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WHAT OUR GOVT DID TO US

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IF AMERICANS WROTE THEIR TRUE STORY – THIS IS WHAT OUR GOVT

DID TO THEM

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UNITED STATES BY

HOWARD ZINN

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RASA SAYS: MATRIARCHY IS THE ANSWER, IT SOLVES ALL OUR PROBLEMS, WITH MOTHER GOD AS THE HEAD OF THE HUMAN RACE. TAKE OVER THE FAMILY & THE WORLD, & 99% OF ALL OPPRESSION WILL BE GONE. IT IS HUMAN MALES WHO HAVE DONE THE DAMAGE –ONE THIRD ARE POSSESSED BY DEMONS & THEY ARE RULING THE WORLD – THE GOOD GUYS ARE AFRAID OF THEM, PUT NO HOPE ON GOOD GUYS TO TAKE OVER. ONLY WOMEN WITH THE POWER OF MOTHER GOD CAN DO THIS.

 

the MESSAGE IS: Keep fighting against the oppressive demons—all Patriarchal govt’s—or else they will turn us all into slaves like animals in factory farms—use us up, work us to death, the way Simon LeGree used up his slaves in ‘Uncle Tom’s Cabin’………………………………………

 

the SUMMARY:   In A People’s History of the United States, Zinn aims to write an account of American history from the perspective of persecuted, powerless, marginalized people, rather than the usual pantheon of heroes and elites. He begins by studying  HYPERLINK “https://www.litcharts.com/lit/a-people-s-history-of-the-united-states/characters” Christopher Columbus’s conquest of the New World in 1492; over the following century, European explorers wiped out entire Native American tribes and brought tremendous wealth back to their own countries. English settlers came to North America in the early 1600s, and soon afterwards, they were involved in a series of wars with the Native American tribes, during which they used terrorist tactics to assert their domination.

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Another important feature of early colonial life in North America was slavery. English settlers used slaves kidnapped from their homes in Africa for free labor, and they also hired indentured servants—poor white people who were forced to spend years paying off their debts. Slaves frequently staged revolts and uprisings against their white masters; indeed, many elites in early colonial America were frightened that black slaves would unite with poor whites and take control over the colonies. Elites instituted policies designed to drive poor whites, Native Americans, and black slaves apart, and use them as “a check upon one another.”

In the late 18th century, the Founding Fathers were responsible for organizing a revolution against the British. However, these figures weren’t particularly radical in their vision of the future—rather, they were wealthy, powerful people who saw an opportunity to become even more powerful by manipulating the working classes against an external enemy, Britain. It was during the Revolutionary War that American leaders developed the rhetoric of freedom and equality, which is, to this day, one of the most important tools that leaders use to control their people. In the 1780s, the Founding Fathers drew up the Constitution, which provided for a strong federal government, largely so that they would have a way of protecting their own property and interests.

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In the 18th and 19th centuries, American women of all classes and backgrounds asserted their radicalism again and again, in spite of the pervasive sexism of their society. After it became more common for women to attend college in the early 19th century, educated women became more active in feminist causes.

 

In the early 19th century, America became a major imperialist power, first by expelling Native Americans from their ancestral lands (violating treaties that the American government had signed), and then by annexing Mexican territory in the Southwest. The Mexican-American War of the 1840s set a paradigm for American militarism: again and again, the American government would find a flimsy pretext for starting a war, and then use this pretext to acquire new territory and resources.

 

The Civil War is often remembered as the event that prompted the federal government to intervene and end slavery forever. But in fact, the federal government only did so because it had been pressured by generations of radical Americans who staged uprisings, slave revolts, and exercised their right to petition the government. When the government finally did free the slaves, it did so in a way that gave African-Americans minimal support. Indeed, in the years following the Civil War (the period known as Reconstruction) the federal government provided some financial and military support for African-Americans in the South. However, following 1876, the federal government backed away from supporting African-Americans and instead aligned itself with the interests of Southern business elites. In the second half of the 19th century, the federal government became bolder about cooperating with business; indeed, it supported military interventions, especially in Latin America, that were designed to strengthen American business. Nevertheless, there was widespread resistance to America’s aggressive, imperialist foreign policy.

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The 19th century was also a time of widespread labor and union activity. Faced with the fact that the law and the government didn’t even pretend to protect the common American worker, laborers went on strike, protested in the streets, and demanded better wages and shorter hours. In response, the federal government again and again showed its support for the business establishment by deploying troops to break up strikes and enforcing business as usual. When the government did help the common worker, it was careful to provide modest, superficial reforms to the system, which were designed to satisfy the American people without helping them in any profound way. In the face of the government’s dismissive attitude, laborers embraced Anarchism,  HYPERLINK “https://www.litcharts.com/lit/a-people-s-history-of-the-united-states/terms/d7791726-76ca-409f-ba03-66d8d179ece9″ Socialism, and  HYPERLINK “https://www.litcharts.com/lit/a-people-s-history-of-the-united-states/terms/6a6503d5-8e85-4dc8-b1fd-e6e419f1fd4f” Communism—ideologies that questioned the  HYPERLINK “https://www.litcharts.com/lit/a-people-s-history-of-the-united-states/terms/8b8f888e-878a-4905-a72a-7faa1f7fa865″ capitalist premise that private business should own production and manufacturing.

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During World War One, the American government sent its poorest citizens to die in a conflict that had nothing to do with them. It also passed a series of laws preventing citizens from speaking out against the war in any way. Indeed, many Socialist activists of the era were imprisoned for daring to state the obvious—World War One was a corrupt, imperialist conflict. During the Great Depression, the federal government continued its policies of moderation and pacification: it passed some policies that benefited workers, but did nothing to fundamentally challenge capitalism or the American business elite.

During World War Two, the U.S. claimed to be fighting for purely moral reasons: to end Fascism in Europe. In fact, Zinn argues, the government fought in World War Two because it saw the chance to make America the world’s leading power. By the time the war was over, America had made inroads with leaders around the world, ensuring that its own businesses would be granted free trade rights abroad. The war ended when the American government detonated two atomic bombs in Japan that killed massive numbers of civilians, a decision made largely to assert America’s new status as the world’s leading superpower.

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During the Cold War—the standoff between the U.S. and the U.S.S.R., the world’s other leading superpower—the U.S. government tried to frighten the American people by warning of a global Communist takeover. The government funded coups and right-wing dictatorships around the world, often deposing democratically-elected Socialist leaders in the process, always with the claim of protecting democracy and fighting Communism. In reality, the Establishment was trying to protect its own business interests, ensuring that the world’s leaders would continue to cooperate with American corporations.

 

During the 1960s, America experienced an outpouring of pent-up radical frustration. The people fought for civil rights, women’s rights, gay rights, environmental protection, Native American reparations, and hundreds of other radical populist causes. In many cases, the government’s response to its people’s actions was to institute tepid, superficial reforms that didn’t address the root causes of the problem. For example, the government reformed the voting process to protect African-Americans’ voting rights, but did nothing about the systematic poverty and racism that many black people faced every day.

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In the 1970s, 80s, and 90s, radicalism seemed to die down in America. But in large part, this was because the media stopped reporting on popular protests. Meanwhile, the American government, despite shifting back and forth between Republican and Democratic leaders, enforced a virtually consistent political agenda, in which welfare was cut back and the military budget increased. Even after the end of the Cold War, America’s military budget continued to grow. Americans joined together in record numbers to protest the meeting of the World Trade Organization in Seattle in 1999, a sign that radicalism wasn’t dead in America.

In the final chapter of the book, Zinn discusses the “war on terror,” during which the government deployed troops to the Middle East, supposedly to fight Muslim terrorists. Zinn concludes that, while it’s too soon to see what the American reaction to the war on terror will be, the American people need to decide if they stand on the side of morality and decency, or if they support imperialism and military aggression.

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Lesson from Rasa Von Werder: Keep fighting on all fronts – animal rights, women’s rights, the rights of the poor, the marginalized, the forgotten, the hated, the downtrodden – Fight for prostitutes, for instance – let them do their trade the same as doctors, lawyers, social workers, waitresses, dancers, actors, clerks, accountants – anyone. It is THERAPY WORK for adults the same as psychologists & social workers.

 

The only difference is the brainwashed hatred of those who are not in the business, against them. They become SCAPEGOATS for a hypocritical, judgmental, hysterical, confused society which projects their own fears onto women who do sex. Leave them alone; no legalization, no herding into corrals, no licenses, no oppressive rules, leave them as you would leave be a person in a farmer’s market selling tomatoes & cabbages. LEAVE THEM ALONE—STOP CALLING THEM NAMES!

 

And stop calling anyone bad names! STOP HATING RATS! STOP CALLING MEN PIGS BEAUSE PIGS ARE NICE! The men we hate are not human, THEY ARE DEMONICS, they have been taken over by demons so thoroughly there is no vestige of human-ness in them—wake up to how evil Patriarchs are.

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We need a Mother God, & we need her back in our hearts, minds, & on altars in our homes. She needs to lead us, guide us back to sanity. To work for Matriarchy is the umbrella on all fronts – Matriarchy is the answer to all our problems.

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WOMEN DO NOT NEED MEN.

God does not need men.

Animals do not need men.

Men do not need men.

Men are redundant, unnecessary & dangerous.

We can do all the hard work by ourselves, with the help of machines. They no longer do it all by hand anyway. 

Long ago we wanted them for physical strength. No more.

Good bye men, you are going extinct, no soon enough.

God, nature, the world, the animals & women HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF YOU.

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GOD RESCUES LOVER FROM DEMONICS

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THEY WERE DEFEATED & GOD HAS ORDAINED HEAVEN FOR US

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I break through his prison window – We escape & hide (2) They try to assassinate me, I escape far away (3) My Dad mows & prepares a HeavenlyGarden on our property

 

          My Lover Samuel is in prison, & he can be visited & seen through a thick prison window. A lady is there on this side looking at him & speaking to him through the window.

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          *(SAMUEL: Is a person you love who is helpless or imprisoned by circumstances he cannot get out of. After reviewing the entire dream it’s his MIND SET, PERCEPTION & FEAR OF PEOPLE AROUND HIM which have imprisoned him.)*

 

          I go over there & out of my anger {not sure why} begin kicking the window. The female there went away.

 

          *(WINDOW: Of opportunity. There’s a way you can free him & you use some kind of spiritual power. (Legs are mystical travel.) The lady on this side is your flesh who can do nothing to liberate him, it has to be God Power. He has been waiting for your help, he cannot free himself.

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          MY ANGER, KICKING OUT OF MY ANGER: After figuring out the entire dream my anger is against the people who imprisoned my lover, turning him against me. I am breaking down our separation, making our relationship possible. The hint of HOW is in the waves of the window, how it’s closed in size{opportunity} & the waves {of trouble.} This trouble, not shown here, is the loss of money in his life due to this ‘Pandemic.’)*

 

          The scene changes so the place seems more off to the side, the window is smaller & prettier – the first one was large & plain. This one is made of leaded glass, like a stained glass window with pieces leaded in horizontal waves of all different sizes, but the glass is transparent, not colored. Before the window was about 4’ X 4’ but now it’s about 2.5’ X 2.5’ & he’s been standing there waiting on the other side.

 

          *(WINDOW, LEADED GLASS IN PIECES, HORIZONTAL WAVES, TRANSPARENT, SMALLER THAN THE OTHER:       His ‘window of opportunity’ has shut down in size, diminished, which means he has less opportunity now than before. The WAVES are problems {‘don’t make waves’}—His problems are now YOUR OPPORTUNITIES because you can & will BREAK THIS WINDOW or get through to him, you can reach him in this mental / emotional prison & he will get out.

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TRANSPARENT: is obvious or easily seen. His problems are easily seen, this is an opportunity as he is desperate.)*

 

          I continue kicking hard & to my surprise & his, a small piece of the window falls out. I continue kicking as this small opening reveals the window can be broken. I must kick all of it in as for him to climb through; he mustn’t cut himself by the space being too small with jagged glass edges. I kick until all of it is broke through, he climbs out quickly, we run off together before anyone would notice he is out.

 

          *(BREAK THROUGH WINDOW, ALL OF IT: This problem/opportunity is used by the Higher or God Self to get him out of his self-imposed confinement. He will come to you now, a situation you have prayed about for years. You knew he had to reach ROCK BOTTOM before he’d give you a proper relationship & THIS IS IT—this predicts what will happen.)*

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          Now I guide our escape. We must not travel the main roads – they will find us there. I find my woods. The road is to the left, about 50’ on a higher level—they can’t see us from the road. Where we walk is beautiful, many brown leaves on the ground, the trees are big, tall, & straight. I hope we walk this path we don’t come across the INTERLOPERS I have seen before, who encroached upon my property in many dreams, trespassing on it I suspect, taking over some of what I own. We’re on our way on a long journey.

 

          *(MAIN ROAD: A public place. This warns that do not advertise you two being together, stay off the main road – don’t tell the people who know him as they will put him into ‘imprisonment’ again. This shows he has been imprisoned by public opinion, his friends & family – those who know him, their opinions, have kept him away from you—he feared these people.

 

          LONG JOURNEY: Predicts once we get together it’s a long journey or our being together will be a long time.

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          MY WOODS, BEAUTIFUL BIG, TALL, STRAIGHT TREES, BROWN LEAVES ON THE GROUND: This is ‘my way, my truth, my life’ – like Jesus said, the same path as his, the right one, it is righteousness. We must walk this path together to get away from the ignorant, the confused, those in darkness—who are not for God & her Truth. Don’t advertise to them what we’re doing – stay away from them as they will infiltrate your business, interfere with Samuel, try & take him away again.)*

 

          Next scene we’re in a ROOMING HOUSE that is plain—everywhere nice brown wood paneling, the halls, the rooms. In our room the door is open to the hall, {we’re on the second or third floor} & Samuel has turned into Tommy, my cat & showing typical male behavior.

 

          *(TOMMY MY CAT, HE TURNS INTO HIM, TYPICAL MALE BEHAVIOR: His instinct will be to know what’s going on in his own world, to be somewhat involved, possibly with his former crowd.)*

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          He sits in the hall because we hear sounds in the building – he wants to see whatever action is going on. But I take him, pull him into the room & close the door. I tell him he’ll be found out & they will take him. We must keep a low profile.

 

          *(DOOR, CLOSED, STAY INSIDE, LOW PROFILE: Keep your relationship secret, keep to yourselves, do not allow him to get involved with his old cronies, friends & family – they are bad for him.)*

 

          A sort of small female {is it my daughter?} is also here. They are sitting on the floor, maybe playing cards. I tell them to whisper – they must not hear us. Quiet, secrecy is of the utmost importance if he wants to remain free.

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          *(REMAIN FREE, STAY QUIET & SECRET: Interference from those who kept him a prisoner before is deadly to your relationship. By all means, stay apart from them – they want to keep you two separate. They want to keep him low minded, drugged up, the same way they are. Most of his friends & family are addicts, lowlifes, it’s their mentality & lifestyle, they don’t want to ‘lose one of their own.’

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          I ESCAPE ASSASSINATION

 

          Next, there’s a group of men who want to assassinate me, they want to do it officially & publicly. We are in a very large square in the middle of a village. It’s more than 100’ in all directions.

 

          One of them, who’s carrying a large sword like the ones where I have a pic of like 7-8 guys in India displaying their 5-6’ swords all in a row – tell me to go up on this balcony at the right edge of a building – it’s about 3 floors high, stand there & they’ll shoot me. I say ‘ok’ & go there.

 

          I see that behind me is the wide-open sky so instead of waiting for them to shoot me, I take off & fly, & I go far, far away, through many areas, completely escaping them, many miles away, possibly to another country.

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          *(ASSASSINS: These are demons & demonics whom I have escaped, they are men. These are the PEERS or associates of Samuel who INFLUENCED him not to be with me. Their desire to KILL or ASSASSINATE me was to kill our relationship.

 

The fact that they wanted to do this PUBLICLY (on the balcony) rather than privately gives the hint WHY. They did not want me to get the credit or recognition for being LOVED by Samuel, his LOVE for me was a THREAT to them – it went against their beliefs & lifestyle. They are of the world, the flesh & the devil – I am of God. Satan is the enemy of God. They would rather he go to Hell with them than Heaven with me.)*

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My Dad & the HEAVENLY GARDEN

 

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          I’m at the old farm house, leaving through the kitchen. It’s dusk or twilight – going to be dark soon. I didn’t want my Dad to go outside to work, as it’s late, but he INSISTED.

 

          *(DAD: In many dreams, Dad is the symbol of the man who gives me away to my husband. It probably has nothing to do with my flesh & blood Dad, he’s just a symbolic personality.

 

WORK, HE INSISTED ON WORKING: He wants to show me something, a vision or understanding. ‘It’s late’ means it’s almost time for something, a phase is ending for another one to begin.)*

 

          As I walk outside toward the back fields first I notice it’s gotten CHILLY. I have on short shorts, but also a thick black sweater that zips up in front—I zip it up & soon feel warm. I keep walking.

 

          *(CHILLY, THICK BLACK SWEATER ZIPS UP I GET WARM, SHORT SHORTS: This black sweater & chilliness portends the END of something – a funeral – ‘blacked out,’ an ending. It’s the end of a certain part of your life. The short shorts might say ‘in a short time,’ better yet, my mystical power {legs} revealed.)*

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          To the left it’s hilly. Dad is up there busily mowing on the riding mower, he might be finished before dark. There are thick weeds here—he’s making up for lost time as for a long time he hasn’t been here & hasn’t been able to work, he wants to get these old dry weeds all down.

 

          *(THE WORK, GET OLD DRY WEEDS DOWN, MAKE UP FOR LOST TIME, BEFORE DARK, HASN’T BEEN HERE FOR A WHILE: This all points to the man who wants to bring me to the new husband wants to HURRY—get this phase over with for the next one. This is the PAST & the present separation from Samuel. He wants to get this phase, on the hill of Golgotha or suffering, mowed down, finished, before dark or before the next phase {of happiness} begins. )*  

 

          I continue walking straight ahead & come to a remarkable area Dad has mowed already. Strangely, it is bright daylight here. It’s our lawn, but it’s a garden. The grass is super thick, in clusters. He mowed it but not like a crew cut, the grass is clumps that seem to burst out in a beautiful fashion although it is mowed.

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          He mowed AROUND clumps of wild flowers & pretty bushes – there are some small trees here & there, the place is now like a GARDEN, not a lawn, a wonderful feeling.

 

         I am amazed by one area where there are rows of wildflowers. Somehow he’s mowed IN BETWEEN, an area of less than a foot. How did he do it? Have no idea.

This garden is HEAVENLY in its beauty & feeling. The light is broad daylight but soft, & yet elsewhere it was dusk. The color of the vegetation is saturated, brilliant.

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*(HEAVENLY GARDEN DAD PREPARED: This is the FUTURE with Samuel, it’s HAPPINESS. The old, dried up weeds in the past – Dad is hurrying to mow it down, get rid of it. The future is ready. It is soft but bright daylight – the Light of God is in it.

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The flowers are love. They are WILD which means they were PLANTED BY GOD, it is God’s love between us, heavenly love, not lust or of the world, flesh & devil, it is OF GOD.

 

When I was a child, 5-6-7 years old, I used to draw endless pictures of gardens like this, with ornamental bushes & small trees. This is those images coming to life, my heaven on earth.

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HE WILL NEED MY HELP

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HE WILL COME TO ME TO SAVE HIM–FINANCIAL RUIN DUE TO

‘PANDEMIC’

3-23-20-the DOCTOR & OLD MAN VOMITS-WACCABUC

 

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          Two STRONG/CLEAR dreams. Amazing that I can dream this well when after I do all my work, I watch TV now for hours & it no longer CLUTTERS my mind.

 

Dream: the DOCTOR:

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          It was the middle of the night, in my upper back yard, more toward the back road,—feeling a type of whimsical bliss, so happy being alone—seem to be looking up I see an airplane in the sky getting ready to land in my yard. I suddenly remember, it’s the DOCTOR I called I wanted to see! But now I have changed my mind – don’t want to see him or anyone.

 

          *(DOCTOR: Is ‘Doctor Feelgood,’ the lover Laren. I know this from studying the entire dream, not at first.

 

MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT: Breaking through a darkness of understand, getting a revelation.)*

 

          And so I wave him off like,

          “Changed my mind – please go away.”

 

          *(UPSETS HIM, WANTS TO SEE ME: Notice how happy I am alone, but he isn’t. He wants to see me & is upset I don’t want to see him. ‘Doctor, I reached out to you before, but now I don’t need you’ – but he needs me.)*

 

          This upsets him greatly & he wants to land & see me. My hand waving has the power to move his plane, accidentally I wave him over to my broken-down shed by the creek, the side of the shed next to the path to the house – the shed is about 40’ from the house on the lower yard, & his plane crashes there & a bit of an explosion – fire – & the shed catches on fire!

 

          *(SHED: Shed is broken down, contains junk & clutter. No longer has anything I need. This sounds like OUR RELATIONSHIP AS IT WAS –ghastly. He related to me only to HURT ME. He would ‘make love’ to me when he felt like it, refuse to give me his phone, would never call me, just tap on my shoulder when he saw me. Would praise his new live-in on social media {not sincerely, he uses her also} & never told me he loved me any more. It became more painful than joyful over the years. I knew I was breaking my own rule ‘No sex until the relationship’ & he knew I was TOO WEAK TO RESIST, LOVED HIM TOO MUCH IN THE FLESH. But I got closer to my MomGod within & that freed me, so now Dr. Feelgood needs me more than I need him.)*

 

          Nothing happens to the doc, he is fine, he got out & I join him in the shed. The fire is burning slowly on the edge of the shed, he stoops down to go through my things, to sort them out & remove them before they burn up.

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          I go to him & as I enter I call,

          “Kitty-kitty”

          in case there are any cats hiding in the shed – but I know there aren’t—it was a precaution.

 

          *(PRECAUTION CALLING KITTIES: These are inner senses, as most animals have some superior senses to us. I am asking the inner self if there is any danger here of something meaningful being destroyed – there isn’t.

          In other words, I have stopped doing sex with Laren because he’s not given me a relationship – he’s been ghastly. No relationship–no sex was my rule. When I broke it he got sex & I got hurt.

 

          So now I am saying is there anything I need to receive or get out of having sex with him again? Should I have sex with him again even though there’s no relationship? The answer is NO.)*

 

          As he goes through the stuff here I tell the doc,

 

          “Don’t worry, I have removed all the things that were needed from this shed – the rest of this can perish.”

 

*(WHAT WAS NEEDED REMOVED: There is nothing in the sex-only relationship that is needed. All that was good in this liaison has been removed, nothing left to hold onto. Let it burn up, be destroyed.)*

 

          But my male friend in a few moments find some things that have not burned up or will not as they are on the edges or margins of this shed somewhere – ancient rug runners, ordinary things. He’s helping & he’ll take this stuff to a bonfire & destroy it – we’re making a clean sweep!

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*(MALE HELPER: Could be a guardian angel—I have three. He is helping remove the ‘fringe residual energy’s’ or other clutter, junk, that lingers IN MY MIND OR PSYCHE pertaining to this.)*

 

          The doc reminds me or makes me think of the dentist, whose appt with me was cancelled due to the ‘pandemic.’ He really wanted to see me, & this doc was extremely upset when I wanted to wave him off.

 

   *(DOC UPSET: This again confirms Laren is upset for not seeing me, perhaps because neither of us can go downtown & hook up, possibly he’s suffering from the ‘pandemic’ rules. But it does not bother me, I am free, he is not.

I’ve been told for years by my inner voice & channelers, ‘He will come to you when he hits rock bottom.’ Apparently my absence, plus the rules of the pandemic, plus going bankrupt have brought him to his knees.)*

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The OLD MAN WHO EATS THREE MEALS, LIES ON HIS BACK ON A RAFT ON THE EDGE OF THE WATER, THE WATER RISES, HIS MOUTH IS OPEN & WATER BEGINS TO ENTER. I KNOW HE MIGHT DROWN. I CLIMB OFF MY TREE & SAVE HIM.

 

          I am with this man I later realize is old. We are by a small lake on a pleasure trip and cross to the other side, in a raft I see later.

 

          *(OLD MAN: Once again, the same lover, Laren. {Husband, Wife are ‘old man, old lady’} In my dreams often I have ‘parallel dreams’ which tell the story I want to know from more than one perspective.

 

          RAFT: Something that enables you to get somewhere, a vehicle, a ‘life raft’ that keeps you AFLOAT. Being ‘afloat’ sometimes refers to finances, ‘this extra job kept us afloat.’)*

 

          There I find a tree with many trunks. I climb it, making sure I get off this one trunk that is unstable. I actually pull it away from the tree & let it fall – it’s rubbery, kind of big, you would not expect it to be unstable. Had I hung onto it I would have fallen with it. I’m on a good branch now, way up, maybe 20’.

 

          *(UP A TREE: This is about some hard times, being ‘up’ including up a tree is usually hardship or suffering. This might refer to MY FINANCES because one way or one branch {path, action} WAS LIKE RUBBER – rubber means ‘bounced check’—I avoided some financial shrinking, kept half my money out of the stock market & kept it safe—So I am good during this drop.)*

 

          I look down at my friend who is lying on his back on our raft which is right at the edge of the water. He’s fallen asleep with his mouth open. The raft has food here & there. The animals, seeing him not conscious, have taken advantage & are all over the raft – raccoons & other medium, not dangerous, but all hungry animals all over the raft rummaging the food.

 

          *(ON HIS BACK, ASLEEP: Helpless, unaware. {on your back means submissive or helpless} This refers to financial as I see where this dream is going.

 

          MOUTH OPEN: This is needing to be fed (like the baby bird), nourished or sustained.

 

          WATER COMES UP, FILLING HIS MOUTH: Instead of sustenance he’s getting ruin. Water means many things, in this scene it is ruin & might destroy him. When water causes FLOOD or DROWNING it’s not the grace of the Holy Spirit, its disaster, often associated with loss of resources. Floods destroy crops, property & lives. Drowning takes away your life.  ‘Drowning in debt.’

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Water is like AIR. Air can be beautiful, but it can be a hurricane or tornado & destroy. Sun can be a delight, but it can burn up vegetation or give cancer.

 

ANIMALS RUMMAGING FOOD WHILE HE SLEEPS: MomGod, I am stumped. Animals mean inner senses usually. How is his ‘food’ or resources being rummaged while he is asleep or unaware?

  

          She: He is not aware of what’s going on in the world regarding the govt use of the Pandemic to send people into poverty. Most people see society in a subjective, myopic way, their own limited human experience. But knowledge is power, so if you understand what is being done you aren’t confused.)*

 

          Then I see the water has risen, & as small waves appear, it goes into his mouth. At this rate, if he doesn’t wake up he’ll drown. I quickly get down from the tree, rush over to him, sit him up & as he sits up he vomits again & again, at least three times, & the quantity is huge – like 3 big meals.

 

         *(WATER RISES: Danger to resources, water causes floods, damage to property & life.

 

          SMALL WAVES: Small problems or events that are negative, ‘don’t make waves,’ here even small things can drown him—like minor bills when he has no money.

 

          IF HE DOESN’T WAKE UP: If he doesn’t become aware he will perish.

 

          WATER GOES INTO HIS MOUTH: He is in danger of financial breakdown or bankruptcy.

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          SIT HIM UP {AWAKEN HIM ALSO} & HE VOMITS: Vomiting is getting rid of something or having a revulsion to something that makes you vomit—a horrible taste, smell, reality or sight can make you upchuck. What I show him – the truth– is repulsive to him but saves him.

 

          Me: MomGod, what saves him if I tell him the truth about the govt doing this on purpose?

 

          She: He might give up waiting on those around him for help & come to you. He knows scant few people who even if they could, would truly help him. His friends are mostly in the same boat. When half the world is perishing you cannot expect the non-perishing half to save them. They will help a few. But even in families, now that people are losing their jobs they go to relatives for help & the relatives say ‘I have my own problems.’ These are the situations he’s surrounded by. Many of his friends have no jobs, or else low paying ones. Many have lost their jobs due to so many venues being closed—hair salons, gyms, nail places, theaters, bars, restaurants, churches, yoga centers, etc. This is a recipe for the poor to get poorer while the rich gain control. He has to see the big picture, it isn’t going to go away fast.)*

 

         The first two vomits are like mashed potatoes, a huge amount, the third vomit is like chop suey, a whole plate full. When did he eat all this? He must have been starving.

 

          *(FIRST TWO VOMITS LIKE MASHED POTATOES: Stumped again MomGod. Any ideas?

 

          She: This happens in three increments. Think that way. First vomit is the big amount of something like mashed potatoes. This is bad stuff happening financially. It could be the spouse he is with—the place where she worked is shut down.

The symbol of ‘like mashed potatoes’ – potatoes are a STAPLE, a basic like ‘meat & potatoes.’ It’s COMFORT FOOD & something one depends on, like the Irish once depended on their potato crop & when the blight made it fail, they experienced ruin. Losing one’s ‘meat & potatoes’ is ruin.

 

          The second vomit could be them reaching for money elsewhere–some other disappointment, failure or reversal. Could be welfare, unemployment, another job, seeking loans or help from relatives & friends. The third thing,

 

          CHOP SUEY: Sounds like ‘chopped’ which means eliminated. There’s a TV show called ‘Chopped’ where chefs fail with their dishes & get eliminated. This could mean BEING FIRED or prevented from working. It could be her situation or his or both, you can only guess but it’s a bad omen.)*

 

          We then return to the other side & the movements of the water have made his vomited food float over here – the animals have followed the food & want to consume it. It isn’t disgusting as it wasn’t even digested, it’s edible to them.

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          *(FOOD FLOATS HERE, ANIMALS FOLLOW IT: Again the animals are the senses pointing us to something. The food is resources or possibility of gaining money. It COMES BACK TO US; it is still edible or viable.

 

          THE OTHER SIDE, RETURN TO IT: This refers to him & me. He left me – he went to the other side of the lake, he chose to be with another female. The ‘pandemic’ came about, we both found concern but he faced TOTAL RUIN, BANKRUPTCY.

And so, he returns to WHERE WE STARTED, WHEN WE WERE TOGETHER, in this dream we are on a pleasure trip but then cross the water to the other side – which leads to failure. With me, the resources that were a calamity RETURN TO HIM as I have enough money for everything.)*  

 

          We then go into the building by the water. It seems we have been at a ‘resort’ or ‘vacation.’ But I did not enter the building until now.

 

          When I do, it is a neat school room, not huge, average size, rows of small dark desks for about twenty young people {don’t see many kids, 5 or 6 right now}– the walls are painted light blue. A teacher in front speaks to me.

 

          *(SCHOOL ROOM: Lessons we must learn before we find happiness.

 

          SMALL DARK DESKS: Dark, depressing or dreary experiences we must have before we learn.

 

          DESKS NOT ALL OCCUPIED OUT OF 20, 5-6 STUDENTS: Only a fraction of people, one out of four, might learn their lessons which lead to success.)*

 

          The teacher says to me,

 

          “This used to be A GREAT MANSION.”

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          *(USED TO BE A GREAT MANSION: I will describe the mansion as bliss. At one time, Laren & I were in bliss. But things went wrong & we lost it.)*

 

          {Ah, I think, just as I SUSPECTED—this used to be the Victorian mansion of Waccabuc!}

 

          *(MANSION IN WACCABUC: Forebodes having all a person wants; happiness.)*

 

          This school room is modest & not big – unlike the premises long ago. It’s like an ‘anteroom/foyer’ to the mansion, a small first floor you go through before you see the beauty above, with the bliss it brings.       

 

          Then I say to everyone,

 

          “Oh yes, I thought this was the old mansion in Waccabuc. I used to go there in summers as a child.

 

          My aunt & uncle were the caretakers of the place – he took care of the grounds, she took care of the house & two boys.

 

          A & U had the entire THIRD FLOOR to live in. It was furnished with EXQUISITE contemporary furniture of a light beige color, in the best taste. It had a round wall with windows lining it & a balcony.

 

          The rest of the house was furnished traditional, perhaps Victorian & other elegant old-fashioned furniture. It had EIGHT BEDROOMS & four baths– the hallway walls decorated with wild boars in the woods {which I gazed at a lot}. There was a library with books, a grand piano, & the most INCREDIBLE LAUNDRY. The laundry room, {this was 1952-53-54} had not one washer & dryer, but two washers, two dryers, which in those days were exorbitantly expensive. The room was huge, neat, with a wooden floor – you had plenty of space to hang up delicates.

 

          They had horses which my uncle tended, even shoed them.”

 

          I explain all these details to the teacher & class & then tell them I’m going into the house now to look around, to see how it’s changed. I tell them Waccabuc was heaven to me & I feel that heavenly feeling now being here again.

 

          *(WACCABUC MANSION, THE DESCRIPTION: What I am explaining is the happiness I had in this place, which parallels the bliss I had when I was with Laren.

 

          All that I describe gives me joy. This means that Laren & I have returned to our original relationship, from long ago, when it was blissful. We entered through the portal of ‘school of hard knocks,’ our lessons bore fruit.

 

          We are in Waccabuc—joy, bliss, happiness. We are together again. This is a prediction.

                    …………………………………………………………

 

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LOVER PREPARES FOR US

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LOVER PREPARES FOR US – LEAVING HER, COMING TO ME – END FOR

HER & A BAD MALE ‘FRIEND’

3-20-20-ERROL FLYNN BEHIND THE SCENES

 

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Interpreted for a friend

 

Unusual dream. I somehow stumble upon a video which features Errol Flynn ‘behind the scenes’—what he does in preparing for roles.

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*(ERROL FLYNN: This is your lover/husband Brandon who this dream says is preparing to be with you. It’s his next role.)

 

The first thing I see is him in a gym, lying on a table doing leg raises. He’s wearing some kind of shorts that really must be low cut as I can see his whole ass & the bottom of it—straight across & going downward–is covered with thick hair.

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          *(HAIRY BOTTOM OF THE ASS: To have a hairy ass is like moss on a rock, ‘a rolling stone gathers no moss.’ This is saying he’s gathered moss a long time—been inactive or ‘sitting on his ass—not rolling, not moving, not getting anywhere’.

          But now he’s moving, doing leg raises, really getting into shape for the next role. The hairiness is exposed or revealed, to others as well as himself, like ‘WTF have you been doing? You have not accomplished anything in the last years.’

          His next role is being with you.)*

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He’s buff & muscular, tight body, nothing like a body builder, no bulging muscles, just tight & hard. I glanced at this & a few other scenes, then I wanted to find it to go back to see it again & show some people.

 

*(TIGHT & HARD, BUFF BODY: Dreams are usually symbols of the non-physical so this is not about his body but his psychological, spiritual state. He’s in shape to move on, go to the next step.)*

 

The other scene that stood out was him in a large room. He’s sitting at a higher up chair, the rest of his cast of ‘Robin Hood & his merry men’ are all at what looks like blonde school desks. These men are a ‘chorus’ rehearsing before they film, because their singing is heard in the background of the movie.

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          *(HIGHER CHAIR: This means two things; one higher up is higher level of suffering but also higher understanding. ‘God whispers to us in our pleasures & shouts to us in our pain – pain is the megaphone of God.’ Higher is sometimes the Cross of Jesus – He was lifted up on it, it was his greatest pain. But through these Crosses we’re also lifted up spiritually & gain wisdom.

 

          This indicates he’s now on a higher level than his peers, those he hangs with to ‘have fun,’ called ‘merry men.’ The men are all learning because they’re sitting at

 

          SCHOOL DESKS: learning.

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REHEARSING: Preparing for next stages in life.

 

SINGING: When all is lost {like on the Titanic the band played on while they sank} & the only account of Jesus IN SONG was at the Last Supper – when He was about to face his Crucifixion. Singing is like an expression of calling out to the Absolute, when one is about to face a major disaster or dilemma, or about to embark upon a great work, it might be compared to ‘psyching oneself up.’

 

This is a group effort or chorus, so it looks like all his friends are ‘in the same boat,’ which in this case like the Titanic—they’re all sinking—all crying out together. It sounds like he & friends are affected—probably financially—by this CoronaVirus ‘Pandemic.’)*

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ROBIN HOOD: Why is Errol here portrayed in this role with merry men? Robin Hood was an endearing thief, who ‘stole from the rich, gave to the poor;’ he & his men were part of the poor. This forthcoming role might be like that, your lover & all his friends need money, he must leave his present situation & be with you because of the desperate need of security.)*

 

Errol is the star so he doesn’t have to sing, but he’s doing his part & once in a while sings a few lines, blending in. I am amazed at the elaborate rehearsal behind the scenes—really thorough.

 

Errol is wearing a pale green short cape {to the waist, but he’s sitting, I don’t see the garment over the rest of him} over a medieval loose white shirt. His hair is to the shoulders; the way the ancient men wore, possibly a ‘page boy’ which curls under, the hairdo is honey blonde, soft & very neat. He has a beatific look on his face, like an angel. I have never seen more handsome.

 

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*(HANDSOME LIKE AN ANGEL, BEATIFIC: This says he has evolved & risen up spiritually, his attitude, thoughts & feelings are now righteous—he’s ready to appreciate you, humble himself, be with God & you.

HONEY BLONDE BEAUTIFUL HAIR: The thoughts of Errol are sweet & beautiful—the thoughts of my Brandon.

 

PALE GREEN SHORT CAPE OVER A WHITE SHIRT, MEDIEVAL: This is several things, one, medieval is ‘old fashioned’ or ‘back in the day’ which means traditional. Marriage is a tradition, which is about being ready for it. The pale green cape is green, which means ‘life,’ it might say ‘ready for the way, the truth & the life’ getting off the broad highway to Hell. The white shirt being his undergarment is marriage, this is next to his heart, & being ‘pure in heart shall see God. He has turned around from being a thug to receiving God & you.)*

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As I said I stumbled upon this by accident, there’s a gay man to the right behind me, & there’s other people in the room – it’s a gathering. Most of them are not near me, doing other things, I see a few people higher up from me to the left front, working on something. I passed by the scenes but now I want to retrieve them & describe the one where he does leg raises & half his rear end is covered with hair.

 

As I explain this a man to my left back{he’s round}—wearing a slightly yellow/vanilla robe which has elaborate markings, lots black & other dark colors, in twirling designs all over it—I didn’t know he was interested in men—jumps up away from his desk to see. Since he goes this way I say,

 

*(ROBE WITH TWIRLY BLACK DESIGNS: His funeral, end of their relationship.)*

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‘I think his anus is also hairy, you can lick it.’ {I am referring through the screen.}

 

          *(LICK ASS, YOU CAN: This is being a wise guy saying, ‘You can kiss his ass good bye, through the screen. You’ll not get to see him again.’)*

 

(I’m referring to his imagination, not real life, as Errol is unattainable. It’s all fantasy.)

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*(GAY MEN, ONE TO MY RIGHT BACK, ONE TO MY LEFT BACK, THE SECOND I DID NOT KNOW WENT THAT WAY: These are men infatuated with Brandon. They are alerted – especially the second one – who is more relevant – that Brandon is getting ready to make a change, he’s going to leave their company. You have been intervening between him & these guys for a while, in fear of dire consequences & his disappointment when their promises go bust.

This symbol is you showing them ‘The relationships you had with Brandon will come to an end’—see, he’s ‘moving off his ass,’ preparing to be with me like I always said.)*

 

I then try to replay the video of what I saw. It was black & white. But these videos are two hours each, & finding the spot takes time.

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          *(FINDING THE SPOT: Searching for the answers takes time, one has to go through mental files again & again, I was meditating on this for say two hours or more.)*

 

I take the entire video out & I see it’s covered with some sort of silver on one side, kind of torn up, but lots of it. I put it back in, scroll & play, scroll & play, various scenes in color come up & it is musicals. Men & women playing parts & singing, on & on, none of it interests me & I ask a lady standing there if she likes musicals & she says no.

 

*(MUSICAL, PEOPLE ACTING & SINGING: What I said about the Merry Men singing applies here. These are people in real life who are now crying out—the drama of life is getting strong—this does not say ‘happiness’ but the opposite because the lady standing near me, who I ask if she likes musicals – these activities – says no. She is likely the ex of Brandon, who he’s leaving—this would be disagreeable to her, even traumatic.

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          This video is in color while when momentarily the tape is turned over & it is in black & white. This gave me clues to the meaning like so:

 

          VIDEO, ONE SIDE IN COLOR: This is the ‘here & now’, what is going on, the drama. It is showing on HER SIDE, the woman he lives with now;

anxiety (drama/anxiety usually go together).

 

          VIDEO, OTHER SIDE, THE ONE I MOSTLY WANT TO SEE, BLACK & WHITE: Black & white usually means ‘the writing on the wall,’ or ‘clear as the written word’—this would be prophecy, what is going to happen. You were meditating on the near future yesterday & this is showing you what’s happening with her, with him, & what will happen. For her there’s drama, unhappiness. For him he’s seen the Light, leaving her, coming to you, which he should have done long ago but it took time for him to get it.

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SILVER ON ONE SIDE, LOTS OF IT, TORN UP: This is my relationship with Brandon. It says it’s permanent but got ‘torn up,’ which means stop & go, we got torn up a few times & got back together.)*

 

I then turn the video to the other side (not logical but it’s a dream) & it’s black & white & I see other scenes of RH & his merry men—riding through the woods perhaps with Maid Marion on a horse wearing a long medieval dress with ornate dark twirly designs all over it.

 

          *(MAID MARION: Has the same funeral twirly design over her dress as the gay guy on his robe—the end of both of them, it’s his soon-to-be ex. Why on a horse?

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          HORSE: Horse means work—‘work-horse.’ He was with her because she paid all the bills, he used his money for himself. It’s a ‘marriage of convenience’ –no convenience, no marriage.)*

I exclaim,

“Oh, this is it – I recognize it by the music. {I was familiar with the music of Robin Hood movies.} Now I’ll find the scenes.

 

And so I go on the search for the scenes mentioned, especially the one with the hairy ass, for friends to see.

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           MEANING:

                     This dream explains in no uncertain terms what God has been telling you for months: Their breakup will be because of finances, they will go bankrupt, the thread that kept them together will break.

          You told her yourself she could not afford him, he was with her for resources; she chose not to believe it, now she’ll have to.

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          Besides the finances, this says he’s always loved you but could not step up to the plate, it took a lot of hardship to wake & shake him up. Before he was blind, but now he can see, Amazing Grace. He stated himself he ‘sold out’ to the devil for partying & popularity. No more partying, he can’t afford popularity, if he wants to survive & be happy, he has to chose the right path. You & God are the package deal, take it or leave it, he’s ready to take it.

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20 SAINTS HONOR ME!

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TWENTY SAINTS HONORING MY “MARTYRDOM”

 

We people are in a kind of tropical place and are having an outdoor sales like “garage sale”. We have all kinds of things laid out to buy. We are poor people like those in this area {where I live}.

 

*(TROPICAL PLACE: Heaven on earth, a place where spiritual people dwell or good people go from time to time to bask in the Light of God—Heavenly times of what is called ‘consolation,’ spiritual happiness.

 

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{These times on earth are not permanent, the good & the saints on earth never have a constant state of joy or happiness-the Catholic Church labels our sojourn here ‘the valley of tears’. Saints, for instance, battle demons, often not for themselves but for others. One good man said to me, ‘You have to go through Hell to get to Heaven.’}

 

These places which one goes to, sometimes ‘tropical’ are vacation times away from suffering.

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POOR PEOPLE: In this dream, these are the ‘poor in spirit’ that Jesus said ‘blessed are the poor’. They are those who have good hearts & are not attached or mesmerized by the things of the world & the flesh, they are attached to God alone. Apparently I am in good company here & momentarily we will be welcomed by Beings from a Higher World.

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GARAGE SALE, OUTDOOR: Need help on this Mother God, what is it? MomGod: You are getting rid of things you don’t need, detaching yourself, removing things to free yourself up of mental clutter.)*

At the “end of the day” or end of “sale” I see a vehicle arrive that is unique. It’s a convertible car that seats 3-4 people across and has several rows of these seats, like maybe 5.

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*(SALE, END OF IT: This would be when you have emptied yourself of everything you don’t need. You have cleared your mind & life. You are cleansed for God, becoming ‘poor in spirit’ which does not mean miserable but detached/empty.)*

This elegant, large vehicle arrives totally filled with people (about 20) and they are in contrast to who’s here.

These people are from a way higher bracket than those here – they are ARISTOCRATS and they look and dress the part.

 

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*(ARISTOCRATS, FROM A WAY HIGHER BRACKET: These are saints from Heaven who arrive at the exact time you are EMPTIED FOR GOD. They are, as the dream will pan out, HONORING YOU for something {by their arrival, their very presence honors you}. TWENTY SAINTS is a great deal of honor!

 

DRESS & LOOK THE PART: A saint would be dressed in Light or Celestial Garb; they would be ‘clothed in Light’ like Our Lady is ‘The Woman Clothed with the Sun.’

 

VEHICLE, CONVERTIBLE, SEATS 20: The physical vehicle is a symbol of the spiritual transport. In the Old Testament it describes ‘Chariots of Fire,’ which are the Light saints travel in.)*

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It seems they are from England, more men than women. Men dressed in suits of thin, light wool, grey spring material, beautiful suits with white shirts underneath, and the women have on a lot of pink. They are so outstanding that none of the people even greets them – they are from “another world.” But I do greet them and they are startled a bit as no one dares speak to them somehow, they can be intimidating.

 

          *(SPEAK TO THEM, NO ONE BUT I DARES SPEAK TO THEM & THEY ARE A BIT STARTLED: To have contact, communication, intimacy with any Great Being – You have to come up to their level. They are startled at my spiritual level, which this dream denotes as ‘spiritual martyrdom’ – a very High Grace. If they are startled, I have come a long way!

 

          ANOTHER WORLD: Heaven in this dream.

          ENGLAND, FROM: I think of England & English people in the highest terms as far as culture, manners, deportment, being aristocrats, so therefore, in my mind, this symbolizes the Celestial Beings.

 

          MEN, MORE MEN THAN WOMEN: Not sure why this is but could be I have more men friends in Heaven than women. Notice most of the celebrity souls I helped get to Heaven, there is only one female. It has to do with love on earth – I was interested in the men, much more than in the women, being infatuated or in love creates a bond, so I was able to do something for them when the time came.

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          WHITE SHIRTS, GREY SUMMER SUITS: The white shirts are ‘pure in heart’ {shall see God.} The elegant thin material wool suits – wool is sheep, ‘My sheep know my voice’- these are those who are obedient to God.

 

DRESSED IN PINK, THE WOMEN: In this dream probably means happiness, as ‘in the pink.’)*

I say,

“We were waiting for you….we expect you at this event every year.”

 

          *(YEARLY EVENT, WE EXPECT YOU HERE EVERY YEAR: This is a holiday, a feast day or a Memorial Day, even Easter. It connects with me; what does it commemorate? It’s something spiritual, as twenty saints came to honor me–& I EXPECTED THEM!)*

It was a SPECIAL PRIVILEGE OR BOON THAT THEY CAME. They look around to see if there’s anything they can buy.

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          *(SOMETHING TO BUY: This would be a symbol of what they are honoring; a picture, statue, some keepsake or souvenir of this day or event.)*  

I think they pick up an item that is a square like a frame, and on that square on some sort of not solid background is something black, sparkling, like large sequins. I say,

 

          *(FRAME, BLACK SEQUINS INSIDE: This sounds like death, a picture of it framed. The fact that sequins emanate light, shine or sparkle, says ‘this death reflects light; it is Holy or Sanctified.)*

“They have some good things here,”

And one of the aristocrats agrees. They were taller and their faces more elegant than the ones of regular people.

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*(GOOD THINGS HERE, ONE OF THE ARISTOCRATS AGREES: We agree that this martyrdom was spiritually good.

 

TALLER, MORE ELEGANT FACES THAN REGULAR PEOPLE: To me the stature of the Saints indicates their spiritual greatness—the height they achieved in God’s Grace. I saw St Joan of Arc as six feet tall & was told my height was the same as hers. Then I saw my Dad, who I helped get into Heaven, he was the size of a dwarf, maybe four feet! I smiled as I bent down to greet him because here was the Dad I always ‘looked up to’ & now I was tall, he so short—it seemed funny. I’m sure it was a humbling experience for him.)*

Somehow in this dream I also saw a young girl who was embroidering something with jewels. Was it an outfit? It’s kind of like frames like the one mentioned and she was entering jewels onto it, like rows onto these kind of squares, but yet, somehow these were going to be clothes. She was “ahead of the game.”   She was getting ready for something important and didn’t need any help.

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*(YOUNG GIRL GETTING READY: This has to be me at a young age, getting ready for my future.

 

JEWELS, EMBROIDERING SOMETHING WITH THEM: Jewels are Graces, Gifts & Anointing from God. This explains I was working on obtaining these Gifts from God all my life, I did not need help {from people}—it was God & me. This will explain I-she was embroidering those items that were like frames, & they would become ‘clothes.’ The frames have pictures or chapters inside of my life – these becoming clothes are as previously explained, the clothes of the saints are made of Light. Mantles of Prophets are their Anointing or Power, Holy Mary is ‘Clothed with the Sun.’ This shows that I worked diligently from an early age to receive the Gifts of God, I coveted these Gifts, even Martyrdom.)*

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MEANING

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          The question is, what exactly are these Saints commemorating of mine? What martyrdom? The Divine Stigmata is martyrdom, but that was long ago – it started on Oct 9, 1982 {& took eighteen years to fulfill.}

 

This it seems then refers to my recent temporary death, where I died during at least one of five heart attacks. This dream acts as if this is not a mere physical occurrence, but a voluntary spiritual event—a sacrifice.

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I will then agree with God that what I went through over a certain person I loved, praying & suffering for him day in, day out, for years—fighting his many demons, was my sacrifice. He then proceeded to reject me, not speaking to me for nine months. During this time I suffered with so much stress that it turned into horrible, painful anxiety attacks, fifteen of them over two or three months, & some of these unknown to me were heart attacks. And I must have died temporarily at some point & came back.

God puts her Stamp of Sanctity on this part of my life – I did not have to go through with it.

 

She told me to return to the world & ‘have fun’ & because of obedience I fell into this ‘love affair’ with results that followed. God sees it as holiness. Thank you dear Mother God.

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DIE IN THE ARMS OF JESUS

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2-16-17-I DIE IN THE ARMS OF JESUS – Dream, Vision interpreted &

explained

 

 

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RASA: FOOD FOR SOULS BY HER “DEATH” & SHE COMES BACK TO

LIFE JUST AS JESUS DID

 

(‘Like’ Jesus in terms of similarity, not saying ‘as great’ as He.)

 

I had two dreams in particular that explain this phenomenon, which I have never experienced as I have never physically died before. Yes, I have seen God “face to face” but I more alive than being on earth. This time I literally, physically died and “went to the other side,” but I have no memory of tunnels or people like relatives “waiting for me”, just dreams which explained what had happened. I will try and cut them short as they are long and tedious and I don’t have the patience or time to write it all out.

 

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GOD ACCEPTS MY DEATH THE SAME AS THAT OF JESUS’. GOD TURNS MY “BODY AND BLOOD” INTO A “EUCHARIST” OR SPIRITUAL FOOD FOR SOULS– WHERE IT’S GIVEN TO THOUSANDS OF SOULS IN PURGATORY TO ASCEND INTO HEAVEN.

In this dream/vision I was called to perform. First I was told to do a comedy act. I did it but then searched for the door for the strippers as I had to change into what I really do.

*(PERFORM: An activity, sometimes public, where one does something, in this case, for the benefit of others. In other dreams it might mean for one’s own benefit, but when you perform ‘on stage’ it means for others.

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COMEDY ACT, FIRST: In this dream, it means ‘laugh, smile, be happy, even though you die. It’s for the benefit of others.

 

DOOR FOR STRIPPERS: It says in this dream ‘what I specialize in’–& what would that be?–my ministry to Purgatory. Yes, I am a dancer, the ‘Stripper for God,’ I gave many sermons before I danced, counseled men between shows, & spoke of God to the media, but compared to this, it’s a small number of people. The great number of people I minister to ARE THE DEAD.)*

There were two audiences in this club. On the stage you could turn one way or the other. On one side were about fifty people, on the other, many thousands, and the audience were a few feet down.

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*(AUDIENCE, 50 PEOPLE VS THOUSANDS: On earth I am reaching scant few during this time, in this dream, but in Purgatory I am by this action or ‘performance’ reaching thousands. It refers to my heart attack, quickie death & resurrection or return.)*

After I danced to the small audience I walked down to the lower, and I am not wearing the black sequin gown I saw in my arms, it’s a beautiful light blue diaphanous one – it flows to the floor.

 

*(DRESS, BLACK SEQUINS AT FIRST, NOW WEAR A DIAPHANOUS LIGHT BLUE: The black sequins say ‘you died, it’s your funeral. But now you appear in the beauty of God – light blue is a spiritual color associated with Our Blessed Mother.)*

 

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I “parade” in front of this huge audience who are on my right, and I show off my right breast. Under my breast I am holding a small white table top. On top of my breast hangs a necklace which is just one oval, white pearls in the middle and light green or mint pearls around it.

 

*(NECKLACE, OVAL, WHITE PEARLS IN MIDDLE, LIGHT GREEN AROUND, ON MY BREAST: Jewels are Gifts, Graces, Awards & Anointings. I am here displaying some sort of gift which is associated with WISDOM & LOVE as pearls are wisdom, & it’s on my breast, which means love. I am showing my love/grace to these souls – transmitting it to them, they are seeing it & presumably receiving the goodness of this grace.

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*(TABLE, SMALL WHITE UNDER BREAST: An altar like an altar for the Holy Mass. My life due to love is sacrificed for others.)*

I see one female looking at me in wonder, her eyebrows up and her mouth open like “wow.”

 

*(WOW-FEMALE LOOKING IN WONDER: A female soul in Purgatory is entranced by what she sees & receives in this grace. Perhaps she is a symbol for them all.)*

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MEANING:

Prior to this I was carrying the black sequin gown and accessories. This represents MY FUNERAL or DEATH. I “died” from multiple heart attacks according to this.

{In real life indeed I went to the hospital & after many exams they found I had several heart attacks but did not know how many—they told me they try to figure by the enzymes in the blood, but it’s not an ‘exact science.’ My opinion, out of the fifteen ‘extreme anxiety attacks’ I had five of them were actually the heart.”}

I appear to one audience on one side – the earth – but now I have turned to “the other side” which is “a few feet lower” or Souls in Purgatory, their bodies being “a few feet under ground.”

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My breast I am showing off represents MY LOVE. I died “out of Love” the way Jesus did. Had Jesus’ not died out of love, his crucifixion would have been like any other normal death – but it was SACRED, a great martyrdom (even though he was taken out of the tomb three days later, revived and healed according to the BBC documentary, ‘Jesus in Kashmir’.)

The table top – white – under my breast signifies ALTAR. The oval jewel on top of breast says, “this is a Sacrament…- a Eucharist, your Sacred “Body and Blood” or the grace thereof, you are showing to these many souls, and they are being helped by this. They are in wonderment at what you have done. You have died for love and they benefited.

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DREAM POPE PIUS XII (HE REPRESENTS OUR LORD, THE POPE IS SEEN AS “CHRIST ON EARTH”)

It’s a tradition in my family that when we dream of the Pope, someone is about to die or in this case, has died. (We dread such dreams.)

The DREAM

(There is a rock in my kitchen that I found – highly unusual. It’s round with a circumference of 8.5” and has what I call “hieroglyphics” all over it. It’s like a “message.” The color is mottled dark brown with medium brown. This rock will be mentioned)

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I am in a place in a balcony where Pope Pius XII is sitting on some kind of chair and below him are thousands of people who admire him.

 

*(POPE PIUS XII IN A CHAIR HIGH UP: He stands in for Jesus – It’s ‘The chair of Peter’– This will be to fulfill a promise Jesus made to me in Jan 1978—‘I promise that you will die in my arms.’

 

BALCONY: Pedestal, place where one is seen.

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BELOW HIM THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE WHO ADMIRE HIM: Both he & Jesus himself whom he represents are greatly admired.)*

 

I’m in this balcony near him, later I see my Mom and brother seated next to each other right at the edge, with the Pope maybe ten feet beyond on a sort of “stage”. They are in dim light, as it would be in a movie theater, the audience is darkened, the stage is lit. The Pope is in a very bright light as he’s the center of attraction; the “spotlight” is on him.

 

          *(MOM & BROTHER WATCHING FROM DIM LIGHT NEAR THE POPE: These two were my enemies in life but they made it to Heaven. For some reason God has permitted them to be present at my death – it says they are ‘on the edge’ near him.

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ON THE EDGE: In this dream could mean they are on the ‘edge’ of Heaven or  its margins not in a high place like the saints—or else it could mean they were on edge about my moving toward death & dying, probably the former, not the latter—as I don’t think they were concerned about me.

 

          My question to MomGod: Mother these two were the bane of my youth. Both were cruel & cold hearted—bro was this way mostly because Mom wanted him to. Why on earth are they there at my death & why are they the only ones? I mean I have my grandmother & my Dad who loved me could have been there. I sort of resent their presence here at this Sacred time.

 

          MomGod: It was because they did not love you God put them there & made them watch the Holy Reception you received from Jesus. They wanted to believe you had no value & led others to believe so, but here they were shown your great spiritual development, that you died in the arms of Jesus–& there could be no greater death. This informed, & corrected their sick concept of you, it educated them, it might have shamed them.)*

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The Pope had BREAD IN HIS HANDS and he fumbles it or drops it and I jump to his area to help, (as it’s really bad to drop bread, it’s like the Eucharist). The bread turns into the rock/ball I described and it falls kind of behind the Pope.

 

*(BREAD IN HIS HANDS, fumbles it & drops it: This is my body which falls & dies, as if by the hands of Jesus. It’s compared to the Eucharist in this dream.

         

          ROCK/BALL WITH HIEROGLYPHICS: This is my body which has been marked / anointed by God, it’s like a message written on my body. The message could say ‘she works for God, she’s sent by God, this is her message, etc.’)*

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In my attempt – I have no idea how this happened – I stumble on top of the Pope, so like he’s embracing me and I am kind of in his lap. He is surprised, so am I. It’s like I’m sharing the spotlight with him with all those people observing me. It’s highly unusual and somehow it has to do with the role of women, that women are not supposed to be “in the lap” of the Pope so close to him or sharing his seat and yes it has to be, somehow God allowed it to happen. It implies or declares union or commonality with him, his acceptance of me and therefore women.

 

*(LAP, IN HIS LAP: There are multiple meanings here. First, I am ONE with Our Lord, ‘No longer I live, but Christ in me. I am in the great light or spiritual height He is in, & we’re both surprised.

 

ROLE OF WOMEN: It has to do also with my message or mission, the role of women, female empowerment, & God’s will to bring back worship of Mother God & Matriarchy.

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ACCEPTANCE OF WOMEN: It could also have to do with the fact that Jesus himself ordained me as a Priest to show that he wants females in the priesthood. I have at this time said many Masses for Souls, privately.)*

When I “fell” into his lap I stumbled, it was not on purpose. It’s like I “share his glory” and I did not mean to do that, was just trying to help as he dropped the bread.

 

*(FELL INTO HIS LAP, NOT ON PURPOSE: This excuses me from vainglory or pride. I was trying to do God’s work, not trying to share his glory – it was He, Jesus, who gave me his glory for trying to help.)*

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So I move away from this stage, go past where Mom and brother are, and someone calls me “back” into the “dim” light where they are in and past through the balcony I guess to the exit. I am in amazement as Mom and bro have no inkling or awareness of my significance or the role I played, which this dream explains. They still think of me as a “nobody.”

 

*(DIM LIGHT, MOM & BRO IN IT: They made it to Heaven but in a lower part, they are not great celestial beings or saints.

It was explained earlier – they wanted to have a low opinion of me, they did not respect me. They were apparently forced by God to be present at the Glory God gave me. They might have kept their ideas or feelings for another moment, but this would clear up fast.

 

EXIT, MY EXIT: I leave the underworld of death & the Glory of Heaven & head back to earth. It’s not my time.)*

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MEANING

I was baffled and it took me a long time to get this dream, as it is so unbelievable.

“I promise you that you will die in my arms”

Jesus said to me in Jan., 1978 the night of our “betrothal” where he gave me three rings.

This was when I asked him,

“Promise me that I will not die without paying for my sins.”

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“Dropping the ball” is the end of something, as when the ball drops in Times Square at the end of the old year, beginning of new. This ball is like a person, it signifies me, and there is a message,

“Rasa, the Pope of your childhood, this Pope, has ‘dropped’ you or signifies your life has ended but a new one is beginning.

Jesus is receiving you into his lap, his arms, on his Throne (the Pope stands in his stead, all Catholics are taught that), in the LIGHT OF GLORY and all these many Souls in Purgatory (the audience below) are receiving the benefits of your death and resurrection. You are the Holy Communion to them.

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When I leave this spot and go backward, I am leaving behind Mom and brother. They are in Heaven together as I predicted many years ago – he would join her, she loved only him and awaited him.

But they are not in a “great light” as I just died in, very bright Light of Glory.

I was confused about this and God told me,

“Where they are is dim compared to where you have reached in Heaven. The light is all relative. You reached the Light of the great saints…..this is Jesus – the Holy Father is his symbol, letting you know “this is death” (as to the tradition we always dream of the Pope at a family death.)

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Now your death is over and you return to the “dim light” where these relatives are and back to earth. The earth is not “glory.” The spotlight was the “Glory” of a great height in Heaven.

Thank you God, for all this.

I might meditate further and give more thoughts later on. This is deep.

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RETURN OF HUBBY

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PREDICTS HUBBY BREAK WITH OTHER WOMAN & REUNION WITH ME-

IT’S CERTAIN

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Dream interpreted for a friend

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          I am inside somewhere in a bath where the entire wall is a shower stall, with two showers. In one shower 10’ from me there is lover Hank with his live-in, while I am under this other shower with a female who loves me, smaller than me, like a ‘best friend.’

 

          *(SHOWER, UNDER THE, TAKING A BATH: This concerns your lover husband Hank, who recently made a post praising his live-in & you wondered why.

 

          ‘TAKING A BATH’ WHICH INCLUDES SHOWERS IS ‘BEING BAPTIZED’ & BAPTISM OF EXPERIENCE MEANS SUFFERING—HAVING SOMETHING HAPPEN YOU DON’T LIKE. HANK IS HURTING.

 

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          HE’S WITH HIS LIVE-IN BUT SHE’S TAKING A BATH TOO, WHICH MEANS ONE OF TWO THINGS, EITHER SHE’S HURTING WITH HIM—THE RELATIONSHIP STINKS—OR SHE’S THERE TO SHOW HE’S HURTING WITH HER—HE’S MISERABLE. OR MOST LIKELY, BOTH ARE HURTING WITH ONE ANOTHER.)*

 

          Everything is normal for a while, just showering, when it’s nearly finished & Hank decides to do something romantic—he embraces his gf & begins to kiss her. This revolts me, I don’t want to see it, & I turn my back to them & get closer to my friend, holding her in my arms. {I already know this is my flesh I’m embracing–I am the God Self.}

 

          *(KISSES, EMBRACES GF UNDER THE SHOWER: Although he’s miserable, he knows you’re looking, so he wants to antagonize, provoke you into doing something so he puts on this show of romance, kissing, like he did once in real life. You knew it was fake—he kept kissing her for you to see saying ‘I love her-I love her.’

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          He knows this would disturb you so he’s trying to make you jealous, provoke you into contacting him. He does this action in an internet post.

 

          GET CLOSER TO MY FRIEND, TURN BACK ON HIM:   But instead of reacting you turn your back to him & get closer to your God-union.)*

 

          As I stand there I look up at the shower head & see the water is getting less, in fact, it’s about to stop, just a trickle & no more water, no more shower for all of us.

 

          *(SHOWER, NO MORE, WATER STOPS: This heralds the end of the suffering for you & the lover as you plan to see him soon.

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  Question to Mother God: Usually water is grace. Why is ‘taking a bath-baptism’ denote suffering?

          MomGod: It’s just an idiom like ‘Cry Uncle’ when you’re wrestling & can’t take it any more – or ‘throw in the towel’ when you can’t endure the fight. Somehow along the way ‘I took a bath’ became a negative experience in people’s mind. Maybe it was the old days when we didn’t have hot & cold running water. It often meant losing money. Also the connection with baptism is we are baptized or initiated toward God when things get rough. God ‘whispers to us in our pleasures & shouts to us in our pain—pain is the megaphone of God.’)*

 

          Later I see my good husband talk to me about his heart troubles. He says ‘My doctor told me’ but the rest of it I can’t recall except hubby says ‘It’s going to be alright.’

 

          *(HEART TROUBLE: Emotions hurt, this is Hank who has ‘seen the light’ & become your ‘good husband’ instead of the monster he was. God reached him through the pain of your absence, which will end soon, so he says ‘It’s going to be alright.’

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DOCTOR: Someone who helps, heals you, comforts or assures you. Whoever it is—maybe his guardian angel—tells him our affair will be alright. )*

 

          In another scene I’m in my kitchen yard when a suspicious man has arrived, bringing some sort of van inside my yard – kind of like a food van or a simple square van carrying supplies. I ask him what he’s doing here & he says something that doesn’t make sense. I say,

 

          *(SUSPICIOUS MAN: This is Hank spying on you.

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          VAN, BRINGS VAN WITH SUPPLIES, MAYBE FOOD: Hank is thinking of how he can regain your favors, maybe brings you supplies, gifts, favors, food, etc. But he

 

          SENSE, DOESN’T MAKE SENSE: because he doesn’t know what to give you, he doesn’t have much to give. He doesn’t know what to do, can’t figure it out, his mind doesn’t make sense.)*

 

          “At three o’clock in the morning?”

 

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*(THREE O CLOCK IN THE MORNING: Is a sign of drama / trauma in a relationship. In one of Al Green’s songs he says ‘someone on the phone, at three o clock in the morning’ meaning there is BIG trouble – a breakup someone is trying to resolve.)*

 

          As soon as he came in he also did something suspicious, he put a round lock on my garden gate, he bent down & secured it so that I could not run out fast—so I imagined he might be planning to assault me some way.

 

          *(LOCK, PUTS LOCK ON GATE, SUSPICIOUS: Hank wants to lock you in, keep you where he can get to you to make love & he fears your escape. This is his want & need, his anxiety.)*

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          I am leery of him & manhandle him, like rough him up. He’s a sort of a thin, weak guy, maybe black glasses, a Mr. Peeper type–& he’s shook up by me. Around him he’s holding a dull red blanket the way Indians would – his small vehicle also has panels of that same color. I never did figure out what he was about.

 

          *(MR PEEPERS, THIN WEAK GUY: This is Hank as although he looks completely masculine, he’s very much afraid of you & timid as can be. He fears you, he’s even said so himself. You roughing him up is in his mind, from past traumatic events with his mother – he’s reliving those events in his mind, & projecting this onto you.

 

          The red blanket he pulls around him is his Post Traumatic Stress—the small van he’s brought with red panels are the things he wants to offer you for love. There’s something pitiful about all this.)*

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          The scene changes. I am in a high-up apt, like 2-3 floors up. I leave my front door slightly ajar & tiny little black dogs with fluffy fur come in, first one, then another. They’re wearing narrow grey & blue coats, more like bands around their shoulders. I go to pet one little one & he rolls on his back – he’s only about 8” long & so is his twin.

 

*(DOGS OF FEMALE NEIGHBOR, TWO TINY, ONE REGULAR: Since dogs are senses someone you know is trying to scope you out – investigate what you’re doing or where your head is. This might be Hank’s gf wondering if you’re still seeing him – don’t know why any other female would care that much—all your relationships with females are casual, no reason for them to strain their brains to see what you’re doing.

 

BLACK HAIR: The description has these clues: She is stout, black hair is dark thoughts, or thoughts of fear about her & Hank ending.

 

CLOTHES, BLACK TRIM ON THEM: Black trim on clothes is like black bands men wear to honor a death, this says ‘is this my funeral with Hank? Middle aged might hint at they’ve been together a long time—maybe the relationship is ‘worn out’ or its purpose is ‘used up’.

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BLACK DOGS: Then again all her ‘senses-dogs’ are black. And their bands around shoulders are grey & blue. This is her mind, grey-blue, sad thoughts. Her thoughts & senses are filled with sadness & fear of the end of their relationship—she believes it’s over. And since she’s come to you, you are the reason. She has ‘unleashed’ her thoughts & ESP on you—not on any other female.

 

ROLLS ON BACK, DOG: This is the submissive or helpless posture – it’s what Hank’s gf feels toward you. It’s common in many animals to try to avoid confrontation with a larger, stronger adversity, or when they give up, no more fight—to show ‘I’m not going to oppose you, I submit.’ This sometimes, not always, saves their life & limb.

 

DOG, TINY, 8”: Have never seen a clue like this, MomGod, why tiny?

MomGod: This is like a small intuition or HINT, it’s not an absolute revelation, but there are two of them, that makes up for the size.

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DOOR AJAR: Means I am open to something, in this case, the thoughts & senses of Hank’s gf. I left my soul or unconscious slightly open – I picked up her mind set.)*

 

          I go onto the landing or porch of the apt & below is a medium black dog – about 40 lbs, a mixed breed, looking up at me. I sense a female neighbor to the left but don’t see her – are these her dogs? I imagine her appearance as such: Stout, middle aged, clothing trimmed in black, black hair.

 

          The scene changes & I’m in my upper back yard looking down at my lower back yard, but the dimensions are I am much higher, the bottom lower than real life.

 

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          Down below I now see tan dogs, like boxers, cavorting in is it snow? One looks up at me.

 

          *(TAN DOGS, BOXERS, LOOK UP AT ME: These are your inner senses, not hers, not depressed. Tan is contemplation, receiving from God & what you get is happy—the dog looking at you is looking at God—there’s a large difference in height {of God where you are} & depth of an inner sense.

 

          SNOW: Deception. Snow is silent & appears innocent & beautiful, but it can be dangerous on the road or the Alps when hiking or skiing. The dog ‘cavorting’ in the snow is having play or in a way, seeing through the deception or the unknown—You are picking up revelations from God, getting through the tangle of deceit or the unknown pertaining to this situation.)*

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          All the outdoor scenes are night.

 

          *(NIGHT: When there is no light, one cannot see, one cannot understand what is going on. This dream reveals the truth, however, it breaks through the darkness & shows the Light or Truth.)*

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PREDICTS NEW RELIGION SUCCESS

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SIGNIFICANT DREAMS PREDICT SUCCESS FOR NEW RELIGION &

MENTIONS THE COLLABORATORS WILLIAM BOND & AJAX THE GREAT!

 

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3-8-20-READY 2 PERFORM-VEILED LADY-TATTOOS

 

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          In this dream there’s a long, complicated preparation for me to go on stage again.

 

          *(PERFORMANCE, ON STAGE:  In this dream, something that I will reveal to the public.  It isn’t myself per se, it is the New Religion – a product of my mind.)*

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          I have helpers, attendants, & we are extremely busy every day.  It seems that I have gotten into great shape & I’m in a room with people helping me dress.  Someone standing by who never thought about my age before is looking at me – I am impressive – & asks how old I am.

 

          I know I am 73, {actually 74 but this dream wants me to be 73} but an attendant/friends feels I look much younger & wants to avoid any conflicts about my age, & says to the man,

 

          “She’s 43”

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*(AGE 43:  This was about the year I started a business venture that became meaningful & successful.  This could be making a parallel:  ‘As the business went, so will this.’)*

 

          and the man believes it.  They were both stooping on the floor, my friend assisting with my dress, not sure what the other guy is doing.  But the other guy is younger & seems to be wearing a fancy grey suit like the guys in suits I just downloaded, a very thin expensive grey, with maybe even a top hat he’s planning to wear.  {The guys in the images were dressed for weddings.}  He was really curious about this for the first time; he knew me but never thought about it.

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          *(MALE ATTENDANT HELPING WITH DRESS:  This might be William Bond as he wrote some significant chapters in this book.  I had dreams when we first started about his contribution as well as that of Ajax the Great.  We were symbolized by a tree with three trunks that were intertwined, twisting together, & it was an great omen of  great success.

 

  My attendants are seen as helping me get ready to perform, with the dress, the hair, the promotion, etc.

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          YOUNGER MAN: dressed in fancy grey suit maybe with top hat, like the grooms recently I downloaded:  Sounds like my lover & that somehow my publication of this book, new religion, will somehow connect with our marriage.  I don’t think this dream is about the marriage itself because of the last part, the women gathering.  Why he is here I’ve not yet ascertained.  Why is he here, Mother God?

MomGod:  Notice he is STOOPING OR KNEELING: at your feet.  This shows a change of attitude where you are in charge.  The connection could be that you put him on hold during this—the writing of the New Religion—you sacrificed seeing him so you could focus on God’s work, & God, since you took care of Her business, took care of yours.  She put this man, who had previously abused you, at your feet.)*

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          Me going to perform is a huge event because I’ve not been on stage for over thirty years.  The preparations are hair, dress, shoes, the right presentation, music, venue for act, promotion to get an audience, etc.

 

          *(PREPARATIONS:  It took many elements to pull together the ideas of the religion & write its articles, & its illustration.  This is saying that not since thirty years have I done anything as meaningful or important as this.  That is a huge prediction!)*

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          It seems that now I’m ready & waiting to go on backstage.  My dress is puffed out, the kind you’d wear for a ball in the old days; it’s combo of medium dark sparkly blue & gold, an old-fashioned design, like the kind that opens like curtains in front, the blue is on the outside, the gold inside.  The blue is not sequins but gives a semi-glow like them, like sparkle chips.

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          *(BACKSTAGE, WAITING:  Something imminent you’re going to do, about to happen.  Obviously your performance does not have to be physical, ‘in the flesh,’ you presenting a project is like you yourself being presented, the project is a part of you going out before the public.

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          DRESS, PUFFED OUT LIKE FOR A BALL, LIKE THE OLD DAYS:  This signifies importance, something striking, like a peacock strutting out, showing its tail, it’s beautiful & is an event—like a ball where people gather, they take it as meaningful or important.  It definitely foretells ‘public event, gathering, festivity.’

 

          BLUE & GOLD, SPARKLY, DESIGN LIKE CURTAINS OPENED:  The curtains opening again spells ‘public event’ & this event, like the dress, is striking, it makes a mark.  Gold is love; it is a product & gathering of love, for love, in this case, the love of God.  Blue is one of the colors of Our Lady, the sparkle denotes something that shines, light coming off it, reflecting.  In this case it is God’s Love & Light.)*

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          My hair is medium honey blonde, bouffant, but I complain to my attendants that it must be teased more on top, it’s too flat.  But where are my attendants?  I don’t see them around any more as I wait in the room to go on.

 

*(ATTENDANTS:  Those helping with the project—they were three—William Bond, Ajax the Great & my web-man.  They aren’t here any more because the work is finished, which is a good sign.

 

HONEY BLONDE HAIR:  Sweet thoughts of Love.)*  

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 At the last minute I find in my hair on top of my head a white plastic thing that somewhat resembles a ukulele—I don’t see strings or anything, it’s like its just all-white plastic resembling that shape, maybe 10” or so long, not a full foot, smaller than a real ukulele.  I take it out as I cannot dance with it.

 

          *(UKULELE:  A musical instrument of this nature means frolic, joy, mirth.  A ukulele is small & cute, like a child’s toy, it’s music is cute.  This is fun, laughter, being jolly & happy.  This on top of your head, in your hair, is your thoughts & feelings related to this project, & most likely the project itself gives a sense of joy.

 

          HAIR, FLAT:  You did not want this religion, project, book of it to be ‘flat’ which would mean ordinary, like a plateau, not dramatic.  You want it to have a lively, fun sense to it.  It is not to be taken a tongue-in-cheek, either, so you do not present it as such, you do not ‘advertise’ the fun of it—you ‘take it out of your hair because you cannot dance with it’ but it remains there in spirit, in the underlying idea.)* 

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          When I first got there it seemed like there were only five people in the audience.  At first I was wondering if that’s enough, but then I thought,

 

          “So what, if only five people are there {they all seem like women} I start with that.  It’s an event, I can do this no matter what.

 

          *(AUDIENCE, SMALL, I DON’T CARE:  You did not do this for popularity but for the long run.  You hope the religion will catch on & continue after your death.  And so, if only five women accept it now, you still wanted to write it.  It’s for the future generations.)*

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          But strangely, as I wait, I hear more & more people – it seems like all women – fill the place.  I don’t see them, just hear them.  I hear music & its familiar music for English people – stuff they love, & it’s charming.  I guess they’re playing tapes of an orchestra.  Then I hear a woman talking loudly, like making statements in an English accent, a speech or introduction of some sort. They’re getting ready for my performance, getting into the mood – someone is helping them get ready – get in the mood – is it a man associate of mine?

 

          *(MORE & MORE PEOPLE GATHERING, WOMEN:  This might be saying that there will be no immediate audience, but after a time, they will gather, & it appears there is an important man here who helps.  I believe that man is William Bond—his work prepares the women for this religion, because he is a man & agrees with it, he gives them confidence.  And ‘being familiar,’ the music, is that when someone ‘you know’ agrees with something, it helps you accept it. That could be why I hear English music & the woman speaking in an English accent.  These women are they who hear William {he has chapters in the religion}, this makes them comfortable, sounds right, ‘music to their ears’.  It is not a prediction that only English woman will catch onto this – it says that he, being a man, will help women accept this.  Why?  Because they are afraid of men, & so he takes away that fear, & also men have traditionally been in charge, so it’s like the dear old Dad saying, ‘OK girls, it’s a new day, time to change, go ahead, do it, you have my approval.’)*

 

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          *(PERFORMANCE, ON STAGE:

 In this dream, something that I will reveal to the public.  It isn’t myself per -, it is the New Religion – a product of my mind.

          In other dreams, anything you PRESENT to the public could be seen as performance.)*

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 *(AGE 43: This was about the year I started a business venture that became meaningful & successful.  This could be making a parallel:  ‘As the business went, so will this.’)*

 

          *(MALE ATTENDANT HELPING WITH DRESS:

  This might be William Bond as he wrote some significant chapters in this book distinctly explaining why women must take over.  This ratifies all that I say.  I had dreams when we first started about his contribution as well as that of Ajax the Great.  We were symbolized by a tree with three trunks that were intertwined, twisting together, & it was an great omen of great success.

  My attendants are seen as helping me get ready to perform, with the dress, the hair, the promotion, etc.

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          YOUNGER MAN: dressed in fancy grey suit maybe with top hat, like the grooms recently I downloaded:  Sounds like my lover & that somehow my publication of this book, new religion, will somehow connect with our marriage.  I don’t think this dream is about the marriage itself, but why he is here I’ve not yet ascertained.  Why is he here, Mother God?

 

MomGod:  Notice he is STOOPING OR KNEELING: at your feet.  This shows a change of attitude where you are in charge.  The connection could be that you put him on hold during this—the writing of the New Religion—you sacrificed seeing him so you could focus on God’s work, & God, since you took care of Her business, took care of yours.  She put this man, who had previously abused you, at your feet.)*

*(PREPARATIONS:  It took many elements to pull together the ideas of the religion & write its articles, & its illustration.  This is saying that not since thirty years have I done anything as meaningful or important as this.  That is a huge prediction!)*

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*(BACKSTAGE, WAITING:  Something imminent you’re going to do, about to happen.  Obviously your performance does not have to be physical, ‘in the flesh,’ you presenting a project is like you yourself being presented, the project is a part of you going out before the public, & we know it’s the book ‘Woman, Thou Art God.’

 

          DRESS, PUFFED OUT LIKE FOR A BALL, LIKE THE OLD DAYS:  This signifies importance, something striking, like a peacock strutting out, showing its tail, it’s beautiful & is an event—like a ball where people gather, they take it as meaningful or important.  It definitely foretells ‘public event, gathering, festivity.’

 

          BLUE & GOLD, SPARKLY, DESIGN LIKE CURTAINS OPENED:  The curtains opening again spells ‘public event’ & this event, like the dress, is striking, it makes a mark.  Gold is love; it is a product & gathering of love, for love, in this case, the love of God.  Blue is one of the colors of Our Lady, the sparkle denotes something that shines, light coming off it, reflecting.  In this case it is God’s Love & Light.)*

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*(ATTENDANTS:  Those helping with the project—they were three—William Bond, Ajax the Great & my web man.  They aren’t here any more because the work is finished, which is a good sign.

 

HONEY BLONDE HAIR:  Sweet thoughts of Love.)*

 

*(MORE & MORE PEOPLE GATHERING, WOMEN:  This might be saying that there will be no immediate audience, but after a time, they will gather, & it appears there is an important man here who helps.  I believe that person is William Bond—his work prepares the women for this religion, because he is a man & agrees with it, he gives them confidence.  And ‘being familiar,’ the music, is that when someone ‘you know’ agrees with something, it helps you accept it. That could be why I hear English music & the woman speaking in an English accent.  These women are they who hear William {he has chapters in the religion}, this makes them comfortable, sounds right, ‘music to their ears’.  It is not a prediction that only English woman will catch onto this – it says that he, being a man, will help women accept this.  Why?  Because they are afraid of men, & so he takes away that fear, & also men have traditionally been in charge, so it’s like the dear old Dad saying, ‘OK girls, it’s a new day, time to change, go ahead, do it, you have my approval.’)*

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3-7-20-VEILED LADY and TATTOOS–complete

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          I go some place to get a tattoo – have no idea why as I am not into them at all.  I am in the office which I see later is a veiled lady who gives them.

 

          *(TATTOO:  An insignia, a mark that can have meaning—for instance, people sometimes put the names of those they love, sometimes in secret or intimate places like on or near the vagina.  When back in the day sailors put ‘Mother’ it was because they loved & missed her.  In this dream, as if unfolds, the tattoo is an insignia from a special Woman representing Mother God.)*

 

          I am sitting waiting thinking what in the world will I ask for a tattoo?  The only thing I might remotely see myself doing is an image of Our Lady.  I see in this room & in the waiting room beyond there are like 15 females waiting for tattoos.  I know it takes time to make each one & so I say to the lady,

 

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          “I’ll come back some other time.  I see you have so many customers waiting.”

 

          *(WOMEN WAITING, FIFTEEN:  I had to know what this dream means before I could guess the symbolism.  This dream announces the publication of the first book on the New Religion, {I’m almost ready to publish, one or two more days of work with web-man} ‘Woman, Thou Art God.’  It declares that there will be a good amount of females responding to the call, who will want to embrace this, the tattoo is a mark or insignia from Mother God showing their bond.

 

          What these women will ingest is the idea, the religion, that God is within them, & She is a Mother, not a Father God.  They will want to enter into this science or discipline – the tattoo will be a ratification of NONDUALITY – ‘God is not elsewhere, God is here within me, & I have become One with Her.”

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          This dream heralds SUCCESS for the New Religion.)*

 

          Then for the first time I actually look at her.  She has on a translucent veil that seems red on top, on her scalp, like a red sun with rays coming out of it cascading over her head, the rest is white.  It goes over her shoulders, torso, up to her elbows, & her arms from the elbows down are exposed in front of her.

 

          *(VEIL, HEAD COVERED IN:  This is the Mother God within all of us this religion worships.  This God is partially HIDDEN or veiled, but the women in this dream are waiting to get her mark or ratification when they see her completely.

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          VEIL, TRANSLUCENT:  Something seen in part, hidden in part, in this dream, the God Within. What part of Her is hidden, what exposed?  Her Highest Parts are hidden—for those who have not yet reached the Sahasrara, entered into total Nonduality.

 

          Her shoulders, arms & torso mostly covered are her strength, her shoulders & upper arms {biceps} mean strength—this is her Power—Her Heart is also the center of her Power—the ability to Love. 

 

          RED SUN with RAYS:  This is the Passion required to reach the top, the Sahasrara, it is not for the faint of heart.  One must give up ALL THINGS, ALL PEOPLE to find union with God.  Put another way, nothing can waylay, delay, sabotage, distract or in any way interfere with your dedication to God.  If it does, you will not reach Her.)* 

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          I bend to her, kiss her hand & depart.

 

          *(KISS HAND:  A sign of the greatest respect.  The fact that I kiss this woman’s hand shows that she is of God, in fact, She is the symbol of Mother God.)*    

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          SYMBOLS WITHIN THE DREAM 3-7-20

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*(TATTOO:  An insignia, a mark that can have meaning—for instance, people sometimes put the names of those they love, sometimes in secret or intimate places like on or near the vagina.  When back in the day sailors put ‘Mother’ it was because they loved & missed her.  In this dream, as if unfolds, the tattoo is an insignia from a special Woman representing Mother God.)*

 

*(WOMEN WAITING, FIFTEEN:

  I had to know what this dream means before I could guess the symbolism.  This dream announces the publication of the first book on the New Religion, {I’m almost ready to publish, one or two more days of work with web-man} ‘Woman, Thou Art God.’  It declares that there will be a good amount of females responding to the call, who will want to embrace this, the tattoo is a mark or insignia from Mother God showing their bond.

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          What these women will ingest is the idea, the religion, that God is within them, & She is a Mother, not a Father God, & that she will unite with Her.  They will want to enter into this science or discipline – the tattoo will be a ratification of NONDUALITY – ‘God is not elsewhere, God is here within me, & I have become One with her.”

 

          This dream heralds SUCCESS for the New Religion.)*

 

*(VEIL, HEAD COVERED IN:

  This is the Mother God within all of us this religion worships.  This God is partially HIDDEN or veiled, but the women in this dream are waiting to get her mark or ratification when they see her completely.

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          VEIL, TRANSLUCENT:  Something seen in part, hidden in part, in this dream, the God Within. What part of Her is hidden, what exposed?  Her Highest Parts are hidden—for those who have not yet reached the Sahasrara, entered into total Nonduality.

 

          It is notable, this veil covers her body mostly from the heart up—which indicates THIS IS WHERE GOD IS.  To be more precise, when we reach the HEART CHAKRA is the beginning of true spirituality, sainthood & holiness.  The avatar Ramakrishna explained this, & the Guru Rajneesh or ‘Osho said the HEART is a the vital energy center for spirituality.  This veil COVERS THE HEART ON UP.

 

          Her shoulders, arms & torso mostly covered are her strength, her shoulders & upper arms {biceps} mean strength—this is her Power—Her Heart is also the center of her Power—the ability to Love. 

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          RED SUN with RAYS:  This is the Passion required to reach the top, the Sahasrara, it is symbolic of the great energy center of the Sahasrara, like a RED SUN with all its many rays.

  One must give up ALL THINGS, ALL PEOPLE to find union with God.  Put another way, nothing can waylay, delay, sabotage, distract or in any way interfere with your dedication to God.  If it does, you will not reach Her.)* 

 

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SEX and MARRIAGE

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Dream about marriage & sex interpreted for a friend

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3-5-20-HES GOOD HUSBAND I SAY WE WILL DO SEX

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          John, my good husband, & I are standing around outside by the small bridge near the creek. He is facing away from the creek toward me, is wearing a white t-shirt, his hair curly honey blonde.

 

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          (BRIDGE, SMALL: A TRANSITION, A CHANGE.

          CREEK: CARRIES THE GRACE OF GOD OR GOOD FORTUNE

          FACING AWAY, FROM CREEK: HE DOES NOT SEE THIS GRACE COMING, NOT AWARE.

          CURLY HAIR: WORRIED {IT’LL CURL YOUR HAIR}

          HONEY BLONDE HAIR: HE HAS SWEET THOUGHTS ABOUT ME.

          LOOKING AT ME: THINKING ABOUT ME.

WHITE T-SHIRT: HE WANTS MARRIAGE. THE WHITE IS OVER HIS HEART.)

 

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          This is like in real life, I’ve never had sex with John but a change has come over me. I tell him, as I have thought it out,

 

         (CHANGE: THIS EXPLAINS THE BRIDGE OR CHANGE, IT’S ABOUT SEX.

          I ASKED GOD TO GIVE ME A SIGN ABOUT WHEN TO START UP AGAIN & THE TIME IS COMING SOON.)

 

          “It seems that you aren’t happy & neither am I.”

 

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          To myself I have thought about my revulsion to have sex with him – he doesn’t have any appeal to me. But I’m going to force myself to desire him – how bad could it be? I need sex & it might as well be my husband. We could both be happy if I make myself do it.

 

          So I tell him I am going to allow him to do sex to me. He is just listening, he’s passive.

 

          (PASSIVE: AMENABLE, COOPERATIVE, SUBMISSIVE–TO ME IN THIS SITUATION.)

 

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          I am wearing a white hat, the kind sailors wear, only the rim of it is wider than sailor’s. It’s pushed back on my forehead; I seem to be adjusting it. I don’t see any of the hair on my head, it’s under my hat.

 

          (UNDER MY HAT: THIS IS A SECRET TO HIM, NOT TO ME. MY THOUGHTS {HAIR} ABOUT IT ARE SECRET.

          HAT, WHITE: MARRIAGE, MARRIAGE MINDED

          FOREHEAD, PUSHED BACK ON: EXPOSING MY THOUGHTS OR DECISION.)

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SYMBOLS IN THE DREAM OF 3-5-20

 

BRIDGE, SMALL: A TRANSITION, A CHANGE. A bridge takes us from one place to another, not necessarily to a physical place but mental, emotional or spiritual place. It could also be any venue, any change, from one thing to another, like one job or project leading to another.

 

          CREEK: CARRIES THE GRACE OF GOD OR GOOD FORTUNE. Water is often grace because we need water so badly, we couldn’t live without it, ditto for the Grace of God.

 

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          FACING AWAY, FROM CREEK: HE DOES NOT SEE THIS GRACE COMING, NOT AWARE. This grace is something that will make him happy but he’s not aware it’s coming.

 

 

          CURLY HAIR: WORRIED {IT’LL CURL YOUR HAIR.} Hair has to do with the mind or brain, as hair is coming ‘out of the head.’ It represents what comes out of our head, brain or mind. Hair getting ‘curled’ is like a person cringing or retreating into themselves through stress—the opposite being free flowing & relaxed. Curly hair is not relaxed.

 

          HONEY BLONDE HAIR: HE HAS SWEET THOUGHTS ABOUT ME. Honey is sweet.

 

           LOOKING AT ME: THINKING ABOUT ME. You are usually thinking about what you are looking at.

 

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WHITE T-SHIRT: HE WANTS MARRIAGE. THE WHITE IS OVER HIS HEART. White often represents marriage. It can mean other things, but you interpret according to what is the dream about? The dream is about a romantic relationship so this indicates marriage.

 

CHANGE: THIS EXPLAINS THE BRIDGE OR CHANGE, IT’S ABOUT SEX. From no sex (what he was worried about) to having sex.

 

          I ASKED GOD TO GIVE ME A SIGN ABOUT WHEN TO START UP AGAIN & THE TIME IS COMING SOON. God or our unconscious often speaks to us through our dreams. {Nightmares are usually from demons or demonic energies, or else our fears–could also be warnings from the Heavenly realm—I have had frightening warnings from God to stop doing something, & if not, God would ‘kill me.’ I obeyed & it was the right thing to do, which God knew would lead to dire consequences—but I was unaware. God wanted no refusal on my part & stated her Will in no uncertain terms.}

 

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PASSIVE: AMENABLE, COOPERATIVE, SUBMISSIVE–TO ME IN THIS SITUATION. Again, passive can be interpreted in other ways, always look to the content & meaning of the dream to apply the symbols.

UNDER MY HAT: THIS IS A SECRET TO HIM, NOT TO ME. MY THOUGHTS {HAIR} ABOUT IT ARE SECRET.  Since people can’t see under your hat, it’s hidden.  And what is under your hat is your brain or mind, so your thoughts are secret.

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HAT, WHITE: MARRIAGE, MARRIAGE MINDED

FOREHEAD, PUSHED BACK ON: EXPOSING MY THOUGHTS OR DECISION. Again, a white hat can mean other things but in the context of this dream it means this.

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ROCKY AFFAIR WILL TURN GOOD

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DREAM REVIEWS ROCKY RELATIONSHIP—PREDICTS POSITIVE

OUTCOME 

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dream interpreted for a friend

 

3-3-20-ELVIS-EVIL KAHELL

 

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          First dream was about Elvis & it was joyful. There was a stage. We were taking turns performing, Elvis was on stage, I was on stage, for a while two people were on this stage that were ‘filling in’ for us. Their stage was all lustrous mint green, padded as if blankets underneath.

 

          (STAGE, PADDED: THIS WAS YOUR BED, ON WHICH YOU & HE PERFORMED. THE DESCRIPTIONS ARE YOUR OWN SHEETS IN REAL LIFE BEING MINT GREEN, LUSTROUS. THESE ‘FILL INS’ ARE WHEN YOU TWO WERE ‘AT PEACE’ WHICH WERE ‘IN BETWEEN’ THE UPS & DOWN. THE TIMES WHEN THE *STAGE* IS IN *REDS, BLUES & BLACKS* IS WHEN YOU WERE ON & OFF WITH YOUR LOVER DON. HALF THE TIME HE WAS MISERABLE AS HE WASN’T SURE IF YOU LOVED HIM.

ELVIS:  THIS IS THE LOVER DON.  WHY IS HE ELVIS?  BECAUSE YOU WERE MADLY IN LOVE WITH ELVIS AS A CHILD, AGE 10-12,  & THIS WAS/IS A ‘CRAZY LOVE’ ALSO.  WHEN YOU DREAM OF CELEBRITIES THAT YOU LOVED, IT’S USUALLY SOMEONE  DIFFERENT THAT YOU  RELATED TO–IN DREAMS IT’S A VOCABULARY OF SYMBOLS.  MEN WILL DREAM OF SEXY FEMALE STARS BUT THEY MIGHT REPRESENT  WOMEN THEY KNOW.  IN THIS DREAM ELVIS IS THE GOOD SIDE OF DON WHILE KAHELL THE BAD SIDE, THE DR. JEKYL & MR. HYDE.)

 

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          The stages always had soft cushions. For Elvis & me they were glittery—reds, blacks, dark blues maybe, but sparkly like that ghoulish guy with mask that jumped into the boxing ring, covered in all sparkle/sequins in dark colors. The floors of the stage are not wood, they are padded with cloth on top, puffy & beautiful. We were HAPPY most of the time.

 

          (YOU WERE HAPPY WHEN YOU WERE TOGETHER, OTHERWISE YOU COULD NOT HAVE STOOD STAYING TOGETHER, AS IT WAS ROCKY. IN OTHER WORDS, YOU BORE THE BAD TIMES WISHING TO RETURN TO THE GOOD TIMES.)

 

          But El had one problem that made him miserable, he thought I didn’t love him, but I did. There are many performances, he seems to ‘go away’ thinking I don’t love him then comes back super-joyful when he finds out that I do. Of course I love him, it’s ridiculous to think I don’t.

 

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(HE WAS UN RIGHTEOUSLY UNCERTAIN OF YOUR LOVE. HE’S INCREDIBLY INSECURE, TROUBLED FROM INNER CONFLICTS.)

 

          The stage is set in a room & it’s to the side, against the wall (just like the bed in my apt), not real big but about 15’long & maybe 8’ wide & seems to be trimmed all around with a band of sequins if El or I is performing.

 

          (THE *SEQUINS* REPRESENT THE GLAMOUR & DRAMA OF WHEN YOU WERE TOGETHER, ‘PERFORMING’ OR ACTING ON THE STAGE OF LIFE. THERE WERE GOOD & BAD TIMES, BUT IT WAS ALWAYS DRAMA.)

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          The highlight of this is when he thinks I don’t love him & how happy he is to return & find that I do.

 

          (PERHAPS THAT’S WHAT HE LIVED FOR. HE TREATED YOU BADLY; MOST WOMEN WOULD HAVE GIVEN UP. BUT IT ALWAYS THRILLED HIM WHEN YOU RECEIVED HIM BACK, A RELIEF, A TRIUMPH. HIS BAD BEHAVIOR PUSHED YOU AWAY & HE KNEW IT; HE FEARED LOSING YOU. HIS TRUE LOVE ALWAYS BROUGHT HIM BACK & YOU HAD JOYFUL REUNIONS.)

 

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          KAHELL THE EVIL ONE

 

                     Long ago I had a bf named Kahell, & he’s back, & he’s here with me, but in the scenes he has another female who is a fool & an idiot.

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          (THIS *FOOL*, IDIOT COULD BE HIS PRESENT GF OR YOURSELF IN THE PAST. EITHER WAY, SHE WILL BE GONE, BOTH OF THEM; THE OTHER GF & THE FOOLISH YOU—YOU HAVE CHANGED.)

 

          Kahell was everything bad—a coke addict, criminal, greedy, selfish con man, the lowest of the low. Hard to think about him he was so evil & I was involved. His presence is repulsive.

 

          (KAHELL: THIS IS THE SAME MAN YOU LOVED WHO LOVED YOU, AT HIS WORST, HIS DARK SIDE.)

 

          First I see us at the old farm house. This female with him is short & slightly plump, like shortish arms & legs & filled out. She seems immature & egotistical.

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          (AGAIN, THIS IS PROBABLY TWO DIFFERENT WOMEN UNDER THE SAME BANNER, THE FEMALE HE EXPLOITS RIGHT NOW, & YOUR FOOLISH SELF IN THE PAST, WHEN YOU ACTED IN AN IMMATURE & EGOTISTICAL MANNER.)

 

          Her egotism seems focused on praising Kahell. He’s naked here with us in the kitchen. She says how well built he is, he’s 6’2”, has muscles, not sure about his penis, it’s there but I don’t agree with his so-called ‘beauty,’ he repulses me. I see him sort of ‘emerging’ from the side of the table I’m sitting, like reaching out for something, like a person playing basketball & reaching for the ball, his body on say a 75 degree angle.

 

          (THIS IS WHEN DON, THE LOVER, BECOMES THE ‘HYDE’ OF JEKYLL & HYDE. HE’S EVERYTHING BAD, HE’S REPULSIVE.

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          GF, SHORT, PLUMP IMMATURE: THIS MIGHT BE HIS REAL OTHER GF WHO HE DRUGS WITH, ACCORDING TO THIS SHE’S A FOOL & AN IDIOT, BUT SO WAS I. IT SEEMS LIKE SHE ACCEPTS HIS DARK SIDE, THE WORST OF HIM, & PRAISES HIM—SO DID I. HER PHYSICAL APPEARANCE BELIES ‘AVERAGE GIRL’ ON THE INTERIOR PLANE. IT COULD APPLY TO YOU WHEN YOU REVERTED TO THE FLESH.

 

          YOU ARE NOT REPULSED BY ANYTHING PHYSICAL, BUT HIS CHARACTER & ACTIONS. ALWAYS LOOK FOR THE SYMBOLISM IN PHYSICAL FORMS.)

 

          We are all three around for a long time. There’s something about after a while he wants to know if we’re gong to be friendly, affectionate, maybe make love. I tell him I do need affection, but I cannot deal with him, be with him while he’s with his gf. He thinks it’s alright, but I don’t.

 

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          (BEING THE LOWLIFE THAT HE IS, HE WANTS TO HAVE THE OTHER GIRL & YOU, BUT YOU REFUSE. IF HE’S WITH HER, HE CANNOT BE WITH YOU. THIS IS A CHANGE FROM WHAT WENT ON BEFORE, AS YOU EXPECTED HIM TO BREAK UP ANY TIME, BUT IT’S BEEN DRAGGING ON TOO LONG. HERE YOU ARE NO LONGER THE ‘FOOL-IDIOT’ SHE IS.

HIS REACHING LIKE *PLAYING BASKETBALL*, AWAY FROM MY TABLE, IS HE IS ‘PLAYING GAMES’ WITH ME, AS HE STRETCHES OR LEANS AWAY FROM ME, HE’S NOT BEING SERIOUS.)

 

          She at one point is standing in the room bragging about her ‘prowess’ with him – that no one can take him from her – he’s standing past her. I seem to be ‘hovering’ above, & I say,

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          “How dare you!”

 

          (THE HIGHER PART OF YOU KNOWS SHE’S WRONG BECAUSE WHEN HE COMES TO HIS SENSES YOU ARE GOING TO COMMAND HIM. SHE’S BEING PRESUMPTUOUS.)

 

          The next scene is we’re in my apt in B’klyn. I despise this couple, but they are living with me. I wish I could make them leave, but how?

 

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          (COUPLE, YOU DESPISE THEM: YOU DESPISE THIS COUPLE BEING TOGETHER, YOU WISH THEY WOULD BREAK UP. BEING WITH YOU, LIVING OFF YOU, IS THEY ARE IN YOUR HEAD LIVING OFF YOUR ENERGY. YOU WANT TO GET THEM—AS A COUPLE—OUT OF YOUR MIND. THEY ARE ‘LIVING RENT FREE IN YOUR HEAD.’

 

*APT, B’KLYN* IS A PLACE OF PENANCE, CHANGE & REVELATION.)

 

          On one wall is a hanging shoe holder – I used to have one. In it are about 20 pairs of shoes of mine like new. Next to the shoes are greeting cards looking the same way.

 

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          (*SHOES*: THESE ARE THE LESSONS IN MY LIFE. ‘WALK A MILE IN MY SHOES’ & THE ‘GIFT OF THE GURU SANDALS’ BOTH APPLY. THE FIRST IS ‘EXPERIENCE IS THE BEST TEACHER.’ THE SECOND IS A GURU IS ONE WHO TEACHES OR ENLIGHTENS YOU. THIS IS SAYING I HAVE LEARNED MANY LESSONS OUT OF THIS RELATIONSHIP.

 

          *GREETING CARDS*, LIKE SHOES: GREETING CARDS COMMEMORATE HOLIDAYS, SEASONS, EVENTS, & SO THIS UNDERSCORES HOW THE PASSAGE OF TIME, WITH ITS CHANGES, DRAMAS & EVENTS, ‘WE LIVE & WE LEARN.’)

 

          Hard to recall what happens here just as I wish & hope they would leave – why are they here. They are living off me.

 

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          (EXPLAINED PREVIOUSLY)

 

          Finally one day they gather their belongings & exit out the door. After he’s past the door I recall he has the key! I need the key back. I understand he is secretly planning to use the key to come back, so I am not safe!

 

          (*KEY*, HE STILL HAS THE KEY: THIS HAS A TWOFOLD MEANING PROBABLY, BECAUSE THE RELATIONSHIP GOES BOTH WAYS. HE HAS THE KEY TO GET BACK INTO YOUR MIND & HEART – YOU HAVE A FEAR OF HIS EVIL NATURE, HIS DARK SIDE RETURNING.

 

          HE ALSO HAS INTENTIONS OF RETURNING TO BE WITH YOU, IN REAL LIFE.

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THIS ALLUDES TO THE FACT THAT THE OTHER FEMALE WILL DEPART, BECAUSE IT IS ‘THEY’ WHO LEAVE & ONLY HE HAS THE KEY, NOT HER & YOU KNOW HE IS SECRETLY PLANNING TO RETURN, BUT IT DOES NOT MENTION HER.

 

          ‘THEY’ LEAVING IS ALSO THE FOOLISH YOU DISAPPEARING WITH HIM.)

 

          Next scene I am outside, riding in a car where three people are in front, the brother of an ex bf of mine is driving, Kahell is on my right. I tell Kahell I want my key back. He’s wearing a dark {charcoal black} pin-striped suit, black with lighter very thin stripes.

 

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          (INTERESTING, UNUSUAL SYMBOLS.

 

          THE BOY DRIVING IS ONE WHO HAS BEEN IN JAIL FOR A FAIRLY LONG TIME {IN REAL LIFE}; THIS MEANS HE’S OUT. THE ‘BROTHER’ IS ACTUALLY THE MAIN PRINCIPAL– DON – WHOSE ALTER EGO IS KAHELL.

 

          THIS SAYS DON HAS BEEN *RELEASED FROM PRISON*. WHAT IS THE *PRISON*? THE PRISON OF HIS MIND, HIS HEART, WHICH WAS TAKEN OVER BY DRUGS & THIS OTHER WOMAN, NOW HE IS FREE.

 

          *PIN-STRIPED SUIT*, BLACK WITH THIN LIGHT VERTICAL LINES:

NOW THE EVIL SELF, KAHELL, IS IMPRISONED OR UNDER LOCK & KEY. {PIN STRIPED DARK SUIT, ESPECIALLY WITH *VERTICAL STRIPES* IS LIKE THE BARS OF A CAGE, MEANS BEING IMPRISONED.} THE ‘*DRIVER*’ OR ACTIVE SELF, ONE IN CHARGE, IS NOW THE ‘GOOD SELF’ COME BACK; HIS BAD SELF PUT AWAY. THE GOOD SELF IS OBEDIENT & GIVES YOU YOUR KEY – NO CONSPIRACIES, HE WILL NOT INVADE YOU WITHOUT PERMISSION, HE WILL WAIT FOR YOU TO OPEN THE DOOR, WHICH SHOWS RESPECT.

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          THE BAD SELF DOES NOT WANT TO RETURN THE KEY FOR WHAT REASON? MAYBE HE NO LONGER HAS IT, NO LONGER HAS THE ABILITY TO TORMENT YOU. MAYBE SINCE HE’S ‘PUT DOWN’ HE HASN’T GOT THE ABILITY TO ACT IN ANY WAY, HAS TO JUST SIT IN HIS CELL OR ‘STAY DEAD.’ HIS INTENTIONS WOULD STILL BE EVIL BUT HE’S POWERLESS TO ACT.)

 

          Surprisingly, the brother takes out a key – my key – gives it back to me—I didn’t even know he had it. Kahell doesn’t want to return my key.

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SYMBOLS IN THE 3-3-20 DREAM, ELVIS & KAHELL

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DREAM PREDICTS ROCKY RELATIONSHIP WILL HAVE POSITIVE OUTCOME

 

*STAGE, PADDED*:

 

  THIS WAS YOUR BED, ON WHICH YOU & HE PERFORMED.  THE DESCRIPTIONS ARE YOUR OWN SHEETS IN REAL LIFE BEING MINT GREEN, LUSTROUS.  THESE ‘FILL INS’ ARE WHEN YOU TWO WERE ‘AT PEACE’ WHICH WERE ‘IN BETWEEN’ THE UPS & DOWN.  THE TIMES WHEN THE *STAGE* IS IN *REDS, BLUES & BLACKS* IS WHEN YOU WERE ON & OFF WITH YOUR LOVER DON.  HALF THE TIME HE WAS MISERABLE AS HE WASN’T SURE IF YOU LOVED HIM.

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BOTH ELVIS & KAHELL ARE DON, YOUR LOVER, ELVIS THE GOOD SIDE & KAHELL THE BAD, LIKE DR. JEKYL & MR. HYDE.  IT’S OUR PRIMITIVE, HUMAN NATURE THAT CAN BE CORRUPT VS OUR DIVINE NATURE.  THE EVIL SIDE OF OURSELVES CONTAINS ALL THE BAD TRAITS BY WHICH WE HURT OTHERS.

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*SEQUINS*

 REPRESENT THE GLAMOUR & DRAMA OF WHEN YOU WERE TOGETHER, ‘PERFORMING’ OR ACTING ON THE STAGE OF LIFE.  THERE WERE GOOD & BAD TIMES, BUT IT WAS ALWAYS DRAMA.

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*FOOL, IDIOT*:

          SOMEONE THINKING IN THE FLESH.  IN THIS CASE HIS PRESENT FEMALE WHO ALLOWS HERSELF TO BE USED, & IN THE PAST, YOURSELF WHO PUT UP WITH HIS ABUSE.

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*BASKETBALL*:

 REFERS TO HIS ‘PLAYING GAMES’, NOT BEING SERIOUS, MANIPULATING YOU.

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*GIRL FRIEND, SHORT, PLUMP*:

          GF, SHORT, PLUMP IMMATURE:  THIS MIGHT BE HIS REAL OTHER GF WHO HE DRUGS WITH, ACCORDING TO THIS SHE’S A FOOL & AN IDIOT, BUT SO WAS I.  IT SEEMS LIKE SHE ACCEPTS HIS DARK SIDE, THE WORST OF HIM, & PRAISES HIM—SO DID I.  HER PHYSICAL APPEARANCE BELIES ‘AVERAGE GIRL’ ON THE INTERIOR PLANE.  IT COULD APPLY TO YOU WHEN YOU REVERTED TO THE FLESH.

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*HOVERING, ABOVE HER*:

 THE HIGHER PART OF YOU KNOWS SHE’S WRONG BECAUSE WHEN HE COMES TO HIS SENSES YOU ARE GOING TO COMMAND HIM.  SHE’S BEING PRESUMPTUOUS.

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*APT, B’KLYN*:

 IS A PLACE OF PENANCE, CHANGE, REVELATION, GREAT SPIRITUAL EVENTS.

THE PLACE WHERE THE DREAM PRESENTS ITS SCENES GIVES BIG CLUES.  WHAT DID THIS PLACE MEAN TO YOU?  WHAT HAPPENED THERE?  THE SAME IS HAPPENING AGAIN.

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*SHOES*:

  THESE ARE THE LESSONS IN MY LIFE.  ‘WALK A MILE IN MY SHOES’ & THE ‘GIFT OF THE GURU SANDALS’ BOTH APPLY.  THE FIRST IS ‘EXPERIENCE IS THE BEST TEACHER.’  THE SECOND IS A GURU IS ONE WHO TEACHES OR ENLIGHTENS YOU.  THIS IS SAYING I HAVE LEARNED MANY LESSONS OUT OF THIS RELATIONSHIP.

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*KEY*:

 HE STILL HAS THE KEY:  HE HAS THE KEY TO GET BACK INTO YOUR MIND & HEART – YOU HAVE A FEAR OF HIS EVIL NATURE, HIS DARK SIDE RETURNING.

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*BROTHER, DRIVING*:

          IN THIS DREAM THE BRO IS A PERSON WHO IN REAL LIFE IS HERE WHICH MEANS HE GOT OUT OF JAIL.  BUT AGAIN, THIS IS NOT ABOUT THE BRO, IT’S ABOUT THE SAME PERSON, DON, WHO’S APPEARED AS A ‘GOOD GUY ELVIS’ & ‘BAD GUY KAHELL.’

          NOW HE BECOMES ‘THE ONE RELEASED FROM A PRISON.’ TO SAY HE’S HERE DRIVING, MEANS THE FREED-UP DON IS NOW IN CHARGE.  I’M IN THE CAR WITH KAHELL TO THE RIGHT OF ME, I’M IN THE MIDDLE, IS TO SAY DON HAS BEEN LIBERATED FROM THE PRISON HE WAS IN –THE EVIL MENTAL STATE HE WAS IN BEFORE.

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*PIN STRIPED SUIT*:

          KAHELL, THE EVIL ONE, IS TO THE RIGHT IN THIS CAR BUT HE’S WEARING A CHARCOAL BLACK VERTICALLY STRIPLED SUIT.  THIS MEANS HE IS CAGED AS THE VERTICAL STRIPLES SAY SO, LIKE THE BARS OF A CAGE OR PRISON.  THE GOOD GUY IS IN CHARGE OR ‘DRIVING’ WHILE THE BAD GUY IS SUBDUED.

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