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MATRIARCHY OUR ONLY HOPE

from AJAX the GREAT with comments by Rasa Von Werder

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Saturday, December 5, 2020

 

Female Empowerment Is Still Our Only Hope

Just a reminder to everyone that despite current events, or rather a fortiori because of current events, we need Female Empowerment more than ever before. While a full-blown Matriarchy is still a while away and we seem to be heading into a new dark age of totalitarian technocracy (i.e. the so-called “Great Reset”), Women must never give up and let their hard-won progress thus far be eroded any further. After all, all oligarchies, plutocracies, kleptocracies, and technocracies (or all of the above) are patriarchal at their core. As a man I obviously don’t have nearly all of the answers, nor do I claim to truly know the details of how to do it, but what I do know in my heart of hearts is that only Women collectively can truly halt and reverse for good the utterly dark and dystopian future to which we are otherwise headed, Goddess willing.

Now is NOT the time to sit on one’s laurels, give up hope, or make the perfect the enemy of the good in any way. Nor is it the time to take advice from fools, charlatans, mouthpieces of the oligarchy/technocracy/ patriarchy, or an even worse category: the vile and demonic Phyllis Schlafly types who masquerade as feminists (or even as self-proclaimed Radical Feminists) but are really patriarchal to the core or otherwise throw other Women under the bus for their own worldly gains, often disguised as concern-trolling. A good litmus test for that latter category is how they react to the works of the author Mark Regnerus, as anyone who agrees with his poisonous words are not really feminists and do not support genuine Female Empowerment. Which by the way, is both individual AND collective empowerment, NOT an either/or.

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Bottom line, Women need to get into as many positions of power as possible, in as many places at as many levels as possible, as quickly as possible. Time is running out.

So go forth and make old Buckminster Fuller proud!

(See also a previous article here as well for a more detailed discussion on the ultimate kill switch to smash the patriarchy.)

 

RASA SAYS: “Can Female Power Save the Planet”? It is the ONLY HOPE.

 

When women ruled & Mother God was worshiped, there were no wars or weapons of war.  See the studies of Marija Gimbutas, anthropologist.

When men overpowered the planet starting 7K years ago, there began the Age of Kali, an era of evil which is mercifully short lived, so say the sages.

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There is NO SYSTEM that male has ever devised that is the proper answer for our society. Every system they create, as outlined previously by Ajax, is corrupt. Even the great religions, such as those started by Jesus or other Saints & Prophets, become corrupt once males get hold of them.  See the writings of the great William Bond.

What is wrong with Patriarchy? It is male nature at its core. Males want to FIGHT – they want power & authority, to build harems.  See the work of Dr. Bryan Sykes, “Adam’s Curse, a Future Without Men.”  They cannot think outside the box, this is the box they are in & will forever stay.

The nature of women is to take care of people, they have compassion & mercy. Their nature will never change, they will always be care givers.

And so, depending on who is ruling, we either have violent, greedy bastards or caring, compassionate women, choose your pick, it is one or the other, Patriarchy or Matriarchy. Patriarchs cannot, will not ever devise or run a legit system, that is impossible given their nature, & women can never do any thing but care for others, Matriarchy.

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What do we do now that Patriarchs are ready to strike harder than any government has ever done? We can pray. We can keep our faith, hope & trust in Mother God & we can work for her doctrine. One of the things no one is doing but me – promote the facts about male extinction. That will wake people up. Why listen to men that are going extinct? Why does Mother God want to remove them?

Rasa Von Werder 12-5-2020

 

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REVELATIONS

REVELATIONS

 

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12-5-20-Heavenly dreams –

(2)  Dream explains my Lover Bob’s relationship with his wife / drug partner

Ruthie will end soon because she will no longer be able to support him.  

 Her drug habit is eating up her money now – none left for him.

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First, I was ‘bombarded’ with dreams of a Heavenly place – I say bombarded because they appeared fast & furious & went on for a long time. They might have been a result of prayers of forgiveness toward everyone who ever hurt me.

I was in a world of vast prairies, plains, woods, jungles, where all was beautiful, alive & fruitful. The trees were filled with millions of fruits, food everywhere, beauty all over but can remember few details. Sense-image material might have been the documentary ‘Wild Indonesia’ I saw last night – but I watch wild documentaries all the time & don’t get such results.

‘Sense image material’ is when your mind takes ‘sense images’ or images, experiences that you recently had, & USES them to make a point. It does NOT mean you are dreaming about the subject being used – the subject is only a SYMBOL. And so, the sense image was ‘Wild Indonesia’ but with this sort of image God was showing me what Heaven is like – to some degree, in my prayers, I ENTERED HEAVEN. This shows the POWER OF FORGIVENESS.

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When we feel negative thoughts & emotions, we put ourselves into Purgatories & Hells. When we transform the negative into positive, we enter states of Heaven. Like Buddha said, when we hate someone, it is like thinking they will die of a poison we drank. Hate & various nuances of it – bitterness, resentment, revenge, regret, sorrow over it, feeling sorry for ourselves, etc., are all POISONS we consume into our being. What is the remedy that I employed? And the fact that the prayers WORKED says I did it right – I say such prayers many times but don’t always get big results.

It went like this: ‘Anyone or everyone who ever hurt me, God, count it as if they did nothing, nothing to be punished for, as I do not hold a grudge or say they sinned. I want NO REVENGE.’ I mentioned some of those who hurt me the most.
‘I have no resentment, bitterness, sorrow or regret over what they did to me. I accept it, I am not sorry they did it, I simply say it’s part of life. I make no opinion on it any way, I say it’s how it was, I say if God allowed it, God will do something positive with it – it’s God’s business, not mine.’

This disclaimer on my part removed the negative emotions from my life & freed me up for the Heavenly experience – thank you dear God.

 

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2nd Dream: Girl Wants Vacuum Cleaner – I Help Her but Discover She Took off for Drugs

I am going up the six flights of stairs to my apt in B’klyn, with a young lady who is in her early 20’s. On one of the landings someone has put a nice looking vacuum cleaner ‘for sale.’ It’s partly black, the handle, & the body of it is some sort of orange or red – they made it cheap but this girl HAS NOTHING & needs help. I might add SHE HAS AN INFANT which is some place nearby.

*(YOUNG LADY: By the end of this dream I will figure out this is Ruthie, the common-law wife of my Lover Bob. This dream explains something to me, about her being DESTITUTE.
VACUUM CLEANER: Represents some sort of home convenience, not sure what. It could say ‘I need help with cleaning house.’ This house cleaning might not be literal, it could be cleaning up the SITUATION at home – things are BAD with her & Bob, with their FINANCIAL SITUATION.)*

The neighbor who placed this here watches me as I TEST the vacuum cleaner – it works fine. I do some areas in their apt, it’s great.

I try to negotiate with the owner for the item real cheap – $10, explaining the girl is destitute, with a small child, etc. But they say that’s not possible, but they’ll part with it for $20. I give the girl the $20 to buy it.

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Now this will not be LOGICAL. I don’t know why – but sometimes dreams are not logical but they still make their point.

In an illogical activity I look into my ‘dollar store’ bag, which is not a purse, just a cheap but nice bad – & realize I have NO MONEY IN MY BAG – it’s in my purse upstairs in my apt. This slightly embarrasses me as I think the couple might think I’m a deadbeat, but we are a short walk up my sixth floor. I ask the man of the house, please walk with me to my apt, I will get the $20. from my purse for you.

(*MAN OF THE HOUSE: I suspect this is my lover Bob because of the appearance of my Dad when I go to my apt – Dad is the one to give me away to this future husband, Dad’s presence is usually matrimonial business predicted.)*

And so we go up. I put my key in the hole, before it opens my Dad opens the door for me. He knew it was me. The fact that my Dad is here gives me a good sense of security & love.

When he sees the man to my right he is STARTLED – {the older man has a head like a chipmunk} & I introduce him to Dad as something like ‘Mr. Schultz or Diaz’ – not sure what, I was uncertain of his name, but the man adds,

‘Just Alan’ will do, & I’m not sure if that was the name he said, either. I thought he was Spanish, but again, not sure.

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*(JUST ALAN: I could not recall either name, first or last, but Alan came to my mind now – this might give it away as my good husband’s middle name was Alan. That would be saying, then,

“Lover Bob now appears as your good husband….& so this dream concerns his situation with Ruthie ending, his situation with you must begin. This could explain why.”

DAD is STARTLED: Sometimes Dad’s get bent out of shape when a new man takes away his daughter. My Dad used to get upset {in our apt. in B’klyn, pictured here} when any guy walked me home or visited me – he always had something negative to say. I think this is their lack of ability to let their daughter go.

OPEN THE DOOR, KNEW IT WAS ME: In putting in ‘the key’ I am trying to COMMUNICATE with my Dad – asking him to reveal something to me. His opening the door, knowing it’s me, is he will answer my request, he will reveal to me how Bob breaks off from Ruth & comes to me.)*

I then go to my things to get the money for the man & I suppose I do so. The thing is, the man sees my apt, it is nice but slightly cluttered, there’s a lot of beige on the walls. And I at some point see his apt, which is nice also, cozy.

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*(BEIGE ON THE WALLS, SLIGHTLY CLUTTERED: Too much on my mind, cluttering my brain, but God is here {beige/contemplation} & there is an answer.)*

Having given this old man the money {I might add I always end up being generous with the poor, I surprise myself with the things I’ll do for them. I did not owe this girl anything, but I splurged for her} we go back down a couple flights to see the girl with the baby, see how she’s doing now that she’s got the vacuum.

*(VACUUM: Is a NECESSITY/NEED but this female will forego one basic need & splurge the money for her addiction. This is a BAD SIGN.)*

To our surprise, she is not here. There’s a pile of many layers on the couch, we remove layer after layer of mostly blankets (one is orangey), she is not here, but her baby is, she left her baby alone. Where did she go?

It is revealed to me that she took the money I gave her, went out to get her DRUG FIX. That somehow is her problem, she is a drug addict. The drug is more important than her baby, she has to have it. I was arguing her case because she’s so broke & has the baby to care for. Not sure what to think, just that she is unreliable, certainly not capable of taking care of herself or the child.

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*(USES THE MONEY I GAVE HER FOR DRUGS:
This tells me that the relationship of Ruth & Bob will go bankrupt because Ruth can no longer support them. Her income has diminished, she is now near destitution, but still a drug addict. She will use money for drugs before necessities, she will neglect her child, she will abandon her child’s needs to get her drug.

Bob does not support them, he relies on her support so he can use his own money on himself & his needs including alcohol, grass, cigarettes & drugs. He needs her for the roof over their head & bills. This is what he USES HER FOR.

But this dream says, she can NO LONGER PAY THE BILLS because her income has gone so low, her need of drugs takes away bill-money – she will no longer be useful to Bob.

Who am ‘I’ in the dream, giving her money? I am the Grace of God, supplying her with what she needs as far as bills, necessities. She has, in other words, with her diminished income, enough for what is basic, but what is NOT BASIC – drugs – she doesn’t have enough for. So she will use Peter to pay Paul, the God-given income is enough for sustainability but not her habit.

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Her physical appearance? Attractive, brown hair framing her face to the shoulders, reminds me of the girl I saw in the dream a few days ago – where my Lover Bob appeared as a Hell’s Angel – an old man with a fuzzy flannel shirt came in without being invited to tell me WATCH OUT FOR A GUY WHO IS A THIEF – the thief comes in, works for you, asks for an advance for a forthcoming job – then disappears with your money. This same female STOOD BETWEEN MYSELF & THE OLD MAN.

I now know this female is Ruthie – the ‘wife’ of my Lover Bob – Bob in another form is admitting some wrong doing, some sort of ‘stealing’. Does he get money from Ruthie for drugs? And so, I might not have said it in that dream, but this lady between us is Ruthie.

The dream basically reveals something God has been saying for years – even before this Pandemic – Ruthie’s income in the hospitality business has shrank greatly. My educated guess is she used to make $800 a week, now it’s down to $250-300.  {Think of the cost of the drug cocaine.  How much per day?  I don’t know, but if she uses $30. a day of it, that would be $210. a week.  How much gets left for bills & baby?} If things get worse, she might not have a job, as her field is shrinking, people are desperate for these jobs & there will be more people applying than jobs open. In that case, she will have to rely on relatives for support, especially since she has a baby – or get a new husband. She can no longer afford the gigolo Bob, haha. {She thought she was so smart, providing him with drugs every day, so smart that she could afford it. So smart to get him badly addicted. But all this, by the Grace of God, falls apart. I told her it was temporary. She knew I was right, now it’s happening.)*

 

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PURGATORY RELEASE!

PURGATORY RELEASE!

 

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12-3-20-Release Souls in Purgatory with my Hip Pain Donation

 

Amazing dream. I was so tired I did not write it the day I had it, but analyzed it before falling asleep. I thought it might be a ‘silly sex dream’ but upon inspection it’s the most valuable revelation, so here it is.

I was in the middle of work on a project when my old web man, Nick K, takes me somewhere on a break. I was afraid to leave work, but I did it.

 

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He takes me through an empty part of the city, lots of space around this building, which is unusual, it’s color & texture on the outside remind me of the Statue of Liberty.

“The Statue of Liberty is made of copper. Why is the Statue green? The Statue’s copper has naturally oxidized to form its familiar “patina” green coating.”

The building is alone, by itself, not big. It has NO WINDOWS & the door is right on the edge of the building, on its corner & is the same look as the building. Nick opens the door, it has a curved shape handle, like maybe 5-6″ long {this is vague} – it’s unusual.

*(BUILDING: This is Purgatory. Whenever I’ve visited Purgatory, even outside, the place was CLOSED IN.
Even if the vision was outside, you would look up, & the sky was closed in somehow, it was never all the way up forever.
This depicts how Purgatory is a LIMITATION.

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Nick has been DEAD about five years. He’s taking me to HIS PLACE IN PURGATORY – which is familiar to him but strange to me.

This being like the STATUE OF LIBERTY symbolizes liberty or RELEASE.)*

I feel where Nick is taking me is a special place he knows – where I have never been, & upon entering it I know it’s a MOVIE THEATER.

*(MOVIE THEATER: “Theater of Justice” is the name of the book I published on Purgatory.)*

We go in – I no longer see Nick, am just sitting in the audience waiting for the movie. It’s dim.

Then someone – reminds me of a shaman or Indian Chief – he seems to be wearing a high hat with mantle on his head, maybe red/black striped, maybe feathers, he has a serious/happy look on his face – he’s a DIGNITARY here, calls me. He’s saying I am a SPECIAL GUEST, come here, into this enclosure, sit with us here.

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*(DIGNITARY / CHIEF, with a headdress: This person is a celestial, possibly the GUARDIAN ANGEL of the person that will be released. I have a part in this, he calls me to the SPECIAL AREA for VIP’s.

His headdress calls to mind two things, the red/black stripes would be suffering, the feathers would be freedom. I prayed a day or so ago that the pain I have in my hips – which prevents me from walking much – be given as a grace to Souls in Purgatory. All that I suffer goes to them in the ‘heroic act’ since I was 9 years old, but to remind God/myself apparently invigorates the act.)*

The enclosure is a space in the theater seats which has a low solid fence around it, but 3-4′ tall at the most, it’s square & holds in seats for maybe 15 people.

As I climb in somehow I’m looking down at myself, & this Chief is also looking at me & he approves, as my outfit signifies WHO I AM.

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I’m wearing my white leather short jacket, with a foot long fringe around the shoulders {of leather}, a white low cut top, & my favorite white/silver tights/pants. I recall seeing my legs from the knees down, fearing whether my ankles were swollen – but they weren’t. My legs are bare as the pants only cover the knees. The Chief believes, as the outfit symbolizes, I am a CELEBRITY who deserves to be in this VIP section. It is to the wall on the right.

*(THE OUTFIT, WHITE: White & silver is ‘the pure in heart shall see God. The jacket evokes ‘American Indian’ with fringe – they wore lots of fringe. This is ‘good luck’ – A Indians bade good luck. My pants with the silver, white & silver is purity & permanence.

Because I pay special attention to my LEGS is saying ‘this message concerns your legs – the way you donated the grace of the pain thereof.

When we suffer for Souls we PAY SOME OF THE COST OF THEIR SINS – thereby we can get them released. the Guardian Angel appreciates my prayer & invites me into the ‘sanctum sanctorum’ of Purgatory – INTIMACY thereof, spiritual love.)*

Then two things happen. One, a movie unfolds, but strangely, I AM IN IT! I did not expect this. A beautiful young actor materializes in front of me from neck up & I must approach him & we must KISS in an intimate way, & as we kiss, I am influenced to put all my FEELINGS into it, like the movie is being made right now, & I must TRANSMIT something emotional to the actor to make the scene good.

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The actor is young, handsome, his eyes are closed, he has the smoothest tawny skin & on his right cheek facing me, is one single mark, like a round pox mark – an old scar – that’s the only flaw on his face. So I do what I’m supposed to do.

*(ACTOR: This is the person who, by my prayer & KISS I am GOING TO RELEASE! He is one fault from ascending – depicted as the pox mark. Apparently my kiss is the transmission of this grace to him, which removes that remaining ‘scar’.
His beauty is SPIRITUAL BEAUTY as, if this is Nick, he has been cleansed for five years. The soul’s radiance increases as the remnants of sins & faults are removed – it becomes, in other words, like clear glass by which they can see God, or more accurately, they become God. We are all God in the soul, our souls are always perfect, but our human self is the VEIL which obscures the soul / God from us.)*

At the same time, the man to my right – who I don’t know, takes my right hand to hold it. They are so welcome & friendly to me here! For a moment I had to withdraw my hand to do something, then I go put it back & I see his right dungaree pocket open, & I slip my hand into it & notice his penis is under it. I don’t want to be too intimate / offensive so I remove my hand & put it back into his hand.

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*(MAN I DON’T KNOW GIVES ME HAND: This is a soul I don’t know who apparently is in a similar place with Nick & I am to help him also – in other words, give him a hand. It’s not about sex – he has an ‘open pocket’ or open attitude to receive my spiritual love – & I transmit it to him. This might not be total ascension, maybe some improvement, I’m not sure. But to hold the hand of a soul in Purgatory is a great thing, it could be ascension, it would be great if it was. The only thing is I don’t see a BIG CELEBRATION, party, fireworks, etc., which sometimes happens but not always, when a soul ascends. It varies greatly. Sometimes it’s very simple & quiet like this. I feel elated to assist these Souls!)*

 

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College of Matriarchal Love, College of the Gender War, Uncategorized

TIME ON MY SIDE

TIME ON MY SIDE

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12-2-20-He Visits Gloating-Time on My Side

 

The beginning of the dream is I’m here at the farm, but it is a transformed version of the old farmhouse, a great IMPROVEMENT.

*(IMPROVEMENT: This improvement refers to my mental, emotional state. Indeed, my faith has been buoyed up re. my lover & what he’s doing. Yes, there’s a long delay, yes, he’s dilly dallying with another woman/women, but he will eventually come to me.)*

I’m extremely PROUD of a room that was dreary. It was in an in-between area, dull, maybe ugly, but I have put a beautiful Persian-type rug covering the entire floor, vanilla colors with dark nice designs, a pretty bed, some furniture, as I walk in I feel proud & happy that I can SHARE THIS ROOM with someone & they will have pleasure out of it. The room might be the ‘no man’s land’ between my bro’s room & Marius room at the old farmhouse – it had no purpose but storage. This has a WINDOW overlooking THE STREET & the view from here will be FEATURED in the SECOND DREAM.

 

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*(THE ROOM: This is the ‘no man’s land’ I have been in without my Lover, neither here nor there, like a hallway, between my ‘bro’ who might be the Lover, & Marius’ room – which represents ABSENCE or DIVORCE. This gave me a dreary mental state in the past, but I have CHANGED due to an increase of faith God has given me.)*

Several other areas have been improved / transformed as well, both inside & out.

*(AREAS TRANSFORMED: In dreams, areas are often areas of your own inner self. To deteriorate is you become anxious, depressed, or your virtues fall down into negativity. But to improve is to improve in virtues, to rise in a positive frame.)*

Now comes this guy at the FRONT DOOR, standing, waiting to be let in. He’s big & tall, dressed like a HELL’S ANGEL sort of, black motorcycle jacket which covers a lot of his body, past the hips, has some CHAINS hanging on it. His look is not handsome, it’s CRUDE – I’m not interested in him at all.

He says something like,

“I JUST WANT TO SHOW YOU THAT IN YOUR ABSENCE I WAS NOT ALONE – I WAS WITH OTHER FEMALES.”

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(I could care less, I don’t like this guy.)

*(THE HELL’S ANGEL I AM NOT INTERESTED IN: is the Lover Bob – who fails to impress me as a whore master / demon, who just wants to fukk me while showing off a ‘wife’ on social media – {his drug partner who he doesn’t love.}

The CHAINS hanging there are CHAINS TO HELL or the lower, negative world, giving in to his OWN LOWER SELF or the spirit of the demonic.

He’s so arrogant & proud of himself for going his own way that he is BRAGGING about being with other females, at my door – he WANTS ME TO KNOW except, haha, I DON’T CARE!

Me to Mother God: Mother God, is there any significance that he wants to announce, let me know of his doings, or is it just a coincidence to explain this is a revelation?

She: He has been dealing with other women out of his rebellious spirit against God. In his heart / unconscious, he loves you, but he’s too much of a coward still to own up to it & contact you. So he takes the path of least resistance. It’s easy to find girls to fukk – half the ones he knows will ‘suck dick for dope’ – he knows dozens who will comply & all he has to do is talk to them on social media. He’s handsome & sexy & you promoted him, so they look to him as a ‘big deal.’
His COMING TO YOUR DOOR is he CARES WHAT YOU THINK – he wants to smear it in your face, make you jealous, make you aware so you would CHASE HIM, except you won’t. In the hand of God you are safe, you will no longer deteriorate to his level.
The jacket being long, even covering his HIPS is to show his GENITAL ORGANS ARE COVERED BY THE DEMONIC – what he is doing is not of God.  The black in this dream also shows ‘absence’ as in ‘absence of love.’)*

 

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There are two FEMALES here besides me, one is Jeena, dressed in black, in real-life a mentally ill model I worked with. The other one is a sort of Anna / Carol A female, tall, big, a naive, sort of innocent but gullible sort.

*(JEENA & ATHENA OR CAROL A: These in ‘sense image’ or symbol are two females I knew, but in reality, they are PARTS OF MYSELF that were affected / injured in the past relationship with Lover.
One of these says I WAS MENTALLY ILL. Yes, I was suffering from PTSD. Every time I fell in love I fell down into PTSD that originally came from my Dad’s desertion–I loved him deeply & the bottom fell out of my life when he abandoned me.  Jeena dressed in black in the context of this dream could say ‘black as in the end, a funeral, something depressing, something ends.’

The other part of me was gullible, naive, innocent but foolish, also accurate. A female in love becomes a young girl, not thinking straight, illogical, foolish. I was not in control of myself or what I did, he took advantage of this, he controlled me to my detriment.
Because this dream exhibits these females, but on the other hand, portrays great transformations, says that these damaged, lower parts of myself HAVE BEEN TRANSFORMED.
But Bob is right now NOT TRANSFORMED. He’s going through a DEMONIC PHASE.)*

I was dealing with Jeena about a dress, getting it ready for her, like I’m a seamstress. Anna walks in & is standing at the closet in front of me.

*(DRESS, ROBE, I AM A SEAMSTRESS: The dreamer is the God Self, the dress or robe is the consciousness or ‘mantle’ as explained in the Old Testament, prophets had ‘mantles.’ These were MADE OF LIGHT or their GOD POWER. When a prophet was dead or dying, he would leave his mantle to the next one, which means LEAVE HIS ANOINTING or God Power.

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Me the seamstress, means me the God Woman, giving a mantle of Light to some part of my lower self – that part ascending into the Light, being FREE as this garment suggests, covered in WINGS. But my naive self still isn’t ready or has not ‘paid’ for this privilege. This says I can give an Anointing to any one of my lower personalities but have apparently not chosen one. Which one will be liberated?)*

The dress in question is diaphanous, chiffon, soft, light yellow, completely covered with ‘wings’ or layers of floating panels, from the top to bottom. I say to Anna,

“OH, SORRY, I GUESS THIS IS YOUR DRESS – I WAS GIVING IT TO JEENA. BUT YOU HAVEN’T PAID FOR IT YET, SO IT ACTUALLY ISN’T YOURS – I CAN GIVE IT TO ANYONE.”
There isn’t any reaction from her.

*(DRESS: This is interesting as again I say, it shows the God Self within me is the Power of God acting in me – it isn’t a God far away in outer space, it is right here, right now, within me.)*

We were all inside the house on the second floor – the characters mentioned – when suddenly an UNINVITED guest walks in. His excuse? He’s come to WARN ME about a guy who came to his house & offered to do some work. He did some work, then got an advance for more work, but left & never came back. This man is wearing a FUZZY FLANNEL CHECKED SHIRT–big checks, he’s about 50 yrs old – I don’t know him but I guess he’s my neighbor. But then I see his wife who is standing between him & me, she’s nice, soft brown hair framing her face to the shoulders, looks familiar, I speak to her. But indeed I am taken aback by this man’s cheek of coming into my house without being asked in. I think he was just curious what we were doing.

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*(UNINVITED NEIGHBOR: There are two male characters in my house, one invited, one not. The invited is Bob as a demon bragging about his ‘conquests,’ the uninvited might also refer to Bob, but he here more STEALTHY, not PROUD OF HIMSELF, reluctantly admitting HE WOULD BE A THIEF if I let him. Has he been a thief? Did he steal my affection, always giving me the sense of coming back but never giving me a relationship? Is that not stealing?

  The fuzzy checked flannel shirt is similar to the second dream where he appears ghoulish–this is the lower self but why?  Depression of the spiritual, a color of the earth, like soft dirt?

 

The wife I recognize could be a part of myself – my flesh – I recognize her but not him, which means I never saw him as a thief. Her standing ‘between us’ is my flesh stood between me & having a relationship with him. My flesh was a fool by giving in to him, mentally ill. These selves are pictured in this dream.)*

SECOND DREAM

 

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In the next dreams there’s a lot of ACTIVITY. I am going someplace with people who like me. We’re ‘on the street,’

*(ON THE STREET: This is a travel in vision, to see what’s going on with my Lover – street being busy is he’s busy with people.)*

we go into what looks like a restaurant, bar, convenience shop run by a family. My ‘friends’ go to a room way to the front, are sitting at tables with each other, maybe partying, females sitting in guy’s laps – they have SHUT THE DOOR.

*(SHUT THE DOOR: Lover & friends are behind closed doors but I know what they’re doing – ‘partying’ which means drugs, grass, alcohol, fooling around.)*

I believe I’m going to take my music, which I have in a tiny blue cell phone thingy – it’s some type of flamenco/classical – go there, & dance all over the room. I have on a sleek, form-fitting pants outfit with beautiful sleek boots, I’m thin & look good.

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*(I WILL GO THERE, DANCE, physical description of my legs & boots, sleek, beautiful, my ability to dance: This is my SPIRITUAL POWER as legs represent mystical ability to go places, like the winged feet of mercury. This shows only my legs with the svelte medium green tights & sleek boots – my ability is strong. They cannot hide from me by shutting the door.

I stop at the counter of the foreign family that owns the store – I search for my music box & tell them I will play music THEY LIKE. {I think they’re Latin} We also talk about FOOD & for some reason they think I need food with salt. They put in front of me a large bag of LAY’S POTATO CHIPS, saying it will be good for me. I tell them no, this is not good, as it’s salty & SALT MAKES FAT – I have to say this twice because they don’t get it the first time, then they do.

*(MY MUSIC I THINK THEY’LL LIKE & ‘SALT IS FAT’: My music is my vibration, my consciousness. These people being FOREIGN I believe are from THE OTHER SIDE which is Heaven. They are either ANGELS OR SAINTS & they are bringing me to this vision. Notice it’s in their domain that my Lover & friends go to the far room & close the door. This restaurant / store is a place of nourishment, celestials are feeding me information.

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I plan to show them my consciousness {vibe} & they want to show me Lay’s Potato Chips – maybe I should get laid or have sex. But I protest that ‘salt makes one fat’ – which refers to the flesh getting heavy, morbid, attached, by sex acts. ‘Salty’ talk is gross talk, like cussing – I’m saying these gross physical acts aren’t good for my consciousness, & after a while they get it.)*

I am then in my house, the room mentioned or equivalent thereof, looking onto the St. from the second floor. People are running around, especially ONE GUY CHASING SOMEBODY–He is strangely dressed like in a Halloween costume, all fuzzy light brown from head to toe – even his head is covered, he looks GHOULISH – the feeling is he is a DEGENERATE – & I take out a pendulum, hold it to the window & swing it back & forth. Whoever is looking up does not notice it, so I find a BIGGER PENDULUM, A LARGE WATCH ON A THIN CHAIN about 3″ across, hold it up, let it swing back & forth. I believe it is then noticed. I was making a STATEMENT with this – point is made.

*(THE DEGENERATE CHASING SOMEONE ON THE STREET: Is my lover, Bob. The outfit he’s wearing is similar to the guy who entered my house uninvited, a soft, fuzzy light brown – he looks ghoulish. Instead of being ‘a man’ –  – he has lowered himself to being a ‘whore master’ in other words, just chasing pussy, one in particular it seems. There’s no love in it, he is playing the part of the ghoul, the demonic, just lust.
This similar outfit says,
‘He was a ghoul with you, just using you for sex, now he’s doing the same to someone else.’
I know what’s going on but am undaunted. I hold on the watch as a pendulum – saying ‘Time is on my side…..this will pass….he will be mine.’ I point this out to him, he sees it.

Lust does not go far, it passes. It brings no fruit, no permanent peace, joy or security. It’s like a meal you eat & pretty soon you’re hungry again. Only True Love satisfies.

 

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College of God & Love, College of Matriarchal Love, Uncategorized

HIS, HERS & THE TRUTH

HIS, HERS & THE TRUTH

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12-1-20-THREE WINDOWS – CLOSING RESTAURANTS

This might be an answer to a prayer yesterday. Lover was BACKSLIDING, fooling around with another girl {possibly hooking up seeking a relationship}instead of contacting me, after some sort of breakup with present ‘wifey.’ I asked God to give me a dream re once again, why & how he would come to me when all was ‘said & done.’ My Higher Self does not take his ‘dilly dally’ with girls seriously, it relies on the REVELATIONS given many times by God re our PERMANENT RELATIONSHIP coming to pass. But how things develop is a subject for query.

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*(HIGHER SELF VS FLESH/DAUGHTER: In yesterday’s dream there was an interesting conflict between flesh & God – where the flesh rose up against God & acted like she wanted to dominate – & at that point, I, the God, parted from her. This conflict has been going on for years – what the God Within wants, what the flesh wants. The flesh thinks physically, in a limited manner, short on faith, hope, confidence & all virtues. That is why flesh makes mistakes & pays for them later. My higher self was threatening me – the flesh – many times, She would ‘kill me’ if I continued with this man as it was – I did not listen for a long time, & I paid the price. The price was severe anxiety attacks, total chaos with the gastro-intestinal system, then heart attacks.

In this dream there will also be a sister I share a room with – another part of me, the pragmatic self, smart, but not God. It is the God that must prevail, dominate, make the decisions, no other part of oneself, & when another part takes over, there come the falls.

So in the last dream my Higher Self wins the day, in this dream my daughter/flesh does not even appear, but the pragmatic flesh is here in spirit, I, God, am correcting her.)*

My dreams opened with up numerous closings of restaurants as well as other businesses. All was shutting down like there was some kind of problem with society – like war but not war. I was present at many CLOSINGS, like shutting down doors, windows, I am there looking – it all goes DARK. There are many forgotten details. I was not UPSET, just OBSERVING.

*(CLOSING BUSINESSES: Usually we don’t take things in dreams literally, but sometimes they are literally true. And so, this suggests that the closing of businesses will block the way for his ‘wifey’ – who is the main bread winner – to make a living. This being gone, she cannot afford him, both have to make different arrangements, she for someone to help her & the child. He stays with her because it’s most convenient, but if she cannot pay the bills, it isn’t convenient any more, so all bets are off. This answers the query why would be come to me.)*

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This part of the dream ends & I am at the OLD FARMHOUSE in my bedroom. I am looking through one of the THREE WINDOWS, the one on the right. Below me is the yard, all is GREEN, BEAUTIFUL, fertile. There is the large Oak tree, bushes & shade, & beyond that, nice sunshine in the field.

*(OLD FARMHOUSE, MY ROOM, 3 WINDOWS: The 3 windows suggests an answer to something, ‘his, hers & the truth.’

And so I see that beneath my window, domain is the SOLID PERMANENT OAK TREE – the Oak tree has the deepest TAP ROOT of any tree I know – it’s almost impossible to pull a tiny Oak out of the ground – I have tried. This represents PERMANENCE, A DEEP, PERMANENT RELATIONSHIP.

The SHADE here is PROTECTION. People seek trees for shade, shade protects from sunburn especially {you see the sun yonder but those who come here want the shade}. The sun in the context of this dream would be GETTING BURNED, which means HURT.

The green / fertility of this area is the LIFE / PROSPERITY / ABUNDANCE of ME. Whoever seeks this area, beneath my window, seeks my protection & prosperity. This will answer the query of why Lover comes to me – because he needs these factors.)*

There are some BOY-TEENS here – neighbors – who took it upon themselves to visit my yard to play. It doesn’t bother me, I’m happy they are finding rest / recreation on my property, & notice they stay in the SHADE rather than going into the sun.

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The boy I notice most is maybe 16, short & chubby, wearing a white cotton shirt, button down, casual, loose. He has a BALL in front of him & bounces it up & down.

*(BOY-TEENS-WHITE SHIRT-PLAYING BALL: This is the presence of my Lover Bob, seen in this manner. Why this manner, & the playing ball?

Because he is a DEPENDENT on me, I am the Mother-figure, & being CHUBBY means he is WELL FED by me. This is more than food, it’s overall nourishment, could be spiritual, emotional, mental. Why is he SHORT? Being tall is sometimes, as in the last two dreams, wanting to dominate, pride & ego, but being short is being smaller than, submitting oneself, humbled or on bended knee.

The playing ball? It might be ‘playing ball with me’ which means cooperation. I am not there in front of him, but he is in my yard, my shade, under my window, seeking my protection & prosperity – & what is also revealing, is that he is FACING TOWARD MY WINDOW which means facing ME – & this says he’s COOPERATING {finally!} {It has been his failure to cooperate with me or appreciate my efforts that has caused him to stay in the mediocre place he is, dashing his aspirations toward becoming ‘a star’ & losing the spiritual as well as other blessings held out to him by God. He blocked all my effortsto help him, took up with a young lady drug partner. By now I might have got him off drugs & made him to some degree a celebrity, but none of that happened.}

WHITE SHIRT: Is his hope for & acceptance of our union / marriage.)*

I want to open this window more fully. There are three semi-used up, falling apart pieces of wood for propping it up, I have to work to get them aligned properly, hold the window up, two of them one on the other, on the left side, sort of rickety.

*(THIS WINDOW: Is ‘his pov or side’ from the ‘his, hers & the truth’ paradigm. I want to see HIS SIDE clearly, but there’s some rickety old wood to depend on for propping up this vision – could be THE PAST bringing confusion & apprehension toward the future. Will he really change?)*

 

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Then I go to the MIDDLE WINDOW which opens to the main view of the outside, the clearest vista. My sister shares this room & apparently she has this window CLOSED which upsets me. I open it & am scolding her for not having it so. It’s summer after all, no need for closed windows. I say to my sis,
“WE NEED OXYGEN.”

*(MIDDLE WINDOW: Represents ‘hers’ or my flesh pov. Why did the pragmatic part of me have this closed, for which my God Self scolds me?

CLOSED WINDOW could mean ‘Closed mind’ or my POV is not open enough- not enough OXYGEN would be lack of ENERGY or life to my vision. In other words, I must BELIEVE MORE in his coming to me with a SUCCESSFUL CONCLUSION. My skepticism would come from his past performance.)*

Then I go to the LEFT WINDOW which opens on a low roof above the kitchen & the driveway. I thought at first it was closed also, but see it is open & lots of GREEN. There are two layers of windows.

*(LEFT WINDOW on top of the kitchen, driveway mean THE TRUTH. DRIVEWAY means ACCESS or ENTRANCE, the way in, the way he gets instilled into my life permanently, physically as well as other ways. I thought it was CLOSED is my lack of faith or skepticism. But it’s open means filled with life & vitality – I do see green here.

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On top of the KITCHEN also is a symbol of hearth, home, food, nourishment. This is where our food was prepared & eaten. This represents the HEART / CENTER, ‘home is where the heart is’ – Both he & I have each other’s hearts.)*

 

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LOVER BACKSLIDES

LOVER BACKSLIDES

 

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Dream:  11-30-20-Visit Lover on Street – He’s Unsure

I’m with my small daughter, she’s like 7 yrs old, & the idea is I don’t relish ‘baby sitting’ but I have to do it as there’s no one else, & I have to admit she’s a good child.
*(DAUGHTER: My flesh. My flesh is a good child – obedient to to God Self. Seven years old is an innocent soul.)*

We’re in Bklyn on Grand St – the street is active, alive, filled with people. We’ve not been out for a long time, we relish the thought of being out among folks. 

*(THE STREET:  Implies INFORMATION WILL BE GIVEN, ‘what is the word on the street?)*

*(B’KLYN, GRAND ST: This might announce a CHANGE or SHIFT – as B’klyn was the place of monumental changes; Seeing God Face to Face & then, Divine Stigmata.

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Being ‘with people’ might hint at ‘this will be a revelation ABOUT PEOPLE. And Grand St, does that say it’s about their PRIDE? Or is it just a coincidence, as this was the street in existence there at the time {name has been changed to Borinquen.})*

We go to the very end of the street, & there, unexpectedly, on the opposite side is my lover Bob. I was NOT planning to approach him, speak to him, or in any way take the active part in getting us together – not even planning to ask him anything, but I override my decision on that & begin to speak to him.
He says,

“I HAVE BEEN DOING RESEARCH” & “BEEN LOOKING EVERYWHERE FOR YOU, WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?”

*(BEEN DOING RESEARCH: This means ON ME. He’s been trying to find me to no avail as the next sentence explains.)*
I say,

“I’VE BEEN SICK.”

*(I’VE BEEN SICK: In the context of this dream, this could be saying, ‘I have been sick at heart from our separation.)*

 

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He seems to be CRIPPLED as he sits on the sidewalk, cannot walk at all, & I tell him,
*(HE’S CRIPPLED: In the context of this dream he has been DISABLED re our relationship or how to keep it going. Sitting, not walking on the sidewalk curb, is like ‘bench warming’ – he could not find me downtown for the last over a year.)*

“I NOW WALK WITH A LIMP.”

*(LIMP VS CRIPPLED: I am not crippled as far as our relationship, but I have a slight ‘impediment’ or handicap. I can still function within our union – possibly this vision / revelation shows how I can function, I can discover things through spiritual vision.)*
Then I say,

“DO YOU WANT ME?”

He sits in front of me rather puzzled & says,
“I DON’T KNOW.”

*(I DON’T KNOW: He is CONFUSED as to his true feelings. He doesn’t know what he feels deep in his heart.)*

After a while – I say,

“WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF I DIED?”

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At this point he’s standing before me, tall, looking about 16 yrs old, with a white knitted shirt with pointed collar. And I add,

“MAYBE I SHOULD GO DO THAT”

meaning kill myself – I just said this to see his reaction.

*(WHAT WOULD HE DO IF I DIED – MAYBE I SHOULD DO THAT? is not really about physical suicide, it’s saying what would you do if I disappeared from your life completely? Maybe I should end it. His appearance as a 16 yr old boy in white, standing above me is his DEPENDENCE, NEED OF A MOTHER – HE WANTS MARRIAGE WITH ME AS I AM THAT TRUE MOTHER. Standing above me might be saying,
“I need you, I am in need of you as my maternal source, & so, I cannot allow you to lead me as you might leave me if you have control. That’s why I must DOMINATE {stand above} you.)*

Then a small girl appears to his left, in a type of ‘corner’ on the street above us. Her face is made up to look pretty, she is pretty, & she greets him & they kiss. She’s wearing a light blue chemise to her ankles, like a silky night dress, then she goes away. I take issue with this interruption, I feel he should not have acknowledged her, & I think they kissed on the lips, which bothered me even more. But she does go away & we continue talking.

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*(GIRL IN BLUE KISSES HIM: His present gf kisses him good bye. How do I know? It seems because she’s in a CORNER on the street, above {like a vision in the air} appears, then disappears – corner is a predicament, like painting yourself into a corner or being ‘cornered’ & she’s also on the street surrounded by cement, which is tomb-like. Her blue chemise might also say ‘parting in such sweet sorrow.  And the fact that it looks like a night dress says ‘no more sleeping together.’
This dream then predicts the end of her, but he will take up with a number of girls – which is not necessarily the end of us, just how it might be prior to our reunion.)*

Then we are sort of standing in the middle of the street among the crowd & a few young girls, a clique perhaps, engages his attention. He takes one of them by both hands, then turns her around dancing, where she’s in his arms, he behind her – a smooth move.

*(HOLDS GIRL IN A SMOOTH MOVE: It looks like he ‘takes up with’ or in a ‘smooth move’ snags or traps a girl into a relationship.)*

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This for me ‘takes the cake’ – I am offended & decide, with my daughter, to walk away, & do so. We head back to our apt, where I drop off my little daughter & decide to go back to the street.
*(TAKES THE CAKE – I AM FED UP WITH HIM: It bothers me that instead of contacting me – chasing me as it were – he takes up with yet another girl. This is either happening now or will happen, as it isn’t the old gf, Ruth, in his arms, it’s a new one.)*

As we were returning I asked her opinion,
“DON’T YOU THINK THAT WHEN I WALKED AWAY, IF HE CARED, HE SHOULD HAVE CHASED AFTER ME?”

Daughter is now tall, looks down on me the way he did after I asked him what he would do if I died, her face is serious, eyes intent, but she GIVES NO ANSWER but I think she means yes, but doesn’t want to say it.

*(I ASK DAUGHTER, SHE BECOMES TALL LIKE HE WAS: My flesh might be saying, ‘Indeed, he should be chasing you/me but he isn’t & so that means, at this moment, unfortunately, he doesn’t care enough……….Maybe I have to be the aggressive one instead of waiting as we have agreed, waiting this long while, maybe I should do something, which goes against the God Self.”
But my flesh says nothing, which again means my flesh will NOT go against the God Self, it only had a momentary doubt.)*

I leave my daughter back at the apt by herself & go back into the street,
*(LEAVE DAUGHTER & RETURN TO ST. SOLO: This is a parting of ways, my God Self & flesh, the God Self is of course predominant & is the leader. At the moment my lower self rebelled ever so slightly, I left her behind but went on to the vision of what is. This reality is what Bob is doing with his life, & it isn’t good…… Nevertheless, it is NOT in the dream, but I will add here, that I will STAND BY the promises of God, who has said for eons that our union will occur & it will be permanent, & furthermore, we will be dating by March, 2021 again, & we will be living together by Sept 2022.)*

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which has mostly emptied but there’s pockets of people here & there. I go to the end, where I see a tall young male wearing a white shirt.

*(WHITE SHIRT: in the context of this dream probably means seeing union or marriage in a relationship – that’s what this dream is about, so although white could mean other things, like purity of heart or innocence, always figure ‘context of dream’ as your guide.)*

He’s on the OPPOSITE side of the street where Joe & I were. I study his mannerisms because I can’t see his face clearly as he’s a half black away. His motions resemble Bob, moving around a lot a certain way, but his hair is dark black, with thick curls, his face more like Italian, not as handsome as Bob, a crude look. But he’s playing court with a bevy of people, some female, like being the ‘star’ in their circle. Where they are is next to a tall CHAIN LINK FENCE, but there’s a hole in it I think he moves through for one stunt – this is vague. He just moves around a lot.

*(NOT BOB, A DIFFERENT GUY, MORE LIKE ITALIAN, CRUDE, NOT AS HANDSOME, HOLDING COURT, NEAR A CHAIN LINK FENCE, OPPOSITE SIDE OF THE ST. TO WHERE WE WERE, HOLE IN THE FENCE HE GETS THROUGH FOR A STUNT:

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This IS Bob – he’s CHANGED from the grieving lover to a lower level {crude} his soul NOT BEAUTIFUL AS IT WAS – No longer listening to his HEART or Higher Self – wanting me. He has gone THE OPPOSITE WAY {in attitude} to where he forgets me, pursues others. He was ‘hemmed in’ before {the chain link fence} as a ‘prisoner of love’ but he FOUND A HOLE {LOOPHOLE} where he can ESCAPE FROM HIS PAIN & that is by holding court, having fun with his friends, male & female, or carrying on as a ‘free man’.

Obviously this change will disappoint me. I know he has to go through suffering & make the right choice – God & me, but he has found a loophole against this & is giving in to the lower self, the flesh, which cannot bring him permanent happiness. It’s like ‘the prodigal son’ who left home with his inheritance as he thought it would make him happy, but it did not, this is giving into the lower self which will always crash.)*

As I gaze at him, an ancient man, like 80 years old, face & nose wrinkled, comes up to me & starts chatting. He notices the guy I’ve been watching & says something about him. I ask him the guy’s name – he says something like ‘Ions Bong’. I say,

“OH, THAT’S NOT THE MAN I LIKE.”

*(NOT THE MAN: I don’t like his attitude.)*

Old man says,

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“HE’S BEEN GONE FOR A WHILE, NOW HE’S BACK, HE’S POPULAR.”
*(BEEN GONE: Apparently absent mentally from his ‘friends’ but now returned to ‘the scene of the slime.’ Most of his friends are lowlife drug addicts, losers & petty criminals.)*
But the old guy bugs me. I YELL,

“STOP STALKING ME. GET OUT OF HERE!”

The point is, the old man is attracted to me, wants me for himself, is jealous, & he’s INTERFERING with my life & privacy. So I MUST just get rid of him.

*(OLD MAN STALKING ME, EXPLAINING THIS ‘NEW GUY’ WHO IS NOT REALLY NEW BUT THE OLD MAN INTERFERES & BUGS ME – I GET RID OF HIM:

I suspect this is my good ole’ friend Bugsy. Have been taking him out on my errands & having dinner with him the last two months. I was once mad at him for saying Bob didn’t love me. His appearance in this dream is twofold: Somehow he’s part of the vision of Bob’s new, diminished attitude. This is because he agrees with it – that Bob doesn’t love me – Bugsy is in love with me, wants me for himself & this says he’s stalking me, interfering with my life & privacy.  He might be a thorn in my side, why he’s used here, because he’s against my relationship with Bob, & so, in a sense, he’s against ME.

Yesterday he refused to go out with me – not for any bad reason, just being tired possibly – but this says for me to remove him from my life. I will not invite him any more to go places with me. The dream shows my inner feeling toward him, that he doesn’t ENHANCE my life, he’s an IRRITANT.)*

 

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College of Matriarchal Love, College of the Gender War, Core Tenets, Uncategorized

TYRANNY TARGETS WOMEN!

Rasa says:  I was sure in my heart that the increased tyranny especially

targeted women, but I had no evidence or proof.  My good matriarchal friend

Ajax the Great found it. 

THIS IS GREAT EVIDENCE / PROOF HOW THIS DEMONIC PATRIARCHY TARGETS WOMEN FIRST & FOREMOST, THEY CANNOT FUNCTION, RULE THE WORLD BY FORCE – THEY WOULD HAVE NO MOTIVE TO DO SO – EXCEPT BY FIRST PUSHING DOWN WOMEN.  THEIR ULTIMATE MOTIVE REGARDING WOMEN IS TO ENSLAVE THEM, HOLD THEM DOWN, USE THEM FOR SEX /BREEDING, DOMESTIC SERVICES.  THEIR ULTIMATE AIM FOR MEN IS TO EITHER CONSCRIPT THEM FOR THEIR WAR & OPPRESSION, OR THAT FAILING, DISEMPOWER, DESTROY THEM.  IT IS THE WAY OF SATAN.

I would also like to thank the original author of the article, Amelia Janaskie.  Please be sure to also put her name in the credits for this article as well at the top, and perhaps a link to the original AIER article for context. 

  https://www.aier.org/article/lockdowns-stunt-womens-progress/

 Here it is:

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One hundred years ago on August 26, 1920, women obtained the right to vote by the adoption of the 19th Amendment. The Amendment allowed them to vote and participate in political life and symbolized their expanding independence, individuality, and personal freedom. Since then, women continue to enjoy greater economic freedom.

  RASA SAYS:  THINK ABOUT THIS.  WE ONLY OBTAINED THE RIGHT TO VOTE 100 YEARS AGO – PRIOR TO THAT WE HAD NO VOICE WHATEVER IN THE GOVERNMENT OF OUR SOCIETY, FOR THOUSANDS OF YEARS – SINCE THE FALL OF MATRIARCHY & THE TAKEOVER OF SATAN.

The chart below demonstrates the employment growth women have experienced over the past 70 years.  {Sorry if chart does not show up on your computer, but the graph goes UP & UP.

Immediately before the pandemic, women in the US enjoyed remarkable economic success. Women’s entrepreneurship was growing. In 2018, the number of net new women-owned businesses per day set records at 1,821 businesses per day. Women participated in the workforce with low levels of unemployment. In February 2020, the women’s unemployment rate was at 3.4%, the lowest ever since 1953 when women were entering the workforce post-World War II. 

RASA SAYS:  JUST AS WOMEN GAINED NEW HEIGHTS OF EMANCIPATION FROM THEM, THE DEMONS, THE ARCH-ENEMIES OF GOD IMPLEMENTED A NEW PLAN TO PUSH THEM BACK.  UNDERSTAND THEY INVENT THESE DISEASES, THEY PROLIFERATE THEM & THEY FOMENT THE HYSTERIA THROUGH CONTROL OF THE MEDIA. { ABOUT THIRTY YEARS AGO THERE WERE 27 CORPORATIONS IN CONTROL OF MEDIA, AS OF LATE, NOT SURE HOW LONG BUT SAY TEN YEARS, THIS HAS DWINDLED TO 5 CORPORATIONS!  FIVE CORPORATIONS CONTROL WHAT WE SEE & HEAR ON THE MAINSTREAM MEDIA!  ALL TYRANTS TAKE CONTROL OVER MEDIA – RADIO, TV STATIONS & PRINT.  THEN THEY SAY WHATEVER THEY WISH, SO WE HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IS REALLY GOING O.  FORTUNATELY WE NOW DO HAVE ALTERNATIVE MEDIA, & IT IS STRONG.  IF YOU SEEK IT OUT, YOU WILL KNOW THE TRUTH.

 

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As their freedoms have grown throughout history, it has become evident that women’s participation in the economy is crucial as they offer new skills and increased productivity to the labor force. Their participation also functions to improve human capital, allowing firms to better achieve goals and innovate, creating external benefits for society as a whole. 

RASA SAYS:  LET’S BE MORE REALISTIC HERE.  NEW SKILLS, INCREASED PRODUCTIVITY, LABOR FORCE, HUMAN CAPITAL?  THESE ARE NOT THE MAJOR OR CRUCIAL GOALS OF WOMEN’S EMANCIPATION – THEY ARE SPEAKING AS IF WOMEN’S CONTRIBUTION TO CAPITALISM, PHYSICAL EXPANSION, MAKE THEIR FREEDOM MEANINGFUL.  HAHA TO YOU.  AS WOMEN ESCAPE FROM THE MALE STRANGLEHOLD, WHAT IS LIBERATED IS THEIR ABILITY TO LOVE & CARE FOR OUR PLANET.  WOMEN ARE THE MOTHERS,  THE CARETAKERS OF ALL LIFE – CHILDREN, PEOPLE, ANIMALS, NATURE, ECOLOGY – WITHOUT THE LOVE THAT WOMEN HAVE BY NATURE, ALL OF THIS DETERIORATES IN THE HANDS OF THE KILLER / EXPLOITERS MEN, POSSESSED WITH SATANIC POWERS, THEIR MINDS SULLIED & DARKENED BY HATE & SELFISHNESS. 

MEN’S BRAINS IN THE FRONTAL LOBES ARE ASLEEP – SEE THE STUDIES DONE BY DR. DANIEL AMEN ON 65,000 BRAINS – MALE & FEMALE. {HE’S BEEN FEATURED ON THE DR. OZ SHOW, WELL DONE.}  HE SAID THE GREAT DIFFERENCE BETWEEN MALE & FEMALE BRAINS IS THAT MEN’S FRONTAL LOBES ARE ASLEEP, WHILE THE PRIMITIVE BACK PART OF THEIR BRAIN IS AWAKE.  IN WOMEN THE FRONTAL LOBES ARE AWAKE, ALONG WITH THE BACK BRAIN.  WOMEN HAVE MORE CONNECTIONS TO THE WHOLE OF THE BRAIN BY THE NERVES OF THE CORPUS COLLASUM – MEN HAVE FEW OF THESE CONNECTORS.

  THIS EXPLAINS MANY THINGS ABOUT MEN, WHICH WE ALL NOTED BUT HAD NO PROOF OF.  WHY IS IT THAT WHILE WE TALK TO THEM THEY MAY BE LOOKING AT US BUT WHEN WE’RE FINISHED DON’T SEEM TO HAVE HEARD A WORD WE SAID.  IT IS BECAUSE THE BACK OF THEIR BRAIN IS AWAKE – WHICH INCLUDES THE PRIMITIVE SEXUAL URGE – WHILE THE REASONABLE, THINKING, EMPATHETIC, DECISION MAKING, SPIRITUAL PART OF THE FRONTAL LOBES IS ASLEEP. 

 

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RASA SAYS:  AND THIS IS THE CREATURE THAT TRIES TO CONTROL THE FAMILY & WORLD BY FORCE? WELL, HERE’S THE GOOD NEWS.  THERE IS A GOD.  NO MATTER HOW MANY PANDEMICS THEY CREATE, HOW MANY WORLD WARS, HOW MANY BOMBINGS, HOW MANY UNJUST LAWS, THEIR DAYS ARE NUMBERED.  IT’S A MATTER OF TIME, SHORT IN EVOLUTIONARY TERMS, WHEN THEY & THEIR SYSTEM WILL BE GONE.  HUMAN MEN – HURRAH – ARE GOING EXTINCT.  THAT IS MOTHER GOD’S ANSWER TO ALL THEIR MISDOINGS.  THEY ARE AN ABERRATION ON THE HUMAN RACE – WHICH IS BASICALLY FEMALE – THEY ARE A THING EVOLVED INTO A MONSTER – & THIS MONSTER WILL SOON GO THE WAY OF THE DINOSAURS.  THE GREAT DR. BRYAN SYKES, GENETICIST, SAYS THAT HUMAN MALES ARE A GENETIC EXPERIMENT THAT DID NOT WORK, & NATURE IS TAKING THEM OUT.  SEE HIS BOOK ‘ADAM’S CURSE, A FUTURE WITHOUT MEN’.

  HE WITH OTHER SCIENTISTS ALSO SAYS THAT THE HUMAN MALE IS A PARASITE ON THE BODY OF THE FEMALE, HE CANNOT REPRODUCE BUT ONLY GIVE HIS DNA {SPERM} TO THE FEMALE TO DO SO.  IN OTHER WORDS, MALES REMAINING ON EARTH ALONE WOULD BE THE END OF THE HUMAN RACE, BUT FEMALES REMAINING CAN REPRODUCE WITHOUT MEN – THEIR EGG IS A REPRODUCTIVE CELL.  THE FUTURE IS NO MEN, ALL WOMEN, TWO FEMALE PARENTS, ALL FEMALE OFFSPRING.  HURRAH!  NO MORE WARS, NO ATROCITIES, GENOCIDES & UNJUST LAWS!  LOVE WILL RETURN TO OUR PLANET, WITH WORSHIP OF MOTHER GOD & SUPREMACY OF THE GOD-ORDAINED LEADER, FEMALE!

 

Yet one hundred years after the 19th Amendment, women’s economic freedom is now damaged by lockdowns, which restrain their ability to fully participate in the economy. Once lockdowns descended upon the US in April, the unemployment rate for women soared to 16.2% — higher than both the overall unemployment rate of 14.7% and men’s unemployment rate of 13.5%. 

working paper from the National Bureau of Economic Research (NBER) investigates the pandemic’s impact on gender equality. Historically, economic declines tend to hurt men’s employment more than women’s, given that men work in sectors – construction, manufacturing, and transportation – more susceptible to typical economic downturns. 

The unemployment rates between men and women are different when looking at the 2007-2009 recession and the Covid-19 recession.

However, women have been disproportionately affected by the 2020 lockdown-induced recession because they make up a greater portion of the most affected sectors in the Covid-19 recession: accommodation and food services (52.8% women employees) and health care and social assistance (78.1% women employees). 

RASA SAYS:  DO YOU IMAGINE THAT THE DEMONICS WHO CREATED COVID & PLANNED ITS PROLIFERATION DID NOT WORK THIS ALL OUT AHEAD OF TIME?  THEY KNEW IT WOULD INVOLVED WOMEN’S SECTOR MORE THAN MEN’S, THEY KNEW THEY WOULD EFFECT FEMALE’S EMPLOYMENT MORE, THEY KNEW THEY WOULD STUNT THE GREAT PROGRESS WOMEN MADE IN RECENT YEARS.  THAT IS A MAJOR PART OF THE REASON THEY DID ALL THIS, & ARE DOING THAT – TO PUSH BACK WOMEN.

Other sectors typically hurt in previous recessions – construction, manufacturing, and transportation – were not as impacted in 2020. However, a women-dominated industry, health care and social assistance, realized a 4% Q2 GDP decline, while construction, dominated by men, saw an uncharacteristic and smaller 1.12% decline this year. These women-dominated industries also saw major losses because they are in-person services, and telecommuting is less feasible.

The NBER paper also found that 17% of employed women work in “essential” sectors in comparison to 24% of employed men. 

Essential Services Employed Men Employed Women
Transportation and Material Moving 10% 2%
Healthcare Support 1% 4%
Farming, fishing, forestry 1% 0%
Installation, Maintenance, and Repair 6% 0%
Protective Service 3% 1%
Healthcare Practitioners and Technicians 3% 10%
Total 24% 17%

Furthermore, the sudden closures of schools and daycares created a new obstacle for women. While women are experiencing disproportionate difficulties as a result of working in industries vulnerable to lockdowns, the limited – or nonexistent – availability of childcare exacerbates their employment losses. Parents – mothers especially – face no choice but to sacrifice work to care for children. 

RASA SAYS:  OF COURSE WOMEN HAVE ALWAYS BEEN & WILL REMAIN ‘SADDLED’ WITH CHILDREN.  MEN DON’T CARE, & FURTHERMORE, IT IS BEST THEY STAY AWAY FROM CHILDREN AS THEY ARE THE WORST CARE GIVERS & THE BIGGEST ABUSERS OF THEM.  THE POWERS THAT BE KNOW THAT WE MUST TAKE CARE OF CHILDREN & IT’S A TRICKY JOB TO DO THAT & WORK AT THE SAME TIME, SO WORK HAS TO BE SACRIFICED, WHERE WOMEN WILL TURN TO WELFARE & SOCIAL SECURITY WITH ITS MEAGER SUPPORT.  YES, WOMEN WILL FALL DOWN INTO DIRE POVERTY ONCE AGAIN WHILE THEY PROTECT OUR CHILDREN.

 

One study by a Northeastern University Professor of Public Policy and Urban Affairs and Economics found that one out of four women who were surveyed reported their job loss was due to lack of childcare, twice the rate of men surveyed. Additionally, mothers of children aged 12 and younger lost 2.2 million jobs between February and August (12% drop), while fathers of small children lost 870,000 jobs (4% drop). 

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Not only are mothers with spouses impacted, but single parents also face challenges imposed by lockdowns. Single parents make up 25% of households with children under 18, and single mothers account for 70% of these households. In addition to single parents not having the ability to share responsibility with spouses, they have less support from grandparents, given that the elderly are the most at-risk for Covid-19.

Employment and child care demands are just the beginning of lockdowns’ impact on women: researchers project that globally, 44 million women cannot access contraception, 7 million unintended pregnancies will occur, 13 million young girls will be forced to marry prematurely, 47 million women will fall into extreme poverty (only worsening the gender poverty gap), and 15 million cases of domestic abuse will arise for every 3 months of lockdown. 

RASA SAYS:  INDEED THE DEMONS ARE STRIKING BLOWS AT US, BUT REMEMBER, WE ARE ETERNAL SOULS HOUSED IN TEMPORARY BODIES.  EVEN IF THEY TAKE ALL AWAY FROM US, EVEN OUR VERY LIVES, WE CONTINUE LIVING ETERNALLY WITH GOD OUR MOTHER, IN FELICITY, ECSTASY & BLISS, IF WE DO THE RIGHT THING.  THE RIGHT THING IS DO NOT SURRENDER OUR CHILDREN TO THEM FOR DAMAGING VACCINES, NOR OURSELVES FOR THE SAME.  RESIST THE DEVIL UNTIL THE END, DO NOT FEAR FOR YOUR LIFE, IT IS TEMPORARY & HAVEN IS ETERNAL.  LET THEM GO TO THEIR DOOM, THE PLACE THEY HAVE CHOSEN FOR THEMSELVES, AS WE RISE UP IN GLORY, OBEYING GOD / TRUTH / LOVE.

If lockdowns are truly about protecting the vulnerable, then we have failed. Women in the US and across the globe are faced with a lockdown that threatens to erase their economic freedoms. 

brief from the UN explains Covid-19’s impact on women’s vulnerability:

The pandemic is deepening pre-existing inequalities, exposing vulnerabilities in social, political and economic systems which are in turn amplifying the impacts of the pandemic.

 

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When we say the “vulnerable,” we must consider all groups that are affected by Covid-19 and the related policies. While the assumed benefits of lockdowns are concentrated and visible, the unseen and long-run costs of lockdown policies are dispersed throughout an entire gender, which could eventually take a toll on the US human capital supply. Still, we can see these costs and fail to pivot.

Over the past one hundred years, the country created a space where women could more easily work, attain higher education, open businesses, and be freer economic agents. Now, lockdown policies and their advocates are forcing a massive step backward in gender equality and women’s economic freedom. 

RASA SAYS:  LOOK AT THE BRIGHT SIDE.  WOMEN WILL NOW SEE THE TRUTH ABOUT THE URGENCY TO TAKE OVER – TO DESTROY PATRIARCHY & STRUGGLE FOR FEMALE SUPREMACY, FOR ONLY WOMEN CAN SAVE THE PLANET.  THEY MIGHT SEE MORE CLEARLY WHAT WILLIAM BOND, MYSELF & OTHER MATRIARCHS HAVE BEEN SAYING FOR YEARS – MEN ARE DOING A TERRIBLE JOB OF RULING THE WORLD, WOMEN MUST TAKE CHARGE.  WOMEN ARE SUPERIOR TO MEN, SEE ASHLEY MONTAGU’S PROOF, AS EARLY AS 1952 “THE NATURAL SUPERIORITY OF WOMEN.”  WOMEN ARE GENETICALLY, CONSTITUTIONALLY, EMOTIONALLY, MENTALLY & SPIRITUALLY SUPERIOR TO MEN.

  MEN ARE PARTIAL WOMEN.  ALL HUMANS ARE FEMALES FROM THE START, & WHEN THE FETUS IS THE SIZE OF A GRAPEFRUIT PIT IS WHEN IT IS TRUNCATED TO  MALE DESTINY.  WE ARE TWO LARGE, HEALTHY X CHROMOSOMES WHICH CAN REPAIR THEMSELVES.  MEN ARE ONE X & ANOTHER CHROMOSOME CALLED Y, WHICH THEY THINK IS A DAMAGED X, & THIS Y CANNOT REPAIR ITSELF.  WITH EACH GENERATION THE Y, LIKE ALL CHROMOSOMES, MUTATES, – THESE MUTATIONS ARE DAMAGE.  WITH EACH GENERATION THE MALE GENDER GOES DOWN THE DRAIN, TO ITS DOOM OF NON EXISTENCE, & THERE IT ENDS, THE MALE ATROCITIES FOR ALL TIME.  THERE IS A GOD.  SHE HAS HEARD & SEEN THE CRIES OF THE POOR, IT IS OBVIOUS THAT MEN ARE A GENETIC EXPERIMENT THAT DID NOT WORK, & AS THEY DESTROYED NATURE, SHE HAS TURNED AGAINST THEM & BOOMERANGED TO DESTROY THEM.  AMEN, CASE CLOSED, NO MORE MEN, NO MORE ATROCITIES.

  AND BY THE WAY, FOR THOSE WHO LAMENT THE MEN THEY LOVE, THE ‘GOOD GUYS,’ THE GOOD GUYS ARE AS MUCH THE VICTIMS OF THE DEMONICS AS EVERYONE ELSE.  UNFORTUNATELY GOD IS NOT SAVING THE ‘GOOD GUYS’ & REMOVING THE BAD, SHE HAS TO REMOVE THEM ALL, AS THE MALE NATURE IS THE ONE SATAN CAN USE TO CREATE EVIL. 

 

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Rasa says:  I was sure in my heart that the increased tyranny especially

targeted women, but I had no evidence or proof.  My good matriarchal friend

Ajax the Great found it. 

THIS IS GREAT EVIDENCE / PROOF HOW THIS DEMONIC PATRIARCHY TARGETS WOMEN FIRST & FOREMOST, THEY CANNOT FUNCTION, RULE THE WORLD BY FORCE – THEY WOULD HAVE NO MOTIVE TO DO SO – EXCEPT BY FIRST PUSHING DOWN WOMEN.  THEIR ULTIMATE MOTIVE REGARDING WOMEN IS TO ENSLAVE THEM, HOLD THEM DOWN, USE THEM FOR SEX /BREEDING, DOMESTIC SERVICES.  THEIR ULTIMATE AIM FOR MEN IS TO EITHER CONSCRIPT THEM FOR THEIR WAR & OPPRESSION, OR THAT FAILING, DISEMPOWER, DESTROY THEM.  IT IS THE WAY OF SATAN.

From AJAX the Great, a response:  

It is certainly true that Women have long been disproportionately targeted by the patriarchy, whether it be the old-school reich-wing patriarchy of yore, or the new, incipient totalitarian technocracy which is simply the same old patriarchy dressed up in modern, fauxgressive, and pseudo-feminist drag, and thus far more insidious.  The latter is the driving force behind these vile lockdowns and related measures, while most ironically Kristi Noem, the anti-lockdown, pro-Constitution Republican Governor of South Dakota, is in practice far more of a true feminist (in the sense of wanting what’s actually best for Women in all walks of life, not just the elites) than lockdown tyrants like Governor Gretchen Whitmer of Michigan or even PM Jacinda Ardern of New Zealand.  And none of this is an accident, though most of the sheeple and even many of the lieutenants of the oligarchy are going along with it more out of stupidity than malice, as per Hanlon’s Razor.

And patriarchy, both then and now, also backfires on the vast majority of men as well, even if they are only “collateral damage” in the demonics’ long 7000+ year old War on Women.

I would also like to thank the original author of the article, Amelia Janaskie.  Please be sure to also put her name in the credits for this article as well at the top, and perhaps a link to the original AIER article for context.

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Crisis Pandemic Insights

Insights from AJAX the GREAT on the Present Tyranny

– Women’s Leadership & the World Crisis 

Please see the original article & links to the healing substances.  And note

that the info came from some great people –

 

http://truespiritofamericaparty.blogspot.com/2020/11/the-covid-19-pandemic-has-kill-switch.html

 give credit to the following people:  Bill Sardi, Dr. Dmitry Kats, Gruff Davies, and Swiss Policy Research, et al.  

 

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 RASA SAYS: THE CURRENT PANDEMIC IS FRAUD & CONSPIRACY-

PERPETRATED BY A SHADOW GOVT THAT WANTS TO USE US LIKE THEY

USE ANIMALS IN FACTORY FARMS-SLAVES WITH NO RIGHTS –

Note:  They INVENTED the Covid19 the same as they invented AIDS, EBOLA, SARS & other diseases.  They have PATENTS for these malaries, AIDS has a patented cure called TETRASIL, which cannot be administered in the US – It was being implemented in Mexico.

They SPREAD the disease & the HYSTERIA around it for their purposes, not ours.  They hope to eliminate our rights, bit by bit, & turn us into frightened slaves, where we do as we are told OR ELSE.  They want us to have nowhere to hide, nowhere to run, nowhere to find peace. 

It’s the same as when Communists took over, made religion & religious gatherings illegal, sent thugs to beat up those who met for worship – calling them ‘the enemies of the state.’  Also the same as Hitler, except instead of gassing us they will want to INJECT US WITH POISONS, with casualties & death following.  This is the return of Stalin, Hitler, Mussolini & all the previous MONSTERS of the world – & they have been planning this for a long time. 

In the time of Russian Communism, some citizens escaped into the wilds of Siberia, the most remote, forbidding areas to continue practicing their faith.  There are remnants of these people still there.  Many of those in America & elsewhere are looking for residence OFF THE GRID, again, remote places they can escape to away from the government.  As the government clamps down on us WE ARE FIGHTING FOR OUR LIVES.  To be INJECTED with dubious vaccines can have dire consequences.  They are moving in stages toward micro chipping us, upon which case they can control us like factory animals.  They can turn off the chip & make it impossible for us to get our money from the bank or social services, they can wipe out or medical info so we cannot get treated, cannot buy food & other items as they will destroy our credit card #’s, remove the tools of our life.  This is their aim, be aware now & resist all that you can.  The vaccine could be devastating, the microchip would mean total slavery. 

Be aware that ‘Satan rules the world, & he works through men.’  Jesus said ‘Satan is the Prince of this world.’  The demonic spirit possesses those in power, the trillionaires who have sold their souls to Satan,  when he said ‘I will give you all the Kingdoms of the world & their glory, if you will bow down & worship me,’  & bow they did.  A person who follows Satan has no caring, no conscience; they are murderers, killers, torturers, genocidal maniacs.  They come to ‘steal, kill & destroy.’ 

You might say ‘where is God,’ like I used to, seeing all the atrocities, wondering why God didn’t stop it.  God IS stopping it.  They only way is by the EXTINCTION OF MEN & this WILL HAPPEN, but until it does, we must wait & suffer many generations.  See Dr. Bryan Sykes, top geneticist, ‘Adam’s Curse – A World Without Men.’  It will take 75k to 125k he estimates, not long in evolutionary terms, but too long for us.  We just have to hang in there, not give in to them – certainly not letting them kill our children – & just say ‘OK, if I must be martyred, so be it, my life is eternal, I will not give in.’

  Human men, who are ruling the world, were called by the top scientists, ‘A genetic experiment that did not work.’  Myself & William Bond have been working for female empowerment, Matriarchy, all our lives, & will continue doing so.  That is all that can save the planet – women taking over – us worshiping a Mother God again & venerating women as the absolute leaders.  Most people did not listen to us, even though female superiority has been proven.  They are so conditioned, so brainwashed  they don’t want to think outside the box or rock the boat – they just wanted to have smooth sailing, make a living, have a family enjoy life & that’s all.  But now, the knife is no longer on the table, they are putting it into our backs, & so, we cannot merrily, merrily roll along, life is but a dream.  We are now awakened to reality, what men are, what they do.  That is the BIG PICTURE.  Demons are running the world, & they work through men.  It is the battle of Satan against Mother God, a spiritual battle unto the end.  Mother God of course has to win, he is but a phantom, an absence of truth, beauty & love.  Let the Spirit of Mother God prevail within you now, resist the devil & he will flee.  {From Rasa Von Werder, Nov. 2020}

 

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From ALAX the GREAT:   Matriarchy is unfortunately taking a LOT longer than I thought. Especially since the pandemic and more importantly the wrongheaded countermeasures (i.e. lockdowns) have actually set back Women’s hard-won progress by decades within a mere few months. This has been dubbed “the first female recession”, in fact. Even the #MeToo movement is practically dead in the water now. So my original prediction for Matriarchy in 2030 will most likely not come true. In fact, barring a miracle of miracles, we will most likely be facing a new dark age in the lost decade of the 2020s. The Great Reset, as the technocrats like to call it. Not just in the USA, but in most of the world in fact.

On the bright side, Trump will be gone in two months and we will have a female VP of course, and if Biden dies in office she will become our first female president, so that is the silver lining, but that is about all the progress that will be made for the next decade or so. And who knows when, or if, We the People will ever fully get our civil rights back. At least we are not living in Australia though, which is now practically a full-blown police state, the apparent “reward” for their supine and compliant population.

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As for Australia, it seems pretty damn scary over there. Since March, it has been effectively illegal for practically anyone to enter or even exit the country, and will remain so for the foreseeable future. In September/October, the city of Melbourne was placed under one of the world’s strictest lockdowns, which was lifted just a few weeks ago (for now). And right now, the state of South Australia is under a fresh new lockdown so strict that it is illegal to even go for walks or walk one’s dog! Meanwhile, New Zealand, like Australia, is still similarly sealed off from the world (with an exception for the film industry, of course — gotta have bread and circuses to keep the masses quiescent) for the foreseeable future, and is currently building concentration… er… quarantine camps there. And they just recently legalized euthanasia too, which combined with current events is really quite chilling. And while both countries have barely gotten the virus at all so far, it is only a matter of time before their whole house of cards collapses.

I am against lockdowns 100% of course, but I thought that New Zealand could have perhaps become the world’s first Matriarchal nation-state (or at least a testing ground for same) within a matter of weeks had Prime Minister Jacinda Ardern chosen to leverage their March/April lockdown in a way that selectively empowered Women while disempowering men, especially if it were combined with a Lysistrata-style sex strike. She did not. Ergo, no Matriarchy, just a quasi-police state on it’s way to becoming full, and a testing ground for the technocrats’ so-called “Great Reset.”

And yes, I have seen your writings about the end of men. While my question has always been, “why is it taking so long”? The ways of Mother God are quite mysterious, it seems.

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An Open Letter to Women in Politics
(Updated for Post-2016 America)

To any Women who are running for office, in office, or considering running for office in the near future:

You have probably noticed that the world is on fire, and has been for quite some time now. We stand on the verge of World War III as we speak, and our overburdened planet is in grave danger. We continue to flirt with the prospect of mass extinction (including humans, by the way) in the not-too-distant future, as we continue to cook the planet with reckless abandon. We know what is causing all of these problems, and we already have the technology and wherewithal to solve them if we really wanted to, yet our current Big Wetiko “leaders” refuse to solve such problems because they are sycophantic lackeys to the parasitic elites, if not the very same elites themselves. And these plutocrats are hopelesly addicted to “business as usual”.

So how did we get here in the first place, exactly? The answer lies in ancient history, about 7000 years ago or so, when men apparently got the bright idea to take over the (known) world piece by piece, by deposing you from power. That’s right, it was originally Women who were in charge for most of humanity’s existence, and us fellas apparently thought we could do a better job as leaders than you ladies did. Well, history shows us that we were wrong–dead wrong in fact. Indeed, the best advice that us men can give to Women is “don’t be like us”, because we f**ked the world up royally. We paved paradise and put up a parking lot, we created a desert and called it “peace”. We have devoured and suffocated our own empire, and now we are all paying a heavy price for it. That’s right–WE did it. And we’re sorry about that–though we can clearly stuff our “sorrys” in a sack!

Oh, and to top it off, us fellas decided to hit America’s self-destruct button and vote overwhelmingly for Donald Trump for President in 2016. Yes, really. Because apparently we couldn’t screw things up enough already.

And now it is time for you to reclaim your rightful position as the new leaders of the free world once again, starting with the USA and eventually spreading from there. In fact, it is LONG overdue for you to do so. We cannot apologize enough for handing you such a monumental clusterf**k of a world for you to fix, of course, but we fellas have plenty of faith that you will be able to do so. We know that Women, not men, are the real natural-born leaders, and you can clearly handle power a lot better without it going to your heads than us. We know that your preferred paradigm of society, what Riane Eisler calls the “partnership” model, is far better than the “dominator” model that we have been practicing for the past 7000 years. As the saying goes, never send a boy to do a man’s job–send a Woman instead. Truer words were never spoken, and we need you now more than ever before.

The highest and tallest “glass ceiling” in the world–President of the United States–is still waiting to be smashed in 2020, as are plenty of other important political offices as well. Even though Hillary already did that with the popular vote in 2016, the Rube Goldberg machine known as the Electoral College was systematically rigged against her. We wish all of you the very best of luck. Now, go forth and make old Buckminster Fuller proud! Vive la femme!

Sincerely, Ajax the Great, Party Leader of the TSAP

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The COVID-19 Pandemic Has A Kill Switch. Let’s Use It, Yesterday!
DISCLAIMER: The following article references third-party sources and is intended for general information only, and is NOT intended to provide medical advice or otherwise diagnose, treat, cure, or prevent any disease, including (but not limited to) COVID-19. Consult a qualified physician before beginning any sort of treatment or prophylactic regimen and/or if you know or suspect that you currently have COVID-19. Anyone who takes or does anything mentioned (or alluded to) in this or any other TSAP article does so entirely at their own risk and liability. The TSAP thus makes absolutely no warranties, express or implied, and is not liable for any direct, indirect, special, incidental, consequential, or punitive damages resulting from any act or omission on the part of the reader(s) or others. Caveat lector.

What if there was a way to end the dreaded COVID-19 pandemic quickly and harmlessly, within a matter of a few weeks at most, without resorting to lockdowns or shutdowns of any kind, and without the need for any sort of vaccine? Eradication of this soon-to-be-endemic virus is of course practically impossible since that train has left the station long ago, but it can be quite easily reduced to a mere nuisance like the common cold or seasonal flu going forward.

Of course, in the long run, both “herd immunity” and attenuation (weakening) of the virus itself will do the trick, as an inevitable result of mass natural infection, and we’re already pretty damn close, but what do we do in the meantime to make this a far less risky proposition since the virus is, you know, rather nasty and even deadly for some people? Enter antiviral prophylaxis of some sort. According to a very good model originally designed for pandemic influenza, this will not only “flatten the curve”, but actually CRUSH the curve down hard, more so and faster than even the very best vaccines ever could, as the latter take too much time to roll out en masse and kick in. And a solution couldn’t come soon enough.

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So what would this prophylaxis be? Here is our “kill switch” to sharply reduce not only bad outcomes such as deaths, but also viral transmission as well:
Vitamin D, first and foremost.
Vitamin C
Zinc
Quercetin (a zinc ionophore)
Niacin (Vitamin B3)
Thiamine (Vitamin B1)
Inositol (Vitamin B8)
Vitamin A (use with caution)
And last but not least, a multivitamin containing selenium and Vitamin E
Really? Sounds too easy, right? We thought so too at first, but the evidence just keeps on piling up. These things all enhance the immune system, tone down the body’s harmful overreactions, and/or directly neutralize the virus itself. And they are safe enough to recommend to the general population, not only those who are designated as “high risk” or “high exposure” (though certainly a fortiori for such folks). And they, among other things, all featured quite prominently in a previous article we wrote about treatment and prophylaxis for COVID-19. And of course, they also work for many other viruses in general as well. It is amazing how many people are deficient in many of these nutrients, and also how many of the various symptoms and after-effects thought to be linked to the virus itself may actually be the result of such deficiencies at least in part.

That alone should keep the vast, vast majority of COVID patients out of the hospital. And for any severe cases that still occur, we already know how to easily treat the most likely complications of secondary bacterial infections, cytokine storms, and blood clots, using antibiotics, corticosteroids, and blood thinners. And we also know now that ventilators kill more people than they save, and that less invasive means of oxygen therapy work quite well in fact, especially if you don’t lay the patients on their backs. In other words, this is actually a very manageable disease, and the specious idea that it is somehow unmanageable is simply a self-fulfilling prophecy driven by panic and misinformation (if not outright disinformation).

For example, check out the recently updated MATH+ protocol (for hospitalized patients) and the new I-MASK+ protocol (for early treatment and prophylaxis) both from the Front Line Covid-19 Critical Care Alliance (FLCCC). And see also the recently updated protocol by the Swiss Doctor as well.

To further out-ninja this virus, redirect it away from vulnerable people, and reduce the herd immunity threshold and overshoot, we should take some lessons from the countries that had very low death rates without (or independently of) lockdowns:
Wash your hands, don’t touch your face, cover coughs and sneezes, stay home if sick, avoid people who are currently sick, and all that jazz. Vulnerable people should avoid crowds as much as possible. You know, common sense, basically.
Clean and disinfect high-touch surfaces frequently, including your phone.
Ventilate, ventilate, ventilate indoor spaces as much as possible.
Do temperature checks to enter public buildings and workplaces, and perhaps for public transportation as well.
When doing contact tracing, do backward rather than forward tracing. That works much better given the stochastic nature of this virus.
When it comes to gatherings of any kind, remember that SIZE MATTERS, as the risk of virus exposure and spread increases exponentially with the number of people present.
Use face masks judiciously, not superstitiously. They are filters, not barriers. Change/clean them as frequently as possible so they don’t backfire and become fomites (germ carriers).
And most importantly, take the proper precautions to stop the nosocomial spread of the virus within hospitals and nursing homes, which account for the lion’s share of deaths in many countries, but some countries managed to solve nonetheless.
In other words, take the same precautions you would if you found out that there was a flu outbreak and/or a norovirus outbreak in your neighborhood, community, or workplace. Because the way it spreads is similar to both types of viruses–and like the latter one, don’t neglect the fecal-oral route of transmission.

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Of course, thus far we are referring to the actual pandemic, that is, the one that actually produces significant excess deaths. We haven’t discussed how to also quash the massive “casedemic” that has been superimposed on top of it. Here’s how to tackle that one going forward as well:
Reduce the cycle threshold for PCR testing to 30 for standard sensitivity, and perhaps 35 for high sensitivity testing.
Confirm all positives with a retest before reporting results, especially positives with a cycle threshold >25.
Test sensitivity is rather overrated, apparently, at least in terms of a tradeoff with speed and frequency.
Do not include positive antigen (i.e. rapid) tests in reported “cases” unless also confirmed by PCR.
Do not mix in positive antibody test results as new “cases”, as that is comparing apples and oranges.
Do not count multiple positive tests of the same individual as separate “cases”, unless they are at least several months apart.
Consider restricting virus testing to symptomatic individuals only, except in very sensitive environments such as hospitals and nursing homes.
Report COVID hospitalizations as such only if the patients are there because of the virus (think CLI, ILI, shortness of breath, and/or pneumonia), not just because they tested positive after being admitted for something unrelated.
Make sure all deaths designated as COVID deaths really are from COVID. That is, no motor vehicle accidents, gunshot wounds, alligator attacks, deaths of despair, etc. with merely incidental positive tests.
Report cases by specimen date and deaths by date of death.
And just like that, goodbye pandemic! And by ending lockdowns and other restrictions and going back to true normal sooner rather than later, we will also prevent any further collateral damage that is the actual root cause of so many excess deaths and so much misery we have seen so far this year.

And there you have it. Consider this our silver bullet, and golden ticket out of this horrible nightmare for good. Yesterday is not soon enough. So what are we waiting for? Let the real healing begin!

 

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VACCINES WILL BE GENOCIDE

 

Medical Revolutionaries Issue Genocide Notices To UK Prime Minister & Under Secretary Of State For Children & Families
WRITTEN BY: TIM BROWN PUBLISHED ON: NOVEMBER 26, 2020

The United Kingdom government has been put on notice concerning their coming COVID-19 vaccination program by a new organization known as The Medical Revolutionaries. Two letters were issued on Saturday to both Prime Minister Boris Johnson and Parliamentary Under Secretary of State for Children and Families Vicky Ford informing them that they are being put on notice that they will be help accountable for genocide from what they already know the vaccines are expected to produce, according to their own documents: “A high volume of adverse events,” including death.

Government Expects “High Volume Of Adverse Events” From Pfizer’s SARS-COV-2 RNA Vaccine
Dr. Kevin Corbett and Nurse, nutritionist and The Sons of Liberty’s health and wellness expert Kate Shemirani make up The Medical Revolutionaries.

Both letters sent to both Johnson and Ford on November 21, 2020 read as follows:

We are writing to you with regard to the planned Covid-19 vaccination program.

We wish to draw your attention to the expected high number of adverse reactions which the Medicines and Healthcare Products Regulatory Agency (MHRA) explicitly state are a “direct threat to patient life and public health”:

The United Kingdom government has been put on notice concerning their coming COVID-19 vaccination program by a new organization known as The Medical Revolutionaries. Two letters were issued on Saturday to both Prime Minister Boris Johnson and Parliamentary Under Secretary of State for Children and Families Vicky Ford informing them that they are being put on notice that they will be help accountable for genocide from what they already know the vaccines are expected to produce, according to their own documents: “A high volume of adverse events,” including death.

 

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Government Expects “High Volume Of Adverse Events” From Pfizer’s SARS-COV-2 RNA Vaccine
Dr. Kevin Corbett and Nurse, nutritionist and The Sons of Liberty’s health and wellness expert Kate Shemirani make up The Medical Revolutionaries.

Both letters sent to both Johnson and Ford on November 21, 2020 read as follows:

We are writing to you with regard to the planned Covid-19 vaccination program.

We wish to draw your attention to the expected high number of adverse reactions which the Medicines and Healthcare Products Regulatory Agency (MHRA) explicitly state are a “direct threat to patient life and public health”:

“For reasons of extreme urgency under Regulation 32(2)(c) related to the release of a Covid-19 vaccine MHRA have accelerated the sourcing and implementation of a vaccine specific AI tool.

Strictly necessary — it is not possible to retrofit the MHRA’s legacy systems to handle the volume of Adverse Drug Reactions [ADRs] that will be generated by a Covid-19 vaccine. Therefore, if the MHRA does not implement the AI tool, it will be unable to process these ADRs effectively. This will hinder its ability to rapidly identify any potential safety issues with the Covid-19 vaccine and represents a direct threat to patient life and public health.

Reasons of extreme urgency — the MHRA recognises that its planned procurement process for the SafetyConnect programme, including the AI tool, would not have concluded by vaccine launch.”

We, as health care professionals having a combined experience in excess of seventy years, with extensive knowledge of the history of vaccines, vaccine ingredients and their side-effects, are deeply concerned about the MHRA’s expected morbidity and mortality in vaccine recipients.

We therefore hereby inform you that if the planned vaccination program shall proceed then you will be directly culpable for the infant mortality and damage caused to children for whom you and the local authorities you oversee are responsible.

Furthermore we wish to notify you that we are currently in the process of obtaining formal legal advice in respect of this matter which we expect to confirm the statements made.

 

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Given the imminent threat to the lives of many hundreds of thousands of children nationwide we are notifying you that we expect you to reply to us within forty-eight hours with written confirmation of the cessation of all Covid-19 vaccination plans and to cascade information to the appropriate lead staff, heads of service, leads for vulnerable adults and their associated agencies, within your remit as the Parliamentary Under Secretary of State for Children and Families or equivalent titled minister, within the devolved administrations of Scotland, Wales and Northern Ireland.

Failure to comply with this request will place you on notice that you may be deemed to be complicit in what may accurately be described as genocide if it is proved the facts we have stated were known to you or the other relevant authorities and you failed to act upon them.

Yours sincerely Dr Kevin P Corbett Kate Shemirani

 

      RASA SAYS: THE CURRENT PANDEMIC IS FRAUD & CONSPIRACY-

PERPETRATED BY A SHADOW GOVT THAT WANTS TO USE US LIKE THEY

USE ANIMALS IN FACTORY FARMS-SLAVES WITH NO RIGHTS

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Love Dreams * God Dreams

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11-23-20 Former husband sicker than I realized

 

 

He is so sick he’s rather REPULSIVE & I wonder if I should marry him {he doesn’t seem to have much longer to live but he has so much money. Shall I bear being intimate with him when I’m so repulsed by the thought of him kissing me?}
My good husband Rich & I have been estranged for a long time. Now we are back, he’s sort of courting me hoping I’ll marry him & it was a possibility.
*(GOOD HUSBAND: This always represents my ‘present’ ex-Lover, spiritual husband, when his attitude to me is True Love. This underscores, along with several other dreams, that he’s being positive toward me.)*
We go to the MOST EXCLUSIVE restaurant & are given a table.

*(EXCLUSIVE RESTAURANT: A restaurant usually means NOURISHMENT, & includes camaraderie, sharing or affection – a possible LOVE FEAST. This is ex-Lover & I meeting spiritually / emotionally because he has repented of his ways & is ready to reconcile {although its been long in coming, the parting has lasted a year & four months.})*

There was a lot going on both inside & outside the place. Something gruesome outside:
I had seen a spot, dug out on the side of the road, where beggars & bums go. Animals – strays & rats – also go there. This spot has some sort of meat in it, possibly garbage thrown out by a restaurant. The meat, after I look at it, gets spoiled after some time, looks ratchet. It has a fuzzy, goldeny surface. First I saw animals eating it, then I see a WOMAN, desperate, looking for sustenance.

*(DESPERATE WOMAN: This is probably me after the way Lover Bob did me, desperate, driven insane, looking for sustenance of love after our relationship had gone bust.)*
She comes over to this carved-out hole & not only does she take the meat, but all that is in it including a dead, rotting animal. She is taking it like a valuable resource, something precious hugged to her chest, I imagine, to wherever she resides.

 

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*(DEAD, ROTTING MEAT, EVEN A DEAD ANIMAL, HOLDS IT TO HER CHEST: This is what I went through during our love affair, which made me ‘insane’ – The dead meat & animal is him being lost to me, the love being lost, all my emotions – holding this dead stuff to my heart like a treasure.)*

The woman has dark shortish hair, looks normal, has on a white top, medium weight, just average looking, but as I hear her ranting I know she’s insane; you can hear the hysteria in her voice.
*(WHITE TOP: Hints that it was because of the ‘failed marriage’ I had deteriorated emotionally to this state.)*

What was I doing there? I’m in the middle of a hilly city, busy, all kinds of neighborhoods, all kinds of vehicles, some wide-open urban spaces. I seem to have been in a vehicle but there were problems & I was kind of lost as to which way to go. And walking here & there I stumbled upon this area which is not in a dark alley, it’s open to the sky, but off the beaten path & animals, derelicts & the desperate go here.

*(I AM LOST: The woman desperate is the flesh, the lower self. Is this the God Self lost, not knowing where to go next – what path to take, what action?)*

As I walk it’s kind of the lady follows me, ranting & raving, carrying that gruesome bundle in her arms like it was of great value. What would she do with it at ‘home’ I wondered.

*(GRUESOME BUNDLE, TAKING IT HOME: This is when a person suffers GRIEF, grief can make one go, to some degree, insane – mental illness.)*

But then I do somehow find my way to the tryst with Rich. The place is right in the city where I was wandering, now I found it.
We’re escorted into this exclusive place & put at a table – possibly round – the backs of the chairs are elegantly round also. I look good, am well dressed. Rich goes to the rest room.

*(FIND MY WAY: I get over the grief, I am whole again, I know where I am – we are. {It is his turn to experience the grief of loss, as depicted in this dream & hundreds of others.)*

After I am seated an old lady who is semi-crippled is put at the table to my left. She had to have her feet elevated, so it became crowded against my table. For my benefit, they moved her about 6-8′ away from me, I now have plenty of room to stretch out.

 

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*(OLD LADY, SEMI CRIPPLED, NEEDS FEET ELEVATED: This is me again, my flesh, no longer insane but needing support. Here my flesh is too close for comfort, & the hosts move here away at a comfortable distance, so this would be separation from my lower self which has been the damaged party. However, notice where this part of me is now – enjoying the feast, the exclusive restaurant with my Higher Self & Lover who has been brought low through our separation. I am healed, he is not. My flesh is good but needs some ‘prop’ – my God Self has found its rightful position – which is ME BEING IN CHARGE. {He’s courting me, wishing for union/marriage, I am not chasing him nor grieving at his behavior.})*

There was an issue about the chair for Rich. I insisted they give him a good one, a full chair with arm rests. The back, seat & part of the arm rests are a black net, but it’s a comfortable & more exclusive chair. There was a plain one there with no arm rests – it’s like grey thin bars. He sat there saying it was good enough, but I insisted on the better one. I knew he needed a decent chair as I see he’s having problems.

*(THE CHAIR: Where he sits is his position at this love feast. I have given him SEPARATION – the black is the funeral or absence of me in the flesh – it might be a criss cross design which indicates ‘your place in my life is crossed out.’
His simpler, less luxurious chair depicts thin grey bars – which would be imprisonment. Mother God, I am stumped. What would that be? And no arm rests.
She: Prison being better than being absent. Is it being a ‘prisoner of love?’ The arms represent the strength to love. He would lose his strength or support of it, being disabled. It’s kind of like being between a rock & a hard place. But you insist on the more ‘luxurious’ chair meaning your absence is crucial for him to experience the pain of loss. This pain is the ‘megaphone of God’ – which demonstrates a misery that makes him finally appreciate you, at last he sees the pain. This brings him to you in repentance, on bended knee, courting you or submitting in hopes of union. Prior to that he was in charge & inflicted the pain of loss & insanity onto you. As predicted long ago, the tables would turn.)*
His situation gets clear as the time here goes on.
*(TIME HERE: The time of my absence.)*

After about twenty minutes, I wonder if he fell into the toilet. He might have passed out or has a serious episode there.

*(REST ROOM, 20 MINS: He’s trying to escape the pain, hiding from it. Could be with his recreational activities & substances.)*

I get up & walk to the rest room toward the front. Just then he emerges. He’s trying to pretend he’s alright but I know he’s not. He’s tall, paunchy like in real life, wearing brown knitted clothes with some bright spots, like yellow, on his body – maybe a scarf, not sure what.

*(EMERGES, BROWN OUTFIT YELLOW SPLASH: Brown is the next lowest color to black, it is great suffering. The yellow splash is he is a coward so he doesn’t reach out to me, call me, & express his interest. He’s fronting.)*

He manages to get to our table. We had ordered an exclusive meal like the best steak or something but as we eat I glance at his dish & it is no longer the same dish – it’s a round light blue bowl with white spaghetti-type noodles twirling in hot soup. This is a whole different meal, it’s not exclusive or expensive, I guess the time elapsed from the first – that’s how long he was sick in the bathroom & dilly dallied.

 

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*(THE TWO MEALS, FIRST ONE EXPENSIVE, EXCLUSIVE, NOW LESS THAN THAT: He finds something to console, comfort him about me. We are still together in the dream, so he feels hope, some positive feelings. But they’re not as strong as they used to be, he isn’t sure.

EXPENSIVE STEAK MEAL VS SPAGHETTI NOODLE SOUP MEAL HE IS NOW HAVING {it seems like I ate the good meal, he gets this ‘seconds’ or inferior one}
This represents REAL SEX vs no sex – the steak is the valuable, expensive sex vs the spaghetti noodles are a LIMP DICK for him. In other words, a wet noodle represents a limp dick.  Somehow I had great pleasure or ‘ate’ the expensive meal already, but he isn’t enjoying sex with me any more – he is not having ‘pleasure’ or ‘great emotional nutrition.’  I am not ‘eating’ this ‘displeasure’ as I no longer care re. the sex.)*

It comes across to me that he is so sick he is DYING & I think that I now have to make a decision about marrying him. I find him physically REPULSIVE, like kissing him on the lips would disgust me, so can I marry him like he hopes, & have sex?

*(HE IS NOW REPULSIVE: I no longer desire him for sex – the sex has evaporated, which renders safety & freedom for my flesh.)*
There are benefits to me, what about that?

*(HE IS SO SICK HE IS DYING: This would be some sort of psychological death, possibly giving up faith & hope in us. As they say ‘Something in me died.’
I want the benefits he would bring me, however, but there must be benefits or I won’t have him. That means I AM IN CHARGE. In other words, before, when he drove me insane, I would have him at any cost. Desperation degraded me. Now I don’t want him this says, he has to give me BENEFITS. Now I have LEVERAGE.
‘You have to do what I want or I won’t have you. That means I am not your back door woman, but publicly recognized wife.’)*
I don’t know how we manage this meal but time has gone by. I thought it was evening & the place would close, but now it’s the middle of the day, a lunch crowd has entered. I see the crowd in that room behind us wearing the same colors as Rich has on, brown with a yellow splash.

*(NEW DAY, LUNCH CROWD WEARING HIS COLORS: This might be the never-ending pattern of life, people learning their lessons in relationships, the same lessons over & over. It never ends as long as life goes on.)* ………………………………………………………………

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11-18-20 – Previous husband back bald with Yamaka

 

I prayed yesterday as I watched Amy Allen, asking her about my previous Lover & forever spiritual husband, how did he affect me when we were together, & she said
“He DRAINED you.”
{Not like an evil soul with bad intentions, more like a baby. He was not out to destroy you; he’s in love with you but needy she explained.}
I then asked her how will it be different when we live together in the near future {around Sept. 2022}. This dream might be the answer.

I see myself with my ex-best friend, Joe the accountant, & he’s driving me in a big car through the city. The city seems to be ‘the Bronx,’ large, sprawling, huge. I’m not that familiar with it but he is, & I say,

*(THE BRONX: Represents a war zone in the city, the urban jungle, the ghettos of the city. He’s taking me on a virtual tour, the orange vehicle will say there’s a lesson here.)*
“You really know your way around.”
I’m not in the front / passenger seat but in the back to the right, leaning forward.
He & I were separated a long time, now we are back together as husband & wife. I sense he’s being careful with his behavior, as he learned his lesson.
I see the city sprawling around us, a wide vista. We are about to go over a smallish bridge. I see some sort of  bus way to the front / left, it’s soft like some kind of plastic. He knows the city well & seems to be a good guide & driver for me, we are going back to where we used to be long ago.

*(ORANGEY BUS: represents school or lessons of life we have both learned, no doubt. He learned to respect God & myself, I learned not to chase him & give in to him.)

He leans his head back for a moment & something is EXPOSED that would embarrass him greatly, so I’m not going to say anything to him about it. He’s wearing a TOUPEE – I had no idea he had one on until if flipped off partially, exposing he is way bald on top. His had is flatish on top & I already knew he was balding in front, but didn’t know he’d gone completely bald on top.

*(BALDNESS: When your hair falls out, it means total stress, anxiety, like ‘I am ripping my hair out.’ It’s when you’re at ‘the end of your rope’ or can’t find your way out of a situation. Sometimes it means you have lost your mind or gone ‘insane.’
So I knew he was stressed out over my departure, but I didn’t know how complete that despair was – now I see it & it would embarrass him – as he likes to keep up a front.
A man’s baldness also says, in this dream, he’s gotten older, more mature.)*

The toupee is round & seems to have a RIM, like a cloth edge with a small design, with maybe little x’s in the design. I resolve to say nothing as he will be so embarrassed for me to know he’s so bald & trying to look good for me with this toupee.
*(YAMAKA: This shows religious RESPECT. You cannot enter the Temple or be by the ‘waiting wall’ without the Yamaka.
This says he found a NEW RESPECT FOR ME & what I stand for in his life, as he saw what he experienced when I was gone. The x’s symbolize ‘gone’ or ‘x’d out.’
This is saying,
“He has matured, changed, in general, & by the traumatic experience of you leaving him. He has gained a new healthy respect for you & will not be the same, he will treat you decently.”)*
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Nightmare of 11-17-20 – Bear Chases Me

 

I was out on a bank somewhere watching two medium sized bears below just hanging around – did not see their Mom. I don’t feel in danger at all.
*(TWO YOUNG BEARS: Are two men I was going to work with soon – the appointment seemed harmless, they were going to help me with something.)*

Then the Mom appears & she comes after me! I am scared & run like Hell. She keeps after me & the chase goes on & on.

*(MOM appears, comes after me: The Mom is the parent or origin of a SPIRIT possessing these two men – an EVIL spirit! They of themselves seem harmless & innocent, but after I made the appointment a feeling of DREAD came over me & PURSUED me.
Bears are usually pain & suffering, for example, the ‘bear’ market is a negative one, the ‘bull’ market is positive.)*

We go over water, a large expanse like an ocean. She goes in the water after me, not sure how we move but we both seem to be on top of the water. It’s taken me so much energy to stay ahead of her.

*(PURSUES ME: A feeling of dread pursued my mind & heart after I made the appointment, I could not get rid of it.)*

Suddenly as she pursues me there is a man close to the bank in front of her, with his back to her, in a floating leisure balloon lounger, light blue, leaning back relaxing. The bear is blocked by this man between us & the man suddenly sees her & says loudly,
“Get out of here!”
He isn’t scared but the bear bites his head off & I see his head to the right of him thereafter, but this is vague, like a vision. I see a trail of ginger color, like a powder, scattered between where his head was & where it’s gone.
The man is GINGER – red hair, red mustache & beard, handsome, like someone I knew long ago who warned me not to date black men – how selfish & mean they were – & I resented his advise.
And so, this is how I GET AWAY.

*(GINGER MAN: Someone stands between me & THIS SPIRIT – he removes it or does EXORCISM,
“Begone Satan!”
which this man’s Presence makes me call both men & cancel our appointment.
The bear biting off his head might symbolize what this spirit would do to me. I ask Mother God, what does biting off the head mean?
She: It means affecting the head / brain in a negative way,
“She bit my head off”
would be biting language, cruel words, meanness. They would affect your head this way even if they did not say anything, but the way they feel toward you, the evil spirit of Satan is in them & hates you – both of them hate you as they hate God – Satan is their origin or directing their souls. This reveals to me that one of the men who I did not credit with being against God or hating me is hostile toward both – a surprise, but I shouldn’t wonder as of recent times when he was due here I felt DREAD.
The man is a saint or angel, could be Jesus or the Spirit of Jesus, as in some images Jesus is a redhead & has a mustache & beard. He is the SPIRIT OF LOVE.
The Spirit of Love stood between myself & Satan & banished him, by banishing these men.)*

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Errol Flynn loves me! 11-16-20

 

Errol Flynn is in front of me, so handsome & charming, & he’s telling me how much he likes / loves me. The most striking comment he made was,

*(ERROL FLYNN: Jesus, the Spirit of Love. He appears as Flynn because EF was famous for his beauty.)*

“I love the way you walk.”

*(LOVE THE WAY YOU WALK: Walk represents one’s lifestyle, like talk is your beliefs, so you can ‘talk the talk’ but can you ‘walk the walk?’ which means do you LIVE UP TO YOUR BELIEFS?
This hearkens back to the prayers I made that night, hours of them, for the entire world, people & animals & Souls in Purgatory. Jesus liked them.)*

The most surprising part is his wife is to the left of him, about 7-8′ away, she’s far, with dark hair but good looking. She comes forward & somehow is supportive & understanding. She knows he loves me & is not jealous, seems to be OK with it.

*(WIFE OF JESUS: Holy Mary, the Feminine Divine. She agrees with Jesus, She liked my prayers also. She isn’t jealous as She is my Holy Mother.)*

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College of Matriarchal Love, Core Tenets, Uncategorized

MAN TAKES OUT HEART, BRAIN

MAN TAKES OUT HIS HEART & BRAIN TO INCREASE HIS PAIN

OVER A BROKEN HEART

          One of the most gruesome dreams I’ve ever had

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Man has had a heartbreak so terrible that for some strange reason he wants to inflict himself beyond belief. He wants to feel his pain {strange logic} to the nth degree.

          He’s standing there like in the middle of the street & takes some kind of a tool, opens his chest, & begins to remove his heart bit by bit. It’s hard to watch. I saw pieces of his flesh all over the street around his feet.

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          *(MAN IN THE STREET: This is my friend, & this dream will explain a trauma that came upon him when he was a boy – that is affecting him even today as a grown man. Something awful happened to his family, a great reversal of success. Let’s call my friend Sargie.

 

          Sargie was just a little tyke when this happened, but he is an EMPATH, sensitive or medium. He took the pain of his family INTO HIMSELF, in other words, as if it was his responsibility, like Jesus taking up the Cross for sinners. He carries this cross even in life today & it is affecting his success—blocking him from it.

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          Here you see the gruesomeness of being an EMPATH. He increases the pain of what happened into his own heart & brain – which work together. He has absorbed the pain in his mind & emotional system.)*

 

          Later I see pieces of his heart, like strips from liver but pinkish, laying about, blackened on one side.

 

          *(STRIPS OF HIS HEART LIKE LIVER, BLACKENED: This is Sargie’s emotional system. The blackened slices are where he’s seriously hurting – black or being burned can refer to loss, destruction, death, depression, etc. {it can also mean good things like the unknowingness of God, mysteries.

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The reason LIVER is used as an analogy is saying ‘he’s hurting in a place that is vital.’ You cannot live without your liver – you can live without appendix or gall bladder, but not liver. This is crucial to one’s health, this is serious. He’s hurt in a serious way.)*

 

          Then he does the same to his brain. I don’t see as much detail in that.

 

          *{HEART & BRAIN AFFLICTED: Our thoughts & feelings go together, ‘As a man thinketh, so is he.’

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          Now when this tragedy / trauma happened to his family, he was small & could do nothing about it. He felt HELPLESS, WEAK.

 

          What I will try to do is the famous hypnotherapy trick: REFRAME HIS THOUGHTS. Indeed, the way his thoughts are phrased, as the situation was presented to him, it was like the ‘end of the world’ for their survival. He could do nothing so this gave him a DEMORALIZED, NEGATIVE FEELING ABOUT HIMSELF. In other words,

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          “I am weak, incapable of helping or saving my family.”

          Now to the situation of today, when he harbors the same thoughts & feelings, he feels the same negativity about himself – like he’s a failure rather than a success, he’s weak & can do nothing.

 

          To remedy the situation we’ve got to go back to the past & instead of MAGNIFYING IT {which his family did & he continues doing} we must MINIMIZE IT down to nothing – like there really WAS NO TRAUMA, his family really did not suffer IRREVERSIBLE DAMAGE, it was just the attitude that made it seem so. Nothing was really lost, it was just a BUMP IN THE ROAD, a shakeup that happens in all our lives, nothing that cannot be dealt with, one simply must use WISDOM & VIRTUE to face these things & THEY WILL BE SOLVED.

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          He must believe in his families solvency, that not much if anything was lost – what hurt can be corrected & then HE WILL REGAIN HIS CONFIDENCE, SENSE OF BEING STRONG, FAITH IN THE GOOD ESPECIALLY IN THE GOODNESS OF GOD WHO IS ALWAYS WITH US & CAN DO ALL THINGS, ETC.

 

          FAITH, HOPE, CHARITY, CONFIDENCE, FORTITUDE, PATIENCE & LOVE FOR HIMSELF are the virtues that will see him through. Believe in the good & it will happen. Believe in the power of evil & it will pull you down. Dispel this belief in evil – Resist the devil, his works, his thoughts, his negativity, & he will leave.

 

          We will work on this. I will discuss this revelation with my friend, we will work it out, he will be healed.)*

 

          Amazingly, he’s not dead. He continues to live, & another phenomenon I see this same person becomes a female, & this is so strong that I even thought upon first recalling the dream, it happened to a female, but thinking deeper recalled it started with a male.

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          *(BECOMES A FEMALE: This condition / feelings & thoughts) is TRANSFERRED TO A FEMALE – myself as an empath / medium / sensitive, so I would UNDERSTAND what is going on inside him.

 

          The STRIPS OF FLESH BLACKENED, are the parts of his feeling system that are BURNED or BADLY HURT are TAKEN OUT or REVEALED – I see what has happened. It is revealed to me as a mind reader or reader of hearts.)*

 

          The dream goes on to other scenes. Myself & another person are traveling & we need to check into a place for the night.

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          We find a reasonably priced place, we check in & it’s for the week. He is fast asleep in the room to the left, surrounded by light grey bedding, he needs rest badly. The only disturbance or noise is down the hall, a group of female college students have checked into a room or rooms. What a hullabaloo. I’m not bothered but just curious about their psychology, why so much noise?

 

          *(HE IS FAST ASLEEP: He is unaware of how his thoughts & feelings are affecting his entire life including ambitions for success. Being asleep can mean ‘unaware,’ ‘waking up’ can be ‘I now see & realize the truth.’)*

 

          I look down the hall where they are – for some reason they have mattresses with white sheets, all in a messy pile {they are at the end of the hall} against the wall, stacked up on their sides, the fitted sheets are slipping off.

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          *(COLLEGE STUDENTS, NOISE, MESSY, MATTRESSES & OTHER THINGS: This is a member of his family who transferred pain onto the little boy, he being a sensitive or empath received it into himself.

 

          This person appears as a college student because they are IMMATURE – She was immature in her reaction to the family trauma, she did not deal in wisdom. The NOISE of the students is female students downtown where I hung out for ten years are ALWAYS SCREAMING. This is their reaction to stimulation – scream – it’s like HYSTERIA, would be emotional reaction without contemplation, reasoning, logic, just FALLING APART.

 

          As I said before, she transferred her hysteria or negativity to the boy instead of dealing in wisdom – She was unable to rise to the challenge, to conquer the Mountain, the situation crushed her & affected her life & happiness. She has never gotten over the trauma in these many years. He carries this with her.

 

The MATTRESSES PUSHED INTO THE HALLWAY, with white fitted sheets slipping off, against the wall, messy: Is the situation – a relationship ended.

 

AGAINST THE WALL is ‘at the end of my rope’ or where the wall is, is where I can go no further, the wall stops me, I am ‘against the wall.’)*

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          Then I decide to clean the floors in our room/s. I take a broom – the floors are quite dirty. I sweep everywhere including under bureaus, stretching my arms to get in there as even with the long broom handle its not easy, but I manage.

 

          *(THE ROOM HE & I CHECKED INTO: This is the place of where my friend’s mind & heart are. I see inside him, inside his relative’s mind, it has been transferred to me mentally. I am

 

          SWEEPING THE ROOM: Under bureaus & difficult places to reach, I am STRETCHING & leaning into places that are hidden – this is his mind, where negativity harbors & we must remove it.

 

          As I said my strategy is to REFRAME HIS TOUGHTS which will realign his feelings, we will minimize, stop maximizing the situation that happened. We will bring hope & love, acceptance & faith where previously there was despair & resentment.)*

 

          My thought is I’m glad none of the maids are bothering us, letting us be for the week, just allowing us to stay, do our own cleanup, leaving us alone. We need privacy for the time being – recovering from something difficult, both of us.

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10-27-20-GOOD HUSBAND BRINGS GIFTS

 

                     I see my good husband Rich vaguely. Mostly see the gifts he brings. Why he brings them, for what occasion, I have no idea.

 

          There is vaguely a bottle of perfume the same as in a previous dream, like half a quart, the best perfume there is.

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          *(GOOD HUSBAND:      Means the person I love, the Lover I describe under many names – is in a good attitude toward me right now. The gifts will explain what he’s feeling toward me.

 

The perfume is holiness. {Scent of holiness} He either acknowledges mine or else has acquired his own, so he’s giving me his grace if it’s his own.)*

 

          The most UNUSUAL gift is a small hat, small enough to fit a toddler. It’s white, all knitted out of pieces, the pieces are designs & flowers, & you can see petals sticking out from it.

 

          *(TODDLER HAT: He’s now submitting to me in marriage or with a pure heart {white} as if he is my child – which spiritually he is – he is giving himself to me, saying,

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          “Here I am, your underling & happy for it. My head is now right; I understand your value & our relationship. My head / thoughts are to be One, I accept it. The

 

          FLOWERS & PETALS: mean love, romance, the petals are bits of that, the ones ‘sticking out’ are his concern about ‘she loves me, she loves me not’ have turned him around. Absence made his heart grow fonder or another twist I add is ‘Absence makes the cock grow harder.’

 

          He has, over this time, seen the light, computed that he needs me, misses me, I am important to his life, he gives himself to me in his mind. But why doesn’t he call? Obviously not ready. ‘Be still & know that I am God’ is my mantra here. No anxiety or chasing. Let it be until he’s ready to move.)*

 

          There were two other items, at this moment I can’t recall.

 

          He’s joyful as he presents these things to me.

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10-24-20-LOVER OWNS TINY FOOD STAND-

MY HEAD SCARVES-NEWSPAPER  

 

               This dream proves my Lover is concerned have I ended it? So he cares…………………………..

 

          I’m on a long, difficult journey. A tiger is in my way at one point, I am ‘way out’ in a rural area, many miles in all directions & I need to get back to the city. Finally see a bus stop should take me back, a guy is standing by it.

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          *(TIGER: Tiger is usually ANGER. I might have been feeling angry due to my computer breaking down – thank Heaven it got fixed. Or it might be re the Lover not calling me. This doesn’t explain why, but it shows me swimming into ‘deep water,’ getting away from the Tiger & getting back on the road – so whatever reason I had it, I conquered it. Then again, it might be someone else had the anger, maybe my Lover as I’m not chasing him.

 

          Being ‘LOST’ is being lost mentally / emotionally, trying to find direction, a goal, getting somewhere. It might have to do with my Lover as he is the main character here.)*

 

          I then stop at a tiny restaurant/food stand. There aren’t any places to sit, you get your food to go I think. I stop here not because I’m hungry but just to rest or take a break.

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          The man who owns this place, I see him to the left as a ‘working class’ type fellow, like a Greek cook I used to know – chunky built, in white colors & a white full body apron – he is cooking a beautiful dish on his grille {the kind of grill that’s solid, thick black, not barbeque style}. The problem is my blue scarf is embedded in the dish & I tell him it is, & I’m pulling with all my might to get it out of there – he doesn’t answer my protests.

 

          The dish is one made of rolled flour & it’s made into an envelope & inside the envelope is vanilla cheese, it’s sitting there sizzling & looks good. It’s about 8” long & 4” wide, quite thick.

 

          *(VANILLA DISH WITH CHEESE: This represents SEX. It’s his inviting penis with the sperm inside – the cheese is sperm. ‘On the grille, sizzling’ is the sex we both loved – it’s like food, emotional nourishment. But-

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          MY HEAD SCARF IS INTWINED, I STRUGGLE TO PULL IT OUT: I do not want my sex desire or yearning, longing to have sex with him any more – I wish to remove this desire, to be free, & I do remove it.

          This desire makes me desperate, makes me chase him, but without it I can hold out forever & he has to rethink his relations with me. I’m not his whore any more.)*

 

          Another item is that my Lover – who seems the same as the owner of the rest. – has asked me to purchase today’s paper, which costs $6. Why do I do as he asks? This is an expensive paper, & I’m going out of my way to please him although he might not deserve it. I reach for my purse or wallet & don’t have it. But my left pocket has a few dollars & change including nickels & pennies. I tell the owner take the money I have, I have no more, it should suffice even if it is not the full $6.

 

          *(NEWSPAPER: This is news, announcements, information. He wants to know about us. He asks me, at my expense, to get this information. What is my expense? Does he read these dreams on my site? I doubt it.)*

 

          What Lover / owner wanted to know was what was on the heading of the very large paper. To me it seems like OBITUARY headings in the middle – no big headlines, just announcement in small letters – he just wanted to know if his name was on it. I read it – & tell him his name is not there, he isn’t famous today.

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          *(NEWSPAPER HEADLINES ON TOP IN SMALL LETTERS, OBITUARY: Ha ha, so funny, this simply explains what Lover wants to know. Am I through with him? Is he dead to me? – his name at the top of the obituary? No, we’re not finished I tell him.)*

 

          Then on my way out I notice two of my other scarves are on a bin in the middle of his place, one white background, smaller, one blue background. Do I demand to take these or do I let it go? Well to prove I own these will be a bother, I just think, let it go, let it be & I leave.

 

          *(TWO SCARVES I LET GO OR JUST LEAVE: This is my ‘head’ or thoughts, wishes, to be with him, to be married. So what if I have these thoughts, as long as I’m not desperate to be with him as in the past, it doesn’t matter. I am relaxed.)*

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