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Gordian Knot Untied Part 2

Gordian Knot Untied Part 2

Alright, Mother God, back to where we were. Jesus came to earth to teach certain things – we all know what they are, no need to repeat. But now I have appeared & what is my message? What have I exemplified?

Jesus did not in his lifetime build all that was to happen in his religion. He wrote the doctrine, indeed. Christianity was illegal to the point of death, they were thrown to the lions & made sport of at the Coliseum. They hid in the Catacombs.

Jesus did not build a Church. The earliest archeologically identified Christian church is a house church (domus ecclesiae), the Dura-Europos church, founded between 233 and 256. In the second half of the 3rd century AD, the first purpose-built halls for Christian worship (aula ecclesiae) began to be constructed.

Christianity was illegal in Rome until 313 AD, the Emperor Constantine issued the Edict of Milan, which accepted Christianity: 10 years later, it had become the official religion of the Roman Empire.

But then what did Jesus do that had to be done? Why was his mission so successful, what was done that only He could do? Why did no one else do what He did? After all, there were saints & Prophets before him why didn’t they start a New Religion? All the Prophets were filled with the Holy Ghost, as were the Saints, but what was different about Jesus?

Now to come to me, what is different about me & why can I start a New Religion? What do I represent? What have I lived? OK, the world is filled with women who have done what I did – show business, body building, dominant women & Cougars. What is different about me & why do I alone bring forth this New Religion? Why didn’t another woman claim ‘Woman, Thou Art God’ & suggest we break away from Patriarchs? I ask Mother God.

MG: In a word, Anointing. You were sent. As you said, there’ve been millions of women who did all that you did & do, millions, & yet none of them started a New Religion. Why didn’t Betty Freidan write ‘Woman Thou Art God’ instead of ‘The Feminine Mystique?’ It was not her place, her place was where she was, she was a prophet, but you are Messianic in your fight for women’s rights. You broke the knot that no one could unhinge. {Me: this gives me the shudders}

Gordian knot, knot that gave its name to a proverbial term for a problem solvable only by bold action. In 333 BC, Alexander the Great, on his march through Anatolia, reached Gordium, the capital of Phrygia. There he was shown the chariot of the ancient founder of the city, Gordius, with its yoke lashed to the pole by means of an intricate knot with its end hidden. According to tradition, this knot was to be untied only by the future conqueror of Asia. In the popular account, probably invented as appropriate to an impetuous warrior, Alexander sliced through the knot with his sword, but, in earlier versions, he found the ends either by cutting into the knot or by drawing out the pole. The phrase “cutting the Gordian knot” has thus come to denote a bold solution to a complicated problem.

ME: I’m not sure what this means, Mother God. People don’t see me that way, I never thought of myself that way. I don’t exactly understand.

MG: The KNOT is the STRANGLEHOLD men have against women in holding them in the bondage of SEXUALITY. A few years ago you wrote in an article – about an insight you had, that whoever could figure out how to bring spirituality & sexuality together & break the Madonna-whore complex that men put on women would BREAK PATRIARCHY. Well, you did it. You broke Patriarchy by being the Lady Who Strips for God & Dances to Save Men’s Souls.

ME: I am flabbergasted. So my work then is basically finished? I mean, it’s done? The rest is icing on the cake?

MG: When you ventured out to save souls, you untied the knot of Patriarchy. It proved a woman in the ‘sex trade’ was of God, sent by God, empowered by God. Therefore, she was not a whore, therefore, God works through her. You could not have done what you did unless you were Anointed – no other woman has ever done that & none have come forward to follow in your footsteps. You were sent by God & Anointed by her.

ME: Alright then, it seems to me the results of this work – my life – this Anointing – will take hundreds of years to take hold, will it not? There isn’t much else I can do except sit here & write books. I’m not seeing this clearly, how Matriarchy will be built.

MG: Just you wait. In your lifetime the movie will come out, then you’ll see more action. You untied the knot – it hasn’t been promoted as much as it will be – like let’s face it, in Jesus time the world was not converted to Christianity – it took hundreds of years to really get started – the first Church being built 300 years later. And how long was it before Christianity was practiced all over the world?

“The Roman Empire officially adopted Christianity in AD 380. During the Early Middle Ages, most of Europe underwent Christianization, a process essentially complete with the Baltic Christianization in the 15th century.”

And so, Jesus religion took over 1k years to take over most of Europe.

ME: Thank you Mother God, I can’t think about this any more today, my head is pounding. The Gorgian knot thingy overwhelmed me.

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the Gordian Knot Untied

Chapter 2 Part 7

New Religion Promotion 3-20-22 {The Gordian Knot Untied}

From William Bond:

Read your latest article Rasa and what came to my mind is that you have been for most of your life an entertainer and you have had experience with preaching with your, “I strip for God” shows. I agree a TV interview would be a big boost to publicizing a new Matriarchal religion but perhaps you need to be doing something, at present, for them to want to interview you.

Perhaps your, “I strip for God” shows, didn’t go anywhere because you were then still promoting the Christian religion. But this might change if you were now preaching about a religion that promotes sexual freedom, a female God and matriarchy.

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Rasa says:

William, I was not CAPABLE of preaching Matriarchy, the new religion, sexual freedom, etc. at that time.

What was I doing? I was expressing my love for God & humanity when I preached, that is all. I was trying to SAVE SOULS – save them from sin, from misery, from confusion. The principles I preached were those I understood, as espoused by Jesus Christ, & that was what I knew. I could not represent what I did not {yet} know.

What you are speaking is the analys the day after the game, lol. That’s where I am TODAY. Like they say, one needs DISTANCE to understand some things, now I am beginning to see the Light of WHO I WAS & WHAT I REPRESENT / REPRESENTED.

And what was & is that?

What we both just said – How our New Religion is different from ANY OTHER. Think about it. What Patriarchal religion espouses SEXUAL FREEDOM for women – women can have sex with anyone they wish & they can have as many ‘husbands’ as they want & they can have young men when they are old?

Consider – Christianity? Islam? Judaism? Hinduism? The 4 main Patriarchal religions are FANATICALLY OPPOSED to women’s sexual freedom – {in fact I saw a study which explained that religious fundamentalism is measured BY THE OPPRESSION OF WOMEN – the more repressive to them they are – the more ‘fundamental’ they are – that is what they are about.} Then there’s the sects, like say Mormons, Jehovah’s Witnesses, Amish, Hutterites – the list goes on, all against women’s sexual freedom. In fact, the significant ideal or agenda of Patriarchal religions is to ROB WOMEN OF THEIR HUMAN RIGHTS including the right to choose their sexual behavior & the right to leadership in family & society.

And so, the counter religion to Patriarchal religion is one in which women have the RIGHT TO DO ANYTHING THEY WANT & decide their own moral behavior which includes sex with anyone they want without interference from men.

William’s statement, Mother God, I need your help to answer it. He said,

your, “I strip for God” shows, didn’t go anywhere because you were then still promoting the Christian religion. But this might change if you were now preaching about a religion that promotes sexual freedom, a female God and matriarchy”

Mother God, the words ‘didn’t get anywhere’ I also need answered like what does he mean? Does he mean it was a flop or does he mean it did not ESTABLISH A NEW RELIGION OF SEXUAL FREEDOM & MATRIARCHY. Because I got international publicity for ‘Stripping for God,’ appeared on front pages from Canada to New York to California – got on about 150 TV spots, the News & talk shows, not to mention local publicity in magazines & radio. It was a whirlwind of publicity, so much so that Johnny Carson did a skit about ‘the preacher Kellie who appears during ratings week & gets more publicity than the emerging African Nations.” So where is William saying it was supposed to get, that it didn’t get to?

MG {Mother God}: William didn’t mean you got no publicity, he means you did not get a new religion established. Here’s the deal:

The New Religion had to GESTATE. One cannot do all things at once, that is to say a seed has to fall to the ground, the weather has to turn warm, the sun & rain have to hit the ground. The seed must burst open, send out roots, then shoots, appear above & grow into whatever it’s supposed to be.

ME: And so, when I began Stripping for God, giving sermons, would you call that a SEED? Explain the synopsis or evolution of this, why could I not from the very beginning, begin preaching sexual freedom, Matriarchy & a female God? Why did I preach Christianity?

MG: You weren’t READY, in your mind, to preach these tenets, you did not understand them fully – you had to learn & grow in your theology, in the study of Patriarchy vs. Matriarchy, the entire question. This started a LONG TIME AGO – it was 1973 – you were 28 years old. You gave your first speech at the behest of your then-guru, Rev. Judy Swaggart. It was to promote HER & the One World Light Church which she started – You WERE the Church, besides her, no one else was active, all her other disciples were deadbeats. You were the only one with zeal & obedience to the Kingdom of God, whatever way God presented herself.

Your HEART was & always has been in the right place, as you said; you were on a mission to save souls. Your mission had not yet changed into Mother God, Matriarchy, sexual freedom & Female Empowerment.

What you are looking at NOW is the Oak Tree that took root long ago & grew to 100’ tall. It has been nearly 50 years since you gave that first sermon!

ME: Yes, compared to what I know now what I understand & believe is VASTLY DIFFERENT than then. Even going back to the onset of ‘Woman Thou Art God,’ the website that proved Matriarchy is the answer – my mind has evolved. I see & understand things now I had no clue about. Mother God, please explain the evolution that had to take place in my head.

MG: When you emerged onto the scene you were simply a God-loving, zealous promoter of God, you were not on a mission to ‘destroy’ or forfeit Patriarchy. Your mind was on the teachings of Jesus Christ & everything you learned from him & what you had to do to fulfill his image & mission. You did believe in women’s rights & practiced them the best you could – both religiously & secular means – you had body building, dominating men, -women’s rights to be equal in the military.

Only in your old age did all these factors fall into place & you saw the entire forest with the mountain peaks, ranges, the valleys, the rivers flowing through it – the whole picture. – Prior to that you saw pieces of the puzzle. You saw this & that but not all of it at once. Now you see it all, it becomes clear what the New Religion has to be, & you wrote it. {Idea: Let the sisterhood make a chart of this & a puzzle pieces set – all that I mentioned myself & women doing.}

The fact is, the idea that women had to step away from men & create their own Zeitgeist is the New Religion, & that’s it in a nutshell. You NEVER THOUGHT OF THAT BEFORE YOU WROTE IT in 2020. It never occurred to you the way it suddenly did, that women had to step away from men & start their own religion FROM SCRATCH so to speak – write their own scriptures.

ME: I do recall in 2020 you had to push me kicking & screaming to write this all down because I honestly didn’t know what to write. It was like I will sit down & start typing, & whatever comes to mind I will write. I did not even see the whole picture then, like what the religion should consist of. I just knew we had to leave men – that was it – And then what? Obviously it’s a work in progress where women who start these sisterhoods will have to sit down & devise what they want to do, how to worship, how to think & feel re Mother God & what She wants. The answers are not all there yet, but we do know She wants our FREEDOM!

I think that for the next few years of this end of my life I have to write down everything I can think of for women. That’s a POINT OF DEPARTURE. Then someone starts a sisterhood, & another, & another, & each convent can amend or revise things as they go along – what devotions they want, rituals, activities, rules, areas of study, etc. That’s the way culture, religions & societies evolve.

Each day while I think of this more ideas come to mind – like I want a ‘girl scout’ type of club – camping, bushcraft, survival skills, building our own shelters.

I want to have classes for a variety of subjects & skills. We will cover dance, art, photography, music, gardening / agriculture, botany, {medicinal herbs & substances found in nature including our own back yards – my property has DOZENS}, study groups & fun groups for recreation & sports including body building & marital arts. We should also encourage practical skills like the things handymen or skillful males do – carpentry – basics of vehicle maintenance, basics of house maintenance, etc.

All our sisters must learn the DOCTRINE as taught by me – there are books & hundreds of articles now which I will add to. Why do we espouse Matriarchy? What is wrong with Patriarchy, how did it evolve, how did males become the way they are? What do we do about it? {By ‘we’ I mean the sisterhood.}

As far as religion there should be the whole gamut of practices I know & understand from Christianity & Yoga – Guided meditation & self hypnosis {all the Yogis use it} – from Christianity the Power of Prayer including Pentecost – drawing to us the Gifts of the Holy Spirit.

There must also be social interaction & therefore there must be safe & effective means to meet people. To that effect we might have a get-together of us with the public say once a month, in the context of a party or dance.

There might be a screening facility where men who want to meet us apply. They have to sign up, give their name & address, where they work & references. These will be checked. The reason for this is SAFETY. We don’t want any Ted Bundy’s or John Wayne Gaceys invading our group, or even someone much less than that who might turn out to be users / abusers.

We want to avoid those that have any record of violence, child abuse, criminal record, psychopaths, those who ‘lie, cheat & steal,’ con artists & the like. We will have courses / lessons I how to recognize such people, avoid & remove them from our lives.

{There will be courses & discussions on how females should maintain safety. For instance, do not help a man if he has his arm in a sling & wants your help to put his bike into his van. That’s how Ted Bundy used to work. Do not ever, for any reason, go into the premises of an unknown man or even woman as men sometimes use women for decoys – Myra Hindley – his car, his van, his house, his office, his barn – anything. The first thing they want to do if they want to rape or kill you is get you alone. That’s the first rule. And never ever leave your child with any man for any reason whatsoever – that is an absolute & this includes its Dad or your bf.}

One reason we have to know who the man is, in detail is say he for any reason wants to stalk a sister – bother her incessantly – & she doesn’t want him. It could lead to serious danger. We have to know who he is, where he lives, to stop it, either report him to the police or his job or both. Get a restraining order if needed, then he can be arrested if he approaches her or comes to the convent threatening us.

A sister might get pregnant, but she doesn’t want to marry or be with the man who got her so. She can stay in the convent & raise the child with us, we are family. It’s important that on the birth certificate she put ‘Father unknown’ because if a name is stated he could have rights over the child, he could even restrict her movements as far as travel, he could demand visitation rights, & the right to be ALONE with the child where he could abuse it. Child abuse is RAMPANT & rejected men often rape & injure {‘the burning bed’} or kill children to get even with the Mother. Men are extremely dangerous to women & children – the sisterhood must all be frankly & brutally aware of that by seeing the statistics & case histories. Watching ‘Forensic Files’ has taught me a lot. We will have courses on that.

There will be no restrictions or rules regarding sex – but the details of say, a sister wants to have sex with someone – where she goes for privacy I have not figured out. It seems to me males should not enter our convent. It could compromise the safety of other sisters – once they have ‘cased the joint’ they might figure out how to get in & attempt a break in. For that we will take precautions including guard dogs – I mean BIG guard dogs like Mastiffs & loyal, intelligent ones like German Shepherds. But on the other hand, for a female to go to the premises of a male could be dangerous also, even a motel.

This needs further thought & what comes to my mind now is no sister should go alone with a male anywhere. Maybe we could have a VAN where if a female goes to a motel with a male, another sister could sleep in the van outside the motel until the one with the date is ready to leave –to make sure the man doesn’t harm her. {Check if there’s a window on the other side of the room where he could force her out of it & make an escape to imprison or harm her. Or harm her then climb out the window to escape. His vehicle should be right next to our van in case of any hanky-panky.} Of course, nothing is a guarantee of 100% safety with men – but there are precautions one can take to maximize safety.

Another thing I just thought of today is that any sister who wants to practice being a vegetarian or vegan will get special awards. We could have a party every 6 months for them who kept this diet – With a dinner of all vegetarian, accolades given, then some sort of show.

As an honor one possibility could be that such women will have the privilege of breakfast in bed. She orders what she wants the night before a sister brings it to her, or requests her meal by cell phone. If she prefers to get up & eat with the sisters anyway, coffee could be brought to her as a wake up just for the honor. We will cite how many animals a sister saves by being vegetarian / vegan.

The ‘breakfast in bed’ could be an honor for other good works as well, say, doing something special for the community beyond the call of duty, including some sort of sacrifice. There is also another perk for a sister honored in a big way – she decides what the dinner menu is for one night – their favorite meal. {Mine would be homemade raviolis with cheese &/ or potatoes.}

As far as entertainment, all our sisters will have the opportunity to learn show business skills, be it acting, dancing, musical instruments, recitation & the like. We could hold presentations for Holidays, maybe 3-4 times a year, the public could or could not be invited – depending on what it is – some shows that are ‘personal to the order’ could be for private only. If anyone is talented they could write a play for us that heralds Female Empowerment, women heroes.

We will not practice veganism or vegetarianism in the Order but be appreciative of those who do – we’ll state how they’re saving animal’s lives. – Understand how factory farms work – with Cows they take the calves away from the mothers at birth – starve them to death for veal or immediate slaughter – & take the mother cow’s milk. The cow suffers incredible grief, the calf torture & its life taken. This is the way it is, but doesn’t have to be – the Patriarchs devised it. {Some of our Orders might want to have animals, like cows for milk, butter, yogurt & cheese. They do not have to be abused. The Mom can keep her calf, part of the milk is taken but enough is left for the calf. I’ve seen this method used by families all over the world.}

Some might want to have chickens for eggs, but they will not be what the Hutterites do, who keep ‘battery’ chickens. They sustain their Order from this it seems, the birds are severely abused. They are kept in a basement where they never see the ground or sunlight. They go into a cage where they lay their egg, confined to it until the egg rolls out. They are harvested aggressively, they sell thousands of chickens. I saw a movie where the Hutterite women were on their hands & knees washing the floors & said they loved the community.

The Order is completely self sufficient & controls the members, some to their detriment. Not all of them love having their human rights taken away, including the right to choose which gender they prefer, the right to go into vocations not endorsed by the Community, the right to dress as they like, listen to music which they prefer & do whatever pleases them that is not partial to the community. They are turned into hypnotized zombies – except a percentage of them long for escape. This is difficult since they are brought up to be dependent on the order & are not given exposure & skills to deal outside.

One gay guy wanted to be who he was so he had to escape, which he did without obstacle as his older sister had already gone – he joined her.

These orders are bizarre; they are restrictive with males as well as females, taking away simple rights, like going to town without permission. Grown men, funny as it is, must report to their elders each time they want to leave the premises – where they’re going, what they will do – it must be necessary trips, no lolly gaggin’ or monkey time allowed. I did not see any females asking for permission to go out for any reason {the movie on them shows an office full of men asking permission, the elders do or do not grant it – saw only men} – maybe they aren’t allowed as the elders fear once out of sight they’ll get snapped up by an outside man. Perhaps the women aren’t taught to learn to drive or get licenses! These are ordinary rights that are taken away, most notably from women, when male rules are established.

This is not to even mention cults of men that lead to murder & suicide – that is discussion for another article. {End Part 1}

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TV Interview 4 New Religion

3-19-22—Religious GATHERING 4 the New Religion

Dream predicts the New Religion will start with a TV Show Interview

This is a meaningful dream. First I had visions of God’s light in the form of fluffy blue & white clouds, that were so thick they were not even translucent, but they were like foam. I sensed I was looking inside my brain or head. This went on & on.

Then 2 other scenes – not sure which came first. Maybe THIS: I saw & understood more clearly than usual {been thinking of this for days} how our NEW RELIGION is different & what it really SAYS. I felt myself preaching & speaking the tenets of the new religion. One was it was FREEDOM. Freedom from what, well, to be honest, freedom from men. I might add that MEN need freedom from the tyranny of men as well.

After that, it was freedom from the sex rules & taboos. Except for sex crimes like rape, abuse & exploitation, a person’s sex life is their own business & has nothing to do with authorities or religion. If it’s moral or immoral is between the individual & God. Leave people alone.

That’s it in a nutshell but then I got really dramatic & saw myself speaking in a Church building, which I built here next to my property, & I’m saying, {I will embroider the sermon a bit now}

“We are not putting the Cross up here. Why? Because we’ve had enough of the Cross. We don’t need any more of this. The men have crucified us again & again, millions of times. They have forced us to breed & martyred our children over & over. How many billions of times have we to go through this again? Martyrdom is a symbol of Christianity – which we women don’t need. We’ve lived it. No, martyrdom is not our religion – we need FREEDOM. This religion we transfer back TO MEN. It is they who should be martyred, sacrificed, it’s their turn. Again, it’s the Will of God – as a gender they are going extinct.”

I saw the IDEAS clearly in my head, how I phrase them will take practice, but this is the basics coming to my brain, more clearly / concisely than ever. The thing is, I’ve always been a Christian, I know the religion like the ‘palm of my hand’ – I believe in it, I practice it. I am not against Jesus – He & his Holy Mother both LIVE IN ME alive & well. I am not turning my back on them, forfeiting or denying them. I am simply stepping forward to explain where we have to GO NOW & this is it. We’ve already, as A GENDER, done all that Jesus asked us to do. I have done it personally, individually in receiving His Divine Stigmata. But this is not what we are seeking. Indeed each individual woman has not passed the steps taught by Jesus’ example – but in general AS A GENDER WE HAVE. Men have not – they have been our persecutors, torturers & crucifiers.

Then this was a vivid scene. There’s a department store which in this dream is WOOLWORTH’S – the old ‘Five & Dime’ store now defunct. It’s alive & working & it is night. The store will close in a couple hours. But inside there are many tables – a long, long room, maybe 100’ – {how wide I’m not sure but wide enough} filled with tables everywhere & people at each table, male & female & there are lamps on most tables – bright but soft, so everything is well lighted & the store is still open.

*** (WOOLWORTH’S 5 & DIME – LONG – MANY TABLES WITH BRIGHT / SOFT LIGHTS STILL OPEN, MALES & FEMALES @ EACH TABLE – WILL CLOSE IN A COUPLE HOURS: First, Woolworth’s jumps out at me because it’s SHEEP & sheep are OUR FOLLOWERS, our audience / believers. This dream is about the people who believe & gather for OUR NEW RELIGION. {‘My sheep hear my Voice’, ‘If you love me, feed my sheep’ words of Jesus.}

LAMPS / LIGHTS represent Lights of Truth – like ‘I see the Light’ – Seeing is believing. And so, people at these tables see the Truth of the new religion from different POV like one might see the idea of sexual freedom, because they’ve been persecuted for being gay or being in the adult trade, other tables could be those who’ve been beaten down by poverty & all the various precepts of Patriarchal tyranny, the people who see how wrong it is are at different tables.

The men being present is they are FED UP with Patriarchy & willing to bend the knee to a rulership of women & be our helpmates.) ***

I am surprised to be here with this gathering, surprised that the owners of the store have let me use it to gather people, surprised they are cooperating & surprised people have appeared – the long room is filled.

* (STORE – ROOM USED, SURPRISES ME THAT THEY ALLOWED US TO USE THIS ROOM: This would be a venue possibly TV show/s, that will allow me to speak on the New Religion – our BEGINNING.) *

The people are the average John & Jane Doe. How many men came surprises me. I am amazed at how it all came together, without my doing anything, straining myself or promoting. They’re just here as if they appeared by magic.

Understandably, the manager of the store, a nice blonde lady with glasses is asking me how we can do this when the store is a commercial venture here to sell things, & we are gathered to hear a new religious message. I told her I was concerned about that also & not sure how it works. We needed a venue, we have no building yet, so we were dependent on someone donating a place & this seems to be it but how it happened & how it works, I don’t know, just grateful for it.

* (MGR LADY WITH GLASSES: This could be the Hostess of a TV show who will INTERVIEW me. A TV show is a business set up to SELL PRODUCTS through advertising, so if they interview me I am on their commercial venue. When would this be? When I’ve settled down from publishing to begin promoting.) *

A man is in front of me, wearing a cotton shirt with soft yellow/brown checks. He’s average build, middle aged, light hair – slightly heavier but not fat, just average. He’s pointing something out to me about the wiring / electrical system – to be careful of this or that, not to make the wires misfire by doing the wrong thing. I guess he’s an electrician or technician. I assure him I will not do the wrong thing & at the same time am amazed at how men have shown up & are helping – like this man for example – there’s maybe one man to almost every 3 women, so if there are 30 women here there’s 8-10 men. And the men, like this electrician, are doing things they’re good at that there aren’t too many females doing – like being electricians for instance.

* (ELECTRICIAN / TECHNICIAN: This sounds like a man on the media – maybe cameraman, technician, is advising me what to do or not do. The fact that there are more women than men here is a hint it’s DAYTIME TV which is a women’s audience. More men at work than women even these days – or out gallivanting, lol. After all, it’s still primarily women who take care of the kids!f) *

Before I begin to speak there’s some interference. In front of me there’s a small child, maybe 1.5 yrs old, toying with something on the floor & it’s making a clic-clic sound, The store manager points this out to me & I alert the older female, one of 2 kids he’s with – she’s in a seat further up – to take this child to another room. Looking at her, I tell her she’s just a child herself & next time she comes she should bring her grandparents or some adult over them.

* (CHILF CLIC CLICKING: Sounds more & more like an audience of different people, different tables, children, men, women, etc, all watching TV or in the proximity of it. Indeed, this tells me that’s how God is going to start the trend for our New Religion.) *

Then there’s a man talking in a loud voice. I tell him ‘QUIET’ again & again but he won’t stop as if he hasn’t heard me. He’s in a corner by a table with other people pontificating about his problems. He’s standing, someone I authority is sitting & he has some kind of problem. I have authority here but he doesn’t respond so I decide to just start talking while we can hear him.

* (MAN KEEPS TALKING, I KEEP TALKING: This could be another guest on the show speaking his piece.) *

I begin to speak & amaze myself as when I speak I see how impressive this all is – how these people came together by magic. I say how grateful I am for this gathering. Then I say to them,

“I shall begin with THEOLOGY. Do you all know what Theology means? It’s the question of Who or What God is.”

And that’s all I can remember.

* (THEOLOGY, I BEGIN WITH WHO OR WHAT GOD IS: Now there’s a good question. We are bringing into question the basic things, Who & What is God? Most people don’t go that far or deep, just accept whatever the official narrative is they are taught & don’t take it apart. Now we do that.) *

3-18-22 Fete at Aunties

This usually means trouble but I don’t feel trouble here. Auntie is the feminine equivalent of ‘Cry Uncle’ which is when you suffer as in wrestling, can’t take any more & cry ‘Uncle.’ It’s my own vocabulary, might not be yours.

I’m visiting my Aunt. Prior to that I was deprived of pleasure, fun, satisfaction. But now I see she has worked hard, cleaned the house, made a big meal & I’m invited, so are several others.

* (MYSELF & SEVERAL OTHERS INVITED: Means this celebration will be shared by others, not a secret thing between Beloved & myself {for a change thank God.}) *

There’s something to do with my Rolex watch. I put it down & with it was a list of several men, the last of which I’m going to have sex with. Yes, I’ve been celibate & it’s time to break the fast, but I’m KEEPING IT SECRET.

So when someone picks up my watch off a table or couch & looks at the list I’m not happy. And then, the LAST PERSON I want to inform of what I’m going to do – my sister, also sees the list & asks me what it is.

*** (LAST PERSON I WANT TO KNOW ABOUT THIS, MY SISTER: She’s usually my PRAGMATIC SELF & so this might be the DOUBTING THOMAS who believes nothing until it’s proven or she sees it happen. So I don’t want to hear any doubts about my marriage to Bob, not even think themf.

List attached to Rolex watch – two people look at it but they don’t know what it’s about when I finally don’t leave it out there, put it into my pocket. This has to do with TIME. The invisible list says ‘two men first’ which might mean ‘two months go by, then the third month’, you will see your Lover, or have your reunion or ‘marriage.’) ***

At that point I pick up the watch which has this list attached, but somehow not on paper, like hovering in the air, & put it in my pocket without allowing her to see I’m concealing it. I’m wearing my beautiful brown suede feminine flared jacket – I only wear it on SPECIAL OCCASSIONS. It hangs down gracefully getting wide on the bottom, falling in folds – only a female could wear this.

*** (SUEDE LEATHER ONLY A FEMALE COULD WEAR: And I’m hiding this revelation FROM MYSELF {fleshly self} so to speak. I’m being FEMININE about it, not aggressively shouting it from the rooftops as I usually do with things, but putting it inside the jacket pocket which means femininity which means passiveness. Keep it INSIDE MYSELF & only tell one trusted man seen in the next part.

Why is it a Rolex watch & not any other kind? Probably because the Rolex you have is SILVER – the silver comes up a lot as the permanent relationship.) ***

I then walk over to a man outside by the door who’s my confidante & I TRUST HIM. I say to him,

“This list – I have not had any type of sex for 2.5 months {which in the dream is a LONG time, the truth is I have not had sex since mid 2019, last time I did it with Beloved} & I’m going to see two of those guys & then the last one on the list, I’m going to make love with him.”

This will be a SPECIAL TREAT according to this dream.

* (2.5 MONTHS once again makes the same prediction – prior to this you saw the ‘2 men first – then the 3^rd I’ll make love with.’ This definitely sounds like two months go by, then in the middle of the third your relationship begins. This would be JUNE 2^{nd – “22}**.

I look around through this house & go to the rest room. In it I see Aunt has really worked hard – I am IMPRESSED. In the TINY bathroom there’s a white towel hanging on the rack & a white rug on the floor, both of which are not knobby but satiny like plastic texture – she cleaned everything & replaced it & put sparkling amenities. I think HOW HARD she worked & appreciate it. All for me?

We’re going to have a party – a feast – hosted by her.

*** (AUNTIE CLEANS HOUSE – PREPARES A FEAST – WHITE TOWEL & RUG NOT KNOBBY BUT SATINY: Blatant symbols of a MARRIAGE FEAST. White & SATIN are both wedding symbols. Many gowns are traditionally satin. And the FEAST is the CELEBRATION.

I was puzzled by the Auntie symbol. But could be this: Punishment/pain turns into SUCCESS, celebration, I have OVERCOME my Cross – the Cross of waiting for him to be ready for a relationship.

………………………………………………………

Earlier was an ominous dream about the devil taking away my trip to the altar.

I pull up to a restaurant to take something ‘out.’ I leave my white Corvette outside parked in a spot that reminds me where I always park at one of the dollar stores.

In the passenger side is sitting Putz NutOn who ALWAYS represents SATAN. I left him there as I went to shop. The key was in the car.

But when I went into the restaurant/store I spent along time. Instead of say 15-20 minutes I spent 2 or 3 times as long as I needed to just hanging around, not sure what I was doing but sitting around, maybe talking.

And when I come outside the parking lot has snow here & there & my vehicle is gone. The evil Putz got tired of waiting, got into the driver seat & took off.

MEANING: I know this is THE DEVIL making my Beloved feel frustration / impatience at my not being with him so long & leaves the premises – not wanting or BELIEVING in our relationship any more. But after that follows the good dream, so go figure. It’s a TEMPTATION that was dispelled.

Second interpretation: it could have been a FEAR of mine that after such a long wait he would tire of waiting & disappear.

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Lover Nervous Breakdown

3-15-22 Lover Nervous Breakdown

I’m with an old bf named Kahell & he’s sitting at the boudoir/table with mirror of my apt in B’klyn. I’ve been near him now for a while & each time I call his attention he turns to me but while he was turned away he had a fierce angry look on his face – when he turns to me it gets mild.

*** (KAHELL EXTREME ANGER: This was a guy who lived in his ego & delusions of grandeur. He was nothing but a drug dealer – addict – & jail bird, I were relieved to finally get rid of him. What a lesson I learned! Mother God, I need your Light – why is he Kahell?

MG: This is how he feels in ego in his flesh not in his Soul. His DELUSIONS HAVE BEEN SMASHED. He, Bob, {yes, it’s Bob the Lover again} has also lived in delusions about himself, you & the two of you. It’s over – delusions smashed leads to DESPAIR – loss of hope.

This is one of the symptoms of GRIEF, grief is sorrow over loss – he’s angry at what he’s lost, part of which is YOU & all the good you brought or could have.

The boudoir /table with MIRROR, in B’klyn: He is LOOKING IN THE MIRROR at himself, his life, & it’s not a pretty sight – the reality is bad. He’s in front of the mirror, but looking left, at the PAST {what has left} & he equates the mistakes of the past with what he is, where he is now. So the past & the mirror are what he sees & is angry about) ***

This time I just tap him with one finger on his right shoulder, he turns again the same way, extreme anger from the left, when his face turns to me it’s soft but eyes full of tears & close to DESPAIR, like he’s going to have or is already having a NERVOUS BREAKDOWN.

Note: the men in these images are my models, not the lover I’m dreaming about

* (TAP WITH ONE FINGER ON HIS SHOULDER: In my vocabulary, the right shoulder houses the secret wound of Jesus which is not spoken of, here the wood of the Cross bore into his flesh down to the bone. And so, this wound of Bob’s – losing you – his grief over you – is his SECRET. He is so sensitive to this loss that your ONE FINGER on his shoulder gets a reaction.) *

I am REALLY CONCERNED as I feel he’s CRACKING UP.

I speak to him GENTLY & say,

“Would you like to go see your Mother? She might give you some COMFORT.”

At that thought he sort of looks forward WITH HEAD DOWN like for some reason he can’t do it – don’t know why he can’t.

*** (WOULD YOU LIKE TO SEE YOUR MOTHER? HE’S GOT HIS HEAD DOWN FORWARD, LIKE FOR SOME REASON HE CAN’T: Mother is the one who gives him Mother Love – which is what he’s always needed, unconditional True Love. That only comes from you, so you ARE HIS MOTHER. Yes, all women have some maternal love that they give to children, but you are the one sent him by God to be that person. He is PRIMARILY GRIEVING OVER YOU – other things like his music, could not take your place, nothing could – he’s been with numerous other women but had no feelings for them.

His SHAME – knowing he’s been in the wrong – & LACK OF CONFIDENCE stop him from calling you. He’s AFRAID you’ll REJECT HIM that you’re done with him, you’ve found another man. He can’t face the thought of your rejection.) ***

MEANING: {Mother God speaking} Mother is YOU. He’s close to despair, as this says, & at the end when you suggest seeing you he has GIVEN UP HOPE mostly.

ME: What is his problem? He has my numbers, why doesn’t he just call?

MG: He does not have the CONFIDENCE. When you were chasing him it was so easy, he did not have to do a thing, just access you whenever it pleased him. He didn’t have to worry, put any effort into it, treat you any way he wanted, & you always there, loving him & acting like he was doing you a favor.

All that ended 2 years ago & it took a while for him to settle in his mind that you would not pursue him again, he could not access you easily, he’d have to do something about it.

As the months & then 2.5 years went by he repented, but he DID NOT DO THE RIGHT THING & repentance is one step, but dong something to repair / remedy one’s past actions HE FAILED TO DO.

ME: But I’m worried he’ll crack up. Can there be permanent damage to his mind if something doesn’t give soon? Jesus appeared a few days ago, took love from me & gave it to him – now this. What should I do? Shall I write him?

MG: At this point it might be best to write him again & give him your #s in case he lost them.

ME: In the dream when he’s looking to the left & then turns to me, he’s very angry. As soon as he faces me he gets mild. What is he angry about?

MG: He’s angry at LIFE. He’s angry for what happened in the past, the way things worked out, his disappointments & failures. Mostly he’s angry AT HIMSELF.

ME: Why is he angry at himself?

MG: He knows he did wrong. He wronged you. He took you for granted, mistreated you, hurt you, & he wanted to hurt you. He was taking out his frustrations & anxieties that he had about life in general, specifically his parents, & he poured out these negative feelings on the one who loved him unconditionally – you – the way men do a lot, the way people do, ‘you always hurt the one you love.’

He hurt you because YOU WERE SAFE. You never hurt him except pretending to be with guys when 90% of the time you weren’t even with them. That was all you did – nothing else. But he on purpose hurt you again, again & again to take out his angst & frustrations on you as I said.

You did so much loving things for him, in particular photographing him & creating a book – which he not only did not appreciate, but HE STOPPED SPEAKING TO YOU FOR 9 MONTHS BECAUSE OF THE PICTURES – because his FRIENDS MADE FUN OF HIM – lowlife drug addict, delinquent friends he tossed you aside for.

Then he did the UNFORGIVEABLE. He put Ruthie as his WIFE on social media, for the world to see, while eventually making up with you but just to use you to milk the love out of you & keeping you secret. You got no respect, consideration or public acknowledgement. You went along with this for 3 years when finally GOD PUT A STOP TO IT by circumstances & GOD helped you get over him so you’d stop chasing him & the ball was on his side of the park to hit. But he didn’t hit it, just did a lot of things to invite / urge you to start chasing him again, but you were stronger than him this time. He’d never been strong in the first place, except in ignorance & mule-like stubbornness in wrong doing.

He is angry re HIS CAREER – not going anywhere. He’s compromised himself with fags to try to get some place – nothing doing & never will. This makes him ANGRY. His rapper friends get dozens of likes, even hundreds, but his songs get 5 likes at the most sometimes NONE. He can’t understand why. The reason is because PEOPLE DON’T LIKE HIM. Why do they not like him? Because he doesn’t show love, he’s not dependable or charming & doesn’t reciprocate, like for example, doesn’t return calls or letters. The way he treated you he in general treats others – though NOT AS BADLY, but it’s bad enough so they don’t put LIKES on his music, whereas the other guys respond to people when they write or call, they act normal – he doesn’t. He’s NOT NORMAL, he NEEDS HELP. And no one CAN or WILL help him sincerely EXCEPT YOU. Your love has been UNCONDITINAL & he took ADVANTAGE OF IT.

To make matters short, he hates the fact that HE’S GOT NOWHERE WITH HIS MUSIC – not even a pleasant HOBBY where people approve of him. He’s got no audience, except for a couple of die-hard losers.

You attempted to help him. You would have used the fame of a modeling career to segue into bigger things – like music, TV, even movies – but he’s so PROUD he felt he could do it BY HIMSELF, that he KNEW MORE ABOUT THE BUSINESS THAN YOU DID – forgetting you already achieved fame & fortune by doing it right. He PROVED HIMSELF WRONG, that he COULD NOT SUCCEED & now he’s reaping the rewards of failure – a feeling of SHAME & humble pie.

About success – in 2020 you were AUDITIONED for a REALITY TV SHOW where they wanted YOU & YOUR YOUNG LOVER but you knew HE WOULD NOT COOPERATE & told them so. You asked them if you could SUBSTITUTE one of your models who’d do it for money – after all, it could have been a model you had an affair with, but they said no, it had to be the guy you were having a serious affair with – he was the only one. They would have paid each of you thousands of dollars a week – but you had tried to do things like that with him before & he ignored you.

ME: OK so he’s angry re his career, what else is he angry for?

MG: You of course, he lost you, he lost you for the way he used you – to drain your love energy once a month through sex & keep you pining away the rest of the time. He lost his racket. He did not lose you in True Love, but he’s not done what he should do to receive it.

ME: Anything else?

MG: His initial wound, he’s angry about what he won’t own up to – his parents. His Dad abused him, his Mom allowed it, but he won’t admit it any more.

He felt becoming a famous rap artist would justify him, the way you justified yourself against your family by being a star – except for him, it didn’t work. You know why it didn’t work, because he was a fool, & now he KNOWS HE WAS A FOOL & who does he hate the most? – HIMSELF.

You know well why it didn’t work. When God gave him the GRACE, through you, to help him become SOME BODY he forfeited you & it, thinking he knew better than you, he would not humble himself to receive your help, although he did & continues to humble himself with a fag to get his music done. But it ain’t workin’. And now he knows it. How many years have passed? About 12 years of trying & NOTHING. And you told him it wouldn’t work except as a hobby, but it isn’t even a good hobby as he gets no likes, no approval, no audience.

ME: OK explain his mental state & what danger is in it, like losing his mind & ending up in the psyche ward? Or taking too much drugs & OD’ing? What about his drugs? He’s always drowned his pain in drugs & booze aren’t they working for him any more?

MG: They’re not working like they used to, he needs more & more & he hasn’t got the money to pay for all he wants. So he’s left with lots of pain, it’s deep.

What will happen? I don’t know. Maybe the letter you write will help him call you & make amends. If he ignores it it might be months before he does anything, even years. We shall see, just surrender it all to God.

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Ramakrishna Channeled

Chapter 1 Part 7 Channeling Ramakrishna 3-11-22

From Wikipedia:

Ramakrishna Paramahamsa; 18 February 1836 – 16 August 1886), born Gadadhar Chattopadhyaya, was an Indian Hindu mystic and religious leader. Ramakrishna approached his religious life through the path of devotion to the Goddess Kali, and by observance of various elements from Tantra, Vaishnav Bhakti, and Advaita Vedanta, as well as proficiency {Rasa word edited from dalliances} in Christianity and Islam. After earnest practice of various religious traditions, he held that the world’s religions represented “so many paths to reach one and the same goal”. His followers came to regard him as an avatara, or divine incarnation, as did some of the prominent Hindu scholars of his day.

Quotation

“I have practised all religions – Hinduism, Islam, Christianity – and I have also followed the paths of the different Hindu sects. I have found that it is the same God toward whom all are directing their steps, though along different paths. You must try all beliefs and traverse all the different ways once. Wherever I look, I see men quarrelling in the name of religion – Hindus, Mohammedans, Brahmos, Vaishnavas, and the rest. But they never reflect that He who is called Krishna is also called Siva, and bears the name of the Primal Energy, Jesus, and Allah as well – the same Rama with a thousand names. A lake has several Ghats. At one, the Hindus take water in pitchers and call it ‘ Jal ‘ ; at another the Mussalmans take water in leather bags and call it ‘ pani ‘. At a third the Christians call it ‘ water ‘. Can we imagine that it is not ‘ Jal ‘ , but only ‘ pani ‘ or ‘ water ‘? How ridiculous! The substance is One under different names, and everyone is seeking the same substance; only climate, temperament, and name create differences. Let each man follow his own path. If he sincerely and ardently wishes to know God, peace be unto him! He will surely realize Him.”

Ramakrishna, who experienced spiritual ecstasies from a young age, started his spiritual journey as a priest at the Dakshineshwar Kali Temple. Soon his mystical temperament gained him a widespread acknowledgement amongst the general public as a Guru, attracting to him various religious teachers, social leaders, Bengali elites, and common people alike; he eventually taught his disciples, who later formed the monastic Ramakrishna Order. After his death, his chief disciple Swami Vivekananda popularized his ideas, and founded the Ramakrishna Math, which provides spiritual training for monastics and householder devotees, and the Ramakrishna Mission, to provide charity, social work and education. (end Wikipedia with one word edited by Rasa)

Sri Ramakrishna has been my guru since about 1995 – He’s not my only Hindu/Yoga guru. I started with Paramahamsa Yogananda {so popular in the West}, read the Bhagavad-Gita at age 29, got deep into Baba Muktananda & his guru, Nityananda, besides studying many Yoga books I can’t even recall. With Muktananda & Nityananda I went all the way into MYSTICAL MARRIAGE with each of them. Muktananda gave me HIS SANDALS but in the form of high-heeled red/white & blue ones to honor my country! And Nityananda gave me a SOLID SILVER DRESS {mystically} with which we got ‘married’ {united} & lifted 250 Souls out of Purgatory for celebration! I was close to Ramana Maharshi, who led me into Nonduality in Feb, 2007.

I’ve not done an official ‘guru sadhana’ with Ramakrishna but perhaps that will come later. A sadhana is when you study, concentrate, pray to the Enlightened being of your choice, they appear to you in Light, {Muktananda was coruscating violet light every evening as I prayed to him} visions, dreams, & when you succeed in your devotion they give you Gifts {spiritual} & even Mystical Marriage if/when you open all your heart to him/her.

Recently I boned up on Who Ramakrishna is, what he did & I see that he is a man for my times, while I now pursue a Sisterhood where all of us can be different faiths but follow a Mother God. Ramakrishna is the only religious leader I know of who not only tolerated & accepted the validity of various religions but actually imbibed & became proficient in many of them – an astounding feat to be all that he was & then to become a Muslim & a Christian. You have to study him to understand & believe this – I did. Long ago there were only books which I purchased many of – but now it’s easy with the internet & You Tube videos. I recently reviewed some of his biographical movies & documentaries & was once again amazed.

Being he was on my mind I began to channel him or read his mind, & the answers he gave were most consoling & healing for my troubled mind. His intelligence is off the chart – his insight & common sense.

A thing that was bugging me to no end was the time when God told me, in 2008 to quit my celibacy, “go out & have fun,” – “stop suffering” – “if you don’t do this you will be OUTSIDE THE WILL OF GOD.”

I resisted at first, but when She said I’d be outside the will of God if I disobeyed that was final. I fear God more than death; I knew I had to obey. Why, I didn’t know. But I obeyed, as usual with all the power & zeal within my body. I did the best I could to ‘have fun’ although I told God I no longer knew how – & She said, ‘You will learn.’ I did not understand then nor is it completely clear to me now, the meaning of all this.

I might add that embarking on this unexpected phase changed my ministry & guru-hood. One disciple – my holiest one – in Scotland, could not abide this new lifestyle, our relationship ended. His name was Kun Kin, his visions about me are on my website, ‘Woman, Thou Art God.’ I used to appear in bilocation to him again & again, he tried to touch me but I would disappear. Finally one night he crawled to me & finally touched the hem of my dress {I was sitting I imagine like Whistler’s Mother, in a long dress} before I vanished.

If & when at rare occasions I speak of this to people – they exclaim,

“God would not tell you to do this!”

Because of course sex is dirty, sinful, & everything bad in their minds – certainly God would not send anyone there although ‘He’ created sex – it’s a paradox - & CERTAINLY no religious, holy, sacred or sanctified person would be sent to go into the world & HAVE SEX & ENJOY IT!

On my part, these were my objections or questions. First, I struggle to become celibate because all the saints were. I think about it for years, try to stop having sex a few months, then for a year, then swing back. It isn’t easy. I find no one else interested in this quest. It’s a journey you will take ALONE.

So finally one day it’s time. The Holy Virgin appears to me & asks me not to have sex with men any more. Figuring this is forever, I hesitate – even though I wanted it. I’m discomforted. But after 5 days of thought my inner voice says if I don’t take this vow I’ll always know I’m a coward so I do.

The first two years are rough, I wish I could get out of it but I can’t. After that it eases up. After 10 years I’m FREE. Free of what? – The discomforting nagging sex drive. Then God appears to me in spirit & says do I want to quit the view, it’s done its work. I say no because I’m AT PEACE, do I want to have a sex drive nagging my bones again?

Ten more years goes by & the idea of sex withdraws completely from my zeitgeist. Here comes God again, do I want to quit? No, God, I’m happy where I am.

Fine, ten more years. God again, do I want to quit? No God I don’t want to quit. Why would I? Go back to the world of unrequited desires? Have my heart filled with lust & go about seeking sex? Why would I want such turmoil invading me when I am AT PEACE? My life is FINE without sex in fact, many great things happened that never would have had I kept up with it.

But then God elaborates & tells me what I said above. Then I have no way out, this is the Will of God & therefore my will. Where do I start?

Alright, let’s ask Ramakrishna, the world expert on spirituality. I have channeled & asked others but still was confused. Let’s see if his genius will put a light at the end of the tunnel. So to all I have said, what is your answer, Sri Ramakrishna? Why was it the WILL OF GOD that I stop suffering, go out to have fun & sex, bars & alcohol, getting drunk, reveling & carousing, acting crazy like all the others, feeling lust, anger when thwarted, pain when rejected, jealousy when females take my men away, feelings of revenge when insulted & hurt – why did God throw me into the lion’s den, for what reason & what good did it do me or others? What about sin? – All those human, animal feelings. Did I sin? What mission is this? I know ‘black & beautiful’ from the Song of Songs, God sends me out there into the fields & I get ‘black from the sun’ {I commit faults} but I’m still beautiful because I did it for God. What do you make of all this?

RK (Ramakrishna for short): You obeyed the Will of God, how could you be wrong? Now you want me to interpret or understand what God wanted of you.

First of all, you are a Goddess in the spiritual meaning of the word, the highest meaning. Not just that your body is beautiful but your Soul is. You are not of the flesh or the world, not for a long time – you left that spirit behind years ago. Therefore, the first question, is, were you committing sins when you felt those feelings mentioned. The answer is no. Yes, you felt ‘lust’ but that went with the territory of the mission. The other feelings toward your neighbor were temptations. You did not dwell upon them, entertain them or put any of them into action. You felt them quickly & temporarily, you let them go in your heart you forgave those who hurt you. Temptations are not sins unless you entertain them, nourish them & act upon them. So that’s settled.

Next, your peace of mind. Why would the Almighty want you to leave behind your contemplation, peacefulness, the cave, the cloister, the monastery, the hermitage, the isolation, & go back into a world full of dangers? And dangers they were. You not only had sex but you were assaulted physically, punched in the stomach & in the face 3 times – once knocked unconscious for a second. Many things happened that could have ended in serious injury, but they didn’t – because God protected you – God was with you.

Yes you started to drink, on & off, got drunk a few times. So did the disciples, so do most people, religious or not. Don’t take it so seriously.

Next, what good came out of all this? You became a Cougar. What did this mean? You EMPOWERED WOMEN. You took away the STIGMA FROM SEX. It was what you always spoke of – if somehow we could take the stigma off sex & make it Sacred again, it would take so much power off Patriarchy, because they keep women enslaved by making sex evil, taking away their sexual freedom. You did a chapter on this with St. Martin Luther King Jr., where he said when women break away from Patriarchy by having sex with anyone they want, whenever, however they want, it would be the end of Patriarchy – because men do everything to gain & control women. Once that’s lost, Patriarchy is lost. Nothing to fight for, no more wars. So women’s sexual freedom is a BIG THING TO FIGHT FOR.

Stop being afraid you did wrong, just rejoice you obeyed God no matter what this society thinks. People are SUPPOSED TO think it’s scandal for old women to be with young men, it’s par for the course, let the attention arise & the objections fly, give them the answer of God. It’s like you Stripping for God. You got attention, you gave your message. It was a good thing – that women in the adult trade are not lowlifes, they can be of God, you made your point, you edified people, you changed things.

Yes, Cougars are still scandal & they’re in the news reality type TV shows & everyone is baffled & curious what makes them tick. But most of them do NOT understand the issues of ‘old woman – young man’, why it’s important – but you do. As a woman educated in the ideas of Patriarchy vs. Matriarchy, & how they’ve held down women – including old women is an important issue. You explained those issues in two books. None of these other Cougars could do this, they had sex with men & did TV shows, but has any of them tackled the issues or given illuminating answers concerning how women have been disempowered & now they’re taking their freedom back? No they haven’t, you were needed to do that. And no, you’ve not yet been on TV interview shows for it, but you will. You can’t do it all at once, now you’re writing it down, later you will be in the media.

Part of what you’re doing through your life is as a religious, spiritual woman who is pro-sex, your making sex SACRED again. You’re taking the SOIL OUT OF SEX, cleaning it up, where Patriarchs threw it to the mud you bring out sex the way the pond lily is rooted in the mud but pops out on top beautiful & fragrant. You liberate people from seeing sex as a naughty, sinful, secret, forbidden activity into the Light of day where it belongs – let everyone rejoice we have sex & it’s for love, it can be Sacred, all of us came into the world through it.

ME: So far, so good Ramakrishna. But why me? Why not a lady in the adult trade besides me, say a Sex Therapist {prostitute} or Pornography lady? Wouldn’t they be appropriate? And they would not have to give up 30 years of celibacy to go out there to preach this, I did. Why do I have to give up my peace, enter the fray, do something that was half fun, half painful – & God told me to stop suffering. So how am I not suffering when I faced all the dangers of going to bars every weekend for 11 years & being the victim of prejudice for my age & all the other mine-field factors of dating?

RK: Where do I begin? First of all, God needed a TEACHER, an intellectual, one who contemplates. But that person could not be a bookish, at the desk, Armchair General, that person needed to be out there LIVING THE LIFE. Now how many women are there in the adult trade, who can be teachers, professors, gurus, building their own Church & proclaiming the Word of God?

I can’t think of any but you. And besides being a professor type, this woman preferably is also a WOMAN OF GOD so that’s a BIG BILL TO PAY, some qualities all I one woman that are hard to find.

And so, you got chosen.

ME: I also took thousands of photos of models. I feel now that these will illustrate my activities, that is to say, me being a Cougar, they being young hotties, even though they were not the actual guys I dated – some of them were but not most of them, & so, they serve to illustrate my activities as symbols. What do you think of the value of these photos, is it high?

RK: That was one of the best things you did, without knowing it. You didn’t plan ahead of time to illustrate your Cougar escapades with these photos, but they will suffice, & they will lend great credibility to your stories. How many of these Cougars have all these photos? – None – only you. So this is of great value.

ME: On another note. You & Ramana Maharshi are famous for your trance states. It makes me wonder, have I missed anything? My trance states have been few & far between. Have I fallen down on the job? You do of course have a far different spiritual culture than us Christians & you guys got famous for trances & greatly acclaimed. In our ball game only Maria Woodworth Etter was famous for trances, no one else I know of, & that was a while ago. Have I been remiss in not going into trances the way you guys did?

RK: Haha, how funny. If you were in trances the way we were, how could you have done your work? How could you have Stripped for God & given sermons, how could you have been the Progenitor of female body building, how could you have done all the interviews & TV? All the things you did you were equipped to do. Each Avatar, each Saint of God has different qualities & Gifts that God chooses for them to do their work. You had to be beautiful; you had to have a beautiful body & face. That’s a credential few ministers & gurus had to have, but it was important for you. That’s why your mother hated you – one reason – you were beautiful, she was not. Everything that you are has been used for ministry – your body, your mind & heart. We all had what we had to do what we had to do. Now let’s end for now, you must get this posted.

ME: Thank you Sri Ramakrishna, we may speak again. Your help has been terrific.

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Success with Lover

3-9-22-Dad plays jokes on me

Dream explains union with Beloved is coming up SOON

but we aren’t sure

how soon? 3 months? 3 years?

And he loves me as much as I love him

Note:

The males in these pics are my models, not someone I dreamed about

Dad sets a small, square blonde wooden table, laden with many items, maybe even a small bouquet of flowers, a white tablecloth set vertically across so that 2 corners are bare.

It seems like for him & brother there are only goblets of water but I have a bowl that has several items. Maybe pirogues, something light green like a cooked celery stalk, maybe part of a skinned boiled potato. The table seats 4, Dad is to my right, bro across from me.

* (WOODEN TABLE but TOPPED WITH MANY ITEMS OF FOOD INCLUDING FLOWERS: Wood is suffering (the Cross) but food is the opposite, flowers are love. So this shows FULFILLMENT – out of the cross, my sufferings for lover as perhaps his own have resulted in fruitfulness & love**. We are now to enjoy the BLESSINGS.

Pirogues are like blintzes – one of my fave foods – possibly the fave if I had to pick one food I’d have to eat daily for the rest of my life, this could be it. So the nourishment / pleasure / satisfaction is GREAT.

Table being blonde: Blonde is close to white, so several items here are white – the tablecloth, the flowers I imagine white with pink, the handle of the fork, pirogues are also nearly white – white is good, in this case MARRIAGE or UNION.

Why is the tablecloth diagonal rather than covering the entire table? TWO, not one corner being exposed, might signify the process of this relationship being able to work, he had to suffer as well as yourself (he has had extra sufferings, the loss of you the last over 2 years, his fake wife also had a bad accident & can’t work & support them – everyone expects him to step up to the plate which to him emotionally is a burden – so he’s lost me & now her, as her purpose was to work & get more drugs for them) So the 2 corners exposes 2 suffered, not you alone.

Why is the table small, not large? This is a good sign also, that you & bro – who is Bob the lover – are ALONE. The fake wife Ruthie, the seat is empty & Dad is the facilitator, he will depart. So it shows you & Bob, just you. It’s about you as a couple – 2 is a couple, 3 is a crowd.

Why at first he & bro only have water? This is to confirm that your Lover with gain as much joy, satisfaction as you. At first you weren’t sure, but it’s equal – he loves you as much as you love him.

The celery stalk on my plate – not his – sounds like his DICK because it’s a STALK, stalks are STIFF, but this is cooked which means READY – the piece of something that looks like boiled potato – Potato usually mean, haha ‘meat & potatoes’, so it might be saying you will get the ‘meat & potatoes’ – his dick his body, companionship, the BASICS.) ***

Note: Below me age 66. Check out the PERFECT LEGS! I was working them hard in the gym – of course they are perfect to begin with lol – This is my apt where I’d meet my lover Bob spoken of in my dreams

I don’t like my fork, I think my utensils, a knife & fork, were copped from an airplane & when I examine the fork closely it further confirms it. On the white porcelain handle it says ‘warning’ & I feel the rest of the tiny writing will say property of the airline, don’t remove it. The prongs of the fork are what I don’t like, only 3 with not much space in between.

*** (THE FORK AS EXPLAINED: Need help on this, Mother God.

MG: An airplane is FLIGHT in this case, jet plane, so FAST FLIGHT. It hints that this will happen soon.

The 3 prongs, close together? Could be 3 weeks, 3 months, 3 years. Close together might be saying ‘will go by fast.’ Three months from now seems like a possibility, that would be June. Three YEARS from now would be 2025. Maybe it’s the time element YOU DON’T LIKE – it’s too long, if 3 years it’s a LONG TIME!

What is the warning sign? Mother God, help.

MG: The warning is a prediction – like a secret sign, be warned, this is coming at you sooner than you think! It’s nothing bad. It’s just that it’s SECRET like if a person steals silverware from an airline, this is a secret, they’re going to do it on the sly. So maybe it’s closer to 3 months than years.

Why is the fork small? No particular reason except to show you it’s from an airline to make the point.) ***

Then when the dinner begins I see Dad has indeed provided himself & bro a meal – Dad has his small bowl with maybe 2 pirogues & bro has probably 2 or 3.

As we begin to eat I notice cottage cheese – which I love – & am going to take a spoon & ladle some of that for me.

* (COTTAGE CHEESE: Is a derivative of milk, milk is a strong symbol of LOVE – the ‘milk of human kindness,’ the food every mother gives her newborn to protect it not only with food but immune system components. This implies a BEGINNING of your love, your new meaningful relationship – instead of him just using you as the backstreet woman for sex, while his ‘wife’ was on a pedestal for social media.) *

There’s something about this that makes me feel Dad is playing tricks or being facetious.

* (TRICKS, FACETIOUS: You felt like that at the start when Dad gave himself & Bob only water. Water is important, it’s life, but you were not sure if Bob would really love you, that is, get NOURISHMENT / SATISFACTION from you being together or if he would be just USING YOU for support. That doubt is cleared up here, that he would enjoy the pirogues as much as you are. Pirogues BTW, pictured here, contain cheese, which is also from milk, so it’s LOVE. You’re all enjoying the love – even Dad from Heaven, he’s happy for you, he’s appearing to facilitate your life to make up for not helping you enough on earth.) *

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Me downtown whooping it up – with my Granddaughter….I went downtown the next day by myself, she refused to go again, am not sure why.

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Souls Ascend into Heaven!

2-5-22 Several Honored Souls Ascend

There were many scenes, but I only recall the main ones.

I’m in a restaurant where I’m one of several waiters.

I get a dish from the kitchen. It’s two pieces of breast meat of chicken & they don’t give it to me on a plate, just right into my hands. Each piece of chicken is very light, soft & pliable, it hangs in my hands like soft rubber, & they are both kind of like clinging to one another.

*** {LIGHT SOFT CHICKEN: These are the Masses I said this day & why two because I said two Masses or else it could be that I consecrate ‘the Body & Blood of Jesus & Mary” who symbolically & spiritually are cling together as One.

It’s soft like that because I use parts of tortillas as the elements & they are soft & ‘rubbery’ in my hands.} ***

I walk into the dining room & am looking for a plate, which I find on a table – a white rectangular thick ceramic plate, like maybe a foot long & 6” wide with soft ridge / frame around it, like an exclusive restaurant might have.

* {WHITE CERAMIC PLATE: Is my table, as my kitchen table is made of white tiles.} *

I then ask the host who this goes to. He points to an empty table to the right, saying,

“To that lady there,’

& although no one is sitting there I go & place the chicken at this table. There are several other plates here with dishes, the table has a white tablecloth, I guess the lady’s in the rest room or something & how could I have known there is a lady there?

* {THAT LADY WHO IS NOT THERE: By the flowers everywhere this sounds like a funeral or funerals. That the lady ‘is not there’ could be saying she’s not on earth, but it might also say she’s already ascended in anticipation of this / these Holy Masses. {God sometimes does that, in anticipation of something about to happen, God gives a person the Grace they would receive.} *

As I make my way back toward the kitchen I maneuver through tables everywhere – small ones, each of which has bouquets of flowers. There are beautiful flowers everywhere, large pink blossoms, you can hardly make a path through them, the floor is even littered with rose petals.

* {FLOWERS EVERYWHERE EVEN PETALS ON THE FLOOR: This sounds like multiple funerals for several people – there being several waiters also indicates there’s several people getting Masses**. Maybe there was an accident where a few folks got killed.

The petals mean ‘procession’ as when there’s a procession to honor someone – this lady & / or others could have been distinguished persons, greatly loved. Maybe it was a great nun, other nuns or Priests, could have been Holy Saints.} ***

And I am not the only server – there are maybe 5 servers I see going from table to table.

MEANING: This might be saying that you & several others offering up Holy Masses have released several distinguished Souls into Heaven this day. You do not see the lady or the other clients, you only see the servers. That’s a hint they ascended, otherwise you’d see them.

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50 Souls lifted with Rev King!

We get FIFTY SOULS up on Rev King’s Day!

1-17-22 This is about Rev. Martin Luther King Jr – it’s his feast day! See

two other dreams below, both include Purgtory issues, one about my Lover

I’m recalling this from yesterday. I go to an old haunt – the ‘Italian American Civil Rights League’ where I used to work. As I enter, I’m not a member of their club or clan, but I have permission to be here & I have been given – don’t know by whom – an apt below this level, which has an entrance in the far corner of this room – it’s just big enough for a person to lower themselves in & I suppose there’s a staircase or ladder. Once you go in the place it’s a nice apt, but I don’t actually see myself going in.

* {Apt I am given below, although I’m not a member of this org or club: This is my ability to enter Purgatory,** which is a level below – given me by God.

Looking for my wardrobe is looking for my lights or Anointings, {which are tools} which it seems some other workers have stolen. This might not be as bad as it sounds, I have a suspicious this is about a Great friend of Mine, Rev King, whose day this is. I’ve had a couple Souls in Heaven work with me before as partners – I recall Errol Flynn got his last wife & last girl friend – Beverly Aadland – into Heaven in partnership with me.

This is a great revelation I did not see before until this moment. Here the Rev. King is in the next room – my Anointings symbolically are missing which means they are being used or someone else is performing with them. They are silver & gold, which are lights of great love. {see below} We shall see what happens.

The men who are here on this level might be Purgatorial Souls as they are super ugly. To put it in other words, I am in Purgatory – there are various levels. I did not enter my spot on the lower level, I’m on this one, whatever it is. A couple guy here are not ready apparently to ascend, their souls are not clean enough, so they are ugly.} ***

I am somehow concerned with the light grey standing wardrobe in this room which had my costumes for dancing – I’m supposed to perform. But the costumes are gone, all but one, the one left is a plain black low cut mini dress. {Symbol of funeral, Purgatory} The one I have at home has rhinestone strips but can’t recall if this one does. The dresses that are missing are glamorous, like maybe one all silver lame & the other gold – full length with see through robes – & I tell the men sitting here someone has stolen my costumes!

I look at the men & tell them it isn’t them, it’s gotta’ be the other dancers, who are also booked to perform here. This is EXTREMELY UPSETTING.

The two men I look at here against the wall on a sort of day bed are grotesque in ugliness. There’s a sense of yellowy skin & Afro frizzy long hair piled not hanging, but standing on their heads, both different but similar, they are like runts in their bodies, just ugly as can be.

Then I’m sitting on some sort of day bed in the middle of this room & there are two males to my left & they are bowing to their knees, because a personage in the next room is going to walk past here on his way out.

I ask them who the person is & a guy says,

“They got the GOVERNOR to come out here!”

Wow, I think, & I also bow in anticipation of honoring him.

How did this little place ever get the governor to come out here? I look in the next room & see even though it’s not a big place, they did their best. They set up two huge banquet tables with all kinds of food I believe, each table can sit maybe 25 people – so in this medium room they got about 50 really serious people to honor & fete him, so that it was worth it for him to come out. In other words, it’s not quantity but quality of people honoring him.

*** {This is REMARKABLE & thank God I decided to type this out today as when I dreamed it yesterday I didn’t have a clue what it was about & this is wonderful beyond words.

The governor is Rev King. He is here in Purgatory & so am I, although we’re in separate rooms. I’m in one room with a couple souls not ready to go up, another 2 persons, maybe souls, are sitting to my left bowing in anticipation of his coming by.

I’m asking how on earth did you get such a big person to come down to Purgatory?

And then I see what it is. Two banquet tables are the Love Feast or Holy Mass as well as acts of love, prayers, that were transmitted to the Souls. Rev. King USED MY ANOINTINGS – to partner with me in SETTING FREE THESE SOULS or having them rise up into Heaven.

According to this it seems like we got a good number, 50 or more souls, to rise up into Heaven in honor of his Feast Day! Wow

These are special clients of Dr King – his not mine – that’s why I’m not in the banquet room but I can see it. These are people who loved him or were dedicated to him! I am so thrilled!} ***

He’s at the farther table his back to the wall, & wow, is his face hideous. Not only that, it has a fresh BULLET through his head.

His face looks like that guy who was attacked by two runaway chimpanzees. They bit everything off his face – his nose, ears. They bite off anything that sticks out. And the guy’s face was all swelled up, you could hardly see his features. But the governors face is so swelled it’s even worse than that guy, it’s really swelled to 3 times, like sausages of flesh under his eyes, here & there, all these sausages of swelled flesh & that bullet hole. He’s talking to people.

* {His appearance: This bespeaks of his terrible sufferings & final martyrdom**. His face destroyed, grotesque, is the calumny, insults, cruelty poured out upon him – his face is his identity – they are smearing his reputation or who he is. The wicked humans who did this were subhuman, like some chimpanzees. The bullet is of course the bullet he took.

From Wikipedia: “The bullet entered through his right cheek, smashing his jaw,” – I never knew where the bullet/bullets entered his body & just now, a day after the dream, I looked at Wikipedia & find it was exactly as I saw it in the dream – in his cheek.} ***

I am bowing then waiting for him to exit but he doesn’t come by. I look at the room & he & most people are gone. {Could be the few people still there might be the Guardian Angels of these people, who remain with them in Purgatory, but when they ascend, the job of the angels is over.}

“Oh,” I said, “He went out the other exit.”

I see another plain door going from that room he was in.

* {Room is empty – he exited out another door, his room, not the one I’m in. The Souls he ministered to her, in partnership with me, exited Purgatory into Heaven! Hallelujah!} *

1-18-22-Dreams: He Needs Me Bad – I Win in the end – Saint Martin Luther King Fete!

I’m on the street at night standing next to a male dressed in black. His jacket looks like vinyl, loose, not tight, & a bit later I see it sticking out or buckling in the middle of his torso. It’s a casual jacket with zipper, thick, might have some kind of winter lining.

* {Man in black: I already know from a quick view of this dream this is my Beloved Bob. He is in the deepest depression re me! It can’t get any worse than black. Seeing it buckling or sticking out from his torso later indicates the heart so he’s broken hearted at us not being together.} *

I know this person but I have ignored him. He’s never asked me for anything, but this time he asks me to buy him a beer. He seems needy like, forlorn, not expecting me to pay attention to him or give him anything. He thinks I’m a busy/popular lady & I go to the bars having fun but I ignore him because he’s not worthy. This is the FIRST TIME HE REACHES OUT TO ME. I’m not sure if I find a beer some place & give him it but then he adds that it would be nice if in my busy schedule I could take him to the bar & buy him one or more beers there. Its closing time, not much time left, maybe half an hour, so there won’t be much drinking.

* {Buy him a beer or beers. First time he ever asked me for anything. The beer or alcohol represents inebriation or a feel good state. He’s asking me to make him feel good. The fact that he never asked me for anything before is because he never had to. It was always there & he took it for granted. Now he no longer takes it for granted. He realizes he has to do something** to get back my love – or more precisely, to see a demonstration of my love which is affection & sex!

Real life: Because of this dream I checked his social media – which I’ve not checked in a week. He wrote a poem that had some telling statements like so:

“Make amends – better late than ever”

“Where you been?”

“Suicide for the things I did”

“Trying to get in touch with you” me: {you have my # asshole}

“You been with everybody” me: {You’re imagining things, it’s in your mind, not mine. I’ve been writing books. Haven’t been out in two years!}

“I’ve got love four ya” me: {all it takes is repentance & make things right. Not just write poems, do something. I’m not chasing you any more.}

“You play in the dark” me: {You imagine things. What I do is on my sites & Amazon books.}

me: This can’t be about his live-in female, it’s about someone who isn’t there. She’s right there with him, he’s calling out to someone that’s missing. Wanting to see her. Thinking she’s with other men, thinking of regret over how he’s been, etc. Saying he loves her. So it’s about a female he loves, not his live in. Unless it’s someone else besides his female, it’s me, but if you look at my dreams as evidence, it’s me. Mother God, add something:

MG: Alright, it’s a beginning. He’s getting there slowly but surely. What will it take, emotional dynamite? He can’t get any more depressed this says. So get out of your depression by taking a chance, call the lady you love, try to make amends. Talk to her, not social media.

You still have that fake wife. You have to do something about this – can’t have it both ways. Not like it used to be.} *** {End real life part & channeling}

Before I take one more step I see he’s holding a MUSICAL INSTRUMENT – of what kind, I don’t know. It’s large like a guitar, but it is in the form of a dull goldeny color, the surface worn here & there, underneath a hint of BLUE, & it’s a METAL FOLDING CHAIR that he’s holding folded up.

* {Musical instrument, folding chair, large: Is his penis. He wants to make music or make love with me. Music sets a mood, a feeling, puts a person into a vibe. A chair is a position or seat. It’s a place he’s been occupying or a position he had with me as lover. But now it’s folded up or ended. I see blue where it’s worn out – this is sadness. Goldeny, now dull, is the love that was there.} *

It seems, without words, he’s asked me to stay at my apt for the night – which I share with another lady & a male – & for some reason he wants me to take his instrument there first & park it, then later we go there. Perhaps he didn’t want to take it into the bar, I don’t dwell on that.

* {Take it to my apt, he wants to spend the night there: It all happened in my apt – He’s asking to be with me again & make love**. It’s all he thinks about as far as our relationship but I can no longer do this, in real life, unless we have a genuine, total relationship. He’s longing for our togetherness.

Who is the male & female I’m sharing this apt with? There are no humans living with me – the persons I relate to the most are Jesus & Holy Mary, so it must be them. I am in an exquisite relationship with them right now, saying many prayers & celebrating Holy Communion every day. And this apt is my wonderful present state of consciousness.

My Mom being missing is strange – that would be Mother God within me. This might be saying that when I defer to Jesus & Mary in constant worship I am in their consciousness rather than my own private ‘me & my God’ personal state.

It seems amusing that Jesus is concerned in this dream about Bob – like maybe He’s worried about falling down to his level again? But Holy Mary is not concerned, she knows everything is alright, I won’t fall down again.

Myself wondering where to put him in my apt or consciousness? Somewhere more remote from a higher or lower place? Across from my God Self? In the end I opt for a room fairly intimate, as we share the same rest room. I was afraid it might be too close, but I’m taking that chance. What does this mean? I accept him because he’s reached out to me for th first time – into a fairly intimate state. Not 100%, which would be the same room, but close.

The empty bedrooms in this apt being so cozy, so private, so comfortable & delightful, is the spiritual state I am in & offering to share with my Beloved.} ***

As we walk toward the bar area, where we’ll stop at the corner & the bar is to the right {everything is blackish around us, no colors of any kind anywhere, a feeling of the streets or buildings glistening from a rain}

* {the rain, everything black: His state, crying tears & depression.} *

– my apt is across the street – a thin man stops us. He’s an enemy of this guy & he wants to DISCOURAGE ME from being nice to him. He says something negative, then he disappears like walking through the door & wall to the right. His clothing is he has on a fitted leather jacket that is sort of RUST with some kind of pink hue seeming to radiate from underneath the hem of it, the pants are maybe a dull mustard – it’s vague, but they’re not black, just a dull but matching color. The feeling is he’s dressed like a ‘dandy’ but I tell the young guy,

“He’s YOUR ENEMY.”

* {‘dandy’ guy: The demonic trying to stop me from loving Bob, perhaps reminding me when Bob was a Casanova the time we were together. He’s anti-Christ, anti forgiveness, & the fact that he goes through walls means he’s spiritual, not a living person. He’s reminding me of the women Bob teased me with like talking to them, giving them his phone & asking them to call him while with me, he refused to give his phone. Things like that which were cruel made me feel great pain – rust is when things get old – he’s reminding me fo the past. The pink hue is vagina. But this is today, not then. I’m not going to hold on to yesterday’s pain when there’s repentance on his part. It’s a temptation.} *

I then want to immediately attend to putting the guy’s instrument into my apt & prepare him to be there the night. I see there is my apt, then one beneath it & above it. Where shall I put him? At first I was going to put him in one of the other apts, but then I reconsider & think my place is so huge, has so many beds, it’s wonderful, so why not let him be here? {At least 6 bedrooms}

To the left of this extended apt I see my male roommate who is kind of hovering as if in the air observing me, concerned. Past him is my Mom’s room – who’s absent right now visiting somewhere. Across from her room is a wonderful out-of-the-way bedroom. These bedrooms tucked away in corners are so neat. The beds are low, they are double & have thick rumpled comforters in nice colors & prints. They are totally private, out of the way, like you could be there & no one notices you. But I decide not to put him in this room & look to the opposite side.

On the opposite side is an almost identical room & what’s different is that here its right by the bathroom I would also use. It kind of makes him closer to my protection. It seems I was so distant to this guy but suddenly I changed into this – because he reached out to me I guess. The lady who shares this place is approx in the middle of the apt in front of me – having this other guy here doesn’t catch her attention. I don’t see any more after this.

MEANING: This dream is about his repentance & reaching out to me, & my acceptance, putting him into a good place in my consciousness.

1-17-22—Casanova betrays me but I win in the end

This was yesterday – let’s see how well I remember.

There’s a tall, attractive young man I’m talking to who I tell,

“I can make you a star….there are ways….but you must cooperate.”

I’m not sure I really want to go to the trouble of all the work it takes to make a person famous, I’m considering it. Perhaps I’m waiting for his reaction to see if he’ll cooperate or appreciate it, but nothing is forthcoming. He’s neutral, like he thinks,

“OK, maybe she can or can’t. But I’m not going to do anything about it”

& he doesn’t. So he fails that test.

Next we’re out in the street, & its daylight, a nice day – a broad horizon. He’s wearing a white t shirt & white Bermuda shorts & carrying a basketball.

* {Handsome guy I make an offer to but he fails to cooperate. Then he’s in the streets with a ball: This reviews how Bob & I were long ago**, when I hoped to help him in a career, but he did nothing to help himself or work with me to help him so it failed.

Instead he worked the streets ‘playing’ or ‘balling.} ***

He meets one young lady who wants him because of his looks, then another. I see like two separate incidents. Each time he passes the ball to a male friend & goes to make love – the second time not one but two females want him, he passes the ball again to a male friend & goes to make love to them.

The next scene I am talking to him & his skin is darker than before. He’s still wearing white, sitting down leaning forward & listening to me. I explain to him I don’t judge him about the two females because I’ve done it with two males. In fact, last time I had two guys in tow – college age – I was so drunk I fell hard & dislocated my hip – & now my dancing days are over, etc….What I didn’t like was another item but I’m not sure what. Was it passing the ball, being deceptive?

* {Passing the ball: Not sure what this means but I’m guessing if the ball is balling, he’s lying about the sex he did – says another guy did it, does this twice – being deceptive, as if another guy did the balling, not him.} *

In the next scene there is something like this: I have a boyfriend, but I’m also interested in the guy mentioned but don’t want him to know, & he’s hanging out at this apt that I now visit. The one I am visiting suspects me of having another boyfriend but he isn’t sure.

* {The guy I desire plus I have another boyfriend: Is one & the same guy. He suspects, imagines I have another one & I let him think what he wants. This is part of the ‘game of love’ because he’s playing games, so was I.} *

To get into this place there’s a window higher up & a landing in front of it, covered with some cups & glasses. I have to go on all fours over this white partition & enter the apt, & there I sit down with a lady friend to my left. The guy I desire is sitting left, there’s a few of the local hoods hanging here – 6 or 7. I might add the apt is rather sparse, not like it was before.

I sit there smiling, then say that I must go see what my bf Mike has to say & I exit. When I go to the street I stand in front of a bar or some place but he’s nowhere around.

I return to the apt & at some point I’m telling this guy how even though I can’t dance any more I am flexible as anything. To prove it I stand up & hoist one of my legs up to the ceiling.

As I do so, to my surprise there’s an audience of both males & females, we are IN A NEW PLACE & all these people APPLAUD WARMLY. I’m so pleased I do it again with the other leg, everyone again applauds warmly & I see a female in particular smiling at me. She’s wearing blue, is middle aged. All these people are good people, not like the guy I’m infatuated with & his crowd. Then I decide to go all out & I dance gracefully & beautifully & move down the room like I’m center stage, floor level, & there are more people surrounding the room farther down, all sitting. I dance & even arise into the air & completely go around in the air & land softly on my feet & the music hits a crescendo – mellow music – & I stop with a perfect step to the end & everyone applauds.

I was wearing a top that was very loose on the bottom – it’s translucent & you can see my body through it, the rest of it is translucent also & I’m not sure what kind of shoes I have on, maybe heels. But it seems it wasn’t only my dancing, it was my body they could see as the light shined through my outfit & I have a perfect body. The scene with the guys just evaporates.

* {The new place: I’m no longer in the old consciousness** where I was hanging out downtown as a Cougar, obsessed/in crazy love with Bob. I am now keeping to myself, celibate, writing my life story & ministering to Souls in Purgatory.

This is a place where I am greatly appreciated. People are applauding. They could be those who read my articles about Purgatory, & the Holy Souls themselves, which is totally different than the Purgatory Bob & the people downtown put me into. It’s the difference between being miserable, being abused, &being loved – Hell vs Heaven.

My outfit being see through & they seem to be amazed at my body {they see the breasts especially which is love} as much as the dance, represents my spiritual state as well as ‘performing’ or acting out rituals of love, like the Holy Mass & praying. Possibly the spot where I rise into the air & go around in it without touching the ground is the Holy Mass or Martyrdom – that act of Our Lord being the most difficult, & I recreate it.} ***

College of God & Love, Core Tenets, Uncategorized

Young Blonde Male Ascends

1-11-22 Young Male Blonde Delivered! I am taken to the abodes of many souls that were delivered!

Mysterious dream I suspect is about Purgatory & at least one soul being delivered, & maybe a retrospect about a whole neighborhood of souls that were taken into Heaven by my Masses – which I either did not record the dreams {I was busy} or else I did not realize dreams were showing me they had been delivered.

This responds to my frustration that the last over two months I have not had any knowledge of souls being delivered, although I’ve said Mass every day for two months & ten days. Usually, in the past, there were 5-10 or more souls delivered every month through the Masses.

I go to a place where there are two young male roommates, a blonde & a brunette. They both seem to be early 20s.

*** {Roommates in Purgatory means they had something in common, like knowing each other or having a similar lifestyle. I have had this happen before – Rojer, a gay guy who died of AIDS, appeared at the same time as Rudolf Nureyev, the famous ballet dancer who also died of AIDS. Then there was Frank Sinatra & Dean Martin, buddies from show business, appeared at the same time. It does not mean their duration of cleansing will be the same, however.

Being blonde or brunette might not mean anything in particular, just a way of telling them apart. Or maybe in life their hair was like that. Being young males could mean they were.} ***

I enter their premises, which seems to be a nice apartment, later I see it’s really large. They show me around room to room. After a while I see a balcony & ask them about it, & we go there. It’s not deep, it extends a few feet off the building, but it’s quite long – maybe 10 or more feet. There seems to be a pink hue here & the banister is very plain.

* {Their premises is the state of Purgatory** they are experiencing. From the description it is not a place of great suffering, it’s an intermediate place where one is not far from being delivered.

The balcony could be a vantage point or vision on why the brunette is not yet ready for deliverance. The pink hue might be females.} ***

To my surprise the brunette dons some sort of Halloween outfit, with maybe a top hat like Abe Lincoln wore, & a short black cape which only covers the shoulders – the look is like playing a character. This male then sees what might be a staircase & he starts to go on it but slips, & falls all the way down to the ground, but isn’t hurt – the stairs became a grey slide somehow. And below him I see a couple dozen people dressed just like him with those little black capes, male & female, I see they are ordinary looking & at least one female is overweight & much of her bare body is exposed in spite of the costume.

I see this as some sort of an organization, like fellowship & I tell the young man something like,

“Oh, you & your friends are alike, all wearing the same outfits, & you keep each other company, so life is not as isolated or lonely.”

* {This outfit & grey slide give me the reason he isn’t ready for deliverance yet. He is attached to people – he’s in the company of other males & females all of whom are attached to each other & sex, afraid to be alone & lonely. The black top hat & cape are the clothes of a ‘dandy’ or one who like to go out partying** – at least, so they dressed in the old days.

The grey slide shows that the mind, when desiring these things, slides down quickly away from spiritual liberty. When one dies & still has these or any other kind of attachments they stay in Purgatory until these are cleansed.} ***

I then attend to the young blonde, who is handsome.

* {Who is handsome: This denotes spiritual beauty. He’s ready to be delivered, almost there. The more we are cleansed, the more beautiful we become – our souls are pure God, which is total beauty. The result of sin blocks this beauty, like dark clouds on glass, but once removed, you see God.} *

We just visit for a while & I’m hoping he’d want to make love to me, but he doesn’t do anything. He’s cheerful, though; he just doesn’t say or do much. I keep wondering if I should make a move, but somehow, I don’t think I should unless he shows some interest. We were both sitting on a mat on the inside, near the balcony.

So I say to him, which is dropping a hint,

“Well, I guess I better be going, as you are probably busy. Myself, I have nothing to do & life is kind of alone & lonely…..well, I better go.”

Usually, if a male has you alone & is planning to make a move, when you say you’re leaving, he will proceed, not wanting to lose the chance.

We immediately appear in his bedroom, which is revealing. First, the room is so huge & has no furniture or anything in it except this strange, small mattress which we both appear on. The mattress is narrower on one side, wider on the other, not big, just enough for two people to sit on. It’s shape is like that of a guitar or violin body & on it are medium stripes encircling it in dark colors like dull black, brown, medium brown, maybe dull maroon.

When we sort of ‘landed’ here he was next to me on his back, which is a submissive posture, & I had been thinking the whole time how much I wanted to kiss him, should I?

But before that happens I look at the room, & the floor is maybe 20-25’ across, & 30’ long, & is littered with stuff that I can’t describe. It’s like twigs & leaves or dried out pine needles, but not that nice as it doesn’t seem organic, some kind of litter. The floor is wood.

I say to him,

“I see you’ve not had a woman’s touch round here & I could turn this place into a paradise.

*** {The trick I pulled on him, that I was leaving, worked. When I said I was leaving I was encouraging him to submit himself to my spiritual love – & he did.

In the next moment we are transported to his bedroom, on his mattress & he’s on his back, which shows he’s ready. I then see the state of his soul, the litter or what needs to be removed. His mattress shows stripes of various sufferings – all these dark hues like black, brown & maroon, show suffering. His sufferings have led him to surrender to God. When I speak of paradise, momentarily he will be transported there. The kiss & the making love represent the Sacred Kiss & the deliverance from this world to Heaven.} ***

Now there seems to be a change into another scene we are in – everything becomes lighter {in his apt it was not bright} & we are outside in a bright place & I vaguely see around us, tropical plants. Then our faces are close to each other & I am wearing thick red lipstick & I am kissing him! Yes I did worry about smearing this lipstick onto him & maybe he did to, but somehow, it doesn’t matter.

I should add – I didn’t explain before – when I wanted to kiss him it was only a preliminary to making love. I felt we should make love for some reason. But I was seeking his willingness to do so, did not want to be forceful.

I believe this kiss tells me my ‘mission’ was accomplished. His face looks bright & beautiful as I kiss him.

* {We are now in another place. As soon as I spoke of paradise I am kissing him & this scene says I have transmitted to him the Grace he needed for Ascension**.

Thick bright red lipstick I’m worried about smearing, maybe he is too: Hard to understand. All I can think of it’s not normal or natural – it’s Supernatural & here it is not a normal kiss or love making, it’s Supernatural Anointing Power.

An important factor was that he had to be submissive to this – had to want it. The brunette was not ready to submit – he was still holding on to human attachments, but the blonde was.} ***

Now things change. I leave this apt, go out into the street. As I look back to it is night & the building looks dark, although it’s attractive. I walk away a bit & then want to go back, but can’t find it.

* {Can’t find it: In a sense, it isn’t there. The ‘address’ of a soul in Purgatory changes as their spiritual state does. Once they ascend, they don’t live there any more, the state is not there. I might add here, it isn’t easy to access souls in Purgatory, it has to be an Anointing, which is won through love. You have to really love them a lot to contact them. I worked at having contact with the through constant prayer.} *

Instead, I decide to explore the city since I’m here anyway. As I walk I am astonished by the beauty of the buildings, all next to one another – they are houses in a city. Many of the houses have walls right up to the sidewalks. Everything is white – walls are white, the houses are white, only the vegetation is green & the frames of windows & doors are something dark so you can see them. The houses have railings, maybe silver. Each house has flowers, flowering vines, all the houses are right next to each other, no space in between, & so well kept & beautiful I think,

“This looks like everyone here is wealthy. And this is amazing since our world has so much poverty, yet to have places like this one must have wealth – so many wealthy people!’

There is one flower that is here a lot that strikes my attention. I see it in front of the white walls on the left. Each house that has these kind of white stucco walls they also have these super-tall flowers on thick stalks, with huge mostly pink blossoms on top, like a combination of tulip & lily, but wider, each blossom being about 6” across & just as tall. They’re pink with white stripes. I see these flowers again & again, they are especially decorative walls & I think,

“Wow, this neighborhood wants to be really beautiful. They could have left those white walls plain, it wasn’t necessary to plant these flowers. And yet they planted them there as extra special beauty.”

* {Beautiful, wealthy neighborhood: Is Heaven.** This answers my prayer of why aren’t the souls appearing to me as a result of the Masses I’ve said every day for a while? This shows me they have Ascended – look how beautiful are their dwellings!

The white is the purity; everything being light & bright is the dazzling Light they are in. The flowers & greens are symbols of love - & the tall pink & white bulb-style plants against the walls, which are a special additions – represent the celibacy many of these souls went through or their detachment from sex, which is a special added grace for some of the souls.

The wealth is spiritual prosperity or abundance, the area is neat, clean & perfect, which is Heaven.

I might add that the reason they appear next to each other, no space hardly in between, is the Masses were day after day & God is saying to me that the souls were lifted day after day. I just wasn’t aware of it then.} ***

I keep walking & this neighborhood goes on for what seems like miles. Finally the city has ended. As I pass through the last beautiful street I see wide open spaces, & way before me, someone is excavating ground & building a huge building with many compartments – it’s like raw clay, very wide, I see the compartments inside of clay which will be worked on. Other things are going on. This is the end of my quest & I move away from here, going back. I actually don’t want to be here. There’s also some kind of SLIDE here like an escalator but much taller, faster, more dangerous, going way way down – I was viewing this area from the air like a drone – & I don’t want to get caught walking & go down that slide.

* {This other area is not Heaven, it’s the normal world, & I don’t want to get caught on that slide which gets attached to things of the earth – I want to get away from this area pronto.} *

College of God & Love, College of the Gender War, Core Tenets, Uncategorized

AJAX EXPLAINS CON-VID

Ajax the Great is a young genius – his research is on point, his insights brilliant, his writing witty, great, sometimes funny – See below for THREE articles. To see the illustrative studies, please go here, & see Ajax’s other articles: http://truespiritofamericaparty.blogspot.com/2021/07/covid-is-endemic-zero-covid-is-pipe.html

Ajax the Great insights on con-vid

THURSDAY, JULY 29, 2021

Who Are The Real Superspreaders?

DISCLAIMER: The following article references third-party sources and is intended for general information only, and is NOT intended to provide medical advice or otherwise diagnose, treat, cure, or prevent any disease, including (but not limited to) COVID-19. Consult a qualified physician before beginning any sort of treatment or prophylactic regimen and/or if you know or suspect that you currently have COVID-19. Anyone who takes or does anything mentioned (or alluded to) in this or any other TSAP article does so entirely at their own risk and liability. The TSAP thus makes absolutely no warranties, express or implied, and is not liable for any direct, indirect, special, incidental, consequential, or punitive damages resulting from any act or omission on the part of the reader(s) or others. Caveat lector.

See also our previous articles here, here, and here as well. Also, special thanks to Bill Sardi, Dr. Gareth “Gruff” Davies, Dr. Dmitry Kats, Dr. Mikko Panunio, and Swiss Policy Research, et al. whose research this article draws upon and cites in the links throughout.

“You’re the superspreader!” “No, YOU’RE the superspreader!” Alas, this is what passes for discourse these days, when people are literally now debating who are the biggest superspreaders of the COVID: the vaccinated or the unvaccinated. Technically, both can be, since the vaccines are “leaky”, and there are documented examples of both, but it is not clear who is more likely to be.

(Correction: The CDC’s now-leaked unpublished data, that they are using to push masks once again, is a lot more nuanced than they miscommunicated, and apparently involves a vaccine in India that is not available in the USA, and also a study of a rather unrepresentative sample in Provincetown, Cape Cod. Thus, while vaccinated people can indeed still spread the virus, they are still signifcantly less likely to do so than if they were not vaccinated, even if only because they are somewhat less likely to become infected in the first place. And truly asymptomatic transmission, while possible, is not the primary way it spreads.)

Either way, this completely misses the point though. The vaccines were never designed to prevent all transmission or all infections, just to make the disease less bad if one happens to contract it while vaccinated. You know, kinda like the flu shot. That alone is enough to largely defang the virus and reduce it to a mere nuisance like seasonal flu and the common cold, provided enough vulnerable people get vaccinated (which they all either a) already have, or b) they chose not to get it). For the young and healthy, not so much. And thus any benefit to the community that results from less transmission of the virus would simply be a bonus, as vaccines are primarily for self-protection. And now that we are seeing that these vaccines may be just as “leaky” as flu vaccines (funny how no one seems to care about the latter), the whole specious argument for vaccine mandates or passports “to protect others” becomes as threadbare and useless as the most poorly constructed cloth mask.

Now, a nasal vaccine might actually produce “sterilizing” immunity enough to prevent virtually all transmission. That is because of the mucosal antibodies and other immunological “dark matter” that they would generate at the usual point of entry and exit for the virus, the lining of the nose and throat. But injections are unlikely to do that, only producing antibodies and T-cells largely in the bloodstream instead. And while important, it is incomplete since it leaves the nose and throat wide open for a time before enough of an immune response is mounted to knock the virus out quickly.

But there are no nasal vaccines available currently, except of course the low-tech one, which is…natural exposure to the wild virus. And the large chunk of the population that has already had the virus and recovered has a very low reinfection rate, much lower than the breakthrough infection rate for vaccinated people. Yes, even for Delta. Thus, we already know who the superspreaders are almost certainly NOT: people who have already had the virus, whether vaccinated or not. Natural immunity for the win!

So having established who the superspreaders are NOT, do we then know who they actually ARE? Well, a study of influenza from 2008 provides some excellent clues. It postulates that Vitamin D not only explains the seasonality of influenza, but also who is most likely to be what we would now call a superspreader, where one person infects dozens of others. And most curiously, that is postulated to occur in a tiny number of people even in the absence of symptoms! That is, Vitamin D deficiency can make one much more likely to spread it, and thus it not only endangers the deficient, but also those around them as well, in a sort of “second-hand malnutrition”. This is very likely true for COVID, and also very likely true with other nutrients as well, particularly Vitamin C, thiamine, niacin, zinc, lysine, and selenium. A deficiency in the latter can even make one a “variant factory”, since selenium stops viruses from mutating. Fortunately, we can very easily solve this problem even without appealing to (strong) altruism, since the benefits to the individual are at least as great as that to those around them. Good nutrition and supplementation is a win-win-win for all.

Especially since, for the individual, it is painfully obvious now with COVID: not enough D and you die.

Vitamin D also seems to be good at fighting that other pandemic that is raging even more these days: substance abuse, especially opioid addiction. Vitamin D deficiency apparently leads to exaggerated cravings for opioids and probably other substances as well. And the same can apparently be said for Niacin as well, as AA founder Bill W. had discovered it as a potential treatment for alcoholism. With America drowning in the bottom of a bottle thanks in no small part to the long-term after-effects of lockdown, such a rediscovery cannot come soon enough!

And of course, Niacin works wonders for COVID, as Dr. Dmitry Kats had discovered.

So what are we waiting for?

UPDATE: See also here, here, and here for some good articles from The Daily Sceptic about the nuances of herd immunity. And yes, it is very nuanced indeed.

POSTED BY AJAX THE GREAT AT 8:13 PM

THURSDAY, JULY 22, 2021

If Masks Really Worked…

Once again, the witty Professor hits another homerun right out of the park here:

That basically explains the TSAP’s evolving position over time. Originally we were pro-mask since we honestly believed they worked based on some spurious observations in a few East Asian and Eastern European countries, plus a few sketchy studies, and thus they seemed like a safe pathway out of lockdown. But as time went on, the evidence just kept on mounting against them. And the past 18 months pretty much answers that question–if they worked, not only would it be so obvious to everyone that no one would have to be forced to wear them, but COVID would have been gone within a few weeks of (near) universal masking as the R value would thus drop well below one and even close to zero, and we would not still be having this debate to this day.

Are you old enough to remember when face masks were initially discouraged by nearly all of the experts as well as “experts”, including Dr. Fauci himself? And then, seemingly out of the blue, the idea caught on that masks not only work, but work so well that if 80% (or is that 90%, or 95%, or 99%?) or whatever % of the population were to wear them, COVID would be practically wiped out, or at the very least 100,000+ lives would be saved? Right? And the logical implication being: the sooner everyone would wear them for just a few weeks, the sooner no one would ever have to wear them again, because COVID would be gone!

Well, that didn’t really pan out, did it? Look, you can cherry-pick the data all you want, but it’s pretty self-evident that masks made no practical or statistical difference overall in terms of COVID case, hospitalization, or death rates, even with the strictest mandates and/or very high compliance above 90% or 95%. While no one can completely rule out modest benefits perhaps in very selected instances, the macro-level data supporting universal masking simply isn’t there. Clearly, after 18 months, if a “signal” still cannot be boosted even with great effort, is was most likely just noise all along.

And all that applies a fortiori to children as well, as we have noted previously. There is even less evidence in favor, and even stronger arguments against forcing kids to wear them, especially at this juncture.

Thus, we are re-learning the hard way the painful lessons our ancestors learned in 1918. There was clearly a reason they stopped wearing masks in 1919, after all. And no, it wasn’t “selfishness” or “anti-science” sentiment, but a rather a good strong dose of reality that turned even their greatest enthusiasts against them in droves. They simply didn’t work.

And now with some “experts” wanting to bring back mask mandates yet again at this stage (!), despite the obvious fact that they would even LESS effective still against the MORE contagious Delta variant, beware. The following Tweet sums it why that is a very bad idea in both theory and practice:

Mask mandates are in fact the THIN end of a very long and thick wedge of coercion. Slopes are indeed much, much slipperier than they appear.

QED

POSTED BY AJAX THE GREAT AT 6:34 PM

SATURDAY, JULY 10, 2021

COVID Is Endemic. “Zero COVID” Is A Pipe Dream. Lockdowns And NPIs Are

Useless.

The following Tweet really wins the internet:

Pretty much sums it up. The virus can be defanged and reduced to a nuisance, and indeed it largely has already thanks to herd immunity and attenuation, but it will never be eliminated. It will continue to ebb and flow to one degree or another indefinitely. Even smallpox took over 200 years to eradicate after the vaccine. And it’s time we accept that fact and deal with endemic COVID like we do seasonal flu and the common cold. That is, learn to live with the virus just like all other endemic viruses. We know now that lockdowns, masks, social distancing, and stuff like that really make no difference to the course of the virus in the long run, and they come with their own set of problems, ultimately doing more harm than good. And that applies a fortiori to endemic COVID.

That’s right, these restrictions are all pain and no gain. And there is a name for doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.

We know how to treat this disease now. We know what to use for prophylaxis as well. We know that the virus, while bad, was never the apocalyptic Big One that some had predicted. We know who the risk groups are, and we have already vaccinated them (plus a good chunk of the general population as well) to a greater extent and faster than we have for any other disease in history. So anyone who says we still somehow can’t go 100% back to normal yesterday because reasons is a LIAR with a hidden or not-so-hidden agenda. And we thus must completely disregard their bluster. Yesterday is not soon enough!

And this one as well, to which we would also add “and early treatment and prophylaxis for all who want it”:

UPDATE 2: See also here and here for some good articles from The Daily Sceptic about the nuances of herd immunity. And yes, it is very nuanced indeed.

POSTED BY AJAX THE GREAT AT 10:31 AM

LABELS: CORONAVIRUS, LOCKDOWN, MASK, PANDEMIC

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