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20 SAINTS HONOR ME!

4 21 17-SAINTS ARRIVE re MY MEMORIAL or FEAST DAY

TWENTY SAINTS HONORING MY “MARTYRDOM”

We people are in a kind of tropical place and are having an outdoor sales like “garage sale”. We have all kinds of things laid out to buy. We are poor people like those in this area {where I live}.

*(TROPICAL PLACE: Heaven on earth, a place where spiritual people dwell or good people go from time to time to bask in the Light of God—Heavenly times of what is called ‘consolation,’ spiritual happiness.

{These times on earth are not permanent, the good & the saints on earth never have a constant state of joy or happiness-the Catholic Church labels our sojourn here ‘the valley of tears’. Saints, for instance, battle demons, often not for themselves but for others. One good man said to me, ‘You have to go through Hell to get to Heaven.’}

These places which one goes to, sometimes ‘tropical’ are vacation times away from suffering.

POOR PEOPLE: In this dream, these are the ‘poor in spirit’ that Jesus said ‘blessed are the poor’. They are those who have good hearts & are not attached or mesmerized by the things of the world & the flesh, they are attached to God alone. Apparently I am in good company here & momentarily we will be welcomed by Beings from a Higher World.

GARAGE SALE, OUTDOOR: Need help on this Mother God, what is it? MomGod: You are getting rid of things you don’t need, detaching yourself, removing things to free yourself up of mental clutter.)*

At the “end of the day” or end of “sale” I see a vehicle arrive that is unique. It’s a convertible car that seats 3-4 people across and has several rows of these seats, like maybe 5.

(SALE, END OF IT: This would be when you have emptied yourself of everything you don’t need. You have cleared your mind & life. You are cleansed for God, becoming ‘poor in spirit’ which does not mean miserable but detached/empty.)

This elegant, large vehicle arrives totally filled with people (about 20) and they are in contrast to who’s here.

These people are from a way higher bracket than those here – they are ARISTOCRATS and they look and dress the part.

*(ARISTOCRATS, FROM A WAY HIGHER BRACKET: These are saints from Heaven who arrive at the exact time you are EMPTIED FOR GOD. They are, as the dream will pan out, HONORING YOU for something {by their arrival, their very presence honors you}. TWENTY SAINTS is a great deal of honor!

DRESS & LOOK THE PART: A saint would be dressed in Light or Celestial Garb; they would be ‘clothed in Light’ like Our Lady is ‘The Woman Clothed with the Sun.’

VEHICLE, CONVERTIBLE, SEATS 20: The physical vehicle is a symbol of the spiritual transport. In the Old Testament it describes ‘Chariots of Fire,’ which are the Light saints travel in.)*

It seems they are from England, more men than women. Men dressed in suits of thin, light wool, grey spring material, beautiful suits with white shirts underneath, and the women have on a lot of pink. They are so outstanding that none of the people even greets them – they are from “another world.” But I do greet them and they are startled a bit as no one dares speak to them somehow, they can be intimidating.

*(SPEAK TO THEM, NO ONE BUT I DARES SPEAK TO THEM & THEY ARE A BIT STARTLED: To have contact, communication, intimacy with any Great Being – You have to come up to their level. They are startled at my spiritual level, which this dream denotes as ‘spiritual martyrdom’ – a very High Grace. If they are startled, I have come a long way!

ANOTHER WORLD: Heaven in this dream.

ENGLAND, FROM: I think of England & English people in the highest terms as far as culture, manners, deportment, being aristocrats, so therefore, in my mind, this symbolizes the Celestial Beings.

MEN, MORE MEN THAN WOMEN: Not sure why this is but could be I have more men friends in Heaven than women. Notice most of the celebrity souls I helped get to Heaven, there is only one female. It has to do with love on earth – I was interested in the men, much more than in the women, being infatuated or in love creates a bond, so I was able to do something for them when the time came.

WHITE SHIRTS, GREY SUMMER SUITS: The white shirts are ‘pure in heart’ {shall see God.} The elegant thin material wool suits – wool is sheep, ‘My sheep know my voice’- these are those who are obedient to God.

DRESSED IN PINK, THE WOMEN: In this dream probably means happiness, as ‘in the pink.’)*

I say,

“We were waiting for you….we expect you at this event every year.”

(YEARLY EVENT, WE EXPECT YOU HERE EVERY YEAR: This is a holiday, a feast day or a Memorial Day, even Easter. It connects with me; what does it commemorate? It’s something spiritual, as twenty saints came to honor me–& I EXPECTED THEM!)

It was a SPECIAL PRIVILEGE OR BOON THAT THEY CAME. They look around to see if there’s anything they can buy.

(SOMETHING TO BUY: This would be a symbol of what they are honoring; a picture, statue, some keepsake or souvenir of this day or event.)

I think they pick up an item that is a square like a frame, and on that square on some sort of not solid background is something black, sparkling, like large sequins. I say,

(FRAME, BLACK SEQUINS INSIDE: This sounds like death, a picture of it framed. The fact that sequins emanate light, shine or sparkle, says ‘this death reflects light; it is Holy or Sanctified.)

“They have some good things here,”

And one of the aristocrats agrees. They were taller and their faces more elegant than the ones of regular people.

*(GOOD THINGS HERE, ONE OF THE ARISTOCRATS AGREES: We agree that this martyrdom was spiritually good.

TALLER, MORE ELEGANT FACES THAN REGULAR PEOPLE: To me the stature of the Saints indicates their spiritual greatness—the height they achieved in God’s Grace. I saw St Joan of Arc as six feet tall & was told my height was the same as hers. Then I saw my Dad, who I helped get into Heaven, he was the size of a dwarf, maybe four feet! I smiled as I bent down to greet him because here was the Dad I always ‘looked up to’ & now I was tall, he so short—it seemed funny. I’m sure it was a humbling experience for him.)*

Somehow in this dream I also saw a young girl who was embroidering something with jewels. Was it an outfit? It’s kind of like frames like the one mentioned and she was entering jewels onto it, like rows onto these kind of squares, but yet, somehow these were going to be clothes. She was “ahead of the game.” She was getting ready for something important and didn’t need any help.

*(YOUNG GIRL GETTING READY: This has to be me at a young age, getting ready for my future.

JEWELS, EMBROIDERING SOMETHING WITH THEM: Jewels are Graces, Gifts & Anointing from God. This explains I was working on obtaining these Gifts from God all my life, I did not need help {from people}—it was God & me. This will explain I-she was embroidering those items that were like frames, & they would become ‘clothes.’ The frames have pictures or chapters inside of my life – these becoming clothes are as previously explained, the clothes of the saints are made of Light. Mantles of Prophets are their Anointing or Power, Holy Mary is ‘Clothed with the Sun.’ This shows that I worked diligently from an early age to receive the Gifts of God, I coveted these Gifts, even Martyrdom.)*

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MEANING

The question is, what exactly are these Saints commemorating of mine? What martyrdom? The Divine Stigmata is martyrdom, but that was long ago – it started on Oct 9, 1982 {& took eighteen years to fulfill.}

This it seems then refers to my recent temporary death, where I died during at least one of five heart attacks. This dream acts as if this is not a mere physical occurrence, but a voluntary spiritual event—a sacrifice.

I will then agree with God that what I went through over a certain person I loved, praying & suffering for him day in, day out, for years—fighting his many demons, was my sacrifice. He then proceeded to reject me, not speaking to me for nine months. During this time I suffered with so much stress that it turned into horrible, painful anxiety attacks, fifteen of them over two or three months, & some of these unknown to me were heart attacks. And I must have died temporarily at some point & came back.

God puts her Stamp of Sanctity on this part of my life – I did not have to go through with it.

She told me to return to the world & ‘have fun’ & because of obedience I fell into this ‘love affair’ with results that followed. God sees it as holiness. Thank you dear Mother God.

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DIE IN THE ARMS OF JESUS

2-16-17-I DIE IN THE ARMS OF JESUS – Dream, Vision interpreted &

explained

RASA: FOOD FOR SOULS BY HER “DEATH” & SHE COMES BACK TO

LIFE JUST AS JESUS DID

(‘Like’ Jesus in terms of similarity, not saying ‘as great’ as He.)

I had two dreams in particular that explain this phenomenon, which I have never experienced as I have never physically died before. Yes, I have seen God “face to face” but I more alive than being on earth. This time I literally, physically died and “went to the other side,” but I have no memory of tunnels or people like relatives “waiting for me”, just dreams which explained what had happened. I will try and cut them short as they are long and tedious and I don’t have the patience or time to write it all out.

GOD ACCEPTS MY DEATH THE SAME AS THAT OF JESUS’. GOD TURNS MY “BODY AND BLOOD” INTO A “EUCHARIST” OR SPIRITUAL FOOD FOR SOULS– WHERE IT’S GIVEN TO THOUSANDS OF SOULS IN PURGATORY TO ASCEND INTO HEAVEN.

In this dream/vision I was called to perform. First I was told to do a comedy act. I did it but then searched for the door for the strippers as I had to change into what I really do.

*(PERFORM: An activity, sometimes public, where one does something, in this case, for the benefit of others. In other dreams it might mean for one’s own benefit, but when you perform ‘on stage’ it means for others.

COMEDY ACT, FIRST: In this dream, it means ‘laugh, smile, be happy, even though you die. It’s for the benefit of others.

DOOR FOR STRIPPERS: It says in this dream ‘what I specialize in’–& what would that be?–my ministry to Purgatory. Yes, I am a dancer, the ‘Stripper for God,’ I gave many sermons before I danced, counseled men between shows, & spoke of God to the media, but compared to this, it’s a small number of people. The great number of people I minister to ARE THE DEAD.)*

There were two audiences in this club. On the stage you could turn one way or the other. On one side were about fifty people, on the other, many thousands, and the audience were a few feet down.

(AUDIENCE, 50 PEOPLE VS THOUSANDS: On earth I am reaching scant few during this time, in this dream, but in Purgatory I am by this action or ‘performance’ reaching thousands. It refers to my heart attack, quickie death & resurrection or return.)

After I danced to the small audience I walked down to the lower, and I am not wearing the black sequin gown I saw in my arms, it’s a beautiful light blue diaphanous one – it flows to the floor.

(DRESS, BLACK SEQUINS AT FIRST, NOW WEAR A DIAPHANOUS LIGHT BLUE: The black sequins say ‘you died, it’s your funeral. But now you appear in the beauty of God – light blue is a spiritual color associated with Our Blessed Mother.)

I “parade” in front of this huge audience who are on my right, and I show off my right breast. Under my breast I am holding a small white table top. On top of my breast hangs a necklace which is just one oval, white pearls in the middle and light green or mint pearls around it.

*(NECKLACE, OVAL, WHITE PEARLS IN MIDDLE, LIGHT GREEN AROUND, ON MY BREAST: Jewels are Gifts, Graces, Awards & Anointings. I am here displaying some sort of gift which is associated with WISDOM & LOVE as pearls are wisdom, & it’s on my breast, which means love. I am showing my love/grace to these souls – transmitting it to them, they are seeing it & presumably receiving the goodness of this grace.

(TABLE, SMALL WHITE UNDER BREAST: An altar like an altar for the Holy Mass. My life due to love is sacrificed for others.)

I see one female looking at me in wonder, her eyebrows up and her mouth open like “wow.”

(WOW-FEMALE LOOKING IN WONDER: A female soul in Purgatory is entranced by what she sees & receives in this grace. Perhaps she is a symbol for them all.)

MEANING:

Prior to this I was carrying the black sequin gown and accessories. This represents MY FUNERAL or DEATH. I “died” from multiple heart attacks according to this.

{In real life indeed I went to the hospital & after many exams they found I had several heart attacks but did not know how many—they told me they try to figure by the enzymes in the blood, but it’s not an ‘exact science.’ My opinion, out of the fifteen ‘extreme anxiety attacks’ I had five of them were actually the heart.”}

I appear to one audience on one side – the earth – but now I have turned to “the other side” which is “a few feet lower” or Souls in Purgatory, their bodies being “a few feet under ground.”

My breast I am showing off represents MY LOVE. I died “out of Love” the way Jesus did. Had Jesus’ not died out of love, his crucifixion would have been like any other normal death – but it was SACRED, a great martyrdom (even though he was taken out of the tomb three days later, revived and healed according to the BBC documentary, ‘Jesus in Kashmir’.)

The table top – white – under my breast signifies ALTAR. The oval jewel on top of breast says, “this is a Sacrament…- a Eucharist, your Sacred “Body and Blood” or the grace thereof, you are showing to these many souls, and they are being helped by this. They are in wonderment at what you have done. You have died for love and they benefited.

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2 16 17 I DIE IN THE ARMS OF JESUS!!!!!

DREAM POPE PIUS XII (HE REPRESENTS OUR LORD, THE POPE IS SEEN AS “CHRIST ON EARTH”)

It’s a tradition in my family that when we dream of the Pope, someone is about to die or in this case, has died. (We dread such dreams.)

The DREAM

(There is a rock in my kitchen that I found – highly unusual. It’s round with a circumference of 8.5” and has what I call “hieroglyphics” all over it. It’s like a “message.” The color is mottled dark brown with medium brown. This rock will be mentioned)

I am in a place in a balcony where Pope Pius XII is sitting on some kind of chair and below him are thousands of people who admire him.

*(POPE PIUS XII IN A CHAIR HIGH UP: He stands in for Jesus – It’s ‘The chair of Peter’– This will be to fulfill a promise Jesus made to me in Jan 1978—‘I promise that you will die in my arms.’

BALCONY: Pedestal, place where one is seen.

BELOW HIM THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE WHO ADMIRE HIM: Both he & Jesus himself whom he represents are greatly admired.)*

I’m in this balcony near him, later I see my Mom and brother seated next to each other right at the edge, with the Pope maybe ten feet beyond on a sort of “stage”. They are in dim light, as it would be in a movie theater, the audience is darkened, the stage is lit. The Pope is in a very bright light as he’s the center of attraction; the “spotlight” is on him.

*(MOM & BROTHER WATCHING FROM DIM LIGHT NEAR THE POPE: These two were my enemies in life but they made it to Heaven. For some reason God has permitted them to be present at my death – it says they are ‘on the edge’ near him.

ON THE EDGE: In this dream could mean they are on the ‘edge’ of Heaven or its margins not in a high place like the saints—or else it could mean they were on edge about my moving toward death & dying, probably the former, not the latter—as I don’t think they were concerned about me.

My question to MomGod: Mother these two were the bane of my youth. Both were cruel & cold hearted—bro was this way mostly because Mom wanted him to. Why on earth are they there at my death & why are they the only ones? I mean I have my grandmother & my Dad who loved me could have been there. I sort of resent their presence here at this Sacred time.

MomGod: It was because they did not love you God put them there & made them watch the Holy Reception you received from Jesus. They wanted to believe you had no value & led others to believe so, but here they were shown your great spiritual development, that you died in the arms of Jesus–& there could be no greater death. This informed, & corrected their sick concept of you, it educated them, it might have shamed them.)*

The Pope had BREAD IN HIS HANDS and he fumbles it or drops it and I jump to his area to help, (as it’s really bad to drop bread, it’s like the Eucharist). The bread turns into the rock/ball I described and it falls kind of behind the Pope.

*(BREAD IN HIS HANDS, fumbles it & drops it: This is my body which falls & dies, as if by the hands of Jesus. It’s compared to the Eucharist in this dream.

ROCK/BALL WITH HIEROGLYPHICS: This is my body which has been marked / anointed by God, it’s like a message written on my body. The message could say ‘she works for God, she’s sent by God, this is her message, etc.’)*

In my attempt – I have no idea how this happened – I stumble on top of the Pope, so like he’s embracing me and I am kind of in his lap. He is surprised, so am I. It’s like I’m sharing the spotlight with him with all those people observing me. It’s highly unusual and somehow it has to do with the role of women, that women are not supposed to be “in the lap” of the Pope so close to him or sharing his seat and yes it has to be, somehow God allowed it to happen. It implies or declares union or commonality with him, his acceptance of me and therefore women.

*(LAP, IN HIS LAP: There are multiple meanings here. First, I am ONE with Our Lord, ‘No longer I live, but Christ in me. I am in the great light or spiritual height He is in, & we’re both surprised.

ROLE OF WOMEN: It has to do also with my message or mission, the role of women, female empowerment, & God’s will to bring back worship of Mother God & Matriarchy.

ACCEPTANCE OF WOMEN: It could also have to do with the fact that Jesus himself ordained me as a Priest to show that he wants females in the priesthood. I have at this time said many Masses for Souls, privately.)*

When I “fell” into his lap I stumbled, it was not on purpose. It’s like I “share his glory” and I did not mean to do that, was just trying to help as he dropped the bread.

(FELL INTO HIS LAP, NOT ON PURPOSE: This excuses me from vainglory or pride. I was trying to do God’s work, not trying to share his glory – it was He, Jesus, who gave me his glory for trying to help.)

So I move away from this stage, go past where Mom and brother are, and someone calls me “back” into the “dim” light where they are in and past through the balcony I guess to the exit. I am in amazement as Mom and bro have no inkling or awareness of my significance or the role I played, which this dream explains. They still think of me as a “nobody.”

*(DIM LIGHT, MOM & BRO IN IT: They made it to Heaven but in a lower part, they are not great celestial beings or saints.

It was explained earlier – they wanted to have a low opinion of me, they did not respect me. They were apparently forced by God to be present at the Glory God gave me. They might have kept their ideas or feelings for another moment, but this would clear up fast.

EXIT, MY EXIT: I leave the underworld of death & the Glory of Heaven & head back to earth. It’s not my time.)*

MEANING

I was baffled and it took me a long time to get this dream, as it is so unbelievable.

“I promise you that you will die in my arms”

Jesus said to me in Jan., 1978 the night of our “betrothal” where he gave me three rings.

This was when I asked him,

“Promise me that I will not die without paying for my sins.”

“Dropping the ball” is the end of something, as when the ball drops in Times Square at the end of the old year, beginning of new. This ball is like a person, it signifies me, and there is a message,

“Rasa, the Pope of your childhood, this Pope, has ‘dropped’ you or signifies your life has ended but a new one is beginning.

Jesus is receiving you into his lap, his arms, on his Throne (the Pope stands in his stead, all Catholics are taught that), in the LIGHT OF GLORY and all these many Souls in Purgatory (the audience below) are receiving the benefits of your death and resurrection. You are the Holy Communion to them.

When I leave this spot and go backward, I am leaving behind Mom and brother. They are in Heaven together as I predicted many years ago – he would join her, she loved only him and awaited him.

But they are not in a “great light” as I just died in, very bright Light of Glory.

I was confused about this and God told me,

“Where they are is dim compared to where you have reached in Heaven. The light is all relative. You reached the Light of the great saints…..this is Jesus – the Holy Father is his symbol, letting you know “this is death” (as to the tradition we always dream of the Pope at a family death.)

Now your death is over and you return to the “dim light” where these relatives are and back to earth. The earth is not “glory.” The spotlight was the “Glory” of a great height in Heaven.

Thank you God, for all this.

I might meditate further and give more thoughts later on. This is deep.

Guru Rasa, shared 4 13 17

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RETURN OF HUBBY

PREDICTS HUBBY BREAK WITH OTHER WOMAN & REUNION WITH ME-

IT’S CERTAIN

3-11-20-SHAKEUPS WITH HUBBY

Dream interpreted for a friend

I am inside somewhere in a bath where the entire wall is a shower stall, with two showers. In one shower 10’ from me there is lover Hank with his live-in, while I am under this other shower with a female who loves me, smaller than me, like a ‘best friend.’

*(SHOWER, UNDER THE, TAKING A BATH: This concerns your lover husband Hank, who recently made a post praising his live-in & you wondered why.

‘TAKING A BATH’ WHICH INCLUDES SHOWERS IS ‘BEING BAPTIZED’ & BAPTISM OF EXPERIENCE MEANS SUFFERING—HAVING SOMETHING HAPPEN YOU DON’T LIKE. HANK IS HURTING.

HE’S WITH HIS LIVE-IN BUT SHE’S TAKING A BATH TOO, WHICH MEANS ONE OF TWO THINGS, EITHER SHE’S HURTING WITH HIM—THE RELATIONSHIP STINKS—OR SHE’S THERE TO SHOW HE’S HURTING WITH HER—HE’S MISERABLE. OR MOST LIKELY, BOTH ARE HURTING WITH ONE ANOTHER.)*

Everything is normal for a while, just showering, when it’s nearly finished & Hank decides to do something romantic—he embraces his gf & begins to kiss her. This revolts me, I don’t want to see it, & I turn my back to them & get closer to my friend, holding her in my arms. {I already know this is my flesh I’m embracing–I am the God Self.}

*(KISSES, EMBRACES GF UNDER THE SHOWER: Although he’s miserable, he knows you’re looking, so he wants to antagonize, provoke you into doing something so he puts on this show of romance, kissing, like he did once in real life. You knew it was fake—he kept kissing her for you to see saying ‘I love her-I love her.’

He knows this would disturb you so he’s trying to make you jealous, provoke you into contacting him. He does this action in an internet post.

GET CLOSER TO MY FRIEND, TURN BACK ON HIM: But instead of reacting you turn your back to him & get closer to your God-union.)*

As I stand there I look up at the shower head & see the water is getting less, in fact, it’s about to stop, just a trickle & no more water, no more shower for all of us.

*(SHOWER, NO MORE, WATER STOPS: This heralds the end of the suffering for you & the lover as you plan to see him soon.

Question to Mother God: Usually water is grace. Why is ‘taking a bath-baptism’ denote suffering?

MomGod: It’s just an idiom like ‘Cry Uncle’ when you’re wrestling & can’t take it any more – or ‘throw in the towel’ when you can’t endure the fight. Somehow along the way ‘I took a bath’ became a negative experience in people’s mind. Maybe it was the old days when we didn’t have hot & cold running water. It often meant losing money. Also the connection with baptism is we are baptized or initiated toward God when things get rough. God ‘whispers to us in our pleasures & shouts to us in our pain—pain is the megaphone of God.’)*

Later I see my good husband talk to me about his heart troubles. He says ‘My doctor told me’ but the rest of it I can’t recall except hubby says ‘It’s going to be alright.’

*(HEART TROUBLE: Emotions hurt, this is Hank who has ‘seen the light’ & become your ‘good husband’ instead of the monster he was. God reached him through the pain of your absence, which will end soon, so he says ‘It’s going to be alright.’

DOCTOR: Someone who helps, heals you, comforts or assures you. Whoever it is—maybe his guardian angel—tells him our affair will be alright. )*

In another scene I’m in my kitchen yard when a suspicious man has arrived, bringing some sort of van inside my yard – kind of like a food van or a simple square van carrying supplies. I ask him what he’s doing here & he says something that doesn’t make sense. I say,

*(SUSPICIOUS MAN: This is Hank spying on you.

VAN, BRINGS VAN WITH SUPPLIES, MAYBE FOOD: Hank is thinking of how he can regain your favors, maybe brings you supplies, gifts, favors, food, etc. But he

SENSE, DOESN’T MAKE SENSE: because he doesn’t know what to give you, he doesn’t have much to give. He doesn’t know what to do, can’t figure it out, his mind doesn’t make sense.)*

“At three o’clock in the morning?”

(THREE O CLOCK IN THE MORNING: Is a sign of drama / trauma in a relationship. In one of Al Green’s songs he says ‘someone on the phone, at three o clock in the morning’ meaning there is BIG trouble – a breakup someone is trying to resolve.)

As soon as he came in he also did something suspicious, he put a round lock on my garden gate, he bent down & secured it so that I could not run out fast—so I imagined he might be planning to assault me some way.

(LOCK, PUTS LOCK ON GATE, SUSPICIOUS: Hank wants to lock you in, keep you where he can get to you to make love & he fears your escape. This is his want & need, his anxiety.)

I am leery of him & manhandle him, like rough him up. He’s a sort of a thin, weak guy, maybe black glasses, a Mr. Peeper type–& he’s shook up by me. Around him he’s holding a dull red blanket the way Indians would – his small vehicle also has panels of that same color. I never did figure out what he was about.

*(MR PEEPERS, THIN WEAK GUY: This is Hank as although he looks completely masculine, he’s very much afraid of you & timid as can be. He fears you, he’s even said so himself. You roughing him up is in his mind, from past traumatic events with his mother – he’s reliving those events in his mind, & projecting this onto you.

The red blanket he pulls around him is his Post Traumatic Stress—the small van he’s brought with red panels are the things he wants to offer you for love. There’s something pitiful about all this.)*

The scene changes. I am in a high-up apt, like 2-3 floors up. I leave my front door slightly ajar & tiny little black dogs with fluffy fur come in, first one, then another. They’re wearing narrow grey & blue coats, more like bands around their shoulders. I go to pet one little one & he rolls on his back – he’s only about 8” long & so is his twin.

*(DOGS OF FEMALE NEIGHBOR, TWO TINY, ONE REGULAR: Since dogs are senses someone you know is trying to scope you out – investigate what you’re doing or where your head is. This might be Hank’s gf wondering if you’re still seeing him – don’t know why any other female would care that much—all your relationships with females are casual, no reason for them to strain their brains to see what you’re doing.

BLACK HAIR: The description has these clues: She is stout, black hair is dark thoughts, or thoughts of fear about her & Hank ending.

CLOTHES, BLACK TRIM ON THEM: Black trim on clothes is like black bands men wear to honor a death, this says ‘is this my funeral with Hank? Middle aged might hint at they’ve been together a long time—maybe the relationship is ‘worn out’ or its purpose is ‘used up’.

BLACK DOGS: Then again all her ‘senses-dogs’ are black. And their bands around shoulders are grey & blue. This is her mind, grey-blue, sad thoughts. Her thoughts & senses are filled with sadness & fear of the end of their relationship—she believes it’s over. And since she’s come to you, you are the reason. She has ‘unleashed’ her thoughts & ESP on you—not on any other female.

ROLLS ON BACK, DOG: This is the submissive or helpless posture – it’s what Hank’s gf feels toward you. It’s common in many animals to try to avoid confrontation with a larger, stronger adversity, or when they give up, no more fight—to show ‘I’m not going to oppose you, I submit.’ This sometimes, not always, saves their life & limb.

DOG, TINY, 8”: Have never seen a clue like this, MomGod, why tiny?

MomGod: This is like a small intuition or HINT, it’s not an absolute revelation, but there are two of them, that makes up for the size.

DOOR AJAR: Means I am open to something, in this case, the thoughts & senses of Hank’s gf. I left my soul or unconscious slightly open – I picked up her mind set.)*

I go onto the landing or porch of the apt & below is a medium black dog – about 40 lbs, a mixed breed, looking up at me. I sense a female neighbor to the left but don’t see her – are these her dogs? I imagine her appearance as such: Stout, middle aged, clothing trimmed in black, black hair.

The scene changes & I’m in my upper back yard looking down at my lower back yard, but the dimensions are I am much higher, the bottom lower than real life.

Down below I now see tan dogs, like boxers, cavorting in is it snow? One looks up at me.

*(TAN DOGS, BOXERS, LOOK UP AT ME: These are your inner senses, not hers, not depressed. Tan is contemplation, receiving from God & what you get is happy—the dog looking at you is looking at God—there’s a large difference in height {of God where you are} & depth of an inner sense.

SNOW: Deception. Snow is silent & appears innocent & beautiful, but it can be dangerous on the road or the Alps when hiking or skiing. The dog ‘cavorting’ in the snow is having play or in a way, seeing through the deception or the unknown—You are picking up revelations from God, getting through the tangle of deceit or the unknown pertaining to this situation.)*

All the outdoor scenes are night.

(NIGHT: When there is no light, one cannot see, one cannot understand what is going on. This dream reveals the truth, however, it breaks through the darkness & shows the Light or Truth.)

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PREDICTS NEW RELIGION SUCCESS

SIGNIFICANT DREAMS PREDICT SUCCESS FOR NEW RELIGION &

MENTIONS THE COLLABORATORS WILLIAM BOND & AJAX THE GREAT!

3-8-20-READY 2 PERFORM-VEILED LADY-TATTOOS

In this dream there’s a long, complicated preparation for me to go on stage again.

(PERFORMANCE, ON STAGE: In this dream, something that I will reveal to the public. It isn’t myself per se, it is the New Religion – a product of my mind.)

I have helpers, attendants, & we are extremely busy every day. It seems that I have gotten into great shape & I’m in a room with people helping me dress. Someone standing by who never thought about my age before is looking at me – I am impressive – & asks how old I am.

I know I am 73, {actually 74 but this dream wants me to be 73} but an attendant/friends feels I look much younger & wants to avoid any conflicts about my age, & says to the man,

“She’s 43”

(AGE 43: This was about the year I started a business venture that became meaningful & successful. This could be making a parallel: ‘As the business went, so will this.’)

and the man believes it. They were both stooping on the floor, my friend assisting with my dress, not sure what the other guy is doing. But the other guy is younger & seems to be wearing a fancy grey suit like the guys in suits I just downloaded, a very thin expensive grey, with maybe even a top hat he’s planning to wear. {The guys in the images were dressed for weddings.} He was really curious about this for the first time; he knew me but never thought about it.

*(MALE ATTENDANT HELPING WITH DRESS: This might be William Bond as he wrote some significant chapters in this book. I had dreams when we first started about his contribution as well as that of Ajax the Great. We were symbolized by a tree with three trunks that were intertwined, twisting together, & it was an great omen of great success.

My attendants are seen as helping me get ready to perform, with the dress, the hair, the promotion, etc.

YOUNGER MAN: dressed in fancy grey suit maybe with top hat, like the grooms recently I downloaded: Sounds like my lover & that somehow my publication of this book, new religion, will somehow connect with our marriage. I don’t think this dream is about the marriage itself because of the last part, the women gathering. Why he is here I’ve not yet ascertained. Why is he here, Mother God?

MomGod: Notice he is STOOPING OR KNEELING: at your feet. This shows a change of attitude where you are in charge. The connection could be that you put him on hold during this—the writing of the New Religion—you sacrificed seeing him so you could focus on God’s work, & God, since you took care of Her business, took care of yours. She put this man, who had previously abused you, at your feet.)*

Me going to perform is a huge event because I’ve not been on stage for over thirty years. The preparations are hair, dress, shoes, the right presentation, music, venue for act, promotion to get an audience, etc.

(PREPARATIONS: It took many elements to pull together the ideas of the religion & write its articles, & its illustration. This is saying that not since thirty years have I done anything as meaningful or important as this. That is a huge prediction!)

It seems that now I’m ready & waiting to go on backstage. My dress is puffed out, the kind you’d wear for a ball in the old days; it’s combo of medium dark sparkly blue & gold, an old-fashioned design, like the kind that opens like curtains in front, the blue is on the outside, the gold inside. The blue is not sequins but gives a semi-glow like them, like sparkle chips.

*(BACKSTAGE, WAITING: Something imminent you’re going to do, about to happen. Obviously your performance does not have to be physical, ‘in the flesh,’ you presenting a project is like you yourself being presented, the project is a part of you going out before the public.

DRESS, PUFFED OUT LIKE FOR A BALL, LIKE THE OLD DAYS: This signifies importance, something striking, like a peacock strutting out, showing its tail, it’s beautiful & is an event—like a ball where people gather, they take it as meaningful or important. It definitely foretells ‘public event, gathering, festivity.’

BLUE & GOLD, SPARKLY, DESIGN LIKE CURTAINS OPENED: The curtains opening again spells ‘public event’ & this event, like the dress, is striking, it makes a mark. Gold is love; it is a product & gathering of love, for love, in this case, the love of God. Blue is one of the colors of Our Lady, the sparkle denotes something that shines, light coming off it, reflecting. In this case it is God’s Love & Light.)*

My hair is medium honey blonde, bouffant, but I complain to my attendants that it must be teased more on top, it’s too flat. But where are my attendants? I don’t see them around any more as I wait in the room to go on.

*(ATTENDANTS: Those helping with the project—they were three—William Bond, Ajax the Great & my web-man. They aren’t here any more because the work is finished, which is a good sign.

HONEY BLONDE HAIR: Sweet thoughts of Love.)*

At the last minute I find in my hair on top of my head a white plastic thing that somewhat resembles a ukulele—I don’t see strings or anything, it’s like its just all-white plastic resembling that shape, maybe 10” or so long, not a full foot, smaller than a real ukulele. I take it out as I cannot dance with it.

*(UKULELE: A musical instrument of this nature means frolic, joy, mirth. A ukulele is small & cute, like a child’s toy, it’s music is cute. This is fun, laughter, being jolly & happy. This on top of your head, in your hair, is your thoughts & feelings related to this project, & most likely the project itself gives a sense of joy.

HAIR, FLAT: You did not want this religion, project, book of it to be ‘flat’ which would mean ordinary, like a plateau, not dramatic. You want it to have a lively, fun sense to it. It is not to be taken a tongue-in-cheek, either, so you do not present it as such, you do not ‘advertise’ the fun of it—you ‘take it out of your hair because you cannot dance with it’ but it remains there in spirit, in the underlying idea.)*

When I first got there it seemed like there were only five people in the audience. At first I was wondering if that’s enough, but then I thought,

“So what, if only five people are there {they all seem like women} I start with that. It’s an event, I can do this no matter what.

(AUDIENCE, SMALL, I DON’T CARE: You did not do this for popularity but for the long run. You hope the religion will catch on & continue after your death. And so, if only five women accept it now, you still wanted to write it. It’s for the future generations.)

But strangely, as I wait, I hear more & more people – it seems like all women – fill the place. I don’t see them, just hear them. I hear music & its familiar music for English people – stuff they love, & it’s charming. I guess they’re playing tapes of an orchestra. Then I hear a woman talking loudly, like making statements in an English accent, a speech or introduction of some sort. They’re getting ready for my performance, getting into the mood – someone is helping them get ready – get in the mood – is it a man associate of mine?

(MORE & MORE PEOPLE GATHERING, WOMEN: This might be saying that there will be no immediate audience, but after a time, they will gather, & it appears there is an important man here who helps. I believe that man is William Bond—his work prepares the women for this religion, because he is a man & agrees with it, he gives them confidence. And ‘being familiar,’ the music, is that when someone ‘you know’ agrees with something, it helps you accept it. That could be why I hear English music & the woman speaking in an English accent. These women are they who hear William {he has chapters in the religion}, this makes them comfortable, sounds right, ‘music to their ears’. It is not a prediction that only English woman will catch onto this – it says that he, being a man, will help women accept this. Why? Because they are afraid of men, & so he takes away that fear, & also men have traditionally been in charge, so it’s like the dear old Dad saying, ‘OK girls, it’s a new day, time to change, go ahead, do it, you have my approval.’)

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SYMBOLS WITHIN THE DREAM 3-8-20

*(PERFORMANCE, ON STAGE:

In this dream, something that I will reveal to the public. It isn’t myself per -, it is the New Religion – a product of my mind.

In other dreams, anything you PRESENT to the public could be seen as performance.)*

(AGE 43: This was about the year I started a business venture that became meaningful & successful. This could be making a parallel: ‘As the business went, so will this.’)

*(MALE ATTENDANT HELPING WITH DRESS:

This might be William Bond as he wrote some significant chapters in this book distinctly explaining why women must take over. This ratifies all that I say. I had dreams when we first started about his contribution as well as that of Ajax the Great. We were symbolized by a tree with three trunks that were intertwined, twisting together, & it was an great omen of great success.

My attendants are seen as helping me get ready to perform, with the dress, the hair, the promotion, etc.

YOUNGER MAN: dressed in fancy grey suit maybe with top hat, like the grooms recently I downloaded: Sounds like my lover & that somehow my publication of this book, new religion, will somehow connect with our marriage. I don’t think this dream is about the marriage itself, but why he is here I’ve not yet ascertained. Why is he here, Mother God?

MomGod: Notice he is STOOPING OR KNEELING: at your feet. This shows a change of attitude where you are in charge. The connection could be that you put him on hold during this—the writing of the New Religion—you sacrificed seeing him so you could focus on God’s work, & God, since you took care of Her business, took care of yours. She put this man, who had previously abused you, at your feet.)*

(PREPARATIONS: It took many elements to pull together the ideas of the religion & write its articles, & its illustration. This is saying that not since thirty years have I done anything as meaningful or important as this. That is a huge prediction!)

*(BACKSTAGE, WAITING: Something imminent you’re going to do, about to happen. Obviously your performance does not have to be physical, ‘in the flesh,’ you presenting a project is like you yourself being presented, the project is a part of you going out before the public, & we know it’s the book ‘Woman, Thou Art God.’

DRESS, PUFFED OUT LIKE FOR A BALL, LIKE THE OLD DAYS: This signifies importance, something striking, like a peacock strutting out, showing its tail, it’s beautiful & is an event—like a ball where people gather, they take it as meaningful or important. It definitely foretells ‘public event, gathering, festivity.’

BLUE & GOLD, SPARKLY, DESIGN LIKE CURTAINS OPENED: The curtains opening again spells ‘public event’ & this event, like the dress, is striking, it makes a mark. Gold is love; it is a product & gathering of love, for love, in this case, the love of God. Blue is one of the colors of Our Lady, the sparkle denotes something that shines, light coming off it, reflecting. In this case it is God’s Love & Light.)*

*(ATTENDANTS: Those helping with the project—they were three—William Bond, Ajax the Great & my web man. They aren’t here any more because the work is finished, which is a good sign.

HONEY BLONDE HAIR: Sweet thoughts of Love.)*

(MORE & MORE PEOPLE GATHERING, WOMEN: This might be saying that there will be no immediate audience, but after a time, they will gather, & it appears there is an important man here who helps. I believe that person is William Bond—his work prepares the women for this religion, because he is a man & agrees with it, he gives them confidence. And ‘being familiar,’ the music, is that when someone ‘you know’ agrees with something, it helps you accept it. That could be why I hear English music & the woman speaking in an English accent. These women are they who hear William {he has chapters in the religion}, this makes them comfortable, sounds right, ‘music to their ears’. It is not a prediction that only English woman will catch onto this – it says that he, being a man, will help women accept this. Why? Because they are afraid of men, & so he takes away that fear, & also men have traditionally been in charge, so it’s like the dear old Dad saying, ‘OK girls, it’s a new day, time to change, go ahead, do it, you have my approval.’)

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3-7-20-VEILED LADY and TATTOOS–complete

I go some place to get a tattoo – have no idea why as I am not into them at all. I am in the office which I see later is a veiled lady who gives them.

(TATTOO: An insignia, a mark that can have meaning—for instance, people sometimes put the names of those they love, sometimes in secret or intimate places like on or near the vagina. When back in the day sailors put ‘Mother’ it was because they loved & missed her. In this dream, as if unfolds, the tattoo is an insignia from a special Woman representing Mother God.)

I am sitting waiting thinking what in the world will I ask for a tattoo? The only thing I might remotely see myself doing is an image of Our Lady. I see in this room & in the waiting room beyond there are like 15 females waiting for tattoos. I know it takes time to make each one & so I say to the lady,

“I’ll come back some other time. I see you have so many customers waiting.”

*(WOMEN WAITING, FIFTEEN: I had to know what this dream means before I could guess the symbolism. This dream announces the publication of the first book on the New Religion, {I’m almost ready to publish, one or two more days of work with web-man} ‘Woman, Thou Art God.’ It declares that there will be a good amount of females responding to the call, who will want to embrace this, the tattoo is a mark or insignia from Mother God showing their bond.

What these women will ingest is the idea, the religion, that God is within them, & She is a Mother, not a Father God. They will want to enter into this science or discipline – the tattoo will be a ratification of NONDUALITY – ‘God is not elsewhere, God is here within me, & I have become One with Her.”

This dream heralds SUCCESS for the New Religion.)*

Then for the first time I actually look at her. She has on a translucent veil that seems red on top, on her scalp, like a red sun with rays coming out of it cascading over her head, the rest is white. It goes over her shoulders, torso, up to her elbows, & her arms from the elbows down are exposed in front of her.

*(VEIL, HEAD COVERED IN: This is the Mother God within all of us this religion worships. This God is partially HIDDEN or veiled, but the women in this dream are waiting to get her mark or ratification when they see her completely.

VEIL, TRANSLUCENT: Something seen in part, hidden in part, in this dream, the God Within. What part of Her is hidden, what exposed? Her Highest Parts are hidden—for those who have not yet reached the Sahasrara, entered into total Nonduality.

Her shoulders, arms & torso mostly covered are her strength, her shoulders & upper arms {biceps} mean strength—this is her Power—Her Heart is also the center of her Power—the ability to Love.

RED SUN with RAYS: This is the Passion required to reach the top, the Sahasrara, it is not for the faint of heart. One must give up ALL THINGS, ALL PEOPLE to find union with God. Put another way, nothing can waylay, delay, sabotage, distract or in any way interfere with your dedication to God. If it does, you will not reach Her.)*

I bend to her, kiss her hand & depart.

(KISS HAND: A sign of the greatest respect. The fact that I kiss this woman’s hand shows that she is of God, in fact, She is the symbol of Mother God.)

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SYMBOLS WITHIN THE DREAM 3-7-20

(TATTOO: An insignia, a mark that can have meaning—for instance, people sometimes put the names of those they love, sometimes in secret or intimate places like on or near the vagina. When back in the day sailors put ‘Mother’ it was because they loved & missed her. In this dream, as if unfolds, the tattoo is an insignia from a special Woman representing Mother God.)

*(WOMEN WAITING, FIFTEEN:

I had to know what this dream means before I could guess the symbolism. This dream announces the publication of the first book on the New Religion, {I’m almost ready to publish, one or two more days of work with web-man} ‘Woman, Thou Art God.’ It declares that there will be a good amount of females responding to the call, who will want to embrace this, the tattoo is a mark or insignia from Mother God showing their bond.

What these women will ingest is the idea, the religion, that God is within them, & She is a Mother, not a Father God, & that she will unite with Her. They will want to enter into this science or discipline – the tattoo will be a ratification of NONDUALITY – ‘God is not elsewhere, God is here within me, & I have become One with her.”

This dream heralds SUCCESS for the New Religion.)*

*(VEIL, HEAD COVERED IN:

This is the Mother God within all of us this religion worships. This God is partially HIDDEN or veiled, but the women in this dream are waiting to get her mark or ratification when they see her completely.

VEIL, TRANSLUCENT: Something seen in part, hidden in part, in this dream, the God Within. What part of Her is hidden, what exposed? Her Highest Parts are hidden—for those who have not yet reached the Sahasrara, entered into total Nonduality.

It is notable, this veil covers her body mostly from the heart up—which indicates THIS IS WHERE GOD IS. To be more precise, when we reach the HEART CHAKRA is the beginning of true spirituality, sainthood & holiness. The avatar Ramakrishna explained this, & the Guru Rajneesh or ‘Osho said the HEART is a the vital energy center for spirituality. This veil COVERS THE HEART ON UP.

Her shoulders, arms & torso mostly covered are her strength, her shoulders & upper arms {biceps} mean strength—this is her Power—Her Heart is also the center of her Power—the ability to Love.

RED SUN with RAYS: This is the Passion required to reach the top, the Sahasrara, it is symbolic of the great energy center of the Sahasrara, like a RED SUN with all its many rays.

One must give up ALL THINGS, ALL PEOPLE to find union with God. Put another way, nothing can waylay, delay, sabotage, distract or in any way interfere with your dedication to God. If it does, you will not reach Her.)*

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SEX and MARRIAGE

Dream about marriage & sex interpreted for a friend

3-5-20-HES GOOD HUSBAND I SAY WE WILL DO SEX

John, my good husband, & I are standing around outside by the small bridge near the creek. He is facing away from the creek toward me, is wearing a white t-shirt, his hair curly honey blonde.

(BRIDGE, SMALL: A TRANSITION, A CHANGE.

CREEK: CARRIES THE GRACE OF GOD OR GOOD FORTUNE

FACING AWAY, FROM CREEK: HE DOES NOT SEE THIS GRACE COMING, NOT AWARE.

CURLY HAIR: WORRIED {IT’LL CURL YOUR HAIR}

HONEY BLONDE HAIR: HE HAS SWEET THOUGHTS ABOUT ME.

LOOKING AT ME: THINKING ABOUT ME.

WHITE T-SHIRT: HE WANTS MARRIAGE. THE WHITE IS OVER HIS HEART.)

This is like in real life, I’ve never had sex with John but a change has come over me. I tell him, as I have thought it out,

(CHANGE: THIS EXPLAINS THE BRIDGE OR CHANGE, IT’S ABOUT SEX.

I ASKED GOD TO GIVE ME A SIGN ABOUT WHEN TO START UP AGAIN & THE TIME IS COMING SOON.)

“It seems that you aren’t happy & neither am I.”

To myself I have thought about my revulsion to have sex with him – he doesn’t have any appeal to me. But I’m going to force myself to desire him – how bad could it be? I need sex & it might as well be my husband. We could both be happy if I make myself do it.

So I tell him I am going to allow him to do sex to me. He is just listening, he’s passive.

(PASSIVE: AMENABLE, COOPERATIVE, SUBMISSIVE–TO ME IN THIS SITUATION.)

I am wearing a white hat, the kind sailors wear, only the rim of it is wider than sailor’s. It’s pushed back on my forehead; I seem to be adjusting it. I don’t see any of the hair on my head, it’s under my hat.

(UNDER MY HAT: THIS IS A SECRET TO HIM, NOT TO ME. MY THOUGHTS {HAIR} ABOUT IT ARE SECRET.

HAT, WHITE: MARRIAGE, MARRIAGE MINDED

FOREHEAD, PUSHED BACK ON: EXPOSING MY THOUGHTS OR DECISION.)

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SYMBOLS IN THE DREAM OF 3-5-20

BRIDGE, SMALL: A TRANSITION, A CHANGE. A bridge takes us from one place to another, not necessarily to a physical place but mental, emotional or spiritual place. It could also be any venue, any change, from one thing to another, like one job or project leading to another.

CREEK: CARRIES THE GRACE OF GOD OR GOOD FORTUNE. Water is often grace because we need water so badly, we couldn’t live without it, ditto for the Grace of God.

FACING AWAY, FROM CREEK: HE DOES NOT SEE THIS GRACE COMING, NOT AWARE. This grace is something that will make him happy but he’s not aware it’s coming.

CURLY HAIR: WORRIED {IT’LL CURL YOUR HAIR.} Hair has to do with the mind or brain, as hair is coming ‘out of the head.’ It represents what comes out of our head, brain or mind. Hair getting ‘curled’ is like a person cringing or retreating into themselves through stress—the opposite being free flowing & relaxed. Curly hair is not relaxed.

HONEY BLONDE HAIR: HE HAS SWEET THOUGHTS ABOUT ME. Honey is sweet.

LOOKING AT ME: THINKING ABOUT ME. You are usually thinking about what you are looking at.

WHITE T-SHIRT: HE WANTS MARRIAGE. THE WHITE IS OVER HIS HEART. White often represents marriage. It can mean other things, but you interpret according to what is the dream about? The dream is about a romantic relationship so this indicates marriage.

CHANGE: THIS EXPLAINS THE BRIDGE OR CHANGE, IT’S ABOUT SEX. From no sex (what he was worried about) to having sex.

I ASKED GOD TO GIVE ME A SIGN ABOUT WHEN TO START UP AGAIN & THE TIME IS COMING SOON. God or our unconscious often speaks to us through our dreams. {Nightmares are usually from demons or demonic energies, or else our fears–could also be warnings from the Heavenly realm—I have had frightening warnings from God to stop doing something, & if not, God would ‘kill me.’ I obeyed & it was the right thing to do, which God knew would lead to dire consequences—but I was unaware. God wanted no refusal on my part & stated her Will in no uncertain terms.}

PASSIVE: AMENABLE, COOPERATIVE, SUBMISSIVE–TO ME IN THIS SITUATION. Again, passive can be interpreted in other ways, always look to the content & meaning of the dream to apply the symbols.

UNDER MY HAT: THIS IS A SECRET TO HIM, NOT TO ME. MY THOUGHTS {HAIR} ABOUT IT ARE SECRET. Since people can’t see under your hat, it’s hidden. And what is under your hat is your brain or mind, so your thoughts are secret.

HAT, WHITE: MARRIAGE, MARRIAGE MINDED

FOREHEAD, PUSHED BACK ON: EXPOSING MY THOUGHTS OR DECISION. Again, a white hat can mean other things but in the context of this dream it means this.

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ROCKY AFFAIR WILL TURN GOOD

DREAM REVIEWS ROCKY RELATIONSHIP—PREDICTS POSITIVE

OUTCOME

dream interpreted for a friend

3-3-20-ELVIS-EVIL KAHELL

First dream was about Elvis & it was joyful. There was a stage. We were taking turns performing, Elvis was on stage, I was on stage, for a while two people were on this stage that were ‘filling in’ for us. Their stage was all lustrous mint green, padded as if blankets underneath.

(STAGE, PADDED: THIS WAS YOUR BED, ON WHICH YOU & HE PERFORMED. THE DESCRIPTIONS ARE YOUR OWN SHEETS IN REAL LIFE BEING MINT GREEN, LUSTROUS. THESE ‘FILL INS’ ARE WHEN YOU TWO WERE ‘AT PEACE’ WHICH WERE ‘IN BETWEEN’ THE UPS & DOWN. THE TIMES WHEN THE STAGE IS IN REDS, BLUES & BLACKS IS WHEN YOU WERE ON & OFF WITH YOUR LOVER DON. HALF THE TIME HE WAS MISERABLE AS HE WASN’T SURE IF YOU LOVED HIM.

ELVIS: THIS IS THE LOVER DON. WHY IS HE ELVIS? BECAUSE YOU WERE MADLY IN LOVE WITH ELVIS AS A CHILD, AGE 10-12, & THIS WAS/IS A ‘CRAZY LOVE’ ALSO. WHEN YOU DREAM OF CELEBRITIES THAT YOU LOVED, IT’S USUALLY SOMEONE DIFFERENT THAT YOU RELATED TO–IN DREAMS IT’S A VOCABULARY OF SYMBOLS. MEN WILL DREAM OF SEXY FEMALE STARS BUT THEY MIGHT REPRESENT WOMEN THEY KNOW. IN THIS DREAM ELVIS IS THE GOOD SIDE OF DON WHILE KAHELL THE BAD SIDE, THE DR. JEKYL & MR. HYDE.)

The stages always had soft cushions. For Elvis & me they were glittery—reds, blacks, dark blues maybe, but sparkly like that ghoulish guy with mask that jumped into the boxing ring, covered in all sparkle/sequins in dark colors. The floors of the stage are not wood, they are padded with cloth on top, puffy & beautiful. We were HAPPY most of the time.

(YOU WERE HAPPY WHEN YOU WERE TOGETHER, OTHERWISE YOU COULD NOT HAVE STOOD STAYING TOGETHER, AS IT WAS ROCKY. IN OTHER WORDS, YOU BORE THE BAD TIMES WISHING TO RETURN TO THE GOOD TIMES.)

But El had one problem that made him miserable, he thought I didn’t love him, but I did. There are many performances, he seems to ‘go away’ thinking I don’t love him then comes back super-joyful when he finds out that I do. Of course I love him, it’s ridiculous to think I don’t.

(HE WAS UN RIGHTEOUSLY UNCERTAIN OF YOUR LOVE. HE’S INCREDIBLY INSECURE, TROUBLED FROM INNER CONFLICTS.)

The stage is set in a room & it’s to the side, against the wall (just like the bed in my apt), not real big but about 15’long & maybe 8’ wide & seems to be trimmed all around with a band of sequins if El or I is performing.

(THE SEQUINS REPRESENT THE GLAMOUR & DRAMA OF WHEN YOU WERE TOGETHER, ‘PERFORMING’ OR ACTING ON THE STAGE OF LIFE. THERE WERE GOOD & BAD TIMES, BUT IT WAS ALWAYS DRAMA.)

The highlight of this is when he thinks I don’t love him & how happy he is to return & find that I do.

(PERHAPS THAT’S WHAT HE LIVED FOR. HE TREATED YOU BADLY; MOST WOMEN WOULD HAVE GIVEN UP. BUT IT ALWAYS THRILLED HIM WHEN YOU RECEIVED HIM BACK, A RELIEF, A TRIUMPH. HIS BAD BEHAVIOR PUSHED YOU AWAY & HE KNEW IT; HE FEARED LOSING YOU. HIS TRUE LOVE ALWAYS BROUGHT HIM BACK & YOU HAD JOYFUL REUNIONS.)

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KAHELL THE EVIL ONE

Long ago I had a bf named Kahell, & he’s back, & he’s here with me, but in the scenes he has another female who is a fool & an idiot.

(THIS FOOL, IDIOT COULD BE HIS PRESENT GF OR YOURSELF IN THE PAST. EITHER WAY, SHE WILL BE GONE, BOTH OF THEM; THE OTHER GF & THE FOOLISH YOU—YOU HAVE CHANGED.)

Kahell was everything bad—a coke addict, criminal, greedy, selfish con man, the lowest of the low. Hard to think about him he was so evil & I was involved. His presence is repulsive.

(KAHELL: THIS IS THE SAME MAN YOU LOVED WHO LOVED YOU, AT HIS WORST, HIS DARK SIDE.)

First I see us at the old farm house. This female with him is short & slightly plump, like shortish arms & legs & filled out. She seems immature & egotistical.

(AGAIN, THIS IS PROBABLY TWO DIFFERENT WOMEN UNDER THE SAME BANNER, THE FEMALE HE EXPLOITS RIGHT NOW, & YOUR FOOLISH SELF IN THE PAST, WHEN YOU ACTED IN AN IMMATURE & EGOTISTICAL MANNER.)

Her egotism seems focused on praising Kahell. He’s naked here with us in the kitchen. She says how well built he is, he’s 6’2”, has muscles, not sure about his penis, it’s there but I don’t agree with his so-called ‘beauty,’ he repulses me. I see him sort of ‘emerging’ from the side of the table I’m sitting, like reaching out for something, like a person playing basketball & reaching for the ball, his body on say a 75 degree angle.

(THIS IS WHEN DON, THE LOVER, BECOMES THE ‘HYDE’ OF JEKYLL & HYDE. HE’S EVERYTHING BAD, HE’S REPULSIVE.

GF, SHORT, PLUMP IMMATURE: THIS MIGHT BE HIS REAL OTHER GF WHO HE DRUGS WITH, ACCORDING TO THIS SHE’S A FOOL & AN IDIOT, BUT SO WAS I. IT SEEMS LIKE SHE ACCEPTS HIS DARK SIDE, THE WORST OF HIM, & PRAISES HIM—SO DID I. HER PHYSICAL APPEARANCE BELIES ‘AVERAGE GIRL’ ON THE INTERIOR PLANE. IT COULD APPLY TO YOU WHEN YOU REVERTED TO THE FLESH.

YOU ARE NOT REPULSED BY ANYTHING PHYSICAL, BUT HIS CHARACTER & ACTIONS. ALWAYS LOOK FOR THE SYMBOLISM IN PHYSICAL FORMS.)

We are all three around for a long time. There’s something about after a while he wants to know if we’re gong to be friendly, affectionate, maybe make love. I tell him I do need affection, but I cannot deal with him, be with him while he’s with his gf. He thinks it’s alright, but I don’t.

(BEING THE LOWLIFE THAT HE IS, HE WANTS TO HAVE THE OTHER GIRL & YOU, BUT YOU REFUSE. IF HE’S WITH HER, HE CANNOT BE WITH YOU. THIS IS A CHANGE FROM WHAT WENT ON BEFORE, AS YOU EXPECTED HIM TO BREAK UP ANY TIME, BUT IT’S BEEN DRAGGING ON TOO LONG. HERE YOU ARE NO LONGER THE ‘FOOL-IDIOT’ SHE IS.

HIS REACHING LIKE PLAYING BASKETBALL, AWAY FROM MY TABLE, IS HE IS ‘PLAYING GAMES’ WITH ME, AS HE STRETCHES OR LEANS AWAY FROM ME, HE’S NOT BEING SERIOUS.)

She at one point is standing in the room bragging about her ‘prowess’ with him – that no one can take him from her – he’s standing past her. I seem to be ‘hovering’ above, & I say,

“How dare you!”

(THE HIGHER PART OF YOU KNOWS SHE’S WRONG BECAUSE WHEN HE COMES TO HIS SENSES YOU ARE GOING TO COMMAND HIM. SHE’S BEING PRESUMPTUOUS.)

The next scene is we’re in my apt in B’klyn. I despise this couple, but they are living with me. I wish I could make them leave, but how?

(COUPLE, YOU DESPISE THEM: YOU DESPISE THIS COUPLE BEING TOGETHER, YOU WISH THEY WOULD BREAK UP. BEING WITH YOU, LIVING OFF YOU, IS THEY ARE IN YOUR HEAD LIVING OFF YOUR ENERGY. YOU WANT TO GET THEM—AS A COUPLE—OUT OF YOUR MIND. THEY ARE ‘LIVING RENT FREE IN YOUR HEAD.’

APT, B’KLYN IS A PLACE OF PENANCE, CHANGE & REVELATION.)

On one wall is a hanging shoe holder – I used to have one. In it are about 20 pairs of shoes of mine like new. Next to the shoes are greeting cards looking the same way.

(SHOES: THESE ARE THE LESSONS IN MY LIFE. ‘WALK A MILE IN MY SHOES’ & THE ‘GIFT OF THE GURU SANDALS’ BOTH APPLY. THE FIRST IS ‘EXPERIENCE IS THE BEST TEACHER.’ THE SECOND IS A GURU IS ONE WHO TEACHES OR ENLIGHTENS YOU. THIS IS SAYING I HAVE LEARNED MANY LESSONS OUT OF THIS RELATIONSHIP.

GREETING CARDS, LIKE SHOES: GREETING CARDS COMMEMORATE HOLIDAYS, SEASONS, EVENTS, & SO THIS UNDERSCORES HOW THE PASSAGE OF TIME, WITH ITS CHANGES, DRAMAS & EVENTS, ‘WE LIVE & WE LEARN.’)

Hard to recall what happens here just as I wish & hope they would leave – why are they here. They are living off me.

(EXPLAINED PREVIOUSLY)

Finally one day they gather their belongings & exit out the door. After he’s past the door I recall he has the key! I need the key back. I understand he is secretly planning to use the key to come back, so I am not safe!

(KEY, HE STILL HAS THE KEY: THIS HAS A TWOFOLD MEANING PROBABLY, BECAUSE THE RELATIONSHIP GOES BOTH WAYS. HE HAS THE KEY TO GET BACK INTO YOUR MIND & HEART – YOU HAVE A FEAR OF HIS EVIL NATURE, HIS DARK SIDE RETURNING.

HE ALSO HAS INTENTIONS OF RETURNING TO BE WITH YOU, IN REAL LIFE.

THIS ALLUDES TO THE FACT THAT THE OTHER FEMALE WILL DEPART, BECAUSE IT IS ‘THEY’ WHO LEAVE & ONLY HE HAS THE KEY, NOT HER & YOU KNOW HE IS SECRETLY PLANNING TO RETURN, BUT IT DOES NOT MENTION HER.

‘THEY’ LEAVING IS ALSO THE FOOLISH YOU DISAPPEARING WITH HIM.)

Next scene I am outside, riding in a car where three people are in front, the brother of an ex bf of mine is driving, Kahell is on my right. I tell Kahell I want my key back. He’s wearing a dark {charcoal black} pin-striped suit, black with lighter very thin stripes.

(INTERESTING, UNUSUAL SYMBOLS.

THE BOY DRIVING IS ONE WHO HAS BEEN IN JAIL FOR A FAIRLY LONG TIME {IN REAL LIFE}; THIS MEANS HE’S OUT. THE ‘BROTHER’ IS ACTUALLY THE MAIN PRINCIPAL– DON – WHOSE ALTER EGO IS KAHELL.

THIS SAYS DON HAS BEEN RELEASED FROM PRISON. WHAT IS THE PRISON? THE PRISON OF HIS MIND, HIS HEART, WHICH WAS TAKEN OVER BY DRUGS & THIS OTHER WOMAN, NOW HE IS FREE.

PIN-STRIPED SUIT, BLACK WITH THIN LIGHT VERTICAL LINES:

NOW THE EVIL SELF, KAHELL, IS IMPRISONED OR UNDER LOCK & KEY. {PIN STRIPED DARK SUIT, ESPECIALLY WITH VERTICAL STRIPES IS LIKE THE BARS OF A CAGE, MEANS BEING IMPRISONED.} THE ‘DRIVER’ OR ACTIVE SELF, ONE IN CHARGE, IS NOW THE ‘GOOD SELF’ COME BACK; HIS BAD SELF PUT AWAY. THE GOOD SELF IS OBEDIENT & GIVES YOU YOUR KEY – NO CONSPIRACIES, HE WILL NOT INVADE YOU WITHOUT PERMISSION, HE WILL WAIT FOR YOU TO OPEN THE DOOR, WHICH SHOWS RESPECT.

THE BAD SELF DOES NOT WANT TO RETURN THE KEY FOR WHAT REASON? MAYBE HE NO LONGER HAS IT, NO LONGER HAS THE ABILITY TO TORMENT YOU. MAYBE SINCE HE’S ‘PUT DOWN’ HE HASN’T GOT THE ABILITY TO ACT IN ANY WAY, HAS TO JUST SIT IN HIS CELL OR ‘STAY DEAD.’ HIS INTENTIONS WOULD STILL BE EVIL BUT HE’S POWERLESS TO ACT.)

Surprisingly, the brother takes out a key – my key – gives it back to me—I didn’t even know he had it. Kahell doesn’t want to return my key.

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SYMBOLS IN THE 3-3-20 DREAM, ELVIS & KAHELL

DREAM PREDICTS ROCKY RELATIONSHIP WILL HAVE POSITIVE OUTCOME

STAGE, PADDED:

THIS WAS YOUR BED, ON WHICH YOU & HE PERFORMED. THE DESCRIPTIONS ARE YOUR OWN SHEETS IN REAL LIFE BEING MINT GREEN, LUSTROUS. THESE ‘FILL INS’ ARE WHEN YOU TWO WERE ‘AT PEACE’ WHICH WERE ‘IN BETWEEN’ THE UPS & DOWN. THE TIMES WHEN THE STAGE IS IN REDS, BLUES & BLACKS IS WHEN YOU WERE ON & OFF WITH YOUR LOVER DON. HALF THE TIME HE WAS MISERABLE AS HE WASN’T SURE IF YOU LOVED HIM.

BOTH ELVIS & KAHELL ARE DON, YOUR LOVER, ELVIS THE GOOD SIDE & KAHELL THE BAD, LIKE DR. JEKYL & MR. HYDE. IT’S OUR PRIMITIVE, HUMAN NATURE THAT CAN BE CORRUPT VS OUR DIVINE NATURE. THE EVIL SIDE OF OURSELVES CONTAINS ALL THE BAD TRAITS BY WHICH WE HURT OTHERS.

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SEQUINS

REPRESENT THE GLAMOUR & DRAMA OF WHEN YOU WERE TOGETHER, ‘PERFORMING’ OR ACTING ON THE STAGE OF LIFE. THERE WERE GOOD & BAD TIMES, BUT IT WAS ALWAYS DRAMA.

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FOOL, IDIOT:

SOMEONE THINKING IN THE FLESH. IN THIS CASE HIS PRESENT FEMALE WHO ALLOWS HERSELF TO BE USED, & IN THE PAST, YOURSELF WHO PUT UP WITH HIS ABUSE.

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BASKETBALL:

REFERS TO HIS ‘PLAYING GAMES’, NOT BEING SERIOUS, MANIPULATING YOU.

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GIRL FRIEND, SHORT, PLUMP:

GF, SHORT, PLUMP IMMATURE: THIS MIGHT BE HIS REAL OTHER GF WHO HE DRUGS WITH, ACCORDING TO THIS SHE’S A FOOL & AN IDIOT, BUT SO WAS I. IT SEEMS LIKE SHE ACCEPTS HIS DARK SIDE, THE WORST OF HIM, & PRAISES HIM—SO DID I. HER PHYSICAL APPEARANCE BELIES ‘AVERAGE GIRL’ ON THE INTERIOR PLANE. IT COULD APPLY TO YOU WHEN YOU REVERTED TO THE FLESH.

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HOVERING, ABOVE HER:

THE HIGHER PART OF YOU KNOWS SHE’S WRONG BECAUSE WHEN HE COMES TO HIS SENSES YOU ARE GOING TO COMMAND HIM. SHE’S BEING PRESUMPTUOUS.

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APT, B’KLYN:

IS A PLACE OF PENANCE, CHANGE, REVELATION, GREAT SPIRITUAL EVENTS.

THE PLACE WHERE THE DREAM PRESENTS ITS SCENES GIVES BIG CLUES. WHAT DID THIS PLACE MEAN TO YOU? WHAT HAPPENED THERE? THE SAME IS HAPPENING AGAIN.

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SHOES:

THESE ARE THE LESSONS IN MY LIFE. ‘WALK A MILE IN MY SHOES’ & THE ‘GIFT OF THE GURU SANDALS’ BOTH APPLY. THE FIRST IS ‘EXPERIENCE IS THE BEST TEACHER.’ THE SECOND IS A GURU IS ONE WHO TEACHES OR ENLIGHTENS YOU. THIS IS SAYING I HAVE LEARNED MANY LESSONS OUT OF THIS RELATIONSHIP.

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KEY:

HE STILL HAS THE KEY: HE HAS THE KEY TO GET BACK INTO YOUR MIND & HEART – YOU HAVE A FEAR OF HIS EVIL NATURE, HIS DARK SIDE RETURNING.

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BROTHER, DRIVING:

IN THIS DREAM THE BRO IS A PERSON WHO IN REAL LIFE IS HERE WHICH MEANS HE GOT OUT OF JAIL. BUT AGAIN, THIS IS NOT ABOUT THE BRO, IT’S ABOUT THE SAME PERSON, DON, WHO’S APPEARED AS A ‘GOOD GUY ELVIS’ & ‘BAD GUY KAHELL.’

NOW HE BECOMES ‘THE ONE RELEASED FROM A PRISON.’ TO SAY HE’S HERE DRIVING, MEANS THE FREED-UP DON IS NOW IN CHARGE. I’M IN THE CAR WITH KAHELL TO THE RIGHT OF ME, I’M IN THE MIDDLE, IS TO SAY DON HAS BEEN LIBERATED FROM THE PRISON HE WAS IN –THE EVIL MENTAL STATE HE WAS IN BEFORE.

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PIN STRIPED SUIT:

KAHELL, THE EVIL ONE, IS TO THE RIGHT IN THIS CAR BUT HE’S WEARING A CHARCOAL BLACK VERTICALLY STRIPLED SUIT. THIS MEANS HE IS CAGED AS THE VERTICAL STRIPLES SAY SO, LIKE THE BARS OF A CAGE OR PRISON. THE GOOD GUY IS IN CHARGE OR ‘DRIVING’ WHILE THE BAD GUY IS SUBDUED.

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5 PURGATORY SOULS HELPED

FIVE SOULS FROM PURGATORY HELPED

2-28-20-FIVE SOULS HERE BEING HELPED

I’m in a house with my little daughter. She’s really small, like 2 or 3 yrs old but very active like a 7 yr old.

(THIS IS MY FLESH IN A HUMBLE STATE, LIKE A CHILD—THE SMALLER THE CHILD COULD BE THE MORE HUMBLE ONE IS.)

The house is a combo of the old farm house plus this one but different than both, nicer.

I’m looking at my feet as I get dressed. The shoes I try on are good, I don’t want to spoil them just on a plain walk, am saving them for special occasions. Especially beautiful are these sandals which have a wide transparent band around the front, my toes inside are beautiful with long nails, & I can spread my toes which I do. I decide not to ruin my shoes on this walk & go barefoot, thinking it’s the city, will my feet be safe?

(GOIND BAREFOOT IS LIKE THE ‘DISCALCED CARMELITES’ – THEY STAYED THAT WAY EVEN IN WINTER, OUT OF HUMILITY. THEN WHEN MOSES CONFRONTED THE BURNING BUSH GOD TOLD HIM ‘TAKE OFF YOUR SANDALS, THIS IS HALLOWED GROUND.’ THIS MEANS THAT WHERE I’M GOING IS ‘HALLOWED GROUND,’ WHICH IS PURGATORY. TAKING OFF ONE’S SHOES IN A PLACE SHOWS RESPECT.

SECOND INTERPRETATION IS THESE ARE THE ‘SANDALS OF THE GURU’ WHICH IS EQUIVALENT IN YOGA TERMS TO THE CHRISTIAN PROPHET WHO GAVE HIS MANTLE TO THE NEXT GUY BEFORE HE DIED. IT SIGNIFIES TRANSFERENCE OF ANOINTING.

TRANSPARENT PLASTIC BANDS ON MY SANDALS, CAN SEE THE BEAUTIFUL FEET & TOES. LEGS ARE THE STRENGTH OF GETTING SOMEWHERE MYSTICALLY, TRAVELLING WITHIN THE ‘NEXT WORLD’ OR THE UNDERLYING REALITY IN THIS ONE, FEET BEING PART OF THAT, MEANING ‘WALK A MILE IN MY SHOES’ WHICH SAYS A LOT, IT SIGNIFIES UNDERSTANDING, EXPERIENCE & COMPASSION, ONENESS WITH ANOTHER BEING. THIS SAYS I HAVE THOSE ABILITIES, & I’M GOING TO USE THEM RIGHT NOW. AND SO YOU SEE I AM WITH THE HOLY SOULS.

BAREFOOT ALSO SIGNIFIES ‘OPENNESS.’)

My daughter wants to be with me wherever I go, but right now I want to take a walk by myself so I have to lock her down, as she’s like an escape artist. After I think I’ve secured her she finds another door unlocked & opens it. I lock it. It’s funny how she’s so little but reaches up to the doorknob & opens the door. I try to explain to her to behave while I’m out & just stay put.

(MY GOING ALONE, WITHOUT MY DAUGHTER OR FLESH, IS THIS VISION & UNDERSTANDING, THIS VISIT WITH SOULS IN PURGATORY IS NOT FOR THE HUMAN SELF, IT IS THE PREROGATIVE OR ABILITY OF THE GOD SELF ALONE. I CANNOT TAKE MY BODY INTO THIS, IN OTHER WORDS.

I HAVE TO ‘LOCK HER DOWN’ WHILE MY GOD SELF GOES SOME PLACE.)

As I start to leave I go through the middle room in which stand five or so strangers – men & women. Instead of me asking them who they are, they all ask me who I am. Apparently they know some of my relatives but not me. I try to tell them I am my sister’s sister—maybe they know her.

(THESE ARE FIVE PEOPLE FROM PURGATORY IN WHAT APPEARS AS ‘AVERAGE’ STATES (stated below) – NOT SUFFERING GREATLY. PERHAPS THEY ARE ABOUT TO ASCEND. THESE PEOPLE ARE UNKNOWN TO ME.

ALL THIS IS DONE BY VISION. THE SYMBOLS OF CENTER – CENTER ROOM, ALLFACINGCENTER—SEEMS TO REPRESENT GOING ‘WITHIN,’ CENTERING ONESELF ON GOD. ONE CANNOT HAVE THEIR MIND ON THE WORLD OR THE FLESH TO HAVE THESE VISIONS & VISITS WITH PURGATORY.)

One of the men puts his hand on my left breast & keeps it there. I seem to be wearing a red dress as I look down. Each of these persons is standing & all casual, maybe leaning on things, & all around the room in a broken circle, all facing the center of the room. The room has all kinds of furniture. They’re dressed like average people & all look average.

(APPARENTLY I INCUR SOME SUFFERING FOR THIS MAN, AS WHEN HE TOUCHES ME ON MY LEFT BREAST, WHICH MEANS HEART & LOVE, I SEE MY DRESS BEING RED, WHICH MEANS I EXPERIENCE PAIN.

THE PAIN I RECENTLY UNDERWENT WAS WHEN THREE PEOPLE TURNED ON ME IN HATE & ANGER—ONE OF THEM WAS A MAN. I FORGAVE THEM ALL. THE GRACE OF THIS FORGIVENESS COULD HAVE GONE TO A SOUL IN PURGATORY—WHAT WE SUFFER RIGHTEOUSLY HAS MERIT, FORGIVENESS IS CHARITY—CHARITY GIVES GREAT HELP TO SOULS.)

I then go outside into the street where my sister has been walking our dogs, two on a leash, one loose. It seems to be night, but lit up by street lights. The loose one stands over a grating in the middle of the street & pisses into it. He has unusual hair or fur – yellow with grey border in patterns, the fur is like short yarns hanging off him. I hope he’ll be safe in the middle of the street; he seems to be resting there now. I pray a car doesn’t hit him.

The two dogs on black leather leashes I don’t see clearly, I think they’re medium sized short haired grey one with a medium-big head like a Great Dane.

(DOGS REPRESENT OUR INNER SENSES—MY SISTER IS MY PRAGMATIC SELF.

THE DOGS ON A LEASH COULD BE PSYCHIC SENSES, TWO KINDS AS THERE ARE TWO DOGS. I THINK THIS BECAUSE THEY’RE GREY & ONE HAS A ‘LARGER HEAD’. THEN THESE MIGHT BE MENTAL PERCEPTIONS, AS GREY IS OFTEN ‘GREY MATTER’ OR BRAIN.

THE YELLOW ONE ON TOP OF THE GRATE SO FAR HAS ME STUMPED. IT MIGHT TAKE ME DAYS TO FIGURE IT, I WILL ADD AN ADDENDUM.

PISSING CAN BE CONTEMPT, AS ‘I’LL PISS ON YOUR GRAVE’ – BUT THERE’S A FAR CHANCE IT MIGHT BE WATERING SOMETHING WHICH WOULD BE GIVING IT GRACE & LIFE.) IF WHAT IS UNDERGROUND BELOW THE GRATE IS PURGATORY, THEN MY SENSE MIGHT BE WATERING OR REFRESHING IT.

IF WHAT IS UNDERGROUND IS HELL THEN MY SENSE MIGHT HAVE CONTEMPT FOR THE DEMONS & SO ‘PISSES’ ON THEM. IT MIGHT BE SAYING ‘WE HAVE BEATEN YOU – JESUS HAS – BY HIS BLOOD, HIS CROSS, HIS DEATH.’

LYING DOWN IN THE MIDDLE OF THE STREET THEREAFTER, RESTING, IS DOING SOMETHING OBVIOUS, OPEN & PUBLIC, EVEN AT ONE’S RISK PERHAPS.

I MUST PONDER THE MEANING OF HIS COAT. IF IT LOOKS LIKE A MOP, MADE OF THREADS OR CLOTH, IT COULD MEAN MY SENSE IS HELPING TO CLEANSE THE SOUL – MOPPING IS CLEANING.)

I ask her who those five people in the house are & she says,

“They’re Mother’s people” or

“They’re from Mother”

some words like that.

(IF THIS IS MY EARTHLY MOTHER SHE’S IN HEAVEN & SENDING ME FIVE ASSOCIATES OF HERS TO HELP.

I HAVE GREAT POWER RIGHT NOW BECAUSE I’M SAYING THE HOLY MASS. NOTHING GETS SOULS OUT FASTER THAN THE BODY & BLOOD OF JESUS & MARY!

THIS UNDERSCORES WHAT I’VE BEEN TOLD ABOUT THE MINISTRY, THAT IT IS NOT THE DESIGNATED PLACE OF THOSE IN HEAVEN TO REACH PURGATORY, IT IS OURS.

I BELIEVE IT’S BECAUSE WE MUST LEARN TO USE OUR CHARITY – THE SOULS IN HEAVEN HAVE FINISHED GAINING MERITS—THEY CAN GAIN NO MORE, SOMEHOW IT’S IN THE INCREASE OF MERITS OR CHARITY THAT GIVES US THE POWER TO AID SOULS.

BUT THERE ARE SUPER-SPECIAL SAINTS LIKE JESUS & MARY WHO GO TO PURGATORY REGULARLY–THEY ARE EXCEPTIONS. PERHAPS IT IS ONLY THE HIGHEST IN HEAVEN WHO CAN DO THIS, IT MIGHT BE THOSE SOULS WHO ON EARTH MINISTERED TO THEM, THEY’RE ALLOWED TO CONTINUE FROM HEAVEN {I hope I’ll be one of them.}

FROM WHAT I’VE EXPERIENCED, SOULS IN HEAVEN USE US AS PARTNERS TO GET THEIR LOVED ONES UP. IN THE PREVIOUS DREAM I EXPLAINED HOW ERROL FLYNN USED ME TO GET HIS WIDOW & BEVERLY AADLAND UP.)

I tell her about the man holding my breast & she says

“I’m sorry.”

(THIS BEING SORRY MIGHT NOT BE BECAUSE OF A SOUL IN PURGATORY, BUT THE MAN ON EARTH WHO HURT ME I FORGAVE, AS IT’S HIGHLY UNUSUAL FOR ME TO FEEL PAIN FROM OUR ‘HOLY SOULS.’

—{But there is another factor: If it’s a ‘bad ghost’ as in Amy Allen’s “Dead Files”—these are renegades & apparently God allows them to roam the earth, the way She permits demons—some of these souls are demoniacs. Amy Allen goes to haunted houses to ferret out what is there torturing the living. This type of thing is not what I do, although I’ve been doing exorcisms most of my life—everyone should learn exorcism as demons & demonic souls are all over the place. Look on my website www.WomanThouArtGod for instructions on exorcism & how to say the Holy Mass.

I had a great experience with Amy Allen. On Christmas 2018 she appeared to me & gave me her ‘mantle’ or Anointing. This means, in theory, that she gave me her Power—this makes her my most recent Guru. I have not yet tried to use her power, my ministry to souls has been private, praying & saying Mass at home—I have not gone to haunted houses to do what she does. Perhaps the time will come when I might be called to use her Power—who knows.)

—I have experienced direct pain from a soul in Purgatory only ONCE in my entire life. It was Dean Martin & he gave me excruciating head pain from his jealousy over Jerry Lewis & Frank Sinatra—they were his partners & he thought they were getting more attention.

In addition to that, the only discomfort I recall from a soul was my first husband Stanley. For many years he appeared to me & still hated me unjustly. When an angel told him I got married again & my second husband died & prospered me he was angry—he made me suffer & wanted me to continue life in poverty. Finally I asked God not to show me him any more, but last year I relented. This act of charity triggered his release, & I had one more vision of him ascended—it was over after 55 years of cleansing! And each vision of him until the last one was painful.

But I must say, & this is important, most of my contact with the souls goes from pleasant to joyful, to even blissful or ecstatic. The Presence of God is Powerful in these transactions. Yes, some of the souls I see are terribly unhappy, crying in torture—but once they are shown to me means I get busy doing good for them, & each time they are shown they have improved, getting more & more happy, which makes me happy, & finally, on their day of release I share their great joy!

It is awful to see some of these souls so abandoned. None of their relatives prays for them or has Masses said – those that do is usually only the beginning, right after they die – & sometimes they have an annual Mass said for them at best. Many souls have no assistance whatsoever. They sit in their dungeon or cave completely alone, isolated, forgotten, crying, crying, why does no one help them? The living are too busy with their worldly pursuits to even care.

And what about the benighted Protestants? Martin Luther did an awful thing by adding one word in the bible, from ‘by faith’ to ‘by faith ALONE.’ The to-be-pitied Protestants think that no matter what sins they have committed & how many, they will go straight to Heaven by believing in Jesus. ‘The devils believe & tremble.’ We all pay for our own sins through the fires & torments of Purgatory—The worst pain in both Hell & Purgatory, the saints teach, is the absence of God. They say that on earth the soul did not think about God, but in Hell they can think of nothing else. And in Purgatory they long for God with hunger & thirst, waiting, waiting, it always seems so long as there is no time in the afterlife. It feels never ending.

Then there are those that everyone assumes ‘went to Hell—so why pray for them? They judge & condemn more quickly than they forgive. Two examples: Timothy McVeigh & Errol Flynn. People think of their transgression, unaware how they suffered. I reached Tim McVeigh & we got him out, ditto Errol Flynn. Recently I wrote about him under one of his videos on You Tube. An angry man posted saying Errol was a die-hard sex sinner & went to Hell……

Never forget ‘judge not, lest ye be judged.’ Remember ‘the woman caught in adultery, in the very act’ – Jesus said, “He who has no sin cast the first stone.” Someone said that what he wrote in the sand were the private sins of the individuals who condemned her—each one dropped his stone when he saw his sin revealed. Jesus then said, “Woman, where are your accusers?”)

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SYMBOLS OF THE 2-28-20 DREAM: 5 SOULS HELPED FROM PURGATORY

CHILD, DAUGHTER: This is usually my flesh

MOM: In this dream, it’s likely my earthly Mom. Mom can be Mother God, the God Self within, or any maternal figure we are talking about.

BAREFOOT, GOING BAREFOOT: This is respect, humility & openness in whatever happens in the dream. In this case, visiting Purgatory.

ALONE, I GO ALONE: When visiting Purgatory I do not take the flesh, it’s the Spirit that travels, she is left behind even though we’re in ‘nonduality.’

STRANGERS, 5 FROM MY MOM: In this dream, 5 people in Purgatory who were associated with my earthly Mom—She sends them to me for help.

CENTERING: The center of ourselves is God, so this means all eyes & minds are on God.

BREAST, HANDON: In this dream, the man’s hand on my breast while I see my dress is red means he hurt my heart/emotions. This incident was a trial for me, I had to forgive him, which I did—that act of charity helped bring or merit Souls coming to me. Forgiveness is a huge virtue, powerful.

DRESS, RED: Pain, emotional, over the heart.

TOUCH: Touch can be either painful or beneficent, in this dream painful; always interpreted within the context of the dream. God touching you can be painful or a blessing. ‘The hand of God has touched me’ sounds good. But ‘the hand of God is upon me’ might mean punishment. Someone touching you means they affected you, you had some sort of reaction.

DOGS, VARIOUS TYPES: Dogs are inner senses. We have the sense of seeing (vision, understanding), smelling, tasting, skin sensations & hearing—all this is inner as well as outer. Dogs are ‘our best friends’ as are our inner senses, as through them we discern secrets, such as the intentions of another – are they friend or foe? Part of our inner senses are ESP, psychic vision & discernment. These are human senses & there are also ‘Gifts of the Holy Spirit’ pertaining to this: Knowledge, Understanding, & Wisdom. These are the supernatural level but all part of our arsenal of surviving & thriving in this harsh world.

LEASH: control, restraint, guidance.

GREY, GRAY: Often pertaining to the mind, grey matter of the brain.

PISSING: Can be utter contempt or watering for good.

UNDERGROUND: Can pertain to a lower consciousness; Hell, Purgatory, depression, death. But can also in other dreams mean roots, secret life, source of physical life.

GRATE: The bars of a cell or place people are imprisoned, in this dream.

STREET: That which is open to the public: ‘Don’t put your business in the street.’

From Guru Rasa Von Werder, 2-28-20

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PURGATORY & DIVINE STIGMATA

2-25-20-COMMENTS ON YOU TUBE RE PURGATORY & STIGMATA

THE CLOSEST I EVER CAME TO SEEING HELL WAS WHEN MY FIRST HUSBAND, STANLEY, DIED. HE APPEARED TO ME ON A THRONE OF FLAMES, THE THRONE WAS LIKE THAT OF LINCOLN ON THE LINCOLN MEMORIAL. THE SUFFERING WAS HORRIBLE – I FELT IT. HE CRIED OUT TO ME TO HELP HIM ‘YOU HELPED SO MANY—HELP ME!’ HE DID NOT SAY THIS IN A WAY OF HUMILITY, HE WAS DEMANDING MY HELP. IN LATER VISIONS, FOR OVER THIRTY YEARS IN PURGATORY, HE STILL HATED ME. IT TOOK 55 YEARS TO CLEANSE HIM OF THIS HATE AS WELL AS OTHER QUALITIES – THIS IS AN EVIL PERSON.

I TRIED TO HELP BUT EVERY TIME I PRAYED, I WOULD FORGET TO PRAY & STOP. THEN I FIGURED HE MUST BE IN HELL, GOD WOULD NOT WANT ME TO PRAY AS THEY ARE HOPELESS.

I WAS ONLY 19 WHEN HE DIED – HE LEFT ME PENNILESS WITH OUR CHILD TO TAKE REVENGE ON ME–A MAN RAPED ME, HE BELIEVED I ALLOWED IT. I GOT PREGNANT OUT OF IT & HAD AN ABORTION. I TOOK CARE OF STAN FOR TWO YEARS WHILE HE HAD OPERATIONS FOR CANCER, THEN HE DIED. JUST BEFORE THAT, HE CANCELLED HIS LIFE INSURANCE, WHICH RENDERED MYSELF & THE TWO YEAR OLD CHILD PENNILESS. AFTER BURYING HIM I HAD FIVE BUCKS TO MY NAME, I BECAME A DANCER THE NEXT DAY.

…..AS THE YEARS WENT BY HE WOULD APPEAR TO ME ONCE IN A WHILE, STILL FULL OF HATE, BUT THERE WERE IMPROVEMENTS. I THEN SAW HE WAS IN PURGATORY, THE BEGINNING WAS THE LOWEST PART OF PURGATORY LIKE HELL……….SINCE EVERY TIME HE APPEARED I SAW HIS CONTINUED HATE FOR ME, IT SICKENED ME–I ASKED GOD DON’T SHOW HIM TO ME AGAIN.

ABOUT A YEAR AGO I RELENTED, I TOLD GOD, IT’S OK, YOU CAN SHOW HIM TO ME AGAIN. IT HAD BEEN 55 YEARS SINCE HE DIED. AND THAT MORNING, HE WAS RELEASED FROM PURGATORY & ENTERED HEAVEN. I SAW HIM ON THE FRONT LAWN OF MY AUNT & UNCLE’S HOUSE {WHY THERE I DON’T KNOW, THEY USUALLY REPRESENT PUNISHMENT. MAYBE IT WAS SAYING ‘HE’S FREE, HE’S OUT OF THE HOUSE OF PUNISHMENT.’

FOR SOME REASON I ALSO SAW ‘TINY TEENIE’ A TINY DISABLED CAT I LOVED WHO DIED A SAD DEATH. I HAD BEEN GRIEVING OVER HIM, HE WAS ON THIS LAWN ALSO SO THAT MADE ME REJOICE.

STAN OF COURSE WAS NO LONGER HATEFUL & REVENGEFUL; HE WAS NOW FILLED WITH JOY. IT SEEMS THAT MY AGREEMENT TO SEE HIM TRIGGERED THE ASCENSION.

I HAD ALSO BEEN SAYING THE HOLY MASS FOR SOULS, BEING ORDAINED BY JESUS HIMSELF. HIS TIME IN PURGATORY WAS THE LONGEST OF ANYONE I MINISTERED TO. THE SECOND LONGEST WAS MY MOM, WHO BARELY MADE IT TO HEAVEN, BUT MADE A DEATHBED REPENTANCE GOD TOLD ME BECAUSE OF MY PRAYERS. SHE WAS IN THERE FOR 24 YEARS. SHE WAS A SERIOUS ABUSER TO ME, CAUSED WHAT IS TERMED ‘PSYCHOLOGICAL DEATH’ – I SAW HER IN A DREAM, MURDER ME BY STABBING ME TO DEATH. AS A GIRL I LAY THERE IN THE POOL OF BLOOD. MY GOD-SELF CAME OUT OF MY BODY, KNOCKED ON THE DOOR OF HER TRAILER & SAID ‘YOU KILLED MY DAUGHTER BUT I FORGIVE YOU.’

I ALSO SAW MY MOM’S REPENTANCE IN A VISION WHERE SHE WAS A BEAUTIFUL CHILD LESS THAN A YEAR OLD, SITTING IN A HIGH CHAIR HAVING BREAKFAST, WEARING A LOVELY BLUE BONNET. GOD TOLD ME ‘SHE WAS BORN AGAIN THROUGH YOUR PRAYERS.’

THE SHORTEST TIME OF ANYONE I MINISTERED TO IN PURGATORY WAS ANNA NICOLE SMITH; SHE WAS THERE FOR ONLY 64 DAYS. YES SHE WAS A DRUG ADDICT & SUPPOSEDLY DID A LOT OF SEX, BUT SHE SUFFERED, & HAD A REALLY GOOD HEART. THE MAIN THING IS THE HEART. I HAVE YOU TUBE VIDEOS ON THESE & MANY SUBJECTS & ALSO A BOOK ON MY MINISTRY:

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SAY THE HOLY MASS. FIRST ASK JESUS TO ORDAIN YOU. I AM A PRIEST ORDAINED BY JESUS. I SAY MASS FOR SOULS IN MY HOUSE & FROM TIME TO TIME THEY RISE INTO HEAVEN FROM THE MASSES. WHEN I PRAY NOT AS MANY SOULS ASCEND BUT WHEN I DO THE HOLY MASS THERE IS GREAT REACTION…..SOME MONTHS WHILE SAYING THE DAILY MASS WE GET TEN SOULS LIFTED UP.

THE MEANING OF PURGATORY:

TO BE WITH GOD, TO SEE GOD FACE TO FACE, YOU MUST BECOME GOD. YOUR ENERGY/VIBRATION MUST BE THE ENERGY OF GOD. ALL THAT IS DARKNESS OR NOT CLEAR WITHIN YOU MUST BE ELIMINATED & THAT PURGATION MEANS SUFFERING—BECAUSE AS LONG AS THAT CLARITY IS MISSING YOU CANNOT CLEARLY SEE OR BE GOD.

WHEN YOU ENTER PURGATORY THERE ARE NO MORE DISTRACTIONS FROM GOD. YOU KNOW THAT THE ONLY THING THAT CAN MAKE YOU HAPPY IS THIS PERSON CALLED GOD. YOU NEED TO BECOME ONE WITH THIS GOD IN ORDER TO FIND HAPPINESS.

WHEN YOU WERE ON EARTH YOU DIDN’T THINK OR CARE ENOUGH ABOUT GOD, YOUR MIND WENT TO PEOPLE & THINGS. THESE DISTRACTED YOU FROM YOUR TRUE ETERNAL NATURE. BUT IN PURGATORY EVERYTHING IS GONE. NO DISTRACTIONS. AND WHERE IS GOD? YOU ARE NOT READY TO SEE HER BECAUSE YOU AREN’T PURE, YOU’RE FILLED WITH THE DARKNESS THAT RESULTED FROM YOUR SINS & NEGLECT OF GOD. TO GET RID OF THIS, AS YOU ARE CLEANSED, THIS IS SUFFERING.

YOU DID NOT WANT TO SUFFER ON EARTH, NOW YOU SUFFER IN PURGATORY. ST. FRANCIS OF ASSISI SAID

“BURN ME HERE, LORD, NOT IN ETERNITY.”

THE SOULS ARE PITIFUL BECAUSE THEY CANNOT HELP THEMSELVES, & TIME SEEMS LIKE FOREVER, WITH NO DISTRACTIONS THERE. SOME ARE ABANDONED BY EVERYONE. WHO THINKS ABOUT SOULS? THEY ARE BUSY WITH THE THINGS OF THE WORLD & BEING WITH PEOPLE, TOO BUSY WITH WORK, MONEY, STATUS, POPULARITY, EARTHLY LOVE, GAMES, SPORTS, GOSSIP, A THOUSAND THINGS. GET AWAY FROM THESE THINGS NOW, GET AWAY FROM PEOPLE AS MUCH AS YOU CAN & MEDITATE & PRAY TO AVOID PURGATORY.

I HAVE MINISTERED TO PURGATORY ALL MY LIFE. THEY ARE PITIFUL. ASSISTING THEM IS THE GREATEST ACT OF CHARITY THERE IS.

2-25-20- COMMENTS ON DIVINE STIGMATA VIDEOS ON YOU TUBE

I HAVE A BOOK ON THE DIVINE STIGMATA, ESPECIALLY EXPLAINING THE INTERIOR DIVINE STIGMATA. A FEW SAINTS HAVE HAD THE GRACE OF THIS STIGMATA, WHICH IS INVISIBLE, IT IS CALLED “THE WOUNDS OF JESUS ON THE HEART”–I HAVE THIS GRACE, THAT’S WHY I CAN EXPLAIN IT……

PEOPLE MISTAKENLY THINK THAT THE WORST PAINS ARE OF THE FLESH. PAINS CAN GO DEEPER IN THE MIND & EMOTIONS – THAT IS WHERE THE INTERIOR STIGMATA OCCURS. YOU THINK JESUS ONLY SUFFERED IN HIS BODY? THINK OF HOW HE FELT IN THE GARDEN WHEN HE SAW WHAT WAS ABOUT TO HAPPEN, HE SWEAT BLOOD & ASKED GOD TO ‘LET THIS CUP

PASS,’ BUT THEN HE SAID, ‘NOT MY WILL, BUT THY WILL BE DONE…..

MY STIGMATA OCCURRED IN OCT 9, 1982. WHAT HAPPENED IS THAT GOD TOOK AWAY HER PRESENCE, AS WELL AS ALL THE GIFTS OF THE HOLY SPIRIT WHICH I HAD RECEIVED – EVERYTHING. I COULD NO LONGER SEE GOD OR COMMUNICATE WITH HER, WHEN I TRIED, MY MIND WAS A JUMBLE, IT DIDN’T WORK ANY MORE.

GOD PUT ME INTO THE ‘SHALLOWS & WASTES OF HUMAN SENSE’ WHICH WAS TERRIBLE PAIN–THE ABSENCE OF THE PRESENCE OF GOD, A DARK NIGHT OF THE SOUL, WHERE I SAW NO LIGHT BUT HAD TO LIVE ONLY BY FAITH. THIS DEPRIVED, EMPTY, DESOLATE STATE LASTED EIGHTEEN YEARS! THAT WAS THE ‘PRICE’ OR RESULT OF INTERIOR DIVINE STIGMATA. REMEMBER WHEN JESUS SAID ON THE CROSS: ‘MY GOD, WHY HAST THOU FORSAKEN ME?’

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I MUST ALSO ADD THIS IN THE LIGHT OF ‘NONDUALITY.’ IT IS THE GOD WITHIN THAT DOES ALL THIS WORK, GIVES ALL THESE GRACES. WHEN WE PRAY, INDEED, GOD IS EVERYWHERE, INSIDE & OUTSIDE. BUT IN GENERAL, IT IS THE GOD WITHIN WHO ANSWERS OUR PRAYERS. GOD WITHIN IS THE PORTAL OR CONNECTION WITH THE INFINITE. THAT IS WHY SHE KNOWS ALL WE THINK, ALL WE DO—WITHOUT A NEED OF CONFESSION. SHE KNOWS OUR MOST INNER SELVES, DESIRES, PLANS, VIRTUES & SINS. WE CAN NEVER, EVER HIDE FROM GOD WHEN SHE IS THE DEEPEST PART OF US.

FEW MENTION THE INTERIOR STIGMATISTS. SOME OF THESE WERE ST. GERTRUDE THE GREAT, ST. TERESA OF AVILA, ST. CATHERINE OF SIENNA, ST. FAUSTINA & MYSELF. I HAVE WRITTEN A BOOK ON IT AVAILABLE ON AMAZON & LULU PRESS.

THE PAINS OF THE BODY ARE NOT THE GREATEST HEIGHT OF SUFFERING. IN THE PASSION OF OUR LORD, HIS MIND & HEART SUFFERED EVEN MORE DEEPLY, & SO, THOSE SOULS WHO RECEIVE WITH HIM, THE SAME GRACE, SUFFER AS MUCH. IT STRIKES ME THAT THIS WORLD IS CENTERED ON THE PHYSICAL & MATERIAL. LOOK HOW FOCUSSED EARTHLINGS ARE ON PHYSICAL WOUNDS, TALKING ENDLESSLY ABOUT THEM IN DETAIL, AS IF THEY ARE THE TEACHERS OF THIS GRACE. THEIR OBSERVATIONS DO NOT CENTER ON THE MOTIVATIONS, DESIRES, DECISIONS & MENTAL, EMOTIONAL STATE OF THE SOULS, THE RESULTS OF THE STIGMATA NOT PHYSICAL. AND WHY WOULD THAT BE? THEY DON’T UNDERSTAND THIS GRACE.

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WHAT DID JESUS SUFFER IN HIS MIND & HEART? IN HIS CASE {THE FEELINGS OF STIGMATISTS VARY} HIS THREE YEARS OF MIRACLE MINISTRY WERE REJECTED. INSTEAD OF LOVE HE RECEIVED SCORN, IGNOMINY, RIDICULE & HUMILIATION, REJECTION & ALL THE OTHER TORTURES HUMANS CAN GIVE. HIS PAIN WAS COMPLETE IN THAT HIS OWN DISCIPLES RAN & EVEN DENIED HIM—ONLY THE MOST FAITHFUL WERE THERE IN HIS PASSION & DEATH—HIS MOTHER, JOHN THE BELOVED, & THE HOLY WOMEN—NO OTHER DISCIPLES WERE BRAVE ENOUGH TO COMFORT HIM.

IN THE CASE OF ST. FRANCIS OF ASSISI I THINK IT WAS BECAUSE OF WHAT WAS DONE TO HIM & HIS ORDER – IT WAS TAKEN AWAY FROM HIM WHEN THE RULE WAS COMPROMISED–THAT OF FOLLOWING THE COMPLETE POVERTY OF JESUS. SOMEONE INTRODUCED BOOKS (WHICH FRANCIS DIDN’T WANT) & GROWING THEIR OWN FOOD INSTEAD OF BEGGING.

FRANCIS WANTED TOTAL POVERTY–HIS GOAL FOR HIMSELF & THE BROTHERS TO BE COMPLETELY EMPTY OF EVERYTHING BUT GOD, DEPENDENT ON GOD & NOTHING ELSE. THEY WOULD HAVE TO LIVE BY FAITH, TRUST IN GOD TO PROVIDE DAILY ACCORDING TO,

“GO, SELL WHAT YOU HAVE, GIVE TO THE POOR & FOLLOW ME,” & ALSO THE WORDS THAT SAID TAKE NOTHING WITH YOU WHEN YOU GO ON YOUR MISSION – NO STAFF, NO WALLET, NO FOOD, NOTHING. THAT WAS HIS IDEAL BUT IT WAS TAKEN AWAY FROM HIM.

EVEN IN HIS OWN LIFETIME THE RULE RELAXED, HE SAW HOW HUMANS WOULD COMPROMISE IT. HE SAID THAT THE BEGINNING OF HIS ORDER THE MEN WERE GOLD, THEN THEY WOULD BECOME SILVER, THEN BRASS, THEN IRON. IT DIDN’T TAKE LONG FOR THEM TO BECOME ‘IRON.’ THEY LIVE IN HOUSES, HAVE FINANCIAL SECURITY, WEAR GOOD CLOTHES—EVERYTHING A PERSON NEEDS. PRACTICED BY THE FRANCISCANS. I IMAGINE THEY EVEN HAVE PENSIONS–SO MUCH FOR POVERTY. I AM NOT SAYING THESE ARE BAD THINGS, BUT THAT’S NOT HOW ST. FRANCIS STARTED OUT, NOT WHAT HE WANTED. BUT THE OTHER MEN WERE NOT GREAT SAINTS LIKE HE WAS.

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MEANING OF THE DIVINE STIGMATA AS I UNDERSTAND IT:

THE DIVINE STIGMATA IS A DECISION BEFORE GOD TO PUT GOD FIRST ABOVE ALL THINGS, TO SACRIFICE ALL BEFORE GOD TO THE DEGREE YOU CAN STAND IT (WITHOUT PHYSICAL DEATH)—YOUR DECISION IS ‘I WILL GIVE ALL.’

GOD’S DECISION IS SHE WILL DETERMINE WHAT TO TAKE FROM YOU WHAT NOT TO TAKE. SHE COULD DO ANYTHING BUT IT IS SHE WHO DECIDES WHAT IS MOST EXPEDIENT, ECONOMICAL & APPROPRIATE FOR YOU.

WHEN I PRAYED FOR THE DIVINE STIGMATA I ASKED NOT TO GET THE PHYSICAL WOUNDS BECAUSE THEN I WOULD NOT BE ABLE TO WORK. I DID NOT THINK GOD WOULD GRANT ME THIS GREAT GRACE FOR MANY YEARS – UNTIL I WAS IN MY 70’S. BUT WITHIN THREE MONTHS GOD GRANTED MY REQUEST.

WHAT SHE DID WAS THIS: I WAS LIVING IN THE MOST SUBLIME STATE OF INTIMACY WITH GOD. I COULD HEAR & FEEL GOD CONSTANTLY. I COULD CONVERSE WITH SPECIAL SOULS IN PURGATORY, I COULD PRAY & I WOULD HEAR GOD ANSWER. I HAD RECENTLY SEEN GOD FACE TO FACE TWICE, IT WAS ECSTASY. I NEEDED NO ONE & NOTHING FOR MY HAPPINESS. I WAS IN HEAVEN ON EARTH.

GOD TOOK THIS AWAY FROM ME. I HAD NIGHTMARES. I LOOKED IN THE MIRROR & MY OWN EYES LOOKED INSANE FROM THE PAIN. IT WAS MENTALLY, EMOTIONALLY UNBEARABLE. THIS LASTED THREE DAYS.

WHAT WAS HAPPENING WAS THAT MY HEART SWELLED—THE ENERGY CENTER OF THE HEART, NOT THE PHYSICAL HEART—THEN IT WOULD BREAK. THIS HAPPENED AGAIN & AGAIN FOR HOURS OF MIND-ALTERING PAIN. THEN THE INTENSE PAIN LEFT, BUT MY HEART CHAKRA (& THOSE ABOVE IT INCLUDING THE SAHASRARA) HAD ‘BURNED UP’—

I WAS WITHOUT THE PRESENCE OF GOD FOR EIGHTEEN YEARS, FROM OCT 9, 1982 TO THE YEAR 2000. IT TOOK THAT LONG TO ‘PAY’ FOR THIS GRACE OR MANIFEST IT. THERE WERE NO PHYSICAL WOUNDS, THE MIND, THE HEART CAN BE IN A STATE THAT IS INDESCRIBABLE SUFFERING. STIGMATA IS MARTYRDOM, THE DECISION TO ALLOW GOD TO TAKE FROM ONESELF WHAT IS MOST DEAR, PRECIOUS, BEAUTIFUL & JOYFUL. IMAGINE GOD TAKING FROM YOU ALL THAT YOU LOVE & WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY; IT IS TO BE LEFT IN THE STATE OF DESOLATION; IT IS PURGATORY ON EARTH.

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NONDUALITY IN THE NEW RELIGION

2-23-20-NONDUALITY IN THE NEW RELIGION

“WOMAN THOU ART GOD”

I am in the house of a male, sharing the house. I see him vaguely; he’s very large – to the right of me. He’s given space & resources to myself & daughter to work on something.

(THIS COULD BE MY WEBMAN WITH WHOM I AM WORKING ON A NEW BOOK.)

We have a medium blonde wood table, high up like a counter, to work on. It’s about 2’X7’ & joined to this is a child’s school desk with I guess a bench for her to work on. But after a while I think what do we need this school desk for? I put it aside; my daughter can sit across from me at the regular table.

(THIS IS A BIG CLUE ABOUT NONDUALITY OR EQUALITY BETWEEN THE GOD-SELF & THE FLESH. I, THE GOD WITHIN, RECOGNIZE THE LOWER SELF TO BE EQUAL & WORKING ON THE SAME LEVEL.

THE TABLE BEING A COUNTER: COUNTERS ARE PREVALENT IN DINERS & SOME RESTAURANTS. THEY SIGNIFY NOURISHMENT. WHAT WE ARE WORKING ON IS NOURISHMENT FOR PEOPLE.)

We are working on a magazine, which represents something like an institution or company. It’s not the magazine itself that’s important, it’s what it represents. We are at the beginning of drawing up the project, we sit & work.

(THIS LATEST PROJECT IS ‘THE NEW RELIGION—FOR WOMEN ONLY.’ THE REASON IT’S A MAGAZINE IS BECAUSE IT WILL BE IN SEVERAL VOLUMES—THIS IS THE BEGINNING. WHAT IT REPRESENTS IS IMPORTANT – THE IDEAS THAT WILL EMPOWER OR NOURISH WOMEN, HELPING THEM TO STEP ASIDE FROM PATRIARCHAL IDEAS, DOGMAS & COMMANDMENTS & CREATE THEIR OWN FORM OF BELIEF.

ONE OF THE KEYS IS HOW I TREAT MY DAUGHTER, THE EQUALITY I GIVE HER. IT IS FOUND IN THE WORDS,

“WOMAN, THOU ART GOD”—

THE NAME OF THE RELIGION. I AM LIFTING UP THE FLESH & SAYING SHE IS GOD.)

After a while we take a break, perhaps we’re done for the day.

I see two meals here on the table given to us, two plates of dinner, the same, & two plates of dessert, the same. The dinners are bigger plates;

(PLATES, BIGGER: MORE DIFFICULT OR HARDER TO DEAL WITH. MORE EFFORT ON THE PLATE OR ON THE TABLE.)

on top are broiled pieces of green peppers, covering some darkish food. The two desserts are fruits with some sort of topping, maybe whipped cream, maybe white syrup.

(THIS FOOD I WILL PARTAKE IS THE FOOD THE GOD SELF WILL DEAL WITH. GREEN PEPPERS ARE A DEODORIZER WHICH KILLS BAD SMELLS IN THE BODY, WHILE UNDERNEATH IS DARKISH FOOD I CAN’T IDENTIFY.

THIS IS SAYING THE GOD-SELF WILL DEAL WITH THE DIFFICULT PART OF THE RELIGION, THE DARKISH UNIDENTIFIED FOOD ARE IDEAS THAT ARE ‘DARK’ TO THE MIND, NEED GRACE TO WORK THEM OUT. THE GREEN PEPPERS MIGHT BE TAKING OUT THE BAD STUFF OR THE ‘MYSTERY’ OF NONDUALITY—{I HAVE COMPLAINED ABOUT THE LACK OF CLARITY IN THE TRANSLATIONS FROM HINDU TO ENLIGH—THAT MUCH OF IT IS MISLEADING / CONFUSING.}

THIS TASK IS MY PART TO DEAL WITH – THE GOD SELF, WHILE THE FLESH–ALTHOUGH I AM HONORING IT AS EQUAL—CANNOT FIGURE ALL THIS OUT BY MERE LOGIC.

{NOTE HOW DANTE ALIGHIERI WAS LED THROUGH THE REALMS OF PURGATORY & HELL WITH VIRGIL—MEANING THE HUMAN MIND—BUT COULD ONLY GET TO THE HEAVENLY REALMS WITH GRACE, LED BY BEATRICE, HIS MUSE.})

I tell my daughter she can have the desserts, while,

(THE FLESH WILL RECEIVE THE RESULTS OR FRUITS OF THIS RELIGION THROUGH LOVE—THE WHITE OR MILKY SAUCE IS LOVE.)

“I’ll see what I can do with the dinners.”

I see little her sitting there with one dessert directly in front of her chest.

(THE CHEST IS THE HEART OR LOVE. SHE GIVES & RECEIVES LOVE, THAT IS HER PART.)

She seems like seven years old.

(SMALL IS HUMILITY. SHE MUST HUMBLE HERSELF TO BE WITH GOD.)

It’s a round bowl; I see strawberries & other fruits. She seems querulous about the dessert, like why should she have both of them while I partake of the regular food?

(THE LOWER SELF IS CONCERNED THAT GOD SHOULD GET AS MUCH LOVE AS SHE IS GETTING. THIS SHOWS COMPASSION OR DEVOTION.)

FRUITS: RESULTS, REWARDS. IN THIS CASE, THESE ARE DELICIOUS, SO IT IS JOY OR PLEASURE. {FRUITS OF ONE’S ACTIONS, GOOD OR BAD. ‘BY THEIR FRUIT YE SHALL KNOW THEM.’ ‘THE FRUIT DOES NOT FALL FAR FROM THE TREE.’ ‘BE FRUITFUL & MULTIPLY.’

AS AN ANTONYM, YOU HEAR OF ‘THE BAD SEED’ & SINS BEAR ‘THE FRUIT OF THEIR ACTIONS’ OR BAD RESULTS.}

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SYMBOLS OF THIS DREAM:

TABLE: What is brought to the table or what is shared, discussed, donated or presented.

COUNTER: Implies in this dream, the counter in a restaurant which is about nourishment.

SCHOOL DESK: The table of a person that is learning, the place of a child, student or devotee.

MAGAZINE: One in a series of periodicals or publications

PLATE: That which is front of one to deal with. Big plate is a lot to deal with, smaller plate less.

DARKISH FOOD: Something unknown, unseen, a mystery, must be seen & understood.

GREEN PEPPERS: A deodorizing food, which makes clean, clears up, fixes something.

MILKY SAUCE or WHIPPED CREAM: Anything white coming out of milk means love.

BUTTER: Butter is made from milk but usually means ‘the fat of the land,’ resources, money ‘which side my bread is buttered on.’

CREAM: The best of something, ‘cream of the crop,’ ‘the cream in my coffee,’ ‘taking the cream off the top.’

CHILD, YOUNG: In this dream humility. In other examples immaturity or inability, ignorance, naïveté.

FRUITS: Results. In this dream joyful, pleasurable results.

STRAWBERRIES: Joyful, pleasant fruits or results.

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HE WILL SING A NEW SONG

2-10-20-TRYING 4 GOOD TIME- – HE WILL HAVE TO SING A NEW SONG

DREAM X-PLANS HOW HE TRIED TO BAIT/LURE YOU TO CHASE HIM AGAIN BUT HE FAILED-HE’S NOW COMPLETELY DISCOURAGED—HIS OLD GAMES NO LONGER WORK. HE’LL HAVE TO SING A NEW SONG.

Dream interpreted for a friend

I was going out with a young man who at some point seems to be ‘in love’ with me hopelessly (like the guy who calls me from London every day.)

(AT FIRST I THOUGHT THIS WAS MY FRIEND WHO’S BEEN ASKING ME TO HANG OUT WITH HIM—WE’RE MAKING PLANS TO GO OUT ON VALENTINES, BUT THERE’S NOTHING BETWEEN US ROMANTICALLY, JUST FRIENDS.

BUT I SEE A HIDDEN MEANING IN THIS. IS IT REALLY ABOUT THE FRIEND, OR DOES IT HEARKEN TO THE EX BF WHOM I’VE NOT SEEN FOR A WHILE – THE DREAM WILL EXPLAIN I DON’T RESPOND TO HIS LOVE, PERHAPS NOT BELIEVING IN IT, NOT CATCHING ON TO HIS OVERTURES.

‘NOTHING BETWEEN US ROMANTICALLY’ IS TRUE INDEED, WE’VE NOT SEEN ONE ANOTHER FOR A WHILE.

IN THE ONLY WAY HE ‘KNOWS HOW’ OR THE ONLY AVENUE HE ‘KNOWS’ OR ‘UNDERSTANDS’ HOW TO USE HE IS USING. HE’S PLACING ‘BAIT’ ON THE INTERNET: IMAGES TO MAKE YOU JEALOUS EXCEPT YOU AREN’T JEALOUS ANY MORE, IT’S NOT WORKING.)

We were on the street talking about where we were going – we were planning to go some place for fun – when we discover Brock is having a party at his place, so we’ll go there unexpectedly, just show up, no invitation (it seems open) & surprise him.

(THIS PARTY ACTUALLY REPRESENTS TWO BARS NEXT TO EACH OTHER WHERE I GO A LOT. NO INVITATION NEEDED, MAYBE I’LL SURPRISE THE EX IF HE SEES ME THERE.

THAT’S ONE MEANING TO THE SYMBOL. BUT THE NEXT MEANING IS THE MENTAL STATE I’M IN CONCERNING ALL OF THIS: CONTEMPLATION. THAT WILL PAN OUT IN THE REST OF THE DREAM.

DREAM SYMBOLS CAN BE COMPLICATED AS THEY CAN SOMETIMES HAVE MULTIPLE MEANINGS.)

We were on our way elsewhere or doing something different, but then we divert to the Brock party.

(BROCK IS AN EX BF OF MINE. WE WERE TALKING ABOUT BUMPING INTO HIM—MY FRIEND KIP NEVER MET HIM.

BUT KIP IS A SYMBOL OF THE EX IN ANOTHER FORM—AN ALTER EGO OR ‘OTHER SELF.’ HE IS ‘INVITING’ ME THROUGH PUBLIC MEDIA, PROVOKING ME, BUT I AM NOT ‘CATCHING ON.’)

My young man, as soon as we enter, helps me with my coat. It’s the thick, heavy, white sheepskin coat I used to have. He helps me out of it & hangs it on the wall where there’s a series of coat hangers.

(THE COAT HEARKENS TO THE PAST, SO IT’S SAYING ‘WE RETURN TO THE PAST.’ THE FACT THAT ITS SHEEPSKIN SAYS THAT I’M A ‘SHEEP.’ WHAT DOES THAT MEAN? IT MEANS SUBMISSIVE, I AM SUBMITTING OR GIVING IN TO GO WHERE I MIGHT SEE THIS EX BF.

BUT IT COULD ALSO MEAN I USED TO BE A SHEEP–MY COAT WAS HEAVY, MY SUBMISSION WAS ‘HEAVY’ OR WEIGHED HEAVILY UPON ME – HE CONTROLLED ME IN OTHER WORDS. I DID WHAT HE WANTED – HE DID NOT DO WHAT I WANTED.

THIS TAKING OFF OF MY COAT IS REMOVING HOW I USED TO BE. I AM NO LONGER SUBMISSIVE; HE CAN NO LONGER CONTROL ME.

WHY IS ‘KIP’ WHAT REPRESENTS HIM IN THE PAST, TAKING OFF MY COAT? COULD BE THAT I’M DONE WITH THE PAST – HERE, BROCK (KIP IS BROCK IN THE PAST POSSIBLY BECAUSE KIP IS A FEW YEARS YOUNGER THAN BROCK IN REAL LIFE, LIKE BROCK USED TO BE WHEN HE WAS YOUNGER) SO IT’S LIKE THE PAST IS TAKEN OFF.)

I think ‘won’t Brock be surprised, maybe delighted, to see me.’

(I AM HOPING TO SEE THIS EX & THAT HE’LL BE HAPPY TO SEE ME…..THAT’S A THOUGHT THAT WILL PLAGUE ME AS YOU’LL SEE AS THE DREAM ENSUES.)

I look over at a place at the end of this big room & there’s a counter, & on the other side of the counter are two chefs, one of them vaguely looks like Brock. The other I cannot recognize. I peer at ‘Brock’ more & more closely. He doesn’t seem to see me. And he doesn’t look like himself, but like a distant cousin, vaguely like him, having the same type hair, mustache & beard, white skin. I say to my friend, let’s call him Kip –

“That’s not Brock.”

(THIS SAYS WE SEE BROCK, OR MAYBE HE’S THERE BUT DOESN’T SEE US. HE’S NOT ‘HIMSELF’. THIS MIGHT MEAN WHEN YOU SAY TO A PERSON ‘YOU DON’T SEEM LIKE YOURSELF’ IT MEANS SOMETHING IS WRONG, THEY DON’T SEEM LIKE THEIR USUAL NORMAL, HAPPY SELF.

BUT MY DISCERNMENT TELLS ME THIS BEHIND THE COUNTER, WHERE I SEE HIM, {NOT LOOKING TOO HAPPY, BUT HE DOESN’T SEE ME} – IS HIS POSTS ON PUBLIC MEDIA.

THE FOOD IS THE BAIT OR POSTS THAT ARE CALLING ME, TEMPTING, PROVOKING ME TO SEE HIM, DO SOMETHING TO CONTACT HIM – WHICH POSTS I HAVE RESISTED.

MY CONTENTION IS THAT HE SHOULD CONTACT ME IN A NORMAL, NOT VEILED WAY, WHICH HE HAS NOT DONE.)

As I walk close to the counter there is SO MUCH FOOD. They are constantly cooking, cooking, all kinds of food, which they offer FREE to the people including those who came uninvited. I even see the type of broiled fish I eat –

(THIS FOOD I USUALLY EAT IS DIRECTLY A BAIT FOR ME THAT SAYS ‘CONTACT ME’ BUT I’M NOT TAKING THE BAIT.)

many pieces on a tray – looks inviting. And there are so many foods they prepare, all laid out in trays, & the pseudo-Brock says to his chef partner,

“SO MUCH FOOD”……….I sense he’s saying they are putting out so much food for so many people, for free, & for what? It isn’t leading to anything good for them, they are just giving it away, & they aren’t even in the party participating, having fun, they’re just working, spending money, giving it to the public with no return to them. He is DISCOURAGED.

(TELLINGLY HE’S SAYING HIS GREAT LOVE HAS MET NO RETURN. THESE ARE INTERNET POSTS GOING ON FOR MONTHS—MORE & MORE POSTS, NO RETURN OF LOVE FROM ME.)

Forgot to mention, earlier when Kip & I were on the street he sat down for a meal right on the street – under a small tree, a little table in front of him. I was hungry & he handed me an entire lobster fillet, large like 10” long, white with pink edges, in a somewhat long triangular shape. I took it, was biting it, but my teeth weren’t sharp enough to bite off a piece so I could not chew it up & swallow! By the time I got to the party & saw all the food there, I was really hungry!

(MY FRIEND OFFERS ME FOOD/LOVE, WHICH SOMEHOW I CANNOT INGEST. TEETH BEING ‘NOT SHARP ENOUGH’ COULD MEAN I WASN’T MENTALLY SHARP ENOUGH TO CATCH ON – THAT HE WAS GIVING ME LOVE. (Not sure how I ‘wasn’t sharp enough though. It might be saying this is from his pov, that he felt I did not get it–I did–Or else it’s saying I didn’t believe he was doing the right thing – just contact me directly, little boy, not put veiled posts on public media. Oh, but then everyone would know you loved me? Oh, it has to remain a secret? Fine, then let it stay in the closet where you belong.)

TEETH REPRESENT: WISDOM OR ‘SMARTS.’ (PEARLS OF WISDOM)….OR ANGER LIKE WANTING TO BITE OR ANGER/FRUSTRATION, AS IN ‘GNASHING OF TEETH.’

YOU HAVE TO KNOW HOW TO APPLY THE MEANING TO THE CONTEXT OF THE DREAM, HERE IT SEEMS LIKE I DON’T ‘CATCH ON’ TO WHAT KIP IS GIVING ME ‘ON THE STREET’ IN PUBLIC—IN PUBLIC MEDIA.

WHY IS HE HAVING HIS MEAL UNDER A LITTLE TREE?

TREES CAN BE ‘TREE OF LIFE.’ HIS OFFER COMES FROM A PLACE OF ‘LIFE’ OR HONESTY, NOTHING FALSE OR PHONY. {Yes I know he loves me but he has to act right.}

WHY LOBSTER? LOBSTER IS A HIGH QUALITY FOOD, EXPENSIVE & NUTRITIOUS. THIS COULD MEAN AGAIN THE HONEST, MEANINGFUL LOVE. IT’S NOT LIKE BALONEY OR HOT DOGS WHICH WOULD BE CHEAP OR SMALL VALUE.

MY NOT BEING ABE TO BITE OFF & SWALLOW THE FOOD IS LIKE SAYING ‘I DON’T SWALLOW THIS’ OR ‘I DON’T ACCEPT THIS.’

ALL HE HAS TO DO IS DIAL THE TELEPHONE & TELL ME WHAT HE HAS TO SAY. THIS IS NORMAL. HE HAS TO LEARN TO BE NORMAL, SHOW SOME RESPECT.)

Then I look at myself, at my outfit. I had on the criss-cross red dress, but it wasn’t showing any breasts because there was a white sweater underneath covering my chest & something else. I decide I must go to the bathroom & take that thick underwear off as it’s hiding my body & I can’t make an impression.

(THE CRISS-CROSS RED DRESS IS PAIN. ANY REFERENCES TO CROSSES, CHECKS, EVEN STREET CORNERS {streets crossing} ALL MEAN THE CROSS OF OUR LORD—PAIN. SO I WANT TO REMOVE THIS PAIN FROM MYSELF.

UNDERNEATH IS THIS SOFT WHITE LOOSELY-KNIT SWEATER. WHITE ON THE CHEST CAN MEAN ‘THE PURE IN HEART SHALL SEE GOD,’ SO IT COULD MEAN MY GOOD INTENTIONS OR HEART. WHITE CAN ALSO HAVE TO DO WITH MARRIAGE, BUT WHAT IN THE CONTEXT OF THIS DREAM IS THE WHITE SWEATER & OTHER UNDERWEAR WHICH HIDES MY BREASTS? {breasts mean love, the milk of love, Mother’s milk.}

IT MIGHT COME DOWN TO THAT I’M IN PAIN DUE TO MY LOVE—BUT THIS IS HUMAN LOVE, WHICH IS DISORDERLY IN THE SPIRITUAL LIFE, IT BRINGS SUFFERING. I WANT TO GET RID OF THE PAIN BUT NOT THE LOVE, WHICH WOULD MEAN STOP THE HUMAN ATTACHMENT, RETAIN THE TRUE LOVE.)

The party apt is impressive. It’s two huge rooms, perfect squares – they are about 20-30’ x the same. I think how could Brock afford all this? Could I get a place like this?

The décor is exquisite. It’s warm & cozy, mostly beiges with highlights of red, like the type of designs you’d see on a hand-made quilt, sort of Early American, but more beige than anything – the ceilings are high.

(BEIGE USUALLY – TO ME – REPRESENTS CONTEMPLATION. AND ALTHOUGH THIS DOES NOT MAKE TOTAL LOGICAL SENSE, DREAMS ARE NOT ALWAYS PERFECTLY ‘LOGICAL’ IN THE SENSE WE SEE LOGIC. LOGICALLY, I CAME HERE AS IN ‘GOING OUT’ – GOING TO THE EX, TO THE CLUBS, TO HIS SPACE, LEAVING BEHIND MY OWN SPHERE.

AND YET, THE PEOPLE HERE SHOW MY STATE WHILE I AM ‘OUT’ BUT I’M NOT REALLY OUT, I AM HOME, ALONE, LOOKING AT HIS POST / BAITS, & I AM SUBDUED & QUIET, NOT EMOTINAL.

IN THAT SENSE, THEN, THE BEIGE IN BOTH ROOMS, BEAUTIFUL, IS MY NOW-CONTEMPLATIVE STATE, WHICH IS A PLACE WITHOUT HUMAN EMOTION (JUST TOUCHES HERE & THERE, LIKE RED MOSTLY & BITS OF OTHER COLORS WHICH MAKES AN INTERESTING HANDMADE STYLE QUILT) BUT PRIMARILY, I AM NOW BEYOND HUMAN THOUGHTS & FEELINGS.

IN FACT THAT IS PRECISELY WHY HE CANNOT CONTROL ME—BECAUSE IN THE STATE OF CONTEMPLATION {NONDUALITY PRECISELY, I AM MINDFUL THAT I AM GOD OR DWELLING WITHIN THE GOD-SELF} HE CANNOT TWEAK MY USUAL FRANTIC JEALOUS, ANXIOUS, WORRIED FEELINGS. I AM CONFIDENT, NOT CONFUSED.

{this is not portrayed I the dream, but I KNOW HE & I ARE ONE – WE ALWAYS WILL BE. HE DOESN’T BELONG TO ANYONE ELSE—WE WERE MYSTICALLY MARRIED BY THE POWER OF GOD. “What God has joined together, let no man put asunder.” THIS STATE IS PERMANENT & IRREVOCABLE, IT’S BEYOND HUMAN MOODS, FEELINGS OR CHANGES, IT CANNOT BE BROKEN. IT’S HIS TURN TO CRY BECAUSE HE DOESN’T UNDERSTAND THIS & NOW HE’S ANXIOUS, WORRIED & CONFUSED WHILE I SIT HERE IN SERENITY.}

I find the restroom & begin what is an arduous dismantling of the dress, (because it’s cramped quarters, like the bath is 4×4’) then two sets of clothing underneath, finally getting it off in this tiny cramped room. Someone is at the door & I exclaim I’ll be out in a minute.

(REST ROOM CAN MEAN MORE THAN ONE THING. IT’S PRIVACY, IT’S RELIEF. HERE I WANT TO CHANGE IN PRIVACY, TO CHANGE MY DRESS FROM WHAT IT WAS TO SOMETHING DIFFERENT. THE THREE LAYERS, THE OUTFIT SEEMS TO BE TIGHT, & THE ROOM IS TINY – UNCOMFORTABLE.

THIS I THINK REFERS TO THE FEELINGS THAT WERE AROUSED IN ME I DIDN’T LIKE – TROUBLESOME ONES, DISCOMFORTING ONES, AS A FRIEND INVITED ME OUT & TWEAKED IN ME THOSE SAME OLD FEELINGS I USED TO HAVE: WHAT IF, WHAT IF, WHAT THEN, WHAT THEN?

I WANT TO GET OUT OF THOSE FEELINGS, I WANT TO BE FREE. THE TIGHTNESS OF THE CLOTHING & THE WALLS SO CLOSE IS THE LACK OF LIBERTY / FREEDOM THESE THOUGHTS INCUR. WHAT I CHANGE INTO WILL BE MY THOUGHTS / FEELINGS IMPROVED.

SOMEONE AT THE DOOR WHERE I SAY I’LL ONLY BE A MINUTE MIGHT MEAN IT DOESN’T TAKE ME LONG TO FIX THE ATTITUDE, TO FREE MYSELF. AND IS THE PERSON AT THE DOOR MEANINGFUL? IT COULD BE THAT BROCK WANTS TO CHANGE ALSO, TO FIND RELIEF FROM HIS SORROWS. BUT THE DREAM DOES NOT SAY WHO IT IS IN ANY SYMBOLIC FORM, THIS IS BUT A GUESS, THE PERSON IS PROBABLY A TOOL TO HEAR ME SAY ‘JUST A MOMENT.’)

As I’m in there I think it’s amazing, as for all the hundred or so people at the party, I am the only one using the bathroom. I see in my mind’s eye CALM SERENE RATHER SUBDUED PEOPLE; several dressed in like grey with blue (hard to explain) columns or round, smooth cords up & down their arms & other clothing.

(THESE ARE MYSTERIOUS SYMBOLS. GREY IS THE BRAIN OR THOUGHTS, BLUE CAN BE SADNESS BUT IT’S ALSO A COLOR OF GOD – MOST PEOPLE ASCEND INTO HEAVEN IN A BLUE LIGHT. SINCE THE REST OF THE SYMBOLS POINT TO COOL & CALM SHALL WE TAKE THE ‘BLUE’ TO MEAN THAT—COOL & CALM MIND—RATHER THAN THE BITS & PIECES OF RED (EXTREME EMOTION & POSSIBLE SUFFERING) HERE & THERE IN THE ‘QUILT OF LIFE?’

SO WE TAKE THE MYSTERY OUT OF THIS CLOTHING, THE CORDS & COLUMNS OF SMOOTH PLASTIC-LIKE THINGIES ARE MY ENTIRE BODY IS NOW NO LONGER AGITATED BY EMOTIONS. I’M ‘COOL AS A CUCUMBER’—YES CUCUMBERS ARE SORT OF LIKE ‘PLASTIC, SMOOTH TUBES’. AND SO WE HAVE SOLVED THE MYSTERY, BLUE HERE REPRESENTS ‘COOLNESS’ RATHER THAN SADNESS.

HERE IS SOME EVIDENCE COMES TO MIND: YOU GO OUT IN THE FREEZING COLD YOUR OUTER EXTREMITIES TURN RATHER BLUE INSTEAD OF PINK OR SANGUINE, AS THE BLOOD STOPS FUELING THEM, IT GETS SLOW.)

Their behavior is unusual as usually people are raucous when they’re drinking – like in bars – but they are subdued & quiet.

(THE CALM-SERENE PEOPLE REPRESENTS MY REACTION TO HIS INTIMIDATING POSTS—THERE IS NONE. IT’S NOT LIKE THE OLD DAYS WHERE I REACTED WITH EXTREME EMOTION, NOW I’M ‘CALM, COOL & COLLECTED.’ IT’S A NEW ME IN THIS RELATIONSHIP. I AM ‘SUBDUED & QUIET’ LIKE THE PEOPLE HERE.)

As I change my outfit it becomes completely different. Now my dress turns into like an ‘hourglass’ –a wasp-waist, with a green sash, the skirt & top beige burlap, the skirt bellows out round –to my knees – the outfit becomes nothing like what it was before but it’s STRIKING.

(THE BIG CLUE IS THE HOURGLASS. HOW DO I CALM MY NERVES, FIND PEACE & FREEDOM AGAIN? WITH THE THOUGHT,

“LADY, IT’S A MATTER OF TIME. HE WILL BE YOURS IN TIME, WHEN IT’S TIME, WHEN THE CIRCUMSTANCES ARE RIGHT, WHEN HE’S READY TO DO RIGHT……..

*{dream does not explain, but I will add this: This dream shows his activity, but what he’s doing isn’t the right thing. This has been the problem all along, his behavior. You cannot have a relationship with this man without respect. Respect is the glue that holds two people together – you cannot have a good relationship without respect, it is essential…….

The dream shows him trying to keep the relationship back ‘in the day’ when he was arrogant, self centered, selfish & cruel. Yes he was in love, but he used you as a whipping post, to vent his negative emotions……but this is a new day. He has to grow up.

He must understand he can’t be a baby any more with temper tantrums, revenge, provocation, intimidation, instead of respect, kindness, love, & consideration………

You know he needed time TO GROW UP—TO GET OVER HIMSELF. He has grown, he’s learned, he tried his ‘old games,’ – he even admitted they weren’t working in a post – You no longer react to baby’s temper tantrums, you let him cry & scream until he falls asleep. If you react to bad behavior, you reinforce it. He then has control, he got a rise out of you – just what he wanted. You ignore his provocations – like the posts designed to inspire jealousy – he stops doing them. He has to think of another way to get your attention.

What could that way be, pray tell? The normal, natural way that virtuous humans behave.})*……….

TO REITERATE:

“As I change my outfit it becomes completely different. Now my dress turns into like an ‘hourglass’ –a wasp-waist, with a green sash, the skirt & top beige burlap, the skirt bellows out round –to my knees – the outfit becomes nothing like what it was before but it’s STRIKING.”

(SYMBOLS: HOURGLASS IS TIME — WILL HAPPEN AT THE RIGHT TIME.

A GREEN SASH: LIFE. A SASH, IN ONE CULTURE I HAVE SEEN, THE HUSBAND PUTS A BEAUTIFUL RED SASH AROUND THE BRIDE WHILE SHE HAS HER WHITE DRESS ON. HE PURPOSELY TIES IT. THEN SHE TURNS IT AROUND SO THE ORNAMENT SHOWS IN FRONT, THE TIE IN BACK.

THE SASH IS LIKE A RING, BOND, OR THREAD, THE ‘TIES THAT BIND,’ – ‘WITH THIS RING I THEE WED’. THIS IS THE BOND, THREAD, ‘TYING THE KNOT.’

THE BURLAP? THAT I COULD NOT GUESS RIGHT AWAY, BUT NOW I GOT IT. IT’S POVERTY. WHY IS IT HERE? MYSTERIOUS BUT THIS IS WHY: POVERTY IS A VIRTUE, IT IS THE GIVING UP OF DESIRE, LIKE JESUS CHOOSING TO BE POOR, ST. FRANCIS OF ASSISI & HIS BROTHERS, THESE TYPE OF POOR MONKS, WEAR BROWN ROBES MADE OF POOR, ROUGH MATERIAL. THEY HAVE GIVEN UP THEIR DESIRES FOR THE THINGS OF THE WORLD.

IT IS HUMAN DESIRE THAT MAKES US SUFFER; THE YEARNING, ANXIETY FOR THINGS WE WANT. THIS SAYS I HAVE GIVEN UP MY HUMAN DESIRE FOR THIS MAN, ‘WHAT WILL BE, WILL BE. IF IT IS GOD’S WILL, HE IS MINE.’ AND IT IS GOD’S WILL, BECAUSE SHE HOOKED US TOGETHER. I HAVE BUT TO WAIT. I CANNOT MANIPULATE THE TIME OF IT OR HIS EMOTIONS. I JUST HAVE TO WAIT & TRUST IN GOD.

THAT MEANS NO MORE ANGST FOR ME, I AM AT PEACE. HERE IN THE DREAM, I AM DANCING IN THIS DRESS OF TIME, LIFE & POVERTY. I AM FREE.

I talk to my friends how beautiful this apt looks & I ask can I get one like this?

(SPEAKING OF THIS STATE OF CONSCIOUSNESS THAT I LOVE & WANT, THE STATE OF NONDUALITY OR CONTEMPLATION. NOTICE THESE TWO ROOMS AS WELL AS MY BURLAP DRESS WERE BOTH BEIGE WHICH IS CONTEMPLATION. ‘OUR LADY OF MOUNT CARMEL’ & HER ‘SCAPULAR’ OR SYMBOLIC CLOTHING ARE THIS WAY.)

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A QUICK VISION ON THE SAME SUBJECT

I see a woman outside somewhere not far from here, walking from my right to my left, on an angle of 30 to 40 degrees from farther to closer. She’s wearing white lingerie, silky smooth. It has two lace pieces atop the breasts, kind of small, not covering the entire breasts, just like triangles, say 4” on the bottom, coming up about 2” & from these points comes thin straps.

As she walks I hear the words distinctly,

“IT IS FINISHED.”

There are no other clues so I am left with a guessing game!

MEANING: “IT IS FINISHED” IS A STATEMENT THAT IS SAID AFTER A LONG ORDEAL, THE BEST EXAMPLE IS JESUS ON HIS CROSS, SAYING IT JUST BEFORE HE DIED. WHAT WAS FINISHED?–HIS GREAT MISSION. THESE ARE WORDS OF SUCCESS—HE FINISHED THE COURSE.

I BELIEVE THIS REFERS TO YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH THE MAN IN QUESTION, BROCK. WHAT IS FINISHED? THE ORDEAL OF WINNING HIS LOVE, GETTING HIM READY TO HAVE A REAL RELATIONSHIP, A MARRIAGE OR UNION ON THIS EARTH—NOT ONLY THE MYSTICAL ASPECT BUT THE HERE & NOW ONE.

WHY THE SLIP, REPRESENTING THE BRIDAL GOWN, NOT A GOWN ITSELF? THE LINGERIE IS A SYMBOL OF BEING IN BED. THAT COULD BE SAYING,

“YOUR ABSENCE HAS WORKED. IT WILL BE SAFE TO HAVE SEX WITH HIM AGAIN. HIS ATTITUDE HAS NOW CHANGED, HE IS DIFFERENT. HE HAS RESPECT.”

WHY OUTSIDE? AT FIRST I DIDN’T GET IT, BUT NOW I THINK IT SAYS ‘THIS WILL BE OUTSIDE, NOT ONLY INDOORS, WHERE IT WAS SECRETIVE. IT ISN’T ‘IN THE STREET’ WITH PEOPLE AROUND, THAT WOULD BE FULL DISCLOSURE, BUT IT’S PERHAPS AN IN-BETWEEN STATE WHERE HE MIGHT PRESENT HIMSELF AS YOUR MAN IN SOME CIRCLES, NOT SUPPLANTING HIS OTHER RELATIONSHIP JUST YET IN THE EYES OF HIS PEERS, BUT A MAJOR STEP IN COMING OUT OF THE CLOSET ABOUT YOU.

THE GOWN HAS TWO LACE DIAMONDS ABOVE THE BREASTS—THAT IS UNMISTAKABLY MARRIAGE, WHITE LACE IS NOTHING ELSE.

THE DIAMONDS ALSO SAY ‘COMPLETION’ AS A TRIANGLE IS SOMETHING PERFECT LIKE THE PYRAMIDS, OR THE ‘HOLY TRINITY.’ BUT EVEN MORE SO, ‘DIAMONDS ARE FOREVER’ & REPRESENT THE ‘DIAMOND JUBILEE’ OF A MARRIAGE LASTING 25 YEARS. THIS IS THE FOREVER MARRIAGE, ‘TILL DEATH DO US PART.’

HE IS NOW READY FOR PUBLIC UNION WITH YOU, THE ORDEAL IS OVER. YOU HAVE NO VERIFICATION OF IT IN THE PHYSICAL, BUT THIS SAYS IT’S TRUE IN HIS HEART & MIND – BOTH OF YOU ARE READY AS THERE ARE TWO DIAMONDS ABOVE THE BREASTS, MADE OF LACE, SO ‘IT TAKES TWO TO TANGO’. HURRAH!

More on the symbols of these dreams in near future. From Rasa Von Werder, Guru

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