The Picture of Kellie Everts in Esquire is in the public domain
Dan Lurie and Kellie Everts – the Beginning
From Dan Lurie’s Book “Heart of Steel” Dan Lurie with Dave Robson, Author House 2009 – Page 313
Dan Lurie wrote: Kellie Everts
The picture of Kellie Everts in Playboy is in the public domain
A young lady with a great physique, Kellie was as motivated to compete as any male bodybuilder I had worked with. I would promote her to the world and in doing this become the first publisher to profile a female bodybuilder.
In 1974, I received a call from Esquire magazine photographer Jean-Paul Goude, asking me who I would recommend as a subject for an ‘Amazonian’ spread he was planning. I instantly told him, “Kellie Everts is your lady.” In my mind she was the only female bodybuilder around at the time. In fact she was the first real female bodybuilder ever, a fact not lost on me when I put her in my December 1974 MTI. That was the very first article any muscle magazine had done on a female bodybuilding up until then.
To my mind, one thing is for sure: she was the first female to break through to make women’s bodybuilding widely known to mainstream audiences.
Kellie Everts appearances: July 1975 Esquire Magazine, “Muscle and Grit, Religion and Tit, That’s what Kellie Everts is Made of.” This was the landmark pictorial which was the first time in the world an established mainstream magazine featured a female flexing muscles and lifting weights just like men. It created a sensation.
Kellie Everts May 1977 Playboy, hoisting a barbell in the air with her bikini flying off – Playboy said women need not fear lifting weights would turn their muscles into “magic mountains,” and “To the barbells, girls!” It was six months after this that Henry McGhee presented his female bodybuilding contest which was supposed to be just like the men’s {Canton, Ohio, YMCA Nov. 1977}
After the Esquire article Kellie appeared on national TV shows: Mike Douglas, To Tell the Truth and important local shows, AM New York {three times, once with Arnold Schwarzenegger, AM Washington, Stanley Siegel three times – all prior to the first female bodybuilding shows.
After the fbb shows started, she appeared on Real People 1979 {before Laura Combes} and with Lisa Lyon 1981, the Tom Snyder Show, both doing muscle posing routines.
She won many trophies during the 70’s ‘Golden Era’ at the IFBB and WBBG Contests, winning Best Body over Anna Maria Alberici in Miss Americana 1972 {Arnold Schwarzenegger was a judge} and second place, the same during 1974 – second place Miss Americana and Best Body at the Felt Forum with Arnold Schwarzenegger. She got Miss Body Beautiful USA 2nd place 1973 and first place 1974.
There was also the important Sports Illustrated article 1980 “Miss Well WHAT?” with many interesting observations re what was going on with female bodybuilding in 1979 – the confusion, frustration, no one knowing what to train for or look for. Both the judges and the contestant were up in the air. Was it shape? beauty? muscles? size? definition? Were the women to be judged differently than the men? Some of the men thought so. Look at the title – it says it all.
A good person asked me a question & this is my answer for now & all time. The life of Jesus Christ gives us answers to most of the mysteries of life, & this is one of them, concerning fame & fortune, & what transpired for Jesus could happen to any others wanting to be a Saint.
Before Jesus started his ministry he went into the desert {mountain} to pray – to do a discipline to get close to the God within him – who He called Father. This is done with many hermits & Saints, {St. Antony, St. Benedict, St. Francis of Assisi-many others}, who went into a deserted place, or stayed within their own premises {St Catherine of Siena, St. Clare, St. Teresa of Avila-many others} away from people – to get in tune with that God within.
At the end of Jesus’ fast Satan took him to a high place & showed him all the cities expanded before him & piped,
“I will give you all the Kingdoms of the world & their glory if you will bow down & worship me.”
Of course Jesus told him to scram & that was ‘the Last Temptation.’
Now Jesus was on a Mission – he had work to do. He could have rubbed shoulders with the ‘greats’ of his day. Maybe they could have worked together.
There was Pontius Pilate – a Governor of the most powerful Empire on earth. Jesus could have done miracles for the Romans & received rewards. But He didn’t.
And King Herod had a lot of earthly power. Jesus could have been his right hand man – a spiritual advisor – Herod would have rewarded him – but He would not even SPEAK to Herod.
And the High Priest –Jesus could have hob knobbed with him & worked as a team enlightening the public. Of course the High Priest didn’t know scat about Truth – but Jesus could have influenced him. But he did no such thing.
Jesus went about his business working with no such men – He moved to a different drummer. He did associate with the Great John the Baptist – they were on the same page. And He plied his Mission with those who heard him & OBEYED his teaching – no one else There was ONE WAY to do his Mission, not two ways. What was that way?
It was his spiritual Father – God within – that is who Jesus listened to & worked with. He did not listen to the ‘wisdom’ of the world, which is fake. He listened to the Real Deal – God’s Truth – & did that & only that no matter what the consequences.
You see there are two Voices or Masters – you cannot listen to both, it’s one or the other. If you listen to one you reject the other, if you love one, you don’t respect the other. “No one can serve two masters” – NOT if they’re in conflict – & the WORLD & GOD are frequently in TOTAL conflict!
Let’s say you have your heart set on doing a certain thing. But God inside you – the still small voice if you can hear it – says no. But doing this thing might be a large jump toward success. Which do you do?
If you’re like Jesus you say
“Not my will – Thy will be done.”
If you’re of the world – which is RULED by Satan {Satan is the Prince of this world} you go for it.
Now those who follow Jesus’ ways, they might do things that derail their earthly success or prevent it for a time – but they follow God’s way. {“I am the Way, the Truth, & the Light”.}
One who follows the world might seem, temporarily, to be a winner, but in the end, they are not – Because our success is not determined in time & space. Our life is but 75 years, then gone & before us is Eternity. Our actions determine where & how that is spent – Hell, a long or short Purgatory, then Heaven. Life never ends – there is no death.
Sometimes God makes us do strange things that go against our grain.
Look what God did to Jesus – you can’t get worse than that. But look where He is today! The King of Kings, Lord of Lords – no one is Higher or more respected & loved than He!
The disciples were flabbergasted even though He explained –it fell on deaf ears. They thought Jesus whole ministry had gone down the tubes – all for nothing! He failed – they failed. They didn’t see the BIG PICTURE – Only when the Holy Spirit came upon them did they get it……..
I remember in 1978 I was working at the Playboy Club in Chicago. Every Sunday I had literature that I handed out on the street, religious stuff I had written. But one Sunday I heard the still small voice saying,
“Stop handing out literature.”
I thought this must be Satan, so I kept doing it – but after that NO ONE would take my flyers! So I said,
“OK God, I stop.”
And on the corner was a Cathedral. I went there, sat way to the back & meditated, & I said to God,
“What do you want me to do?”
She said
“Contact every news media, TV show & ask to appear,”
And I said,
“But who will want me?”
And She said,
“You haven’t tried.”
So I then spent every Sunday all day doing research on the media & writing letters to them & preparing to call them, & at the end of this, I got on every TV Show & every newspaper in Chicago including the biggest, & I even got an additional article in Playboy on “Stripping for God.”
That was a blitz that began my road to fame.
Years later I wanted to quit dancing as it was tedious & not leading to any sort of solvency. I experimented with starting a business but wasn’t sure if it would work – God told me to quit dancing & proceed with the business – I did & it was a monumental success – the beginning of my fortune.
BUT eleven years later God told me to QUIT the business – just like that. I again wasn’t sure if it was God & I continued & God appeared to me in nightmares that scared the SHIT out of me – I QUIT!
God wanted to me to leave this business & get married to a man who’d been asking me for years – but I refused. We’d been engaged forever. But God knew something I didn’t – the poor man would die soon. If I didn’t marry him I would not be his heiress & – his sister would get it all & this after 14 years together. Then God seeing my stubbornness told me to do something. I did it & it was a TRICK to get us married & we were.
And just like God knew this man died within two years & left me SOME his sizeable assets – his sister got the rest, & I was secured for life with that & my personal assets. No money worries for life – but you see – this was God telling me what to do – not the world. And it might be important to note – I was celibate during this time for thirty years – & my husband & I never had sex – before or after the marriage.
And I might also add – several rich {& handsome} men asked for my hand – one of them had 200 million – but I refused them all, because it wasn’t the path of God for me…….
One of the most BIZARRE requests or commands God made to me concerned “Stop suffering, quit the celibacy & go out, have fun.”
I took my vow of celibacy May 27, 1978 & thought it would be FOR LIFE. But after 10 years God appeared to me & asked me if I wanted OUT of it. I said no.
Again, ten years later – I thought abut it a couple weeks with anxiety & finally again said no.
Now it’s like over 30 years of celibacy, no kind of dating, making out, none of this or that – I did not even allow my fiancé to HOLD MY HAND.
But this time, God steps in. She says,
“If you don’t do this, you will be outside the will of God.”
That’s how, at the age of 63, I became a cougar! {No God did not say ‘be a cougar’ but the older men I met only wanted GIRLS.}
I still don’t understand the reason God wanted this for me, but I suspect it was because the vow had more than done it’s work, it was time to do something else with my life that would HELP EMPOWER WOMEN. So my Mission would this way continue. I did NOT wish for this. After all Jesus didn’t want to get the Cross, but he HAD TO. I did not want to leave my life of celibacy but I HAD TO.
As I said this event sounds hard to believe but other things God made me do or not do were also difficult but in the end, I know God was 100% correct. And again, it was a sort of TRICK or WHITE LIE similar to when God tricked me to marry my husband – to make sure of my security. {God did not want me desperate for money – She wanted me safe & solvent!} And this was also saying I was to quit celibacy to HAVE FUN – but mostly it was NOT FUN – a bit of it was but there was worse suffering than being celibate. My celibacy had led me to PEACE – that was trashed……
But let’s take a look at another woman who went ‘the way of all flesh’ & where it got her – It was Marilyn Monroe.
Marilyn did not consult God for her behavior or actions. She did what her body said to do – which was have sex with men who could get her forward in her career. Johnny Hyde, the William Morris agent, was pivotal.
Not only did he get her started in jobs but he paid for the surgery that made her the beauty we’re all mezmerized by. She had her nose & chin altered & I believe her lips. No one wanted the young Marilyn before her transformation – she was a bit of a failure. But after the reconstruction she was considered the most beautiful & sexy female of all time.
By following the way of the world, as well as being talented & hard working, Marilyn made it to THE TOP. No woman was more successful than she in her career. But what was Marilyn’s end? Death by suicide. She had overdosed before but her stomach got pumped, this time it was curtains.
And so here is an example how following the way of the world might give us TEMPORARY success, but does not guarantee it for a long run. Had she followed God – she could have lived a long life into her 90’s, & left behind a bigger legacy. Instead she dies age 36 – & mind you – her life was MISERABLE. Yes, she was between a rock & a hard place, there wasn’t much she could do for happiness. She was an ORPHAN with an insane Mom & a Dad deserter. That was the void that was not filled, that was the biggest reason for her misery. She tried to find happiness IN THE WORLD with PEOPLE but failed. People let her down – God would not have.
I think I have made my point. There are two roads – the way of God, the way of the world. I could have been a “star” had I married this one man in show business. But it would have been SHALLOW success, just one star out of thousands, proving what?
God had chosen me & sent me, like Jesus & many other God Lovers – into the world on a MISSION. What was my Mission? Female Empowerment – the Gender War – I was a soldier or maybe a ‘General’ in the fight to turn women into the great Matriarchs they once were.
To do this I did not see the BIG PICTURE, but God did. My only task was to LISTEN to God – hear God & OBEY & what had to be done would get done. God would use me with whatever talents, abilities & looks I had, for this specific mission.
There is no man, no flesh, mine or anyone’s, who could figure out the turns in the road.
First it was body building which helped women gain the machisma they needed to stand up to men – to prove that with muscle power, including the use of testosterone – they could give men a run for their money. Men previous to me lorded over women in body building. We were but cheesecake.
Then there was Stripping for God. Who could have predicted it? Who could have imagined a stripper giving sermons before dancing? What did this so? Prove that such a woman could be inside the Grace of God, not automatically a lowlife slut without morals – on drugs, shallow & stupid. Dorothy Parker said: “You can take a whore to culture but you can’t make her think.”
There were TWO other incredibly important things that CHANGED THE WORLD I did I will leave out of this article & explain elsewhere but let me get to the last part.
In being a COUGAR- doing it, accounting it in books, having proof through my photography – I have created an organized account that liberates women. After all, sexual liberty for us is the lynchpin against Patriarchy to establish Matriarchy – so again, I did God’s will which no one could anticipate.
Now I will leave the FINAL WORD to Mother God. She is God & She is within me. I ask Mother God is this it? No success for me, no recognition, no nothing? I did all I could, I suffered, but no banners flying, no fireworks, no accolades? Just an old soldier fading away?
Mother God: Not so fast. You’re not dead yet. I will reward you with some of the things of the world before you die. I did not put you on a pedestal before because I did not want the fake love of the word to go to your head & curtail or distract your path. It had to be a road covered with thorns. But now the thorns are gone & I will give you some of the joy of success you could have had. There will be a movie made & you will be more famous than you imagined, & before you die you will know the world will not forget you. It’s because you OBEYED God. So hang in there, fasten your seat belt, because a roller coaster will arrive & it’ll be filled with thrills & laughs. Yes my girl, you will have the last laugh. {End}
My Spiritual Husband – which means REAL husband – has died of a drug overdose on 8-14-22 … He was home with a drug partner – This
lovely person might have watched him take the
final dose.
He chose another instead of me & rehab, he wanted to keep me as his ‘back door woman’ with her up in front on social media but I said ‘no more,’ it’s either her or me. He had no way out
but death as he didn’t have the strength to leave the drugged-up ‘friends’ & benighted partner
Continue to Channel 8-17-22
For IMAGES of my spiritual husband, whose real name is Nicholas Anthony Van Dunk, see the Shiva Shrines ‘Venus, Adonis-Rasa, Jeffry’ & ‘the Holy
Grail of Manhood <> Jeffrey Michelangelo’ These shrines exemplify my love for him from day one & give some insights – A most relevant fact is that from the beginning I encouraged
him to go into rehab. His ‘friends’ were against me & my advise – These ‘friends’ are all posting on his face book after death, saying how much they loved him. But most of them
discouraged him from being with me & taking the guidance I gave. I PREDICTED over & over if he didn’t quit the drugs he would die of an overdose. But sadly, he chose his path
& now he is dead – if only his friends helped me with him, this could have been avoided. But they PRESSURED him to leave me & applauded his negative relationships.
Like wolves, they howled for him to stay with the pack. But now their tails should be between their legs. The happy side of this is he has left them, his body is gone. But he is
with me spiritually, metaphysically, he is not dead, he is alive with me. We are happy. He loves me, I love him, in True Love. He had to die to leave them, he saw
no other way; he did not have the strength to defy the demons for me.
These shrines I had put up about Nick in 2014 & 2015, I removed due to his complaints – as his friends wee razzing hm – & just now I put them back up. He is dead, they can’t harass
him any more, he & I are now free to love one another & share our love for eternity. We are happy. I can’t say this to everyone as they are so shallow they will not have the least
understanding, some of these people are less than animals – animals are good.
From friend Pete Jackson in response to my complaints about his ‘friends’ who didn’t want me with him, denied he was ever abused & took drugs to mask the pain, denied he was an addict, denied that I could help him personally or career wise, etc:
As for the people that knew him being in such denial (if not outright enablers) about his drug addiction problem and such, that was probably because either a) they were fake friends who literally didn’t care at all if he lived or died, b) they were simply far too selfish and self-centered to do anything about it, or c) they simply didn’t want to believe such a thing was true because the very idea scared the crap out of them, and perhaps they thought they could just wish it all away. The same goes for the denial about Xxxxx abusing him as well.
My article: Been speaking to him constantly & learning lots re him, some new things from his POV & he from mine. In this sort of ‘channeling’ it’s more than the usual that I do, he’s actually united to my soul as mate. In some cases of channeling I’m reading minds, the person isn’t even aware that I’m doing it.
But with Nick, since he is joined as my spiritual husband, by God, he’s in my space, I’m in his & he reads me like I read him & we are truly communicating.
His no longer having a body, but both of us being happier than ever, reminds me of the story of Abelard & Heloise:
What happened between Abelard and Heloise?
In 1115 Abelard met Heloise, who was living with her uncle, Fulbert at the Îls de Cité. At this point, she was likely in her early twenties, and Abelard decided to seduce her, offering her uncle to tutor her. At this point, she was known to be a brilliant scholar and well-versed in Latin, Greek and Hebrew. He, on the other hand, was 37 years old and in his prime as a teacher of philosophy and theology. Unfortunately, the affair ended in pregnancy and Abelard had her removed to his family home in Brittany, where she gave birth to a son, named Astrolabe. After having married her in secret, he sent Heloise to a convent at Argenteuil to protect her. Soon after, Fulbert organised a band of men, who broke into Abelard’s room, where he was castrated. As a consequence, Abelard decided to become a monk and persuaded Heloise to enter religious life. Their story, and what followed is known from his autobiographical writings, the Historia Calamitatum, seven letters between Abelard and Heloise, and four letters between Peter the Venerable and Heloise (three by Peter, one by Heloise). Also, we possess a collection of “lost love letters” which has been argued to be fragments of the illicit correspondence, which they engaged in during the winter of 1115 – 16.
Theirs was a very carnal affair! No doubt about that. For one thing, a son was born of the illicit lovemaking. Yet, the story of Abelard and Heloise is also a story of how – in a medieval context – love might be so much more than sex (amor).
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And so, God reminds me of this famous love affair because now, Nick is with me sans his body & penis, we cannot have sex – Sex was almost all we did while together – he would not openly court me because he was afraid of his peers, the ‘hood,’ & later other women. They were all against me. The majority of his friends were drug addicts & they were like a pack of wolves, ridiculing him for loving me, for the pics I took of him, shaming him for wanting a much older woman (He was 19, I was 66 when we began our love. It was July 10, 2011. I shall never forget the date.)
Of course, it could be seen many times he was after me in the clubs we frequented, but he did not permit images of us together, he did not put me on social media. Sometimes he introduced me to people as ‘his girl friend’, sometimes he hid from me & denied me – it was a horrendously stressful time for me as I was deeply in love.
So was he but he tried not to show it & his odd behavior caused at least one friend to say of him he was ‘crazy.’ {I was standing around outside in the Garden area of Uncle Tony’s. He sent a guy to go get me to dance with him – the guy came over & said Nick asked him to come get me to go to him. I told him it was no use, Nick would run away when I approached. The guy insisted, so I said, let’s go, you will see. We come up to Nick, I have my arm around the guy. Nick gets mad at the guy, tells him why is he touching me? The guy says – ‘She’s touching me, you’re crazy,’ & walks away. We had a short conversation in which Nick said wittily that he & ‘girls’ didn’t mix. I
said who do you mix with? He said ‘I mix with scotch, whiskey etc.’ – something like that. He was indirectly telling me he liked older women, not girls.
Another time we’re at ‘Flashbacks’ – a large dance floor. He keeps looking at me but won’t approach. I know approaching him is fatal, so I go up to another handsome guy. At that point he gets very close – like from 25’ away to 10’ away, trying to distract me from the guy. Then he asks another guy to get me to dance with him. I approach & he runs around the post in the club, round & round we go. Later he waited for me in the parking lot & jumped into my car.
There were times, when he simply approached me & asked me to go with him. The firs time was right on the street in front of the club, the next time was in the club & I said,
“What are you doing tonight?”
{It had been a long time since our first date. He’d cut his hair, grew a beard, I didn’t know he was the same guy! Three years had gone by we’d not seen each other – they told him I was dead!}
His answer, ‘Being with you’
& off we went.
But his common routine was not to stand with me or speak with me in public but wait for me to go to my car & secretly approach. And in the end, his most common ploy was go to the window of my 2nd floor apt, make noise, throw pebbles to my window, shine a light up from his phone. I’d get up out of bed & go open the locked front apt door & was ecstatic to see him. I always went into a trancelike state when we were near, especially when we were alone & about to make love. He never wasted one moment on that.
We had a major falling out because of the pictures I took of him & put on the internet. I paid him as a model, they are professional images both dressed, naked & erotic. They were on my site, ‘Embodiment of God’ & I put the dressed ones on face book. His peers ridiculed him & razzed him mercilessly, he asked with me to take them down but I would not. Two years later, I took most of them down. Meanwhile he would not speak to me for 9 months.
I was heartbroken; he got himself a new gf who was also a druggie. They all were, it’s hard to find one that wasn’t. He was never faithful to one. He always had some girl or other he was having sex with along with the regular steady. But he was not in love with every girl.
It’s tedious for me to write these things as I’ve done so a hundred times. Perhaps I can swing back to it bit by bit. Let me get to the now & our channeling.
He is dead, as of 2 days ago. I had to get over the grief because he’s sitting inside me & he said it took away some of his bliss. I am concerned for his happiness, so I reprogrammed my brain to realize he is here, he is happy, I must also be. He’s not dead, he said. But he is dead TO THEM.
He’s expressing to me again & again how he could not leave them no matter how much he wanted to. The people in his hood he’s known since kindergarten. They are posting pictures – dozens of them – from back when they were 10-11 years old in school. These people are a mob, the majority of them think alike, feel alike. A large percent are druggies, in fact, those he hangs with the most all are – this is true of all druggies & alcoholics, birds of a feather flock together.
This mob of ‘friends’ are mostly against me. Indeed there might be a couple who believed in our love – I had them tell me, but most of them were against us for various reasons, the main one, I wanted him in rehab, I said it again & again, that he would die if this kept up, but he didn’t believe me. Every druggie thinks he’s the one that will not overdose, but they do.
Now I see his dilemma, not having the strength to do as I asked.
He called me recently, after not speaking for a super long time. In fact, he almost never called me, in his entire life, I think it was 3 times. He would not give me his phone, but he gave it to every other girl he met!
God told me 4 months previous he would call me on June 2nd, 2022, & he did! Lucky I was awake & by the computer & phone. It was 3:44 – a call from a number unfamiliar – I usually ignore such calls but someone I knew was ill & I was afraid it might be about them, so I pick up. It’s Nick & we’ve not spoken since last time we made love – July 2019.
We speak until 5:15 – 1.5 hours. He tells me he wants to see me, he’ll find a ride to my house, which is 28 miles away. I tell him I can’t go on like we were before – him putting his gf on social media as the ‘one’ like a wife, while I’m the back door woman. I said I have to be the one he honors on face book – not her. And for us to live together, he would first have to go into rehab as I cannot live with an addict. He denies being an addict – I know he’s lying. I know the female he’s with is an addict also, that’s what keeps the relationship going. We kind of go in circles as we speak, going back to the same issues. He wants to see me, I’m not crazy about the idea. Of course, now in retrospect I regret not inviting him. Wow, how I regret. Hindsight hurts.
Now in speaking to him I will discuss the most troublesome questions. This is different from channeling, because he is right here, inside me. As I go about my duties day & night, he sees through my eyes & sometimes, not often, makes comments. He is perfectly content here, he is believe it or not, not bored, not eager to see his old friends, including any women. He does not miss anything of his prior life. He’s joyful being here, as amazing as it sounds. He did say ‘If only I still had a body, I’d like to make love to you’ & we both laughed. Our love is just as strong without the physical expression or presence. In fact, I loved him so much that I became celibate after our last meeting – simply having no desire whatever for other men. I’d rather not do it, it’s like desecrating my Sacred space to be with another man.
We spoke about that on the phone. I told him I’d not been with another man since him, that I lost my sex drive. He said,
“It’ll come back.”
I also spoke about our spiritual marriage, that we are One & can never be separated & that we would be One in eternity, after death. He said several times – can’t recall in what context – that ‘You are Anointed.’ So let me speak to him.
ME: Nick, I am troubled now that I did not let you come over during our last conversation. What would have happened had I let you?’
NICK: It would have been the same as before. It would have rekindled your extreme desire & you would have again waited weeks & weeks to hear from me, with baited breath, until I’d call & come over when I was good & ready.
You had suffered through that so many years – you would have started to suffer again. I was selfish, I did not understand your suffering because I was so self absorbed. And so, it would have been great for me but terrible for you. I would have got what I wanted, you would not have. It might have shortened your life.
ME: Yes, I agree. But would it have prevented your death?
NICK: Rasa, it was not what God wanted. You can’t be tortured that way any more. You gave me an ultimatum, I could not keep it. You’d given me years to straighten out, I could not summon he courage to do it. You struggled against yourself & got over the addiction to me. It took every ounce of what was in you, but you did it. Like you told me, you still loved me & always would, but you were no longer obsessed. To become obsessed or addicted again to seeing me would have taken a terrible price from you.
Like I said, it was not what God wanted. God tried to make me straighten out by sending you to me. Yu gave me a chance, you suffered like a dog at my hands. You got the multiple heart attacks, your life was shortened somewhat & not as comfortable. Your energy is zapped, your body hurts from all the stress. What did I care? I was just a young, brash guy using you for love – I was getting my monthly fix from you, you filled me up with so much Light I didn’t need another refill for a months. But you suffered.
Again, I repeat, this is not what God wanted any more. You’d had enough.
ME: OK. You put up such a good front, I see now. You posted again & again about what God had taken from you. I will retrieve, when I have time, all the remarks I believe pertained to me. Were they about me – where you spoke again & again what the devil did or what God had taken away?
NICK: All your dreams were true, re my pain, horrible pain. Then you’d look at my fb & I was putting up a front like I cared about sports, music & all that crap – I didn’t. I was just pretending. My mind was on you & what I had lost.
At this point, since I wasn’t complying with your requests, you’d given up & just basically said maybe it’ll never happen, so be it, God’s will. But I wanted to be with you. Not one minute went by that I didn’t. You were the fulfillment of all my desires, as I was yours.
ME: Did you actually knowingly take your own life with that overdose?
NICK: It was unconscious. I could no longer live without you. I didn’t care about life. I did not protect myself, I was careless, & because of this, I died. Unconsciously I knew that when I died, I’d flip over to be with you. That’s what I wanted. I couldn’t do it any other way, I wasn’t strong enough. You had reviewed with me, as you had before, that we were joined by God & would be together forever. I believed you & it’s true. I entered your domain, your Kingdom, your spiritual space. And I am in bliss. You are Love. Not only love for me, you love all, you love animals, people & Souls in Purgatory. I’m in the middle of all that. How could I not be happy?
Me: But the people you had a good time with, don’t you miss them? You were the life of the party. Everyone – hundreds are posting on your site. They are putting pics & videos. They are ranting & raving about you. These same people put hardly any likes when you tried to sell or promote your music, yet they are all over you now you’re dead. If one looks at all the letters, images & videos, one would think you were in love with all these people.
NICK: This was all an act. I was lively like that after drinking & drugging. Without the substances, I felt my pain from the childhood abuse. You were conscious & aware of that pain, you were concerned. You knew that was why I was an addict. You wanted desperately to heal that pain, to get me off drugs as I was in danger of OD’ing. These people never guessed at my pain, were completely unaware. They are on a much lower level. They just wanted to have fun with me, use me for entertainment. It was shallow, it was fake, it was a burden. In the end I knew I wanted & needed that True Love you gave. I couldn’t have it any more, you weren’t addicted, I had to straighten out to have you. That was the kicker – I couldn’t do it.
I was looking how to heal my pain. The drugs were temporary, you were the permanent fix. But I had to make a choice. I kept procrastinating to what I had to do until it was too late. You couldn’t wait forever. So I died, that solved the problem. No one understands the situation but you. They look at the outside, they are on the physical, shallow plane.
They speak of me being in Peace. Yes, I am at Peace, little do they know. I can’t communicate with them, speak to them. They are on such a low level compared to where I am now with you, they cannot pick up my vibes, thoughts or words. I can’t communicate with them, they can’t hear me. We are in different worlds. Now I understand you fully & what you were trying to do, level me up, bring me out of there, save me. This is the way it has to be, it is God’s will. Be happy, no grief. I could not stand up against the entire neighborhood & my druggie friends, my only way out was death. So here I am. I love you, you love me, that’s all that matters, we are happy.
Don’t share this with them, they will piss & shit on our relationship, they will have no inkling of its value or Sacredness. This is for us alone & those few that will understand. Keep it Sacred & Secret, except for the more enlightened folks.
ME: Amen. We’ll continue talking & I will share again with the good folks. I will not reach out to your fake friends. Next time I want to express what suffering you went through after you believed you had lost me.
8-17-22 Nick appears as Errol Flynn, Deep kisses & later, a sex act
There were many & involved dreams, but I only recall the highlights, as for the last months I’ve not concentrated on dreams due to working on my life story. I learned that if I don’t focus on the dreams they fade away fast, so I’m trying to retrieve now what I can.
OK, so now Nick appears as Errol Flynn. He is BUYING ME A CAR but I can’t make up my mind what I want – used car, new car, just recall I wanted WHITE. I am so undecisive he gets frustrated & mad, I try to appease him, saying,
*** (ERROL FLYNN: You got in touch with Errol in Purgatory & ministered to him. He was famous as a great lover. You had a charismatic {Holy Spirit} union or relationship for the months you ministered to him. Nick was like that – a Holy Spirit relationship, but he was also in a ‘Purgatory’ over you. Not sure what this means as to how you frustrated him, but the WHITE is the MARRIAGE or RELATIONSHIP. You didn’t want JUST SEX, you wanted a relationship. You broke up with him because he would not commit at one time, he vomited from the car window. Was that 2015, for a few months? Later, you made up again & continued making love. This might be saying that when you would not give him sex he was frustrated & angry.) ***
“I’m sorry, I just couldn’t make up my mind what I wanted.”
We are at the car dealership off to the side, he’s in a vehicle like in a driver’s seat, leaning back, I am like in the passenger seat. I calm him down. I kiss him – before that he was so sad he almost cried. We kiss softly & our tongues meet & we do this kissing for a long time, everything is SOLVED, we are reconciled, we are at peace
*** {TONGUE KISSING: This must be the reconciliation, all is well as you started up again.} ***
I have many dreams I forgot but the next thing I know he has a hardon & I am doing something sexual to him, he has an orgasm. It happened so fast. His entire body got hot, I could see outlines of red around his body, & feel it, he came to life so to speak & the orgasm was ready. There was no prolonged like stroking or humping, he was READY fast.
*** {READY FAST, HARDON, ORGASM, PEACE: This is your reconciliation NOW. You & he are back together, like Healthcliff & Cathy after along separation.
{She died & came back. She had married another man through a misunderstanding. Got sick & died in Heathcliff’s arms. He begged her to come back & haunt him. Someone saw him walking with a woman in the snow, in the field toward the heather where the two of them romped. Later they went there, there was only one set of footprints, his. It was metaphysical but real. They were united, happy finally. Same with you. He died, you are together at last.}
It’s metaphysical but real nonetheless. When people make love, energy passes through. It is that energy that is the most vital, not an empty physical act. When there is love in it, it has meaning, substance. So here you are, loving one another, reconciled, happy & at peace once again. All you needed was to make love, you are doing it.
Nick was no different than Cathy in ‘Wuthering heights. He forfeited you partially through a misunderstanding {in the book he thought she denied him, he ran away in the night. But he did not hear the words ‘I am Healthcliff’ meaning they were One, so it was a broken heart. You also saw him touting everyone but you on his face book – you felt ousted & betrayed, but wrongly so. The love between you was absolute. But he had hundreds of people – thousands – wanting him to stay in the standards of his society, which included drugs. You were the interloper or outcast who begged for his rehab, the way Heathcliff was to high society, originating as a waif of a boy from Liverpool. Healthcliff came back, it was too late. She could not leave her husband & society, she said she didn’t want to live any more, so she died. In the same way, when Nick found out you demanded that he leave his fake people, but he could not, his only way out was death. So he died, now he ‘haunts’ you but it isn’t spooky haunting, you are together more real than the flesh.} ***
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from RASA VON WERDER: FRIENDS THESE ARE THE PEOPLE RUNNING OUR WORLD TODAY. THEY ARE DEMONS IN THE FORMS OF MEN. DO NOT ALLOW YOUR CHILD TO GET ANY KIND OF VACCINE, DO NOT GET ANY KIND OF VACCINE, DO NOT GET A MICROCHIP IF THEY EVER TRY TO FORCE YOU. AGAIN, THIS IS PATRIARCHY, RULE OF THE MALE. GOD DID NOT CREATE MEN TO RULE THE FAMILY & THE WORLD, THEY ARE NOT SUITABLE.
GOD / WOMEN MADE MEN LONG AGO AS HELPMATES TO WOMEN, BUT SOMETHING HAPPENED THAT ONE THIRD OF THEM BECAME DEMONIC. THESE DEMONICS ARE RUTHLESS, AGGRESSIVE, NO-CONSCIENCE MURDERERS. THEY ARE WHO IS RULING THE WORLD. EVERYONE IS AFRAID OF THEM – THE GOOD MEN AS WELL AS WOMEN. THERE WILL BE NO MAN ON A WHITE HORSE. THERE WILL ONLY BE MOTHER GOD, WORKING THROUGH WOMEN, TO TAKE BACK THE FAMILY & THE WORLD.
MOTHER GOD’S SOLUTION TO THE PROBLEM IS THE EXTINCTION OF MEN – WOMEN CAN REPRODUCE WITHOUT MEN. IN FUTURE IT WILL BE A WOMAN-ONLY WORLD, 99% OF THE CONFLICTS, CRIMES & SINS WILL BE ABOLISHED.
MEN LIKE KISSINGER, BILL GATES & OTHERS ARE TRYING TO CURB THE WORLD POPULATION LIKE THIS. THEY WAY IT WILL BE NATURALLY DIMINISHED IS TO STOP PATRIARCHY – IT’S PATRIARCHS WHO ARE FORCING UNWANTED PREGNANCIES & SERIAL PREGNANCIES ON WOMEN. IT’S ALL ABOUT THEIR OWN EGO, MORE MALES NEEDED FOR WORK & WAR – IT’S PART OF THEIR DEMONIC STRONGHOLD TO WANT LOTS OF MEN FOR VIOLENCE-PARTNERS, LOTS OF WOMEN FOR SEX & BREEDING.
PEOPLE LIKE BILL GATES ARE USING THEIR MONEY POWER TO FORCE BIOWARFARE ON ‘STRANGERS’, THOSE THEY DON’T LIKE, THOSE WHO ARE HELPLESS & VULNERABLE, & THOSE THEY WANT TO ROB. HOWEVER, AT THE END OF THIS ARTICLE IT EXPLAINS HOW IT’S NOW CLOSE TO HOME, THEY ARE TARGETING AMERICANS AS WELL. (WHAT AM I SAYING, THEY ALWAYS TARGETED AMERICANS, JUST NOT AS COMPLETELY AS THEY DID OTHERS.)……..
4-10-20-ROBERT F KENNEDY JR ON BILL GATES & VACCINES
“Vaccines, for Bill Gates, are a strategic philanthropy that feed his many vaccine-related businesses (including Microsoft’s ambition to control a global vac ID enterprise) and give him dictatorial control over global health policy—the spear tip of corporate neo-imperialism.
Gates’ obsession with vaccines seems fueled by a messianic conviction that he is ordained to save the world with technology and a god-like willingness to experiment with the lives of lesser humans.
Promising to eradicate Polio with $1.2 billion, Gates took control of India ‘s National Advisory Board (NAB) and mandated 50 polio vaccines (up from 5) to every child before age 5. Indian doctors blame the Gates campaign for a devastating vaccine-strain polio epidemic that paralyzed 496,000 children between 2000 and 2017. In 2017, the Indian Government dialed back Gates’ vaccine regimen and evicted Gates and his cronies from the NAB. Polio paralysis rates dropped precipitously.
In 2017, the World Health Organization reluctantly admitted that the global polio explosion is predominantly vaccine strain, meaning it is coming from Gates’ Vaccine Program. The most frightening epidemics in Congo, the Philippines, and Afghanistan are all linked to Gates’ vaccines. By 2018, ¾ of global polio cases were from Gates’ vaccines.
In 2014, the Gates Foundation funded tests of experimental HPV vaccines, developed by GSK and Merck, on 23,000 young girls in remote Indian provinces. Approximately 1,200 suffered severe side effects, including autoimmune and fertility disorders. Seven died. Indian government investigations charged that Gates funded researchers committed pervasive ethical violations: pressuring vulnerable village girls into the trial, bullying parents, forging consent forms, and refusing medical care to the injured girls. The case is now in the country’s Supreme Court.
In 2010, the Gates Foundation funded a trial of a GSK’s experimental malaria vaccine, killing 151 African infants and causing serious adverse effects including paralysis, seizure, and febrile convulsions to 1,048 of the 5,049 children.
During Gates 2002 MenAfriVac Campaign in Sub-Saharan Africa, Gates operatives forcibly vaccinated thousands of African children against meningitis. Between 50-500 children developed paralysis. South African newspapers complained, “We are guinea pigs for drug makers” Nelson Mandela’s former Senior Economist, Professor Patrick Bond, describes Gates’ philanthropic practices as “ruthless” and immoral”.
In 2010, Gates committed $ 10 billion to the WHO promising to reduce population, in part, through new vaccines. A month later Gates told a Ted Talk that new vaccines “could reduce population”.
In 2014, Kenya’s Catholic Doctors Association accused the WHO of chemically sterilizing millions of unwilling Kenyan women with a phony “tetanus” vaccine campaign. Independent labs found the sterility formula in every vaccine tested. After denying the charges, WHO finally admitted it had been developing the sterility vaccines for over a decade. Similar accusations came from Tanzania, Nicaragua, Mexico and the Philippines.
A 2017 study (Morgensen et.Al.2017) showed that WHO’s popular DTP is killing more African than the disease it pretends to prevent. Vaccinated girls suffered 10x the death rate of unvaccinated children.
Gates and the WHO refused to recall the lethal vaccine which WHO forces upon millions of African children annually. Global public health advocates around the world accuse Gates of – hijacking WHO’s agenda away from the projects that are proven to curb infectious diseases; clean water, hygiene, nutrition and economic development. They say he has diverted agency resources to serve his personal fetish – that good health only comes in a syringe.
In addition to using his philanthropy to control WHO, UNICEF, GAVI and PATH, Gates funds private pharmaceutical companies that manufacture vaccines, and a massive network of pharmaceutical -industry front groups that broadcast deceptive propaganda, develop fraudulent studies, conduct surveillance and psychological operations against vaccine hesitancy and use Gates’ power and money to silence dissent and coerce compliance.
In this recent nonstop Pharmedia appearances, Gates appears gleeful that the Covid-19 crisis will give him the opportunity to force his third-world vaccine programs on American children.”
Blessed are the eyes that recognized beauty, that searched for it with no rest in thousands of living men and internet.
The woman who sought found the Golden Ring in a ghostly city that only came to life when college was in session.
Suddenly a boy was there. If anyone has said that no one is perfect, he lied. She asked him,
“Do you realize how beautiful you are?” He said no, and even when she stood him in front of a mirror and pointed it out, the truth was hidden to himself.
“Look at your almond eyes, your eyebrows arched to perfection, the brow just so, a nose like Errol Flynn, the upper lip like a heart over the lower, the shape of your skull is a Greek God, your hair curls just right and frames your face!”
He saw nothing – just an average guy – his friends and family took him for granted; he can’t be special because we know him. They never told him he was beautiful because they couldn’t see it. The woman was astounded.
It was three years before she saw him again, in a bar. Curly locks shorn, he had a beard. Who was this tall young man? The encounter was trancelike; he was there, then he was gone – was this real or some kind of hallucination? Not a dream, he left physical evidence of their meeting, giving her the chain around his neck.
It was the boy of three years ago!
Now she knew where to find him! Could he model? – then there would be proof of what she claimed. A fear tempted her faith, that light and shadow would betray her visual perception.
But voila, the images portrayed him as a genetic miracle. Every photograph was perfect, he had no flaw – the first model without one. She had found the Holy Grail of Manhood.
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NEW BOOK “AMERICA’S MOST BEAUTIFUL MEN” WILL BE OUT SOON
NEW BOOK “AMERICA’S MOST BEAUTIFUL MEN” WILL BE OUT SOON
NEW BOOK “AMERICA’S MOST BEAUTIFUL MEN” WILL BE OUT SOON
Unanimous Decision
The pros who saw the pictures of Rasa Von Werder agreed Jeffry Michelangelo was the best.
The locals who knew him never saw it – neither did he. She pondered the mystery “why?” and concluded: Because the eyes see what the brain tells them. If the brain is not trained a certain way the listener or looker does not know what it perceives. A jewel or gem could be passed over by thousands, who don’t understand the difference between a red rock or a ruby, or glass compared to diamond. Classical music cannot be critiqued by a plebeian; the unschooled take no pleasure in it.
Jeffry Michelangelo, therefore, has been declared by Rasa and her associates, as the Most Beautiful Man in America.
If anyone dissents, let us see the evidence.
HE IS GIVEN TO ONE WOMAN BY THE GRACE OF GOD
NEW BOOK “AMERICA’S MOST BEAUTIFUL MEN” WILL BE OUT SOON
RASA VON WERDER IS SEEKING THE MOST BEAUTIFUL MALES IN AMERICA FOR PAID WORK–CONTACT HER IF YOU KNOW OF ANY
WORSHIP GOD THROUGH THE BODY AND ALL CREATED THINGS
THERE ARE NO TWO THINGS; GOD AND MATTER. MATTER IS GOD, GOD IS MATTER. ALL IS ENERGY AND ENDS IN INFINITY.
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NEW BOOK “AMERICA’S MOST BEAUTIFUL MEN” WILL BE OUT SOON
NEW BOOK “AMERICA’S MOST BEAUTIFUL MEN” WILL BE OUT SOON
WOMEN WANT SOMETHING IN SEX THAT MEN ARE SLOW TO GIVE
HONOR MOTHER GOD AND HER SEX
OLD WOMEN MUST TEACH BOYS AND MEN HOW TO MAKE LOVE. OTHERWISE YOU HAVE “BLOW AND HUMP” – THE STANDARD, FOR WOMEN, DISAPPOINTING RITUAL OF SEX.
NEW BOOK “AMERICA’S MOST BEAUTIFUL MEN” WILL BE OUT SOON
NEW BOOK “AMERICA’S MOST BEAUTIFUL MEN” WILL BE OUT SOON
OLD WOMEN MUST TEACH BOYS AND MEN HOW TO MAKE LOVE. OTHERWISE YOU HAVE “BLOW AND HUMP” – THE STANDARD, FOR WOMEN, DISAPPOINTING RITUAL OF SEX.SEX IS SACRED WHEN YOU MAKE IT SO
SHAKTIISM IS 22,000 YEARS OLD. ALL PATRIARCHAL RELIGIONS ORIGINATED FROM MOTHER GOD WORSHIP. THEY WERE APPROPRIATED TO MALE INTERESTS.
WE’LL REGAIN A HEALTHY VIEW OF SEX WITH MATRIARCHY–THAT SEX IS BLESSED AND SACRED
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THE BODY IS GOD – SEE GOD IN ALL THINGS – WORSHIP GOD IN MATERIAL AS WELL AS SPIRITUAL
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WHEN WOMEN RULE THEY WILL END WHOLESALE VIOLENCE AND THE GLORIFICATION OF UNTIMELY DEATH
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GOD IS INFINITE ENERGY AND GOD IS WITHIN YOU. THIS IS WHO YOU ARE.
the HOLY GRAIL of MANHOOD, JEFFRY MICHELANGELO
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NEW BOOK “AMERICA’S MOST BEAUTIFUL MEN” WILL BE OUT SOON
BEAUTIFUL E MANUEL – HAPPY NEW YEAR 2015!
THE MOST BEAUTIFUL MAN OF ALL THE BEAUTIES HAS BEEN CHOSE – JEFF MICHELANGELO – THIS IS ONE OF THE CANDIDATES
HE IS OVERWHELMED WITH LOVE WHEN HE SEES RASA
SHAKTIISM IS 22,000 YEARS OLD. ALL PATRIARCHAL RELIGIONS ORIGINATED FROM MOTHER GOD WORSHIP. THEY WERE APPROPRIATED TO MALE INTERESTS.
HE IS OVERWHELMED WITH LOVE WHEN HE SEES RASA
WHEN YOU ENGAGE IN SEX, THINK OF THE GOD WHO CREATED IT AND THANK HER FOR IT. GRATITUDE FOR SEX IS RIGHTEOUS.
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NEW BOOK “AMERICA’S MOST BEAUTIFUL MEN” WILL BE OUT SOON
NEW BOOK “AMERICA’S MOST BEAUTIFUL MEN” WILL BE OUT SOON
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E MANUEL IS ESPECIALLY BEAUTIFUL
MODEL: E MANUEL
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JEFFRY & RASA DESTINED TO GO DOWN THE AISLE
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BEAUTIFUL E MANUEL
NEW BOOK “AMERICA’S MOST BEAUTIFUL MEN” WILL BE OUT SOON
SEX IS SACRED WHEN YOU MAKE IT SO
SEE WHAT GOD CREATED IN THE BEAUTY OF E MANUEL
NEW BOOK “AMERICA’S MOST BEAUTIFUL MEN” WILL BE OUT SOON
OLD WOMEN MUST TEACH BOYS AND MEN HOW TO MAKE LOVE. OTHERWISE YOU HAVE “BLOW AND HUMP” – THE STANDARD, FOR WOMEN, DISAPPOINTING RITUAL OF SEX.
NEW BOOK “AMERICA’S MOST BEAUTIFUL MEN” WILL BE OUT SOON
Guru Rasa has added to her collection of hats that of photographer. She is taking pictures of the most amazing looking men she can find, and this is one of them. Book being planned now is “America’s Most Beautiful Men.”
A DISCIPLE’S TESTIMONY – HE TRIED OTHER GURUS BUT NONE WORKED LIKE GURU RASA. SO HE IS FOR THE TRUE POWER OF GOD IN RASA. GURU RASA’S COMMENTS IN CAPS
BEAUTIFUL E MANUEL
i have stated my journey and seem a lot of different scenarios of spirituality from last many years. i have seen, met and interacted with many nice people and few of them were really expert. In the start, i wanted a ” True Spiritual Teacher ” then i found that only a ” Guru ” can help me and a true guru is not an ordinary spiritual teacher, but one who has attained union with God and is therefore qualified to lead others to that goal. The guru as “dispeller of darkness” (gu, “darkness,” and ru, “that which dispels.”)
RASA SAYS: THE DARKNESS I DISPEL IS ONE OF THE CONNECTION WITH LOWER ENERGIES AND LOWER THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS. I ASSIST THE DISCIPLE TO RISE THROUGH THE CHAKRAS, TO BE BORN AGAIN, AND BEGIN THE ASCENT INTO THE SAHASRARA.
SEE WHAT GOD CREATED IN THE BEAUTY OF E MANUEL
WOMEN WANT SOMETHING IN SEX THAT MEN ARE SLOW TO GIVE
MODEL: E MANUEL
OLD WOMEN MUST TEACH BOYS LOVE MAKING
WE NEED TO SEE ONE ANOTHER WITH RESPECT IN SPITE OF OUR FAULTS – GOD IS IN US
The role of the guru is to help his disciples find liberation in God through a very personal spiritual bond formed between guru and disciple, a union of loyal spiritual endeavor on the part of the disciple and divine blessings by the Guru.
RASA SAYS: YOU MUST INVITE ME INTO YOUR HEART. CLEAR YOUR HEART OF OTHER ATTACHMENTS, INVITE ME IN. A LINK IS FORMED, A BOND. THE MORE DEVOTION YOU SHOW ME, THE MORE OBEDIENCE TO MY TEACHINGS AND BLESSINGS, THE MORE POWER YOU GET. BECOME LUKEWARM, THE POWER MIGHT WANE. FORGET ME, THE POWER DIMINISHES. REPUDIATE ME, THE POWER STOPS. I HAD ONE DISCIPLE COME UNDER THE SWAY OF A BLACK-MAGIC WOMAN. SHE PERSUADED HIM TO UN –INSTALL ME FROM HIS HEART. I HAD A DREAM HE HAD LEFT GOD AND WAS ON IS WAY TO HELL. I CALLED HIM AND ASKED HIM WHAT HE HAD DONE. HE CONFESSED. I ASKED HIM TO INSTALL ME AGAIN AND HE WAS REUNITED WITH GOD, HIS LIFE SAVED. THE WOMAN WHO BEGUILED HIM WAS JEALOUS OF MY POWER, WANTED TO BE INFLUENTIAL LIKE ME, BUT SHE DID NOT HAVE THE ANOINTING. I AM TARGETED BY NUMEROUS JEALOUS WOMAN WHO WANT TO FILL MY SHOES BUT THEY CANNOT.
i want to be an ideal devotee, the perfect disciple. i met ” Rasa Von Werder ” and found her a real, true Guru. At this stage , i understand that we can love a Guru, but we cannot possess a Guru. The Guru breaks the pattern of possessing love. Whenever we seem dictating terms or becoming possessive, He/she will do the complete opposite – tighten the screw or loosen the screw, as it is needed.
RASA SAYS: THERE IS A PROBLEM WITH MEN, THAT SOME OF THEM WANT TO POSSESS ME PHYSICALLY AS A MAN-TO-WOMAN THING. NO MAN CAN POSSESS ME UNLESS I WANT HIM TO, UNLESS I CHOOSE HIM. THE MEN I HAVE SEX WITH AND MY FUTURE HUSBAND ARE NOT THE SAME AS DISCIPLES, ALTHOUGH SOME OF THEM MIGHT BECOME DISCIPLES AND MY HUSBAND WILL BE MY DISCIPLE, I DO NOT HAVE SEX WITH DISCIPLES ORDINARILY. UNLESS I TELL A DISCIPLE I WANT TO HAVE SEX WITH HIM HE SHOULD REFRAIN FROM CHASING ME AS A MAN TO A WOMAN, AS THAT WILL PUSH ME AWAY RATHER THAN DRAW ME TO HIM. IT MEANS HE IS LOOKING AT ME IN THE EYES OF THE FLESH. THE DISCIPLE MUST LOOK TO ME AS GOD-ON-EARTH, THE SAME AS IF HE SAW JESUS ON EARTH IN A WOMAN’S BODY.
At the same time, a Guru is not doing anything. It is just happening through Him / Her. It is happening through the Big Mind. There is no pre-conceived plan of action. Actions are spontaneous.
RASA SAYS: THE ANOINTING HAPPENS AUTOMATICALLY. DO NOT ASK ME TO PRAY. ASK ME TO ANSWER YOUR PRAYER. I AM GOD ON EARTH, THE SAME AS JESUS.
I understand that we should not change Guru-disciple relationship into just another relationship, like father, brother, sister, wife or close friend. It’s not like any other relationship except the relationship with Mother and its more than 1000 times. Otherwise, we will get into the same type of possessive attitude. Guru is all wisdom and love. Guru is that principle which is wisdom and love, and that is awakened in each one who has stepped onto the path.
RASA SAYS: THE GURU IS GOD ON EARTH, NOT YOUR RELATIVE IN THE FLESH. IT IS A DIVINE RELATIONSHIP WHICH IS NOT LIMITED TO THE PHYSICAL. MOST RELATIVES ARE NOT GOD ON EARTH, THEY ARE NOT ENLIGHTENED OR SELF REALIZED, THEIR LOVE, WISDOM AND POWER ARE LIMITED, SOME PARENTS AND RELATIVES ARE HELL-BENT, THEIR EARTHLY PRESENCE CANNOT SAVE OTHERS. SOME RELATIVES LEAD US TO HELL, NOT TO HEAVEN. BEWARE OF ATTACHMENT TO RELATIVES, EVEN YOUR OWN PARENTS, WHEN THEY ARE NOT OF GOD.
i found Guru Rasa to be a person, a Guru who has no gap between life and wisdom and love, and my purpose of becoming a disciple is to bridge that gap. People have different reasons to be with a Guru but i think mine are: to have my wishes fulfilled and because it is more pleasurable (ed: do you mean happiness?). When everything looks more painful to me and i come for comfort to be a good disciple of my Guru. i want to evolve and become Enlightened. i want to know higher Knowledge. i have my goals and my vision, i want to share . I want to just obey, serve and give comfort to the Guru. i should be with the Guru because i belong to Her.
There is no choice. So the necessity for a guru cannot be avoided, because no one is so wise as to know everything about the past, present and future. All problems are new when they come. So, we require a superior to guide us. The teacher should not be one at variance with his knowledge. He or She should be the one who is not different from that which he teaches. Nowadays, we have learned people, professors, scholars who are supposed to be repositories of knowledge, but their life is different from what they preach. Knowledge becomes meaningful when it is lived, and not merely taught, or heard or read about. This knowledge cannot be obtained through mere study for oneself. It requires the grace of a Guru and Guru Rasa Von Werder is one of the best gurus. i surrender myself to the Her wholly and solely, and i hope that She takes on the responsibility of looking after the welfare of the soul of Her devoted disciple.
RASA SAYS: A GURU IS A PERSON WHO HAS TRANSCENDED PHYSICAL KNOWLEDGE, THEY HAVE ASCENDED IN TO THE HIGHEST REACHES. SOME GURUS, LIKE MYSELF, HAVE RISEN INTO THE SAHASRARA, THE HIGHEST LEVEL, AND THEY HAVE SEEN GOD FACE TO FACE AND FOUND THAT GOD IS THEMSELVES. THEY HAVE LOOKED INTO THE SPIRITUAL MIRROR. HAVING A DEGREE, EVEN ONE OR MORE DOCTOR DEGREES, IN THE KNOWLEDGE OF LIFE ON EARTH, DOES NOT TRANSLATE INTO SPIRITUAL SALVATION. ONLY RISING THROUGH THE CHAKRAS MEANS EVOLUTION. WHEN YOU JOIN WITH YOUR GURU, THE GURU LENDS YOU THEIR POWER SO YOU CAN ASCEND THROUGH YOUR CHAKRAS AND FIND YOURSELF, SO YOU CAN BE LIKE THE GURU, WHO HAS FOUND GOD WITHIN HERSELF AND WORSHIPS HERSELF AS GOD. THIS IS NOT BLASPHEMY, THIS IS TAUGHT BY THE GREAT BUDDHISTS AND YOGIS FROM THOUSANDS OF YEARS. GOD IS WITHIN, WHEN WE REACH ENLIGHTENMENT WE CONNECT WITH THE GOD WITHIN US.
i feel inside me that the relationship is deeper than all other relations like man and wife, friends or father and son. The wife can live without the husband, and the husband without wife, but with the true guru and disciple, who share a pure love, the notion of duality disappears and a unity takes place. This is not the same type of love that exists between family members, but something much greater and longer lasting. The relationship is neither rational nor emotional, but of a psychic nature. The spiritual interaction between a guru and disciple takes place without any disturbance to the mind and the guru’s presence is always felt. The moment the disciple thinks of the guru, his mind quiets down and communion takes place. The main duty of the guru is to help remove the darkness of avidya (ignorance) by guiding the evolution of the spiritual aspirant. Guru teaches all kinds of physical, psychic and spiritual planes, and helps the disciple to follow the correct path. The duty of the disciple is to serve and obey the guru and to learn from his teachings, gain from his knowledge and so become self-purified.
RASA SAYS: THE GURU IS SENT TO YOU BY GOD, AS GOD, GOD APPEARS IN THE FLESH WHEN YOU FIND A GURU – IF THE GURU IS LIVING. IT IS EXTREMELY RARE TO FIND A GURU ON EARTH, IN THE BODY OF A PERSON. BUT IF YOU ARE SINCERE, IT CAN HAPPEN. BE GRATEFUL. MOST OF MY GURUS WERE DEAD, BUT I DID HAVE TWO THAT WERE LIVING. ONE HAPPENED WAY EARLY IN MY CAREER, IN THE 70’S, THE OTHER WAS LATE IN MY SPIRITUAL CAREER, IN THE 2000’S. BOTH WERE FEMALES, AND THERE WERE STRONG DIFFICULTIES WITH THEM (JEALOUSY FROM THE FIRST, AND GREED, AND THE SECOND, MISUNDERSTANDINGS). HOWEVER, I LOOKED BEYOND THE FLESH AND TO THE GOD THAT WAS INSIDE THE GURU AND I EVOLVED FROM THEM.
i suggest that a guru is necessary for those people who want to follow the spiritual path and it is important that the relationship is formed correctly. When the guru’s guidance is of a pure nature, the disciple will never fail, unless he leaves the guru due to lack of interest. He may also get discouraged and leave, not understanding the true nature of the guru’s help. The guru watches, instructs and warns his followers in many different ways and on different levels of consciousness. With pure love and constant awareness of his disciples, he is always guiding them.
RASA SAYS: I DO NOT USUALLY GET PHYSICALLY INVOLVED WITH MY DISCIPLES, BECAUSE THAT WOULD TAKE AWAY FROM MY WORK. I AM A TEACHER. I TEACH BY EXAMPLE AND THROUGH WRITINGS. IF I GOT PHYSICALLY INVOLVED WITH MY DISCPLES IT WOULD EAT UP MY TIME AND ENERGY FOR THE WORK. AFTER ALL, EARTHLY PROBLEMS ARE MULTITUDINOUS, THEY NEVER END. I CANNOT GET INVOLVED. THE DISCIPLE MUST UNDERSTAND THIS AND LOOK UPON ME LIKE A SAINT IN HEAVEN, TO WHOM HE/SHE PRAYS. THE SAINT DOES GREAT THINGS, BUT SHE IS NOT ON THE EARTH GETTING INVOLVED WITH YOUR PROBLEMS.
Even if the guru is far away, it does not matter. A mother continues caring for her child even if he is on the other side of the world. In the same way the guru’s guidance is both present and necessary at all times.
RASA SAYS: MOTHER/CHILD RELATIONSHIPS HAVE TO BE PHYSICAL AS WELL AS EMOTIONAL (with small children), AND A HUSBAND/WIFE HAVE TO BE TOGETHER TO MAKE IT WORK (in most cases). BUT THE GURU/DISCIPLE DO NOT HAVE TO BE PHYSICALLY PRESENT FOR IT TO WORK; IN FACT, PHYSICAL PRESENCE CAN GUM UP THE WORKS, CAN CONFUSE THE ISSUES, WHEN THE DISCIPLE STARTS LOOKING ON THE GURU IN A PHYSICAL WAY OR THE GURU GETS TOO PHYSICALLY ATTACHED TO THE DISCIPLE.
PATRIARCHY DEFINED SEX AS DIRTY, IMMORAL AND SUBJECT TO THEIR RULES. THEN THEY CAPITALYZED ON THE PROHIBITIONS BY MARKETING SEX FOR MONEY.
PATRIARCHY DEFINED SEX AS DIRTY, IMMORAL AND SUBJECT TO THEIR RULES. THEN THEY CAPITALYZED ON THE PROHIBITIONS BY MARKETING SEX FOR MONEY.
GOD CREATES BEAUTY, HARMONY AND LOVE. SEX IS SACRED. WORSHIP GOD THROUGH SEX.
SEE WHAT GOD CREATED IN THE BEAUTY OF E MANUEL
PATRIARCHY DEFINED SEX AS DIRTY, IMMORAL AND SUBJECT TO THEIR RULES. THEN THEY CAPITALYZED ON THE PROHIBITIONS BY MARKETING SEX FOR MONEY.
WORSHIP GOD THROUGH THE BODY AND ALL CREATED THINGS
IN THE DAYS OF MATRIARCHY SEX WAS OPEN AND FREE. PEOPLE HAD FUN WITH IT, AND THEY SAW IT AS BLESSED, HOLY AND SACRED.
WORSHIP GOD THROUGH THE BODY AND ALL CREATED THINGS
GOD CREATES BEAUTY, HARMONY AND LOVE. SEX IS SACRED. WORSHIP GOD THROUGH SEX.
GOD CREATES BEAUTY, HARMONY AND LOVE. SEX IS SACRED. WORSHIP GOD THROUGH SEX.
PATRIARCHY DEFINED SEX AS DIRTY, IMMORAL AND SUBJECT TO THEIR RULES. THEN THEY CAPITALYZED ON THE PROHIBITIONS BY MARKETING SEX FOR MONEY.
WORSHIP GOD THROUGH THE BODY AND ALL CREATED THINGS
WORSHIP GOD THROUGH THE BODY AND ALL CREATED THINGS
BEAUTIFUL E MANUEL – HAPPY NEW YEAR 2015!
IN THE DAYS OF MATRIARCHY SEX WAS OPEN AND FREE. PEOPLE HAD FUN WITH IT, AND THEY SAW IT AS BLESSED, HOLY AND SACRED.
WORSHIP GOD THROUGH THE BODY AND ALL CREATED THINGS
PATRIARCHY DEFINED SEX AS DIRTY, IMMORAL AND SUBJECT TO THEIR RULES. THEN THEY CAPITALYZED ON THE PROHIBITIONS BY MARKETING SEX FOR MONEY.
WORSHIP GOD THROUGH THE BODY AND ALL CREATED THINGS
PATRIARCHY DEFINED SEX AS DIRTY, IMMORAL AND SUBJECT TO THEIR RULES. THEN THEY CAPITALYZED ON THE PROHIBITIONS BY MARKETING SEX FOR MONEY.
i am so proud to be Her disciple and She is here to help and to bring the Power, Anointing, Healing, Transformation, Bliss, Blessings, Protection from God Almighty. Her special role has been the Empowerment of Women. i feel so honor that She appeared in my life, i feel a fortunate human being who has God call to me for “the Kingdom of God” – to all great things. i feel more spiritually special and capable. i believe that Rasa is from God and of God, and has the Power of God. i never put any requirements on Her, i dont want to serve her in person (ed: unless she asks?), dont want to live with her nor seek her for physical presence. i respect the Power that is in Guru Rasa, who is from God, not an ordinary person. She is so special, i have to learn many more things on this spiritual journey. My Christmas gift is my submission to Guru Rasa. i want to receive Guru Rasa Power her Anointing as Her disciple. i love Her, my time and attention for Her. i have to read more Her teachings are on the websites and blogs.
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to everyone!…..John Alia
RASA SAYS: THANK YOU JOHN, AND TO ALL MY DISCIPLES, FRIENDS AND ASSOCIATES, LOTS OF LOVE AND HAPPY NEW YEAR 2015! GURU RASA VON WERDER 12 28 14
William Bond channels for Rasa on her love affair Channeling
First of all, this relationship is your creation, in you learning how to use your God-like power. There can be no failure in this, even if he asserts his own freewill in a negative way and rejects you, there will be many others who will be willing to take his place.
E MANUEL IS A SPECIAL TREAT FOR CHRISTMAS 2014
BEAUTY OF E MANUEL
Yes, he is hooked by drugs and his friends, but he can also be addicted to you, or more correctly, your happiness. His friends are no help to him because if he tells them about his experiences with you, they will disparage it and mock him. (Do not throw your pearls before swine, as they will trample them in the mud).
You are unique because you are more uninhibited than most people and in this state of “letting it go”, you are able to find more happiness and pleasure than most people. (This is why so many people take drugs as this is they only way they can let go, but you do not have to use drugs to do this). This is why you became a star-performer. Great performers, (whether they are entertainers, preachers or politicians) are people who greatly enjoy being the centre of attention and performing, – because the audience feeds off the enjoyment of the performer. So when you were a stripper, the audience thought they were there to see you in the nude. But you added far more to this, because you enjoyed what you were doing and they were unknowingly feeding off your great enjoyment.
OLD WOMEN MUST TEACH BOYS LOVE MAKING
This is still happening when you go downtown, because you have few inhibitions to being able to enjoy yourself, people around you are feeding off you, when you are happy. So you freely give your gift of happiness and enjoyment to those who are able to receive it.
This then is why your boyfriend can become addicted to you. He and his friends use drugs to find happiness, but he can also find greater happiness being with you. More than that, when you are blissfully happy and you give him your attention, it is to him, like someone shining a spotlight of happiness onto him.
MODEL: E MANUEL
OLD WOMEN MUST TEACH BOYS LOVE MAKING
The same is also true when you are in communication with MotherGod. When you are ONE with MotherGod is his presence, then can feel the God-like energy coming through you. So if he was to worship you while you are in this state of mind, then you can truly say he is worshiping a Goddess. As he can feel the spiritual energy come through you.
The barrier between you and him on a deeper level is not drugs, his friends or fear of the unknown, but his own negative thinking. This is also true of many previous young men whom you have attempted to help. It was their negative thoughts that got in the way. Their negative thoughts tell them that happiness is impossible for them and they do not deserve it. So your gift of happiness goes against everything their negative thinking is telling them.
about the slideshow: hit a picture, hit go, and it will open up before you. Enjoy!
E MANUEL SENT FOR CHRISTMAS
NEW BOOK “AMERICA’S MOST BEAUTIFUL MEN” WILL BE OUT SOON
NEW BOOK “AMERICA’S MOST BEAUTIFUL MEN” WILL BE OUT SOON
PATRIARCHY DEFINED SEX AS DIRTY, IMMORAL AND SUBJECT TO THEIR RULES. THEN THEY CAPITALYZED ON THE PROHIBITIONS BY MARKETING SEX FOR MONEY.
NEW BOOK “AMERICA’S MOST BEAUTIFUL MEN” WILL BE OUT SOON
OLD WOMEN MUST TEACH BOYS LOVE MAKING
PATRIARCHY DEFINED SEX AS DIRTY, IMMORAL AND SUBJECT TO THEIR RULES. THEN THEY CAPITALYZED ON THE PROHIBITIONS BY MARKETING SEX FOR MONEY.
GOD CREATES BEAUTY, HARMONY AND LOVE. SEX IS SACRED. WORSHIP GOD THROUGH SEX.
NEW BOOK “AMERICA’S MOST BEAUTIFUL MEN” WILL BE OUT SOON
NEW BOOK “AMERICA’S MOST BEAUTIFUL MEN” WILL BE OUT SOON
GOD CREATES BEAUTY, HARMONY AND LOVE. SEX IS SACRED. WORSHIP GOD THROUGH SEX.
PATRIARCHY DEFINED SEX AS DIRTY, IMMORAL AND SUBJECT TO THEIR RULES. THEN THEY CAPITALYZED ON THE PROHIBITIONS BY MARKETING SEX FOR MONEY.
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
GOD CREATES BEAUTY, HARMONY AND LOVE. SEX IS SACRED. WORSHIP GOD THROUGH SEX.
Here Rasa Von Werder presents to you her Christmas gift, E Manuel, who is one of the most beautiful men on the planet.
After a three-year pursuit for his beauty, E Manuel finally consented. Here he is for your enjoyment.
I wish you all the Merriest Christmas for 2014 and all happiness.
So to overcome his negative thinking you have to provide him with a step-ladder. Rather than expecting him to leap up to your heights, in one giant leap of faith. He finds the contrast between your very powerful positive thoughts and his negative thinking far too great. Sometimes you come on far too strong for him and he cannot deal with it. So this is why he says or does hurtful things, to dim your happy positive feelings. They sometimes become too strong for him to cope with.
So it would help to tone things down a bit and only slowly introduce him to your greater power. It will help to teach in a way that is easier for him to understand. Although you have gone far beyond femdom, he will find femdom relationships far easier to understand, and easier to relate to, than your spiritual teachings. So it would be far easier for him if you fit more into mundane popular culture, he is use to, rather than your connection to MotherGod. And only introduce the spiritual later on, bit by bit.
So telling him about your femdom experiences and you wanting a slave will be a lot easier for him to understand. It will also be a lot easier for his friends to understand as well, when he tells them. So although they might warn him against you and make jokes about it, they will be more supportive, as it fits more into their negative thinking about themselves and the world in general. I know you would prefer it if they understood your loving spiritual nature, but it will still be casting pearls before swine. What they choose to think, has nothing to do with you. (Not that you ever allowed what others think, slow you down).
Another advantage of femdom is that he becomes your slave and you make the rules and can make outrageous demands of him. So you are free to have relationships with other men, but he has to remain faithful to you. And that is perfectly acceptable in the femdom world. You can even have your own harem of men, if you want to.
Because of his negative thinking, he can, like some of your previous young men, sabotage the relationship. (He has already tried to do this). So your positive thinking has to be strong and consistent enough, to overcome this. He can only sabotage the relationship in times, when you are thinking negative thoughts. When you keep thinking positively, then it is impossible for him to impose this negativity onto you and sabotage the relationship. (Though he does have freewill, he has no understanding of how to use it and so is at the mercy of the thoughts of those around him).
Your relationship will be based on your joy and happiness. When you are happy, then he is happy and if you are not happy then neither will he be. So he will find himself wanting to keep you happy at all times, so he can also be happy. Even though you do not need him, or anyone else to make you happy, as you are able to do this through your own resources. But in learning to keep you happy, he learns how to love, in much the same way a mother learns about love, in making her children happy.
It is unlikely that you will be content in teaching just one man. Once you have successfully taught him, you will want to do the same for other men. So to do this you will have to teach him how to be happy through his own resources and not depend on you for happiness. So in the end you will have to teach him meditation, to pray and how to let go and let MotherGod. …………………………………………
WHO DO I WORSHIP, SHIVA, SHAKTI OR YOU? A CONFUSED DISCIPLE ASKS
YOU DO NOT WORSHIP MY MODELS, YOU WORSHIP THE GOD REPRESENTED BY MY MODELS. MOST MODELS ARE NOT GOD REALIZED, NOT ENLIGHTENED, NOT SAINTS, NOT AVATARS. THEY DO NOT DESERVE WORSHIP AS INDIVIDUALS, BUT THEY CAN BE SYMBOLS OF GOD; ONLY THAT. YES, GOD IS IN THE ATOM OF ALL LIFE, BUT UNLESS A HUMAN IS GOD REALIZED, THEY DO NOT DESERVE WORSHIP AS INDIVIDUALS.
IT MAKES ME LAUGH TO SEE HOW CONFUSED, REMARKABLY DISORIENTED AUDIENCES GET BY READING OR SEEING A THING, AND ONE ASSUMES THEY HAVE COLLEGE-AGE ABILITY WHILE THEIR QUESTIONS PROVE THEY ARE NOT EVEN IN HIGH SCHOOL, THEY ARE THE LEVEL OF KINDERGARTEN, AND YOU DON’T EXPECT GROWN MEN AND WOMEN TO BE THAT DUMB, BUT THEY ARE. I HOPE I HAVE ANSWERED YOUR QUESTIONS DISCIPLE K AND YOU ARE TO CONTINUE WORSHIPING ME, SENDING ME TITHES AND PRAYING TO ME, AS THE EMBODIMENT OF MOTHER GOD. I AM GOD ON EARTH, NOT ONLY A SYMBOL.
FROM A DISCIPLE OF LONG STANDING TO RASA: Most gracious and powerful God – First, I confess to being behind again on payments and humble ask Your forgiveness. I have been studying Your newest site. I saw somewhere that You said that both men and women were to worship Shiva (Your male models) by placing food near him, gifts or giving him money. Did I read that right Mother? How does that apply to me? respectfully, DEVOTEE K
HOW DO I WORSHIP? SHIVA? SHAKTI?
SHIVA IS THE “MASCULINE” FORM OF GOD THE SYMBOL OF GOD IN A MAN, BUT HE IS CREATED BY “SHAKTI”, MOTHER GOD, “DURGA” MOTHER GOD. HE IS AN EMANATION OR CREATION OF MOTHER, THE WAY A MOTHER CREATES THE BODY & PENIS OF THE BOY, AS I EXPLAIN ELSEWHERE.
MANTRAS ARE PRAYERS TO THE MASCULINE IMAGE OF GOD – LORD SHIVA AND HIS LINGAM OR PENIS – BUT THESE ARE SYMBOLS, THE INDIVIDUAL MODEL IS NOT WORSHIPED FOR HIMSELF. IT IS INAPPROPRIATE TO WORSHIP SOMEONE WHO IS NOT GOD REALIZED. YOU RECEIVE THEIR ENERGY, YOU RECEIVE THE LOWER ELEMENTS THAT ARE NOT REALIZED, NO EVOLVED. WORSHIP HAS TO BE GOD CENTERED. IF THE INDIVIDUAL IS NOT GOD CENTERED, THEN THEY DO NOT DESERVE WORSHIP, THEY HAVE NOT EARNED IT, THERE IS NO GOD CONSCIOUSNESS THERE. IF YOU GIVE THEM WORSHIP YOU MIGHT GET THEIR ENERGY FROM THE LOWER CHAKRAS.
THOSE WHO FEEL CALLED TO WORSHIP MOTHER GOD THROUGH SHIVA AND HIS LINGAM CAN DO SO. I HAVE POSTED WAYS PEOPE DO THAT, IN INDIA IT’S CALLED “PUJA” AND MEANS FLOWERS, CANDLES, MONEY, FOOD, PRAYERS AND SO ON; SHOWING RESPECT AND LOVE SYMBOLICALLY. IT WOULD BE FOR SOME WOMEN AND MEN, BUT NOT ALL, JUST AS EACH RELIGION DOES NOT SERVE ALL BUT APPROPRIATE FOR SOME, OR DURING SOME PARTS OF THEIR LIFE. FOR INSTANCE, I AT ONE TIME WAS A JESUS/MARY WORSHIPER, CATHOLIC SAINT WORSHIPER, THEN I BECAME MORE OF A YOGI WITH YOGI GURUS, SO NOW I AM GURU RASA, AND THE LAST PART OF MY JOURNEY, AND MY LAST GURU, RAMANA MAHARSHI, BROUGHT ME ITO NONDUALITY, WHERE I KNOW I AM GOD, AND THERE ARE NO MORE GURUS FOR ME.
PLEASE UNDERSTAND THAT RELIGION, WORSHIP, DEVOTION ARE BASED ON MORE THAN ONE THING. THERE IS THE SPIRITUAL PART OF US, THE MENTAL AND EMOTIONAL PART OF US. AND THESE COMPONENTS CHANGE.
WHEN WE ARE KIDS WE ARE DEPENDENT ON OUR PARENTS AND THE GOOD ONES GET OUR WORSHIP – THEY STAND AS REPRESENTATIVES OF GOD. BUT AT SOME POINT WE ABANDON OUR PARENT/GURUS, EVEN REBEL AGAINST THEM, SO THAT WE CAN FIND OTHER GUIDES AND EVENTUALLY BECOME INDEPENDENT GURU-SELVES.
RELIGION IS NOT EASY TO UNDERSTAND – IT IS COMPLICATED. LAST WEEK I HAD A HINDU BOY REPEAT TO ME WHAT IS A CLICHE IN HINDU TERMS – HE THOUGHT HE WAS BEING SO SMART, BUT I TOLD HIM TO PISS OFF, DON’T CALL ME, AND WALKED AWAY FROM HIM.
WHAT WAS IT THAT IRRITATED ME? THIS BOY OF 20 SAID TO ME, AFTER I TOLD HIM I WAS A GURU,
“I DON’T NEED A GURU. EVERYONE, EVERYTHING IS A GURU. THE SUDENTS AROUND ME ARE GURUS, MY PET DOG IS A GURU, MY EMPLOYER IS MY GURU, ALL OF LIFE IS MY GURU.”
HE ALSO GAVE ME SOUNDBITES ON LUST AND PRIDE – A THOROUGHLY ANNOYING BOY, NOT READY FOR PRIME-TIME RELIGION AND NOT WORTH MY TEACHING EFFORT.
EVEN THOUGH THE BOY WAS RIGHT, AS ALL THESE THINGS DO TEACH US, THEREFORE, THEY ARE OUR GURUS, HE WAS USING THIS DICTUM TO TELL ME HE DID NOT NEED AN INDIVIDUAL HUMAN, INCLUDING MYSELF, TO GUIDE HIM. IN THIS SENSE HE WAS REJECTING THE GOD STANDING BEFORE HIM (ME) AND TELLING ME THAT LIFE WOULD TEACH HIM BY HIMSELF, HE NEEDED NO INDIVIDUAL. THIS IS THE TALE OF THE BOYS AND GIRLS WHO SAY,
“DON’T TEACH ME – I WILL DO IT MY WAY,”
AND THE MAJORITY OF THESE CASES DO NOT BECOME A SUCCESS, THE PATH OF DOING IT THEIR WAY IS FAILURE OR AT BEST, MEDIOCRITY, BECAUSE THEY REJECT THE HELP THAT GOD BRINGS THEM IN THE WAY THAT GOD BRINGS IT. IN A SIMPLE AND LONG-KNOWN TERM, THEY HAVE PRIDE, THEY CANNOT HUMBLE THEMSELVES. THAT IS WHY I TOLD HIM TO PISS OFF. NO HUMAN CAN RECEIVE THE HELP OF THE GURU UNTIL THEY THOROUGHLY AND TOTALLY HUMBLE THEMSELVES. THEY CAN HAVE THE IQ OF EINSTEIN, BUT WITHOUT HUMILITY, THEY CANNOT LEARN. SO LET THEM FALL BY THEIR OWN WAY, THEY DID IT TO THEMSELVES.
NOW TO YOUR LETTER:
FROM A DISCIPLE OF LONG STANDING TO RASA: Most gracious and powerful God – First, I confess to being behind again on payments and humble ask Your forgiveness. I have been studying Your newest site. I saw somewhere that You said that both men and women were to worship Shiva (Your male models) by placing food near him, gifts or giving him money. Did I read that right Mother? How does that apply to me?……………………respectfully, DEVOTEE K
RASA SAYS: DEVOTEE K, THIS DOES NOT APPLY TO YOU. YOU MUST READ ALL OF A THING, NOT PART OF IT, BEFORE YOU THINK OR ESPECIALLY BEFORE YOU ACT. I WROTE MANY ARTICLES. YOU NOW GO TO ONE EXAMPLE WHERE PEOPLE WORSHIP SHIVA – AND I GAVE MANY PICS OF THEM DOING SO – WITH THE PUJA DEMONSTRATED. THIS PUJA IS FINE FOR THEM AND THOSE WHO FEEL A LEANING TO WORSHIP MOTHER GOD THROUGH SHIVA – IT IS ALRIGHT FOR THEM – BUT HOW DOES IT APPLY TO YOU? SECOND OF ALL, I DID NOT SAY TO WORSHIP MY MODELS – YOU ARE BEING SILLY. THE MODELS ARE MODELS. MICHELANGLO USED THE SAME MODEL FOR JESUS AND JUDAS, BY THE WAY. THE PICTURE OF CHRIST WAS FOR CHRIST TO BE WORSHIPED, NOT THE MODEL WHO STOOD FOR HIM. NEITHER ARE MODELS OF HOLY MARY TO BE WORSHIPED, THEY STAND AS MODELS, THEIR BODIES REPRESENT OUR HOLY MOTHER TO BE WORSHIPED. I THINK YOU CAN SEE THAT QUITE CLEARLY? IF ANYONE ACTUALLY WORSHIPED MY MODELS – LOL – THEY WOULD RECEIVE THE IMMATURITY AND THE DAMAGE WITHIN THESE MODELS – MOST OF THEM ARE IN BAD SHAPE INSIDE – AND THAT WOULD BE THEIR REWARD FOR THIS WORSHIP. THE THING WE LOVE IN A DEVOTIONAL OR WORSHIPFUL WAY BRINGS THE QUALITIES OF THAT PERSONA INTO OURSELVES. SO DISCIPLE K, YOU ARE TO WORSHIP GURU RASA VON WERDER, NO ONE ELSE, UNTIL YOUR INNER SELF TELLS YOU TO MOVE ON, AT THE TIME YOU HAVE RECEIVED ALL THAT YOU CAN FROM ME – WHICH WOULD BE FOREVER, LOL. AND YOU DO NOT OWE MY MODELS ANY MONEY OR PUJA OR EVEN RESPECT, EXCEPT THANK THEM FOR THEIR BEAUTY AND GIVE IT HOMAGE BY A GLANCE, – THAT IS IT.
MOTHER GOD IS ALL THINGS TO ALL PEOPLE – GOD IS MOTHER, NOT FATHER, MALES ARE GOING EXTINCT, THERE IS NO FATHER GOD, FATHER IS CREATED BY MOTHER
I PUT TOGETHER THIS BOOK TO UNDERSCORE THE TEACHINGS OF TWO GREAT DOCTORS WHO EXPLAIN WHAT WOMEN ALWAYS KNEW, THAT MEDICAL DOCTOR/QUACKS TRIED TO DISPROVE, THAT PATRIARCHS TRIED TO INTERFERE WITH
YOU ARE TO WORSHIP GURU RASA VON WERDER, NO ONE ELSE, UNTIL YOUR INNER SELF TELLS YOU TO MOVE ON, AT THE TIME YOU HAVE RECEIVED ALL THAT YOU CAN FROM ME – WHICH WOULD BE FOREVER, LOL. AND YOU DO NOT OWE MY MODELS ANY MONEY OR PUJA OR EVEN RESPECT, EXCEPT THANK THEM FOR THEIR BEAUTY AND GIVE IT HOMAGE BY A GLANCE, – THAT IS IT.
ABOUT MY BATTLES, ALL OF WHICH MOTHER GOD WON
DURGA AND I ARE GOOD ANALOGIES FOR EACH OTHER, A WARRIOR GOD, DESTROYS THE DEMONIC
I STRIPPED FOR GOD MEANS I GAVE SERMONS BEFORE I DANCED, I PRAYED WITH THE NEEDY BETWEEN SHOWS, GAVE THEM GOD POWER
ALL THAT I PREDICTED IN 2004 IS COMING TRUE
THIS IS MY RECEIVING THE INTERIOR DI VINE STIGMATA, WHICH ABOUT 350 SAINTS IN THE LAST 800 YEARS HAVE RECEI VED
THIS IS MY MINISTRY TO PURGATORY
I AM THE FOUNDRESS OF FEMALE BODYBUILDING
PERHAPS THE WORLD’S GREATEST AUTHORITY ON DREAM INTERPRETATION / SYMBOLS
YOU ARE TO WORSHIP GURU RASA VON WERDER, NO ONE ELSE, UNTIL YOUR INNER SELF TELLS YOU TO MOVE ON, AT THE TIME YOU HAVE RECEIVED ALL THAT YOU CAN FROM ME – WHICH WOULD BE FOREVER, LOL. AND YOU DO NOT OWE MY MODELS ANY MONEY OR PUJA OR EVEN RESPECT, EXCEPT THANK THEM FOR THEIR BEAUTY AND GIVE IT HOMAGE BY A GLANCE, – THAT IS IT.
ONLY WOMEN ARE WORSHIPED BY MEN, OVERTLY, MALES ARE NOT WORSHIPED. WHY IS THAT? NATURAL INSTINCT
I AM A FORTRESS, LIKE DURGA, AN IMPOSSIBLE PERSON TO TAKE DOWN – THE DEMONS HAVE TRIED AND FAILED – THEY CAN NEVER SUCCEED
IT MAKES ME LAUGH TO SEE HOW CONFUSED, REMARKABLY DISORIENTED AUDIENCES GET BY READING OR SEEING A THING, AND ONE ASSUMES THEY HAVE COLLEGE-AGE ABILITY WHILE THEIR QUESTIONS PROVE THEY ARE NOT EVEN IN HIGH SCHOOL, THEY ARE THE LEVEL OF KINDERGARTEN, AND YOU DON’T EXPECT GROWN MEN AND WOMEN TO BE THAT DUMB, BUT THEY ARE. I HOPE I HAVE ANSWERED YOUR QUESTIONS DISCIPLE K AND YOU ARE TO CONTINUE WORSHIPING ME, SENDING ME TITHES AND PRAYING TO ME, AS THE EMBODIMENT OF MOTHER GOD. I AM GOD ON EARTH, NOT ONLY A SYMBOL. GURU RASA……….4 11 14
FITZGERALD SCOTT AS SHIVA IS THE FANTASTIC SYMBOL FOR HIS LINGAM
THE BEAUTIFUL ENDOWED FITZGERALD SCOTT POSES AS SHIVA
FITZGERALD SCOTT AS THE GOD SHIVA DOES JUSTICE TO HIM AND HIS HOLY LINGAM
WORSHIP OF SHIVA (HIS SYMBOL THE LINGAM OR PENIS) IS DONE BY POURING MILK OVER IT, OR PLACING FOOD NEAR HIM…..GIVING MONEY, FLOWERS, MANY OTHER OFFERINGS. PEOPLE OF BOTH GENDERS WORSHIP THE SHIVA LINGAM. HAIL SHIVA LINGAM, HIS NIGHT IS CALLED SHIVATRI.
WORSHIP OF SHIVA (HIS SYMBOL THE LINGAM OR PENIS) IS DONE BY POURING MILK OVER IT, OR PLACING FOOD NEAR HIM…..GIVING MONEY, FLOWERS, MANY OTHER OFFERINGS. PEOPLE OF BOTH GENDERS WORSHIP THE SHIVA LINGAM. HAIL SHIVA LINGAM, HIS NIGHT IS CALLED SHIVATRI.
WORSHIP OF SHIVA (HIS SYMBOL THE LINGAM OR PENIS) IS DONE BY POURING MILK OVER IT, OR PLACING FOOD NEAR HIM…..GIVING MONEY, FLOWERS, MANY OTHER OFFERINGS. PEOPLE OF BOTH GENDERS WORSHIP THE SHIVA LINGAM. HAIL SHIVA LINGAM, HIS NIGHT IS CALLED SHIVATRI.
WORSHIP OF SHIVA (HIS SYMBOL THE LINGAM OR PENIS) IS DONE BY POURING MILK OVER IT, OR PLACING FOOD NEAR HIM…..GIVING MONEY, FLOWERS, MANY OTHER OFFERINGS. PEOPLE OF BOTH GENDERS WORSHIP THE SHIVA LINGAM. HAIL SHIVA LINGAM, HIS NIGHT IS CALLED SHIVATRI.
Worship Mother God through the body of the male and the female. The female is Almighty, the male is auxiliary but see the Creation of Mother God through both. Have no shame regarding sex, as long as it is consenting adults. Shame is a way of controlling our sexuality for Patriarchy.
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