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CLAIM SACRED MARRIAGE

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HIS LIFE WITH THE OTHER GIRL IS OVER—OUR SPIRITUAL

RELATIONSHIP IS SAFE

 

6-1-20-THE AMAZING WHITE COAT-ROBE

 

          Interpreted for a friend

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          There was a person who died & left all their belongings to someone & the things were all sitting around waiting to be claimed. I don’t see anyone claiming anything, & no one knew what was here.

 

          I go look at things & one thing catches my eye: A white COAT. It looks like white material in a pile, like the softest of Cashmere, softer than soft.

 

          I go to that pile of material on the edge of the belongings & put it around me & it’s a COAT-CAPE, so voluminous & luxurious it would go around two people. It also has some kind of thick, wide soft collar made of a material that is unfamiliar – the closest thing would be the softest ostrich or feathers. It is PRECIOUS – I want it, & so I take it, although somehow the estate was not left to me, but I have to STEAL this coat. I am not a thief, but now I MUST HAVE THIS.

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          I take it & fold it inside out, where the white satiny lining has some decoration with soft like watercolor streaks in blue & green. As I carry the coat like this, no one will recognize it as that white coat, stop me or try to interfere with my having it.

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          MEANING: This hearkens to only one thing, the symbol of the spiritual wedding between Lover Bob & myself. When we were united in the Sacrament of Love, God showed me one piece of white cloth, which I knew had been two pieces but was now only one with NO SEAM. It had a soft, small victory wreath of white laurel on it, to show we had been victorious; we were united in Matrimony against all odds.

 

          This seems to be saying that the female of Bob has left the relationship – which can be called ‘dying.’ I am not interested in anything of hers or theirs together, only one thing is mine, although it seems like I’m stealing it – my RELATIONSHIP WITH BOB.

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          In this dream I am claiming our relationship. And I might add – no one else is claiming nor can they claim this, as no one else has been joined by God to him but me.

 

          Holding the coat inside out where the blue/green streaks will disguise it, no one will interfere is what, Mother God?

 

          This union is Sacred & Secret, & you want no one to interfere. So it is hidden in the interior, the way God is. And so, this relationship is SAFE. People only see bodies, things, they do not see God or mystical relationships.

 

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INTIMATE DREAMS

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Four dreams. One shows the results of a huge forgiveness yesterday. The other shows my lover has greatly evolved spiritually, he’s leaving his present female & loves me truly. Fourth dream again underscores his evolution.

 

5-30-20-BIG LOVE ALL AROUND-MUSLIMS-LOVER APPEARS

 

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          I’m in a place where there are two small boys – like 5-6 years old. They seem to be somehow ‘bundled up’ in clothing & their bodies seem ‘round’ like cocoons, the cloth they are in is soft & medium-dark, many layers.

 

          The family of the boys is all around, we are on a platform of sorts. I put out my hand to them to shake – somehow my hand is huge, like a cradle. But they cannot shake my hand, & I then realize it’s not a Muslim custom—they are Muslims & restricted in many actions compared to us.

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          *(MUSLIMS: Not sure if this is literally referring to Muslim devotees I have had or these are devotees of different religions than Christian that I am being reconciled with.

 

          HAND OUT LIKE CRADLE: My hand is offered to them is my LOVE – the love OF A MOTHER offers someone a CRADLE OF COMFORT.

 

          BUNDLED LIKE COCOONS: These are people who have not yet possibly been BORN AGAIN, they have not turned into butterflies, are still the chrysalis, the bug in the cocoon before they are released. The many

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          LAYERS surrounding them, like swaddling clothes, are the layers of the world & flesh, consisting of thoughts, feelings & connections to it. This must be broken through to get BORN AGAIN.)*

 

          One of the boys says to me,

 

          “I just want to hug you & kiss you.”

 

          Somehow they are not allowed to hug & kiss me, but I hug them anyway. One of them places his hand on my left breast. I know it’s the gesture of an innocent child, but I must take his hand off because someone might accuse me of a wrong.

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          *(HUG THEM, ONE PUTS HAND ON BREAST: As a result of my prayers, these ‘backslidden’ disciples have reached out to me– after I reached out to them in love {without realizing it} & indeed, they are innocent children of God. They want & need a real Mother’s love.)*

 

          Then something happens. I do a demonstration. I ascend into the air so high – like 100, 200, 500’. At that level I come upon a Heavenly or God-made frame for a building, the frame is made of very thick planks. This might be like a ‘resting place’ for me high up here.

 

          Amazingly, several women ascend into the air with me – they are spiritually advanced. Some of them go up halfway but can’t go higher & descend.

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          One woman is interesting – I think I knew her in life, she’s gleeful to ascend with me high up. She’s thin, her face & body has creases, not wrinkles, like striated, I think she wears red, a revealing summer dress. She is beaming with joy that she could ascend with me, but then she sinks back down after about 300’—but I was impressed that these women rose into the Heavenly realms with me. It’s the first time in my life I’ve had such an incident – never had anyone rise with me before.

 

          I wanted to impress or do this demonstration for the Muslim family, but unfortunately, when I come back down – they are all gone. They might not have seen me ascend at all. I wanted to show them my spiritual power.

 

         *(THEY ARE GONE: My ‘Muslim’ disciples are now gone, they no longer see or receive my spiritual power—even though we are forgiven both ways for our breakups. Forgiveness & love does not always unite us with those we have parted from.)*

 

          MEANING: This is a result of the prayers I did last night. One of my friends hurt me & made me angry. I was saying the law of karma will get her back.

 

          Then I decided to forgive her. I didn’t feel like it but I said a righteous prayer that should be remembered:

 

          “It is my will that the person who hurt me will be forgiven, as if she never hurt me at all. I want no punishment or bad karma to come against her because of me. Count her ‘not guilty.’

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          I then proceeded as I do periodically to forgive anyone/everyone who ever hurt me & added to that I accept from anyone I ever hurt their forgiveness.”

 

          I repeated this prayer many times before I fell asleep, & this is the result. There was reconciliation with people – sharing of love, the blocks of un-forgiveness being removed.

 

          The Muslims—my hand extended to them like a cradle is the CRADLE OF LOVE & these two guys FEEL LOVE FOR ME LIKE SONS FOR THEIR MOM—they might be former disciples.

 

         The females, the main one could have been the one I forgave. She rose up with me partway – she has suffered greatly in the last ten years & it’s brought her much closer to God. If this is her, my prayer made her extremely happy.

 

          What was the huge-beamed foundation high up in the sky? Perhaps my home that God has started to build. Since only these planks were up this might be a sign saying I do have some time left to live. I’m not always certain as I’ve had heart trouble & been sick lately – always think death could be around the corner when I’m sick – so God might be reassuring me.

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Jayne Mansfield, Pam Grier & myself (in our prime) are to me the ideal bodies.  Anna Nicole Smith was next after that, the implants spoil some of it as the first three are ‘natural’ – but of course Anna’s face was really pretty.  I would default Anna on legs, they were not as perfect as Jayne’s & mine. We had/have ‘Betty Grable legs,’ they must be STRAIGHT.  Both Jane & I had/have thin, firm, small thighs & straight legs with beautiful feet.  Yes I have seen images of her feet, mine are beautiful also. Below, look at Betty Grable’s legs:

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Upon further study ANITA EKBERG stands out, with everything gorgeous including legs, straight legs.  Betty Grable was most famous for her legs, the rest of her body is not outstanding, but thin & lovely.  Her legs more or less ‘cut the standard,’ in that they are thin but SHAPELY, not toothpicks.  Of course there have been & are numerous all over the world – Hollywood, everywhere – women with terrific bodies, good legs, but I’m speaking of the ones I’m most familiar with {famous women I can get pictures of} & I include the legs as an important measure of perfection–there are many women with great bodies like Anna Nicole Smith, but their legs are not as perfect  as the ‘Betty Grable’ model.  Below, see Anita Ekberg:

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With implants today many women have great breasts, so that’s an advantage.  In the old days they didn’t have much except nasal surgery & I suspect stars like Marlene Dietrich {also known for her legs} & Mae West had beautiful noses by surgery.  Zsa Zsa & Eva Gabor had their noses fixed {& their sis who isn’t famous, & their Mom.  I met the surgeon who did the Mom.} 

Below the legs of Marlene Dietrich.  Look at her small, tight thighs, the straightness but curviness of the legs.  Toothpicks are not sexy:

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5-30-20-GLAM-BOY PERRY IN LOVE WITH ME

 

          I was sitting some place with my bare legs up on something, doing something with them—don’t know what, when this super handsome, sexy muscular boy Perry comes up to me out of nowhere, from the right side, & he is madly attracted to me.

 

          *(PERRY: This glamorous boy has always rejected me – have known him for years. For him to suddenly change his mind & desire me like this is simply an indication of the lover coming to his senses.)*

 

          This takes me by surprise as he’s never liked me before & rejects me when I try to get friendly.

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          He embraces & kisses me numerous times, it gets more & more intimate. He has some sort of black hair growing on is it his legs? That is so thick, it’s like curly fur, long, curls on the end, sleek & shiny, & I have the exact same hair on my legs he takes note. He says something about it & I say,

 

          *(THICK BLACK CURLY HAIR ON LEGS: This is a great & sure sign of spiritual growth {the hair} with mystical ability to travel or get some through energy or metaphysical. LEGS mean the strength of that, hair would mean the extra growth there or evolution. This is extreme growth – part of it is 6” long & as thick & glossy as fur, jet black.

 

          This hair shows an amazing increase in lover’s spiritual growth—he’s become like me, that is why in the other dream he appears as my son & devoted disciple. He has merged into me, I into him the way the new disciple, Shiva, says he wants to merge with me. {This happens with gurus & their disciples.})*

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          “But I don’t have that type hair on my vagina any more – half of it has turned grey.”

 

          *(NO MORE ON VAGINA: No more sex or I’ve been celibate.)*

 

          We go back to kissing & there are some special kind of kisses I give him on his face, like licking his face a certain way, which finally the public notices, & when they do, they interfere. People don’t want him to be with me, like it’s outrageous or a scandal.

 

          *(SCANDAL: Not sure if this is the past, how they bothered him, or the present if he’s telling anyone about me. It’s in their minds for sure.)*

 

          Can’t recall what happens except we did not like their attitude

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5-29-20-NEW DISCIPLE-SON STRUGGLES TO LEAVE A FEMALE (This represents the diehard lover, the new disciple is but a symbol)

 

          I first thought this was about my new disciple who appears often as a nice guy with black glasses {he’s newly devoted to me as a spiritual son, you might say ‘obsessed’ in a good way} – & I was unable to type it out, but am recording it now as it’s about my lover.

 

          *(SPIRITUAL SON: This is your lover in the persona of this new disciple, who is devoted, to show that the lover now realizes he is your spiritual son, you his mother, & something will happen today to indicate he wants to come to you soon—you are not aware of this event at the time of dreaming, it’s psychic.)*

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          I see this man with the black rimmed glasses & he’s living in my bedroom at the old farm house. I see a silver vase with plants in the window, sort of tucked into the curtains; I see & feel the familiarity of that home.

 

          The vase might mean something. It’s in the shape of a V, thin, I had not attended to it for a long time & felt what was in it might be dead for lack of water. It’s kind of attached to the ‘curtain,’ not standing by itself, in the front window. Inside are like soft thick-leafed plants, don’t know what kind.

 

          *(THE VASE: You bet it’s significant. The V shape first of all is

 

          V: for ‘VICTORY.’ Second, it’s position

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          IN THE WINDOW: This is a ‘window of opportunity’ which means an improvement, a chance or change for something better, it ends a previous relationship, here shown as ‘Gina’ & him, & will begin yours.

 

          A CURTAIN, ATTACHED TO: In between two curtains, attached, this opportunity or chance is attached or connected– curtains, it signifies the end of this other relationship, as when a play, an act, a show is over, it’s ‘curtains.’ When someone leaves you it’s ‘curtains.

 

          GINA: Was a model who was demon-possessed & also mentally ill. I did exorcisms & removed her demons, but could not help with the mental illness. I think she went crazy from having abortions every year.

 

          This model represents his relationship which this dream says he’s leaving. Why, could be anyone’s guess. Is she like Gina? Was she, is she crazy, possessed? Is she pregnant & wants an abortion?

 

          The vase being SILVER is a sign of the permanent relationship of myself & lover.

 

          The fact that it’s still filled with WATER, the PLANTS are alive, means the permanent relationship is still going to be, the water is life or grace, the plants are also the life of the two people in the affair – him & me.)*        

         

There’s a bed here covered with a black satin sheet with dust & tiny debri on it. ‘Gina’ – who lives here with that male – he’s leaving – tries to make him stay, but this guy I watch him getting into his car below the window – it’s black, & he says to her,

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*(GUY LEAVING: is your lover leaving the other lady.

He removed some of her details off social media today.

 

BLACK CAR: Funeral car, end of the relationship.

 

BED WITH BLACK SHEET: End of their sex life, either already ended or is ending now.)*

 

          “I have to go to work.”

 

          *(HAVE TO GO TO WORK: My inner sense was this was an excuse, he wanted to leave & used work as his reason. But he might not come back.)*

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DREAM EXPLAINS HOW LOVER GREW SPIRITUALLY OVER THE LAST YEARS

 

5-31-20-LOVER’S SPIRITUAL IMPROVEMENT

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          This dream I sense foretells the amazing improvement of my lover in his evolution, growth & attitude.

 

          I see a large insect like which I saved recently, like a dragonfly—the one I saved was tiny—this one is huge, maybe 6” or bigger, just like the tiny one.

 

          Next in my hands is a BIRD, as if the insect turned into a bird.

 

          Next I see this same creature turn into one of my most intimate dogs, a black terrier I named Baby – & she is standing on a shelf where I have the ‘family photo albums.’

 

          MEANING: This is the transition of my LOVER who when I first met him & dated him, he was a huge BUG or a person of LOW EVOLUTION. People like that of course ‘bug you’ a lot – they are troublesome, & he was.

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          Years have gone by. Next my lover turns into A BIRD. That means he’s FREE or BORN AGAIN. He can fly, he is free of the confines of limited time & space.

 

          Next he becomes my most intimate dog – Baby – who I found as a stray – she would sit in my lap in the car for hours while we drove back & forth to the city – 4 hours at a time.

 

          This says that my lover, in his heart & mind, is now my BABY or child, & has surrendered to me in love. There is no PHYSICAL indication of this – this just says what he is INSIDE.

 

          If these dreams reflect the truth he’s had a remarkable evolution. And this isn’t just about me – my flesh. It’s how he relates to the God within me – as I was sent to save him—the way Jesus was sent to save many of us. How we relate to our Guru is how we relate to God.

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THE RASA DIET Chap 3

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The RASA DIET—

LOST 8 LBS IN 9 DAYS—Below 160 for the first time in two

years 159.6 today – At last I have found the solution & it isn’t FAT. I ate fat

yesterday & lost 8 ounces.

 

5-23-20-159.6 TODAY!

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          Important: This is NOT A STARVATION DIET. But since you will not crave all the chemicals in the processed foods, your appetite/hunger will go down, you will eat less & that will help also.

 

          I am not urging starvation, IT ISN’T NECESSARY. Simply cutting out chemicals will lose weight.

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Myself age 28, weight 127 after a year on a ‘fruitarian’ diet  {This is strictly the fruits of plants, sweet fruits, nuts, avocados, etc, does NOT include salad greens, leaves, & everything has to be RAW.  Without meaning to, planning it or understanding the concept, I had cut out all chemicals, but on top of that this is a STARVATION DIET.  Put those two items together & you are GUARANTEED THIN-NESS.  This diet is so hard you will suffer – starvation always is.  That is why I do not agree with starvation diets, they are too hard to endure, you can’t stand the hunger & will break down,  you will be frustrated, guilt-ridden & give up & join the club that says, ‘I accept myself as I am, fat & all, it’s meant to be’& the point is the chemicals hold weight more than does food – you will lose weight with the no-chemical diet even if you eat normal calories.  If you cut down calories it will be quicker.  But even if you don’t, you will lose weight.}-

-This was the first week in my life ‘on the road’ stripping – Kansas City, Kansas –

My body is as fine as was that of Jayne Mansfield & Pam Grier in her prime as you can agree.

 

          But two striking results of my diet are: my blood pressure has become normal for two days – I monitor it twice a day – I did not have to take any blood pressure meds yesterday or today so far, the top number has been between 119 & 138—it is the first time IN FOUR YEARS I did not have to take my blood pressure meds for two days  (toward the end of the 2nd day the blood pressure was still normal but my heart rate was 100 which is high, so I took a med because the bp med affects the heart rate as well). I have no idea why this would be except that salt & other chemicals made it high. Further study is needed. Don’t get rash & do anything like stop taking your meds – ask your doc or Big Nurse & be sure to get a blood pressure monitor if it’s high. 

Update, 5-25-20 – in the last week I only took my blood pressure med twice, usually it was once a day, sometimes twice a day.  I cannot prove the reason but believe it is ‘no chemicals – no salt especially.’

 

 Second, I AM NOT HUNGRY. I explained last chapter that stopping chemicals stops my hunger – & reasoned it’s because I crave the TASTE of the food – the body doesn’t need that much food.

 

          My diet yesterday was rice & shrimp. About 2 cups of rice cooked in high-fat chicken broth {my own, I boil chicken for cats & myself} with a package of tiny shrimps on top – not sure what the high-fat rice had, I might say 450 calories, the shrimp 250 calories. Once in a while I count the calories just for the heck of it – but it’s not about calories. So half was breakfast, half dinner – no other meals.

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          This is what processed food is turning us into

But add to that a good helping of cherries {did not taste right, too sweet other than that, not tasty, I gave the rest away to the wild animals} which might have been 300 calories, two servings of yogurt, about 220 calories, & other tidbits, say 200 calories more, total of entire day estimate around 1,500 calories. This is LESS than I’ve been eating but I had no hunger whatsoever.

 

          On this diet I eat yogurt any time I want {no artificial sweeteners, no lowfat yogurt}- fruits, salads any time as long as they do not have any commercial toppings – no salad dressings, no mayo, no nothing, just Potassium, maybe pepper & olive oil & vinegar {vinegar is extremely healthy.}

 

          In fact, we are allowed anything we are hungry for as long as it’s not out of a can, jar, package, box, processed, filled with salt, sugar {dextrose, high fructose corn sugar} preservatives, MSG, no GMO’s, no nothing we can’t understand the names of.

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        The late great Jayne Mansfield ‘The Girl Can’t Help It”

Just PLAIN FOOD: Plain meat; can be boiled, plain veggies, raw, steamed or boiled (not frozen as this has chemicals!) plain fruits, plain roots, plain greens. No commercial, packaged sauces, gravies, nothing prepared for you. You must make your own food, if you require gravies, sauces & dressings LEARN TO MAKE YOUR OWN {I am not expert, planning to try} using natural ingredients, Potassium, pepper, natural spices & natural foods.

 

          Regarding weight loss & to encourage it I take three 100 mg Potassium tablets daily. In future I will see if I can take more without getting cramps from dehydration. One must keep a balance between the salt & Potassium in the body – I get enough salt when I eat a sandwich as it’s in the bread {I wish it weren’t} & in yogurt as well {I know how to make yogurt from raw milk, it doesn’t have to have salt—we had a cow, I have bought raw milk & made yogurt & cottage cheese – they had made it illegal for us to buy raw milk.} So as I said, we need small amounts of salt – nothing like what we consume which turns us into balloons, but Potassium pushes out salt. Take Potassium, but don’t overdo it.

 

          I lost 7 lbs in the first 7 days, now it slightly diminished, 2 ounces yesterday, 8 ounces today. What’s wrong with that? For the first time in two years, I went below 160–159.6 today! Nine days ago I was 167.6 lbs!

          Good luck my friends. Do you want to be beautiful, shapely, sexy, desirable? Do you want the men to whistle at you, stare at you & ask you for dates? I do. That is a big part of my incentive. I want to feel good about myself, & being thin, shapely & beautiful helps. Everyone likes you when you’re like that – even women talk to you. When you get fat you are ‘passed over,’ no one whistles or goes out of their way to talk to you – it’s depressing! So don’t be depressed, get thin & beautiful & it’s easy without starvation, just STOP THE CHEMICALS!

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         Jayne Mansfield with the troops – Do you want to be loved by men?  Then stay thin & shapely.

Oh, BTW, this is irrelevant to the diet, but I lift weights. I was too tired the last couple weeks, but any day now will resume. That helps keep the body beautiful. Looking fit, not sagging, muscles strong is appealing. I am the foundress of female body building, awarded the title ‘Progenitor of Female Body Building.’

 

          Rasa Von Werder     5-23-20

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REMEDY FOR FAT

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THE FAT EPIDEMIC -RASA BELIEVES SHE HAS FOUND THE CULPRIT-IT’S

CHEMICALS:

SALT, SUGAR & PRESERVATIVES–STOP EATING CHEMICALS–EAT PLAIN

FOOD FROM SCRATCH

FAT IN MEAT DOES NOT MAKE YOU FAT-

CHEMICALS RETAIN WATER

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5/18/20-THE RASA DIET –

NO CHEMICALS – HERE YOU WILL SEE IMAGES OF WOMEN WHEN THEY

WERE THIN/BEAUTIFUL

& WHEN THEY GOT OBESE – PICS OF MYSELF THIN, I HAVE NONE OF ME

FAT – PICS OF PAM

GRIER THIN & FAT, ANNA NICOLE SMITH THIN & FAT

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FRIENDS — YESTERDAY JUST BEFORE BED I ATE MY 2ND & LAST MEAL – TWO EGGS, COOKED IN WATER WITH LARGE TOMATO SLICES ON TWO MUFFINS.  THE MUFFINS ARE NOT ON MY DIET BUT I DIDN’T FEEL LIKE HEATING POTATOES/RICE AGAIN, JUST WANTED A QUICKIE.  I LOOKED AT THE PACKAGE & WITHOUT WANTING TO, INGESTED 240×2 GRAMS OF SALT, SO I TOOK IN 480 GRAMS OF SALT – 20% OF WHAT IS ‘REQUIRED’ ON AN AVERAGE DIET–JUST BY EATING TWO INNOCENT MUFFINS, NO BUTTER OR MAYO.  

 

 

THE PROOF IS IN THE PUDDING.  I AM EXPERIMENTING WITH MY THEORY & LISTENING TO THE OUTCOMES.  THE RESULT WAS I LOST 6 OUNCES THIS LAST DAY INSTEAD OF AN AVERAGE OF 1.5 LBS OR 24 OUNCES DAILY AVERAGE THE LAST 5 DAYS.  TWO INNOCENT MUFFINS SLOWED DOWN THE PROGRESS.  HOWEVER, I CAN’T COMPLAIN BECAUSE IN THE LAST 2 DAYS I WAS GETTING CRAMPS DURING THE NIGHT FOR LACK OF WATER, ALTHOUGH I WAS DRINKING AS MUCH AS I COULD STAND.  BUT I WAS GETTING DEHYDRATED.  AND SO ON THIS DAY I WAS NOT DEHYDRATED, WHICH IS A SIGN ALSO THAT SAYS,

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“YOU MIGHT SLOW DOWN THE PROCESS JUST A TAD BECAUSE DEHYDRATION IS DANGEROUS TO THE BODY, THE KIDNEYS & HEART ESP.”  (LEARNED THAT BY STUDY).

 

 

OK.  SO I AM PURPOSELY SLOWING DOWN THIS PROCESS INSTEAD OF 1.5 AVERAGE LBS A DAY TO ONE HALF TO A FULL LB A DAY, TO PREVENT DEHYDRATION.  AND I DO REALIZE NOW THAT MOST OF MY WEIGHT GAIN – PERHAPS  ALL OF IT – IS WATER BLOAT.  AGAIN, THIS IS MY THEORY.  I AM GOING TO PROVE OR DISPROVE IT BY PRACTICE.  AT THE END OF TWO MONTHS OR LESS IF I AM FAITHFUL TO THIS I WILL KNOW.

 

 

BTW I AM REGULARLY WATCHING ‘NAKED & AFRAID’  – HAVE SEEN MANY.  THE PEOPLE ARE OUT IN THE WILDERNESS FOR 21 DAYS WITH ABSOLUTELY NOTHING EXCEPT A COUPLE OF TOOLS – ONE TOOL EACH.  IF THEY LAST THE 21 DAYS, STARVING, {THEY HAVE TO HAVE WATER WHICH THEY DO FIND ONE WAY OR THE OTHER, USUALLY BOILING IT IF IT ISN’T SAFE – IF THEY HAVE A POT.  IF THEY DO NOT HAVE A POT THEY MUST BOIL IT INSIDE BAMBOO, IF THERE IS BAMBOO THERE! IF THERE IS NO BAMBOO, THEY DIG A HOLE CALLED AN INDIAN WELL, OR THEY STRAIN WATER THROUGH A BURLAP BAG OR OTHER MATERIALS} - 

 

THEY LOSE AN AVERAGE OF 20 TO 26 LBS IN 21 DAYS.   

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{MANY PEOPLE ‘TAP OUT’ – CONDITIONS ARE BRUTAL, THE MOSQUITOES OR SAND FLEAS BITE THEM EVERY INCH FROM HEAD TO TOE; THE FEAR OF DEADLY SNAKES, TARANTULAS, ALL SORTS KILLER ANIMALS, BUT WHAT I’VE SEEN THE MOST TAP OUT FROM IS DAYS OF UNRELENTING RAIN WHICH EXTINGUISHES THEIR FIRE, KEEPS THEM FROZEN, UNABLE TO LOOK FOR FOOD, DEPRESSES THEM, THEY ARE TOTALLY DEMORALIZED & QUIT} FROM WHAT I HAVE SEEN.

 

  ONE MAN, 49 YRS OLD, LOST 56 LBS IN 3 WEEKS – HE WAS NOT FAT HE SEEMED TO BE LESS THAN AVERAGE IN WEIGHT AT THE BEGINNING.  OF COURSE, THESE PEOPLE ARE STARVING.  THEY CAN ONLY FIND FOOD IT SEEMS, A DECENT AMOUNT, ONCE EVERY FEW DAYS – MAYBE ONE LARGE IGUANA AFTER 5 DAYS – MAYBE SOME SMALL FISH USUALLY – GRUBS OR TINY SHELLFISH OR CRABS & THE LIKE.  THEIR DIET IS A COMBINATION OF NO CHEMICALS & STARVATION.

 

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IN THE PAST, I HAVE EMPLOYED ONLY STARVATION TO BE ‘BEAUTY CONTEST THIN’. 

 

{BEAUTY CONTESTS I WON:  MS NUDE UNIVERSE, MS BODY BEAUTIFUL USA & MS AMERICANA BEST BODY TWICE, WON SECOND PLACE IN  THESE CONTESTS SEVERAL TIMES.}

 

  THIS DIET HERE IS NOT STARVATION; IT IS THE ‘NO CHEMICAL DIET’ OR THE ‘RASA DIET.’  {I WILL WRITE A REPORT & SPREAD IT SO HELP OTHERS} I AM NOT STARVING.  I CONTINUE TO CONSUME APPROX. TWO THOUSAND CALORIES A DAY – SOME DAYS LESS – I AM ONLY CUTTING OUT THE SALT, SUGAR, PRESERVATIVES, MSG’S & OTHER CHEMICALS IN MY DIET & YES, I AM TAKING POTASSIUM DAILY, EXTRA AMOUNTS, WHICH ASSIST IN PUSHING OUT WATER AS IT PUSHES OUT SALT.  AND YES, ALSO HAVE TO TAKE A DAILY ‘DIURETIC’ SINCE I GOT HEART CONGESTION FAILURE – I HAVE BEEN TAKING IT FOR THREE YEARS.  BUT THIS DIURETIC DID NOT GET RID OF ALL THE WATER I NEED TO REMOVE – I REMAINED A ‘BALLOON’ IN THE MIDDLE ONCE I STARTED EATING A ‘NORMAL’ DIET IN CALORIES, & ‘NORMAL’ IN CHEMICAL CONTENT.  TO ME, NORMAL DIET {WHAT THE AVERAGE AMERICAN EATS} MEANS ‘UGLY FAT.’ AND WHAT WE SEE AS FAT MIGHT BE JUST WATER BLOATING.

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ANOTHER RESULT OF THIS DIET IS THAT MY BLOOD PRESSURE HAS GONE DOWN.  I SUFFER FROM HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE – BEEN HAVING IT SINCE MY BELOVED STOPPED TALKING TO ME 4 YEARS AGO – HYPERTENSION THAT EVENTUALLY LED TO CONGESTIVE HEART FAILURE.  IN THE LAST WEEK I TOOK LESS BLOOD PRESSURE MEDS THAN USUAL, MY PRESSURE GOT MUCH LOWER (I MONITOR IT.) FOR A WHILE IT WAS AT TIMES SKY HIGH.  NOW IT IS CLOSE TO NORMAL MUCH OF THE TIME.

 

  THEY SAY ‘DON’T EAT SALT’ BUT THEY DON’T EXPLAIN THE DETAILS–THEY WANT YOU TO BLINDLY FOLLOW THEM WITHOUT UNDERSTANDING.  I WAS TOLD ‘DON’T EAT SALT’ 4 YEARS AGO BY A NURSE.  I DIDN’T BELIEVE HER, I FELT ‘THE BODY NEEDS SALT – RIGHT NOW IT’S HOT, I SWEAT – PEOPLE PASS OUT WITHOUT ENOUGH SALT’ — I DID NOT CUT OUT SALT OR CHEMICAL-LADEN FOODS & I PAID THE PRICE.  SALT IS, TO ME – DEADLY.

 

 

HERE IS WHAT BOTHERS ME ABOUT PEOPLE WHO HAVE ADVISED ME IN THE PAST.  WHEN I WAS ON THE STARVATION DIET – 1K CALORIES A DAY FOR SIX MONTHS – I WAS THRILLED & DELIGHTED WITH THE RESULTS.  I LOOKED GORGEOUS.  EVERYWHERE I WENT, MEN WHISTLED & APPROACHED ME IN PARKING LOTS.  I WAS 137 LBS, THE WEIGHT I WAS WHEN WINNING CONTESTS – MY BODY SHAPE IS A MARVEL WHEN THIN.  (EVEN THOUGH IN OLD AGE I HAD LOST 1.5″ IN HEIGHT, 137 WAS STILL FANTASTIC.  MEN APPROACHED ME EVERYWHERE I WENT, MOSTLY PARKING LOTS {AS A PARKING LOT IS MORE PRIVATE THAN A STORE, THEY DO IT SNEAKY}. 

 

WOMEN APPROACHED ME TO ASK WHAT WAS MY SECRET.  WHEN I SAID ‘STARVATION’ THE ANSWER DID NOT SUIT THEM.  THE ATTENTION FELT CONSOLING, THAT ONCE AGAIN ‘I MATTERED.’  AS A ‘FAT WOMAN’ I HAD BEEN IGNORED BY MOST PEOPLE – THEY DIDN’T EVEN LOOK AT ME BECAUSE NOT ONLY WAS I OLD, BUT FAT.  BUT ONCE MY BODY WAS INCREDIBLE, MY AGE DIDN’T MATTER.)

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BUT MY SO-CALLED SINCERE FRIENDS – ALL OF THEM – YELLED AT ME EVERY TIME I MENTIONED IT, ’YOU ARE STARVING YOURSELF, YOU ARE HURTING YOURSELF & IT IS NOT HEALTHY.’

 

 

BECAUSE I AM A FOOL, I EVENTUALLY LISTENED TO THEM & LOST MY RESOLVE.  IT TAKES A LOT OF RESOLVE TO STAY ON THE STARVATION DIET.  AT NIGHT I WOULD YEARN FOR FOOD, EVEN DREAM ABOUT FOOD.  FINALLY THEY BROKE ME DOWN, I STARTED EATING 2K A DAY, STARTED GOING TO RESTAURANTS INSTEAD OF EATING PLAIN AT HOM, & WITHIN A YEAR & A HALF, I GAINED 30 LBS – FROM 137 TO 167.  AND FINALLY WHEN I REALIZED WHAT I HAD DONE, I HATED MYSELF.

 

I BEGAN TO COMPLAIN ABOUT MY WEIGHT TO MY FRIENDS, SAYING I WAS BAFFLED BY IT, HATED IT, COULDN’T LOSE IT.  NONE OF THESE SINCERE WELL WISHERS SAID ONE WORD OF ENCOURAGEMENT, THEY DID NOT CARE.  THEY WERE NOT IN MY SKIN LOATHING MY FAT.  THEY ONLY INTERCEDED WHEN I WAS THIN & BEAUTIFUL, WHY DID THEY NOT INTERCEDE WHEN I WAS FAT & UGLY?  WHY WERE THEY NOW SILENT?  WHY DID THEY NOT ENCOURAGE ME, SAYING,

 

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“RASA, GO BACK TO THAT 1K DIET, YOU WERE HAPPY THEN.  IF YOU CAN STAND IT, YOU LOOK SO BEAUTIFUL THIN.  TRY THAT DIET AGAIN AS LONG AS YOU EAT HEALTHY, EAT LESS.”

 

 

NOT A ONE – NOT ONE SAID ONE WORD.

 

 

IT REMINDS ME OF MANY YEARS AGO WHEN I WAS A ‘FRUITARIAN’ FOR ONE YEAR.  I WENT BELOW BEAUTY CONTEST WEIGHT – I WAS 127 LBS & LOOKED ABSOLUTELY FANTASTIC.  PICTURES OF ME AT THAT WEIGHT ARE ON MY SITE ‘WOMAN THOU ART GOD’ UNDER GALLERIES, THE ‘GLAMOUR’ NOT THE BODY BUILDING PICS.  {THE BODY BUILDING PICS I WEIGH 147 – LOOKED GREAT FROM 2 HOURS OF RESISTANCE TRAINING DAILY 6 DAYS A WEEK FOR 3 MONTHS.}

 

THEN MY RELIGIOUS MENTOR, REV. VERNA TALBOT, HOUNDED ME ABOUT ‘BE NORMAL’ & SADLY, AFTER MONTHS OF HARASSMENT, I QUIT MY DIET, ATE NORMAL.  NORMAL MEANT NO MORE GORGEOUS, BEAUTIFUL PERFECTION.  DIRTY BITCH, WHY DIDN’T YOU LEAVE ME ALONE, YOU WERE JEALOUS.  I THINK ALL THESE FEMALES WHO ADVISE ME TO ‘EAT NORMAL’ ARE ON SOME LEVEL JEALOUS.  WISH THEY WERE THERE.  BECAUSE WHEN I CRY ABOUT FATNESS, THEY DON’T ENCOURAGE ME TO LOSE WEIGHT.  WHY?  THEY WANT ME TO BE FAT & UGLY SO THEY ARE NOT LOST IN THE SHADOWS–SOMEHOW MY PERFECTION HURTS THEM, MY LACK OF IT RELIEVES THEM.

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SO I AM FINISHED WITH MY STORY FOR THE DAY.  IN FACT, I START RIGHT NOW SHARING IT BECAUSE I WANT WOMEN TO KNOW: LOOK, HERE IS THE ANSWER.  IT’S ONLY A THEORY, BUT I WANT TO PROVE IT.  I BELIEVE IT’S THE CHEMICALS, THE PATRIARCHAL CHEMICALS THAT PATRIARCHAL COMPANIES ARE PUTTING INTO THE FOOD FOR THEIR OWN BENEFIT, NOT FOR OURS. 

 

I HAVE SOLVED THE MYSTERY.  FOR YEARS I WAS SAYING IT’S THE CHEMICALS.  BUT I DIDN’T FIGURE WHICH CHEMICALS, I THOUGHT MAYBE SECRET CHEMICALS. BUT IT’S RIGHT THEREON ‘INGREDIENTS.’  NOW I THINK I KNOW, I WILL PROVE IT.  IT IS:

 

 

          SALT, SUGAR {DEXTROSE, UNDER OTHER NAMES, & DO NOT EAT ARTIFICIAL SWEETENERS! SOME ARE TOXIC} PRESERVATIVES {MANY NAMES, LOOK UP THE INGREDIENTS}, MSG {LOOKOUT ALL CHINESE PLACES USE IT, ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE TO EAT CHINESE WITHOUT SALT & MSG, I ALWAYS USED TO TELL THEM NO SALT OR MSG & IT HELPED, BUT I STILL THINK IT HAS SOME IN IT WHEN I ASK, AS THE ORIGINAL INGREDIENTS THEY PURCHASE HAVE SOME CHEMICALS} & ANY KIND OF SUSPICIOUS CHEMICALS THAT YOU MUST AVOID BECAUSE YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THEY ARE – THEY ARE PROBABLY MASKS FOR WHAT’S NOT GOOD FOR YOU, MAINLY PRESERVATIVES.

 

 

 REMEMBER, THEY PUT A PRESERVATIVE OF MERCURY INTO VACCINES UNDER THE NAME ‘THIMEROSAL,’ & THIS GIVES AUTISM TO THE CHILDREN – THEY DON’T CARE – JUST TO KEEP THE VACCINE FRESH ON THE SHELF LONGER, THEY MAKE THE CHILDREN AUTISTIC.

 

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Thimerosal is a mercury-containing organic compound (an organomercurial). Since the 1930s, it has been widely used as a preservative in a number of biological and drug products, including many vaccines, to help prevent potentially life threatening contamination with harmful microbes.

 

DO YOU SEE MY POINT?  IF THEY DO THIS TO VACCINES & THE GOVT DOES NOT STOP IT, DO NOT TRUST THEM RE PRESERVATIVES IN THE FOOD!  THE ONLY WAY YOU CAN PROTECT YOURSELF FROM CHEMICALS IS NOT TO INJEST ANY OF THEM–OR KEEP THE FOOD WITH CHEMICALS TO A BARE MINIMUM, LIKE YESTERDAY I ATE TWO ORDINARY MUFFINS & GOT 480 GRAMS OF SALT WITHOUT WANTING TO.

 

ONE LAST NOTE:  NO MICROWAVES, THEY ARE RADIATION.  ONE MAN WHO STOOD WITH HIS BACK TO A MICROWAVE FOR EIGHT YEARS IN A RESTAURANT GOT MELANOMA CANCER ON HIS BACK & EVENTUALLY DIED.  A WOMAN WHO PREPARED FOOD IN A MICROWAVE DAILY, IT WAS THE LEVEL OF HER CHEST – GOT LUNG CANCER.  DO NOT STAND AROUND THEM, DO NOT INGEST FOOD HEATED IN THEM, THE FOOD MOLECULAR STRUCTURE IS CHANGED, EVEN WATER IS CHANGED. 

 

THEY EXPERIMENTED WITH PLANTS.  PLANTS WATERED WITH REGULAR WATER GREW NORMAL {DON’T DRINK MUNICIPAL TAP WATER; IT CONTAINS FLOURIDE, A RAT POISON & CHLORINE}.  PLANTS WATERED WITH MICROWAVED WATER WERE SMALL, GNARLY, UNDER PAR. 

 

WHEN I USED TO GO TO RESTAURANTS I ASKED THEM ‘IS THIS HEATED IN A MICROWAVE?’  IF THEY SAID YES, I SAID, ‘UNLESS YOU HEAT IT IN THE OVEN, DO NOT GIVE ME THIS FOOD.’  SOMETIMES THEY WOULD EXPLAIN THEY HAD TO HEAT IT, ETC.  AND I WOULD REBOUND, THEN IF YOU HAVE TO HEAT IT IN A MICROWAVE, I DO NOT WANT IT.  IT IS RADIATION.

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THAT’S IT FOR NOW; I WILL KEEP FOLKS AWARE OF MY PROGRESS.

 

RASA VON WERDER    5-18-20   FIFTH DAY OF THE ‘RASA DIET’ {NO CHEMICAL DIET} OR ALMOST NO CHEMICAL

 

 

AMAZING REVELATION – Chapter 2 – The ‘Rasa Diet’

 

5-21-20-THE CRAVING FOR FOOD IS IN YOUR MOUTH – NOT IN YOUR STOMACH – FROM THE CHEMICALS

 

          Since I began this diet but a week ago I notice that within a day or two I was no longer HUNGRY—real hungry like I was before. And because I was less hungry it was easy to eat less & because I ate less it helped lose weight.

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          I pondered as why would I be less hungry? The revelation came to me like the ring of a bell: The hunger was IN YOUR MOUTH – not IN YOUR STOMACH, not a real need for food your body tells you of, but the desire FOR THE TASTE of the chemically-laden food, where they use ingredients to make it taste better – the salt, sugar, & MSG.           {Please note in this diet you are allowed natural spices}.

 

          Now I understood what someone wrote, which was a mystery to me before, they said:

 

          “They put stuff in the food that makes you crave more of it, while saying they are helping you lose weight; they make you want more & more of it so you get fatter.

 

          All this so they can MAKE MORE MONEY – cause misery to you, more bucks to them – what do they care? It’s a ‘dog eat dog’ world – it’s a jungle where each creature seeks another to eat them up. They consume your wallet, they steal your resources, they don’t care about your health.

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          One big thing is DO NOT EAT ANY DIET FOODS OR DRINK DIET SODAS – they don’t help you lose weight, some of them are toxic – aspartame turns into methane gas in your body.

 

          Do not eat any foods that say ‘light’, ‘light-fit’ – anything that says ‘lite’ has fake sugars.

 

          Do not eat anything that says ‘low fat’ either. I cannot explain this but I have eaten low fat food & it doesn’t taste right. I don’t know what they do to it but avoid it. If it’s naturally low fat, like skim milk, it’s alright – I don’t know what they do to make regular foods low fat, but don’t trust them.

 

FAT WILL NOT MAKE YOU FAT – CHEMICALS DO.

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That is one of the BIG LIES I see in cook books. They put you on the starvation diet. I have one such book I got at the dollar store – they were selling cook books for $1. each – I bought fifteen. This book is by a famous female named ‘Jennie.’

 

All through her preface, the recipes & everything, it’s about low fat. This presumes you are eating so much fat, that’s why you’re fat. IT ISN’T TRUE. You did not get fat from fat, you go ‘fat’ or ‘water logged’ from salt, sugar, preservatives, MSG & other chemicals. Jennie probably doesn’t know these facts, she’s working under false premises, assumptions—many people are giving diet advice under assumptions –I am telling you the truth.

 

And so what is it you CRAVE, you wish for, you dream about? I was dreaming for those delicious deli-made peppers stuffed with meat & rice, covered with tomato sauce, the same dish with cabbage. I told myself the green peppers & cabbage are healthy, the rice is healthy, the tomatoes in sauce are healthy, the meat not sure about but overall, this is normal natural food – won’t hurt. I did not weigh the chemicals in my mind, not giving them much consideration.

 

The day I had the revelation it was the CHEMICALS I took all that cabbage & peppers & put it outside for the wild animals – & I have more to do to empty both my freezers & shelves of all the chemically-laden items. I will chuck them all & LEARN TO COOK MY OWN SAUCES, GRAVIES, SALAD DRESSINGS, etc. where I know they have no chemicals except POTASSIUM instead of salt {I use No-Salt} – healthy spices & so on.

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After all, my Mom was a chef, professional, at top restaurants & food manufacturers like Stouffers. When I lived with her up to age fifteen, she made all her food FROM SCRATCH WITHOUT CHEMICALS. She GREW IT first – in the country she had gardens filled with cucumbers, tomatoes, melons, strawberries, cabbage, lettuce, radishes, eggplants, peanuts – EVERYTHING.   We put salt on food if we wanted it, but she did not dredge the food with it. She even made home made desserts daily – none of us gained an ounce of fat. She made jellies, jams & preserves – from our own raspberries, lingonberries, peaches, apples, etc. yes, full of sugar but no other chemicals, & we did not gorge ourselves on these treats, time to time on sandwiches. She made apple pies from the tree next to the house. {Sadly she did not desire to teach me or the kids any of her culinary skills!} Of course we were kids but I believe an adult can stay thin on homemade food made from scratch, including desserts, because of the LACK OF FAKE CHEMICALS.

 

One thing all of us might want to think about: LEARN TO COOK!

 

Yes we have forgotten what our ancestors knew, even one or two generations ago – how to cook. My friend Ajax tells me the obesity epidemic STARTED in the 80’s. OK, started, but in the last five years I have noticed not only the women, but the men are getting obese. What’s the change?–Chemicals. What’s the solution? Stop eating their crap. I am eating PLAIN with just the No-Salt, maybe pepper, & going to LEARN TO COOK, make things like Mom used to make. If I don’t have time or inclination, just eat plain, plain fried eggs, plain boiled or baked meats, plain boiled or steamed veggies, plain everything.

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It’s the chemicals that made me feel like I was STARVING, craving was in my mouth. It was the MEMORY OF THE TASTE, the stimulating delicious taste of things. As soon as the memory WORE OFF – within days in fact, I no longer craved the food. Keep this in mind: the memory of the taste of the food is an addiction. If you stop eating the chemicals, the addiction goes away, like anything else, for me it left within two days.

 

I might add this: I am eating yogurt, the most healthy kinds {don’t eat yogurt with artificial sweeteners, the sugar is better than artificial, & also btw, never touch soda, no kind of soda}, with little sodium or sugar, but it all has sodium, some have sugar. This diet does not say you have to eat ZERO chemicals because sodium is also INSIDE OF BREAD. I eat yogurt every day, a probiotic, because I need it FOR DIGESTION. And once in a while I eat a sandwich – & all bread has some sodium in it. I get the cleanest bread there is & it has some sodium. On my sandwich I put a thick slice of tomato, sometimes Romaine lettuce, an egg, with NO MAYO NO NOTHING just No-Salt. It tastes fine, mayo is not needed as the fresh ingredients make it juicy. {I also pick lots of dandelion leaves from my yard to put it into things. It’s free, organic & healthy. Instead of mowing it down, eat it. You can wash it, then dry it with a towel.}

 

Last note of the day: Diuretics are important. I noticed after I had congestive heart failure & was given diuretics how diuretics or lack of them could make my weight go up or down. If I took none – like maybe forgot that day – I might gain two pounds! If I took a good amount, I might lose a lot – one day, I accidentally took double my dose & lost five pounds! This is not a good thing – it was an accident, but it proved a point, that we are 98% water & anything that RETAINS WATER will make us bloated, & what releases water will keep us normal. {I believe many people walking around ‘fat’ are water bloated, & most of us who are ‘overweight’ are holding water.}

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Ask your doctor or Big Nurse about getting a diuretic as you feel water bloated. They probably will not help you but you can try. They will tell you all the reasons they won’t – like it can dehydrate you & hurt your kidneys. You might be on your own, so let me share this:

 

Understand that the two water-controlling minerals – salt & potassium – maintain your water levels. Salt is the worst thing for retaining – potassium pushes water out. I take three potassium capsules a day, 100 mg each.

 

I do take a diuretic every day, prescribed for my heart condition –with congestive heart failure your heart isn’t strong enough to push out all the water – but even so, this did not keep me thin, with the diuretic, yes, I was thin for a while – I was 137 lbs. After a year I felt I was healed of the heart condition {80% of it} so I began to eat REGULAR.

 

After the heart attacks I ate CLEAN FOOD, no additives, a perfect diet & not much – between 1K to 1.5K calories a day. I was beauty contest weight & men whistled wherever I went & tried to pick me up.

 

          My well-wishing friends all screamed at me that I was starving myself, it wasn’t healthy. Eventually it broke my resolve & I began to eat NORMAL – went to restaurants, Chinese {no salt, no MSG I told them but it still had some}, pizza {only veggies}, all that. Within a year, it crept on me, & in two years, I woke up to find myself 30 POUNDS OVERWEIGHT! I tried to eat less, weighed myself every day, but IT WOULDN’T COME OFF!

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And I note that the diuretics I took for the heart did not help me at this point! The water or whatever was in me, stayed in me! I was putting so much chemicals into my body the diuretic was overridden.

 

Almost every woman I speak to who is overweight tells me she tries & tries but the weight will not come off!

 

Why can’t we lose? Because we don’t understand, it’s NOT THE FOOD – IT’S THE CHEMICALS!

 

That’s it for today, the revelation is that your hunger craving is in your mouth, not in your body – it’s a craving because of the chemicals they put in the food – a craving for the TASTE – your body is not talking to you, it’s only your taste buds saying, ‘I want to taste that again.’

 

Rasa Von Werder     5-21-20

 

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SAD TURNS TO GLAD

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Lover leaves  but comes back,  relationship is attacked by numerous

people— beat them back & escape, fly off with him away from them all, on a

golden road of love—this is predicted.

5-17-20-SAD TURNS TO GLAD 

Interpreted for a friend

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          This is so sad in the beginning. My aunt & uncle have a get-together way in the hills in the country – it’s beautiful, rolling soft bushes & trees, lots of recreation, many people are here.

 

          *(AUNT & UNCLE HAVE ALWAYS BEEN PUNISHERS IN YOUR SYMBOLS {the thought is ‘cry Uncle’ when you can’t take it any more}, but this time you will see a change. The beauty, recreation, is a sign of your peace & happiness.)*

 

          I am having a great time, not thinking of anything negative, when after a while notice the guy I love is off to the side with another female—I know he’ll be making love to her. I see a lot of young people off to the side in the blackness where you can’t see them & they are doing sex. I don’t see my lover clearly with the female, just vaguely, in my imagination.

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          *(LOVER WITH ANOTHER: This being remembered is causing a mar to happiness. ‘In the blackness’ means you can’t see the people but know what they’re doing.)*

 

          After that I mope around, so sad. My uncle is near me. I see his face clearly, he has olive skin & 5 o’clock shadow on his face,—he’s young & handsome {no more than 40} & seems sympathetic to me.

 

          *(UNCLE SYMPATHETIC: Things have changed drastically. You’re not going to be punished or suffer any more, this change is saying.

 

The face of the uncle reminds me of an actor on TV who plays do-gooder roles.)*

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          He has me sit at a table that has soft, small dinner rolls on it. I take one, with my face sort of down in sadness; he gives me a different roll, one more square. I think what do I do now, put butter on it? But I don’t put any butter, I’ve become passive. There’s a guy sitting to my right – I don’t know who he is.

 

          *(SOFT DINNER ROLLS: What is on the table or brought there, represents in a relationship.

         

          BUTTER ON BREAD: Major clue –Butter on bread is MONEY, & possibly more than ‘just bread’ or basics, butter on bread could mean an abundance or extras. Uncle provides you with

 

BREAD ON THE TABLE –Represents MONEY – what one brings to the table in a relationship—You prayed about this yesterday, asking God what do we each bring to the table? The

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BUTTER: represents ‘which side my bread is buttered on’ which means, which part of these people supports me, pays my bills or provides money? Uncle hands me a

 

SQUARE: dinner roll instead of the round one I took which could mean ‘a SQUARE MEAL’ & so this represents a ‘square meal’ or ‘enough to eat,’ a decent amount of money, not just survival, the rolls are money that is brought to the table, being

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SOFT: soft is easy, tender, not hard which would be hard to obtain or earn – You can easily provide support for Wayfarer & the butter is the ABUNDANT MONEY you provide. You are

 

PASSIVE: as you’re not doing anything, not chasing Lover any more, but there’s a man sitting to your right who you wonder about – you never look at him & this might be

 

MAN TO MY RIGHT: Lover is sitting to my right, it’s planned, prepared, like the places at a table, when they have placards by each spot a person sits at an event, a wedding & such – Uncle is pointing this out to me. The fact that this is a planned dinner might be pointing to WEDDING DINNER. In fact this entire weekend bash might be pointing to the celebration of our wedding. This dream, through the symbol of my Uncle, who usually punishes me, predicts the marriage.

 

This dream explains, through my uncle, a theme that has been raised many times before – that Lover coming to you will have to do with what you bring to the table – & he will know which side his bread is buttered on. He’s always been in ‘survival mode,’ living with people who paid the bills – not always full but part time, like several days a week. The most recent female gave him the ‘golden parachute’ & allowed him to live with her full time without taking any of his money & even for a long time, gave him drugs.

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Her ability to support him has diminished due to our Pandemic—in fact, she might be totally bankrupt for an extended time. The deal they had will no longer work.

 

Where will he go next? Who can provide? It will be you, the dreams have said for years. He will hit ‘rock bottom’ – will have nowhere else to go & will humble himself to you, the only one who will take him in & support him. That’s why this dream says ‘bread on the table’—man is to my right, & ‘butter on the bread.’)*

 

          I tell my uncle about seeing Lover with another girl. I say to him,

 

          “Could you invite him for tomorrow? Then I’ll see him again.”

          {This was a weekend bash.}

 

          I am profoundly sad through this dream.

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          NEXT SCENE everything changes. I am at a movie theater, the audience lit up, lover & I are sitting close to each other in the aisle—on the left—there’s seats here for us. No one is close to us.

 

          *(MOVIE THEATER: Theater of life. You are living it.

 

          AISLE: Big hint—going up the aisle means getting married. You are here together as a couple in love.)*

 

          He has me in the MOST WONDERFUL EMBRACE, his arm around me, kissing me, again & again & again. No one bothers us FOR A WHILE & then – the shit begins.

 

          First, his own brother comes up to him. He looks like he has about 25% black blood, he has a black mustache & short beard. He does not speak to me, but he addresses Lover, whom I shall call ‘Wayfarer’—telling him to leave off what he’s doing with me, & go with him.

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          *(BROTHER WHO TRIES TO GET LOVER AWAY FROM ME: This represents any creepy ‘friend’ or multiple friends who wanted him to be with them, not you. Some of these ‘brothers’ are in & out of jail for drugs, stealing & violence, some are homos or bisexuals. They want him to stay in their group.)*

 

          This INFURIATES me. I get up & punch the guy & I guess he goes off.

 

          *(I PUNCH THE GUY: You did interfere with one homo who quit bothering him for a while.)*

 

          Next, someone else interfered but I can’t recall who. I fought like three type sets of people.

 

          The third instance, Wayfarer & I have moved to the back of the theater, against the wall. Now a middle-aged couple interferes, a woman with super thick {twice as thick as regular hair} to the shoulders white hair is in his lap & her husband is nearby – they are also interfering.

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          I go up to her, grab her by the hair & pull her off his lap, & thinking,

 

          “That’s what they wanted – that I attack someone not of the family – so they can call the cops & have me arrested. They have conspired to interfere with my relationship with Wayfarer, wanting to at the same time get me into trouble for fighting back.”

 

          When I grabbed this woman it was violent, extreme physical force.

 

          *(WHITE HAIRED WOMAN: This is a rival you tangled with forcefully. Her hair is WHITE FROM WORRY about what was going on.

It was multiple onslaughts of people you had to fend off – homos –druggie friends & sex-crazed females.)*

 

          Then I know I must ESCAPE WITH HIM far away from all these people, where none of them can reach us or do us harm.

 

         *(ESCAPE WITH HIM IN MY ARMS: This is a prediction, it’s not happened yet. On the spiritual plane, yes, but not yet physical.)*

 

          I grab him into my arms, hold him, & light up into the air, & fly off, trying to go as far as possible. If we are far enough away from these people, we can be at peace to share our relationship. It’s a slight strain for me to fly high into the air, but I manage, & then I see the road ahead. It’s a beautiful wide avenue in the country – with trees on both sides – I see trees of the country side & hills on both sides, with houses here & there – the road looks like some kind of beige/gold clay. It is promising.

 

          *(ESCAPE, FLY IN AIR, COUNTRY, GOLD AVENUE: This says that you will get him away from all the negative people, male & female – take him to a higher level {FLY} & enter on the ROAD OF LOVE forever more.

 

          The physical surroundings resemble where you live, near Sacred

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Mountains—this says it will be Valhalla where you can finally share a private world with no interference or rivals.

 

It’s interesting that a person that has always been a punisher in my dreams now appears as a consoler, giving me a vision & prediction of future love & happiness.)*

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MAN FEELS REJECTED

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MAN YOU LOVE FEELS REBUKED, REJECTED

& IS A NERVOUS WRECK

 

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          Was busy doing something with a guy – some kind of work, nothing romantic & we got done.

 

          *(WORK WITH GUY: You don’t have any boyfriends but you hire men for work, this is a new worker.)*

 

          Then see my ‘goodhubby’ Robert driving me into my newly refurbished driveway – just big enough for one car, & he has a quiet, curious look on his face like ‘what’s going on’ or ‘went on.’

 

          *(ROBERT: When Robert appears means your lover’s attitude is positive & tender toward you – Robert was a previous ‘goodhubby.’)*

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          The spot used to be ‘open’ but now not only are there tall bushes on both sides of the spot as well as in front, but a sort of ‘makeshift,’ not solid fence, of small ‘weathered’ trees, criss crosses, a decoration mainly as any animal can get through it like a dog, cat, raccoon – anything but a cow or horse, but they could knock it over, doesn’t look strong. The small trees this was made of are about 4” diameter, & the bark is weathered, not smooth, like rough & has maybe lichen or something textured on it. It has the fence rail over the top, & the as I said, large criss crosses under.

 

          *(MY DRIVEWAY: Represents, basically your vagina or sexuality. Now it is ‘closed in’ – the bushes surrounding where a man would drive you & your car into the driveway now ‘enclosed’ or no longer

 

OPEN: this could be taken two ways, no longer open to Robert’s scrutiny – or no longer open to him for sex. The

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FENCE: Is a symbol of the CROSS, especially when there are ‘criss crosses’ here – A cross can mean pain & suffering, a cross can also mean

 

NO: as in ‘crossed out.’ Since the fence is made of

 

YOUNG TREES, 4” IN DIAMETER: Could represent YOUNG MEN you’re no longer having sex with – including the lover/boy/hubby. The

 

WEATHERED, TEXTURED BARK: might be another symbol saying ‘not freshly cut down – been sitting in piles for a while, bark getting weather-beaten, collecting lichen, texture’ – translating to ‘not going out with any young men – they were there a while back but now left alone. This is an accurate symbol for you to understand, whether he understands it is not disclosed here.

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BIG ENOUGH FOR JUST ONE CAR: This is hinting at the one man or multiple men situation. There are thoughts in his mind about am I the man, or is there another one? Symbols go both ways. Big enough for just one car translated is ‘big enough for just one penis.’)*

 

          Robert sees under the car – I’m looking under also – that the previous man who drove it took off his white stretchy undershorts {with a striped waistband, like maybe green/grey, 2 stripes} & pulled it over something underneath the driver side. We had nothing to do with sex but he might suspect we did.

 

          There’s also a simple small chair to the front left, & the worker put his hat, which is like a mask {you know those cold-weather hats that cover part of your face}, which is tan & black bands or frames around openings, at first, this sort of made me uncomfortable, but then I realized it was a virus cover, & there is another such knitted hat, of multi colors on this little chair. So the PRESENCE of this man is seen & it makes Robert uncomfortable & me the same way because I don’t want him to get the wrong idea.

 

          *(DRIVER MAN LEFT HIS SHORTS: Goodhubby suspects THERE IS ANOTHER MAN in your life, who is seen as ‘DRIVING’ ME—driving being a euphemism {symbol} for fukking you.

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          SHORTS STRETCHED OVER BOTTOM OF CAR UNDER DRIVER SIDE: He thinks you’re with a man with his pants down.

 

          STRIPES ON WAISTBAND, GREEN & GREY: Green could represent money or ‘life.’ Grey is thinking.

 

          KNITTED VIRUS HAT/MASKS TWO OF THEM ON LITTLE CHAIR ALSO BY DRIVER SIDE: Then maybe you have multiple men? The beige with black borders could be Robert & you–you were secret lovers, so the hat/mask is HIDING SOMETHING – no one saw you together.

 

          And so, if youwere HIDDEN LOVERS, behind closed doors you could be having MULTIPLE LOVERS (multi-colored mask) in secret. The hat/masks are what is secret & hidden.)*         

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          Then we’re upstairs on the 2nd floor. Ozy, a Guru is here with his back to the door of this room, I am here & there was a lady – not sure if this is still her to my left back or if that is a different person, & his 11 or 12 yr old son is here, looking next to the tall bureau where in my bedroom there is a huge window—he looks perplexed.

 

          *(GURU OZY: It took me a while to figure out who this is – it’s his God-Self– the Power which is the God or parent of his flesh – his flesh is his son, the boy standing here facing your bedroom window.

 

          FACING AREA WHERE MY BIG WINDOW IS: He used to summon you by way of this window, call out, whistle & shine a light to let you know he was there. This dream says he is perplexed why you’re never there.)*

 

          At first this lady & I found a bargain for underpants & we were both purchasing them gleefully, as the lady who owned this clothing biz was only charging $10 for ten pairs pants. I was showing them to Ozy, what a bargain, & he looks at this white card on top of this tall bureau where a stack of these are & says

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          “The price has even gone down, they are now 15 pairs for $10.”

 

          They are beautiful underwears, that’s why I’m surprised they’re so cheap – they have lots of shiny material in red with black lace in front, not snug, loosely designed, almost like very loose pleats in front. I told Ozy I prefer to wear the big ones, as I don’t like my underpants tight. {I also had some smaller ones I wear, I show him the size 10’s.} I’m thinking to get more.

 

          *(RED PANTIES WITH BLACK LACE: Represent celibacy & not having sex for a long time. To call these

 

          CHEAP: Means there is no suffering for you, no sense of deprivation. The desire has been mastered. Ozy, his God self notices there’s been even a bigger jump in you being able to endure this lack of sex. In spiritual terms, when something they say ‘costs a lot’ means in terms of suffering, so cheap is easy.)*

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          Ozy is proud of his son & wants to know from my lady friend to the left – by her ESP – about his genius abilities.

 

          Her psychic senses comes & goes, right now she feels oppressed by too many overwhelming things going on & she says to him,

 

          *(PSYCHIC FEMALE: Is a part of you, right now seem to be overwhelmed with so many things on your mind.)

 

          “He has a neurological condition.”

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          Ozy asked about the wound on his right cheek – it’s the size of a nickel, looks like light mint stripes over this ‘wound.’

 

          *(WOUND, SIZE OF A NICKEL, WITH MINT STRIPES: This is like his being ‘slapped in the face,’ which usually means, by a woman to a man, reprimanded &/or rejected. This is how he feels)*

 

          She says,

 

          “His neurological condition coincides with that wound, it parallels it.”

 

          *(NEUROLOGICAL CONDITION RELATING TO THAT WOUND, PARALLELS IT: He feels I have reprimanded & rejected him, & that has made him a ‘nervous wreck’ – translated from ‘neurological condition.’)*

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          Ozy expected something different, not that he has a problem, but that he’s superior in some way – perhaps he’s disappointed.

 

          *(OZY WANTED SOMETHING DIFFERENT: The God inside lover/boy/hubby might have thought his flesh was stronger than this – superior to the situation, but he isn’t. When he was pushing you around, he felt superior, in control, now he feels reprimanded, rejected & a nervous wreck.

          “You never miss your water ‘till the well runs dry.”

 

          He thought it was all you – he was above it. You were pursuing him, obsessed; he didn’t have to do anything but tell you when he wanted you. It was easy. Then suddenly, you were gone. He is perplexed, hurt, bewildered. If he was above it, why does he care? He never had to do anything to keep you, you were in love no matter how much he hurt you. The shoe is on the other foot. The well has gone dry. He needs the water.)*

 

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YOU WILL MARRY YOUR LOVER

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YOU WILL MARRY YOUR LOVER

 

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Interpreted for a friend

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          I am having quite a time on this long road. It’s over a mountain – I’ve been here before, many times, but have not been here a long time.

 

          *(MOUNTAIN: “Lord, this time you gave me a mountain,” – song from Elvis. And Jesus said, “If you have faith as a mustard seed, you can move that mountain.” Mountains are PROBLEMS.

          This is going over a same ole’ – same ole’ problem.)*

 

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          Now I go back to it & it has CHANGED. I have some sort of vehicle, a good one. I go by this road but here is an obstacle, something white like stiff, is it metal or fiberglass, like not flat, sort of has some curve & an ‘edge’ about a foot wide to, covering almost the entire road, & I squeeze by, amazingly get by.

 

          *(WHITE OBSTACLE: Clue that this is about marriage. The metallic or fiberglass is the material of a car. And so I am unconsciously wondering about the marriage to Josh – to be or not to be?)*

 

          Somewhere along the road a person has opened some sort of ‘warehouse,’ like a barn, it houses I don’t know what – it’s white & has some black décor like some sort of round black window. It’s one of those pre-fab buildings, which has a round frame & the ceiling & walls wrap around it. It seems the person who put this here was trying to store something for hard times coming.

 

          Then the road becomes a FORK. It had never

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been a fork before, & both of the roads are covered in a wide duct tape material – shiny grey. I see the fork of the road from afar. I decide to take the LEFT because I’ve never been that way – always went the other. What will I find?

 

          *(FORK IN ROAD, NEW LEFT: Left-sided tantra represents things that are forbidden or not considered kosher, but it gets you there. This left turn is something bad that will turn to something good, most probably the economic crisis.

 

          DUCT TAPE: This is REPAIR or an attempt to fix a thing, & both roads are covered, means there was a problem in both paths or ways. The duct tape is smooth, shiny, easy to slide over. Something has happened to smooth the way, both ways.

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The duct tape might also represent the vision to see, understand, what’s going to happen.)*

 

          So I drive a long time, seeing new sights, can’t recall what. I finally come to the end & strangely, I am glad; tired of the journey. There is a pretty wall, like 8 or 10’ tall, made of wood & a window over all of it with panes, separated into squares, the side of the road is also some walls. None of this is formidable or threatening, it’s just somehow appropriate, I’m glad it’s the end, I’m tired of the road.

 

          *(END OF ROAD: The end of the quest, the journey, end of what I am seeking – will the marriage be or not? I am tired of waiting, tired of wondering, tired of trying.

 

This road might also represent a series of things that will happen, events, sights, that I can now see – that were not seen before & then the end of this quest will be revealed.

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WINDOW AT END: Windows are opportunities, openings, things that allow something to happen, doors are the same. A door opening is an opportunity.)*

 

          Here appears a handsome young blonde man, cheerful, moving here & there, doing this & that. We greet each other, then he disappears – this happens again & again. In the end, he appears again, puts his arm around me friendly, & then it stays that way.

 

          *(BEAUTIFUL YOUNG BLONDE: Is Josh. The physical movements are his, & also, we were back & forth together & broken up several times. This reviews that.

 

          But in the end, he puts his arm around me & does not withdraw – this shows the end will be permanent, him & me.

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BLONDE: Is golden hair, means love.

ARM AROUND ME: Accepts me. Holds me means keeps me in his life, keeps me with him. God is telling me that IN THE END, Josh & I will stay together.)*

 

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Femdom Christianity Chaps 5-6-7-8-9

FEMDOM CHRISTIANITY  by William Bond  Chapters 5-6-7-8-9

Femdom Christianity: Chapter Five

 

The Feminine One

If there was an ancient religion of the Great Mother what would would be its teachings? It would be the teachings that God loves us all. Unfortunately, only a loving father god was acceptable to the ruling elite of the time. So anything about the Goddess Sophia was cut out of the gospels which means Jesus couldn’t promote the Goddess of Love.

Yet in-spite of this the ancient teachings of the Great Mother did survive and we find its teachings in Mysticism, which claims that God is the One, one mind, one spirit. The problem with this is that the One cannot be masculine as it is all about individuality, separation and conflict. Whereas the feminine is about love and harmony so the One has to be feminine in nature.

There used to be idea of Oneness in Feminism when they put forward the slogan, “the sisterhood is powerful”. But this was rejected after awhile as a powerful sisterhood goes against the Feminist ideal of equality with men.

The bonobo ape is able to make the whole idea of a powerful sisterhood work and it allows bonobo females dominate the larger bonobo males. Unlike their close cousin the chimpanzees where the female didn’t create a powerful sisterhood and so every individual female chimp is at the mercy of the larger males.

So we all come from the One and the One is female. We were all one mind, one spirit and lived in perfect love and harmony. Unfortunately that total perfection created stagnation. In a total harmonious world there was no reason or motivation to change anything. So there came a desire from the One to experience life outside of itself, to experience individually and relationships.

To do this, She created a material universe and within it created bodies, so parts of the One could inhabit these bodies and experience the illusion of being separate from the One. This gave the One, a taste of what it is like to be separate but then it went further and created beings that had no memory of being part of the One.

Because of this, these beings began to experience loneliness, fear and suffering in this world of separation. For this reason they quickly had a powerful desire to return to the One. So there first exploration in the world of separation was brief.

Yet, the One wanted to learn more about the world of separation and created a being that revelled in a separate world and that was how the masculine was created.

The masculine was able to live outside of the One because it was created to enjoyed competition. Someone who enjoys competing, fighting and conflict is a person that thinks it doesn’t need the One. But this competitive instinct also led to hatred, violence and suffering, so that even very macho men seek relief from this, by searching for the One within women.

This wasn’t a too much a problem in animals but became a real problem in an intelligent creature like a human being. As men found that could make weapons like spears and clubs in which to attack each other, leading to murder, wars and genocide.

For this reason the One created men to want to worship and obey women. This gave women power over men so they could restrain their violent instincts. This is because women have a stronger connection the all-powerful One and could easy call on her power and wisdom when it was needed.

Unfortunately, the human male is an intelligent creature and because of his competitive instincts began to plot and scheme for ways of competing against women for power. So some men would be attempting to undermine women’s confidence or try to manipulate and deceive women.

These efforts never worked while women remained in contact with the limitless wisdom and power of the Feminine One, but then some men found a way to break this connection.

Ancient Priestess

 At the time, people worshipped the Great Mother who gave birth to the world. So men suggested to women that it was unfair that people only worshipped a Female deity and they should worship a male deity as well. Some women did think this was fair and reasonable and went along with it.

So in their religion the Great Mother had a son, (similar to the images of the Virgin Mary and Jesus or Isis and Horus). Then later people began to worship female and male deities as brother and sister or male and female lovers.

At first this didn’t seem to be a problem, but the worship of a male god caused problems for women trying to connect to the Feminine One. The feminine is complete Oneness, love and harmony. The masculine is separation, loneliness, conflict, fear and hatred. So the vibrations are totally different, making it more difficult to connect to the Feminine One, when praying to male deity alongside a female deity.

So over time in this new religion women found it harder to connect to the Feminine One and they slowly lost their power. Because of this men no longer worshipped them as goddesses and they become equal in status to men.

The competitive instincts in some men drove them to wanting more power so the male deities became more important than the female deities. This then made contact with the Feminine One even more difficult for women and they found themselves at the mercy of male aggression and violence and the patriarchal age was born.

Finally, the new patriarchal rulers decided that there was only one god and he was male. Women then lost all their connection to the Feminine One and became the slaves of men.

This is a disaster for both sexes because although women have suffered under patriarchal rule, so has men. Because without women’s control and guidance man is in danger of destroying himself and the world he lives in.

As the male is separated from the One, he can explore what it is like to be individual and separate. But when he breaks away from the control of the female he then goes into a spiral of loneliness, fear, conflict, hatred, violence, war, chaos and destruction. Unfortunately this is exactly what has happened over the last 5,000 years.

This then is the dance of the female and male. The female is forever taking us back to the One to experience total love and harmony. The male is attempting to take us further away from the One into conflict and chaos. In this dance men learn from women about love, compassion and harmony while women learn from men aggression, competitiveness and hatred.

A world totally dominated by men will quickly destroy itself, as men will continually fight each other. While a world dominated by women will return us back to the One of total love and harmony. So can we find a way to return to the One through a matriarchal religion?

Religion is about our connection to God as well as teachings to make our lives better for us all. But unfortunately, patriarchal religions fail to do this. Most people who pray to God fail to find any connection to the One, while the teachings don’t seem to make life better for us.

The problem is that we worship male gods and this is the main reason why religions fail to deliver on what they promise. Male gods are masculine and the masculine is all about aggression and competition. So for this reason it’s not surprising to find male dominated religions and religious sect fighting each other.

Male gods are not only aggressive but intolerant as well, as people are threatened with, ‘hellfire and damnation’, when they die if they fail to follow the teachings of the male priesthood. So it is no wonder people find it hard to connect to a judgmental and punitive god like this.

Gods like this give religion a bad name and for this reason some religions have attempted to show god in a better light. We find this in the Christian teachings of Jesus in the New Testament where he promoted the idea of loving Father God. This has been only partly successful as many Christians still prefer the judgmental God of the Old Testament.

Buddhism has also attempted to give more compassionate teachings and Buddhists are encouraged to connect to Nirvana through meditation. Unfortunately only a minority of people are willing to spend years of meditation to do this.

So what would it be like to worship God as a female and have an exclusive female priesthood? It would be a religion based on the feminine rather than masculine principles. So what difference would this make?

The fact is that the One can only be feminine as She is total love and harmony. For this reason the One can never be masculine as he is all about individualism, competition, aggression and conflict.

We can see how this plays out in the animal world. Male animals like stags, bulls, rams and lions fight each other for dominance and access to females. Then when the strongest male animal has impregnated the females, the females give birth and devoted their time caring for their young.

So males have competitive and aggressive instincts while females have maternal and nurturing instincts. These is why men like watching and playing sports and compete with each other in business and politics and why male dominated countries and religions fight wars.

Most women on the other hand have desires to give birth to children and devote their lives to caring for them. Women not only want to care for their own children but will care for other people’s children as well as the sick, the elderly, animals and even men.

So if we were to worship God as a Woman we would expect her to be nurturing and love us all unconditionally. So this would be a deity we would find easy to connect to as we know she wouldn’t judge, condemn or punish us. The teachings of a maternal Mother God would also be about love which would encourage us to love each other and make our world a better place.

We can only return to the love and harmony of the One when women reconnect to Her and become, once again, one with Her unlimited power and wisdom. This will allow men to once again to serve and worship women as goddesses.

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Femdom Christianity: Chapter Six

Venus of Willendorf

The Ancient Great Mother

So what do these teachings mean in our present day society of the 21th century? We live in a world that has been dominated by the men for the last 5,000 years. The result has been a world of conflict, oppression, war, genocide and chaos. We are now in danger of destroying ourselves with destructive weapons like nuclear bombs as well as widespread pollution.

The situation is now becoming so dangerous that the One is encouraging women to regain power so we can return to the protection of the One. Unfortunately, too many women are learning how to gain power by learning from men. But men can only teach women how to be more aggressive and competitive. Teachings like this only take us all further away from the One.

An example of this would be politics where women politicians are taught by men to be as deceptive, corrupt and competitive as male politicians. The result has been that when female politicians act and behave like men, they can only mimic what men do and are not leading us back to the One.

Although as more women that come into positions of power the more confident women will eventually become in being themselves and no longer have to pretend to be men. When they finally do this they can start to lead humanity back to the One.

About 5,000 years ago men took control of our world and they were able to do this when women listened to deceitful men who encouraged women to break their connection to the One.

So there was a time in the past when women ruled the world and patriarchy has since tried to destroy all knowledge and evidence of this. So how could women rule the world when men are physically bigger and stronger as well as being more competitive and aggressive than women?

When women ruled the world there was a religion where people worshipped the Great Mother who gave birth to our world. The Great Mother is of course the One. She is all-that-there-is. It was through this religion that women connected to the One as the Great Mother.

Women then were representatives of the Great Mother in this world and so all women were worshipped by men as goddesses. So men have a natural desire to worship women and this desire becomes far stronger when women find ways to connect to the One. This means, the more women are able to once again connect themselves to the One the more men will want to worship and obey them.

So how did women lose the connection to the Great Mother? Although the One had unlimited wisdom and intelligence it didn’t know or understand the world of separation. It was only men who knew and understood this world. The One couldn’t comprehend the world of lies, deception and trickery created by men. So didn’t know what to do when these things were used against women.

Also the One gives us all unconditional love and this includes love for the worse type of man you can possibly imagine. For this reason the One never took sides when ambitious men set out to destroy the power of women. When ambitious men told women that it was unfair that people only worshipped a female deity and they should be allowed to worship a male god as well.

Women allowed this to happen, and so men were allowed to form their own priesthood and worship male gods. In the spirit of fairness women began to worship these male gods as well and in the process lost their power. This was because these male gods represent separation and conflict and took women away from the Oneness of the Great Mother.

So the male priests began to teach and practice masculine teachings which were about aggression, competitiveness and hatred. They also taught women about sacrificial love which is close to women’s maternal love for their children. So the priests taught women that maternal love and sacrificial love where the same thing.

This seems to be true because a mother will sacrifice herself for her child. but for a mother to be able to care for her child she has to ensure she is strong enough to do this. So the sacrificial aspect of this is limited because if a mother sacrifices herself completely, she can become so mentally or physically weak, she cannot properly care for or protect her child.

The women who listened to the priests began to feel guilty about putting any of her own needs before the child and the priests sensing a weakness, encouraged this feelings of guilt even more. So in the end women began to feel guilty about loving herself in any situation and as the result she began to lose her connection to the One and was no longer in tune with her Goddess power.

The One has never demanded sacrificial love, the One is an all encompassing love for everything and that includes our love for ourselves. The male priests in the spirit of separation encouraged the split between our love for ourselves and others. They were encouraged to do this when they saw it broke women’s connection to the One.

The priests also encouraged men to be selfish when dealing with women but unselfish when supporting the power of the new patriarchal rulers.

Through this, these men were able to break away from the control of the women. They quickly created a world of chaos and conflict and when they were challenged about this they defended their power through deception and violence.

So the holy women of the Great Mother religion then found themselves in conflict with male dominated religions. The women who returned to the original teaching of the Great Mother saved themselves but the women who tried to compete with men lost out.

Some women went as far as becoming Amazons and fighting men on the battle-field. But men have all the physical advantages in warfare and women lost when attempting this. This means that when women try to act and behave like men, they find they are at a big disadvantage.

Another problem for women is that men have what Sigmund Freud called the Madonna–whore complex. The famous psychologist points out that men either worship women as Goddesses, or treat them as abused slaves.

Men are like this is other ways when they say, “you’re either for us or against us.” It is there competitive instincts that make it hard for them the take the moderate line in anything. As they divide the world up into winners and losers. So men have a similar attitude about women.

It seems men had not problems in worshipping women as Goddesses but when patriarchy undermined this, men went to the opposite extreme and treated women as abused slaves.

People can only tune into the power of the One through love because unconditional love and Oneness are the same thing. Once women start to compete against men then they lose that sense of Oneness. The One possess all the wisdom, intelligence and power of the whole universe, so women become all-powerful when they make that connection.

Masculine power on the other hand is the power of conflict. Men can become extremely powerful when they are totally ruthless, brutal and deceitful but this power if unchecked can only destroy itself.

Patriarchal rulers have gained power and kept it by knowing how to gain power over other men. The patriarchal age hasn’t benefited most men as it paradoxically turned the majority into slaves, serfs and peasants. The ruling elite of the patriarchal world found that all men are very obedient to anyone who presents themselves as figures of authority and exploited this to the full.

So instead of worshipping women as Goddesses, men found themselves worshipping the male ruling elite who treated them like slaves. In the past male rulers set themselves up as gods and expected the people to worship them as such.

Later when people saw through this deception the rulers then claimed they had the, “divine right of kings,” and that it was ‘God’s will’ that they are rulers. Yet, even today when people are aware that their rulers are not gods or divine-rulers, common people will still worship those who have political and financial power.

Because of this the vast gap between rich and poor is as bad as it ever has been, because most men will meekly obey anyone in position of authority.

Men obedience to authority is clearly shown in war. We tend to think solders as tough macho men but the best soldiers are so passive they will obey the most insane orders without question. An example of this is World War One when soldiers of all countries would come out of the trenches to be mowed down by machine gun fire because they were ordered to do this. The military will spin this as iron discipline, but it is also extreme submission to authority.

The Japanese in World War Two went a step further and used Kamikaze suicide pilots to deliberately crash their aircraft into enemy shipping because they were also obeying orders. They weren’t volunteers, they were simply ordered to do this and none refused to obey.

So it means that women do not have to compete with men for power, all they have to do is present themselves as Goddesses and men will obey them. Perhaps we can learn something about this from the Femdom scene.

Femdom Christianity: Chapter Seven

Goddess Pandora

The Yin and Yang

So how do women connect to the One? The most obvious way is to stop worshipping male gods and then to worship a female deity as the creator of our world.

There are many women who are atheists and point out that scientists believe that the universe was created in a ‘big-bang’. This is still only a theory and you still have the problem of what happened before the ‘big-bang’ or how can a universe explode out of nothing? Not all scientists agree with the big-bang theory anyway. But even if it is true this may be the way the Great Mother gave birth to the physical universe.

Though it is interesting that when science began to make its mark in the 17th century and some people stopped worshipping male gods. Society since then has changed for the better and has become more equal allowing women to become more empowered. This suggests that not worshipping any male god is better for us all. Though worshipping a female deity will be even better.

When a woman worships a female deity she is worshipping herself. So the practice of doing this will of course give her far more confidence and self-esteem. But a female deity has a big advantage over any male deity because we know that She will gives us all, her children, unconditional love.

Jesus in the New Testament attempted to promote the idea of a loving Father God but somehow it never really caught on. Many Christians still prefer the judgmental and punitive god of the Old Testament.

In Pre-Christian times we use to have Goddesses of love like Aphrodite and Venus and this makes sense because women are naturally loving and nurturing people. In much the same way it is natural to have a male god of war.

Aphrodite

 The psychological difference in this is immense. It is terrible when people believe they were created by a judgemental and punitive male god. It is no-wonder Christians once called themselves, “god-fearing people”. Because they were taught that when they die they would suffer, hell-fire and damnation for an eternity if they weren’t ‘good’. Negative beliefs like this were a great benefit for the priests, as they could frighten the people into submission, but dreadful for anyone who believed them.

So clearly it must have been a big relief to many people when they were told by scientists there is no god. But it would be even better to know that our creator is female and loves us all unconditionally. The problem with this, is as atheist we tell us, if we were created by a loving deity then why are we living in a world of suffering? This is why they claim that we weren’t created by a god.

So if we follow this logic through, we either didn’t have a creator and so we all were created by accident. Or we were created by a very imperfect god who doesn’t really care about us because he has made no attempt to solve the problem of suffering.

Yet the argument whether there is a god or no-god doesn’t solve the problem for why there is suffering in the world in the first place. Even if we accept that life and the universe was created by chance. It doesn’t answer the problem; why do people have to suffer? If we live in a meaningless and pointless world, as claimed by atheists, why should anything we do matter? Why should we care if we live or die? If our lives are the only life we have, then what makes us want to continue to live in a world of suffering?

So if there is no supreme creator and that the only intelligent life in the universe is human beings, what is the point of it all? It would make some sense if we all were living happy and fulfilled lives. Yet it seems most of us claim that we don’t live happy lives. So if the gift of life only makes us miserable then where does that leave us? Logically, if we don’t live happy lives then the best thing we can all do is to commit suicide. Because what is the point of living a life if you are not happy?

Other people ask the question if there is a loving God why doesn’t he take out all the bad guys and leave the rest of us in peace. So why doesn’t God put the world to right and create a perfect world? The problem with this is that a perfect world might be boring.

A lot of us would deny this, but we give ourselves away by what we think is ‘entertainment’ in books or films. If an author wrote a story about intelligent and sensible people who lived lives of love and harmony, very few people will want to read it. On the other hand write a story about a sadistic serial killer and it can become a best-seller.

As Shakespeare said, “All the world’s a stage, And all the men and women merely players; They have their exits and their entrances.”

The world is nothing more than a drama factory. We come to this planet to experience the drama of life. Unfortunately, we can get so caught up in it, that we can be locked into a life of fear and suffering.

The masculine does give us all the drama we want, as it creates conflict and violence. But left unchecked it also gives us war, genocide and grinding poverty. Also, with modern technology men are in danger of destroying our world.

This is why we need the feminine to dominate and control the masculine. Yes we want to experience the drama of life and yes even experience suffering but not unrelenting misery and suffering. The more men dominate our world the worse it is going to get. We need the contrast of love and harmony with the drama of masculine conflict.

Men like to play sports like boxing, rugby, ice-hockey and gridiron where they can badly injure each other. But when the match is finished, the players shake hands and go on to live normal lives. So they experienced real pain and suffering while the match is being played, but it doesn’t last very long.

This is what we want, to control the dramas we created so it doesn’t get so bad we become depressed and want to commit suicide. Women are the ones who can do this, providing they are the dominant sex. Women of course have different drama as we see in romantic fiction and the drama of giving birth and bring up children.

I believe many people over the ages have asked these same questions and perhaps from these questions, religions were created. Within all religions there is a mystic tradition so what does mysticism say about the problem of suffering? Unlike the religions these mystic traditions seem to agree on one thing: All is One.

If all is One, then we can see a big problem with this: Because somehow this is not what we experience in real life. We all live in different bodies and are somehow dissimilar from each other physically, mentally and emotionally. It is these differences that seem to cause great conflict. The mystics answer this by saying that our separation from each other is an illusion. We only think we are separate but in reality we are all one. They go even further than this; and say that we are God. We are not separate from God as the whole of life and the universe is one mind, one spirit.

This creates another problem: How are we able to be separate and yet be at One at the same time? If we are all one; then why do we have an illusion that we are separate? This is where mysticism becomes very difficult for many people.

If all of life and the universe is One then how does the One know itself? To put it another way: If you were the only creature living on a desert island; what would you do with yourself? Even if you had a well made home and found food easy to find, most people would find life difficult without a companion of some kind. In modern prisons one of the hardest punishments they can give prisoner is to send them into solitary confinement.

This is true of human beings but is this true for the One? The answer is that this must be true because why have we come to this world to live in a world of separation? What we can be sure of is that a person living on their own, without any interaction with others, will stagnate. The same may be true of the One. Because even with our limited understanding it becomes obvious to us that if we had perfection, like in the Buddhist concept of Nirvana, we would also stagnation. Because once there is perfection there is no movement because, how can you go beyond perfection?

So we have here a paradox: We once lived in a state of oneness and perfection. Yet we deliberately divided ourselves up to live in a world of separation, and from this separation has come suffering. If this is true then we have a stark choice. We can live in oneness and perfection but we also will live in a world where nothing much is happening. Or we can live in a world of separation and relationships but from this comes suffering.

Yet if God is the sum total of all intelligent life in the universe then perhaps there is a way around this. This is for us to be One but live in the illusion of separation. But then we need a way to live together as individuals without conflict and suffering. This is probably why we have two sexes, the female sex retains its contact with the One and the male sex goes off to explore the world of separation. Unfortunately, this only works while the female is the dominant sex and so can restrain and control the male.

So to ensure that women are the dominant sex, men were created with a desire to worship and obey women. So why is that not happening? The answer is that men were also given a brain and some smart men found ways to exploit men’s instinct for obedience, as well as women’s complacency, for their own ends.

When women in the past had men totally under their control but they became careless. Men would always obey them and so they assumed that men would always do that. This complacency was then utilized by ambitious men to gain power for themselves.

It was easy for these men to talk to women about fairness and telling women they should have equal rights and so they should worship both male and female deities. Women went along with this because they didn’t see any danger in doing this.

Ancient history showed that the Great Mother then had a son whom the people worshipped. Then the son later became the brother or lover of the Great Mother. Then later on they got married and male god took over the supreme position and then finally female deities were suppressed completely and we now only worship male gods.

The same thing happened with the priesthood. At first there were only holy women who promoted the worship of the Great Mother. Then there came priests and priestesses who worshipped both gods and goddesses. It seems the early priests dressed up as women and even castrated themselves to be like women. Then the priests began to take over the dominant role until finally all priestesses were banned.

The clever thing these early priests did is that by dressing up women they were able to make men obey them. Then they exploited this obedience to indoctrinate men into obeying them and denigrated women so men lost respect for them.

Once men were convinced by the male priests to no longer respect or obey women then women lost their power and the priests took control. This didn’t happen overnight as women did fight back and tried to return things to what they once were but the priests encouraged men to use violence on women, who had no answer to this.

What is very clear from all this, is that when we worship the feminine and allow women to rule our world we return to love, harmony, joy but stagnation. When we worship the masculine and allow men to rule our world we then experience conflict, suffering and chaos but it gives us relationships and movement.

So how can the masculine and feminine work together for the good of us all? It can only work with women in charge but also allowing men to be men and not try to turn them into women.

It is like playing a sporting game. If the idea of the game is to put a ball into a goal each side of the pitch. But if there were no rules or referee, the game would just become a brawl and men would injure and even kill each other. So we had to make rules and have a referee to enforce the rules then a game can be played without the opposing teams badly injuring each other.

This has been the problem with the whole patriarchal age. Men have ruled our world without a referee or set of rules and the result has been a shambles where millions of people have been killed or injured and we have widespread poverty and suffering. Also, with modern technology we are in danger of destroying ourselves.

The obvious solution is for women to rule the world. Women are far less likely to want to want to star wars, commit genocide or create poverty. Providing that these women act and behave like caring women and do not learn from men, to be selfish rulers.

Femdom Christianity: Chapter Eight

The Feminine One

In our patriarchal world we are told, love in a weakness. But love is the strongest force in the universe because it is the power of the One. But the love of the One is total unconditional l love, She loves everyone and everything. Likewise for us to tune this omnipresent love we will have the same love for ourselves, as our love for everyone else. As Jesus said in the Bible.

“You shall love your neighbour as yourself. There is no other commandment greater than these.” Mark 12:31.

Jesus also said, “God is One and there is no other but Him.” Mark 12:32.

But a male God cannot be the One, the One is feminine by nature and this was the problem Jesus had in preaching in a patriarchal society where a female god would be unacceptable.

So how do we access this power? We do it through the power of our desires and total faith in the power of the feminine One.

Because the One is feminine She loves us all and wants to give us everything we desire. So when we desire anything She will grant it to us. But if that is correct why aren’t we then getting everything we want?

We can only access the power of the One by not interfering with what She is attempting to give us. She has given us all the power of freewill and she will never interfere with our freewill when we use it but we use it all the time by every thought we think.

So it means that once we have a desire for anything we have to allow the One to grant it to us, without interference. Unfortunately, this is what we do all the time, because we do not know about power of the Great Mother.

Let us say we cannot pay our rent, so we have a powerful desire to have the money to do this. The One will then use Her limitless power give this to us. But with that desire comes all our thoughts about how we can obtain this money. So we might think about getting another job or winning the lottery or we might give up in despair and prepare ourselves to be homeless. All these thoughts block off the power of the One because She cannot override our freewill which is expressed through every though all our thoughts.

So for us to use the power of the One, we have to use ONLY Her power and not interfere with it.

So if we have any desire then we have to acknowledge we have it but only focus on that desire and nothing else. Once we start to look for ways to achieve our desires in the material world, then we assert our freewill and take control. Then the One backs off because She will never interfere, once we do this.

So the power of the One is totally feminine She will never aggressively assert Herself and override our freewill. But because She is the One, Her power is unlimited, omnipresent and omnipotent, and so She has the power of miracles. This means we have to allow Her to use her unlimited power and not interfere with our puny limited power.

Now this is spoken about in many patriarchal religions but they call it the power of faith. So they claim that if you have faith and believe it enough, God will grant it to you. Unfortunately, this is a bit difficult if you believe God is a judgmental and punitive male.

If you believe God will judge and punish you for your ‘sins’ and then told that we are all sinners, then it is tough to try and imagine he will grant you whatever you want. This is why worshipping male gods make in hard to believe in god’s love or even that he is on your side.

Whereas we see god as the feminine One who loves us all unconditionally then there is no problem with this. This is why when people worshipped the Great Mother then it was easy from them to access the feminine One and have whatever they wanted.

A big problem for most people is that masculine power and feminine power are totally different. This is the problem the femdom people have, they yearn for women to rule our world but they only know about masculine power. So they assume that women have to be like men and use aggression, violence, intimidation and deception to gain power.

Feminists also make the same mistake and again believe that women have to use masculine methods in which to empower themselves. Not realizing that feminine power is totally different to masculine power. Basically feminine power is spiritual power and can only be accessed through love and harmony which will tune women to the all-powerful One.

Another way patriarchal religions attempt to access the One is through meditation and this does work because it turns off our everyday thinking. But meditation can be made far more powerful when we think about the universal love and harmony of the feminine One.

Even if you are not into faith, mediation or prayer to any deity, we can get what we want, by only focusing on our desires and nothing else. Trying to think of ways to get something we want, that we think is impossible, is a sure way to get us into a negative frame of mind. So in theory just focusing on what we want, only, will make it more likely we can manifest it. But this would be a lot easer if we had faith that a loving deity will give it to us.

This is why women are far more powerful than men, if they tune into the power of the One as love and Oneness are the same thing. Men find it harder to access the One as the masculine is rooted in the material world of separation and conflict.

Femdom Christianity: Chapter Nine

Conclusion

The teachings of Jesus created one of the largest religions in the world but he is totally different to most normal men. Some Christians find him an embarrassment because he was so, “meek and mild” with paradoxical teachings like, “the meek shall inherit the Earth”.

The problem about Jesus is that although he founded a patriarchal religion his teachings were mostly feminine. This is in total contrast of the macho teachings of the Old Testament.

One of the unique features of Jesus is his healing, which you don’t get in any other religion that has survived to the present day. Many people assumed that he was able to heal because he was, ‘the son of God’ but he made no such claims.

When he healed people he said to them, “your faith has healed you”. So he gave the credit to the person he healed and not himself. So why was this? This is because the feminine One has given us all the gift of freewill. So Jesus could never heal a person against their freewill.

Now, this might seem a paradox because surely all ill people want to be healed and this is true. But you need faith to be ill in the same way you need faith to be healed. Any person who is ill and has a strong belief they can never be cured and will stay ill because of that belief. So a healer like Jesus has to undermine this belief in illness, before the ill person can be healed.

Modern doctors know about this because modern scientific medicine has a real problem with what they call, “the placebo effect.” It is known that dummy pills with no medicine in them can heal people. Sometimes in scientific trials placebo pills do a better job in healing people than real medicine. So dummy pills can heal because they can give a person hope they can be healed and sometimes this is enough to start the healing process.

This then demonstrates the power of the power of the Feminine One. She is always there to give us healing but we can block Her off through our freewill which we express through our beliefs. But something like a placebo pill can undermine our belief in our illness and allow the Feminine One to give us what we want.

Beliefs are no more than a thought we kept on thinking. So our habitual thoughts will always override any thoughts we think for a short time. This is why in many positive thinking books they recommend affirmations. As repeating the same thought over and over again can create a new habitual thought that can turn into a belief.

But Jesus taught more than just faith and belief, he also taught love, compassion and forgiveness. It was through this he was able to tune into the Feminine One. The more we can bring love and harmony to our thoughts the easier it is to do this.

So we can see that his teachings are the exact opposite to the patriarchal world he lived in. Yet it was through his ability have unconditional love for everyone and everything, he was able to perform miracles.

As we all know, Jesus died on the cross and in this he followed a tradition of sacrificial/saviour gods like Osiris, Orpheus, Dionysus, Bacchus, Mithras, Odin, Bader and Loki. All of them were either killed or sacrificed themselves, to save mankind.

Bacchus and Ariadne (oil painting by Titian)

Now this could makes sense, because the human race would be far better off if men sacrificed themselves to women and allowed them to rule the world. But the Christian Church had another interpretation that that was Jesus sacrificed himself to appease an angry Father God. This is in spite of Jesus teaching that the Father God was a god of love.

A male god may demand sacrifice but the loving feminine deity would never demand this. So it is of interest that in some of the Gnostic Bibles Jesus talks about Sophia, the ancient Jewish Goddess of wisdom whom he calls in the Gnotic Bible “Sophia of Jesus Christ”, the Mother of the Universe.

So what is the sacrifice of the saviour gods, including Jesus, all about? It is about the salvation of men. The masculine can only survive if it surrenders to the feminine.

As mentioned before left to its own devices the masculine will end up destroying itself so it can only save itself by returning to the feminine One and surrendering to Her. Many men instinctively realise this and try to do this, but this is difficult for men living in a patriarchal society.

We see this in the femdom scene where men surrender to women only as a symbolic surrender in fantasy play. So he will worship a dominatrix and pay her to whip him but still retain control of what is happening by ‘topping from the bottom’.

So it is obvious these men are only ‘dipping their toes in the water’ and are afraid to surrender to women completely and perhaps for a very good reason. Any man of reasonable intelligence knows that men have been extremely cruel to women for thousands of years and still treat them badly. So men knowing this would fear women’s vengeance.

There are a lot of women who are very angry with men and will be cruel to any man who surrenders to her. So this becomes a barrier for many men unless they are extremely masochistic.

This was probably even worse in the time of Jesus where women suffering under extreme patriarchal societies and so would be very angry with men. This was seen nearly two thousand years later when the British invaded Afghanistan in the 19th century, as mentioned in a poem by Rudyard Kipling called “The Young British Soldier”.

When you’re wounded and left on Afghanistan’s plains,

And the women come out to cut up what remains,

Jest roll to your rifle and blow out your brains

An’ go to your Gawd like a soldier.

It seems that Afghanistan women then would torture to death any wounded British soldier they found. This is the exact opposite to normal female behaviour who would normally want to care for anyone they found wounded. This shows how much these women had learnt to hated men and so had their vengeance on any helpless men they found.

More than this, any man who attempted to surrender to women would be mocked and condemned by other men. Even in recent times a men who worship women are ridiculed for being a wimps and are told they are not ‘real man’. In the Islamic world it is even worse because if a woman disobeys a man he is then ‘dishonoured’ and has to beat her up or even murder her to regain his ‘honour’. So a man dare not worship any women for this reason. (Though there is Femdom in Islamic countries but obviously it is kept secret).

So for men to surrender to women has been a big deal throughout the patriarchal age. So the whole drama of Jesus being betrayed, condemned, ridiculed, tortured, whipped and finally crucified would be the fate of any man who attempted to surrender to women in a strict patriarchal society.

Yet in spite of all these barriers, many men have over the centuries, surrendered to women, showing how powerful is men’s desires to do this. This has resulted in patriarchy being slowly undermined throughout the Western world in the last few centuries.

The first book published on Femdom was called,”Venus In Furs” by Leopold von Sacher-Masoch in the 19th century. He could get away with writing about this subject, at that time because he was a wealthy nobleman. This allowed other people to write on the same subject in the 20th century.

It is of interest that this has happened mostly in Christian countries so perhaps the teachings of Jesus and the drama of his sacrifice of has had an effect on men.

Learning sacrificial love is beneficial to men because it is similar to maternal love that women express when they have children. For this reason women don’t have to learn about sacrificial love but need to learn more about how to love themselves.

Sacrificial love seems to demand that we love others by neglecting or even hating ourselves. So in its extreme form it becomes masochistic love when a person feels they have to put the needs of others before themselves. So it may seem they hate themselves.

Unfortunately many people learn to love themselves by hating others. But if some people love others must they neglect or even hate yourself? Is it possible to love ourselves and everyone else at the same time?

Patriarchal religions have encouraged women to be sacrificial and women have gone along with this because it is similar to maternal love. As the result many women have felt guilty about demanding anything for themselves.

Yet a mother that is too sacrificial cannot care for her children properly. This is because by becoming too sacrificial and putting the needs of others before herself a woman can become powerless. This then means a powerless woman cannot protect her children.

So the best way a mother can protect her children is to love herself and have a man she can control and dominate. More than that, women as a whole are better able to protect their children if the country they live in is ruled by women. As a matriarchal government will put the needs of children before anything else.

So it mean it is possible for us to live in a loving and caring world if we allow women to take control of our governments and religions.

Femdom Christianity: Summing up and References

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 Summing Up
Jesus is seen as ‘meek and mild’ and taught to, “turn the other cheek”. For this reason, if every man followed the teachings of Jesus it would be a world without conflict, fear and hatred.
Patriarchy teaches men to, “stand up for themselves,” and be aggressive, competitive and even violent. This is why we live in a world of endless conflict, war and hatred.

Femdom men are stigmatized for being meek for allowing women to dominate them. Yet, if all men were like this, we would live in a far more caring and loving world.
Both Femdom men and women are scorned for being masochistic. Yet surely masochism is just another name for unconditional love?

Soldiers are considered to be extremely macho men. Yet soldiers are so obedient they will obey orders, that will result in their deaths. This suggests these macho soldiers are extremely passive and even masochistic, when obeying these orders.

The power of patriarchy comes from the fact that men will blindly obey anyone in authority over them. This is why it is possible for a small wealthy 1% to be extremely rich and powerful, while the vast majority of men are poor and powerless.

The feminine can unite through unconditional love. The masculine is not loving and can only unite under the rule of a forceful leader. So patriarchy happens when men rule other men, while matriarchy happens when women rule men.

Patriarchy rule through force, control, intimidation, violence, deception and indoctrination. Matriarchy will rule through love, compassion and nurturing.

The sacrifice of, Jesus on the cross, is a popular drama because men see themselves in his very passive behaviour. While women see a man whom they would love to live with.

Femininity is all about maternal and nurturing love, so a world rule by women will be a loving and caring world.
Masculinity is all about aggression, competition, conflict, violence and war. This is why a world ruled by men is in constant discord and chaos.

Mystics tell us that God is One mind, One spirit. Oneness comes from unconditional love which is what mothers give to their children. For this reason, God is Female.

God is One mind, One spirit and so can never be male because masculinity is all about competition, aggression, conflict, violence and chaos. So Oneness can never be achieved by a male god.

Patriarchy tells us that loving people like women are weak. Yet love is the strongest power in the universe because unconditioned love creates Oneness and the One is all powerful, omnipresent and omnipotent.

The Sisterhood is powerful, but the Sisterhood can only be powerful when women love each other in the same way they love children, animals and men.

The feminine takes us towards love, harmony and Oneness. The masculine takes us towards, individuality, separation, loneliness, fear, conflict, hatred, violence, suffering, chaos and destruction.

The human race lost its contact with the Infinite One, when it worshipped male gods because the masculine can never be One mind, One spirit. So we can regain our contact with the Infinite One when we once again worship loving female gods who are the embodiment of Oneness.

When a man worships a loving woman, he is worshipping the Infinite One as loving women are the embodiment of One in this world.

When a woman allows herself to communicate with the Feminine One through prayer or meditation. She becomes in-tune with the most powerful force in the Universe.

The Feminine One loves us all unconditionally, without exception. As Jesus said, “for (S)he maketh the sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth the rain on the just and on the unjust.” Matthew 5:45.

The masculine is not completely useless, because it brings about change, contrast, evolution and drama to our world. But a world ruled by masculine men will eventually destroy itself. This is why the masculine has to be controlled and ruled by the feminine, to prevent this happening.

The feminine likes loving sex because it takes the couple back into Oneness. The masculine likes mechanical sex based of force, intimation, bribery, humiliation, dominance and submission to try and prevent the feelings of Oneness.

The masculine wants and needs love, but only love it can control. But love is uncontrollable and takes us back to the Feminine One. 

 

Hindu Goddess Kali

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Davis, Elizabeth Gould – The First Sex
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Bulfinch, Thomas – Myths Of Greece And Rome
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PERMANENT LOVERS

 

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LOVERS WILL BE TOGETHER PERMANENTLY

 

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          Interpreted for a friend

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                     The beginning is there’s a lot of turmoil in a community group – there’s like a ‘big man leader’ off to the right, in the middle a group of ‘boys’ or ‘young men.’

 

          I am here in the middle, doing this & that, like on the media, speaking. There’s a TV or radio show. This man I didn’t think was promoting me, I see his show in retrospect, & he did promote me, so much later I thank him for it. There’s something pitiful about this man, he has a good heart but he’s struggling or something.  

 

          There’s this guy I love who is in front in a sort of restaurant area with small booths—he has the young guys all around him, he’s one of them.

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          One day after a while he’s in a booth, & he & I have been through a lot, & I think it’s time for me to SIT DOWN & TALK TO HIM. I think he’s READY. So I go sit down in the little booth across from him ready for a good important CHAT.

 

          *(CHAT IN BOOTH: This is when Frank was running like a kid with all the guys – totally immature – while we were dating & I wanted to pin him down to a relationship.

         IN A BOOTH: This is like being ‘fenced in’, a limited space, closed in to some degree, a symbol for a RELATIONSHIP.)*

 

          He FLIES OFF like a wild animal, totally scared or spooked out, with all the boys around him flying with him. They’re all dependent on each other – like a HERD, & where one goes, they all go. They can’t be or think independently, all dependent on the herd.

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          *(FLIES OFF LIKE WILD ANIMAL with the other guys:  Herd mentality is powerful.)*

 

          Later I hide behind a staircase where he will re-emerge, I hope to ambush him to see what is he doing & have a discussion.

 

          *(BEHIND A STAIRCASE, AMBUSH: Long wait for him to come down from his ‘Ivory Tower’ {implied, he is high up, I could say Ivory Tower although it is not shown} but it doesn’t happen for years.

 

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IVORY TOWER: a place or situation remote from worldly or practical affairs — an attitude of aloofness from or disdain or disregard for worldly or practical affairs.       

 

          AMBUSH, HIDE BEHIND STAIRS TO CHECK ON HIM: Me leaving him, hiding from him, but still interested. Still, the relationship doesn’t happen, it doesn’t work.)*

         

Somehow this should work but it doesn’t.

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          Years go by. During that time of turmoil, this guy was with a female who he said was chasing him that he wanted to avoid—he acted like he didn’t like or love her, like she wasn’t important to him.

 

          *(FEMALE NOT IMPORTANT TO HIM CHASING HIM: This is me – he wanted to give people the impression he wasn’t interested in me, that it was only I interested in him – but of course that was only the outside impression, he was equally interested in me, he just didn’t want a commitment—a marriage. He wanted to remain a child.

 

YEARS GO BY: Years have gone by & I don’t know how much more time remains before our relationship starts.)*

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          Now I see him unexpectedly & I see her face to the left back of me & his face to the right front of me by the corner of is it a brick building? It seems like five or more years after the fiasco.

 

          Their faces are like none I have ever seen before. Each one is encased in cement – their faces come out of the cement, made of cement, surrounded by a rectangle square horizontally, with decorations of sorts around their faces. It’s mostly grey but there are bits & pieces of color here & there.

 

          *(FACES ENCASED IN HORIZONTALLY RECTANGULAR CEMENT: It is ‘set in stone’ that we get back together.

 

          CORNER BRICK BUILDING: Solid brick – also represents the relationship, as we are there. We were ‘crucified’ {the corner} but it stands strong.

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          ‘Sense-image material’ is yesterday I saw a homestead family in the middle of a beautiful dry wilderness. A teenage boy in the family wanted pizza & he & an older brother decide to create a PIZZA OVEN {outside} – which they do with rocks & CEMENT—the boy exclaims the cement looks like dough. They build the oven, the boy kneads the dough, covers it with tomato sauce & shredded cheese, they cook it & the whole family eats it. I was impressed by the ingenuity.

 

Here the cement that glued together the oven is seen as being mortar / glue to create a relationship – the boy who ran from me like a wild animal with his herd, to the boy who is now united to me in a rock solid relationship.

 

HORIZONTAL: This is to show me that this is of the earth, not merely spiritual, as we have the spiritual marriage already as of 2019. )*

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          To me it’s totally disappointing that he ended up with her – this cement like says ‘made in stone’ even though they did not get along, he was running from her, but here they are – the same two, so PREDICTABLE – them being together. I find their pairing up to be just so prosaic, so ordinary, all the problems & disclaimers to the contrary – they started out together having problems but ended up together as an ordinary couple, a predictable pairing.

 

          *(ORDINARY, PROSAIC, PREDICTABLE: Why these words to something I suffered so much for, prayed so hard for & desired totally? I ask of Mother God:

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         She: Because you are so over it, having been through all that. Your emotions have been spent, drained, your mind plateau-d out, you’ve been through so much you simply cannot take any more.

 

          It could be the emotionally desired now becomes the commonplace & ordinary, & could be ‘taken for granted’ – which would be a sigh of relief from all the previous pain.

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CORONA CONSPIRACY Pt 3

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CORONA CONSPIRACY PT 3

 

          PEOPLE DYING OF REGULAR ILLNESSES FROM LACK OF CARE IN HOSPITALS & NURSING HOMES…….CORONA IS A SCAM. THEY CREATED IT, THEY SPREAD IT, THEY CAUSED CHAOS, MISINFORMATION & DEATHS.

THIS IS THE BIGGEST TREASURY THEFT SINCE 9/11 & THE BANK BAILOUTS. THEY ARE TESTING THE PEOPLE TO SEE HOW MUCH DAMAGE THEY CAN DO TO US & GET AWAY WITH IT – A LOT. THE PEOPLE KNOW NOTHING EXCEPT THOSE WHO CHECK ALTERNATIVE MEDIA. THE PEOPLE OF THE WORLD ARE GETTING SCAMMED, ROBBED & MURDERED BY THE OBSCENELY RICH, SCHEMING, DEMONIC ELITISTS, SHADOW GOVT, FILTHY RICH BANKSTERS, GANGSTERS, CRIMINALS, DEMONICS, EVIL DOERS—THIS IS PATRIARCHY.

WE HAVE BEEN WORKING FOR MATRIARCHY ALL OUR LIVES, IT IS THE ONLY SYSTEM THAT WILL SAVE US.

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          The following article is written by an anonymous man.

 

 

Quiet Hospitals I encourage you to view some of the following links, where you will witness quiet hospitals, parked ambulances, empty corona virus tents and empty car parks – situations completely unrepresentative of a pandemic, despite all media reports to the contrary.

 

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Many of these are recorded on camera phones by regular people. Reports from Switzerland and Germany both show “less activity than normal times”, that staff “are still waiting for patients,” and have had “no increase in patient numbers.” Health Consequences OK, so it’s a planned event, everyone’s in on it, deaths are largely misrepresented, lockdown measures are useless, testing is unreliable, reports are false, and there is no dramatic emergency situation, but at least we’re not putting anyone at risk, right? Wrong.

 

While hospitals are preparing for large numbers of Covid-19 cases, other services are cut back – such as operations. In Romania a Hospital has closed and medical staff placed into quarantine, thus depriving critically ill people of the care they need. The number of heart attack and stroke patients who receive emergency medical care worldwide is declining, for fear of leaving the house or nursing home due to Covid-19 threat. “The number of Americans filing claims for unemployment benefits shot to a record high of more than 6 million last week as more jurisdictions enforced stay-at-home measures to curb the coronavirus pandemic.”

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One in five households in the US have had someone laid off, while those earning less than $50,000 had one in four. There is a large body of literature establishing a link between unemployment and suicide rates. More than 10,000 suicides were tied to the financial crisis of 2008, a dramatic increase on years prior. Researchers at University of Otago found unemployment was 14 associated with a two to threefold increased risk of suicide. A study from Taiwan found, “Unstable employment had a significant impact on suicide among people aged 25–34,” and, “Economic factors, especially decrease in GDP per capita, also turned out to be a good predictor of increased suicide rates.”

 

         Another found suicide rates decreased during economic boom, and increased in the elderly during a recession. A study from the US has found, “the quality and quantity of individuals’ social relationships has been linked not only to mental health but also to both morbidity and mortality.” “Indiana’s 211 hotline went from receiving roughly 1,000 calls a day regarding mental health – including suicidal ideation – to 25,000 calls a day. Calls to Indiana’s addiction hotlines went from an average of 20 a week to 20 a day.”

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         Nursing homes have been particularly affected. In some instances nursing staff are no longer able to visit. In Italy, some nurses have left the country in a hurry due to fearmongering, curfews and border closures, leaving the elderly, disabled, and those in need of care, helpless. Elderly have been found dead from abandonment in Spain. “In a German retirement and nursing home for people with advanced dementia, 15 test-positive people have died, without showing symptoms of corona.

 

A German medical specialist informs us, “From my medical point of view, there is some evidence that some of these people may have died as a result of the measures taken. People with dementia get into high stress when major changes are made to their everyday lives: isolation, no physical contact, possibly hooded staff.“ Nevertheless, they are counted as “corona deaths“ in German and international statistics. We are told the elderly are most at risk from Covid-19. Perhaps now we know why. The very measures designed to keep them safe may in fact only make things worse.

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         Conclusion It is clear an awful lot of misrepresentation is occurring in both reporting and governance of the situation, which needs to be condemned and acted against in the swiftest manner. If this paper has resonated with you, please give it the opportunity to resonate with others. Lest the whole world be locked inside indefinitely, our families existing but on a screen, lifestyles reduced to the home, and business in tatters, now is not the time for quiet. You can’t solve a problem until you know it exists, and the greater society currently has no idea. The first step of action is to spread the truth. That is action, and this is a great opportunity. Do not miss it. Do not be deterred. Freedom is a fundamental human right. Let’s help each other get it back. Like the greatest contagion, sharing this paper with your contacts will spread it faster than any virus. You may link to this address, or download the PDF and distribute freely.

 

For those with social media, use the following hashtags: #Covid19 #Coronavirus #Inittogether #Plandemic #Lockdown #Socialdistancing #Publichealth #Mentalhealth #Filmyourhospital

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         It’s probable you will be shot down in the comments by people trying to prevent the truth getting out, or those unable to see past the television reports. Ignore them. Their voice may be louder, but our numbers are greater, and if we speak up, it is our choir that will sing loudest. Miles: good data analysis there, proving this coronahoax is manufactured from the ground up. What I would like to see next from a guest writer is an analysis of the 15 financial side of this, looking closely at the Gates Foundation, Blackrock, the fake stimulus package, and huge loans being forced on all of us right now, via the Fed raising the debt ceiling by an awesome amount.

 

I think this is the biggest treasury theft in the history of the world, though that side of it is getting little attention. They are sending you a check for $1200 while picking your pocket for 50 times that. Or is it a hundred? Or is it five hundred? Only time will tell. About every ten years now they come back with an even more colossal scam. It started with 911, the greatest theft and scam of all time up to that point. Then we had the bailouts, which were an even bigger theft from the treasury. Since the American people did absolutely nothing about either theft, the thieves returned for a third time this year, and they will keep coming back until they are stopped. I guarantee you the next theft will be even larger. This is how it works. They will keep robbing you until there is literally nothing left to take. You won’t be left alone until you are living in a cave sucking on cold potatoes.

 

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