7-25-23 Charbel Brings me a Gift – Nick appears for mystical sex 7-23-23
On his feast day the 24th, St. Charbel did not appear to me in any way & I was disappointed. But I prayed to him the next day telling him even though I was unworthy, I know he blessed other people with healings, miracles & gifts, & I probably didn’t deserve anything as I ad not been watching any more documentaries on him, although I do pray to him daily. So I thanked him for all he did for others.
That night – last night, I had this dream. I believe this was Charbel. I have 7 mystical husbands right now & they at various times appear as my good husband Richard. So I cannot know for sure who they are until I examine the entire dream & other clues.
I go to a large apt where my husband Richard is waiting for me. Things are not in order & everyone is working to straighten out the large, airy, bright rooms. There are two women here besides me, one’s young & pretty, the other taller, more mature.
Richard & I greet each other & I feel the most intense & sweet love from him. In real life I looked upon him as a good brother & was never ‘in love’ with him & never had sex because I was celibate. But now I feel more romantic toward him.
After a while he is going out the door with the pretty young lady. I assume they’re going to have a meal, or else have sex. I have no right to tell him what to do so I don’t grieve about it.
But within one minute they are back. I see him, then her. So they didn’t do anything.
I look at this table here where things are strewn about & see a flat box, about 4”x4” & about an inch deep. I open it & see it’s filled with small wooden Egyptian carvings. I see the head of ‘Nefertiti’ represented 3 times, two are plain black, the third is painted in light colors just like the original head of hers wearing the Egyptian crown, & this one pops out of the box when I open it. There are other wooden thingies here too, all of which are neatly encased in a cardboard holder lining the box. Her head has a handle on the bottom so you can hold it, just like what I saw in the Martin Luther movie last night, where as a child he watched a marionette show & a man held a demon’s head by the handle & menaced Martin with it.
Then I see a nice piece of printed paper with colorful Egyptian drawings explaining the story of Nefertiti kind of ‘in the air’ & I find it fascinating & want to read it. I sense that Richard put this here for me to see. I intend to read it. It has a series of Egyptian images on top, in a row, going across this about 8” piece of paper, & it’s printed in a style that looks somewhat like ancient scripture, but not hand written, it’s modern printing. The background of the paper is dark, the letters are white.
I now go over to Richard – he’s wearing a white shirt, & ask him
“Have you eaten?”
I have a strong sense of caring about him.
I think he says no & suggests we eat together, but I say,
“I can’t eat until I straighten out this clutter.”
Meaning:
It seems this is St. Charbel. And he loves me deeply. The other two females, the tall one is someone important to him – probably Our Holy Mother who he was devoted to. The pretty young girl is my thinking that he’d ignored me because & got together with another female & it was not my business. But this shows I mustn’t be jealous, as he was with her only a minute & nothing big took place, no dinner or sex, which would be big spiritual bonuses. In other words, he doesn’t love another woman more than me, he’s spending a good deal of attention to me & a lot of love, & he brought me a Gift.
But I have no idea what this Gift means!
Nefertiti I just looked up. She was an Egyptian Queen who had great power, was even co-Pharoah & then maybe the Pharaoh when her husband died. The art shows her doing things only the Pharaoh does, like smiting the enemy.
She’s famous because of a statue done of her head. There’s also a NUDE statue of her!
She & her husband brought monotheism to Egypt with worship of the Sun God, Atem.
She’s described as “powerful, mysterious, independent, equal to her husband.”
What do the artifacts in the box tell me? There are 3 heads of Nefertiti. Two of them, charcoal black, stay in the box, the brightly painted one jumps out & it has a handle on the bottom, a stick to hold the head by. But what does this mean?
The only thing I can think of is that Charbel is providing me with a secret, that I am Nefertiti reincarnated. It’s hard to believe.
I was at a gypsy’s in Times Square, who told me
“You were a Queen in a previous lifetime. That’s why you are the way you are.”
I smiled in disbelief but she insisted.
The two heads in the box could be a hint – ‘Charcoal black’ – ‘Saint Charbel’ – it’s him.
It could also be what is long dead & gone, like generations gone by, people died, their remains ‘burned up’ like charcoal.
But one head jumps out at me – it’s Nefertiti with a HANDLE. What is that a clue to?
handle on:
1. A good physical hold on something. Make sure you’ve got a handle on your end of the couch before we try to lift it.
2. A newfound understanding of a topic or concept. Once I got a handle on how to operate the new system, I found that it made my job much easier.
Well, if I was Nefertiti then I should have a great deal of confidence in myself!
If it’s true, St. Charbel has given me a great gift of knowledge!
He has given me a HANDLE on my identity & character. Like Jesus was the reincarnation of a great Buddhist Guru – the Magi or Wise Men came to honor their previous Guru. It explains the character & teaching of Jesus – Christianity is exactly the same principles as Buddhism.
And my desires for Female Rule or authority would coincide with that of Nefertiti.
Nick visits me for love making 7-23-23
He appears as himself, very tall, elegant & thin. I shall keep the details to myself, it being personal.