Multiple Issues my Ministry – Purgatory & Earth

Dreams of Multiple Ascensions & Others Whom I help – Mostly Purgatory

8-25-25 Jubilation Song – Mom Appears

I was somewhere doing something – can’t recall what. But suddenly I see I am in a large room surrounded by many people – like 150 & they are children. Say pre teen to young teen 10 to 13, – how old is vague.

I’ve been teaching them or ministering to them. They are as if in bleachers behind me & also surrounding me. I am singing but the song is like preaching or & I’m wearing something with maybe flowers printed on it {only on my breasts – white with blue, maybe green flowery designs} & some kind of bands crossing my front & as I bend forward something unusual. My breasts are hanging like skin emptyish on top but the breasts are long & end up at bottom like cantelope size, so as I’m moving my breasts swing somewhat.

*{Breasts represent LOVE & NOURISHMENT so somehow I transferred this to this crowd & it seems they have ASCENDED. There is almost never any sort of party, celebration or song in Purgatory unless there’s Ascension. Improvement is shown in other ways.}*

Now it’s notable that all the children are singing with me – we’re a chorus & its jubilation. Kind of like a victory chorus, very happy.

Now I said something negative re my Mom – don’t know why. Did not know she was close in this room asleep, & she woke up. I see her standing against the wall with two cloths across her front one medium gray, one blue, they’re kind of like flags but stretched out across her body in a

diagonal way. I am bracing mself to be criticized because that’s all she ever did – but surprisingly, she’s moving across the room & saying good things about me! I thought she would criticize my breasts bouncing – I once got thrown out of a very parochial gym because of this – long story.

*{This sounds like ‘no good deed goes unpunished.’ I am reacting to my ‘Mother’ God Self similar to how I reacted Mommy Fearest – my biological Mother. I fear the worst – I have the ‘fear of the Lord the beginning of Wisdom’ here. Her being asleep means that I was not conscious of her. I was asleep to Her, She was unconscious to me.}*

She went to the wall there & pointed to a stick that might be an umbrella of sorts, & it had also cloth wrapped around it similar to what she has on, one gray, one blue, & she says to everyone that this was one of the good things I did.

*{This is hard to understand but the umbrella is a hint. Unbrella refers to covering & protecting an area & the area was symbolized by gray & blue. Medium gray would be ‘gray area’ or a place not lit up – like a dim room – so refers to Purgatory, how the souls feel mentally speaking {gray is also the brain, gray area they call it}. And blue often means sadness. And my Mother God is covered in the same thing – which represents EMPATHY. She is the POWER within me, behind me, it is She, not myself that effects spiritual feats – I am an instrument but not the Power. So she is it seems saying that my PRAYERS which covered the entire Purgatory, which I say every day were EFFECTIVE – they reached a great many this time.}*

The most striking part is the singing – which was so jubilant. {End}

8-26-25 Old Lady & Other Dreams

A family brought an old lady {like 90} to me for a visit. But strangely she just went to the corner bedroom & slept the entire weekend. It was then time for her to go.

In the room I was in, she cracked open the door. {It’s green – she wanted me to see her} So I jumped up to bid her good bye. She was dark skinned {does not refer to race but state of her soul – means she’s still in Purgatory, dark, not lit up yet to arise} – wearing a wide brimmed dark blue straw hat {old fashioned style} – where I cannot see her face, wearing a brown mink coat.

*{This is a FAMILY PRAYING for their loved one in Purgatory. I answer their prayers. The CORNER always represents the Cross of Jesus. She comes here – to me – for REST. Rest is PEACE, being comforted. What can we do for poor souls but this? So she receives what she needs. And she’s been here a weekend – which is kind of like, lol, whatever I suffered this weekend relieved her suffering. Now she wants me to know she’s leaving. OK.

I warmy bid good bye, I think I embrace her. What is the hat? Suffering. What is the mink coat? Probably the weight of her sins, where as a human she sought selfish comfort – which would be anyone wearing the skin of another animal to give warmth to themselves but depriving the animal of their own God-given protection. A sin that weights on her conscience now. It’s upon her, she carries it. Mind you, it is not my or anyone’s place to criticize or thereby punish a soul for their sins – our place is only to help them. They cannot be CORRECTED or TAUGHT, or PREPRIMANDED any more. It’s too late, it’s finished – in life we can reprimand or correct someone as they can change, they can be fixed, but not here. We can only comfort.}*

I speak to her warmly, & on the table to the left side is a large cake, shaped like a mushroom {about 10” high}, the stem about 6” high & maybe 3.5” circumference, it’s slightly bent – the cake dark brown. It’s half covered with pink icing. I then take a large portion of more pink icing & slather it onto the cake, covering all parts with a thick layer, where her famly will put it into a cake box & she can take it away.

*{This cake & the pink icing is NOURISHMENT & this would be the prayers & the Holy Masses said. The pink icing is ‘icing on the cake’ means EXTRA stuff probably either my own discomforts or my prayers. And PINK is a sign of happiness or ‘in the pink.’ So I give her something to take away with her as well as what she received here.

Why the mushroom shape? Need to think about that. But dark brown is chocolate which most creatures like.}*

Other scenes are vague but I will do my best.

I am in the front bedroom in the apt in B’klyn. Its 6 flights up. The window has somehow been removed or fell out, I’m replacing it for privacy. The window I put in is ‘glazed’ or foggy so you can’t see through, but it only covers about 3/4th across, but it’s good enough. Strangely, my daughter has become a statuette – turned herself into one, on a pedestal about a foot high. She’s naked & wants to sit like a statue sort of not behind but in front of the window where she can be seen. But the guys below – if they look up – will not really see much as she’s only a foot tall.

There’s a group of ‘gang bangers’ way below- they have their dubious headquarters there sitting in front of the opening, but then they move. It’s like a ‘den of thieves.’ Like those juvenile delinquents I used to know.

*{This sounds like I’m trying to lure in more souls for assistance, but some can’t he helped. They are TOO LOW – I am TOO HIGH {6 flights up} so we don’t connect.}*

Another scene:

There’s a room with two beds with warm covers, very cozy. Someone important is occupying one bed to the right, & another person, not so important, in the bed on the left, which I sometimes must share. I don’t like this sharing. I think of a room I’ve seen in many dreams. It’s like in a very large house I own or occupy at times, it’s on the 2^nd or 3^rd floor, it sits alone & always empty -Very cozy. I wish to go there – it’s a place no one ever goes, perfect for privacy. The covers of these beds are all rumpled in a nice way – they are so soft & have pretty designs.

I see a man here that reminds me of my new handyman, he’s just sitting with a pleasant look on his face.

Then I see some sort of animal with a tiny pointed face, sort of white. It appears in the bed with me seeking comfort under my covers. I decide to take it outside in the beautiful nature- there a huge tree with many extended branches & other bushes around. Will I find a place for that little animal there?

*{This is about the need to be alone for spiritual consciousness. There are terrific people about me but even so when I’m working with them my consciusness is not private, I have to be ‘on board’ or ‘on deck’ working with them at all times. It does drain me somewhat & I wish to be alone.

The cute little animal might represent the person working with me now – he has a good heart, so he’s white. The pointed snout is like a fox – a smart or clever person. I am talking about taking hm outside. If I keep this man working outside, by himself then I can be alone with my thoughts. Something like that.}*

Then there is a poor child. They have brought a group of children here, & one of them cries so loud, so bitterly, that I take pity. It seems to be maybe 1 to 2 years old. Something about it it’s almost like a little animal. Can I help it? Is it tame enough to come to me?

I walk toward it, stand before it a few feet, stretch out my arms to it & say something. It jumps right into my arms & clings to me, & I take it to wherever I go, whatever I’m doing & it is comforted – this goes on it seems for hours.

*{This child, is it Purgatory or earth? I doubt if children below the age of reason are in Purgatory I believe they all go to heaven as they haven’t the capacity for sin. Indeed they can do wrong, but are they responsible? The CC puts the age of reason as 8 yrs. And so I must guess this is the earth plane & one child is suffering terribly – probably separation anxiety – & God gives me the privilege to comfort it.}* {End}

8-28-25 Clutter & Dirt at my Aunt’s Huge House

I’m visiting my Aunt in this huge house that she’s occupied, with Grandma along with Uncle – but he’s died.

It isn’t practical & since Henry died, I said to her,

“You’ve let this go.”

She took issue with that – didn’t want to admit it.

How big is the house? About 3 times normal size, huge rooms, 2 or 3 floors & I see a combination of her North Salem house plus other places & it’s gone to pot. We talk about offers that were made. Someone in the family said we’d give her & Grandma the house next door to her NS one – it’s a fave of mine I’ve ever been in – someone starts raving about the view from the living room, a sort of expanded room, two levels, with huge glass walls.

But Aunt & Grandma said no, they just wanted to stay here although they couldn’t manage it.

I see one room expanding into another, one of the floors has dog shit on it from their German Shepherd – they just didn’t have the energy to pick it up!

And everywhere clutter – every room. Nothing but clutter, piles of things. And we all seem to be GOING somewhere but where? I mean all of us. I was here for a while on business but that’s finished.

There was a pile of colorful art. I looked through it. Is it water color? Certainly not oil no frames, just paper. Picked out ONE picture. It was plain, simple, but I recognized it as a MASTERPIECE. A small farmhouse in the middle of a field – yellow wood – & a few simple things around it, but the style & form of it are perfect. But then it disappears & I search & search in all this rubble but can’t find it. The other pictures in the pile were all insignificant. Just designs, simple designs, no meaning, no form. Dozens of little +’s across a blue background – things like that. I finally give up searching & rest my mind from it.

Why is everything upside down & where are we going?

*{ME: Mother God I don’t get this. I know Aunt & Uncle are punishment, but Uncle is dead so some of its potency has gone. Granma is the deepest unconscious. But clutter, dog shit, & what is the image I love but have lost?

MG: This is how upside down your life has been this year – beyond what you can manage.

At one time your life was SIMPLE. Now it’s cluttered with a guzillion things – how you long for the simplicity it once was.

However, the goodnes is you seem to be LEAVING this place – all of you. That means perhaps you will find a better place of consciousness & it does seem like you are managing better. God has given you a fantastic handyman helper & just today, a new plumber you needed who happens to be LITHUANIAN & a jolly one at that! Whenever a Lithuanian appears, they are sent by God. Like your Doctor at one time & recently a new hairdresser. You searched for years for such persons & now they are here. And the handyman is a Godsend. So yes, you are leaving this turmoil & entering peace of mind.

The house is HUGE because your area of concern includes the yard as well as the physical house – which takes up a huge space, like 3 acres.}* {End}

College of Matriarchal Love, Core Tenets, SHAKTI AND SHIVA, TANTRA SEX

the Road to Fame & Fortune – the Kingdoms of the World & Their Glory

Re Fame & Fortune – This World and the Next

Which Path Will You Take?

A good person asked me a question & this is my answer for now & all time. The life of Jesus Christ gives us answers to most of the mysteries of life, & this is one of them, concerning fame & fortune, & what transpired for Jesus could happen to any others wanting to be a Saint.

Before Jesus started his ministry he went into the desert {mountain} to pray – to do a discipline to get close to the God within him – who He called Father. This is done with many hermits & Saints, {St. Antony, St. Benedict, St. Francis of Assisi-many others}, who went into a deserted place, or stayed within their own premises {St Catherine of Siena, St. Clare, St. Teresa of Avila-many others} away from people – to get in tune with that God within.

At the end of Jesus’ fast Satan took him to a high place & showed him all the cities expanded before him & piped,

“I will give you all the Kingdoms of the world & their glory if you will bow down & worship me.”

Of course Jesus told him to scram & that was ‘the Last Temptation.’

Now Jesus was on a Mission – he had work to do. He could have rubbed shoulders with the ‘greats’ of his day. Maybe they could have worked together.

There was Pontius Pilate – a Governor of the most powerful Empire on earth. Jesus could have done miracles for the Romans & received rewards. But He didn’t.

And King Herod had a lot of earthly power. Jesus could have been his right hand man – a spiritual advisor – Herod would have rewarded him – but He would not even SPEAK to Herod.

And the High Priest –Jesus could have hob knobbed with him & worked as a team enlightening the public. Of course the High Priest didn’t know scat about Truth – but Jesus could have influenced him. But he did no such thing.

Jesus went about his business working with no such men – He moved to a different drummer. He did associate with the Great John the Baptist – they were on the same page. And He plied his Mission with those who heard him & OBEYED his teaching – no one else There was ONE WAY to do his Mission, not two ways. What was that way?

It was his spiritual Father – God within – that is who Jesus listened to & worked with. He did not listen to the ‘wisdom’ of the world, which is fake. He listened to the Real Deal – God’s Truth – & did that & only that no matter what the consequences.

You see there are two Voices or Masters – you cannot listen to both, it’s one or the other. If you listen to one you reject the other, if you love one, you don’t respect the other. “No one can serve two masters” – NOT if they’re in conflict – & the WORLD & GOD are frequently in TOTAL conflict!

Let’s say you have your heart set on doing a certain thing. But God inside you – the still small voice if you can hear it – says no. But doing this thing might be a large jump toward success. Which do you do?

If you’re like Jesus you say

“Not my will – Thy will be done.”

If you’re of the world – which is RULED by Satan {Satan is the Prince of this world} you go for it.

Now those who follow Jesus’ ways, they might do things that derail their earthly success or prevent it for a time – but they follow God’s way. {“I am the Way, the Truth, & the Light”.}

One who follows the world might seem, temporarily, to be a winner, but in the end, they are not – Because our success is not determined in time & space. Our life is but 75 years, then gone & before us is Eternity. Our actions determine where & how that is spent – Hell, a long or short Purgatory, then Heaven. Life never ends – there is no death.

Sometimes God makes us do strange things that go against our grain.

Look what God did to Jesus – you can’t get worse than that. But look where He is today! The King of Kings, Lord of Lords – no one is Higher or more respected & loved than He!

The disciples were flabbergasted even though He explained –it fell on deaf ears. They thought Jesus whole ministry had gone down the tubes – all for nothing! He failed – they failed. They didn’t see the BIG PICTURE – Only when the Holy Spirit came upon them did they get it……..

I remember in 1978 I was working at the Playboy Club in Chicago. Every Sunday I had literature that I handed out on the street, religious stuff I had written. But one Sunday I heard the still small voice saying,

“Stop handing out literature.”

I thought this must be Satan, so I kept doing it – but after that NO ONE would take my flyers! So I said,

“OK God, I stop.”

And on the corner was a Cathedral. I went there, sat way to the back & meditated, & I said to God,

“What do you want me to do?”

She said

“Contact every news media, TV show & ask to appear,”

And I said,

“But who will want me?”

And She said,

“You haven’t tried.”

So I then spent every Sunday all day doing research on the media & writing letters to them & preparing to call them, & at the end of this, I got on every TV Show & every newspaper in Chicago including the biggest, & I even got an additional article in Playboy on “Stripping for God.”

That was a blitz that began my road to fame.

Years later I wanted to quit dancing as it was tedious & not leading to any sort of solvency. I experimented with starting a business but wasn’t sure if it would work – God told me to quit dancing & proceed with the business – I did & it was a monumental success – the beginning of my fortune.

BUT eleven years later God told me to QUIT the business – just like that. I again wasn’t sure if it was God & I continued & God appeared to me in nightmares that scared the SHIT out of me – I QUIT!

God wanted to me to leave this business & get married to a man who’d been asking me for years – but I refused. We’d been engaged forever. But God knew something I didn’t – the poor man would die soon. If I didn’t marry him I would not be his heiress & – his sister would get it all & this after 14 years together. Then God seeing my stubbornness told me to do something. I did it & it was a TRICK to get us married & we were.

And just like God knew this man died within two years & left me SOME his sizeable assets – his sister got the rest, & I was secured for life with that & my personal assets. No money worries for life – but you see – this was God telling me what to do – not the world. And it might be important to note – I was celibate during this time for thirty years – & my husband & I never had sex – before or after the marriage.

And I might also add – several rich {& handsome} men asked for my hand – one of them had 200 million – but I refused them all, because it wasn’t the path of God for me…….

One of the most BIZARRE requests or commands God made to me concerned “Stop suffering, quit the celibacy & go out, have fun.”

I took my vow of celibacy May 27, 1978 & thought it would be FOR LIFE. But after 10 years God appeared to me & asked me if I wanted OUT of it. I said no.

Again, ten years later – I thought abut it a couple weeks with anxiety & finally again said no.

Now it’s like over 30 years of celibacy, no kind of dating, making out, none of this or that – I did not even allow my fiancé to HOLD MY HAND.

But this time, God steps in. She says,

“If you don’t do this, you will be outside the will of God.”

That’s how, at the age of 63, I became a cougar! {No God did not say ‘be a cougar’ but the older men I met only wanted GIRLS.}

I still don’t understand the reason God wanted this for me, but I suspect it was because the vow had more than done it’s work, it was time to do something else with my life that would HELP EMPOWER WOMEN. So my Mission would this way continue. I did NOT wish for this. After all Jesus didn’t want to get the Cross, but he HAD TO. I did not want to leave my life of celibacy but I HAD TO.

As I said this event sounds hard to believe but other things God made me do or not do were also difficult but in the end, I know God was 100% correct. And again, it was a sort of TRICK or WHITE LIE similar to when God tricked me to marry my husband – to make sure of my security. {God did not want me desperate for money – She wanted me safe & solvent!} And this was also saying I was to quit celibacy to HAVE FUN – but mostly it was NOT FUN – a bit of it was but there was worse suffering than being celibate. My celibacy had led me to PEACE – that was trashed……

But let’s take a look at another woman who went ‘the way of all flesh’ & where it got her – It was Marilyn Monroe.

Marilyn did not consult God for her behavior or actions. She did what her body said to do – which was have sex with men who could get her forward in her career. Johnny Hyde, the William Morris agent, was pivotal.

Not only did he get her started in jobs but he paid for the surgery that made her the beauty we’re all mezmerized by. She had her nose & chin altered & I believe her lips. No one wanted the young Marilyn before her transformation – she was a bit of a failure. But after the reconstruction she was considered the most beautiful & sexy female of all time.

By following the way of the world, as well as being talented & hard working, Marilyn made it to THE TOP. No woman was more successful than she in her career. But what was Marilyn’s end? Death by suicide. She had overdosed before but her stomach got pumped, this time it was curtains.

And so here is an example how following the way of the world might give us TEMPORARY success, but does not guarantee it for a long run. Had she followed God – she could have lived a long life into her 90’s, & left behind a bigger legacy. Instead she dies age 36 – & mind you – her life was MISERABLE. Yes, she was between a rock & a hard place, there wasn’t much she could do for happiness. She was an ORPHAN with an insane Mom & a Dad deserter. That was the void that was not filled, that was the biggest reason for her misery. She tried to find happiness IN THE WORLD with PEOPLE but failed. People let her down – God would not have.

I think I have made my point. There are two roads – the way of God, the way of the world. I could have been a “star” had I married this one man in show business. But it would have been SHALLOW success, just one star out of thousands, proving what?

God had chosen me & sent me, like Jesus & many other God Lovers – into the world on a MISSION. What was my Mission? Female Empowerment – the Gender War – I was a soldier or maybe a ‘General’ in the fight to turn women into the great Matriarchs they once were.

To do this I did not see the BIG PICTURE, but God did. My only task was to LISTEN to God – hear God & OBEY & what had to be done would get done. God would use me with whatever talents, abilities & looks I had, for this specific mission.

There is no man, no flesh, mine or anyone’s, who could figure out the turns in the road.

First it was body building which helped women gain the machisma they needed to stand up to men – to prove that with muscle power, including the use of testosterone – they could give men a run for their money. Men previous to me lorded over women in body building. We were but cheesecake.

Then there was Stripping for God. Who could have predicted it? Who could have imagined a stripper giving sermons before dancing? What did this so? Prove that such a woman could be inside the Grace of God, not automatically a lowlife slut without morals – on drugs, shallow & stupid. Dorothy Parker said: “You can take a whore to culture but you can’t make her think.”

There were TWO other incredibly important things that CHANGED THE WORLD I did I will leave out of this article & explain elsewhere but let me get to the last part.

In being a COUGAR- doing it, accounting it in books, having proof through my photography – I have created an organized account that liberates women. After all, sexual liberty for us is the lynchpin against Patriarchy to establish Matriarchy – so again, I did God’s will which no one could anticipate.

Now I will leave the FINAL WORD to Mother God. She is God & She is within me. I ask Mother God is this it? No success for me, no recognition, no nothing? I did all I could, I suffered, but no banners flying, no fireworks, no accolades? Just an old soldier fading away?

Mother God: Not so fast. You’re not dead yet. I will reward you with some of the things of the world before you die. I did not put you on a pedestal before because I did not want the fake love of the word to go to your head & curtail or distract your path. It had to be a road covered with thorns. But now the thorns are gone & I will give you some of the joy of success you could have had. There will be a movie made & you will be more famous than you imagined, & before you die you will know the world will not forget you. It’s because you OBEYED God. So hang in there, fasten your seat belt, because a roller coaster will arrive & it’ll be filled with thrills & laughs. Yes my girl, you will have the last laugh. {End}

College of Matriarchal Love, Core Tenets

Passing the Tests of Life & New Opportunity

6-21-25 The TEST I Pass

Strange dream. I am being EXAMINED – don’t know why. It’s a BIG TEST but I don’t SEE it that way at first – only at the end.

I am standing some place being interviewed. And there are two different men who INTERROGATE me – one at time. As they ask me questions they are accusing & ridiculing me, asking things slanted in a way as if there is something WRONG with me or I did or thought thing wrong – they are like DEVIL’S ADVOCATES.

Both are dressed in black with white stripes along some edges & they are wearing caps like for a uniform also black- – they look identical but its two different genres.

I answer as best I can – it’s an ORDEAL. I don’t get angry, resentful or revengeful, I just endure it.

I have two people with me – a tall male & a person so tiny, the size of a small cat like 6 lbs.

When it’s all over I see myself standing next to a ROCKET SHIP. The results of my test will be put into this rocket & sent to Cape Canaveral {lol}. I told you it was strange.

But I with my friends are in a small compartment next to this rocket – {it’s just the huge CONE of a rocket}, like 20’ tall, maybe 15’ wide, just sitting there.

There’s a glass sliding glass door in front of our compartment & once you get into it the door closes for good & you can’t open it. One of our friends I see now a grown woman is caught outside around a corner & she’s crying hysterically as she doesn’t think she can get back into our spot. I quickly open the door – somehow I had the ability – run out there, grab her, bring her in & close the door.

Next, it’s all over. I’mwalkin on the street with these friends wearing a long black coat with flat white shoes – with the same friends alongside me. It’s a city street.

There on the left I see a black stretch limo & inside it is the lady who was in charge of the test. I think her staff is with her – it was all a ‘setup.’

How does she look? It’s nebulous but I thin she has medium way hair honey colored, & she’s how old? – Maybe 35. And what does she see when she looks at me?

I can’t explain exactly, but it’s a look like,

“This is a BIG THING – that she passed this test. And look at her now on the street – a success.”

This is vague, but it’s kind of like that. She is IMPRESSED. The main thing is I DID NOT KNOW it was a test, that was an important factor.

Later I have an addendum dream. I see a man come out of some kind of vehicle from the street a few sprints to his right, & then with me facing him, some more sprints to my right. He’s wearing a very well tailored suit jacket or coat, double breasted, neat. The color is maybe oatmeal – the material is firm or stiff not overly so, just neatly so. He seems to be light haired – tall –business like. {End}

MEANING:

*{My first guess, Mother God, is this is the story of my life & I passed the tests of basically being abused in two different compartments. It could be at home, then in the world. But this is saying “it’s the same war – they were your enemies there to belittle you or strike you down.” {the SAME UNIFORM – same army – army of evil.}

The test was how you reacted to these enemies – in the negative or positive? To be negative would be angry, resentful & revengeful – doing negative things in return. But you didn’t do this, you endured without striking back. So that is a triumph of virtue over vice.

Who is the lady who ran this test – but you didn’t see her until the end. It would be MOTHER GOD.

The results of the test are sent WHERE? The rocket ship represents something going up to HEAVEN. God knows the results of your life, your score.

What is the glass compartment next to the cone which the lady is hysterical about being locked out of?

The two companions you have – you are Mother God or the God Self – are the Guardian Angel – the tall man – & the TINY PERSON which is your humble flesh, which later appears as a grown woman.

“People in glass houses” –this compartment is once again your LIFE which can be seen in your books – especially the Whisperer one. In your flesh you’ve been worried lately re your physical condition – the heart & the Osteo-arthritis – you fear you might be dying any day now.

But I – the God Self – will not permit you to die & it is I who controls this. I decide when you die & it isn’t now. {I can open or close the door that no one else can – in other words ‘once it closes’ it cannot open but I – the God Power – can open it.}

The scene on the street: Why all the black? I the flesh I’m in a long black coat. But my shoes are white. The limo with Mother God going by is all black.

The black over your entire body sounds like the conditions – the maladies throughout your flesh. You have pain all over so this is suffering – {black} & ‘can’t be changed – get used to it.’ You decided that it’s not likely you can heal the osteoarthritis {as it’s cartilage worn down} so you’re just going to have to live with it, endure the pain, keep moving, working & doing what you have to do. The white shoes are the good road {shoes walk, lol}.

The black limo with Mother God observing you – this is your former sufferings passing you by. They are over. So it’s like a funeral or suffering being over. But you have NEW CHALLENGES as we described. So Mother God is happy that while the past is no longer plaguing you – you have also adjusted to the present pains & are doing well, so you are passing the new tests.

Who is the neat looking business like man? It sounds like some sort of OPPORTUNITY coming your way. But why connected to this dream? Could be a reward or Grace for behaving well. {End}

College of Matriarchal Love, Core Tenets

Someone thinks she’s a star – Will not be part of the New Order

6-19-25 James Brown Arrives and Departs – Someone thinks she’s a star

I finally found out the MEANING of James Brown. Why I did not discern this before, not sure. But who he is to me is BETRAYAL. I will have to back track several dreams he appears where I did not figure who/what he was as he has cropped up time to time.

James Brown means betrayal

Dream: James Brown is appearing in town & I really want to see him. I have a GOOD FRIEND of mine, a male, who I send to investigate, maybe contact him for me, see if anything could come of it.

My male friend is tall with curly black hair. He goes there to see James & they HIT IT OFF. I feel good about this, maybe we’ll be friends.

But then I see my friend going off with James, the two of them. There was some business about a ‘sex act’ that my friend might be willing to do on him & I’m standing there trying to analyze it. Then I get it. ‘Going South’ meant ‘going down’ – ugh’ an unpleasant thought – maybe funny, but nothing like that will occur. And my analysis is,

“Oh, it’s like ‘Going SOUTH. There’s North, South, West, East, going South is DOWNWARD.”

Then I see them both in the strangest way. They have umbrellas but they are PARASOLS with flounces around them, round & small – half the width of a normal umbrella – the color is like a pale gray/green, almost no green – the material seems moist. They are immersed in their conversation, like I’m not even there.

Somehow I convey to my friend, does James want to see me? And his answer is,

“When he PERFORMS you can go see him.”

So of course this is a REJECTION. {End}

MEANING:

*{Oh Woe is me. I had my HEART SET on being friends with this lady concerning our New Religion & Order. She was so excited abut my beliefs & we spoke abut an hour – she agreeing with most of it.

I left her a book to read & promised I’d bring the ones more pertinent to the subject – this was on Purgatory. And she said yes. I was having VISIONS of us working together on the project! She owns a store targeted to women, I even thought I could leave a shelf of my pertinent books there for clients to peruse – maybe she could let us meet there once a week in her store!

She’s a woman with several kids, who raised them without a husband for the most part. And she agreed women need SAFE SPACE – a Village, an Order, to go to for safety, security & enrichment for themselves & their children. All seemed well, I was SO HOPEFUL as she’s the first female I met in person with the INTELLIGENCE to understand me & the INTEREST. She’s middle aged.

But the dream says NO, this will not happen. She’s on a HIGH HORSE or thinks she’s a STAR {like James Brown.}

In other words, she’s managed all these years, has prospered, & contains her own belief system, her own family, life, world – why should she reach out to an Order or Matriarchal Village? She would not see fit to HUMBLE herself or say “I need this.” She prides herself & perhaps she should – on the prosperity she has achieved. And although she BELIEVES much as I do – thinking of HERSELF – NOT other women – she might not want to SHARE what she has – whatever it is – even her TIME & her INDEPENDENCE. In other words she has her own cosmos there in her family – she does not see the advantage to join up. She doesn’t feel NEEDY.

It would NOT, for the most part, be women who can make a good living, who have prospered without too much props – whatever way they made it, they made it. So why leave their good fortune to build a Matriarchy? They wouldn’t see the need.

Not all women who have prospered see it that way. I have prosperity. I have made it. But I strongly see the need for this New Religion & New Order for women. It’s isn’t for me PERSONALLY – it’s for them.

But then a person needs to be charitable, even Saintly to think this way. But most people aren’t saints. They’re minds are on survival, success, & if they have it that’s all they want & need – they don’t CARE about others Yes, their family, themselves but not strangers, not the random poor.

My mind now moves to those Sudras of India, the Muslim women in danger of honor killings, the women who need to escape from cults, those who need sanctuary from brutal & violent husbands –there are others. There are those who don’t want or need to bother with men – they might be gay or have PTSD from what men have done to them. They want & need to ‘hide away’ & safe space sounds good. Extended comprehensive education in all arenas, free, sounds good.

And so one message here is don’t expect any woman on her own two feet because of some like beliefs, to help in this cause – unless you meet a Saint who is committed to helping humanity & specifically women running the family & the world.

What are the symbols? James Brown is a TRAITOR – that means rejection, hopes dashed. Who is the man I send? One of my Guardian Angels.

What is the ‘going South or ‘going down South?’ It’s about being OF SERVICE TO HIM/HER – this person wants to be served, not to serve – NOT a Saint, as all Saints were servants as Jesus said – He came as a servant. He washed the feet of the disciples.

Walking away impervious to me, just absorbed in herself / himself is the narcissist or egotist. The parasol is small, with flounces. What is an umbrella? Something to PROTECT one – It symbolizes protection from rain, snow, financial ruin, a comprehensive {large covering} covering from various things.

This ‘umbrella / parasol’ being SMALL & with a flounce, is a decoration rather than a necessity. It’s saying she doesn’t NEED protection! She’s alright materially & in other ways it seems, so she won’t need our New Religion & Order & so would not be willing to help build it as why? As I said, her mind here, as she walks is she’s a STAR – I can come see her when she performs, NOT a friend lol. She’s all about herself, NOT humanity. So she’s James Brown, the traitor to love – to God’s Love in particular.}* {End}

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Being too Nice is not a Sin

6-15-25 Trying to Gain Favor with ‘the Boss’

I am working it seems for a Boss Man & trying to be the ‘main one’ for him. But I have two male rivals who also want to be important – I’m

jealous of them & give them deadly stares when they ‘suck up’ to the boss, getting real close to him by the door & speaking about work.

While these rivals are communicating with him I go to a table to do some work. I have several BOWLS where I’m sorting out mostly GREENS. I finish sorting & the bowl that has the GARBAGE or DISCARDED leaves, stems, bad spots or so on is showing hundreds of those old-time leaves I used to pick since 4 years old in Germany which are also growing on my upper lawn. These are like SWORDS or SCIMITARS, but soft, tender leaves, they are, hundred of them, pointing up from the bowl. These leaves are SOUR & make the MOST DELICIOUS SOUP.

The boss is busy but I catch his attention as he’s going toward that same door & show him the bowl of what would be discarded, but I ask him to taste one of these leaves, as they are delicious. I was hoping he would want to use them after tasting them.

He does take one leaf but I see it has a TINY little dark spot – which I think shouldn’t make a difference. He tastes it but there’s NO REACTION good or bad so I’m neither here nor there with this.

MEANING:

*{Help, Mother God! I know leaves are ‘victory’ but other than that, I am floored. Is the Boss Man JESUS & are the men close to him MALE SAINTS that I would be JEALOUS of because of their HOLINESS?

And sorting out leaves might be what I should be doing, good or bad, nourishing the good, discarding the bad, choosing my daily activities. There is something that SEEMS GOOD but when Jesus takes one leaf to taste, it HAS A FLAW. Can you help work out the details?

MG: I does sound like Jesus & two of His Saints & of course you could be jealous of how advanced they are – you want to be like them. It might be St. Charbel & one of so many Saints you’ve been calling on lately – ones you added yesterday were St. Fulton J. Sheen & St. John Vianney – but there are a dozen other males.

And yes you’ve been asking them to look over you daily & help you with all your activities & to GET RID OF THE BAD. What could this bad be?

There are TWO HINTS. One, these leaves are SOUR, & two, they are SWORDS!

Sour is NOT SWEET. Swords CUT or could HURT or KILL. You have been praying about & concerned about what you think is your FLAW of being ‘too nice.’ People such as yourself, you noticed, don’t get as much

‘respect’ as the mean, the bullies, the tyrants the self centered – those who DEMAND respect & are NOT particularly nice. You’ve been feeling you must be LESS NICE & thereby get more respect & NOT get taken advantage of.

But there is a FLAW to that. It’s better to be TOO NICE & get somewhat taken advantage of used rather than being NOT NICE ENOUGH – caring less, less empathetic. After all, it is not a SIN to be ‘TOO NICE’. But being less empathetic, less sensitive to the feelings of others is being less Saintly & holy! There you have the SOUR WORDS & the WORDS that CUT LIKE A SWORD.

Yesterday you tried out being not as nice with a person you interviewed for employment. You weren’t mean, but just ONE IOTA of being less sensitive & you dreamed you hit him on the head with a BIG STICK! In the world of God the slightest nuances are recorded – even a GLANCE – as you know – can hurt – a glance carries meaning, good or bad. It can be deadly or life-giving, hateful or loving.

The men you’re jealous of are LEANING on the shoulder of Our Lord– this shows devotion, sweetness – like St. John the Beloved, who ‘rested on the bosom’ of Our Lord at Supper. You are giving them HATEFUL LOOKS OF JEALOUSY!

The dream is showing you NOT to be concerned about being ‘too nice’ & go the other way – Jesus likes you as you are – very sensitive even if you get TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF by people! He – God – will make up to you what people take away! ‘Blessed are the poor!’

ME: In each case Jesus is by the door. Explain.

MG: It’s saying that Jesus WILL LEAVE YOU or EXIT unless you show him the TENDEREST LOVE & that is the self-sacrificing Love! That is who Jesus was/is – that is who you MUST BE if you want to be like him – the holiest of Saints like the guys you’re jealous of & giving mean looks! You gave them these looks when you experimented with GOING THE OTHER WAY being less caring – so you were projecting HATE instead of Love!

And so, stay the way you are, in fact, be more caring & loving, more sensitive, & don’t be afraid what people will do to you – live to please God, not care about people hurting you – do what you think, you know, is the holiest, most sanctified thing to do & leave it in the hands of God, trusting God to protect you.}* {End}

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Serving Poor Souls with Nick

3-16-24 Arnold-Success-Running

Some startup scenes that are now vague, but what stands out strongly is I am jogging hard over this dirt road that goes up a slowly sloping tall hill, it’s a long way, & the road is glistening but not muddy in the least. I am running with all my might – Arnold is right behind me & trying to go as fast as me & overtake me, but so far he can’t. There’s a third person behind Arnold who’s keeping up but has no chance of beating us.

MEANING:

*{Dirt road over hill is the road of CALVARY or carrying the Cross, & the road GLISTENING is the dew of the Holy Spirit – important that it’s NOT muddy, just glistening to show Grace.

It features to effort of my HEART which means LOVE, shows great love. The successful person behind me {Arnold is always success} is NICK trying his best to love as much as I am, but he cannot overtake me. And the third person behind us both is either the Holy Lady present with us, or else my Guardian Angel {one of the 3} – or then again my Mother God within me. {But then who am I? One of my multiple personalities?} the Holy Lady, like Our Lord, could be the manifestation of a Being like her which has come to exist within my myriad of ‘multiple personalities.’}

I sense myself going with all my might again & again, the strength seems to come from my heart & I’m thinking my heart has improved. Arnold wants to be as good as me, I sense his trying harder again & again but he can’t beat me. I don’t know why this is so important, but it is, that I must be the front runner.

Then we come to a sharp right-bend in the road. To the right of it is an Apricot-colored stone staircase of about 3-4 tiers, beyond that maybe a stone monument. In front of this edifice is a small bush, the trunk about 4’ then a kind of pyramidal shape evergreen maybe 3 ½’ tall. There’s a narrow path between the building & the bush, & the question is, will I run across this path or stay on the bigger road? I do the path but then at that moment both Arnold & I stop & both agree it’s time for a break! We’ve run what seems like an hour, we’ve crossed the top of the hill.

*{This sounds like a choice between the ‘narrow’ road – ‘few who go there,’ & the ‘broad road’ – the two ways of operating , working or living, the narrow being the mystical plane, the broad being the earthly. And I am on the mystical plane, serving Souls in Purgatory.

To the right of this narrow road is a monument or mausoleum to the Dead, & in front the Evergreen of Eternal Life. This is where I am, where I work, where I belong – my happy place.

Here we ‘take a break’ or rest – we have done enough for a time – God rested on the 7^th day, so must we. After all, we went over ‘the hump’ or the top of the hill.}j*

Now Arnold & I hug warmly. He’s got his back to the road, I’m on the left side facing him, & he’s much taller. He’s wearing a dull grey/blue top clinging to him, his abdomen is sticking somewhat past his chest, & I kiss the area just below his neck joyfully with my arms around him warmly. The third person with us apparently is a lady & she’s sitting to our left, a large person, observing us. I am slightly afraid of her.

Arnold says something makes me laugh,

“Do you want a shave?”

I know he doesn’t mean face he means the pubic hair growing down my thighs. I tell him it isn’t like it used to be, most of it is grey or white, you can’t see it much. But he finds a golden {blonde} lump like a locket, & holds it up to me & says,

“What’s this?”

I smile & give it back to him saying,

“I wouldn’t give this to anyone but you.”

Then as we sit I find another blonde clump like that & another, totaling 3 or 4 & now there’s a pile of pubic hair next to us with those lumps inside. I was happy abut that, my pubic presence is not over like I thought, lol.

{PUBIC HAIR: Represents fertility, an abundance of it if there’s a lot of hair, as the vagina is the beginning of life/birth. It begins in the vagina with intercourse, a symbol of Union* with God, & this comes to completion with the birth as the child exits the vagina-symbol of being born into God’s world.

I’m kind of saying to Arnold/Nick that I’m not fertile any more & he points out a golden locket of hair which says otherwise – this represents a child born out of our love – one of the Souls arisen! And I’m saying to him that it was both of us who did it – I give him credit, I would not ‘give’ this credit to anyone but him. I am enlivened by his discovery & I find more children that we begot from Purgatory into Heaven – the gold lockets of hair, born out of Love.

*{The fact that I feel a slight fear of her shows me this is my Mother God – as we had a serious conflict when I was obsessed with Nick on earth – she threatened to kill me if I didn’t give up my earthly obsession, leave him alone & allow her to have him! At the time it didn’t make sense, but in light of future events it does. I had to get over the earthly addiction to Nick & step aside for Mother God who must be dominant. In time I did – by 2019. I never feel fear for Our Holy Lady or my Guardian Angel. And yet, consider, Mother God within me is FOLLOWING Nick & me, not me following her, which shows that what person or personality is evident here? Oh, things get nuanced! My mortal self had to be spiritualized & surrendered to God, not obsessed by addiction to the feel good feeling of being with him!

My hugging & the kiss is kissing his heart, by which he tried so hard to love as strongly as me, tried with all his ight – I am grateful. His protruding abdomen means ‘pregnancy’ & tat means nurturing a soul the way a Mom nurtures a fetus – a Soul that will be born into Heaven. All this gives me great joy.

And his shirt is one of sorrow – he feels earthly sorrows as do I, all of which translate into Grace for Souls.}*

There were scenes after that but they’ve faded too much. I was coming over the hill with a man, both running but not concertedly, casually. We seem to have accomplished something & getting ready to do something else. I see a medium beige knitted sweater & flowers knitted of the same on the right shoulder of the sweater, it’s all vague.

Oh yes, here’s a scene. I know Arnold loves me, he proved it on our run, & this is permanent. But I am told he was with another woman before me, & this man way to the right knew them both. For some reason I aim impelled to go to him & ask him about it. He’s working on something as he sits, & it’s in front of him like before his lap. I bend to him & say,

“You knew my husband when he was with this other woman. Could you tell me about it?”

He just sits there saying nothing. I ask him again, he says nothing. So I just walk away. This man reminds me of my neighbor who helps me around the landscaping & lawn mowing. He’s not articulate, just a working class guy.

{Who is this guy who new them both & I want to ask him about her? It seems to be Nick himself, as he was then, his mind set. He does not want to talk about her. Means he doesn’t want to recall her or go back there. Means he was not happy there, as if something gave you joy you’d want to return, if it was painful, you want to forget.} {end}

3-15-24 Elvis several dreams

I dreamed of Elvis several times in the last week which is not the usual. I had no idea who Elvis represented but in one dream I mused abut being madly in love with him from age 10 to 12, & now, here he is. But this last dream he came to me & kissed me & it was so real & ecstatic after thinking I know its NICK, my spiritual husband. I began to wonder, is Nick a reincarnation of Elvis? I doubt it, Elvis is but a symbol because I loved him so much & then that love fell into Nick.

Nick died of an overdose of drugs – I believe it was suicide after I gave him an ultimatum he couldn’t keep – leave his drug partner, go into rehab. We both knew – I explained it to him – that we’d be united forever in life & in death – we were mystically married & it was forever. He knew he’d be with me as soon as he died, he wanted to be with me & here he is.

He’s living an unusual lifestyle united to me, as he is enjoying my spiritual heights but also my earthly sufferings. It’s his Heaven but also his Purgatory. And he is assisting me, to my surprise, with getting Souls consoled & lifted out of Purgatory – this is unusual as I don’t yet consider him a ‘Saint’ where only Saints or souls in Heaven can use my portal to deliver Souls – but there it is. I guess it proves that anyone who has at least one foot in Heaven can assist me this way.

3-12-24 Helping Poor Souls

In the midst of these dreams there was one where I for sure was helping the Poor Souls.

I’m to go on a big TV show & there’s lots of rigmarole about that – Like I have to qualify as a guest to be interviewed or to perform.

In the end I know I succeed. I see a fancy skirt made of fluffy layers, split in the middle, where I’m dancing. Then there’s a luminous violet metallic piece of material I think about taking but realize it isn’t mine so I can’t. Clothing like this – costumes & metallic cloth – represents Gifts & Lights for Souls.

I also find my purse intact, filled with money & all my valuables, on a table where I feared some strangers at the show might have stolen. Purse means value of what I have.

The rest has faded out of memory. {end}

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Male Female Relations in our New Order

Mosuos vs Us Part 4 3-4-24 How we differ, how we compare

Rasa to Pete Jackson:

Just wondering – are you WISHING all my rules will change or be revoked? {Re Part 3}

Pete Jackson speaks:

No, not in the near future, and probably not in my lifetime either. But in the distant future, generations from now, I am hoping that things would eventually evolve to the point where at least some of the rules could perhaps be relaxed a bit, especially for congenital Members (those who were born into the Order). That is all I will say in that regard.

Rasa responds:

Oh that’s a good thought. What becomes of those who are born into the Order, rules & all. They will have to abide by them, as it’s in our ‘culture’ by then the way things are taken for granted once a culture is set. For instance, consider the Mosuos having girls available for sex by age 13. {It doesn’t say what age boys are allowed to visit & have sex} Puberty for a boy would be somewhat later…..In their culture it’s accepted, but in America they’d all be ARRESTED, – the adults – And kids put in foster homes.

A lot is left unsaid in the Wiki explanation of the Mosuos which I will address – especially re sex, dates.

Much of this has to EVOLVE. ‘Theory of evolution.’ But we have a BEGINNING & idea of what is our GOAL? At some point I will have to describe our ultimate goal & which rules can change, which are stable {with no stable rules the Order will fall apart.}

And how the males born into our Order evolve as MATRIARCHS is a good question. If they decide to become Patriarchs for whatever reason – there’s the door. They would injure the Order by being in it – influencing others.

PS I do sense a slight feeling of hostility from you re the Order, what I’m saying. What is it that’s bothering you? The fact that we want to be left alone? At first, you agreed, which was so different from someone else who kept talking about ‘femdom men’ & helping them. You said several times in defense of the Order, & the New Religion, that you agreed women must do this & to do otherwise would be counterproductive to what we want. The other friend couldn’t take it & withdrew.

The average man or even way above average – has gone berserk when I speak like this – they are IMPOSSIBLE to discuss these issues with. I’ve had revenge including death threats for JUST TALKING either on internet or in person.

Your reaction is MILD but it’s there. When you approve of something or like it you’re very talkative, filled with ideas. But now you’ve become somewhat silent, like a person gets when they disapprove but don’t want to say so or don’t want to criticize to make the other person mad – they bite their tongue.

You are HELPING when you voice your TRUE FEELINGS. It’s kind of like Lt. Col Gxxx – I wrote him wanting to work together. He was gung ho until he discovered that I wanted women to rule the family & the world. He stopped writing then. I channeled his mind & he said,

“The thought of women dominating the world including myself gives me a feeling of revulsion.”

And so my main question to you is if things bother you that I propose, why is that? And what would be your alternative suggestion or rule re keeping this Order together & keeping women & children safe?

If you drop out of this discussion {which I trust you won’t} I’ll have to just keep going alone – as there isn’t any man I can converse with on this & no woman. One lady friend’ of mine told me my work for Matriarchy is IRRELEVANT.

In your articles you’ve said often ‘Let the healing begin’ – ‘this has to change yesterday’ & you are as aware of male transgressions in running the world as I have. How does the healing begin? What has to change, then? If you don’t like what I propose, what is your proposition? How do you see the world changing?

That is one of the problems. We all complain. The MAJORITY of people who say anything, who are educated in what is actually going on, or even uneducated but are unhappy with things – complain & criticize. But NO SOLUTION.

Fr. Groeshel once gave a talk on EWTN about Saints. He said the difference between Saints & other people is Saints DO SOMETHING. He then spoke of Mother Theresa of Calcutta how her first act was she found a woman on the street, very ill, took her to her own apt, gave her her own bed & slept on the floor – & there it started.

You know how evil men have been. How do we begin Matriarchy? We can all talk the talk. But what is the walk? When & how do we walk the walk? {no pun intended, Walking Marriage is next} Rasa

From Wikipedia: Walking marriages[edit source]

One of the best known aspects of Mosuo culture is its practice of “walking marriage” (走婚 zǒu hūn in Chinese), although this practice remains poorly understood.^[16] Walking marriages are the most prominent form of marriage in Mosuo culture; however, it is not unheard of for women in Mosuo culture to marry outside of their culture, therefore participating in marriages other than walking marriages. In a walking marriage, both partners live under the roof of their respective extended families during the day; however, at night it is common for the man to visit and stay at the woman’s house (if given permission) until sunrise. Therefore, they do not technically live in the same household, but they are free to visit when granted permission. Children of parents in a walking marriage are not raised by their father. The brothers of the mother (maternal uncles) in the marriage take on the responsibilities of the father since the father is not typically around during the daytime. Due to the separation of the father and mother, it is crucial for the uncle(s) to play a large role in the development of the child.

Rasa says: Why is it ‘crucial for the uncle{s} to play a role in the development of the child.’ It’s NICE to have both a Mother & a Father if the Father is a good person – but in the absence of a Dad our Order is the second parent, it does not have to be a physical male. The things a child would seek from a good Dad will be provided. After all, what is it a child needs? Love, comfort when in need, security, food & shelter, an example, a teacher who shows the right path of virtue – being kind to oneself & others. Kids need skills for survival & ordinary daily life – keeping the body & one’s environment clean, organizing a schedule, working, exercising, studying, recreating, enjoying Creation. To receive such things one does not need an Uncle or Dad or any male, in their absence, women can provide. Not saying we push away all men – some will be around here & there, but they are not mandatory for the child’s welfare. {I might add they’ve done studies of adoptive parents, both hetero & lesbian, & there was never ONE CASE of abuse from the lesbians.}

Wikipedia:

Shih (2010) offers the most sophisticated anthropological account of Mosuo practices of sexual union. “All on-going sexual relationships in Mosuo culture are called “walking marriages.” These bonds are “based on mutual affection.”^[15] “When a Mosuo woman or man expresses interest in a potential partner, it is the woman who may give the man permission to visit her. These visits are usually kept secret, with the man visiting the woman’s house after dark, spending the night, and returning to his own home in the morning.”

Rasa says: Nothing wrong with that. But does he carry a candle? Then people will know there’s a fox after the chickens. Does he meet any of those other guys along the way? Then it’s not too secret.

There a lot here they leave out. A female is permitted to start having visitors – any age up to very old? Do they have visitors for sex? And males what age are they considered men who can visit? Is it also 13 or older? What about older men wanting to visit a teenager? How is that looked upon? What about older women who want to date younger men – even teens – is that accepted? Each woman has her own room where males climb to the second floor – in one documentary they said after he climbs the stairs he has to cut some indentations with his knife before climbing thrugh the window. That’s it – no more explanation. They climb into windows? Don’t these rooms have doors to the outside or balcony? It seems there’s a wrap-around balcony on the second floor, where all the women’s rooms are. Might not a male bump into another gonna-be lover?

If I had more information it might expand my ideas of how to have our females meet their lovers. We cannot start at puberty because of our laws. It’s 17 in most states. Sometimes, if people the same age are caught having sex they write it off as the ‘Romeo & Juliet clause’ but if someone say over 18 cohabits with someone under 17 they can be prosecuted. Therefore we must not condone such liaisons. But you can’t stop love. Those of any age can love anyone of any age & tokens of affection can be exchanged without being sex.

The Amish {some sects} have an interesting solution to the problem. One Amish guy says teens are allowed to be in bed together – starting age 16 ½ or so – making out but not sex. He does not say if they’re dressed or naked. This will bring some doubt into our minds if the teens keep to the rules. Maybe some do – some don’t. There’s also the ‘rocking chair’ deal where the girl sits in the boy’s lap – they rock back & forth – again, is this in the living room or bedroom? The parents do not interfere – they know about it & stay in their own room. Here the boy visits the girl, not the other way around. I’d like to know more abut these situations & how many abide by the rues, & how many pregnancies occur? This indicates to me at least the Amish are trying to face reality than simply repressing & scaring the kids into guilt trips. The way most of Patriarchy does including from the Christian pulpits. The idea that sex is ‘dirty’ & abstinence is ‘purity’ still persists.

But how will we handle the need young people – or any people – have for love, affection, warm hugs & touch, sex – how do we face the natural needs of animals?

The only thing I can think of off hand is we neither condone nor condemn. We will not repress or put anyone on a guilt trip, nor will be say ‘go for it’ if they are under age. We might be neutral or even approving of affection, including publicly, between the youth or any age – at appropriate times, not on the street but at friendly dance gatherings, Holidays, etc. Within our religion we will definitely explain our view that neither nudity or sex are sins – it’s between them & God, & they decide in their own conscience what to do. This does not mean ‘anything goes,’ like a man cannot expose himself to a female, or a male for that matter, especially not to a child – that would be a crime. And of course abuse & rape, or using a person are sins.

Wikipedia continues:

After the birth of the child, the man has no moral, cultural, or legal obligation to take care of the child. However, the child will be raised with adequate care and attention. The overwhelming support from the woman’s extended family allows both the man and woman to engage in sexual relations with whomever they please.

Rasa says: This suits me fine. We prefer that the males do not interfere with the children, if they become demanding upon a female who wants to be let alone – usually to demonstrate their wrath or us the children against her this man will be expelled from the community {if he’s in it}, an Order of Protection made against him & whatever measures we need to ensure safety for the female & the child/children will be applied.

The Mosuos have a Patriarchal element, however, where in a large family that has males, some of the men involve with the children of their nieces, etc. We won’t have that element.

General practice[edit source]

“The Mosuo have large extended families, and several generations (great-grandparents, grandparents, parents, children, grandchildren, aunts, uncles, nieces, nephews, etc.) live together in the same house. Everyone lives in communal quarters, and there are no private bedrooms or living areas, except for women between certain ages (see the section on “coming of age”, below) who may have their own private rooms.”

Rasa says: Aha, “women of certain age” have those private visiting rooms upstairs – the rest live communally. We shall see about that.

Wikipedia:

“While a pairing may be long-term, the man never lives with the woman’s family, or vice versa. Mosuo men and women continue to live with and be responsible to their respective families. The couple does not share property. The father usually has little responsibility for his offspring.”^[16] However, this does not mean that men can wipe their hands free of responsibilities and spend every night participating in shenanigans. After work, they are obligated to go home and help raise their nieces and nephews. The children rely on the collective effort of the extended family rather than that of the biological father.^[17]

“A father may indicate an interest in the upbringing of his children by bringing gifts to the mother’s family. This gives him status within the mother’s family, while not actually making him part of the family.”^[16]

Matrilineal society[edit source]

Unlike other cultures, women in the Mosuo society dominate the household and family. They are responsible for housework, agricultural duties, and taking care of children. In a walking marriage, the ancestral line is most important on the wife’s side of the family and the children of the couple reside and belong to the wife’s family household.^[16] Considering women are responsible for most domestic jobs, they have a larger role in the walking marriage and are viewed with more respect and importance in this society.^[18]

Husbands in walking marriages have a much less involved role than wives. The husbands in these relationships are generally the figures who are in charge of all religious and political decisions for the family.^[19] Regarding the family responsibilities, the father or husband in the family does not have nearly as many responsibilities regarding the family as the wife does. In fact, the male relatives of the mother’s side of the family, such as uncles and cousins, are generally the “father figure” to the husband’s children.^[16] The mother’s brothers occupy a central role in the household. Their roles include disciplining children, caring for them, and supporting the children financially.^[16] Since the husband and wife live with their separate immediate families, they help take care of the families’ children and issues regarding their household. Even though fathers are involved in their sister’s children’s lives, they are not necessarily involved in their biological children’s life. In walking marriages, the involvement of a father in his child’s life is optional.^[16] If a father decides to be involved in the upbringing of his own biological child, he can bring gifts and help with work around the woman’s household. This relationship can be performed regardless if the woman and man are still in the walking marriage and it gives the man a type of “official status” among the family without being fully involved.

Rasa responds:

We may have an element of that, the Fathers of children volunteering, bringing gifts, doing favors. But they will have no legal rights in many cases – & can never take a child away or see them alone. We will be careful about this, as for instance, a man is not living with or no longer involved with his ‘wife’ but she wants or needs him to drive her somewhere. We recommend the child not go on this trip, as situations could occur where the child is alone with the man, it would be difficult to monitor. He may be even be laying a trap or snare to be alone with the child to do harm. The Order helps its Members to avoid over-dependence on any man.

Wikipedia: Advantages to a walking marriage[edit source]

Other than the child receiving exceptional care and attention from the extended family, there are many inconspicuous advantages for participating in a walking marriage. For example: divorce is never an issue because the man and woman are not legally bound together, thus sharing very few of the same responsibilities. There are also never any disputes over who owns custody of the child since the child belongs to the mother’s extended family and takes the mother’s last name. In the case of a parent’s death, the child still has a prodigious amount of care and affection from the extended family.

Rasa: the extended family in this case is the Order. Each child will also have a surrogate Mother if the Mom is working or absent substantially. It’s not just ‘baby sitting’ – it’s loving the child. Child care centers have little love involved, many are abusive by neglect. I just saw a documentary of abuse where infants & toddlers were kept in a dark cellar:

COLORADO SPRINGS, Colo. – A Colorado woman accused of hiding 26 children behind a false wall at her daycare center was arrested for investigation of misdemeanor child abuse, police said Thursday.

Carla Faith, 58, was arrested Monday in Colorado Springs on suspicion of two counts of reckless child abuse without injury and a single count of trying to influence a public servant, the El Paso County court records show.

Three employees – Katelynne Nelson, 31, Christina Swauger, 35, and Valerie Fresquez, 24 – were arrested on related charges.

Faith was arrested after a six-week investigation by the city police department’s Crimes Against Children Unit, Lt. James Sokolik said in a statement. She posted $3,000 bond Wednesday. Her next court appearance was set for Jan. 2.

Police went to the Play Mountain Place site on Nov. 13 after receiving complaints that the business was housing more children than its license allowed.”

This woman was given SIX YEARS.

My personal experience: I KNOW what it’s like to raise a child by myself, without family or husband -that’s part of the reason I am aware of the desperation of a Mother for adequate, safe child care. I had a husband who was far from good. I was going to leave him & when he found out, he tried to kill me twice by strangulation. I escaped with our baby, then about a year old, lived in a motel & earned a living as a model. A woman in the motel cared for the baby when I was gone. My husband searched for me & found me & told me he had a recurrence of cancer, could I take care of him. I went back & took care of him for 6 months, when he died. Little did I know he’d cancelled his life insurance, out of revenge, & rendered the baby & I penniless. Then I had to work & child care was imperative & I saw the frustration & desperation of it. I did finally find a great lady who was perfect, thank God.

I have seen reports that most of these centers are strictly business. They give as little care as possible for the price. They hire extra people just in those hours when people drop off or pick up the child – in between the children suffer neglect.

Our Order worships God, not the Almighty dollar.

Wikipedia: Myths and controversies[edit source]

Outsiders often believe the following myths:

Mosuo women have many partners[edit source]

“While it is possible for a Mosuo woman to change partners as often as she likes, few Mosuo women have more than one partner at a time. Anthropologists call this system “serial monogamy.” Most Mosuo form long-term relationships and do not change partners frequently.^[5] Some of these pairings may even last a lifetime.”

But, in other anthropologists’ views, it is a more recent change, “in the face of political campaigns and cultural integration with the Han Chinese“, and “previous generations often continued with multiple partners even after a child was born. Some older Na report having upwards of 30, 40, even 50 partners throughout their lifetime”^[15] and despite these changes, “notions of exclusivity are not entrenched, and the Na language has no word for ‘jealousy’.”

Rasa says: There will be no slut shaming or any kind of guilt trip put on females whatever they desire to do re sex. In our religion sex is a private matter – the old traditions re sex come out of the patriarchal mentality, their religion & culture, to hold the woman down – look at the double standard. Our females are free. Even those who want t pursue sainthood will not be criticized for sex, as I know that in my experience I have been One with God, Enlightened, since many years ago. And it was God who told me to quit my celibacy after 31 years, drink, go out & have fun. I did not want to do this buy obeyed. After some time I got really tired of it & longed to be intimate with God again – as this lifestyle deadens one’s spirituality. {Not because of sin but because of consciousness.} And so, I knew it was alright with the Almighty – I quit. Sex did not impede my Union with God & I-we shall judge no woman for it.

Wikipedia: Fathers of children are commonly not known[edit source]

“The large majority of women know their children’s fathers; it is actually a source of embarrassment if a mother cannot identify a child’s father.^[15] But, “unlike many cultures which castigate mothers and children without clear paternity, Na children induce no such censure”.^[15] The father of a child born from a walking marriage will not see his child during the day, but rather at night time. The father doesn’t play as large a role in the development of the child. “At a child’s birth, the father, his mother and sisters come to celebrate, and bring gifts. On New Year’s Day, a child visits the father to pay respect to him and his household. A father also participates in the coming-of-age ceremony. Though he does not have an everyday role, the father is nevertheless an important partner.”

Rasa: The role of SOME Fathers could be substantial, but I suspect many will be ‘here today, gone tomorrow’ – due to the nature of American men, the POV of our Order, & the wishes of some female members. The participation of the Fathers that remain with us, will be determined as the Order progresses. It could be just the regular American family, it could be less than that or more than that, depending on what the Mom wants & what he wants. It might get complicated of there’s legal marriage; we’ll recommend not going there. In some cases it might be good for social security benefits & pensions, including any inheritance – it all depends on the case. The Order will provide Sacramental marriage for those who wish it.

To be continued – Rasa Von Werder

College of Matriarchal Love, Core Tenets

Separate Beds

Separate Beds–A Surprise Ending 2-27-24

This dream was so vivid had trouble going back to sleep.

Somehow I have a date with an old friend – a wonderful man, who was my best friend for 10 years, then for some unknown reason he dropped me.

Our date is at a fancy bar-restaurant {where we originally met} & as we sit at this small table he says,

“You’ve changed.”

I say,

“I’ve quit drinking”

but alas, he’s not only ordered me a drink, but a HUGE one in a huge glass & there is a part of it in a bottle on the floor to my left – like the drink has 2 parts.

Not wanting to be rude {I see the waiter behind us & he looks like my old buddy Jack, who was the most fantastic ‘slave’ & Jack served the drink. He gives me a look like the drink is expensive or something like that.} – So I say I WILL drink this just this one time.

I shall call my date ‘Joe.’ Joe’s wearing a traditional black suit with gray quiet vertical pin stripes.

I was about to start drinking this drink when there’s some kind of ‘call’ {BTW the glass is shaped similar to the glass Kathryn Hepburn bought from Rossano Brazzi in ‘Summertime’ which she thought was a one-of-a-kind goblet – but turned out it was a fake – she felt cheated – he argued it was authentic but she suspected-that glass was rose, but this is clear & similar not exact to that.}

The call is saying this part of the restaurant is NOW CLOSING & we all must go back to the main part of it. We are suddenly in the MIDDLE OF A FIELD, huge expanses all around us, like say a 10 minute or more walk back to the main road & town.

And as the call comes, everyone here lines up like a herd of sheep or whatever, walk several people deep, long line of HUNDREDS of people – male & female, & they’re walking fast!

But I stand there looking back at our little table because I’m not sure, but I think I brought my PURSE with me. It’s twice as large as a normal purse, not round or fat, about 5” or so deep, but it’s a foot & a half tall & wide, & it’s exquisite. It has indented stripes all over it, not vertical or horizontal, slanted from left to right downward – The color kind of in between, party dark, partly light, the stripes darker than the background – tasteful design.

I am staring & staring as to where did I put the purse, {as it has all valuable stuff in it}. I bend down to see if it’s under the table but can’t find it. Then I think, maybe I brought just the little purse that went inside this big one – that’s it – I left the big purse in his car.

Meanwhile he kept calling me & calling me, telling me to come on, while I looked. Finally, he just LEFT ME THERE while I was searching, & he & all the other people DISAPPEAR!

Now I must walk, all alone, back to where we came, in my HIGH HEELS which are not too comfortable. And I realize Joe is NOT a gentleman to leave me here like this. There’s an indented walk, like cut out in the field, so the ground is a foot higher on both sides of this dirt road. As I walk I think of Joe, how he looks, wondering how we got together again & in my vision he becomes my first husband Stan, who was a very evil man. I feel REPULSED at the thought that we’re back together & he’s courting me & I absolutely DO NOT WANT HIM.

I finally get back to the bar/restaurant where we originally met & had just been. Look in the bar where we sat – he’s not there. Walk into the front bar – he’s not there either & I hope people don’t know he abandoned me & are laughing at me as these people saw me with him now without {these people look like the local yokels I hung with recently trying to start the Church but of course it couldn’t work. They’re wearing their type clothes- lots of checks.}

I then go out in front to the sidewalk & try to recall where he parked. Oh yes, right around the corner. There he is in a black car next to a small tree, & he’s on the phone. I wonder WHO IS HE CALLING? As I don’t have a cell phone on me & should he not be looking for me instead of calling someone else? It’s a feeling of betrayal.

The next dream is I’m with a Jehovah’s Witness who’s reading from a book. She’s giving the teaching on Jesus & its WAY DIFFERENT than tradition. It interests me & I want to know more.

She’s sitting with her back to the wall, on the floor. I go to her & say,

“Tell me the page number as I want to look it up myself.”

She tells me something like,

“12,486”

which is unlikely for a book to be that big but I write it down.

Now in this room is a boy, about 7-8 years old who’s some kind of disciple of whatever is going on. He’s been taught. And there’s a grown man to the left, is he the mentor?

The boy wanted to take this book & show it to someone but I tell him no, it’s a secret teaching of ours. If you take it to someone who’s traditional it’ll be like shooting them, they will be in such shock.

Where does this boy suddenly get a large handgun & he aims it at that man, his mentor. I try to stop him but too late – he shoots the man in the head. Then he puts the gun to his head & shoots himself twice.

We must get them to the hospital immediately. I think the mentor will be alright but I doubt the boy will survive with the 2 shots. He did it to himself.

The mentor speaks to me, he will recover. He tells me lately he’s been shaky on his feet & this is just part of it, but we both sense he’ll recover as the bullet did not penetrate him fatally.

MEANING:

*{Mother God, to start with, I know who it is, an associate of mine I shall call Sam. In the scenes there are several symbols of ghosting & rejection. First, he’s Joe. Joe was the greatest best friend for 10 years & suddenly dropped me & I didn’t know why. There’s also Jack {the waiter} who was a dear buddy/’slave’ – he moved but sent cards every Holiday, suddenly one year the cards stopped. I called him but no return call, feared he was dead – then one more card & nothing. – So, another ghost.

And in the end, when I go back to the original bar, I see the local yokels who I tried to get to help me start a Church – no go – not a single one was interested – another rejection or ghosting.

I do finally find Joe there in his black car {this car reminds me of a long-ago boyfriend, Richard, the half Chinese, half English stunner, who dated me but tried to get sex & I was celibate. Finally he gave up & dropped me – this looks like his car.

He’s in the shade of a small tree. Tree could be tree of life or it might mean ‘Cross.’ The black car, if it’s like the guy mentioned, could mean two things, one, he drops me for not getting what he wants, & two, black is a funeral, so end of relationship. Now that I think of it, it’s like the car has slightly jumped the curb, see the spokes of the wheel SHINING – right under the tree the right tire on the curb on some grass.

He CALLING SOMEONE ELSE rather than trying to find me is definitely he’s deserted me, seeking someone else.

But our bar area turning into a huge field – What is that? And the drink? Huge drink – I have quit but will down just this one but don’t even start when they make a ‘call’ which means ‘last call for alcohol’ as they do in the bars before closing.

The DRINK seems to be something that here is compared to the goblet where Kathryn Hepburn got screwed or cheated. And the one who SERVES it {waiter} is another GOOD friend who’s stopped communicating! This is a drink of something in the past – I USED TO DRINK {in real life have quit} but no more – Sounds like FEMDOM as I used to be in it as a BUSINESS but no more. He wants me to continue, but I don’t even start. WHO wants me to continue? It’s obvious; the subject of this dream is a FEMDOM MAN – Sam, who has now abandoned me, because of the Femdom Issue – He’s wants it – I don’t.

Comparing Sam to my first husband is the LAST STRAW. This evil man tried to kill me twice & in the end, after I went back to him & took care of him for 6 months, he secretly canceled his life insurance & left the baby & I penniless. Literally 5 bucks to my name. And he paid for being who he was – 55 years in Purgatory, getting out WITH MY HELP!

And so, this breakup is not a friendly one, it’s BRUTAL or HEARTLESS. And IN MY EYES or vision, when I see who & what he really is, he repulses me. And like Kathryn with the rip-off goblet, I felt cheated by him as he came off so SINCERE re Matriarchy. {BUT his version is not mine!}

Now what is the HERD of people filing out fast while our seating is suddenly way out there in the midst of a field? The call comes – they all run including Sam & he wants me to exit pronto but I DON’T. He leaves me. And I am all alone, & WHAT is my PURSE?

My purse is the NEW ORDER. Here is the crossroads where Sam & I will go our separate ways! The order is FOR WOMEN ONLY for the most part, & the men who are ‘faint of heart’ cannot take it. Only the MOST HUMBLE & SUBMISSIVE to MOTHER GOD will remain! As I said before, Patriarchal Femdom men are NOT SINCERE – they TOP FROM THE BOTTOM & here is a prime example! Sam is topping from the bottom!

He is INSISTING that Femdom Men be part of the Order – NOT supporting me/us in what Mother God is telling me to do – as I am Her handmaid – She explains to me how we must separate. He will NOT swallow this & is concerned with & focused on FEMDOM MEN instead of Mother God – all the while professing he is ONE with Her & so on, when he ISN’T. Because the bottom line, I, the woman sent by God, am the LEADER, & the HOLY SPIRIT is speaking to ME, what women must do. He is a man, albeit a good one, but in this FINAL STEP of SEPARATION he will not obey & is holding on to his human desires & flesh! And he cannot see ME, personally, as his leader who he must follow & obey, he wants me to follow HIM – topping from the bottom – which is so predictable natural, & common, a daily occurrence in Patriarchy. Here it is, the fox in the hen yard – he would devour us by telling US what to do! He is saying, “I want to submit, DOMINATE ME!’

We are saying,

“We don’t want to dominate you, we want to be left alone. We need to find ourselves, the identity we have lost from thousands of years of men dominating us. We need time,- to commune with nature, our own nature & the God Within. Stop bothering us. The only thing you CAN’T DO is to leave us alone!”

Now being in this field suddenly, far apart from the town, is the NEW ORDER being ‘way out there’ like ‘left field’ or way away from the normal ordinary thinking. And so the bugle calls & everyone in the world, including Sam, runs back to safety, to the common ground, to PATRIARCHY!

My PURSE is what I carry of VALUE. In it there is money, keys, ID, all imp stuff. This purse is BIG. The idea of the New Religion/ Order is a BIG THING to bring to the world! That is what I am concerned about, not going like a sheep with the rest of them to the safety of old ways, the familiar, we’ve been complaining about – everyone talking, no one walking, no one working for Matriarchy including female separation from men – they are AFRAID! {That’s why in the last two days of dreams, the dance troupe conflict, the dancers were all in YELLOW. I alone had a dress made of pure gold sequins. My Jesus, the One within me, was so afraid we’d be shut down He cried. This told me that the Jesus within me is the author of this project; it is HIS, not mine. I’m only the servant.}

The design of the stripes over my purse? Not up & down or across, but 90 degree slant. What is that? Might be ‘a new slant on life’. Up & down is PRISON, like the SUIT Sam is wearing – he is a prisoner to Femdom, to his flesh. Stripes across would be THE WORLD as it doesn’t go UP to Heaven, just stays here.

But SLANTED reaches THE TOP & comes DOWN to Earth, something from Heaven to us. And bigness here means importance.

I do not go with the herd, I’m looking at this vision of the New Order.

Back to his car. He’s in the driver seat looking for something/someone new – one of his dominatrixes? Our first argument was over that – he said “I have to go with the majority,”

Meaning the majority of women – they were all Mistresses trying to get money out of men – I was the only Woman of God, & Sam said because there were more of them, I was only one, he had to side with them. He quit me – ignored me – & it took me a couple years to get back into his graces – I worked hard at it.

The next dream: This woman here is speaking A NEW RELIGION, which is a strong departure from Christianity. It interests me; I’m studying the alternative ideas & have incorporated them into the New Order.

The two males here – one a small boy, the other grown up, his mentor {‘Steve’}, & the boy wants to tell this doctrine to traditional people. I tell him no but he doesn’t listen.

This is Sam applying the doctrine & lifestyle I presented here to the REST OF THE WORLD. But it is only a sect right now, a small beginning. It won’t do to tell everyone about it – they’ll only be SHOCKED – we must be selective who we choose, like Christianity in the beginning – they were greatly persecuted for a long time, in fact, until Constantine, the Emperor of Rome, finally made it legal {Edict of Milan, year 313}.

But ALAS, he HIMSELF is gobsmacked by the ideas – he reacts immaturely. The small boy is a symbol of his immaturity & the temporary immaturity or lack of open mindedness from the other guy Steve, who’s seen as mentor or superior to the little twerp. He gets hold of a gun, shoots his mentor in the head – from which he will recover & himself in the head twice, where I suspect he will not recover.

Mother God, clue me in on this. I might get it wrong.

MG: OK your new doctrine is a shock to traditional people including Christians. But the two people represented here as SHOCKED LIKE SHOT IN THE HEAD are the two males, one little, one grown. They represent Sam & Steve, another friend.

The little guy is IMMATURE & INCAPABLE of actually submitting to women &/or Mother God!. This is Sam – he can’t rise up to it, it’s beyond his capacity – so he ‘kills himself’ or removes himself from our fellowship. He’s ‘dead to it.’

The other associate is more mature. He was also shocked like a ‘shot in the head’ but he can handle it & is recovering & seeing why it has to be. He’s a ‘bigger person’ as they say, ‘you have to be a big person to handle this,’ & because of his ability he’s seen as MENTOR to the little guy.

It’s all about HUMILITY.

The BIGGEST PERSON is the one who can humble himself & allow God to take over. The less there is of my will, the more there will be of God’s. Let God’s will be yours. But the immature person cannot humble themselves to God, they hold on to what they know – their flesh – & give no room to God, so they remain spiritually small, weak & incapable of obedience.

Jesus spoke constantly especially in ‘John,’ of how He & the Father were One, that it was this union that facilitated His work. He had given all of Himself to God, He did not think in the lower ways of the flesh, whereupon He got His Power. And conversely, those who hold on to the lower things have not God & Her Power.

The chickens have come to roost, lol. {end}

College of Matriarchal Love, Core Tenets

Moving to a Higher Level of Work

2-23-24 Dance Group Conflict – Moving to the next level where the other women can’t go

This dream was extremely stressful as I dreamed it.

I’m in a dance group. It’s easy – so easy you don’t have to repeat the steps again & again to learn them, you just know the steps as soon as you see them.

There’s about 15 of us dancers with a female manager. We’re wearing yellow costumes, like fancy 60’s style bright shiny, thin yellow pants with matching tops that are revealing, with other decorations like on head & arms. We dance again & again to a large audience of thousands. I love my job but then something terrible happens.

A man owns our company but he has to go away on business. While he’s away the manager lady has me on the stage with all the others & says to me,

“You have large breasts, but all the rest are flat chested – you make them look bad.”

I’m outraged that she says that to me & I exclaim loudly,

“Are you saying because of this I’m fired?”

I assume she says yes although I don’t hear it. I go out into the audience, protesting to them, saying how unfair this is. The entire audience disappears but a new one enters, & they are ALL GREY.

It’s like the old audience slides out {they were all regular colors} & the new one slides in – they went out me facing them to the right & the new one also comes from there. The new audience is not as huge so far, it’s a beginning.

As I’m in the audience I come across a Mom with her little son about 7 years old. He says to me,

“When the man called us boys to dance, he did not call on me, but I wanted to dance. Please tell him next time to pick me to dance also. He’s referring to the man that owns this company.

He’s a sweet little boy wearing a light green sweater with designs, soft grey & other pastel designs, & I tell him I will tell the man. I don’t know who the boy is or how to describe him to the owner.

OK, the man returns. I have something to tell him. I get up on the stage, the man is to my left – I don’t see him but know he’s there. The company has gotten a whole new set of costumes, they are all bright, tropical colors, with spangled headdresses, very fancy. The manager is standing there wearing the most plain white cotton top, form fitting crisp material. She has dark brown medium short hair, somehow reminds me of Rev. Verna who exploited me.

I exclaim to the man, in an outraged manner, pointing at the manager, exactly what she said,

“She said, you have large breasts & you make the rest of us look bad,”

“And then SHE FIRED ME!”

I see myself off somewhere, maybe talking to myself,

“That was the most happy I ever was – dancing with that troupe.”

Have no idea what then transpires as the dream ends.

MEANING:

*{ME: I’ll need help Mother God. All I can think of is my first large group of videos where I mostly tell my life & my breasts are exposed, sometimes to an extreme degree. I worked it this way because I was representing myself for the most part in the adult trade – Kellie Everts, rather than me as Guru Rasa, & of course I knew I’d get a larger audience that way. I’ve been planning a new playlist as Guru Rasa with all plain, conservative clothing, teaching & preaching.

MG: That’s exactly what it’s about as you’ve been gathering a new wardrobe, checking some of the old clothes you’ve never worn, planning a new slicked-down hairdo, maybe the new very light sunglasses {not sure about that}. Your mind’s been on it.

ME: But who is that lady firing me, & who is the man that owns the company?

MG: the lady could be Mother God or Holy Mary, who is seen as manager. Don’t take the ‘firing’ so seriously & so ominous, it’s merely a transition from that playlist to this conservative one.

The man who owns the company is Jesus, & he was figuratively ‘gone’ as you spoke more re secular things than spiritual, but now He’s back!

The audience is first, the regular people who are of the world. But the new audience beaming, streaming or sliding in, are those of the mind & spirit seen as grey for ‘grey matter’ of the brain – There won’t be as many.

Who is the little boy? That’s someone who’d like to be included in your work, but he hasn’t been ‘called’ or invited. It’s as if Jesus has to approve him, but you have to ask or tell Jesus to do so. All I can think of is friend Pete. Pete seems unhappy today, it could be because he feels ‘left out’ from this new Order.

And so according to this new dream, it isn’t just videos but your entire outlook, focus of work, has now shifted to the Matriarchal Order & spirituality – this would gel with the recent dream you had of a new place or orientation. You couldn’t figure out, what is the new place? Before it was your life, now it’s moving ahead in preaching, teaching, & conceiving the New Order.

ME: the breasts – How do I make the other women look bad – what does this mean?

MG: Those were the old days of show business, glamour & the like. Your calling is way beyond that, that was only a phase of your identity & work. You are BIGGER than that – your REAL SELF is about GOD LOVE – breasts being love. You leave behind the smaller place {flat chested} to your bigger calling.

ME: How do I recommend Pete to Jesus? He wants to be chosen to dance is he wants to be a part of this work – {Dancing, performing is work in my vocabulary.} But he is a part of it. What does he feel left out of?

MG: The community of Matriarchal women. Both Pete & William want to feel they are a part of this, & they are, but they need to feel wanted or needed. So tell them they belong to the community off premises, & if it ever starts, Pete can come to the dances & gatherings to which men are allowed. And he can continue doing computer work for the Order. Even if you’re dead but there’s a community, Pete can be a part of it because he’s been your associate. Leave behind the invitation in your writing.

ME: The new very colorful artsy show biz costumes – what do they represent? They’ve moved on without me, & who are THEY, the flat chested women?

MG: The flat chested women are the phonies – they have no LOVE & therefore they’re not ANOINTED to do God’s work. They were called, but not chosen. All the women who profess Female Superiority / Domination / Matriarchy – not a one of them has offered to join up, to help, to be helped, to form Sisterhood even when you reached out to them, or when they saw your work – except for Freyja Derrickson, who has now abandoned you.

ME: What is their problem? Why can’t they work with me instead of against me? They don’t have the capacity to make it on their own, God is not with them. Logic might tell them joining with an Anointed person would be good. But instead they’re hostile to me, or just ignore me & think ‘I will be Queen.’ Like the Princess from Snow White & the seven dwarfs: ‘Mirror mirror, on the wall, who is the fairest of them all? When they find out another female is more beautiful, they turn into ugly hags, bring her a poison apple & give it to her.

MG: To be Anointed you have to humble yourself & step aside for God. Divest yourself of human nature & its desires & obey Her. They can’t do that, they’re working from human nature & its competitiveness, its egomania, its selfishness, a path that is short lived. But you must all on your Faith strongly, trust the God that got you through all things & will bear you up through this work. Just remember how She got you through everything & carry on with this Faith. Not even knowing what is ahead, but believing it will happen as God plans.

In the dream it shows them carrying on as usual with all the colors of the earth – bright, flashy, tropical. But your audience coming in is grey/drab in color but represents the MIND. Mother God/Mary knows you did your stint here – you had to – but now you go to Higher Ground because of the Anointing – a place where – get this – THEY CAN’T GO. ‘Water reaches its own level’ means it follows the path of least resistance. ‘Dead bodies float downstream,’ lol. They have not the Power to go against the current – you have, because you’re ONE WITH GOD. {end}

College of Matriarchal Love, College of the Gender War, Core Tenets

Getting Matriarchy Started: How?

How We Get Matriarchy Started

Re an interview Mike Adams & Laura Aboli:

At the END of this enlightening interview Mike Adams presents a form of currency which has GOLD INSIDE it which is increasingly being accepted by merchants he says. The problem with 24 carat gold & silver coins is how do you divide them & spend them? These are divided to spend. He explains the TESTING he did. I TRUST Mike Adams as I trust few people. He personally saved me long ago from this fake’ detox water’ that was being SOLD at huge prices – I bought some as it was advertised on Alex Jones, thought it was authentic. But Mike Adams TESTED it & it was TOXIC! From then on I was his fan. The merchant I bought mine from gave everyone back their money.

What I’m saying is Mike Adams can be trusted. His company even offered me a spot to do videos or pod casts on, to be part of his work. I have not yet even tried to do it for lack of ability to concentrate on what it takes but some day I might.

In this interview – it is chilling – they talk about how the globalists are going to take from us all our assets, stocks, money, cars. They will own everything even if we’ve paid for it. Hard to believe but they explain some of it, it’s eerie, scary, but it’s fact they say. And I believe them.

Am I going to get gold backs? Lol, no plans to do so – too scared. If the world comes to an end I guess I’ll just die with the rest of them. It’s too much for my mind to handle, cold give one a nervous breakdown if one dwells upon this. Maybe it won’t happen. I will stick to just what God talks to me about – Matriarchy vs Patriarchy. I can’t contain in this brain beyond that. I cannot face Hell the way I would if I accepted all of this as going to happen.

I need to pray to meditate on what God wants me to do regards my work. Listening to Mike Adams is so disturbing – Pete you said take all this with a block of salt & that makes me feel better. But still, knowing the facts what the demons are trying to do, I need to evaluate what does God want me to think, feel & work at? What is most productive for humanity? And what about promotion? I’m doing little of that because I simply cannot concentrate on production & promotion at the same time.

Oh yes, I looked up how does Dolly Parton look today – & saw an interview. She must have had comprehensive surgery as her waist is super tiny & not a sign of age on her face. And Jeff Bezos JUST GAVE HER 150 MILLION DOLLARS to do with as she wishes – which when asked she said it will be put to GOOD USE. Indeed, I do trust her more than most others she has spent big money on helping others. But the RESPONSIBIITY of spending this amount of money to help others where would one start? You’d have to have an office & staff doing research. Unless of course she needs all that to maintain her surgeries & wardrobe, lol Her costumes alone are so out there she must have a storeroom the size of Wal-Mart to house them.

From William Bond Hi Everyone:

I also find what is happening worrying as we seem to be now ruled by a gang of criminals. But I don’t think their rule will last long as they are also incredibly stupid. We see this in the way they gave away western technology and manufacturing to China. Yes, by doing this they undermined the power of the working class in the West, but turned China into the most powerful country on the planet.

We also see this in the Ukraine war. The Western elite believed that Russia was only, “a gas station posing as a country”. So they were shocked when they imposed sanctions on Russia to find the Russian economy is stronger than western economies and is winning the economic war. The Ukraine war is also demonstrating that Russia is ahead of the West in both technology and manufacturing.

So I think in the short term, things will go badly for Western countries as the criminals that rule us are destroying both North America and Europe. But if we can get rid of the criminal gang that is ruling us, then we can recover.

This is possible as we saw with Russia. In the 1990s with the fall of the USSR, Russia was a failed state rule by a drunk who allowed mafia criminal gangs and oligarchs to take over. Fortunately Putin then became leader and slowly restored law and order and put some of the oligarchs into prison and the rest capitulated to him. But doing this, in the space of 25 years he restored Russia to a powerful and stable country once again.

I think it is a pity we don’t have a present a viable matriarchal political party. It is in time of social upheaval when new political parties can emerge and take power. But the patriarchal system is always unstable and if we can get something started then patriarchy will in time break down again, giving the chance for women taking over. William

From Pete Jackson Good morning, William:

We have always been ruled by a gang of criminals, basically, it’s called patriarchy. And mostly they have been quite stupid, at least in the long term. And while Putin did (temporarily) restore power to Russia, of course, he is not exactly on the right side of history either. He is an autocratic and authoritarian dictator with lots and lots of blood on his hands, crooked as well, and he too will eventually fall from power as well. Especially as his military quagmire in Ukraine drags on and on (much like the Soviet invasion of Afghanistan, the graveyard of empires, or the American wars of Vietnam, Iraq, and Afghanistan once more). Much like Trump “draining the swamp” only to fill it back up with his own crocodile crooks.

The only way to end this vicious cycle is for Women to take over, basically. Best wishes, Pete

From William Hi Pete:

I feel about Putin the same way I feel about Trump. At one time I thought Trump was terrible, until I realized just how much the mainstream media hated him and then I changed my opinion of him. I think the mainstream media and the whole establishment hate Putin even more than Trump. Which suggests to me these men must be doing something right. Anyone the mainstream media praises, you know is a sell out. William

From Pete:

With all due respect, I guess we will just have to agree to disagree about both Trump and Putin. Though I do think there is at least a kernel of truth (possibly even the size of a cornfield) to what you just said about how the establishment rabidly hates them, it’s really more evil against evil, IMHO. To put it in Dungeons and Dragons parlance, Trump and Putin are both hot-blooded, rogue, “chaotic evil”, and are thus seen as a threat to the cold-blooded “lawful evil” and “neutral evil” psychopaths ruling the world, as well as their self-interested “true neutral” sycophantic lackeys. They are really two sides of the same coin, and the very top ruling oligarchs and their “shadow government” of course play both sides to divide and conquer. Best wishes, Pete

From Rasa Von Werder:

I see all this in RELIGIOUS terms. My mind is on the righteousness of God & how She has put the WOMAN as the Mother/leader of the family & the world. I see the Patriarchal world as the quasiHell on earth which evil men have created.

The various leaders, to my mind, are mostly, if not all, DEMONICS. I know some of them weren’t because no matter the evil they did, they still Ascended into Heaven, as I know for a fact, Richard Nixon is in Heaven because once for several months, he appeared to me daily to assist me in dream interpretation. Why, I don’t know as I never did anything for him, or did I? Maybe because I pitied him when he was being persecuted, don’t know. But I also know he did evil as he signed the ‘Special Virus Act’ funded by Congress with 500M in 1971, which led to the creation of AIDS as biological warfare, & he was also a strong part of perpetrating the Viet Nam war. Those are evil acts but yet, he ended up in Heaven.

And I lump them all, basically into ‘perpetrators or puppets’ of the Big Satan, whoever he is, that works through the Globalists. And identifying all their acts, who the main villains are, is not my expertise, althought I have some ideas, like for sure, know that WHO – World Health Orgaization is 100% Satanic. Because I know they poisoned millions of Africans with AIDS under the smallpox vaccine, & other crimes more recent. By listening to Mike Adams & others I know the names of some of the demonics but don’t know all the details.

You guys study areas I don’t & so you flush out my deficits, which is a good thing for our Cause, & you both see it from different POV’s. The way Pete described it in these letters, I am more in agreement with his view. He does not see any of these Patriarchal leaders with rose colored glasses; I like the way he describes Putin. No matter what ‘good’ these guys do, say, he made Russia strong again, he has ‘blood on his hands’ & other cruel items. So this is reality. Patriarchs are, by definition, evil. What good they do is part of a bigger agenda of evil – they do good in a temporary way, say, for their own country. But in the long run, they are part of an evil agenda which holds down women, abuses & injures women & children AS WELL AS OTHER MEN. This is the intrinsic, fundamental evil of patriarchs. They are part of this doomed game of ‘I will give you all the Kingdoms of the world & their glory if you will bow down & worship me,’ & they are bowing down & worshipping Satan through Patriarchy.

Patriarchy is Satanic, demonic, it is all evil. It has no redeeming virtue at all. What ‘good’ happens is transitory, impermanent, at base, it lacks LOVE & CARING & so it has thrown God out of the equation & its conclusion is HELL.

This is the picture I am concentrating on. But it’s OK if you guys are experts in the individual actions of these guys – I’m not so it’s good that you are!

Thanks for the 3 Kings Day greeting Pete. They are proof that Jesus was a reincarnated Guru from the East – India or Tibet. So they are extremely important in my religion.

BTW I didn’t even know the mainstream media hated Trump & Putin. It seemed to me at least half the media is for Trump, as he gets whatever he wants & looks like he’ll run for President again & maybe make it, according to Mike Adams. There will always be half the media supposedly Democrat & half supposedly Republican. To me, Tweedle de De & Tweedle de Dum like Noam Chomsky says. – Both evil Patriarchic organizations. Even if Hilary had been elected President, she would have been a Patriarch, a dick in skirt as we say. No individual woman elected into office creates a Matriarchy, the senate, Congress & Fortune 500 companies have to be represented by OVER 50% women – that is the PATH to matriarchy {although it will take a couple hundred years to undo the damage men have done} not one single impotent woman who has to do as the charlatans say. Rasa

Love these statements of Pete: “We have always been ruled by a gang of criminals, basically, it’s called patriarchy. And mostly they have been quite stupid, at least in the long term. ”

Rasa says: Patriarchy is Satanic, demonic, it is all evil. It has no redeeming virtue at all. What ‘good’ happens is transitory, impermanent, at base, it lacks LOVE & CARING & so it has thrown God out of the equation & its conclusion is HELL.

From Pete:

I am somewhat surprised that Tricky Dick Nixon (I always thought that was a funny nickname) is in Heaven, lol, but then again, there may very well have been a little bit of Light behind his otherwise dead eyes, that God felt was worth saving for some reason. Lots of gray areas, it seems. (Interestingly, Nixon was politically to the left of Bill Clinton and even Obama on most issues, at least in practice.) Even the WHO, while its leaders are clearly 100% demonic, some good people are nonetheless likely sucked into their vast orbit without realizing just how evil they really are. Best wishes, Pete

Rasa says:

That’s just it, Pete – a lot of INNOCENT &/or non-demonics are SUCKED INTO Patriarchy. Some may be cool or lukewarm toward God, but they are not demonic. And they might get sucked in for physical/material reasons that override any spiritual sensitivity they have. It is extremely difficult for us to know who goes to Hell, who does not. Truly. One example: Timothy McVeigh. Not only did he NOT go to Hell but he did only ONE YEAR TO THE DAY OF HIS EXCUTION in Purgatory {Elvis Presley did FIVE YEARS!}. People screamed at me when I told them that,

“Don’t you know what he did? – The innocent people & children, “etc.

Yes I know. But who am I to judge, or you?

Many people including ourselves get sucked into systems of Patriarchy where our hands are tied. They tell us to jump – we do it. I hate to remind you – the vaccines. So many innocent people who thought they were harmless or even beneficial got sucked in & who knows the consequences?

Then there are taxes. They are ILLEGAL – Income taxes that is. The people never ratified this when a vote was called for. Try not paying your taxes & you will be in jail. {Pete says in fact, it was ratified. OK. Thanks.}

OK being President or Prime Minister is a much bigger scale. They have to sign all kinds of things they might not want to – but if they don’t – they will get impeached or assassinated. Bucking the Globalists can mean death if you’re in a high place & doing big things. Lincoln was going to change the Federal Reserve System, he got killed. {Pete corrects me, he WAS against the bankers but not the Federal Reserve. Kennedy was against the Federal Reserve.}

So IMO the high-up leaders do lots of things they would not do if they had a choice. One should think twice before seeking high offices. But some don’t care, or care little. Thinking of one Governor who shall remain nameless who I don’t think gives a shyt about anyone. It’s that “I will give you all the kingdoms & their glory if you will bow down & worship me” once again. Rasa

Below, the event of preaching for women for equal rights in the military – got into a lot of media – & a thank you letter from President Carter’s Chief of Correspondence saying ‘You have the President’s best wishes.’ – & The speech in front of the White House that ended the Cold War {within a few short years} Also preached in front of the Canadian Parliament Peace Tower in Ottowa, Canada

ME to MOTHER GOD:

My friends William & Pete believe in women entering the political field & taking over. Wouldn’t that be nice? But here’s the rub – they aren’t that much interested in seeking offices! And so what is the route by which we will get to Matriarchy?

MG: There isn’t any ONE ROUTE, there are many roads leading to Rome.

Many people must work on many platforms, wherever they are capable. Some politics, yes. Some, the religious pulpit except we aren’t hearing from women there, are we, {except when Rasa preached before dancing}. Some as authors – there has been great influence here. Some activists, doing pod cast interviews like Laura Aboli with Mike Adams {except they aren’t talking about Matriarchy! It’s that same’ole same’ole waiting for the good guys – the man on the White Horse, the Knight in Shining Armour – all waiting for HIM – not for women!}

Somehow or other we’ve got to break the ice about getting MATRIARCHY ON THE TABLE! It’s NOT TALKED ABOUT on any mainstream TV show & only RARELY in the alternative media.

When Rasa first got involved around 1995 in studying the dissidents, they were not represented by women – they did NOT put the issue of M v s P on the table – ever. She was listening to Noam Chomsky, Howard Zinn, Michael Parenti & dozens of others through ‘Alternative Radio.’ She bought $8-900 of audio tapes. These men never even CONSIDERED the issue!

Now HOW, HOW, HOW do we get Matriarchy ON THE TABLE? Will Rasa be the one to do it eventually? Can she stay well long enough, get back in the mainstream media soon enough? Yes, mainstream, like Oprah Winfrey. Isn’t that how she got BODYBUILDING to take off? Not ALTERNATIVE but MAINSTREAM MEDIA like Esquire, To Tell the Truth, Mike Douglas, & Playboy.

There were a few alternative women doing body building {Pudgy Stockton & circus performers} – but that did not cut the mustard. An idea has to get into the MAINSTREAM.

ME: Mother God, it isn’t me per se, it’s YOU – it’s God. If you steer me to do this of course I must & I will. But I cannot do it alone. There is no one backing me up. I don’t have what it takes without God. I have to have God as I did for my other big ventures, like preaching in front of the White House & Stripping for God. No human could have thought of it or made me do it, it was YOU. And I am asking, are you going to prepare me & then steer me onto Oprah & other such shows? As a human I can only think of why they would NOT permit me voice. But can you make it happen? Or rather, WILL you make it happen?

MG: We shall see. When the time is RIPE is when you will know, not until then. Like all your other endeavors, you were not warned way ahead of time nor did you anticipate any of it – you would have been too scared, lol. We’ll spring it on you when the time comes & if we do, you will proceed.

ME: PS If & when you can empower me to do this, after it is done, I will be written out of the credit such as with all else except ‘Stripping for God’ – that was the only project they could not take from me. Is that how it will be? Suddenly people will be speaking of this issue mainstream & I will be forgotten.

MG: That is not your concern. You just obey & leave the fruits or results to us. So what if you don’t get credit? It’s God who did it, through you. God gets the credit; you shall not have Her Glory. So capish? Just be quiet & when the time comes, maybe when you truly no longer care or when you have passed on you will be recognized. Don’t think about recognition – that is the ‘kingdoms of the world & their glory’.

PS Consider how negative many other women have been with you regarding recognition. As you ou did so much work, they butted in to attack you because they were JEALOUS of any RECOGNITION you might get. They wanted to be the Queen Bee, the Big Banana, the Woman on a Pedestal. You see how WRONG that is?

If a person does what they do FOR RECOGNITION it’s not done OUT OF LOVE. If you do a favor & expect something in return, it’s not charity, it’s a sort of business. Not saying this is always wrong.

But you’re working FOR A CAUSE, the cause of God, for which God sent you to earth. Why do you seek or ask for recognition? You must give this quest up, it’s not living in perfection. You must give your love to God freely & without a price tag! God sent you to do certain things – help others get closer to God & empower women. Do it & let the chips fall where they may. So they ignore what you did, as the speech in Washington. So they wrote you out of female body building. You did it, didn’t you? It bore fruit, didn’t it? Rejoice in that, & that you OBEYED GOD, you did what the Infinite Majesty wanted & trust that She will eventually reward you with Love, if not here, then in Eternity.

Back to politics, from William:

I can remember tricky dicky. Although the Watergate scandal revealed Nixon to be a criminal, he was also Quaker and because of his Quaker beliefs he was against war. So he took the USA out of the Vietnam war. He also made peace with Communist China and tried to make peace with the USSR. This must have alarmed the Military/Industrial complex and I think this was the main reason the establishment turned against him and had him impeached. Had he been allowed to remain in power he could have ended the cold-war in the 1970s.

I think the same is true of Trump. In-spite of all his faults it seems he doesn’t like war. He tried to get out USA troops out of Iraq, Syria and Afghanistan but was blocked by the USA military. He also tried to make peace with North Korea and Russia but again the establishment turned against him. So I think he has made an enemy of the Military/Industrial complex and this is why the establishment hate him. William

From Pete:

Yes there is a lot of nuance, William. Nixon did indeed end the Vietnam War, albeit gradually, after four years of his presidency and lots of bombing. Though perhaps with the military industrial complex (MIC) and the oligarchy pulling the strings of whoever is in power, Nixon in this case, that may have been the best he could have done in practice. (Even Henry Kissinger, his secretary of state, also got credit for ending the war.) And yes, he did make peace with China too.

(The military industrial complex should really be called the “mercenary industrial complex”, since, as the late, great Major General Smedley Butler famously noted way back in the day, “War Is a Racket”. War greatly destroys wealth and lives for the many, but greatly enriches the tiny few at the top.)

I wouldn’t say Trump is anti-war per se, and like any wannabe alpha male he does luuurrrve to bang on his chest and poke every proverbial angry bear he can find, but he certainly took umbrage (and rightly so) at the ridiculous protracted military quagmires of Iraq, Syria, and Afghanistan, and wanted to get us out of those. Ironically, he was the one who made the deal with the Taliban to exit Afghanistan, which Biden inherited, and the rest is history. Like Vietnam, it was a war America lost before the war even began. As for his frenemy, Kim Jong Un of North Korea, who really knows what is going through his head. First they hated each other, then they became buddies almost overnight. So overall, I can see how the MIC and thus the establishment would not like him very much, and consider him to be a rogue and a loose cannon. Best wishes to you both, Pete {end}

Embodiment of God

A presentation of the University of Mother God Church

Which Path Will You Take?

James Brown means betrayal

Serving Poor Souls with Nick

3-16-24 Arnold-Success-Running

MEANING:

*{Dirt road over hill is the road of CALVARY or carrying the Cross, & the road GLISTENING is the dew of the Holy Spirit – important that it’s NOT muddy, just glistening to show Grace.

*{This sounds like a choice between the ‘narrow’ road – ‘few who go there,’ & the ‘broad road’ – the two ways of operating , working or living, the narrow being the mystical plane, the broad being the earthly. And I am on the mystical plane, serving Souls in Purgatory.

To the right of this narrow road is a monument or mausoleum to the Dead, & in front the Evergreen of Eternal Life. This is where I am, where I work, where I belong – my happy place.

Here we ‘take a break’ or rest – we have done enough for a time – God rested on the 7th day, so must we. After all, we went over ‘the hump’ or the top of the hill.}*j

Arnold says something makes me laugh,

“Do you want a shave?”

I know he doesn’t mean face he means the pubic hair growing down my thighs. I tell him it isn’t like it used to be, most of it is grey or white, you can’t see it much. But he finds a golden {blonde} lump like a locket, & holds it up to me & says,

“What’s this?”

I smile & give it back to him saying,

“I wouldn’t give this to anyone but you.”

Then as we sit I find another blonde clump like that & another, totaling 3 or 4 & now there’s a pile of pubic hair next to us with those lumps inside. I was happy abut that, my pubic presence is not over like I thought, lol.

And his shirt is one of sorrow – he feels earthly sorrows as do I, all of which translate into Grace for Souls.}*

“You knew my husband when he was with this other woman. Could you tell me about it?”

He just sits there saying nothing. I ask him again, he says nothing. So I just walk away. This man reminds me of my neighbor who helps me around the landscaping & lawn mowing. He’s not articulate, just a working class guy.

3-15-24 Elvis several dreams

3-12-24 Helping Poor Souls

In the midst of these dreams there was one where I for sure was helping the Poor Souls.

I’m to go on a big TV show & there’s lots of rigmarole about that – Like I have to qualify as a guest to be interviewed or to perform.

I also find my purse intact, filled with money & all my valuables, on a table where I feared some strangers at the show might have stolen. Purse means value of what I have.

The rest has faded out of memory. {end}

Mosuos vs Us Part 4 3-4-24 How we differ, how we compare

Rasa to Pete Jackson:

Just wondering – are you WISHING all my rules will change or be revoked? {Re Part 3}

Pete Jackson speaks:

Rasa responds:

A lot is left unsaid in the Wiki explanation of the Mosuos which I will address – especially re sex, dates.

Much of this has to EVOLVE. ‘Theory of evolution.’ But we have a BEGINNING & idea of what is our GOAL? At some point I will have to describe our ultimate goal & which rules can change, which are stable {with no stable rules the Order will fall apart.}

And how the males born into our Order evolve as MATRIARCHS is a good question. If they decide to become Patriarchs for whatever reason – there’s the door. They would injure the Order by being in it – influencing others.

The average man or even way above average – has gone berserk when I speak like this – they are IMPOSSIBLE to discuss these issues with. I’ve had revenge including death threats for JUST TALKING either on internet or in person.

You are HELPING when you voice your TRUE FEELINGS. It’s kind of like Lt. Col Gxxx – I wrote him wanting to work together. He was gung ho until he discovered that I wanted women to rule the family & the world. He stopped writing then. I channeled his mind & he said,

“The thought of women dominating the world including myself gives me a feeling of revulsion.”

And so my main question to you is if things bother you that I propose, why is that? And what would be your alternative suggestion or rule re keeping this Order together & keeping women & children safe?

If you drop out of this discussion {which I trust you won’t} I’ll have to just keep going alone – as there isn’t any man I can converse with on this & no woman. One lady friend’ of mine told me my work for Matriarchy is IRRELEVANT.

That is one of the problems. We all complain. The MAJORITY of people who say anything, who are educated in what is actually going on, or even uneducated but are unhappy with things – complain & criticize. But NO SOLUTION.

You know how evil men have been. How do we begin Matriarchy? We can all talk the talk. But what is the walk? When & how do we walk the walk? {no pun intended, Walking Marriage is next} Rasa

From Wikipedia: Walking marriages[edit source]

Wikipedia:

Rasa says: Nothing wrong with that. But does he carry a candle? Then people will know there’s a fox after the chickens. Does he meet any of those other guys along the way? Then it’s not too secret.

But how will we handle the need young people – or any people – have for love, affection, warm hugs & touch, sex – how do we face the natural needs of animals?

Wikipedia continues:

The Mosuos have a Patriarchal element, however, where in a large family that has males, some of the men involve with the children of their nieces, etc. We won’t have that element.

General practice[edit source]

Rasa says: Aha, “women of certain age” have those private visiting rooms upstairs – the rest live communally. We shall see about that.

Wikipedia:

“A father may indicate an interest in the upbringing of his children by bringing gifts to the mother’s family. This gives him status within the mother’s family, while not actually making him part of the family.”[16]

Matrilineal society[edit source]

Rasa responds:

Wikipedia: Advantages to a walking marriage[edit source]

COLORADO SPRINGS, Colo. – A Colorado woman accused of hiding 26 children behind a false wall at her daycare center was arrested for investigation of misdemeanor child abuse, police said Thursday.

Carla Faith, 58, was arrested Monday in Colorado Springs on suspicion of two counts of reckless child abuse without injury and a single count of trying to influence a public servant, the El Paso County court records show.

Three employees – Katelynne Nelson, 31, Christina Swauger, 35, and Valerie Fresquez, 24 – were arrested on related charges.

Faith was arrested after a six-week investigation by the city police department’s Crimes Against Children Unit, Lt. James Sokolik said in a statement. She posted $3,000 bond Wednesday. Her next court appearance was set for Jan. 2.

Police went to the Play Mountain Place site on Nov. 13 after receiving complaints that the business was housing more children than its license allowed.”

This woman was given SIX YEARS.

I have seen reports that most of these centers are strictly business. They give as little care as possible for the price. They hire extra people just in those hours when people drop off or pick up the child – in between the children suffer neglect.

Our Order worships God, not the Almighty dollar.

Wikipedia: Myths and controversies[edit source]

Outsiders often believe the following myths:

Mosuo women have many partners[edit source]

Wikipedia: Fathers of children are commonly not known[edit source]

To be continued – Rasa Von Werder

Separate Beds–A Surprise Ending 2-27-24

This dream was so vivid had trouble going back to sleep.

Somehow I have a date with an old friend – a wonderful man, who was my best friend for 10 years, then for some unknown reason he dropped me.

Our date is at a fancy bar-restaurant {where we originally met} & as we sit at this small table he says,

“You’ve changed.”

I say,

“I’ve quit drinking”

but alas, he’s not only ordered me a drink, but a HUGE one in a huge glass & there is a part of it in a bottle on the floor to my left – like the drink has 2 parts.

Here we ‘take a break’ or rest – we have done enough for a time – God rested on the 7^th day, so must we. After all, we went over ‘the hump’ or the top of the hill.}j*

“A father may indicate an interest in the upbringing of his children by bringing gifts to the mother’s family. This gives him status within the mother’s family, while not actually making him part of the family.”^[16]