College of God & Love, Core Tenets

How God Got Me Through Uncertainties

God Does a ‘Life Review’ Explaining how She Graced Me

I drove out to my property by the river & decided to see if there’s still a pond in the middle of my wilderness. The Beavers moved out about ten years ago, but there was a tiny pond last time I was there with a model & photographed him. It was only about 15 feet in diameter & not deep. This was maybe 2016. If there was still a pond there, it would be easier for me to walk there & recreate, as I could get within 300’ of it with my car, whereas the other pond I have to walk maybe a thousand feet to get there & the pain in my legs, hips & back is daunting. Also have to struggle with the 5’ tall grass that go about 100’ in front.

I parked on my ‘golf course’ facing the river {just a beautiful lawn, no golfing} – it was beautifully mowed by my neighbor who has a cottage there. He thankfully takes care of the private road & gate. Found the old path through huge bushes {some 15’ tall but large branches jutting out from the very base}, it’s impenetrable unless you crawl through, but there are two places one can manage & I had brought my branch loppers & a plastic stool to sit & rest on.

Each time I sat & rested I prayed & summoned my Gurus as well as Angels. Going through about 20’ feet of 5’ tall saw grass was not easy, I had to stop & rest within it. Then about 100’ of medium tall saw tooth grasses, where again I had to rest. It was here that I had a surprising answer from God.

I laid out to God my bitter worries & fears, which I had explained to my friends before. It’s about not having the beneficiaries or people to continue my work & receive my resources. It’s been consuming my mind & distracting me from the prayers.

And so my last statement was who will build my Order? The Temple, Convent & New Religion?

And God appeared to my mind in telepathy. She said – & this surprised me:

“You will build the Order.

You imagine yourself dropping dead any moment, & you want to get everything ready. But not so fast. Get that thought out of your mind. You’re not thinking right.

I will give you more money than you ever dreamed of. I will do it by my supernatural Power, just as I have taken care of you all your life. You do NOT have to go on bended knee seeking producers or directors or agents for your life story. I will intervene, I will do it by my Power, not your work. You’ve done enough work writing it.

You don’t need many years to start the Order, it can be done in five years.

You don’t have to have perfect health or physical ability to do this work. You will advertise & get helpers. And after it starts, you will get volunteers. You can’t figure out how it’ll be done. It will evolve, it will flow, it will be shown piece by piece when the time comes.

Most of what you will do will be internet. I can’t explain it all to you now, it has to evolve.

Let’s do a Life Review of how I have saved & graced you throughout your career.

Remember when you wanted to quit your dancing as it wasn’t giving you security? For a while you were as unsure & worried as you are now. But I took care of you.

I put into your hands the business of making glamour & fetish videos. It started small, just selling your pictures, & grew bigger & bigger.

You amassed a fortune within ten years, you made a million dollars & each year gave 10% to charity. With this business you proved yourself & have the magnificent property you have now.

{I was looking at the trees surrounding the huge field where my pond was, so beautiful. The hill to the left of the pond area is covered with trees 33 years old. It was a corn field, but I let it go to forest. The variety of the trees makes it scenic. There are some pines, Oak, Elm, willow, Birch, & many whose names I don’t know. It’s this variety that contrasts with the older forest past it in front of me & to the right, more beautiful than those. And beyond my property you can see a mountain, which is not mine, but adds to the décor tremendously. God gave me this through the business.}

Then the next step. You had taken the vow of celibacy. I had in mind for you a partner who would tolerate this & eventually become your husband without demanding sex. It was Richard Von Werder. I also gave you a best friend who you call Saint Esquire – they both helped you in many way. They made up for the unfairness of people in your past – your family & first husband, who denied you any kind of help, in fact, hurt you badly in all ways. These two men made up for all that. But if you had not been celibate, this would not have happened, you would not have given Richard a chance, you would be busy with other men, who were not worthy of you, who would continue to use you & give you nothing.

You did very well with your business for ten years, but when the internet appeared, it diminished. It was time for change. You had resisted marrying Richard for 16 years, but stayed best friends. You had to prove yourself, you did. And because you were dragging your heels on this, I tricked you into marrying him. I knew what was going to happen, that Richard didn’t have long to live & you would be left destitute as the business had now diminished, you were living on savings which were depleted.

As I said, you did not anticipate marrying Richard or him dying & leaving you a fortune as well as a good pension, but I had it planned out for your security & well being. Remember, it was my Grace that gave you the business & Richard. You figured out nothing, it happened because of me, your God.

Now once again, you are at a Crossroads. And you are troubled by what will happen & how. Looking back, as I reminded you, I had all things figured out, things you cannot understand. In the way I created your business & relationship with Richard, I will also do this. Your job is not to look at your problems or have doubts & fears, your job is to look at Me, God Almighty, with Faith, Hope, Trust & Confidence. You are a mere mortal, I have all the Power & I will use it to help you. That is all you have to know. The more you relate to me & think of Me, not your doubts & fears, the easier it will be for you.”

With God having said this, I trudged on, marveling at the beauty surrounding me.

The next trek was short grass; also saw tooth edges, about 100’. I counted my steps – could only go about 40 steps when I’d have to sit down, rest & pray for at least 5 minutes. What peace, what luxury, to own this property with perfect silence except for birds, a couple bullfrogs, the soft wind, the warm sun bathing me.

Finally got to the spot where the tiny pond was – no pond. Just the creek that runs through my entire property, coming out of a mountain, starting really rocky in my lower yard, ending up here & now a muddy creek, just maybe 5’ across in some places, a foot in others, only maybe 3” inches water & then mud. I didn’t dare step into it as I had to soon trek back, didn’t want to be covered in thick mud I couldn’t get off me. When it rains for days I imagine this creek gets full like it used to & water falls over a bank. The beavers had made it deep up to my chest in some areas. Why they left I don’t know, but one youngster moved into my other pond, where I anticipate going soon. It’ll be an ordeal, but I will manage.

At another pit stop God reminded me

“I don’t want you to work promoting your life story, trying to get someone to produce it. Let them come to you. They will push you around, humiliate you if you go on bended knee to them. I don’t want you suffering any more. You’ve had enough of that. Trust me on this.”

OK I trekked back. Did not hit the spot where my path was, was way off, ending at an impenetrable spot. But there were ripe black berries, I ate about 50 of them, then found my spot & what a relief to get back to the car! It took me a full hour to walk through this field, a full hour to walk back, counting my rest spots, for just 300’ or so of space!

But God spoke to me & the beauty was magnificent, it was worth it & I’m proud of myself.

Another thing God said to me telepathically:

“You cannot figure out how to build this Church & typing your brain into knots how to do it. Leave it to me. Didn’t I lead & guide you at the times you didn’t know how to do something? Did I not lead you step by step?

Like finding your house. You prayed for six months every day before you even ventured out, with Richard driving, to find a house. I instructed you what to look for – where to go. I told you to keep driving until you found a place with at least 15 acres – no less – that you could afford. You started looking in Woodstock, which is near the city, & it was too expensive. The Real Estate people told you not to go past Sullivan County, as they thought it was too low class.

But I encouraged you with the idea of getting more land. And on only the second time you ventured out, a listing was put into your hands. You were not going to go the next time, but I showed you the listing, a certain house, & I told you,

‘I have a house for one of my deserving poor. Go! You will be rich.’

You called the realtor – said you were interested but it said the house was with a few acres, but you wanted more land. The realtor said you could have it with 50 acres – he had divided it to sell in three parts, but you could have it all.

And when you went it was the most perfect paradise you ever dreamed of! And 25 years later, they found there was gas & oil under your property, the Marcellus Shale, & if you had listened to the realtors you would not have got it, but you listened to me!

Then, when you started your website, I had been whispering the name to you for over a year,’

‘Woman, Thou Art God’,

but you did not know what this title was for nor how to build your website, Church on the internet. You tried this idea, that idea, finally it came to rest, it is the University of Mother God Church & you would prove what you believe in through research.

It made a sensation & many people in the world saw it & were impressed. It got a million hits a year the first few years.

In 2004, few people were writing about Matriarchy or Female Supremacy, but this site started a trend, then many people got interested in these themes & created websites, blogs & Face Books about the subjects. You tube had almost nothing about Matriarchy, & after you, many videos were made. At that time you had about 250 videos there, mostly Matriarchy, Female Empowerment, – that was 2008. And many followed your lead.

And now you are querulous, how to build this Church. You are BAFFLED. So recall the items I just said, how I led you step by step. When you put your foot to the path, one step will lead to another & another, & soon, you will have a project that resembles a Church. You’ve created many parts, it will fall together. It won’t take as long as you think. By the time you die, it will all be together, logically & righteously. You’ll have the doctrine, theology, ideas, all put into one place, cohesive, integrated.

Keep your eyes on Me, not your fears & confusion. Just keep thinking of God & by my Grace, you will win. I have the answers, let me work. You just listen & obey.”

More thoughts from God on the subject:

“If you could figure out how to build a business from nothing – with the help of my Grace, & earn a million dollars in ten years – a difficult business you had never done before, you can figure how to build a Church.

Never in your life had you produced videos from original scripts, you did not know how to operate a video camera, video machines, lighting – make copies. You did original things, learned new stuff that seemed impossible at first, but you learned it. You figured out domination & fetishes, what domination was, how to do it, where to advertise, how to build up a mail-order list. Other women tried it – you knew them. They made no money, but the money you made was a miracle. Yes, you did a miracle listening to God.

And so it will be with the Church. You will start working on it & it will blossom as you go along. Stop worrying. The people you need to carry on after you die will come to you.”

College of God & Love, Core Tenets

St. Charbel Marries Me!

St Charbel marries me!

This made me querulous & I’ve been thinking about it for two days & finally decided Richard, my late husband, does represent St. Charbel & now I will attempt to analyze the symbols.

I am in my house & things are going real well because previously there had been things askew & cluttered, but because of Richard {he always represents someone who loves me in true love} having done something – not sure what – it’s all improved.

This house is different, however, than any house I’ve lived in. I have a super large kitchen, painted white, & in it there’s a large screen computer & that computer is pivotal to what’s happening here. I also see the living room next to the kitchen.

Richard is arriving & he’s very happy. He’s bought a new Ferrari, an extremely expensive car, & he always liked cars & you might say obsessed with them. I see a beautiful blue Ferrari. And yet, when he arrives, what I see literally is a light grey plastic oval tub he is in. He drives into my house & parks in the living room, beaming with joy.

Meaning: You’ve been praying to St. Charbel & looking at movies & documentaries on him. You’ve accepted him into your heart with love, & he has consented to unite with you, which makes him one more spiritual husband.

Me: Looks like I am collecting a harem of great Saints as spiritual husbands. Can you review what this means?

Mother God: This is when two souls are united in a Sacrament which on earth is called ‘marriage.’ Both parties consent to love one another in true love, for all time, to be united.

It seems to be happening more & more at a rate I never had before. Is it because I have evolved so much that these great Saints are willing to unite with me?

MG: Yes, your love has improved & increased. And it seems that St. Charbel is answering your prayers for help but in different ways than you asked for. This is the improvement of ‘your house.’ Your house is your consciousness.

The kitchen is the hub of a house, it’s where food/nourishment is made. Painted white is purity – ‘the pure in heart shall see God’ – chastity can also be defined as purity of heart rather than being sexless.

Now instead of physical food you are communicating with Charbel through the computer, by looking at materials on him. Then you connect with him.

And because you’re connecting with him he’s reaching you with his expensive vehicle but it’s a spiritual vehicle, it’s his mind or soul.

His very expensive vehicle is his mind/soul which he paid a dear price for – it looks like he prayed for the engraving of Christ’s wounds on his heart, which is Interior Divine Stigmata, as you have. That means martyrdom. The price for this spiritual power is great. Blue Ferrari, bue vehicle, is the ‘blue person’ as described in yoga, the Higher Self.

And when he arrives, the light grey plastic plus his joy again means mental contact. He is extremely happy to be united with you. Grey is ‘grey matter’ or the mind/brain symbol.

Me: Wow, am I lucky! Great things are happening to me, all because I pulled myself together to try to be with God, praying several hours a day for the entire world & Purgatory. Wonderful results! My new Gurus said

‘You are praying for the entire world every day so we are helping you!’

Amen & glory to God!

College of God & Love, Core Tenets

St Charbel Appears

St. Charbel Appears

This is a big deal: St. Charbel has more documented healings/miracles than any person besides Our Holy Mother – 69k of them!

So I figured if he’s on a healing kick, let me get in on it. I have many maladies: eye floaters, eyestrain/tinnitus, hurting back, both hips & legs hurting, post nasal drip & perpetually swelled up sinuses, insomnia & last but not least, a bad heart. If he could or would heal one or more of these issues, it would help.

So not having his ‘holy oil’ or a Cossack from his monastery to wear, the next best thing was his novena prayer, which I recited along with the Priest presenting it.

I watched two long videos about him, one of them twice. And I prayed a long time before going to sleep. He appears in dreams to people before or after a healing, sometimes giving them instructions what he wants them to do, like go to Mass each day the 22^nd of the month.

I saw the details on some of his miraculous healings.

Here’s the dream:

I’m in a place like a large apt building for college students. I have a sense of being ‘left out’ as they are all young, I’m old. I’m just here observing & trying to see where I can ‘fit in’ or who wants to befriend me.

First scene, I’m sitting kind of on the floor with a young male in front of me, a female to my right, a female to his left. He’s attractive.

He’s flirting with the female to his left, telling her about some work he could do for her, saying in a suggestive manner,

“I’m good with my hands.”

Both these females here are cute, so I feel he’d prefer them to me, but then my confidence increases as I speak. And I’m flirting with him.

I touch him in a sweet way – nothing extreme – just touch his sweater {it’s black} & maybe his cheek, telling him that I’m a cougar.

For all his bravado moments ago with that girl, he now gets embarrassed & shy’s away from me, getting closer to the girl – he’s lost his confidence.

He’s smiling & his jaw has decreased in size, so his teeth are now slightly bunched together.

Second scene: I’m in a different place in this building, a larger room.

There’s a super handsome/sexy young male lying back on a setee here & a female to my right. I glance at him & think he has beautiful tawny skin. He’s buff, handsome face & good thin body.

I was going to compliment him on his skin, but then I see I did not look carefully, it’s not his skin; he has on a long sleeved pink sweater, a loose knit.

I have that same feeling at first, of being ‘left out,’ as they are young, I’m old. The lady there is cute, he will prefer her.

But in the next moment, things change. The young man is suddenly naked & in my lap, straddling me, his legs around me, & he’s rocking with me, back & forth, saying,’

“Rocking is better than sex.”

So he came to me, he likes me! He’s not ignoring me! And I tell him,

“Cuddle therapy is great. I used to have a boyfriend I did cuddle therapy with once a day when he visited me.”

Prior to this he was thin,, his stomach flat, but now he has a pot belly & I iiss it. I also kiss his arm, it’s very cozy.

I see him more clearly now, young, with black straight hair, dark shining eyes.

Meaning: This is St. Charbel. The female you think he prefers to you is Our Holy Mother. He’s in love with her, the accounts said so. She’s the female to his left he’s flirting with.

The female to my right might be the cute young female – Gutierrez, that he healed of blindness. She gave a long detailed testimony.

You feeling ‘left out’ is your insecurity as to whether he wants to be friends with you or grace you with healing.

In the first scene, when you first pray to him which is seen as ‘flirting’ maybe because you said ‘I love you,’ he shy’s away from you & clings to the Holy Mother.

His jaw shrinking & teeth bunching up is his passiveness or submission to Holy Mary & God.

It might be saying he feared any association with females which was sexual.

Men’s jaws are bigger than women’s, when female bodybuilders started taking steroids their jaws expanded & they got ‘cornrow teeth, or spaces between them. This is the opposite, where his jaw has shrunk.

The next scene you are watching a different documentary about him, where the female he healed gives a long testimony. It’s like the 3 of you were together, & you suspect he cares for her, but not you.

His being on his back on a setee is submission, wearing pink is also feminine & shows his humbleness & submission to God.

But in the next moment he’s naked & in your lap, rocking you.

This is a sign of nourishing you with affection. Naked is completely open to you, not hiding or covering anything. Rocking is a comforting activity – rocking babies gives them brain stimulation & nourishment. They rocked in the Mother’s womb, whenever she moved, & this helped them develop. It has the same effect after they are born, it helps the brain form itself, good for the entire body. People feel comforted in rocking chairs. So He’s giving you consolation & nourishment although not the healing you prayed for.

The pot belly is he’s pregnant.

That means he received your love & something was conceived, there was fruit.

You kissing his belly & arm is you loving & admiring him.

So that’s it. You have a new Guru & powerful friend in Heaven.

College of God & Love, Core Tenets

130 Souls into Heaven!

Sri Kaleshwar ENCORE lol With our merger we got a large number of Souls into Heaven!

After thinking about this all morning & realizing what this is, who it is, I laughed heartily. Yes it’s another miracle from Sri Kaleshwar.

I wrote an article about the show done by Alex Ferrari where he interviews Alx Utterman. Her main story was the miracle Sri Kaleshwar did at his Ashram Christmas, 1999, with her present. He had the men take a pine tree, make a cross out of it, then blood gushed out of the middle of the cross for hours! They burnt all that had become bloody & distributed the ashes among the disciples. Her rendition was the most awesome of any of the many great tales on Alex’s Podcast, & my comment was,

“What will you do for an encore?”

And he answered,

“I’m working on it.”

When first waking up with this dream on my mind & the sensuous kiss from a movie star I knew I didn’t have a hint of its gravity. But now I know. It’s an answer to the request I presented a couple times to the two gurus – Kalesh & his partner, Shirdi Sai Baba. I reminded them that those in Heaven can use my office or portal to get Souls in Purgatory out. I mentioned Errol Flynn got Beverly Aadland, his gf, as well as his last wife, out of Purgatory through me. And Saint Martin Luther King Jr. on his holiday a couple years ago, had a group of about thirty people pulled up with me as a partner.

And that is what this is about, nothing sensual but of the highest spiritual order.

When I reviewed his using the word ENCORE it was the KEY to unlock the meaning.

I’m at my apt. in B’klyn & two men are with me. They are my disabled best friend Rudy, who I see vaguely, & a movie star I dated long ago – dark skinned – call him Ralph.

Not sure what’s going on but it’s like we’re waiting for something.

I recall looking through the rooms & the apt is how it was when I painted it myself in all deep, bright colors. The color I’m looking at is a rich green gloss in my kitchen. And someone asks me how I can be happy here, as it isn’t much space, & I say I am happy here, I’m satisfied.

I’m standing in the main room which is where the kitchen would be but somehow it is the living room. Now Ralph & I are both attracted to each other, so I’d like him to stay – neither one is saying anything about our attraction. And then Ralph says he’s going out – which disappoints me – going to a place called ENCORE which I imagine is a club & I think he’s trying to make me jealous as he’s going to look for women there. But I don’t show any jealousy & matter of factly say,

“Alright, go on,”

Like I can take it or leave it whether he stays or goes.

But he returns soon, within an hour, like he wanted to be here more than there. He didn’t actually want to leave my ‘event.’

Ralph is standing by a window tinkering with it. And I was also trying to open a window, but the entire thing was moving with the frame. I’m trying to secure the frame while opening the window at the same time, it’s tricky, but I try & try.

And Ralph is at another window tinkering with it. I go over there to help. We are close now, our bodies, our heads, then our faces & lips. And I go ahead & put my lips on his & the moment we kiss we both agree this is a good thing to do & we kiss intimately for a few minutes, very sensual. It sounds physical but I can feel something of a higher nature.

I might add a detail – Rudy is not sensual or handsome, but he’s more humble than Ralph, more of a martyr type.

After we kiss I move away & then something unusual happens. The poor ghetto kids in the neighborhood – like the ones I used to help – are entering the apt & greeting me warmly. But many years have gone by since I lived here & these are new kids that I don’t know – but they know of me.

Some greet me with warm hugs.

The last two that come in are one fat, one thin female. And I say,

“I don’t know these people.”

They all looked up to me as their guide, teacher or mentor.

And someone says,

“They heard you were here so they all came.”

Now the scene changes. My apt becomes larger & a different set of persons begins to enter. They come two or three at a time, like friends, couples. These are all white, better dressed than the ghetto kids, more affluent. And I don’t know a single one. But it’s my party – my premises. The clothes they have on are for an occasion. I notice one guy in an outfit of light grey, with a piece of cloth draped over one shoulder, like a Sari.

Since it’s my apt I exclaim to Ralph I think,

“I don’t know them!”

I have some sort of perfume or scent on a contraption hard to describe, made of wood. It’s like arms holding something you might have a tiny Bunsen burner underneath warming up this concoction. I take a cup of it out; it’s a syrupy thing like liquid honey with a white syrup included & special spices.

I take this around to our guests, & they each take a tiny bit on their fingers & anoint themselves with it. One lady even takes a sip. But at the end many guests decline to partake of it & I stop offering it.

The apt seems to expand as guests arrive. I find that guests have gone into a nice room which is a walk-in closet of light Oak wood & they are hanging up their outer garments here. I see fancy coats made of like yellow under-feathers & other party coats, expensive stuff. And I think,

“I didn’t even know I had this room here.”

Almost forgot, my little daughter is here. She’s kind of mental & berates me about something, ranting on & on, she seems about seven years old. She has tears in her eyes. And she was saying some crazy stuff about a baby in my womb from Ralph, she wouldn’t bother with it.

I exclaim to those around,

“She’s jealous for my kissing Ralph.”

………………………………………

*** Meaning: And so, Kalesh & Sai Baba have met your request to use your office to get a large number of souls out of Purgatory! It’s his ENCORE!

The apt in B’klyn: This is the place where you gained the two greatest accomplishments of your spiritual life: Seeing God Face to Face twice & Receiving the Divine Stigmata. So it is appropriate for special events.

Rudy & Ralph: Are Sai Baba & Sri Kaleshwar. Rudy was a long-suffering martyr type person, as he got disabled since age 8 from being run over by a tractor, & lived in some deformity & pain his entire life. But he was the best soul you ever knew & your best friend for years. He spent only 3 weeks in Purgatory which says a lot. He was humble. And he represents here, Sai Baba, who was a martyr also as we have established from before.

Ralph is a handsome movie star type, dark skin, appropriate for Sri Kaleshwar because he also was handsome & probably had fans who liked his looks. But he according to this & other revelations, was not a martyr like Sai Baba.

Something we are waiting for: Is the prayer request you made to the Gurus to use your office to get Souls out of Purgatory. Kalesh hints to you he’s doing to do his ENCORE!

The windows: Are windows of opportunity, the portals or ways by which these Souls are going to enter Heaven!

You have your own window or office, & Kalesh has his – two portals. And now you will do a SACRED KISS, uniting your Anointings, & the Souls will be RELEASED!

{When James Brown, the entertainer, came to me from Purgatory he was released with my Sacred Kiss. Kisses, hugs, even sex can be Sacraments. Note the second time Kalesh appeared to me he Anointed me with Grace under the Guise of a sex act.}

The first group of Souls that enter your office, by which they will ASCEND, sound like the poor folks of India. It is because you opened your apt to the welfare children in the neighborhood of B’klyn, using it as a Church & Education Center. It’s a good symbol.

The next group of Souls that will Ascend by entering your & Kalesh’s portals are the Westerners, more affluent, better dressed & more of them. The Hindu Gurus really love Westerners, including Americans, because we are so welcoming to them.

Your apt ‘opening up more’ to accommodate these Souls must be your Anointing more opened up by you & Kalesh joining.

The oak, well-lit with soft light CLOSET in which they have placed their fancy wraps: One of the wraps is made of thick undercoat feathers, yellow. This is a sure sign of someone ascending, as the Egyptian symbol of this is God weighs your soul against a feather. These are the symbolic garments by which they will ‘fly’ into Heaven.

The special ELIXIR you pass around for the guests to Anoint themselves: This is personal from you & so it might mean ‘the wood of the cross, its arms, which created this Elixir or Anointing from your Divine Stigmata. The way Kalesh created that Sacred Ash from the blood that he miraculously made stream out of that pine Cross they made – & the way Sai Baba created that Vibhuti by manifesting it out of nothing, which people collected like a talcum powder – you also have a syrup-honey-milky-perfume out of the Interior Divine Stigmata you attained. The Bunsen burner under the concoction hints at ‘burning up’ because the Heart Chakra burns up during this Event.

The wooden arms of this contraption are dark, not like the light Oak wood in that closet – which represents joyfulness. This is death or martyrdom. They are thin, a couple inches of elaborate curved carving & going about two or three feet forward, where they more or less present the Elixir, which sits on something with the Bunsen burner underneath. It’s like saying ‘I present to you the result of my martyrdom.’

And so here, you proudly present your own miracle of Grace, the way Kalesh & Sai Baba did!

And it also hearkens in comparison to where you interpreted in the last experience with Sai Baba, where you faced him & put both your hands on his shoulders & he was shocked – that this gesture was a symbol of the ‘Secret Wound’ of martyrdom, – don’t know how it was manifested in Sai Baba but in Rasa it’s Interior, ‘Secret’ Divine Stigmata. It’s so secret that no one believes or understands you have it, lol.

The ingredients in the Elixir bespeak the sweetness of Divine Love mixed with the spices of suffering. Honey is sweet, milk is kindness/love.

Me: Why do some guests partake of this but some decline?

Mother God: Possibly because some aren’t Christian & might not appreciate what is defined as a ‘Christian’ Grace, although the Grace of Martyrdom applies to all religions, all cultures. Maybe because they don’t need it to ascend into Heaven – it’s OK, free will.

Me: Who was the Lady who sipped some of it or what was the significance of that?

MG: Someone who KNEW the significance of this Grace, who was a possible Martyr herself.

My DAUGHTER ranting & crying out of jealousy for my kissing Ralph: This is my FLESH but why reacting this way, Mother God?

MG: It is a very great Grace to merge with a phenomenal Saint like Kaleshwar & she’s expressing jealousy like she wishes she could do that, but the flesh cannot.

Speaking of the baby in the womb, would be the FRUIT of the Grace of your kisses, the merging of the Anointings produces something.

This is a WONDERFUL dream/experience. The new Gurus are coming through with flying colors.

I estimate that we got 130 Souls from Purgatory into Heaven this way – 30 from the Hindu world & 100 from the West. What an accomplishment, what a collaboration!

College of Matriarchal Love, Core Tenets

Reach Sai Baba on My Own!

6-20-23 Startling Experience with Sai Baba

This is so startling. I am in a kind of theater, on a platform looking down at a huge seating of movie stars. There are hundreds sitting there, maybe even a thousand, & each great star is being introduced by a voice on a speaker & I see one male star stand up with his son to his left, also standing.

* Meaning: These represent the STARS OF GOD – Great Saints. *

This man is absolutely STUNNING, medium dark hair & in spite of amazing accomplishments he is modest & humble, you can see it easily in his demeanor.

His Jr is not as stunning, he is alright, much younger, like 28.

And although the great star I know is maybe 40-45 he has the looks of a perfect 35.

* The stunning beauty is Sai Baba & his son is Sri Kaleshwar. Beauty is his stature in Heaven, his Radiance. *

I am eager to meet this star in person but don’t know how. But somehow I figure a way, to go around this gathering from the back, & then, I am close to him as in the dream he is now at the back row. My daughter is with me. He & his son are still standing & the star turns to me. He is ABSOLUTELY SHOCKED to see me, that I have reached him, startled. He’s wearing a strong looking glossy twill suit, dark color, wide shoulders, the suit is stiff like armor.

*** The SUIT of glossy twill, dark, strong shoulders: This is his ARMOUR that represents spiritual STRENGTH & PROTECTION. It’s the ‘armor of God’ – as in the Breastplate of Righteousness.

When a soul rises up to God they cannot be interfered with, contacted willy nilly, by anyone. In Heaven, for example the lower souls cannot access or communicate with the higher ones without their permission.

For example, I might not want to see my relatives in heaven, who abused me on earth, & if I chose not to, they cannot contact me, since I am a higher soul, the onus is on me.

Our Light surrounding us in Heaven {& on earth} is a SHIELD that not everyone can ‘penetrate’. ***

I place both my hands on his shoulders & say,

“I love you.”

And then,

“Can I kiss you on the cheek?”

Taken aback, he says no!

And I return with again,

“I love you!”

And with my daughter, I withdraw.

Moments later he finds where I went & shows me affection, like snuggling near me. He changed his mind.

*** Meaning: Wow. I touched him! Meaning I’m on the SAME LEVEL as him – touching the shoulders means Divine Stigmata or Martyrdom. Because Jesus’ SECRET WOUND, that the bible speaks not of, was when he carried the cross, the wood pressing against his shoulder bore through his flesh right down to the bone. Anne Catherine Emmerich reveals this.

Now I have Jesus Secret Wound so to speak – the Interior Divine Stigmata, which no one can see nor can I prove it to anyone. And this is MARTYRDOM. And it is saying that I recognize or touch the secret wounds of Sai Baba – that he was a MARTYR & we have that in common, & this STARTLES him.

The darkness of his suit is ‘God is darkness to the soul,’ so says St. John of the Cross. And people cannot see or understand Sai Baba easily, as his height in Heaven is darkness to those who are not as high.

This Grace occurred because a lady sent me an envelope with his VIBHUTI, enclosed in plastic. This was something that when he was living, Sai Baba could manifest, & it was like talcum powder in the air & it fell on people. One of her friends was there & collected it & sent her some & when she heard I was communicating with Sai Baba she sent some to me. She suggested I keep in in my bed when I sleep, under my pillow. But I was afraid I would damage the envelope somehow & decided to keep it on my bed mantle, & to kiss the envelope each day, which I did. And my kiss resulted in this experience.

Now Sai Baba put me to a test when he said “no” to a kiss on the cheek. If he rejected me, would I still love him?

I passed the test.

And then he changed his mind, he came to me with affection.

Me to Sri Kaleshwar: This is startling in that I was able to reach Sri Baba by my own volition, rather than his coming to me, as you guys have done to me a couple times. And there’s strong symbolism that we are both martyrs. But Sai Baba is a miracle man, with astounding spiritual height & Powers. Surely, how can I equate with him?

Kalesh: You can equate with him because of your Divine Stigmata. A person cannot give more than that, they are at the greatest height of Sainthood. You gave up God for loving God in the Interior Stigmata. Sai Baba is also a martur, this says, & you are on the same level.

Me: But why can’t I do miracles as he did?

Kalesh: You have done many miracles. Each soul sent by God has a different mission, your miracles have been commensurate with your mission. Sai Baba & I demonstrated miracles appropriate to our work. We did healings & manifestations.

Your speech in front of the White House stopped the Cold War, end of Communism, the threat of WWIII. That was a miracle.

Your prayers for 3.5 months, in favor of victims of predators, brought about the ‘Crisis’ in the Catholic Church. Was that not a miracle?

The manifestation of female body building, was that not a miracle?

Stripping for God, was that not a miracle?

Seeing God Face to Face, all the Visions of Jesus & Mary, angels & saints, were those not miracles?

And the healings of cancer for your friends, were those not miracles, & other manifestations of answered prayers.

Me: But somehow I could not imagine myself an equal to Sai Baba, he is revered as an ultimate Ascended Master. Are you saying I am as good as he?

Kalesh: The height of a person is determined by what they give to God of themselves. You gave all. You could not give any more or rise higher, that is the ultimate gift, one’s life. Giving up the vision & Gifts of God is the same as giving up one’s life voluntarily. And so, yes, you are on the same height as the highest of Saints, who also gave their lives.

Me: Then I have succeeded as an Avatar. God sent me, many Avatars don’t make it due to this life being so harsh & people being so cold hearted. But you say I made it. Wow. That is extraordinary, I am so happy.

Kalesh: You have a lot to be happy about. God is All.

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God’s Love via Sex

This is about God’s Love Under the Guise of Sex

6-17-23 Unusual Spiritual Graces

These graces occurred this week, the 12^th was Sri Kaleshwar, & the next two days, unknown males were united to me as husbands. First, re the husbands:

There is a beautiful, fascinating blonde male with me, absolutely stunning. The strange thing is that he IS my husband, yet I don’t know him. He’s kind of ‘making love’ to me but it’s not physical. He seems to be transmitting nutrition to me via an emotional bond, like feeding my emotions. Very nourishing.

And the next day another male, not as beautiful but OK, is united to me. His clothes are bright colors. He has on a regular outfit & around his waist something bright, maybe red, is tied. He is wearing bright red, & bright blue & other colors.

Below is the real Sri Kaleshwar. He made himself even more handsome for the experience, lol.

Now the zinger. I was in bed trying to sleep, my right nostril was completely shut. I kept praying to God to fix my sinuses, but nothing happened. Then switched to pray to Sri Kaleshwar & his partner, Sri Shirdi Sai Baba. I asked them to fix my sinuses but added

“Help my physical body,”

saying it many times. After a few minutes my nostrils opened up & my breathing became much more relaxed & pleasant, a big change. Then I had a vision that I was reluctant to share as it’s explicitly sexual & people might misunderstand. But others might be edified, so here goes.

A most beautiful male appears to me of foreign descent. He’s around 28 years old, thin, medium dark skin, wearing a soft knitted long sleeved top, tucked into medium blue pants, neat outfit.

He has a super-thick short beard covering his face as well as mustache – as I have seen in images of ancients. Looks old-time Persian. There’s another man around but I don’t really see him.

When he fell off the chair he was still sitting in it, but his head is on the floor. As I comfort him

He’s near me sitting in a chair, & he falls of the chair crying that he is in pain!

At first I think it’s physical pain, & I put my hands on him to comfort him, but he then cries,

“I’m jealous, I’m jealous!”

And as I put my hands on him suddenly his penis is in my right hand! This shocks me & I’m trying to understand it. I think he wants me to make love to him. I begin by kissing his abdomen, but he says,

“Hurry, I want to come on your face!”

Another shock because this is new to me but I put his penis in my mouth & I believe he comes in a few seconds, like 3 seconds.

The idea of this is extremely nourishing like in that husband dream that came later. It is healing my emotions. But it happened so fast I want to back track so I can experience more of it.

And so, in my imagination, I put his penis in my mouth again & I sort of direct his orgasm so it spreads over my face, round & round, like putting white frosting on some sort of cake, like a Strudel. And it is extremely pleasant.

Meaning: As soon as I awake I sense that Sri Kaleshwar turned himself into this beautiful male to bless me, & the blessing is unusual but it’s spiritual under the guise of sex. I have had dreams like this from before, where for a long time, I was walking the streets as a beautiful prostitute, picked men up, took them to a secret room, & had the most ecstatic sex in my life. I had no idea what it meant at the time, but later realized these were Souls in Purgatory & I gave them Spiritual Love! This was one of the Gifts of Jesus who in Jan 1978 asked me to make 3 wishes & the last wish was “I want to have spiritual relations with men” & this was it. This grace lasted a couple years on & off, then it ended.

The sperm he’s putting on my face is what, Sri Kaleshwar & Sai Baba?

Kalesh answers:

“This entire grace is about love. You were deprived of love as a child after your parents split up. You wanted to cry but could not & eventually you got a sinus condition which makes your nasal passages swell up & close down, which would happen from crying. Repressed emotion is what this is.

Because of this deprivation you had a sad face when you weren’t smiling, so sad that people would comment, & you had surgery to correct this problem.

And so Sai Baba & I opened your nasal passages & helped you breathe to show you how your breathing would be without this problem. The symbol of the sperm is love – to give you a happy face. Sperm is white like milk, milk is kindness, & you compare it to icing, which is sweet. This is sweet, kind love – what you were deprived of.

And of course I made myself beautiful for you. Now me in the chair goes with,’

“Like falling off a chair,”

which means something quite easy to do.

I’m acting out a role under the guise of jealousy to see if you would care about my pain, & you do. You try to comfort me. In so doing, you deserve this grace which Sai Baba & I gave you.

Unfortunately, we could only give you this Grace temporarily, because your maladies are permitted by God to earn Grace for Souls in Purgatory & others. As you know, that’s why God doesn’t heal everyone’s ills all the time, because they are gaining Grace from them – an element we are here on earth to do – to gain Grace.”

Me: Mother God, can you explain the two marriages or males linked to me as husbands?

When you first thought about this you were mistaken. They are NOT Souls in Purgatory, but none other than your great new Gurus, Sri Shirdi Sai Baba & Sri Kaleshwar.

The more beautiful blonde is Sai Baba – because he is the more evolved. The ‘lower’ in spiritual status is Kaleshwar – the physical beauty represent the spiritual height.

Sai Baba is your husband, even though you never knew him because according to this you are united or on the ‘same level.’

And Kalesh is also united to you. They have both accepted you & given themselves to you this way, you are greatly blessed!

Me: OK, thank you Mother God & Great Gurus.

Below, they do a lot of anointing in Yoga with water or milk, also present food to the Ascended Masters. This is the real Sri Shirdi Sai Baba, a miracle worker.

End

College of God & Love, Core Tenets

FIRST MIRACLE!

First Miracle Woman’s Prayers Answered 5-27-23

I went to my fave bar/restaurant yesterday owned by a woman I shall call ‘Anne’s’ – met a new lady server I shall name Kay, & Kay told me her life story & wrote down 5 prayer requests. I was the only customer so that enabled a meaningful conversation & she listened with much attention & respect for God {which is not evident with all those I speak to about God.}

Prior to that I had a prophetic chat with my lawn mower repair man. I sat by the tractor as he worked & chatted. I told him I wanted to function at Anne’s bar, preaching, & that I would have, after my sermon, a female stripper, then a male, to go with the title ‘Stripping for God.’ And I would invite the Press & believe that some would even come from NYC, as they have done before, to interview me. I could get the bar on the local news, both stations, as well as newspapers.

And I told him I’d like to rename the bar ‘The First Miracle,’ which would also refer to why we’d have a Church in a bar, justifying alcohol. After all, was not Jesus’ first miracle at Cana turning water into wine? I told him the anecdote.

I then went to Anne’s & met Kay as said. After a while she told me she’s had MS {multiple sclerosis} for 24 years. It affects the memory & eyes eventually. She also said she had skin cancer & was going to her doctor This Tuesday to get it lasered.

Finally she was ready to write down her requests. It’s the lucky 13^th I have collected – started late last month with everyone I know in town. This is what she asked of God, which could be granted by my Anointing:

Kay S 5-27-23

No more cancer

Eye Sight back

Memory

Courage

MS {to be healed}

This morning I had the following dream:

My lady friend came home after being in the hospital. She’d hurt her hip & had been on a walker. But it was healed, no walker!

She was walking so free. I spoke to her about being healed & she agreed how happy she was.

I am sitting at a large grey wooden table in the kitchen & she had come home unexpectedly – the table was not perfectly clean & there were lots of little knick knacks on it. I wanted to take a cloth & wipe it down, going around the various plates, big & small, some of which were being piled into each other. One set of 3 tiny plates, had one with a fluted, pleated edge, medium blue all atop one another, the lady accidentally put her tongue on the edge of it as she moved it toward the middle of the table, & it was my hot sauce & it stung a bit.

To my left, across from her, was a huge picture window, as big as the table, & lots of light coming in.

I was surprised at something. I had given her 3 iron frying pans. In another part of the kitchen, maybe a step down, like a separate room, there’s a small stove or hot plate. She had it working so that the frying pan was burning something in it. Like thick flames maybe 5” high. It worried me that above the pan was a huge bouquet of old, dried roses on long stems, beautiful, all red. Full blossoms, but all closed up like buds. This bouquet was about 5’ tall & maybe 4’ wide, & it extended above the pan & I worried the fire might hurt the roses but so far it did not, there was enough space. But I wondered about the heat of it hurting those valuable roses.

And in another spot, somehow above our table, were 2 more burners with 2 more iron frying pans I had given her & they were also burning the same type of flames. I exclaimed,

“So you know how to cure these!”

Sense-image material is that recently I have given one of my 2 iron frying pans to a needy family, but was concerned as they both had to be re-cured but I didn’t know how. And I hoped the lady recipient would know how.

MEANING: This lady represents Kay & the 3 iron frying pans are three of her requests being ratified. One is ‘no cancer’ in a separate room or area or category & the other two close together, are eyes & MS. Looking at the requests, re her memory, & she will gain courage, the memory will stay good as the MS is cured, she will not need courage to face the problems when they are gone.

The frying pan beneath the huge bouquet of dried roses sounds like the laser beam treatment that burns off the skin cancers. Why would this be dried roses? Roses are love, it seems that God has given her this affliction not out of punishment but love, as good things come out of bad. My guess is this has brought her closer to God. Why are they large & dry? Large because it’s a big problem to have cancer, & large red blooms are big sufferings, dry might be she’s had this a long time with prolonged treatments – not fresh blooms of something that just happened.

The grey table I’m on, not having it completely ready & I want to wipe it down sounds like our conversation at the bar – she on one side, me on the other. She was wiping it when I walked in. And the hot sauce she tastes on the tip of her tongue is when an evil man walked in, sat next to me & was bad-mouthing God & I told him off. She tasted a tiny bit of my wrath.

The large picture window as big as the table was a huge window of opportunity, as when I came in I was the only customer, & I told her about many of my healings, which inspired her faith, hope & confidence so she believed she could be cured.

The 3 iron frying pans being cured – what better symbols for her issues being healed?

Another important symbol re frying pans is ‘Cooking on all burners’ – in this case, 3 burners, which means things are going extremely well, the 3 representing the 3 requests.

Now again, look at the preamble – where I spoke to the lawn repair man about calling the bar FIRST MIRACLE? How prophetic can you get?

I must ad that I’ve been praying to a great Guru, Sri Kaleshwar, & I have reason to believe he is facilitating this – sending me his Anointing. He was very good at curing cancer, healed 4 our of 5 people. I learned about him from his disciple Alx Utterman. He did great miracles & I asked him to become my new Guru.

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Escape from Bugs Benny

Escape from Bugs Benny – Young man escapes from his Prosperity Preacher Relatives

Ganesh is the Hindu God of Prosperity & also for removing Great Obstacles

5-12-23 Girl born to Carl {Not his real name}

I’ve been studying Carl, a minister, for several days & he appeared for the third time in a dream. It’s meaningful.

I go to visit a lady, can’t recall why or other details, & she has a spread-out house, very nice.

She attractive, thin, dressed nicely, businesslike, & she has a husband. But I don’t see the husband until the end.

And so, we have a good visit & she tells me that they have recently had a baby, like maybe two weeks old.

Then as I’m walking to the back of the house I see the husband lying on his right side on something & the man’s upper body is wrapped in a cloth which seems part beige & part red, has numerous folds like the way they wore clothing in the ancient days & makes me think of a Hindu garb.

Inside this garment of folds I see the round outline of a small infant, completely covered & hidden, can’t even see its head.

Then I move closer to the man & he opens his garment & takes the cover off the child’s head. Her face looks like a baby-woman which thick curly platinum blonde hair, and I say,

“She cute. She looks intelligent.”

And the Mom is now nearby & she emphatically says,

“Yes, I know.”

Then I went out. It was some kind of special privilege to be there, I felt the time was up, now I must leave.

As I was leaving there was a delay. I was hungry as I’d not eaten all day. Was it the lady who’d given me the small triangle, like moist bread, on a white napkin? I ate it as I seem to be standing by a phone booth waiting for someone by the exit.

MEANING: This dream is mysterious. I’ll make a guess. The lady is my God Self, who has married or merged with this minister I’m studying, who I like very much. He has somehow received this spiritual sacrament, of our souls uniting in marriage & the baby is as if I am born again in the flesh. It is little me he carries on his body, hidden at first, then he shows me the face of the baby, & it has some resemblance to me. This is the FRUIT of our union.

This is mysterious because it predicts the future.

All this happened within a short time which shows that in the spiritual, supernatural realm things can move fast. And I’ve not even had any known contact with this man, no responses to comments on his podcasts, nothing.

His garb: Beige is usually CONTEMPLATION which some call meditation. The red is either suffering or passion. His experience of suffering has brought him to this place where he is, & the place is acceptance of myself & my philosophy. Many folds are many experiences, many ‘ins & outs’ along the road.

Dream of 5-11-23 Carl the Minister {not his real name}

I was at the old farm house with a young man there, in maybe my bedroom sitting on the headboard of the bed, with a beige blanket over the bed & headboard. I was fiddling with something, not quite ready to greet this visitor when my two lady friends near the bed started singing ‘Happy Birthday’ to him.

I stopped what I was doing & joined in the singing.

After that he goes into the next room.

Meaning: The Happy Birthday song is to rejoice Carl has been born again. This was after he got away from a relative who is a Prosperity Preacher.

I’m attracted to this person & want to be alone with him & I follow him into the next room to see what he’s doing.

He’s stooping near a bureau which is holding some tall books, like 3-4’ tall & 1.5’ wide, & they have paper covers like ordinary brown paper bag paper, loosely but flat over them. He has one of the books in his hands.

I say to him,

“How are you going to spend your day?”

{Because I wanted to see, was he leaving for somewhere or was he going to be around so I could spend time with him?}

He said,

“I’m going to study these books.”

{The books represent the bible}

This made me happy as he’d be here all day.

I then get close to him & rest my face & lips on the back of his neck & now I see him clearly.

He’s my old lover “Buck” & he has tawny skin smooth as silk, beautiful face, very young, curly black hair.

I say to him,

“My previous boyfriend died of a drug overdose, I don’t know if you know that.”

“Is that why you hate sex?”

he says, and I answer,

“I don’t hate sex, I could have sex with you every day.”

{This implies spiritual or mystical union. Sex in my dreams is usually spiritual, in fact, the most spiritual act in a relationship.}

Meaning: This dream is the day before Carl ‘had the baby’ & it implies that I had ‘sex’ with him but of course, it’s spiritual union, not physical sex. And that spiritual union resulted in some kind of birth where I am BORN IN HIM OR FROM HIM. And it means that my God Self penetrated his soul & now I live in his soul. It’s kind of like the saying, ‘No longer I live, but Christ in me,’ which is similar but different. It implies that someone else can merge with my soul – which is a fact of the spiritual sacrament of marriage.

5-13-23

Nightmare about one minister, other dream about a husband-type associate.

The nightmare is that this minister was in my house, asked me for a light before he goes out. It’s a symbol of this man I was studying yesterday, who is an Orthodox Jesus-only type. I’ll call him Roger. I gave him a tiny flashlight. He strangely goes out there & shines that flashlight in my dark yard, which is spooky & weird, & he’s facing my kitchen window & shining the light into it. What is he trying to do?

Then he pulls out a whitish sword & this is like a threat, then he pulls out like a dozen scimitar swords, they are off white in the dim light. There’s a sinister feeling about him.

He’s trying to frighten me & I am uncomfortable.

Meaning: Roger is associated with Carl & was one of the pivotal ministers who hates the Prosperity Preachers & got Carl away from his relative. He has some good & bad points. He speaks some intelligent truth but also things I don’t agree with, & is narrow minded, like a Fundamentalist, a one-way thinker. I did communicate with him, but when he discovered my opinions he turned against me.

I found his vibes to be sinister & some of his comments frightening. Like Buddhists don’t worship God, they are going to Hell! The swords represent intimidation, threats & separation, & since there are many, a lot of this.

{This man preaches fanatically against everyone that does not profess Jesus is the ONE & ONLY GOD – the rest of the folks who believe differently are NOT worshipping God & they will all go to Hell. That includes Buddhists! And Jesus was a reincarnated Buddhist Guru!}

But then I have a person with me that seems like a husband. He’s just made a purchase of a house for 65k, & I’m asking him about it. It’s a new development of many one-floor houses connected, with yards they are just putting in the fences, the fences are sporadic, not solid, like each fence about 10’ long, 5’ tall, white paint, then there’s maybe a a 20’ gap in between, & these fences surround all the houses in this settlement which just got built.

{New houses & sporadic fences are this is not a ‘fenced in’, ‘hemmed in’ or limited doctrine, he is open minded as I am – not like the sinister minister mentioned before. This will be his new outlook or philosophy somehow influenced by my God Self.}

So this husband tells me about it & I say,

“Good, it’ll be worth twice as much in a few years.”

He’s happy I said that, kind of relieved that he did the right thing. I think he was concerned about security. He seems slightly teary eyed as he sort of reclines on his stomach to my right.

Later he’s driving me back there to those houses to leave some kind of paper work, but we’ll have to walk back. I ask him to leave me here, as the walk back is long & my back & legs hurt. Hell walk back & catch up with me.

We had to pass by one narrow spot where there was a 5 gallon red gasoline holder on the right, resting against a small tree on the edge & it’s so narrow here & it veers sharply to the left leading to the houses, then a drop off I say,

“This is the dangerous spot in the road.”

But we passed OK.

Meaning: This is Carl. In dreams it implies we ‘made love’ spiritually & our souls are united. And here, he purchased a place for us to dwell in, which will have more value in the future or will manifest. The tears in his eyes sound like concern & worry about his future, but also, could be like you cry at weddings, tears of joy. He has been made happy by our union. Amazingly, I have had no physical contact with this man; just put comments on his podcast, that is all.

This dream shows that Carl is INVESTING or believing in our future work. It’s not yet ready – not finished construction. But it’s a COMPOUND like what I wanted to do for the new religion – multiple buildings UNITED or in my mind, a Temple, Convent, School, Dormitories, separate but linked & the FENCES where they are PARTIAL, not completely closing in & closing out are we are OPEN MINDED.

We are SEPARATE partially, we are OPEN to many schools of thought, as we are Christian, Buddhist, Yoga & Wicca. We do not accept Fundamentalists or Orthodox ONE WAY THINKERS. They are NOT US so we must keep any limited, fanatic / lunatic types that think ONLY JESUS SAVES or ONLY ALLAH is a prophet, & here are 6,000 rules to believe in & follow, & WOMEN ARE INFERIOR / only men can preach! Women must be controlled by men, subservient, if they do sex outside our jurisdiction they are sluts & whores to be stoned to death either physically or by the law or by ostracism from society.

And so our religion is closed to many but open to many – the fences are there but they are also open in between each area.

The belief is that God will save anyone who loves God, who practice the basic principles of Love to God & neighbor, do good to themselves & others & these are absolute basic beliefs in Buddhism, Christianity, Yoga & Wicca or Paganism. We do not denounce any of these like they denounce everyone except those who believe Jesus is the ONE & ONLY SON OF GOD & it’s him or Hell. This is fanatical & NOT TRUE. {I have seen Jews, friends & the unknown, in Heaven.} For their PROOF they give you words from the bible, which is written by MEN. Some were Godly, some made mistakes or put the Patriarchal or fanatical spin on things. Saints do make mistakes, no one sees ALL the truth. So they see Jesus is God but they fail to see his Mother as God, Ramakrishna was God, all the AVATARS, Saints, all who are Enlightened or Self Realized are God. What did they realize? They met the God Within & found that they & God are one. {Not talking about the Prosperity Preachers who are FAR FROM GOD but say ‘I’m a little God’ like Paul Crouch & Creflo Dollar. They see THEIR FLESH AS GOD but they have not met THE GOD WITHIN which truly is God. That is what Self Realization is – these guys are not realized, they made their flesh a God.

I honestly do not know why this man has purchased this for US & how this works but all I can say is its SUPERNATURAL. God brought him to my attention, somehow, God has joined us in Divine Relationship – also called Mystical Marriage, & I have been ‘born’ to him somehow – he gave birth to me in another dream, which indicates THE FRUIT OF OUR LOVE! And now he purchases this dwelling for us & I declare it will double in value in a few years, & he has tears in his eyes.

The dangerous spot in the road is some place where there could be trouble in getting to our New Religion or attitude but we get through OK. The gasoline tank signifies ‘there could be fire / explosion which is CONFLICT, hate, fighting.

The best podcasts I have seen on the internet are ‘Next Level Soul’ where Alex Ferrari interviews mostly those that have died & returned, & they give their experiences. Some did experience Jesus, others did not.

These people would be denounced by that sinister, fanatical minister who believes only one way. His holding multiple scimitar swords in his hands like a fan surrounding him are all the spiritual disciplines he separates from.

College of God & Love, Core Tenets

PROSPERITY PREACHERS FAKE

Prosperity Preachers Fake

Costi Hinn, nephew of Benny, speaks up

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BPfig7MunPs

Rasa Von Werder says:

If & when someone comes forward & squeals on these guys about their prostitution activities {which I guess exist as they are men. If it did not happen I am a monkey’s uncle} – that would bring down their false world. Like Jimmy Baker & Jimmy Swaggart. I know men, I was in the adult trade most of my life as a stripper for God, model & arm candy date. Where there are men, there is sex. Everywhere. Glamour world, poverty world, ghetto, elites, Churches & military. Where there are men there is unfaithfulness to wives, pedophilia, rape, & whoring. Someone will come forward & tell us how these men acted with women, how they procured women for sex & cheated on their wives. Let’s hear it someone. Where there are men there is sex. And I don’t mean faithful monogamous sex. There might be a few homos here & there also, like Paul Crouch. And not condemning, just exposing. So their cruel world of USING THE INNOCENT SHEEP comes down. I dreamed about Costi last night & saw Benny as a possessed man, dressed in black, carrying a corded shiny white set of whips, running & trying to knock us down – but I stopped him. And all those around him possessed by demons, & I did a big EXORCISM & they all flattened against the wall.

Wow, Costi explained something to me that wasn’t clear. When friends would confess their problems to me, most of the time I said nothing & did not even pray. But of course I cared. And so, there was no ‘faith’ on their part nor did I promise anything. But THEY WERE HEALED of various problems, including cancer. This underscores the SOVEREIGN POWER OF GOD that Costi is talking about. Once God Anoints you, the Sovereign Power will go where it will, when it’s appropriate. Like he said, out of a crowd, Jesus healed ONE & the guy didn’t know who He was. And so I noticed people everywhere I went would speak their troubles & get answered BY GOD, not me. So it is an Anointing, not my ability or technique or skill whatsoever. I gave myself to God, God gave me Anointings, Gifts of the Holy Spirit. I DO NOT even have to pray any more. I used to – for hours. Then God Gifted me more & more. I put no EFFORT or strain or prayer, it’s INSTANT TRANSMISSION. Yes Jesus did not heal everyone, neither is everyone that complains to me healed. Some people are BLOCKING GOD through either unbelief – like Jesus’ home town he did few miracles. Some are blocking God through ANGER at God because of their sufferings. And so, by their free will, God cannot & will not heal them, so my Anointing won’t work. But what he said is true – you DO NOT have to have faith in the person you talk to. If they are Anointed, & you’re NOT blocking God, you get healed or helped……………………………………….

Mass ‘slaying in the Spirit’…In Kathryn Kuhlman’s case it was authentic. Benny Hinn was taken by his Mom to Kathryn’s meetings & he got the ideas from her, but with him it’s hypnotic suggestion – that’s what God told me. I have been a professional hypnotist since I was 23 years old & have been to hypnotic shows. A pro hypnotist lady told a guy he had 9 fingers, lol, & he kept counting & got 9 & we all laughed like crazy. Like Costi says, he tells them they will fall down, so he is SUGGESTING IT & all those who are liable for or ready for this fall down – but I noticed not everyone does. And through this great GIMMICK & the showmanship, copied from Ms. Kuhlman’s shows, he creates a scene where people can be overwhelmed & influenced by their HUMAN EMOTIONS. But God is SUPERNATURAL. No one can be TAUGHT TO DO MIRACLES OR HEALINGS, only God does it. You have to be Anointed to do this – Benny IS NOT ANOINTED because he & all these others are FULL OF THEMSELVES, filled with ego, lust & greed, & God will NOT answer their prayers for healing! They have sold themselves to the devil, they obey the devil, & God will not listen to them or respond to their prayers, as they are spiritually dead………………………….

Now when I go around the people tell me their troubles including sickness & God AUTOMATICALLY solves their problem or heals them. Two men were HEALED OF CANCER just because they lamented to me about it, one was throat, the other his remaining lung. I noticed wherever I went, people were healed & problems solved spontaneously because I am ANOINTED. I have given myself to God, & God gives me the Holy Spirit. I cannot heal, only the Holy Spirit can & it happens. But Benny & all these fakes have no Holy Spirit, they are DEMONIC………………

At times God gives us poverty, other times prosperity. We learn from both. Let God decide what we get. To those who love God, all things work for the good. Accidents, diseases, even tragedies, traumas, will bring you to your greater good. Uniformity with God’s will is what you must concentrate on, all the Saints from all religions taught that. Something good will come out of something ‘bad.’ Poverty might be safer as far as your walk with God, as long as you don’t get angry & bitter about it. More poor people go to Heaven than rich, more rich people go to Hell the Saints say. Wealth can be a temptation, as jesus said, ‘It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter Heaven” {eye of the needle was a passage way into Jerusalem, very narrow.} And He said to the rich man, if he wanted perfection, ‘Go, sell all you have, give to the poor & follow me.’ I was poor most of my life & God gave me some wealth in middle age, & with my wealth I built my internetChurch. I paid a webman to build it & work for me for 3 years – it cost 50k. And I continue to do God’s work with the bread God gave me …………………………………………………

Costi alluded to changing his lifestyle & giving up the sexual sins & drunkenness. OK but what about the other guys? Can you tell us what they did? Because you were a young, single man, so it’s OK – as far as I’m concerned. But these other guys are married & if they did this they are big-time hypocrites & liars & I find it hard to believe, that with all their other sins Satan makes them do, they did not sin here. And if you want to bring them down, this is the way to do it. Americans are HYSTERICAL about sex! Commit sex acts that you preach are a sin, but you do it, Americans will crucify you. I personally do not believe sex between consenting adults is a sin. God decides if it is. But if you PREACH it to be a sin or teach it that way but are doing it, then it gets hysterical. Jim Baker & Jimmy Swaggart were demolished because of their sex acts as they were so hypocritical. And Paul Crouch was part of preaching against homosexuality & then he got sued by a male sex mate & had to pay 400k. No wonder his wife had had a nervous breakdown/depression. And then the Catholic Priests beat them all in their lowlife crimes. So it’s there, but somebody’s got to expose it………………………………………………….

Costi also speaks very well re repentance. When you repent you don’t just give it lip service, you change your whole life around. Sounds like Benny is just talking, not walking. Not giving up his lavish lifestyle, big mansions, & major luxuries.

Costi said when someone turns around it’s 180 degrees, like Zachaeus, who apparently was a crooked businessman & ran around saying he was going to reimburse everyone he cheated. But later, he killed himself, so this was remorse rather than repentance. Like Judas Iscariot had remorse, tried to return the 30 pieces of silver but couldn’t, then killed himself…………

Dream re Costi Hinn being good & Benny being demonic:

I had gotten lost being away from NYC, & was in green fields, with suburban style enclaves of houses around, but I was looking for the central part of NYC, like the best part of Manhattan on 5^th Ave. I traversed round & round & was pretty frustrated. I questioned many people but no one steered me right.

{Meaning: Lost not knowing something I wanted to know.}

After doing this a while I met some people & they were bringing me help. Suddenly, in front of me, there is a man standing there gazing at me with a sublime expression on his face, his look is so ethereal I say,

“Is he an angel?”

The people helping me were presenting him to me saying me he’d show me how to get there, so I am going with him.

{Meaning: The angel is Costi Hinn. His face radiates Truth.}

But where he takes me, oh my, it is not where I’m hoping to go!

{Meaning: This is Hell. A small, narrow tunnel is a place of limitation. We are entering the consciousness or inner state of Benny & his type people. Hell encases one in limitation, Heaven is wide open, Infinite space.}

We’re both in a tunnel now, & this ‘angel’ points to a deeper part of the tunnel & say for me to go there.

But as I look there I see a narrower tunnel lined with square foot tiles, mostly white or off white, & the floor of tiles is moving toward me, so instead of taking me anywhere, it would make me go BACKWARD into the tunnel where he & I are. So I say to the angel,

{Meaning: What he is representing, his knocking people down, his POV, all that he does, goes backward instead of forward toward God.}

“Take a look.”

And as I point this out to him, here comes a man running from this narrow tunnel, with a black cape, carrying a set of short whips, white braided ones, & he is flailing this whip in the air to try & knock us all down!

{Meaning: Black cape—cloak of darkness or Satan. His whip is his jacket.}

My friends & I retreat & now I see in our larger tunnel a few dozen people associated with this man in front of us.

To stop this man I begin an EXORCISM really loud, pronouncing the long form of it. This exorcism works, & all those associated with this man retreat against the wall at my words, they are completely under its control. It’s like they are pasted or pushed against the wall to my right.

Meaning: The narrow tunnel is the place where Benny Hinn is & he is evil, & those associated with him are. They are all possessed by Satan.

And this angel, who is Costi Hinn, is showing me this, & somehow, I am also showing him. We are sharing or in agreement.

But the Power of the True Anointing pushes him & his associates ‘against the wall’ or renders them helpless.

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Allen Parr & Costi Hinn

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BPfig7MunPs

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Re Costi: This is SOLID. He is sent by God. I am personally touched & fired up to speak up for Our Lord & his Truth. I dreamed of Costi & saw the Truth within his Face – a Symbol of the Truth he represents & presents. There’s so much about him I’m impressed with, will write an ARTICLE about him & what he teaches & post it on my blog & website ‘Embodiment of God.’ I am going to go over his statements with a fine tooth comb for the next several days at least, write my comments & put them in articles. Whoever has been teaching him is right on the money, spot on they say, hitting the nails on the head. And those who are twisting the Gospel in wrong ways will be smited. “Let God arise” Psalm 67, against those who are using the features of God or seeming to, the Bible, the Words of God, all of that, but they are confusing, twisting, appropriating words in the wrong way, just out & out wrong when they say Jesus used his HUMAN SELF to do miracles & healings! Give me a break! That’s the Bethel teaching he says & it’s ALL WRONG. They are trying to say we humans CAN DO WHAT JESUS DID IN OUR HUMAN SELVES! They want God’s Power in their HUMAN HANDS! No such luck – Get behind me Satan! God will not share the Glory. We humans, Costi & Allen, have but to GET OUT OF THE WAY. Our work, discipline, sacrifice, is to silence our flesh, stand back, cease & desist & make way & space where God can work. It is God who does it all; we merely believe & step aside.

This is me speaking from my own learning: And yes, Our Lord did suspend for a time the consolation & Power of his Divinity when He suffered the Passion & Cross, saying at the end, ‘My God, My God, why has Thou Forsaken Me?’ He did this because He had to suffer, & He could have stopped it all with his Divine Power, but he chose to suffer & die…..Costi is speaking straight & diplomatically, not hysterically or emotionally & because of his manner he’s setting the record straight & putting things right.

Costi’s teaching: It is NOT “touching the Lord’s Anointed” when you mark or call out the false teacher. What King David referred to was do not ASSASSINATE or physically attack the teacher or pastor, do not blow up the abortion clinic – this is not how we deal with issues. But POINTING OUT where there is false teaching & make a correction, we are encouraged to do.

Rasa says: This is really good. It takes the fear out of people who should criticize these prosperity punks . ………………………………………………

Fraud Benny Exposed by Journalists

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZlNTALOChRc

what is so confusing is that he’s using God as a front – but he’s not Blessed or Anointed by God, it’s all smoke & mirrors, it’s performance, it’s music, it’s HYPNOSIS – & hypnosis is powerful & effective & does WONDERS. Not saying no one ever gets healed here – but they get healed by the Sovereign Power of God, not Benny Hinn’s Anointing – he has NONE. He is of the devil. He’s sold his soul to the devil for riches. He lives like a King – Wallowing in obscene luxury. Satan said to Jesus, “I will give you all the Kingdoms of the world & their glory if you will bow down & worship me.” Jesus rebuked him, but Benny obeys him.

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Rasa says:

I dreamed of Costi again & he is good!

My mind is on him as I’m studying him, & God reveals to me the state of a person inside their heart, when I think of them. It’s unusual for me to dream of someone two days in a row. It might go on & on as I study him & each dream reveals another facet of his personality & character, what he is inside his heart & soul. So far – all good.

College of Matriarchal Love, Core Tenets

Miracle Worker

“Next Level Soul Podcast”

Important! Alex Ferrari – Hear this!

I’m listening to the podcasts of this man & here is the one I’m hearing now. Go to the very END, at point 50:00 where she speaks of the WOMB CHAKRA & how Mother God is our ORIGIN, directly for women as they have a womb, indirectly for men as they have no womb & must ‘go’ to this Chakra through their Mother.

This has been an ASTOUNDING interview.

the podcast is “Next Level Soul Podcast”

It’s the best thing on the internet, IMO

Here Alx Uttermann speaks about miracle man Swami Kaleshwar – It is ‘beyond belief’ what he has done.

And the ending which I mentioned she speaks of his revelation of this ‘hidden’ or ‘secret Chakra’ which apparently Patriarchs have hidden because it glorifies the female – the Womb Chakra. It’s the foundation or origin behind all the other Chakras he says.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ezOkpr-DbrQ

the Host is remarkable ALEX FERRARI

Next Level Soul founder Alex Ferrari is a #1 best-selling author, podcaster, speaker, entrepreneur, & filmmaker. Throughout his life, Alex always asked the big questions; Why are we here? Is this all there is? What is my soul’s mission in this life? He developed Next Level Soul to help people around the world get closer to their own higher power to look inward for the answers they are searching for. The Next Level Soul Podcast discusses all aspects of life’s journey; Mindset, Relationships, Health & Wellness, Spirituality, Creativity, Business, Entrepreneurship, etc.

Alx Uttermann

https://nextlevelsoul.com/alx-uttermann/

Alex Ferrari 52:05 If people are if people are watching this video, this interview with this conversation, the energy just coming off the images on your background, are are fairly strong, just a little bit, just by the energy of the of the saints that you have hanging on the wall behind you. It’s been a pretty interesting conversation, to say the least. There’s one thing that you talk about, and I’m not sure how long it’ll take you to kind of explain it. The holy womb chakra. Ah, yeah, can you because we basically we’ve just taken most of this conversation to talk about your journey. I would like to talk at least one healing thing, modality, if you will, of what you do in the world today. So can you talk a little bit about the holy womb and what is the holy womb chakra?

Alx Uttermann 52:57 I can, I can say so I spent five years studying this sort of PhD level of miraculous healing and spirituality with Swami caliche for which led us to experience Mother Divine as Maha Kali directly, like in person, like meeting her. In order to command and unlock the energy of the miracles, we need to know who is our real mother? Where did our soul really come from, in the same way that every human child has the right to know their human, their biological mother, we have as souls the right to know who is the Divine Mother and not intellectually, and not in a vision or a hallucination, but eyes open seeing a solid form of Mother, we need to know the womb for we recreate it every so hmm. That happened. And along the way, he gave us a system he gave he taught umpteen systems, of miraculous energy of learning different aspects of how our creation operates, like really at the nuts and bolts level of energy, if you if you like that term, and how to how to understand it as an outgrowth of the energy of the Mother Divine and of Shiva. And if they’re, let’s say, Romans that creates this whole creation.

Okay, so we were all schooled in that and then he brought out this thing called the holy one chakra in 2006. To that it’s a 7000 year old technology from one of those ancient manuscripts written on dried palm leafs, and it’s all about this incredible doorway into our enlightenment and our capability of souls on this planet called the Holy womb, which everybody has male and female both. You don’t generally see it in the books on chakras and where they define things and blah, blah, blah. Yeah, they don’t need left this one out. It is located variously it’s kind of interesting. There is a chakra like sitting sort of behind all the chakras. which is more or less where a woman’s physicalized womb is. However, it’s also part of our soul. And men through the womb chakra, each individual person has like a spark, right of the big light, you could say that spark connects to the big light, the big source of the mother through this mystical doorway called the womb chakra. So women go directly through it, because they have it physicalized, which is also how we create life, right? We can conceive a child. We can even do it without a man like Mother Mary or the way Rome was created out of a fire ceremony. Through the womb, chakra. Men are a step removed, they go through their physical birth mother to connect to the womb, chakra from other divine. So number one, in our relationship with the cosmic mother, all of the miraculous abilities are there all of the understanding of the creation is there whatever she can do, we can do. But it gets muddied and distorted because this plays into Yogananda teachings very nicely.

The womb chakras, I think what we would call the causal body in his parlance, which is where all the cameras are stored lifetime to lifetime to lifetime to lifetime to lifetime. And from where they come due, in the course of a given life. Let’s say you see a small child with a terminal illness. They didn’t create a Karma this life, why are they having that system? Why is that happening? previous lifetimes where they created enormous heartbreak and suffering for other human beings, is like all come together and through the womb chakra has gotten spit out in this lifetime as a large karmic bill to be paid with interest. Here’s the kicker, if you know the technology, the holy womb chakra. very good chance that you can heal somebody in that predicament. You can reverse it. College Board would say Yeah, four out of five cancer patients he would say I can heal. And we saw that all the time. Terminal horrible last ditch, he would say that the fifth one no mother won’t permit karma is what it is they have to experience it. But when you know the womb chakra, when you have yourself a very strong stable womb chakra. Through doing it’s a meditation system. And it involves drawing a there’s a certain Yantra that corresponds to the individual womb chakra. There’s a whole technology and a whole system around it. It is so miraculous. And the the ripple effects are gigantic. But one when one practices that system, then there are certain healing abilities that already start to get a lot from that. Also, we’re cleaning up our own crazy karmic balance sheet in the process of doing those meditations as month thrusts and the yantra technology, college for I would also say, and this plays into Jesus and his mother. It’s very interesting, he would say the two strongest womb chakras our planet has ever seen our mother, Mary and Jesus.

And what we know from some manuscripts that Jesus left behind in South India, or is that Mother Mary herself had extraordinary divine channels. She was not an innocent 15 year old girl got hit in the head with an angel and then suddenly having a baby. She was like Kali, she had meditated millions of lifetimes to gain that lifetime. When she has Christ in her womb, as a little human being baby developing, she’s already teaching him all the layers of the creation. So it is true when he came out he was a little bit extraordinary. But still, he needed a physical eyes grow to open his channels for which he went to India. So I think we all know in the last years, but she was his first girl. She gave him information through her unbelievably strong womb chakra. And the plot thickens when he goes through the crucifixion. And it’s time to wake him up to bring his soul back into his body. She’s the one who does it. Through her physicalized very, very divine direct line to Mother Divine capability, womb Chakra which makes so much sense mechanistically and every other which way so

Alex Ferrari 59:12 There’s a technique so there’s a technique on how to activate it, how to understand it, all this kind of stuff as well.

Alx Uttermann 59:18 Yeah, I teach it. Um, so I could say so he gave us many systems over the years, dozens of systems with mantras and Yantras and different ways to approach the healing energy and different sorts of specialties of these different healing systems. I teach them all but the wound chakra is a kind of central, amazing healing system. It is really powerful, both for self healing, obviously, for many kinds of traumas, heartbreaks, cynicism, etc. are and to be able to turn around and use that energy to heal other people very powerfully at this sort of fundamental level of what we call the womb chakra.

Alex Ferrari 1:00:00 No. Did he pass already?

Alx Uttermann 1:00:02 Oh, yeah, he took off in 2012. On the Ides of March. Oh, he was 39.

Alex Ferrari 1:00:07 He was a young man. He was. He was a young man when he left.

Alx Uttermann 1:00:10 Yes. Yeah, I was surprised he made it that long, to be honest. Why? Since I met him in 1999, he was like, Ah, I’m looking for the exit. You did not want to be in the body frickin hated being in the body. And he would say, I will be so much more powerful. When I take somebody when I’m out of the body. I, I have to come physically, I have to endure this. I have to hook you guys up to certain things. And then I’m out of here. And I really think he thought it would be faster.

Alex Ferrari 1:00:40 And why did he choose to choose to come down then?

Alx Uttermann 1:00:43 Oh, it’s his duty. He can’t escape it. He has to.

Alex Ferrari 1:00:47 He had to come down. Has to? Yes. Um, Alex has been a fascinating conversation.

Afterward from Rasa: After putting together this article I looked up her website & she is CHARGING for healings – about a hundred bucks to a thousand for nine sessions. They also have COURSES which go from about $200 to $500. I don’t endorse any of this, I am not suggesting you purchase any of these services – up to you. I owe her a debt of gratitude for introducing us to Swami Kaleshwar & promoting his miracles & God/work. She does what she can & that is enough. I continue to believe in Alex Ferrari & will keep watching & talking about his valuable, informative & amazing podcasts.

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