE BELIEVES I AM IN UNION.

HE COULD BE LOOKING WITH HIS PSYCHIC SENSE, MOST PROBABLY, AS LOOKING AT SOMEONE’S NAME IN GOOGLE WON’T PROVE ANYTHING ABOUT THAT.)

“My name’s JUDD.”

(NOW HE REVEALS WHO HE IS TO US. WE DID NOT ASK, BUT MY PSYCHIC SENSE IS ALSO AWAKE. THE NAME SOUNDS LIKE THE GUY WHO I WROTE.)

His name being Judd, the way he sounds, he seems like a hillbilly. That’s all he says, leaves, heads for the truck & takes off. As my parting word to him, greatly relieved that he’s leaving, I say,

(THE RELIEF IS GETTING RID OF HIM FROM MY MIND, BECAUSE HE HURT ME. IT SHOWS UP IN MY DISCOMFORT OF HIS BEING HERE, THAT HE MIGHT ATTACK US – NOT FEELING SAFE. YES, HE DID MAKE ME SUFFER A DAY OR TWO BY THE CURT NOTE OF REJECTION HE SENT ME—NOW I’M RID OF THE PAIN & FEEL RELIEF.)

“Good luck with your veggies.”

(WISHING HIM GOOD LUCK, INDEED, BUT BEING GLAD I’M NOT GOING TO WORK WITH HIM. HIS VEGGIES AS I SAID BEFORE ARE HIS THOUGHTS, IDEAS & FEELINGS. IT’S HIS WORK, AS HE’S A TEACHER. SO I’M WISHING HIM LUCK WITH HIS TEACHING, BUT GLAD HE’S GOING.

WHY IS HE A HILLBILLY?

TO ME, THEY REPRESENT IGNORANCE. I GUESS I SEE HIM THAT WAY. NOT COMPLETELY IGNORANT, GRANTED, IGNORANT IN A CERTAIN WAY.)

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Dream 2: Trouble with my old Caddy

I decide to go out to my car – it’s the big old Caddy I used to have – a black DeVille.

It’s parked in the usual spot, I pull out but hug the driveway (it’s night btw) to back up back into the driveway. It seems I was thinking of going to town, but I feel drunk & not capable of driving.

(UNABLE TO GET TO WHERE I GO – MY MIND IS MESSED UP AS I ATTEMPT DEEP MEDITATION. DRUNK CAN MEAN ‘DISABLED,’ & THIS OLD CAR FELT LIKE A BOAT TO ME – I HATED DRIVING IT, DID NOT FEEL IN CONTROL. SMALL CARS SUIT ME FINE.)

The two windows to the left, I want to clean them, & so I allow each one to go down by the automatic & then back up. I’m very careful to make sure the windows go back up – as sometimes one forgets, rain & snow get in.

So they are up, but both windows have a darkish grey film over them & I can’t see so this is troubling. I want to back up back into my driveway, somehow I do, through really thick slush – the slush almost a foot thick. I go back all the way & back toward the front, get a really nice spot, amazed at how easily I controlled the car over this icy slush.

(OLD CAR THE WINDOWS PICK UP THIS DARK FOG TO MY LEFT I CAN’T SEE OUT OF.

THIS IS MY MEDITATION LAST NIGHT – I HAD TROUBLE RISING UP SPIRITUALLY. THAT MEANS ‘COULDN’T SEE.’

IT COULD BE THE TV WATCHING –IT THREW ME OFF MY PERFECT ROAD, MY LOWER EMOTIONS (PAIN) GOT ME ALSO (FROM A LETTER I GOT), IT TARNISHED MY VISION. SEEKING SOLACE, I WATCHED A LOT OF TV FOR ENTERTAINMENT & THAT CLUTTERED MY MIND. I HAD TO WORK HOURS TO GET PAST THE PAIN & THE CLUTTER.)

Then a lady comes out to help me. There’s a large plastic bin out here, it must be moved – it’s heavy. She takes one end, I the other, we move it. I don’t even know who she is but she came out of my house.

(USUALLY A KIND LADY WHO HELPS ME IN ANY WAY IS MY MOTHER GOD, THE ULTIMATE, UNIVERSAL POWER OVER ALL. THIS SAYS SHE’S WITH ME ‘FROM MY HOUSE.’)

I look behind me at the yard beyond the fence the PATH through it winding down to the creek. It seems to be lower than we’re standing & to my amazement it has slush that is four feet deep! The snow is melting & moving toward the bottom of the yard, but wow, this is a lot of water!

(THE SLUSH HERE IS A GOOD SIGN. WATER HERE IS THE GRACE OF GOD. BUT YOU MUST SEE IN THE CONTEXT OF THE DREAM IF THE WATER IS POSITIVE OR NEGATIVE, AS WATER CAN BE DESTRUCTIVE.

SNOW, ICE, SLUSH IS USUALLY FROZEN OR DELAYED GRACE. RIGHT NOW MY GRACE IS ALMOST ‘FROZEN UP’ TO SOME DEGREE SO I’M NOT QUITE ACCESSING IT. I’M GETTING BY IN SPITE OF THINGS, AS TO THE WAY I MANAGE THE CAR.

WHY IS WATER THE GRACE OF GOD? YOU CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT IT, IT GIVES LIFE TO EVERYTHING ON EARTH, LIKE THE AIR YOU CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT, LIKE THE SOIL. IT’S AN ABSOLUTE NECESSITY.

THE GRACE OF GOD MAKES LIFE EITHER PALATABLE & PROSPEROUS OR IN ITS ABSENCE LIFE IS EMPTY, WITHOUT MEANING, & DEVOLVES INTO HELL. LOTS OF WATER IS LOVE & HAPPINESS WITHIN ONE’S MIND/SOUL.)

THIS DREAM IS SHOWING THERE’S LOTS OF GRACE COMING TO ME, NOT HERE YET BUT WILL BE SOON. THE THING ABOUT GRACE IS WHY DOES IT DIMINISH OR INCREASE? THE GOD WITHIN DOESN’T CHANGE, BUT OUR ACCESS TO GOD, OUR ‘COMPREHENSION’ OF HER, DOES.

IT’S OUR PRAYERS, MANTRAS, CHARITY, THE WAY WE LIVE EACH DAY. HOW MUCH ATTENTION ARE WE PAYING TO GOD?

SINCE I AM NOW IN NONDUALITY I KNOW THAT THE GOD WITHIN ME IS WHO DOES EVERYTHING. IT SEEMS STRANGE FOR ME TO CALL ON THE GOD OUTSIDE, THE GOD OF FORM (IMAGE OR PHYSICAL FORM) – AS I KNOW THE ‘GOD OF FORM’ IS NOT USUALLY THE ONE THAT ANSWERS, EVEN IN THE OLD DAYS, IT WAS THE GOD WITHIN WHO ANSWERED MY PRAYERS, TAKING THE FORM OF GOD OUTSIDE—JESUS, MARY OR THE SAINTS.

I’M NOT SAYING THAT POWERS OF GOD OUTSIDE US DO NOT EXIST – THEY DO. BUT THE HISTORICAL JESUS DOES NOT USUALLY ANSWER ONE PERSONALLY. IT CAN HAPPEN BUT IT’S USUALLY THE GOD WITHIN TAKING THE FORM OF JESUS OR MARY OR THE SAINTS. AND YOU KNOW THIS WHEN YOU ARE IN ‘NONDUALITY’.)

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REVENGE IS WRONG

REVENGE IS WRONG

2-4-20-NO REVENGE-Hateful words & thoughts are wrong

Rasa interprets her dream. To see her first book on interpretation see ‘Theater of the Mind’ on Lulu & Amazon Books.

I was some place where we worked, lots of people around, lots of food. I vaguely recall eating, doing happy things, & then the day was over & it was time for me to go home.

(GO HOME IS ENTER BACK INTO MY HEART, MY SPIRITUAL CONSCIOUSNESS. ‘HOME IS WHERE THE HEART IS.’ IT MEANS WHEN I SETTLE DOWN AFTER THE DAY’S WORK & MEDITATE.)

Someone – not sure who – a lady I think, put two wonderful cakes on the table. They had the kind of icing on the outside that is like a ‘glaze’ or glassy, not fluffy, they are both mint green & I know the inside if great. The lady says to me,

“This is for you because you worked for free.”

(THIS LADY IS MOTHER GOD, THE ONE INSIDE ME OR THE ONE EVERYWHERE, THEY CONNECT. SHE’S REWARDING ME FOR MY WORK TO HELP SOULS. I DIDN’T EXPECT ANYTHING, BECAUSE THE HAPPINESS I GET IS ENOUGH, BUT SHE IS.)

I was delighted but did not pack up the cakes right away, they sat on the table. A woman who I sense belongs to the Mafia then came by & picked up one of the cakes to take to her family sitting in a large lower room. I stopped her & politely said,

(THIS PERSON BEING ‘IN THE MAFIA’ IS NOT A PERFECT SOUL. MAFIA IS DEMONS. BUT HE IS AN ADVAITA TEACHER, FUNNY HOW YOU CAN BE IMPERFECT YET YOU CAN REPRESENT THE HIGHEST TRUTHS……………..IT SHOWS THIS PERSON TAKING THIS GREAT GRACE OF MINE TO A LOWER ROOM TO HIS ‘FAMILY.’ THAT MEANS PEOPLE ON THE LOWER PLANE—APPARENTLY HIS FOLLOWERS OR STUDENTS…………………

{MY DREAM A FEW DAYS AGO WHERE I WAS IN B’KLYN WITH A GUY I CALLED ‘ITALO’ IS THIS SAME PERSON. I SENSED HE WAS NOT 100% OK BUT I FORGAVE HIM, ACCEPTED HIM, LIKED HIM. IN THAT DREAM PEOPLE WERE SAYING THIS GUY HAD DONE THINGS THAT WERE WRONG, BUT I DISMISSED IT. HE WAS A POLITICIAN & THEY ALWAYS GET RUMORS, I SAID, THESE ARE ‘SMALL THINGS.’}

I SURMISE THIS IS THE ADVAITA TEACHER WHO WAS SO CURT TO ME. I WROTE HIM A LETTER ASKING TO COLLABORATE—HE ANSWERED ‘NOT INTERESTED.’ IT WAS THE CURTNESS / COLDNESS THAT HURT. HE COULD HAVE SAID IT IN A NICE WAY BUT HE DIDN’T WANT TO. THIS DREAM EXPLAINS HE WAS JEALOUS / ANGRY.

WHY IS HE FEMALE? PROBABLY BECAUSE HE’S A FOREVER-DISCIPLE, BEEN SURRENDERING TO GOD ALL HIS LIFE, BUT NOT MADE THE GRADE COMPLETELY.

THIS EXPLAINS WHY HE WAS SO CURT TO ME: HE WAS JEALOUS OF THE FAVORS GOD HAD GRANTED ME. I SENT HIM LINKS TO MY BOOKS. ONE WAS THE BEATIFIC VISION. I MEAN HOW MANY PEOPLE SEE GOD FACE TO FACE?–ONE IN MILLIONS. THAT IS A REWARD GOD GAVE ME FOR ‘WORKING FOR FREE’ FOR THE KINGDOM.

I ALSO SENT HIM MY BOOK LINKS ON YOGA & CHRISTIANITY, THE ONE ON MYSELF & MY DEVOTEES & THE DIVINE STIGMATA.

AS HE ‘TAKES MY CAKE’ HE’S COVETING OR WISHING FOR MY REWARD –THE GRACE OF SEEING GOD FACE TO FACE.

BUT I SAY TO HIM,

“NO, THIS IS MY REWARD, YOU CANNOT HAVE IT.”

HIS ANGER IS THE LOWER SELF BEING JEALOUS.

THE FACT THAT HE’S TAKING THIS REWARD TO HIS FAMILY IN THE BIG ROOM BELOW – HE WANTS SOMETHING LIKE THIS TO PRESENT TO HIS FANS, FRIENDS, BELIEVERS. IT WOULD BE A GREAT FEATHER IN HIS CAP AS A TEACHER OF SPIRITUALITY.

THE WAY HE REACTS – SMASHING THE CAKE TO THE WALL – IS GREAT ANGER. HE WANTED TO HURT ME, & HE DID. I WAS IN PAIN FOR TWO DAYS BEFORE IT WORE OFF.

THIS DREAM IS A LESSON AGAINST REVENGE. SOMEONE, SOMETHING HURTS YOU—DO NOT TAKE REVENGE. DON’T GIVE TIT FOR TAT THIS SAYS, IT’S MORALLY WRONG. IT WILL DIMINISH YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD, IT WILL SHRINK DOWN YOUR BLISS, PLEASURE, IN THE COMPREHENSION OF GOD, IN YOUR CONSCIOUSNESS.)

“Sorry, but those are my cakes given me because I worked for free.”

(WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO ‘WORK FOR FREE?’ IT MEANS YOU DID / DO GOD’S WORK NOT FOR ANY ULTERIOR MOTIVE BUT FROM UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. YOU JUST WANT TO BE WITH GOD, PLEASE GOD – YOU DON’T DO IT FOR THE GIFTS GOD GIVES. {The proof of this is when people are willing to suffer ‘dark nights of the soul’ & martyrdom, which is the absence of bliss & joy, it’s pain & sorrow, but the soul is ready to accept this when it’s the Will of God.} THIS KIND OF LOVE MERITS THE HIGHEST REWARDS. BUT FEW GIVE THIS. MOST PEOPLE ARE LOOKING TO GOD LIKE SANTA CLAUS, THE GIVER OF GIFTS.)

She was standing with a wall to her right, & she was so angry she smashed the cake against the wall, but it didn’t break, just got a little broken, I caught it, retrieved it & took it back to my table.

(THIS JEALOUS PERSON WOULD HAVE ‘SMASHED’ OR DESTROYED MY RELATIONSHIP / BLISS / REWARDS WITH GOD IF SHE / HE COULD – BUT THEY COULD NOT, I GOT IT BACK, WITH JUST A LITTLE HURT TO MY FEELINGS.)

I was planning to pack my cakes up when out of the blue this heavy guy comes toward me to pick a fight. I decide to teach him a lesson.

I punch him really hard, he falls down. I grab him by the balls & pull them so hard they stretch a foot – he doesn’t stop. I do some more damage to him, then I let him go. But while I was fighting some unknown person took the second cake from the table & absconded. I can’t blame them as they didn’t know the cakes were mine.

(THIS MAN MUST BE THE MAN ON THE INTERNET WHO INSULTED ME. I INSULTED HIM BACK. HE WANTED TO HURT ME, I HURT HIM BACK. I DIDN’T CONCEIVE OF IT AS A SIN—HE STARTED IT, HE DESERVED IT.

BUT GOD IS TELLING ME SOMETHING DIFFERENT. WHILE I WAS FIGHTING, THE SECOND CAKE OR ANOTHER REWARD MOTHER GOD GAVE ME WAS STOLEN. I LOST SOME OF MY SPIRITUAL BLISS / HAPPINESS.

THIS MIGHT HAVE SHOWN AS I WAS MEDITATING AT THE END OF THE DAY, LESS SATISFACTION AS MY STATE WAS TARNISHED.)

I then quickly pack up the first cake with the slight damage, & I take that soft kind of bandage from a roll you roll over say a bad elbow, I roll it round & round until it’s cushioned, put it into my bag, sort of like a round purse, which is a suitcase of sorts.

(WHAT AM I BANDAGING? MY HURT FEELINGS OF COURSE. I AM PROTECTING MY GIFT OF GOD ALSO, DON’T WANT TO LOSE MY COMPOSURE, FALL INTO THE LOWER SELF IN PAIN.)

In the bag I have a few other things I put into a paper bag, not much, like maybe a bottle of champagne, other jars.

(WHAT IS THE PAPER BAD FILLED WITH CHAMPAGNE & OTHER JARS?

PAPER WOULD BE MY PRECIOUS BOOKS, ESPECIALLY THE ONE ON BEATIFIC VISION, MY GREATEST GRACE—CHAMPAGNE BEING A SIGN OF VICTORY. I DON’T WANT PEOPLE STEALING MY BLISS ANY MORE.)

I’m eager to get out of here as I don’t want any more trouble with what I have left. It seems people interfere as soon as you get ahead, I just want to get out.

(THIS DREAM HAS A MORAL: DON’T TAKE REVENGE. LOOK HOW THE REVENGE OF THE FIRST PERSON HURT YOU. {I had no idea this person was jealous & sent me the curt note out of hate & anger. I had researched him, watched many hours of his work, wrote him a respectful, detailed letter, & all I got was ‘not interested.’ Another friend said ‘ouch.’ But this dream explains why the curt note, which surprises me: jealousy! I guess, then, I should be flattered.}

WHERE AM I PACKING TO GO?—HOME, BACK TO MY HEART, BACK TO GOD. TAKE WHAT I HAVE OF MY BLISS & GET OUT OF DANGER—

IT SEEMS THAT AS SOON AS WE HAVE REPARTEE WITH PEOPLE, RECEIVING THEIR BLOWS, EXCHANGING OUR OWN HUMAN FEELINGS, THE TROUBLE STARTS. NO WONDER THE SAINTS ISOLATE THEMSELVES.)

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HE PROPOSES MARRIAGE

HE PROPOSES MARRIAGE

Dream interpreted for a friend. Too see Rasa’s book on dreams, ‘Theater of the Mind,’ check Lulu & Amazon.

2-3-20-HE PROPOSES MARRIAGE-THE REAL DEAL-NO MORE HANKY-PANKY

There’s this young man I really like, but he’s with another woman. I stand around just looking at him all the time, from here or there, looking, looking. Finally I ‘give up’ as he’s paying attention only to her; I walk away & am sitting somewhere.

(I GOT TIRED OF WAITING FOR Xxx to quit the female he’s with & walked away.)

Then he leaves that female & he comes over to me.

( THIS IS A MENTAL STATE WHICH PREDICTS A PHYSICAL CHANGE IN THE FUTURE.)

He sits down on some kind of a ledge to my left a few feet from me, about 3 or 4’ above me, stretched out in a sense so I can see his body from head to toe. He’s wearing some kind of outfit that is form-fitting, clinging & there seem to be shades of green, dark & light. His body is shapely like the drawings, paintings I have which I often share on my site—(can’t think of the artist’s name, much of it spiritually/religiously inspired.)

He’s young, dark hair, nice features; the features are so beautiful they are almost feminine, like he could pass for a female if made up properly – almost.

{He reminds me of someone – who? Perhaps that coachman in ‘Upstairs-Downstairs who was so handsome a maid fell in love with him but those around him influenced by his female employer made him reject the maid. He ignored her – she hanged herself as she had ‘no one else.’ Except that guy was blonde, this one is dark.}

(THIS WAS MY LOT WHEN I WAS OBSESSIVELY ‘IN LOVE’ WITH Xxx. WHEN HE IGNORED, REJECTED ME, WOULD NOT SPEAK TO ME FOR A LONG TIME, I HAD ANXIETY ATTACKS WHICH LED TO HEART ATTACKS – IN A SENSE I DIED, BUT CAME BACK AGAIN AFTER LEAVING THIS WORLD – I REVIVED & RETURNED. AND I GOT OVER THE OBSESSION.)

Then he says something that shocks me. He says,

“DO YOU WANT A DATE WITH ME?”

As I said, I’m so shocked I’m SPEECHLESS & instead of saying yes I squeeze or pinch his ANKLE, which is right in front of me. That is my answer & he knows its yes. He then says,

“BUT ON OUR FIRST DATE, WE ARE NOT ALLOWED TO TOUCH EACH OTHER.”

At that, I want to ask him if he’s a Muslim – like they have strange customs, old fashioned, & I already broke the rule by touching his ankle. But I don’t dare ask, as if he’s Muslim it might raise some conflict or disagreement.

There was a SENSE that he’s actually asking me to marry him. But we must follow antiquated rules. No ‘touching’ as we court, & then this leads to marriage. And after marriage we can ‘touch’ which is a code word for sex.

(MEANING:

YESTERDAY Xxx PUT SOMETHING ON HIS BLOG THAT INDICATED HE KNEW GOD WAS DEALING WITH HIM, ENDING HIS PRESENT SITUATION / LIFE TO MOVE HIM FORWARD TO ANOTHER.

THAT LIFE THAT’S ENDING IS WITH THE OTHER WOMAN. HERE HE’S PRESENTING TO ME HE HAS DISCERNED THE WILL OF GOD, THAT GOD WANTS HIM TO BE WITH ME.

HE IS SAYING THAT IT’S APPROPRIATE WE NOT HAVE SEX, WE MUST END THAT SEX-ONLY AFFAIR–HE MUST PROPOSE MARRIAGE, I MUST SAY YES, THEN OLD-FASHIONED COURTSHIP, THEN WE FORM OUR BOND. IN OTHER WORDS, HE HAS SEEN THE LIGHT OR THE TRUTH & HE’S COMPLIANT WITH IT.

THE MEANING OF THE DREAM IS SAYING I WANTED HIM A LOT, BUT HE DALLIED WITH ANOTHER. I LEFT HIM & ONLY WHEN HE LOST ME, HE CAME & PROPOSED. AND HE AGREES TO A TRADITIONAL MARRIAGE, THAT IS, NOT USING ME FOR SEX—PROPOSAL, COURTSHIP, THEN MARRIAGE WITH SEX………………………………

QUESTIONS: HIS APPEARANCE, THE VOLUPTUOUS BODY, HIS BODY REVEALED NOT IN NORMAL CLOTHES BUT CLINGING ONES IN GREENS. SITTING IN FRONT OF ME A FEW FEET HIGHER TO MY LEFT. I SQUEEZE HIS ANKLE. ALL SYMBOLS THAT MEAN SOMETHING BUT WHAT?

(1) HIS APPEARANCE: THE BEAUTY–COULD HAVE A DOUBLE, TRIPLE MEANING. FIRST HE IS PHYSICALLY HANDSOME, TO AN EXTREME DEGREE.

SECOND, ‘HANDSOME IS AS HANDSOME DOES,’ HIS BEHAVIOR TO ME ISN’T UGLY ANY MORE, HE’S TURNED OVER A NEW LEAF & HAS SPIRITUAL BEAUTY, HE’S COME CLOSER TO GOD & TRUTH, HE’S ASCENDED.

THIRD, HE REMINDS ME OF THE MALE IN THE TV SERIES WHO BROKE THE MAID’S HEART & SHE DIED OF IT. THIS ALL POINTS TO ONE INDIVIDUAL.

(2) THEN, HIS VOLUPTUOUS, SHAPELY BODY, ALL OF IT REVEALED, ALL OF IT BEFORE ME. THIS MEANS HE’S NO LONGER HIDDEN, HIDING. HE IS OFFERING ME ALL OF HIMSELF, NOT PART OF HIMSELF; THERE’S NO MORE OF HIM TO GIVE. HE IS NOT GIVING SOME OF HIMSELF TO THE OTHER WIFE, SOME TO ME, HE’S FINALLY LEAVING HER & GIVING ALL TO ME.

(3) CLINGING CLOTHES IN GREENS. THIS IS LIFE REVEALED. ‘HERE IT IS—ALL OF IT.’

(4) SITTING HIGHER THAN ME, TO MY LEFT BEFORE ME. COMING FROM A HIGHER PLACE THAN HE WAS BEFORE – COMING FROM ‘HEAVEN’ SO TO SPEAK OR HIS ‘ASCENDED, IMPROVED SPIRITUAL STATE.’ HE IS SAYING ‘I ACCEPT YOUR TERMS, THE TERMS OF RELATIONSHIP BEFORE SEX—YOU WERE RIGHT. DO YOU WANT ME?’

(5) SQUEEZING OR PINCHING HIS ANKLE INSTEAD OF SPEAKING – I’M SPEECHLESS. ANKLE COULD REPRESENT PENIS. IT SEEMS FAR-FETCHED BUT A ‘THIRD LEG’ IS WHEN A MAN HAS A LARGE PENIS YOU SAY ‘HE HAS THREE LEGS.’ THIS MIGHT BE A HINT OR WITTICISM ‘YES, I WANT YOUR PENIS—YOUR PENIS IS SO BIG IT HANGS ALL THE WAY TO YOUR ANKLE.’ IT’S A JOKE YET IT’S TRUE IN A HUMOROUS WAY & I SAY YES IN THAT WAY………………………………BEING SPEECHLESS IS WHEN SOMETHING HAPPENS YOU REALLY WANTED BUT LOST HOPE—YOU’RE SPEECHLESS………….THIS DREAM IS AN ANSWER TO PRAYER ABOUT THE POST ON HIS BLOG – THIS IS WHAT IT MEANS. HE’S TALKING TO YOU, HE’S PROPOSING MARRIAGE, THE REAL DEAL. NO MORE HANKY—PANKY.)

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SPIRITUAL MARVELS

SPIRITUAL MARVELS

1-30-20-SEARCH 4 BOOK-Dream confirms I’m in the state of Advaita, I am one with my God Self.

IMP: TWO SOULS ASCEND!

IMP: FOUR SOULS ENTER NONDUALITY!

IMP: A YOUNG MONK OR PRIEST IS HELPED WITH HIS VOW OF CELIBACY.

I’m in a room, plain & simple, nothing in it – no bathroom, nothing.

(THIS IS THE PRISTINE GOD-SELF, UNCLUTTERED, EMPTY, PEACEFUL CONTENTED WITHOUT ANYTHING ATTACHED, THE MANTRA BEING ‘I’M NOT ATTACHED TO ANYTHING OR ANYONE’……I WAS RECITING THIS LAST NIGHT.

LATER IT WILL SAY THERE’S A PICTURE WINDOW BUT NOTHING ELSE, NO BATHROOM, NO FURNITURE, NO NOTHING. THIS IS A SERENE STATE OF CONSCIOUSNESS WHERE NOTHING INVADES ONE’S MIND. THE PICTURE WINDOW WOULD BE PROBABLY THE VISION OF GOD OR ‘SEEING AS GOD SEES’-SEEING LIFE FROM GOD’S EYES OR THE GOD-SELF’S POV.)

I hear a knock on the door. I think it’s my little daughter because she & I checked in here – it’s a hotel or motel.

I go to the door & say ‘Kellie?’ No answer. I say it again – no answer.

I open the door & she stands there, looking the size of a four year old yet there’s something about her that’s more mature.

(KELLIE IS MY FLESH. WHEN IT’S LITTLE LIKE THIS IT MEANS ‘I’M’ HUMBLE. HER KNOCKING ON THE DOOR IS SHE WANTS TO FIND UNION WITH ME (I AM GOD WITHIN)—SEEKING ENTRANCE TO THE GOD-SELF.

‘SHE’ DOES NOT ANSWER TO HER NAME BECAUSE ‘SHE’ HAS RENOUNCED HERSELF – THE LOWER SELF, THE EGO. IN OTHER WORDS, SHE ISN’T ‘THERE.’

IF SHE ISN’T ‘THERE’ & ENTERS INTO ‘MY ROOM’ OR IS WITH ME, MEANS SHE IS WITH THE GOD-SELF IN CONSCIOUSNESS, MEANS SHE IS IN THE STATE OF ADVAITA OR NONDUALITY – MY FLESH & I ARE TOGETHER, OR IN OTHER WORDS, I AM ONE WITH GOD. (That’s a relief as I wasn’t sure what consciousness I was in. This confirms it, whoopee.)

I hear a knock on the door. I think it’s my little daughter because she & I checked in here – it’s a hotel or motel.

I go to the door & say ‘Kellie?’ No answer. I say it again – no answer.

I open the door & she stands there, looking the size of a four year old yet there’s something about her that’s more mature.

(KELLIE IS MY FLESH. WHEN IT’S LITTLE LIKE THIS IT MEANS ‘I’M’ HUMBLE. HER KNOCKING ON THE DOOR IS SHE WANTS TO FIND UNION WITH ME (I AM GOD WITHIN)—SEEKING ENTRANCE TO THE GOD-SELF.

‘SHE’ DOES NOT ANSWER TO HER NAME BECAUSE ‘SHE’ HAS RENOUNCED HERSELF – THE LOWER SELF, THE EGO. IN OTHER WORDS, SHE ISN’T ‘THERE.’

IF SHE ISN’T ‘THERE’ & ENTERS INTO ‘MY ROOM’ OR IS WITH ME, MEANS SHE IS WITH THE GOD-SELF IN CONSCIOUSNESS, MEANS SHE IS IN THE STATE OF ADVAITA OR NONDUALITY – MY FLESH & I ARE TOGETHER, OR IN OTHER WORDS, I AM ONE WITH GOD. (That’s a relief as I wasn’t sure what consciousness I was in. This confirms it, whoopee.)

THEY ARE BLACK IN A MORE UNUSUAL MEANING OF THE SYMBOL – THAT OF MYSTERY. I HAVE DREAMS, THEY ARE A MYSTERY, MY WORK IS INTERPRETING THEM. MY GOD SELF IS SAYING LOOK HOW LITTLE IT TAKES TO MAKE YOU HAPPY – JUST INTERPRETING DREAMS.

PULLING THIS ‘OUT OF THE CLOSET’ ARE WHAT’S IN A CLOSET IS SOMETIMES SECRET. RASA/FLESH IS TAKING THESE DREAMS OUT OF THE CLOSET – THEY WERE ENCASED IN SECRECY – & EXPLAINING, BRINGING THEIR MEANING INTO THE OPEN.)

I’m walking around here doing things, wondering where the bathroom is – is it down the hall?—when magically the door opens & on the other side of the hall are two men in white v-necked t-shirts (simple clothing) with perhaps grey or beige khaki pants– & I know THEY ARE THE OWNERS so they have the keys to all the doors here & can open them any time they want – they’re standing slightly left, one might be partially bald or receding hairline–& they are standing tentatively, kind of one behind the other, not wanting to bother or intrude, but they were concerned & they ask,

“ARE YOU OK?”

(WHO ARE THESE OWNERS? THEIR CLOTHING – WHITE TOPS – IS THEIR PURITY OF HEART – (THE T-SHIRTS GO OVER THE HEART) – “THE PURE IN HEART SHALL SEE GOD.”

THIS STATEMENT I JUST SAID HINTS THESE TWO MEN ARE SEEING GOD. THEY COULD BE IN HEAVEN OR ON EARTH, BUT THEY ARE SEEING GOD – THEY ARE SAINTS. THE V-NECK FOR SURE IS VICTORY – THEY ARE VICTORIOUS IN THEIR SPIRITS, WHICH COULD MEAN ON EARTH OR IN HEAVEN.

THE TWO MEN, THE BIG HINT IS ONE IS STANDING IN FRONT OF THE OTHER. THE ONE IN FRONT IS A TEACHER, BEHIND HIM IS RAMANA MAHARSHI, WHOSE GOSPEL HE REPRESENTS.

BUT THIS TEACHER, WHOM I CONTACT, LOOKS WORRIED. HIS RECEEDING HAIRLINE, GREY HAIR SHOWS ANXIETY. HE’S AFRAID. I CONTACTED ABOUT WORKING TOGETHER & HE SAID NO. THIS PREDICTS IT.

THIS SAYS THEY CAN GAIN ACCESS TO MY STATE {ROOM} ANY TIME THEY WANT BECAUSE THEY ARE OWNERS & HAVE THE KEYS. THIS MEANS THEY ARE BOTH IN NONDUALITY, AS THEY ‘OWN’ THIS BUILDING {STATE} & HAVE “THE KEYS” {TO THE STATE}.

HOW DOES THIS THEN ASSURE ME THEY ARE IN NONDUALITY? BECAUSE OF THINGS RAMANA MAHARSHI SAID. HE SAID ‘IT TAKES ONE TO KNOW ONE.’ HE SAID IF YOU ARE A JNANI {ASCENDED SOUL}, YOU KNOW ANOTHER JNANI, ONLY THOSE WHO ARE THERE KNOW WHEN ANOTHER IS THERE, THEY KNOW THE STATE, THEY RECOGNIZE IT, THEY HAVE ACCESS TO IT…….

Xxxx ALSO MENTIONED THAT YOU CANNOT ESTIMATE, JUDGE OR MEASURE A PERSON BY OUTSIDE APPEARANCE, THOSE WHO SEEM GOOD, KIND & HOLY SOMETIMES DON’T HAVE ‘IT’ (THE STATE OF ADVAITA OR BEING ‘ONE’ WITH GOD) BUT OTHERS WHO SEEM LIKE STRANGE EGGS INDEED ARE IN THE STATE.

OK, SO HERE IN THIS DREAM THESE GUYS ‘HAVE IT,’–THEY OWN THE STATE {PREMISES} – THEY HAVE THE KEYS {ABILITY TO OPEN THE DOOR, THE LOCK, GET INTO THE STATE, SEE SOMEONE IN THE STATE.} THEY CAN OPEN ANY DOOR IN THE BUILDING BECAUSE THEY OWN THE BUILDING MEANS THEY CAN SEE INTO THE SOUL OF ANY PERSON IN THIS STATE BECAUSE THEY HAVE THE STATE.

What they mean is are we OK in the room – do we have what we want & need? And I say YES. (Again, there is so little here, almost nothing, but me just being here, looking out the front picture window, having nothing, but daughter & I are both fine….they were concerned.)

(THIS ANSWERS THE QUESTION OF WHAT DO I-WE NEED? ONLY GOD & HER WILL, DOING HER WORK, DOING WHAT SHE WANTS. THAT IS NONDUALITY – ONE WITH THE WILL OF GOD.)

Now two new people are in the room. One’s a female & she has no pants on, is lying around & I can see her vagina prominently.

Then a handsome young male appears in the room in the same way – no pants (I was thinking could I snag him for a date later on?). He seems to have a book in his hands & as he lies around I also see a vagina prominently on him, not a penis! I’m wondering about that, as you can imagine.

(MY INNER VOICE TELLS ME THESE ARE SOULS IN PURGATORY, READY TO ASCEND, ONE MALE, ONE FEMALE, BOTH ARE PARTIALLY NAKED WITH VAGINAS. THE NAKEDNESS COULD BE ‘NAKED’ OR ‘OPEN’ ‘BEFORE THE LORD. THE VAGINAS REPRESENT PASSIVENESS, WHICH WE ALL ARE TO THE POWER OF GOD – GOD LIFTS US UP TO PERFECTION, WE CANNOT DO IT OF THE FLESH. WHEN WE’RE CLEANSED OF ALL NEGATIVES, WE RISE UP. OUR JOB IS GETTING CLEANSED OF SINS, THEN FAULTS, THEN ATTACHMENTS. WHEN WE ARE DONE THE POWER OF GOD PULLS US INTO GLORY.

THE YOUNG MALE BEING ‘HANDSOME’ SYMBOLIZES THE BEAUTY THAT HAPPENS AFTER WE’RE CLEANSED & ASSIMILATED TO GOD, OR OUR GOD NATURE IS REVEALED.

I AM NOT CERTAIN WHO THESE SOULS ARE–I MADE A GOOD GUESS. SOMETIMES ONE WILL NOT FIGURE WHAT SYMBOLS MEAN BUT DAYS, WEEKS LATER.)

Then a knock on the door, I answer. In walk two males, two females, all young & attractive. The females are wearing light green bikinis, they say,

“WE WANT TO TAKE PICTURES.”

The two females seem similar, like they both have sort of ‘textured’ not combed smooth, slightly ‘stringy’ but not ugly hair to their shoulders, the color kind of charcoal grey. They remind me of the images of Brigitte Bardot in bikinis when she was real young. The men also look similar. They just stride in, all four like in a row, faces forward, no smiles, not looking at me, just matter of fact. By their clothing I am wondering is it summer or winter? I thought it was winter.

Then I look down at my outfit. Am I wearing a white, clinging see-through top & brown knitted clinging pants? My outfit somehow seems so CONSERVATIVE compared to the two females in the bikinis & this WORRIES me because will anyone be attracted to me this way?

(THIS SAYS ‘AM I GOOD ENOUGH-BEAUTIFUL OR APPEALING’ COMPARED WITH THESE GREAT-LOOKING SOULS THAT JUST CAME IN, THEY HAVE ALSO BEEN CLEANSED IT SEEMS, THEIR BEAUTY SAYS SO. {The comparison to Brigitte Bardot says so, she was one of the most beautiful women on earth.}

THE CHARCOAL HAIR IS ‘BURNT UP’ THOUGHTS – THEY HAVE GIVEN UP EARTHLY THOUGHTS, THEY HAVE ENTERED THE GOD SELF! THESE MUST BE PEOPLE ON EARTH. I ONLY STARTED YESTERDAY PRAYING FOR PEOPLE TO ENTER NONDUALITY! I CAN’T BELIEVE MY PRAYERS WORKED SO FAST, THEY ONLY TOOK A COUPLE MINUTES! BUT Xxx SAYS WHEN HE WAS IN THE PRESENCE OF THE GURUS HE MET – – HE HAD BEEN WORKING FOR YEARS ON MEDITATION & THOUGHT HE WAS WAY AHEAD. BUT ONE LOOK FROM THE GURU LEAPED HIM FORWARD INSTANTLY.

THIS IS SAYING MY LITTLE PRAYER BROUGHT THESE SOULS ‘INTO MY STATE’ OR ROOM – THE STATE OF NONDUALITY, I AM THEIR GURU WHO JUST LOOKED AT THEM.

{ENTERING NONDUALITY & ASCENDING INTO HEAVEN FROM PURGATORY ARE COMPARABLE STATES. YOU BECOME ONE WITH GOD ON EARTH OR ON THE OTHER SIDE, WHILE IN THE BODY OR HAVING LEFT THE BODY.}

NOTICE THEY ARE NOT LOOKING AT ME, BUT I’M LOOKING AT THEM! THEY DON’T KNOW WHO I AM, BUT I’M PRAYING FOR THEM!

THE FACT THAT THEY ‘WANT TO TAKE PICTURES’ INDICATES THEY FEEL LIKE MODELS – THEY FEEL GOOD ABOUT THEMSELVES, THAT THEY ARE GOOD ENOUGH. THIS IS SPIRITUAL BEAUTY.

AGAIN, THESE FIGURES ARE MYSTERIOUS. I’M MAKING EDUCATED GUESSES; I’M NOT TOTALLY SURE WHO THEY ARE.)

There is this underlying thought when I see these handsome males I think of snagging them for sex. Can I? I ask hesitantly.

(I THINK THE SEX I TALK ABOUT IN THIS DREAM IS NOT PHYSICAL SEX, IT’S SPIRITUAL UNION. MANY YEARS AGO I HAD HUNDREDS OF DREAMS OF BEING A PROSTITUTE. I WOULD PICK UP MEN, TAKE THEM TO A ROOM SOMEWHERE & MAKE LOVE. THESE WERE ECSTATIC UNIONS, THEY WERE OF GOD. THEY WERE SOULS IN PURGATORY I UNITED WITH MYSELF & THEY ASCENDED INTO HEAVEN.

NOTICE IN THIS DREAM, THE PLAIN ROOM IS MY GOD STATE, MY LITTLE DAUGHTER ENTERS IT. THEN TWO OTHER PEOPLE APPEAR, THEY HAVE ENTERED MY STATE. THEN FOUR PEOPLE APPEAR, THEY HAVE ENTERED MY STATE {ROOM}. THIS IS THE JNANI-GURU, WHO WITH ONE LOOK INCREASES THE SPIRITUALITY OF THE CLIENT.

AND RAMANA MAHARSHI DESCRIBED THAT A JNANI DOES NOT HAVE TO PRAY. YOU GO TO HIM WITH A PROBLEM & IT IS SOLVED. HE DOESN’T DO ANYTHING IN PARTICULAR – DOESN’T HAVE TO. {NOT SAYING YOU CAN’T, JUST SAYING IT HAPPENS INSTANTLY IN MANY CASES.}

THIS HAS HAPPENED TO ME NUMEROUS TIMES & I EXPLAINED IT AS ‘THE ANOINTING GOES TO THE PERSON INSTANTLY EVEN IF I DO NOTHING – NO PRAYER, NOTHING – & SUDDENLY, THEY TELL ME THEIR PROBLEM WAS SOLVED, BE IT THEY HAD CANCER, A TROUBLESOME MAN ANNOYING THEM, A GRANDCHILD WITH A STATE NEEDING SURGERY—ETC.

HERE IS THE TRICKY PART: HOW DO I KNOW WHICH SOULS ARE LIVING & WHICH ONES ARE IN PURGATORY? THE FIRST SET, A MALE & FEMALE, BOTH WITH VAGINAS, SOUNDS LIKE SO MANY SOULS I’VE SEEN GO TO HEAVEN AS FEMALE. THE FACT THAT THEY ARE ‘LYING DOWN’ ON THE FLOOR MIGHT HINT THAT THEY ARE ‘DOWN’—‘LYING IN THEIR COFFIN’ OR THEIR BODIES ARE ‘AT REST’ {REST IN PEACE.} BUT IT’S NOT A CERTAINTY.

THEY MIGHT ALL BE SOULS IN PURGATORY, BUT YESTERDAY WAS THE FIRST TIME, DURING MY MASS, THAT I ASKED FOR LIVING SOULS TO ENTER INTO NONDUALITY. I HAD NEVER MADE THAT PRAYER BEFORE. AND THE SECOND SET FEELS THAT WAY, LIKE MY DISCERNMENT SAYS ‘THIS SOUNDS LIKE LIVING PEOPLE.’ BUT I AM NOT 100% SURE, MAYBE 75% SURE.

THESE FOUR SOULS ARE WALKING IN, SO COMPARED TO THE ONES ‘LYING DOWN’ IT MIGHT SAY ‘THEY ARE ‘WALKING THE EARTH’.)

===== PART TWO OF THE DREAM: GOING OUT OF THE ROOM – APPEARING AT A USED BOOK STORE

Then my daughter & I want to go out & have fun. I was thinking of going ‘downtown’ to bars, vaguely. But on the way there’s a USED BOOK STORE – I strongly want to get a book there, but the thought daunts me WHAT IF IT’S CLOSED? That would GREATLY disappoint me.

The store is on a corner, I climb up a set of stairs. The building I vaguely think is brick. The store looks closed, but I try the door knob anyway, the joy be mine, it opens. I feel it was open JUST FOR ME possibly BY MAGIC.

(THIS STORE OPENING BY MAGIC IS THE COMPUTER. THE STORE NEVER CLOSES, I CAN MAGICALLY OPEN MY STOREFRONT @ LULU, AMAZON OR OTHER PLACES, I CAN ACCESS MY WEBSITES, BLOGS & ETC. ALWAYS OPEN!)

When I go in with my daughter, it’s kind of dim. Yes, it’s closed, but I was allowed by Divine Providence, to go in. It’s a modest place, very plain, nothing fancy. Ordinary carpets, remind me of the first apt I lived in in Santa Monica – the beginning of my adult life.

(THIS IS MY BOOKS & WRITINGS. WHAT WAS I WORRIED ABOUT IT BEING CLOSED? THIS COULD BE THAT FEAR I HAVE THAT WHEN I DIE, NO ONE WILL CONTINUE SELLING MY BOOKS. IT’S NOT THE MONEY; IT’S THE MISSION I CARE ABOUT.)

There are low shelves here & there – they don’t even have a lot of books, only about two or three hundred I’d say. I was looking for a certain book, when I got it I would leave a note saying I had it – was not trying to steal it. Now I get the feeling of a LIBRARY—borrowing their book, letting them know I did with a note.

(I AM LOOKING FOR A BOOK PROBABLY MEANS I AM RESEARCHING A CERTAIN SUBJECT, WANT KNOWLEDGE ON IT.)

While I’m there something amazing happens. People see me in the store I guess through the windows. The first bunch is not too swift. Some of them are mixed-race women that give me the feeling of being too much in the flesh, not socialized also, one woman wears a cone on her face – light green cardboard that is folded around her chin, about a foot long, her skin is mulatto with freckles, & somehow she & her group I fear might be making a mess in the room.

I’m concerned about the owners – I opened the door & so people came – my influence – if it’s bringing in people that will make a mess that would be on my conscience.

(I’M CONCERNED ABOUT ANYTHING LOW-MINDED MAKING A MESS. THIS WOULD MESS UP THEIR MINDS OR CONSCIOUSNESS. WE WANT TO KEEP A HIGH LEVEL HERE. I WANT TO HELP, NOT HURT PEOPLE. WE DON’T WANT THEM TO STAY IN THEIR LOWER NATURE BUT TO LIFT THEM UP.)

Other people come in as well, & then, because the place has become lively, the two female owners come in.

One of them looks like Patti, who has been reading my book on the Beatific Vision. Her hair is honey blonde, glasses, middle aged, conservative. Both the owners are that age, conservative women,

(THE TWO WOMEN OWNERS ARE MYSELF UNDER TWO NAMES, ONE, RASA VON WERDER, THE OTHER, KELLIE EVERTS. HERE I’M SPEAKING TO RASA, SEEN AS PATTI, WHO IS READING THE BOOK UNDER THE NAME RASA. I DON’T SEE THE OTHER OWNER, KELLIE, BECAUSE WE ARE TALKING ABOUT SPIRITUAL BOOKS, THE KELLIE BOOKS ARE LESS ON SPIRITUALITY.)

& later, when I ask a question about bringing in my books – boxes & boxes of them from my collection, that I’m not reading (they can sell them, I did not ask for any of the money) – the one I’ll call Patti says she doesn’t know if the ‘BIG LADY’ will approve. (This is a lady who actually owns the store, somehow is the Chief, they are renting from her, but she’s the Boss. I know these two women are poor. I’m trying to help.)

(THE BIG LADY FOR SURE IS MOTHER GOD WHO IS MY BOSS OVER EVERYTHING.

THESE BOOKS ARE ‘USED’ MEANS THEY ARE USEFUL – THEY ARE NOT JUST SITTING ON SHELVES DOING NOTHING, THEY ARE HELPING PEOPLE.

I’M NOW REFERRING TO ‘BOXES & BOXES’ OF BOOKS THAT I AM ‘NOT USING-DON’T NEED’ – THEY ARE NOT VALUABLE TO ME, SO I AM GOING TO BRING THEM HERE, GET RID OF THEM, MAKE MORE SPACE IN MY HOUSE, & THEY CAN MAKE SOME MONEY.

BUT PATTI’S ATTITUDE IS THAT MOTHER GOD DOES NOT WANT MY PRISTINE COLLECTION OF WORK TO BE CONTAMINATED BY SECULAR NON-SPIRITUAL MATERIAL.

THE ISSUE OF SELLING THEM FOR MONEY WOULD NOT EXCUSE THE PRESENCE OF SUCH BOOKS HERE. PATTI OR THE HIGHEST LEVEL, TURNS HER BACK ON ME WHEN I SUGGEST THIS. SHE SAYS NO. MOTHER GOD WOULDN’T LIKE IT. IT HAS TO BE LIKE THAT IMAGE OF THE ANGEL – PURE GOLD, PURE LOVE, NOTHING LESS THAN THAT.

I argue with her, like why not? But she goes onto the porch just outside – it has no railing – & stands there with her back to me, like the subject is finished – I’m still talking but don’t think she’s listening.

(THE BALCONY WITH NO RAILING IS A ‘PLATFORM.’ REMEMBER, SHE IS SAYING, WE HAVE A PLATFORM, A POSITION, A POINT OF VIEW, WHICH MUST BE HONORED.)

This reminds me (her standing there) of the image I put recently where way top (at least 10 floors up) on some kind of building is a beautiful angel sitting on the ledge looking out over a city. The angel & everything around it is panted gold, gold everywhere, it’s a beautiful glowing look, & the view down to the city is amazing—it’s night & the whole city is lit up with golden lights.

She then asks me what kind of book am I looking for? I tell her HINDU ADVAITA.

She bends down by a small shelf – most of their shelves go no higher than the waist – I look all around the room, this one is like a bureau which is no more than two, three feet off the floor. She looks through this but cannot find a book on the subject. The fact that I knew my subject specifically, what it was, what I wanted, was good, but I don’t see her finding such a book.

(THIS MIGHT BE SAYING I HAVE YET TO WRITE A BOOK ON HINDU ADVAITA, EXPLAINING IT. THEIR VERSION IS SO CONFUSING, HARDLY ANY WESTERNER CAN UNDERSTAND IT. I’VE COMPLAINED ABOUT THE TRANSLATIONS. I WAS THINKING OF WORKING OUT THE HINDU ADVAITA INTO LANGUAGE WE OF THE WEST CAN RELATE TO. I BELIEVE MOST OF THE PEOPLE WHO TRANSLATED THESE WORDS DID NOT GET THEM RIGHT BECAUSE THEY DID NOT UNDERSTAND CHRISTIAN MYSTICISM, ITS TERMS, BUT I DO, & SO, I MIGHT HELP WITH THAT. IN OTHER WORDS, YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND CHRISTIAN MYSTICISM TO SHOW WHERE THE PARALLELS ARE WITH THAT & THE EASTERN TERMS.)

Then I’m looking for a bathroom, walking around the floor of this building. I thought I saw one with a naked guy standing in it, a student of the local University I felt, & I quickly left. But then I go back, it’s a couple rooms back, because I really wanted to see him. Then I take a better look at him instead of being shy & walking away.

He’s stark naked, nice thin body like most of the boy students have. He walks toward me smiling & as he does so, I look where his penis would be & all I see is a fuzzy grey spot like a small, translucent wad of wool or a little medium grey cloud, about 3” in diameter. Don’t see any penis. This surprised me.

(WHO IS THIS LAST, MYSTERIOUS NAKED SOUL WITH ONLY A SMALL CLOUD WHERE THE PENIS WOULD BE? I SUSPECT IT’S A YOUNG MALE, MAYBE A MONK OR CANDIDATE FOR PRIEST, JUST STARTING OUT, WHO’S TAKEN A PROMISE OF CELIBACY.

THIS BATHROOM IS AN EXTENSION OF THE ‘STORE’ WHICH REPRESENTS MY WORK. THIS COULD BE SAYING THAT SUCH A YOUNG MAN, INSPIRED BY MY CELIBACY, WANTS TO DO THE SAME. HIS NAKEDNESS IS HIS HONESTY, VULNERABILITY BEFORE GOD, A GOOD SOUL.

THERE’S BEEN GREAT TIDINGS IN THIS DREAM. AND I THOUGHT IT WAS ORDINARY & WASN’T EVEN GOING TO TYPE IT OUT! WOW!

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FISHER OF MEN

1-26-20-FISHER OF MEN-MY YOU TUBE VIDEOS

DREAM:

There’s a huge piece of cloth, like an entire bolt, unraveled, & I’ve made a sort of large ‘pom pom’ out of it & am using it as part of my ‘costume’ or outfit on the air. It has some sort of round baubles decorating it, interspersed here & there, like pearls but bigger, more like small Xmas tree ornaments – yellow or gold.

I also have glamorous cleavage. Now I’ve finished my video talk, turn away from the camera & am trying to organize the net.

It is lying there in a bundle. I had to sort of cut many pieces now it’s lying there rumpled up.

I ask people things but no one seems to be in charge or responding, so I figure, OK, I’ll cut it into squares, put it into a neat pile, & that is that. I’m smiling, I’m happy.

MEANING:

THE NET WITH GOLD OR YELLOW BAUBLES SEEMS TO BE IMPORTANT.

A NET WOULD BE A SIEVE OR FISHING NET OR A SPIDER’S WEB – SOMETHING BY WHICH TO CATCH.

IN THE CONTEXT OF THIS DREAM I FEEL THE NET IS A ‘FISHING NET’ THAT CATCHES MANY FISH. THE FISH ARE REPRESENTED BY THE BAUBLES WITHIN THE NET – PEOPLE WHO LOVE ME (I HAVE CAUGHT THEM IN MY NET.)

THEY BEING FISH ARE PEOPLE I HAVE CAUGHT FOR GOD. JESUS SAID TO PETER,

“I WILL MAKE YOU FISHERS OF MEN.”

THE STRIKING CLEAVAGE IS OF COURSE MEN LIKE MY BREASTS, BUT IT IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN THAT, THEY REPRESENT MY LOVE. I SYMBOLIZE LOVE; I AM DOING THESE VIDEOS OUT OF GOD’S LOVE.

HOW AM I DEALING WITH THE NET AT THE END?

CUTTING THE NET INTO ‘SQUARES’ IS I MADE A BOOK OUT OF MY SPEECHES. THE SQUARES ARE THE PAGES OF THE BOOK. IN OTHER WORDS, THE ‘NET’ MATERIAL IS NOW BOOK MATERIAL. IT’S A BOOK OUT OF MY YOU TUBE VIDEOS.

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DREAM PREDICTS LOVE

THE ACTOR WHO WILL GO WITH ME @ THE END OF THE DAY

1-26-20-Dream interpreted for a friend

This answers a prayer ‘Give me something positive about my male friend Bryun, something honest, truthful, not wishful thinking but happy, re now &/or the future.’

I’m in a building where I go by a large office & peeking in, I think I see an actor friend of mine who’s in the middle of doing a scene. There is some ‘fuzzy’ light around him.

(I SEE AN ACTOR: SEE A MAN DOING A PART, POSSIBLY PRETENDING RATHER THAN SOMETHING ‘FROM THE HEART.’

FUZZY LIGHT COULD BE HIS POV, PERSPECTIVE. HE’S ON STAGE BUT THE LIGHT IS NOT CLEAR, A FUZZY LIGHT COULD BE SAYING ‘THIS CAN’T WORK BECAUSE THE AUDIENCE CAN’T SEE WELL.’ IT MIGHT MEAN ‘DISHONEST PERFORMANCE.’)

I wait outside until the scene is over; I walk in & say to someone who might be in charge,

(I SPEAK TO SOMEONE WHO MIGHT BE IN CHARGE: LAST NIGHT I CHANNELED MY BF’S GOD-SELF. HIS GOD PART WAS PRETTY DISGRUNTLED WITH HIS BEHAVIOR/LIFESTYLE –

REMINDS ME OF THIS STATUE I’VE SEEN IN A MEME WHERE A SMALL ANGEL IS DOING A BIG PUNCH IN THE AIR—A MAN GETS UNDER HIS FIST & SAYS ‘THIS IS WHEN YOUR GUARDIAN ANGEL HAS HAD ENOUGH OF YOUR SHYT.’)

“Oh, I thought this was a friend of mine, an actor I know, but now that I come closer I see it isn’t him.”

(‘IT ISN’T HIM’ MEANS THIS IS ‘NOT THE MAN I KNEW’ OR HE ISN’T ACTING LIKE HE USED TO.)

The man looks happy; he has light brown-reddish hair framing his face with mustache & beard. As I come closer he’s different than my friend, not as handsome & slightly chubby.

(‘HE LOOKS HAPPY’ & REDDISH HAIR ARE OPPOSITES. THE HAIR SAYS PAIN, THE ‘LOOKS HAPPY’ COULD BE DECEIVING—HE’S PRETENDING HAPPINESS. HIS PERSONALITY TO THE PUBLIC IS HE HASN’T A CARE IN THE WORLD, HAPPY-GO-LUCKY—BUT IN REAL LIFE I’VE ALWAYS KNOWN IT’S AN ACT, PRETENDING TO HIMSELF AS WELL AS THE PUBLIC.

I ALSO DON’T RECOGNIZE HIM WITH THE MUSTACHE & BEARD IS THAT AFTER OUR INITIAL DATE, I DID NOT SEE HIM FOR A LONG TIME. I MET HIM WITH LONG CURLY HAIR, CLEAN SHAVEN. YEARS LATER HE APPEARS WITH A CREW CUT, MUSTACHE & BEARD, ON THIS DATE I DON’T KNOW HE’S THE SAME MAN.

BUT THERE IS A SECOND INTERPRETATION OF THE MUSTACHE & BEARD – IT’S A DISGUISE, A MASK, THE WAY GUYS PUT ON SANTA CLAUS BEARDS.

BEING CHUBBY IS GETTING FAT WITH IN THIS CONTEXT, THE FOOD OF THE WORLD. TAKING A FAT PERSON TO HEAVEN IS IMPOSSIBLE, IT’S LIKE THE RICH MAN ENTERING HEAVEN ‘THROUGH THE EYE OF A NEEDLE.’ HE HAS TOO MANY BURDENS OR POSSESSIONS – THE EYE OF A NEEDLE WAS ACTUALLY A GATE JESUS REFERRED TO, WHICH WAS SO NARROW THAT A FULLY-LOADED CAMEL COULD NOT GET THROUGH—YOU HAD TO TAKE OFF SOME OF HIS BAGGAGE. I SUSPECT THIS CONTEXT BECAUSE IT ALSO SAYS HE ISN’T AS HANDSOME AS THE MAN I KNEW – HE HAS SUNK DOWN SPIRITUALLY. HANDSOME OR BEAUTY IS THE SOUL. )

The feeling here is ‘auditioning’ for a part, trying out a part, being tested, but this is all vague, I just know he’s an actor doing something. Oh yes, I do add this,

“My friend was trying to get ahead but he couldn’t get anywhere.”

To this the manager rather agrees like,

“Yes we know, they all try but fail.”

(THIS IS THE SAME MAN, I WILL UNDERSTAND LATER, & I AM REFERRING TO THE MAN I KNEW WHO IS NONE OTHER THAN THIS MAN. IT’S SAYING THAT HE TRIED, IS TRYING, TO GET SOMEWHERE, BUT HE’S FAILED & WILL CONTINUE TO DO SO. HE THINKS & HOPES HE’LL SUCCEED—WHEN I CHANNELED HIS GOD SELF IT SAID HE WILL FAIL AT WHAT HE’S TRYING TO DO, HE’S WASTING HIS TIME.)

Finished with this episode, I go out the back door of this imposing grey building (it is a beautiful building & has trees around near it, a suburb, not a city.

I walk out the back entrance & as I go to the other side of it I see it has more of a ‘front’ entrance & from here that actor boy comes out with his friends. I am ‘bumping into him’ it seems more than anticipated. He’s wearing a long light brown Cashmere-style coat with white underneath. There’s light all around him, his friends, this entrance.

(CASHMERE-STYLE COAT WITH WHITE UNDERNEATH: CASHMERE IS A GOAT, THE FINEST, MOST EXPENSIVE FLEET, IT’S LIGHT BROWN & LONG. IF IT WAS PLAIN WOOL I’D SAY HE’S BEING SUBMISSIVE (SHEEP) BUT GOATS REPRESENT THE OPPOSITE: REBELLION. ON THE OUTSIDE HE IS REBELLIOUS TO OUR RELATIONSHIP, BUT INSIDE, THE WHITE AGAINST HIS SKIN, CHEST/HEART SAYS ‘I AM READY FOR MARRIAGE.’ INSIDE HE IS READY, ON THE OUTSIDE IT’S HIDDEN.

THERE HAS TO BE A MEANING TO THIS IMPOSING BUILDING, IT’S LIKE AN INSTITUTION, A MUSEUM, BUT OLD-FASHIONED. IT’S GREY STONE, BIG TREES AROUND, TWO ENTRANCE/EXITS BATHED IN LIGHT.

MY INNER VOICE CALLS IT A ‘MAUSOLEUM’. I ASK WHY, THE ANSWER IS:

THE DEAD PAST, A BURIAL PLACE, WHAT IS FINISHED.

LIKE WHEN SCROOGE ASKED THE SPIRIT WHAT IS THIS?– THE LONG PAST? & SPIRIT SAID, ‘YOUR PAST.’

THIS CLUE IS SAYING THE PART; THE LIFE BRYUN IS LIVING NOW WILL SOON BE OVER. I EXIT THIS PLACE (THIS LIFE SITUATION) ONE WAY, HE EXITS THE OTHER, & WE MEET, & HE WILL GIVE ME A MESSAGE, SEEN AT THE VERY END.)

Now I’m in trouble as I must get home, I’m in a strange neighborhood with no friends, no transportation, except one thing – the subway train.

I go there & the subway is the last type of venue I want to take (not sure why—maybe it’s not safe) but since I have no alternative I ask people about the schedule.

One lady there does help me out. She tells me the last train out is at 5:25 & it’s now 5am, make sure you don’t miss it she says, & she also writes down for me on a small slip of paper in large letters, numbers. They are something like 19/?/? But this is extremely vague, I might have the numbers wrong, but they give directions.

I bump into the actor again & I commend the lady, saying how important she was to me, she gave me directions to get home.

(GETTING HOME IN THIS CONTEXT IS GETTING TO ONE’S GOAL, WHERE THEIR HEART IS ‘HOME IS WHERE THE HEART IS.’ THE LADY IS MOTHER GOD WITHIN ME PROBABLY.

HOW DO I GET TO WHERE I WANT TO GO, WHICH WAS HINTED AT IN THE BEGINNING, LOOKING FOR MY ACTOR FRIEND. HOW DO I FIND HIM & GET WITH HIM? HOW DO I BEGIN OUR SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP?

I DON’T WANT TO TAKE THE LOWER ROUTE – SYMBOLIZED BY THE SUBWAY. THIS ROUTE DOES NOT SEEM TO BE IDEAL, BUT I SAY IN THE DREAM I HAVE NO ALTERNATIVE.

A LADY, WHO IS NO DOUBT MOTHER GOD, HELPS ME & GIVES DIRECTIONS. SAYS NOT TO MISS THE TRAIN—THERE’S ONE LEFT TONIGHT. NOT SURE WHAT THAT MEANS, SOUNDS OMINOUS LIKE ONE LAST CHANCE. THAT COULD BE NO MORE THAN A FEAR EXPRESSED.)

Now once again I’m standing with the actor with his friends near him—it’s where I noticed his clothes, his coat. We seem to be back at the spot where he exited the building, there again, talking. He seems interested in his friends & I ask him where he’s going & with whom, & he says, smiling,

“I’M GOING WITH YOU.”

(WE HAD A CLICHÉ WHEN WE WERE GOING STEADY. I’D ASK HIM WHAT HE WAS DOING TONIGHT & HE’D SAY, LIKE THE 2^ND DATE ‘BEING WITH YOU.’ THEN HE’D ASK ME & I’D SAY THE SAME THING. IT WAS A STANDARD REPLY.)

He has now turned handsome – like the original friend I thought he was. I am a bit flustered by his remark & say,

“I’M FLATTERED.”

(THERE’S A FEELING HERE THAT I THOUGHT HE’D CHOOSE ANOTHER FRIEND TO GO WITH, THE FRIENDS ARE DESIRABLE, BUT WHEN HE SAYS HE’S GOING WITH ME I’M STARTLED.

AND THAT IS THE ANSWER TO THE PRAYER OF WHAT WILL HAPPEN WITH US, WHAT GOD HAS BEEN SAYING FOR YEARS SINCE THE DAY WE MET – THAT HE IS MY HUSBAND.)

MEANING:

‘HE BECOMES HANDSOME AGAIN’ AT THE END IS HE CHANGES HIS BEHAVIOR FROM BAD TO GOOD. ‘HANDSOME IS AS HANDSOME DOES.’

IN THIS WORLD, WHERE ‘ALL’S A STAGE’ HE PLAYED A PART OR PARTS HE THOUGHT HE’D WIN AT. WHEN ALL IS FINISHED, HE KNOWS IT WON’T WORK, HE COMES BACK TO YOU.

THE PART ABOUT THE SUBWAY IS AN ANALOGY BETWEEN THE ‘HIGH ROAD’ & THE ‘LOW ROAD.’ THE HIGH ROAD IS HE LOVES YOU, CAN’T RESIST BEING WITH YOU, LISTENS TO YOU & FINDS SUCCESS.

THAT DID NOT HAPPEN. THAT IS TO SAY HE LOVES YOU BUT HE DID NOT LISTEN TO YOU, HE WENT HIS OWN WAY THINKING HE KNEW BETTER.

THE ‘LOW ROAD’ IS HE TURNED AWAY FROM YOU, TRIED ANOTHER LIFESTYLE & PURSUED A CAREER DIFFERENT THAN WHAT YOU PLANNED. BUT IT DID/DOES NOT WORK & SO IN THE END HE COMES BACK. THE LOW ROAD IS FAILURE—HE HAS TO RETURN, TAIL BETWEEN HIS LEGS, LIKE THE PRODIGAL SON – YOU DIDN’T WANT IT THAT WAY BUT THERE WAS NO ALTERNATIVE. HE HAD TO KNOW HE COULDN’T MAKE IT HIMSELF.

WHAT MOTHER GOD IS SAYING IS THAT THIS END WILL COME SOON – HE HAS EXITED THE MAUSOLEUM. WHEN HE LEAVES HIS FAILED LIFESTYLE, IT’S THE BEGINNING OF YOU—THE TRAIN WHICH TAKES YOU HOME TO YOUR HEART OR DESIRED SITUATION, IS UPON US.

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HINDU ADVAITA VS CHRISTIANITY

Dream Talks About Hindu Nonduality (Advaita) vs ChristianNonduality

1-26-20-BIG CONFLICT IN SCHOOL-TWO SCHOOLS OF THOUGHT

There was this school I was part of – a huge one. But there’s been a RIFT – a conflict. I see one large part of the school on the side I’m on, another side is lining up in front of us, in rows of two, across us next to a tall maybe grey brick building.

(THESE ARE ‘TWO SCHOOLS OF THOUGHT’ I WAS PONDERING YESTERDAY – THE SCHOOL OF YOGA NONDUALITY & THE SCHOOL OF CHRISTIANITY.)

Someone must represent our side, but everyone is AFRAID because there will be fighting. But a lady I know who is more of a part of the school than I am {I’m just a fringe member} – a teacher perhaps, comes forward & stands there, as NO ONE ELSE IS COMING FORWARD FOR FEAR.

(I WAS WONDERING WHY NO ONE HAS CHALLENGED OR EXPLAINED THE WAY WESTERNERS ARE TRANSLATING THE TEACHERS OF NONDUALITY. I FEEL THEIR TRANSLATIONS ARE FLAWED & THIS IS CONFUSING PEOPLE & LEADING THEM ASTRAY & LOSING THEM. WHY HAS NO ONE COME FORWARD & GIVEN BETTER EXPLANATIONS OF HOW THESE YOGIC STATES, VIRTUES, CONSCIOUSNESS, CAN BE COMPARED TO CHRISTIAN ONES? THEY ARE REALLY THE SAME, EXPLAINED IN DIFFERENT WORDS—BUT NO ONE EXPLAINING.)

This lady reminds me of Rev. Verbal Talent who was my first living guru.

(WHO IS THIS WOMAN MOMGOD, THE MAIN ONE, WHILE I AM BUT A FRINGE MEMBER, BUT I STAND WITH HER SO SHE WILL NOT BE ALONE?

THIS MIGHT BE THE MALE INTERVIEWER I SAW—BRICK–WHO CHALLENGED SOME OF THIS STUFF BEING SAID, AND HE WAS RIGHT. BUT THE INTERVIEW-E ARGUED ON & ON SO HE BACKED OFF & DROPPED IT.

I WAS THINKING OF JOINING THIS PERSON ON HIS FORUM & LETTING HIM KNOW I AGREED WITH HIM.)

And so, because I don’t want her to STAND ALL ALONE I step forward as well, there are just two of us who are willing to represent our side – there are plenty of students behind us but they will not stand as warriors – across us they are hundreds, although no sparks have yet flown. The teacher I join is wearing a sort of shiny grey suit that hangs off her like liquid, a liquid skirt & jacket, luminous, flowing but not puffy, just straight down.

(THIS SAYS THAT VERY FEW PEOPLE COULD MEET THE CHALLENGE THIS ‘SCHOOL OF THOUGHT’ REPRESENTS. BRICK SEEMS TO BE THE ONLY ONE – HE’S DEEP IN THE CULTURE OF THESE PEOPLE, I’M BUT A FRINGE MEMBER, BUT I’D HELP HIM IF NEEDED.

THE SUIT HE’S WEARING IS VERBAL ARMOR – HE IS EXTREMELY WELL PREPARED TO ARGUE, HE KNOWS HIS SUBJECT. THE SUIT REMINDS ONE OF SHINY GREY ARMOR BUT THIS IS WORDS SO IT’S LIKE ‘LUMINOUS LIQUID ARMOR.’)

Now she & I go to a sort of PARK, a large green campus with trees & we are milling about. We both take dry sticks. My stick has prongs, so I’m snapping them off. Nothing has happened. The school building is to the left.

Now to the right here comes a mob, like 200 women, facing us. My partner is so frightened she JUST RUNS OFF at her fastest speed (she was good in track) – to the right front, the crowd is more to the left, they are shoulder-to-shoulder females.

(POSSIBLY THIS SCHOOL OF THOUGHT IS SEEN AS FEMALES BECAUSE THEY ARE HINDUS – MOST OF THEM ARE WEARING FEMININE GARB. SOME WEAR ONLY BIKINI BOTTOMS, INCLUDING A CHIEF, RAMANA MAHARSHI, WE’RE DISCUSSING A LOT – SOME OF THEM WEAR SKIRTS DOWN TO THEIR ANKLES, SOME WEAR SARIS SIMILAR TO WOMEN’S (AS GHANDI WORE).

ACCORDING TO THIS THERE ARE HORDES OF YOGIS / HINDUS READY TO FACE US & ATTACK & BRICK REALLY DOES NOT WANT TO GO THROUGH THIS – HE WOULD ABANDON ME & DESERT ME BEFORE THE SHYT HIT THE FAN. THIS SAYS HE’S GOOD AT BACKING OFF OR AVOIDING AN ARGUMENT.

WHAT IS MY STICK? JUST A STAFF LIKE MOSES HAD, IT ISN’T FOR HARM, IT’S A STICK OF HEALING, THE WAY MOSES PUT HIS STAFF ON HIGH, WITH SNAKES RUNNING THROUGH IT, & THOSE WHO LOOKED UPON IT WERE HEALED. I DON’T MEAN HARM, I’M TRYING TO HEAL MISUNDERSTANDING.)

This crowd sees me taking these dry stub branches off my stick (they are sharp, I am disarming my walking staff) – I wonder if they think I’m making a weapon, it’s just a light stick, nothing you could hurt someone with.

As I leave various people are staring at me as if they will mob me & hurt me, but I am able to rise into the air, even 20-40’ & move along, they can’t even reach me, so I escape their premises.

(AT FIRST, I’M ABLE TO RISE SPIRITUALLY BUT I GET TIRED OR EXHAUSTED & GET VULNERABLE. THIS COULD HAVE BEEN MY STATE YESTERDAY, AS I WAS FIGHTING DEMONS & RECITED ABOUT 50 EXORCISMS.

OR IT COULD BE A WARNING THAT AT FIRST, I’LL DO WELL, BUT EXHAUSTION WILL WEAR ME OUT & I WILL NOT BE ABLE TO DO MY BEST.)

On the road escaping, another bunch of women is going to attack me. Next to us is a sunken field with many dryish sumacs, with twisted bodies like Japanese Maples, & I try to fly over that, but the women follow me by walking – I can’t rise up in the air enough, my flying abilities have lately failed me. What saves me is we see a stack of these dry sumac branches piled high in the middle of this tiny field (it’s only about 30’ in diameter), & we all agree, this is a funeral pyre ready to be lit. They seem so curious / surprised that they stop thinking about me & I escape.

(WHAT IS THIS FUTURE FUNERAL PYRE IN THE FIELD THAT SAVES ME?

IT COULD BE WHEN THE ATTACKERS FIND OUT MY AGE THEY DON’T WANT TO HURT ME, AS THEY HAVE RESPECT FOR THEIR ELDERS. AFTER ALL, I’M GOING TO DIE SOON (HAHA) SO SHOW SOME RESPECT.

I HAVE NOT DONE ANYTHING – HAVE NOT ARGUED WITH ANYONE. THIS SIMPLY ANTICIPATES WHAT WOULD HAPPEN IF I DID, MY GOD SELF WANTS ME TO AVOID THE ACTIVITY. I HEARD MY INNER VOICE SAY ‘LEAVE THEM ALONE.’)

I then decide to leave. There isn’t any fighting, but as I’m almost to the road that will take me back, I hear two females behind me & they have small clubs, a big woman & a smaller one, & they are saying something like,

“Let’s let her have it, get it over with.”

I turn, look at them – we are in a small rural alley with a gate (the alley about 10’), (there’s a pretty light green painted wooden window shutter near) I know they mean me, so I quickly get out of that spot, go to the main road & somehow get away.

(IT SEEMS LIKE PEOPLE WOULD COME FROM ALL DIRECTIONS & PLACES TO ‘GET YOU’ {SO DON’T GET STARTED.} THEY WOULD NOT APPRECIATE THE FACT THAT YOU’RE TRYING TO HELP, THEY’D SEE YOU AS AN ENEMY, AN INTERLOPER. THEY WOULD REACT IRRATIONALLY. THIS DREAM IS A WARNING.

ME TO MOMGOD: WHY WOULD MY EFFORTS TO HELP BE SEEN IRRATIONALLY, WITH ANGER, AS IF I’M AN ENEMY?

BECAUSE IT’S THEIR VANITY. THESE YOGIS WANT PEOPLE TO BELIEVE THEY HAVE AN EXCLUSIVE, MYSTERIOUS DISCIPLINE CALLED ‘NONDUALITY,’ WHICH NO ONE UNDERSTANDS OR PRACTICES EXCEPT THE ELITE OF ALL YOGIS.

FOR YOU TO SAY ‘LOOK, WE CHRISTIANS HAVE BEEN FOLLOWING THIS DISCIPLINE SINCE DAY ONE, WE JUST CALL IT DIFFERENT TERMS, TO THEM WOULD ATTACK THEIR EGOS, THEY WOULD SEE IT AS AN ATTEMPT TO TAKE AWAY WHAT THEY HAVE.

THEY HAVE MADE A GOOD BUSINESS, PROFIT & STATUS FROM REPRESENTING THE WAY OF THE ‘MYSTERIOUS EAST.’ – IT MAKES THEM IMPORTANT TO US. THEY HAVE GURUS & ASHRAMS WITH ALL THAT GOES WITH IT. THEY GAIN GREAT STATURE, FAME, & RESOURCES, FROM WESTERNERS WHO WANT TO GAIN SOMETHING WE DON’T HAVE. (This is NOT to say the Enlightened souls are doing this, it’s the ordinary ones, those who are NOT enlightened, who are full of ego & vanity, that would be upset.)

FOR YOU TO CLAIM THERE IS NO MYSTERY & PROVE IT WILL MAKE YOU A GREAT ENEMY & THEY WOULD WANT TO BEAT THE LIVING SHYT OUT OF YOU JUST LIKE THE DREAM.)

After escaping various situations where these women would beat me up, I am back at our original school, it seems to the right side of it– our friendly area, & I’m climbing up some tall wide school stairs recently painted. The color is a dark shiny green, the paint so fresh, {it even has a pleasant smell,} on the stairs & walls that it’s slightly sticky.

(WHAT IS THE RECENTLY PAINTED STAIRCASE DEEP SHINY GREEN, SO FRESH IT EVEN SMELLS NICE?

IT’S THE RECENT SYNOPSIS OF A FEW THINGS YOU STATED WITHIN THIS DREAM WHICH COMPARE NONDUALITY TO CHRISTIAN TERMS. A STAIRCASE IS LIKE A ROAD, A WAY, HERE YOU HAVE IMPROVED A ROAD, A WAY TO UNDERSTANDING HOW CHRISTIANS PRACTICE NONDUALITY, & IT GOES UP—TOWARD GOD—NOT DOWN, WHICH WOULD BE HELL.

BUT YOU’RE NOT SURROUNDED BY FRIGHTENED ENEMIES, YOU’RE HERE ON OUR OWN TURF, OUR SCHOOL, SO YOU’RE AT PEACE, HAPPY, REJOICING, NOT IN CONFLICT.)

I get all the way up to a floor, very wide room, like five big rooms together – our compatriots milling about–& I tell someone that Rev. Verbal ditched me, took off running. My lady associate says,

“She was made to run.”

But I was a success, & I hear a song I love & I do the greatest callisthenic dance I often do in dreams, where I tumble in the air completely around so my head aims at the floor, & a few other paranormal moves, & everyone knows I’ve succeeded & done a good job, & I’m happy—the way you feel when you’ve succeeded an ordeal.

(NOTICE I ESCAPE BEATINGS FROM THE WOMEN / HINDUS / YOGIS BUT I RETURN TO OUR OWN FRIENDLY SPACE, SCHOOL, COMPATRIOTS. MY CONCLUSION TO THIS DILEMMA WAS TO SIMPLY DO THE HOMEWORK IN HOW TO TRANSLATE, TRANSPOSE THESE ‘NONDUALITY’ PRINCIPLES INTO CHRISTIAN TERMS – PRESENT THEM ON MY OWN TURF WITHOUT GETTING MIXED UP WITH THE ‘NONDUALISTS’ & THIS WAY I WOULD SUCCEED. I AM DOING A VICTORY DANCE.)

But it’s not over. Now somehow, we have to go on a journey. We must GET HOME. I make SEVERAL TRIES. I recall this one.

My sister seems to be our guide. She thinks she knows the way, but when we get to a bridge, I tell her, no I don’t think this is right, there was no bridge last time I made it home. {The bridge is over a small, shallow river, it’s not long or high up, just like a road with iron bars on the side—one side houses a dam of sorts. It just stops, & there’s a barrier that makes the water pile up. But much of the water is apparently allowed to go under as it’s flowing.} But she insists we keep walking. There are others with us, like kids, we are the guides.

(MY SISTER REPRESENTS THE PRAGMATIC—ALWAYS. IT’S PART OF ME. THIS IS TELLING ME NOT TO LISTEN TO MY HUMAN, LOGICAL GUIDANCE BUT TO GO BY SPIRITUAL INSTINCT. I’VE DONE THIS BEFORE – THERE WAS NO BRIDGE. IT’S THE WRONG ROAD, WRONG WAY TO GO, MOMENTARILY WE SEE THAT.

BUT WHERE AM I GOING, WHERE AM TRYING TO GET? WHAT IS ‘HOME’ IN THIS DREAM?

IT WOULD BE THE GOAL OF UNDERSTANDING NONDUALITY IN A WAY THAT MAKES SENSE, THAT IS EFFECTIVE.

‘THERE IS NO BRIDGE’ ON THE WAY THERE IS THIS IS NONDUALITY – NOT TWO THINGS, BUT ONE. A BRIDGE CONNECTS TWO THINGS, TWO SIDES. SO I AM SAYING ‘WE ARE NONDUALISTS JUST AS THEY ARE.’

THE WAY THESE NONDUAL TEACHERS ARE EXPLAINING GOES INTO THE ‘TWILIGHT ZONE.’ I HAD SOME HEARTY LAUGHS AS I LISTENED TO ONE INTERVIEW. THE TEACHER SPOKE ABOUT:

‘DESTROYING THE MIND’ – ‘THE REALITY WE ARE SEEING IS NOT REAL, JUST AN ILLUSION THAT’S ONLY SEEN BY US, NO ONE ELSE – WE HAVE PROJECTED IT……THERE IS NO BIRTH OR DEATH, THERE IS NO TIME, THE THEORY OF RELATIVITY IS NOT TRUE AS THERE ARE NO TWO THINGS, ONLY ONE THING…..WHEN YOU PULL BACK THE MIND FROM ITS OBJECT YOU DESTROY IT, THEN YOU SEE THE SELF WHICH IS GOD, THAT IS THE GOAL, TO GET RID OF THE MIND. THIS IS SO CONFUSING, SO MISLEADING, MYSTIFYING, & THEY FEEL THEY ARE SUPERIOR TO US, THAT THEY HAVE ESOTERIC KNOWLEDGE, BECAUSE NO ONE CAN MAKE HEADS OR TAILS OF THIS.’ End their part

BUT MY POV IS: IN TRYING TO UNDERSTAND THIS LINGO YOU COULD LOSE YOUR MIND OR GO CRAZY, WE DON’T WANT TO DO THAT. WHEN THEY USE THE WORD ‘MIND’ IT IS TRANSLATED MIND BUT IT PROBABLY MEANS ‘ATTENTION’ – ‘FOCUS’. OR IT SPEAKS OF THE CONSCIOUS MIND VS THE UNCONSCIOUS–BUT THE UNCONSCIOUS IS NEVER MENTIONED. THEY ARE TRYING TO GET YOU TO FOCUS ON THE INTERIOR & ON THE GOD WITHIN, & WE NEED BETTER TRANSLATION FROM THEIR TERMS TO OURS. BUT NONE OF THEM {the Western teachers} IS DOING THAT.)

We hang a right before the bridge, the river is in front, & as we walk the path turns into weeds as tall as our faces – we’re engulfed – the road has ended & I tell her ‘I told you so.’

(WHAT ARE THE WEEDS, THE PATH ENDING, THE WEEDS ENGULFING US?

THIS MIGHT REFER TO THE TERMS THEY ARE USING. YOU WON’T GET ANYWHERE BY THE WAY THEY EXPLAIN IT, WE GET ‘CHOCKED’ BY WEEDS OR ‘CAN’T GET THROUGH’ THE WEEDS – THE TERMS ARE THE WEEDS, A LOT OF BAD STUFF WE HAVE TO FIGHT THROUGH, WE CAN’T GET TO OUR GOAL.)

I look at the bridge. On the far side of it there’s a dam where the water has accumulated & it’s fairly deep. There are two large horses that were in the river that are swimming & stopped right there at the end of the dam. I think about them & am concerned. I hope they’re OK, I think they are. But what do they mean?

(HORSES MEAN WORK. THIS MIGHT BE SAYING ‘THE WORK ON THIS IS NOT GOING ON, IT IS STOPPED, IT IS TRUNCATED. IN OTHER WORDS, AS I SAID, THESE WESTERN TEACHERS, 99% OF WHOM ARE MEN, ARE NOT ABLE TO TRANSLATE HINDU NONDUALITY INTO OUR CHRISTIAN TERMS.

CHRISTIAN MYSTICS HAVE BEEN EXPERIENCING NONDUALITY, BUT THEY CALL IT ‘NO LONGER I LIVE, BUT CHRIST IN ME.’ CHRIST IS GOD, THEREFORE IF I AM DEAD BUT CHRIST LIVES IN ME MY LOWER SELF IS DEAD (EGO, DESIRES OF THE FLESH) BUT GOD IN ME IS ALIVE. THAT MEANS I AM GOD. THAT IS NONDUALITY, I AM GOD. IT’S NOT ME LOOKING AT GOD OUTSIDE, I HAVE ASCENDED, I HAVE DIED TO THE LOWER SELF, I AM LIVING, RADIATING GOD.

THEY ALSO SAY, ‘I HAVE DIED WITH CHRIST & RISEN WITH CHRIST.’

WE CALL THE DYING OF THE EGO, DYING TO THE WORLD, FLESH & DEVIL, ‘DEATH TO SELF,’ THEY CALL ‘SELF’ IS GOD, SO AGAIN, TERMS. THEY MEAN ‘GOD SELF’ BUT DON’T USUALLY SAY IT. WHEN WE SAY ‘SELF’ WE MEAN EGO – THE THING THAT HAS TO DIE. THEY MEAN GOD.

WE (THE ORIGINAL CHRISTIANS), MISUNDERSTOOD JESUS’ TEACHING & MADE HIM THE ONE & ONLY GURU WHEN THERE’S BEEN MANY. BUT AFTER WE WORSHIP HIM ‘IN FORM’—IN THE WAY OF BHAKTI OR LOVE, DEVOTION,–(THE NONDUALISTS SAY – THAT ‘FORM’ IS NOT THE FINAL STEP OF SPIRITUALITY) – WE DON’T STAY THAT WAY, WE HAVE BECOME HIM, THERE ARE NO LONGER TWO, HIM & ME, THERE’S ONLY ONE, I AM HE.

ANOTHER PHASE OF THIS IS CHRISTIANS WHO ARE ADVANCED PRACTICE ‘NON ATTACHMENT,’ WHICH MEANS PUT GOD FIRST, EVERYTHING ELSE AFTER, DON’T PUT ANYTHING BEFORE GOD, GOD IS A JEALOUS GOD, IF YOU PUT GOD FIRST EVERYTHING ELSE WILL BE ADDED BY GOD.

TO BE HONEST, IT ALL COMES OUT OF BUDDHISM—WHICH WAS ORIGINALLY 3,000 YEARS AGO, A FORM OF HINDU YOGA. FROM BUDDHA CAME JESUS, A REINCARNATED GURU. THE THREE WISE MEN CAME FROM INDIA TO HONOR THEIR REBORN GURU, CAME TO GET HIM WHEN HE WAS TWELVE, TOOK HIM TO INDIA OR TIBET, TAUGHT HIM UNTIL AGE TWENTY NINE & RETURNED HIM TO HIS PEOPLE. ALL HIS TEACHINGS WERE BUDDHIST.

HE HAD GREAT POWERS BECAUSE HE HAD ACQUIRED THEM IN PREVIOUS LIFETIMES; IT WAS WHAT YOGIS CALL ‘KARMIC RESIDUE.’ BESIDES THAT HE WAS PREPARED FOR SEVENTEEN YEARS HOW TO TEACH, PREACH & HEAL. HE WAS BORN ANOINTED & WAS TRAINED; THAT CREATED GREATNESS.

HIS TEACHINGS ARE BUDDHIST – THE SERMON ON THE MOUNT–BUDDHISM. ALL HIS BASIC TENETS, CORE TEACHINGS, LOVE THY NEIGHBOR AS THYSELF, DO UNTO OTHERS AS YOU WOULD HAVE OTHERS DO UNTO YOU, WHAT YOU DO TO THE LEAST OF THESE YOU DO TO ME (GOD) IS ALL BUDDHISM. AND SO, OUR CHRISTIANITY IS NOT FAR FROM HINDU-YOGA, WE JUST HAVE TO FIX THE IDIOMS.

THERE IS NO MYSTERY TO NONDUALITY, IT’S NOT ESOTERIC, IT’S NOT HARD TO REACH OR ACQUIRE, IT’S NOT MYSTERIOUS & TO MAKE IT SO IS WRONG. NONDUALITY IS A HIGH LEVEL OF SPIRITUALITY IN ANY RELIGION. I HAVE READ THE LIVES OF THE MYSTICAL SAINTS & THEY ALL HAD IT – READ ‘MYSTICISM’ BY EVELYN UNDERHILL, THE BEST BOOK ON THE SUBJECT I HAVE EVER READ, & IT NEVER EVEN MENTIONS HINDU NONDUALITY.

THAT’S WHAT THIS DREAM IS ABOUT. IT SAYS ‘JUST DO IT, NOBODY ELSE IS, & NO ONE WILL HELP YOU.’

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SCAPEGOAT & ROLES REVERSED

1-24-20-THE SCAPEGOAT & ROLES REVERSED

Dream interpreted for a friend. Symbols explained in detail.

I seem to be looking at an unfortunate boy with his mother. He has dark curly hair, tall, young – looks wise reminds me of Alan from yesterday.

(ALAN IS A SYMBOL OF LEILA’S BOYFRIEND. I WAS AT A PLACE OF BUSINESS WHERE THEY BOTH WORK, TALKING TO THEM. THERE WAS A QUESTION LEILA & I DISCUSSED, AS WILL BE SEEN BELOW. A CLUE HE IS THE SUBJECT MATTER IS ‘UNFORTUNATE.’

*OFTEN WHEN YOU SEE A PERSON IN A DREAM IT MIGHT NOT BE ABOUT THE PERSON AT ALL. DON’T TAKE THINGS LITERALLY–USUALLY THEY ARE SYMBOLS, AS HERE, IT IS NOT ABOUT ALAN AT ALL. ASSUME THAT MOST CHARACTERS YOU SEE IN DREAMS ARE SYMBOLS OF (1) ANOTHER PERSON (2) A PERSONALITY OR ATTITUDE OF A PERSON – YOURSELF OR ANOTHER.

HERE HE ONLY LOOKS THIS WAY TO TELL YOU: IT’S ABOUT WHAT YOU DISCUSSED AT THIS PLACE. BUT WHY DOESN’T HE LOOK LIKE HIMSELF? BECAUSE YOU HAVE NEVER SEEN THIS GUY—THE BF–CLOSE UP, NOT SURE HOW HE LOOKS.)

His Mom is to the left, in a kind of large cubicle, in bed. She’s handing something to ‘Alan’ & it’s not a big transaction, but within this framework I’m seeing their entire relationship.

(THIS WOMAN BEING IN BED COULD MEAN SHE IS AT LEISURE – RELAXING, RESTING – BUT GIVING HIM SOMETHING TO DO SO IT COULD BE SHE’S PILING ON WORK FOR HIM BUT NOT ON HERSELF.

IT COULD ALSO MEAN SHE MAKES HIM CARRY HER CROSS, GOES EASY ON HERSELF BUT HARD ON HIM. MAKES HIM SUFFER MORE SO SHE WOULD SUFFER LESS.)

It seems she’s picking on him, & I ask him is she?

And he has two sisters, & they seem to be ‘picking on him’ also & it’s serious, not mild. I see it’s a pattern, the mother & the two sisters are doing to him.

({what Tim’s (an old friend) Dad did to him when he was a child. His Dad constantly put him down, criticized & belittled him, so badly that at the age of 12 he started to drink, taking the parent’s liquor – later he became a drug addict & remained one his entire life. He explained its mentality to me.}

THIS IS SHOWING A POWERFUL ANALOGY BETWEEN THIS BF & THE STORY OF HOW TIM BECAME A DRUG ADDICT. IT IS THE TRAUMA THAT WAS REFERENCED—THIS IS IT, THE WAY HE WAS TREATED BY A PARENT, PROBABLY THE MOTHER, & SIBLINGS, COULD BE SISTERS.)

I say to Alan,

“I see it now. I understand. You are their SCAPEGOAT. Do you know what that means? They blame everything on you. I know, as I was the scapegoat in my family. It goes like this, & I physically demonstrate:

There is a cardboard box standing on something to my left. I act like a person who has great nervous tension, I show my hands shaking. To relieve the pressure of this anxiety, I take my fist & punch that cardboard box to my left.

(IT’S A KNOWN PHENOMENON THAT FAMILIES SOMETIMES CHOOSE ONE CHILD ‘TO BE SACRIFICED’ SO THAT THE REST OF THE FAMILY ‘COULD HAVE A BETTER LIFE.’

OF COURSE THIS IS SINFUL & DOES HARM TO THE CHILD. THE TROUBLES, ANXIETIES OF THE FAMILY ARE SOMEHOW ‘DUMPED’ ON THE CHILD, THEY ARE BLAMED FOR EVERYTHING. THEY ARE MISTREATED; MENTALLY, EMOTIONALLY OR PHYSICALLY ABUSED. AND IT ISN’T JUST ONE PERSON OR ONE PARENT THAT DOES IT – IT BECOMES A CONSENSUS. SOMETIMES NOT EVERYONE PARTICIPATES, BUT USUALLY THIS CHILD IS NOT PROTECTED BY ANY FAMILY MEMBER.

THEY COULD BE MADE TO DO MORE WORK THAN THE OTHERS & GIVE LESS PRIVILEGES. THEY WOULD BE PUNISHED MORE – EVERY DAY WOULD BE PUNISHMENT BECAUSE THEY ARE DEPRIVED OF LOVE. THIS IS THE ‘FAMILY SCAPEGOAT’ STORY.)

To my dismay, however, I see the front of the box, & sitting inside is an infant – it wasn’t hurt but I’m upset & say,

“I’m so sorry – wow – I didn’t know a baby was sitting in there.”

I was demonstrating to him how his Mom & sisters took their anxiety out on him, punching him mentally.

(THE CHILD IS THE HELPLESS VICTIM, THIS SAYS. THE BOX THE CHILD SITS IN IS SIMILAR IN DESIGN TO THE ‘BED CUBICLE’ THE MOTHER IS RESTING IN. AS ALREADY STATED, IN THIS CASE, THE MOM TRAUMATIZED THE CHILD SO SHE WOULD BE ‘BETTER OFF.’ {BUT OF COURSE SUCH PEOPLE ARE NOT BETTER OFF SPIRITUALLY – THEY ARE GUILTY OF SIN. & AS SOMEONE ONCE SAID TO ME ‘IT’S BETTER TO BE SINNED AGAINST THAN TO BE THE SINNER.’})

This solved a mystery of how he was traumatized. It shows a comparison between my friend, a drug addict who explained his case to me – as being applicable to this new person seen in the dream.

(THIS REFERS TO LEILA’S BOYFRIEND, WHY HE’S AN ADDICT. YOU WERE TALKING ABOUT IT & SHE SAID SHE DIDN’T KNOW WHY.) Finis.

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ANOTHER DREAM: ROLES REVERSED

EARLY there was a dream like this: I see a paper-embossed design, large, almost white (it’s a thick soft cardboard) – which you would put on the wall for decoration. There are no colors. It’s sort of ‘antique’ or ‘old fashioned’ – the designs are mostly all flowers like daisies or asters, but puffed out. It’s about 4’x4.5’

Then appears a smaller version of this to its right, about 3.5’x4’ & its color is CREAM. What surprises me it is the EXACT SAME DESIGN. Not sure why I thought this design could not be DUPLICATED – because it was original & unusual, but here it is duplicated right before my eyes, & I tell everyone how amazed I am.

These two papers are sort of ‘in the air’ by the end of my large table housing the old computer, in front of the window to the extreme right of this room.

MEANING:

‘UP IN THE AIR’ WOULD BE SOMETHING ‘PENDING’ – LIKE WE THINK IT’S GOING TO BE, BUT IT HASN’T HAPPENED YET. IT’S LIKE A QUESTION.

DAISIES ARE ‘SHE LOVES ME-SHE LOVES ME NOT’. SOMEONE IS THINKING DOES SOMEONE LOVE HIM OR HER.

THE OLD-FASHIONED, ARCHAIC CAN REFER TO TWO THINGS IN THE CONTEXT OF THIS DREAM: (1) A RELATIONSHIP THAT’S BEEN GOING ON FOR A WHILE OR (2) THE IDEA OF MARRIAGE WHICH IS ‘OLD FASHIONED – ARCHAIC’ AN OLD TRADITION. IT SEEMS APROPOS TO THE SECOND.

I SEE IT NOW, THE PUZZLE HAS COME TOGETHER. SOMETIMES, WHEN YOU SEE ONE OR MORE CLUES, THEY ARE WHAT I CALL ‘KEYS.’ THESE KEYS OPEN THE MEANING, IT ALL FALLS TOGETHER IN YOUR MIND.

THESE ARE TWO PEOPLE WHO LOVE ONE ANOTHER. FIRST, SHE CHASED HIM. THAT’S THE BIG WHITE DESIGN WITH THE DAISIES THAT SAY, ‘HE LOVES ME, HE LOVES ME NOT,’ AS SHE IS IN CONSTANT ANXIETY TO THAT QUESTION. SHE CHASES HIM BECAUSE SHE NEEDS REASSURANCE.

BUT SUDDENLY, IT IS HE WHO IS CHASING HER, NOW HE NEEDS REASSURANCE. HE IS PICKING THE DAILY PETALS ASKING THAT SAME QUESTION – DOES SHE OR DOES SHE NOT LOVE ME?

THE WHITE & CREAM BOTH REFER TO MARRIAGE, UNION, OR SERIOUS LOVE—THE TYPE OF FEELING THAT MAKES TWO PEOPLE STAY TOGETHER.

WHY IS THE ORIGINAL PAPER BIGGER?– BECAUSE IT WENT ON FOR A LONGER TIME. THE SMALLER PAPER, EXACT SAME DESIGN OR SITUATION, HAS BEGUN MORE RECENTLY, HAS NOT LASTED AS LONG OF A TIME OR TAKING UP AS MUCH ‘SPACE.’

THE DREAMER IS STARTLED TO SEE THE MAN IN THE EXACT SAME POSITION SHE WAS IN BEFORE.

THE POSITION OF THINGS CAN BE MEANINGFUL – WHERE YOU ARE – WHERE THE SYMBOLS ARE – WHERE OTHERS ARE. SCRUTINIZE EACH SYMBOL WITH A FINE-TOOTH COMB.

WHY BY THE LARGE TABLE OF THE OLD COMPUTER & IN FRONT OF THE WINDOW, DO THESE TWO ITEMS APPEAR?

YES IT’S BY THE WINDOW, BUT YOUR NEW COMPUTER IS THERE, IT’S RIGHT IN FRONT OF THE BIG-SCREENED NEW COMPUTER. THIS UNDERSCORES:

“IT WAS THE OLD WAY BEFORE (OLD COMPUTER) WHERE THE LADY CHASED HIM. NOW IT’S A NEW SITUATION, THE NEW COMPUTER – HE IS CHASING YOU; OLD SITUATION, NEW SITUATION.WE SEE THEM RIGHT NEXT TO EACH OTHER, IN FACT, PART OF THE NEW PAPER IS COVERING OR OVER THE TOP OF THE OLD – THE NEW IS SUPPLANTING THE OLD, COVERING IT, TAKING THE PLACE OF IT. finis

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