SPIRITUAL MARVELS

By Rasa Von Werder, February 1st, 2020
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SPIRITUAL MARVELS

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1-30-20-SEARCH 4 BOOK-Dream confirms I’m in the state of Advaita, I am one with my God Self.

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IMP: TWO SOULS ASCEND!

IMP: FOUR SOULS ENTER NONDUALITY!

          IMP: A YOUNG MONK OR PRIEST IS HELPED WITH HIS VOW OF CELIBACY.

 

          I’m in a room, plain & simple, nothing in it – no bathroom, nothing.

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          (THIS IS THE PRISTINE GOD-SELF, UNCLUTTERED, EMPTY, PEACEFUL CONTENTED WITHOUT ANYTHING ATTACHED, THE MANTRA BEING ‘I’M NOT ATTACHED TO ANYTHING OR ANYONE’……I WAS RECITING THIS LAST NIGHT.

 

          LATER IT WILL SAY THERE’S A PICTURE WINDOW BUT NOTHING ELSE, NO BATHROOM, NO FURNITURE, NO NOTHING. THIS IS A SERENE STATE OF CONSCIOUSNESS WHERE NOTHING INVADES ONE’S MIND. THE PICTURE WINDOW WOULD BE PROBABLY THE VISION OF GOD OR ‘SEEING AS GOD SEES’-SEEING LIFE FROM GOD’S EYES OR THE GOD-SELF’S POV.)

 

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          I hear a knock on the door. I think it’s my little daughter because she & I checked in here – it’s a hotel or motel.

 

          I go to the door & say ‘Kellie?’ No answer. I say it again – no answer.

 

          I open the door & she stands there, looking the size of a four year old yet there’s something about her that’s more mature.

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          (KELLIE IS MY FLESH. WHEN IT’S LITTLE LIKE THIS IT MEANS ‘I’M’ HUMBLE. HER KNOCKING ON THE DOOR IS SHE WANTS TO FIND UNION WITH ME (I AM GOD WITHIN)—SEEKING ENTRANCE TO THE GOD-SELF.

 

          ‘SHE’ DOES NOT ANSWER TO HER NAME BECAUSE ‘SHE’ HAS RENOUNCED HERSELF – THE LOWER SELF, THE EGO. IN OTHER WORDS, SHE ISN’T ‘THERE.’

 

          IF SHE ISN’T ‘THERE’ & ENTERS INTO ‘MY ROOM’ OR IS WITH ME, MEANS SHE IS WITH THE GOD-SELF IN CONSCIOUSNESS, MEANS SHE IS IN THE STATE OF ADVAITA OR NONDUALITY – MY FLESH & I ARE TOGETHER, OR IN OTHER WORDS, I AM ONE WITH GOD. (That’s a relief as I wasn’t sure what consciousness I was in. This confirms it, whoopee.)

 

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 I hear a knock on the door. I think it’s my little daughter because she & I checked in here – it’s a hotel or motel.

 

          I go to the door & say ‘Kellie?’ No answer. I say it again – no answer.

 

          I open the door & she stands there, looking the size of a four year old yet there’s something about her that’s more mature.

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          (KELLIE IS MY FLESH. WHEN IT’S LITTLE LIKE THIS IT MEANS ‘I’M’ HUMBLE. HER KNOCKING ON THE DOOR IS SHE WANTS TO FIND UNION WITH ME (I AM GOD WITHIN)—SEEKING ENTRANCE TO THE GOD-SELF.

 

          ‘SHE’ DOES NOT ANSWER TO HER NAME BECAUSE ‘SHE’ HAS RENOUNCED HERSELF – THE LOWER SELF, THE EGO. IN OTHER WORDS, SHE ISN’T ‘THERE.’

 

          IF SHE ISN’T ‘THERE’ & ENTERS INTO ‘MY ROOM’ OR IS WITH ME, MEANS SHE IS WITH THE GOD-SELF IN CONSCIOUSNESS, MEANS SHE IS IN THE STATE OF ADVAITA OR NONDUALITY – MY FLESH & I ARE TOGETHER, OR IN OTHER WORDS, I AM ONE WITH GOD. (That’s a relief as I wasn’t sure what consciousness I was in. This confirms it, whoopee.)

 

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          THEY ARE BLACK IN A MORE UNUSUAL MEANING OF THE SYMBOL – THAT OF MYSTERY. I HAVE DREAMS, THEY ARE A MYSTERY, MY WORK IS INTERPRETING THEM. MY GOD SELF IS SAYING LOOK HOW LITTLE IT TAKES TO MAKE YOU HAPPY – JUST INTERPRETING DREAMS.

 

          PULLING THIS ‘OUT OF THE CLOSET’ ARE WHAT’S IN A CLOSET IS SOMETIMES SECRET. RASA/FLESH IS TAKING THESE DREAMS OUT OF THE CLOSET – THEY WERE ENCASED IN SECRECY – & EXPLAINING, BRINGING THEIR MEANING INTO THE OPEN.)

 

          I’m walking around here doing things, wondering where the bathroom is – is it down the hall?—when magically the door opens & on the other side of the hall are two men in white v-necked t-shirts (simple clothing) with perhaps grey or beige khaki pants– & I know THEY ARE THE OWNERS so they have the keys to all the doors here & can open them any time they want – they’re standing slightly left, one might be partially bald or receding hairline–& they are standing tentatively, kind of one behind the other, not wanting to bother or intrude, but they were concerned & they ask,

 

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          “ARE YOU OK?”

 

          (WHO ARE THESE OWNERS? THEIR CLOTHING – WHITE TOPS – IS THEIR PURITY OF HEART – (THE T-SHIRTS GO OVER THE HEART) – “THE PURE IN HEART SHALL SEE GOD.”

 

          THIS STATEMENT I JUST SAID HINTS THESE TWO MEN ARE SEEING GOD. THEY COULD BE IN HEAVEN OR ON EARTH, BUT THEY ARE SEEING GOD – THEY ARE SAINTS. THE V-NECK FOR SURE IS VICTORY – THEY ARE VICTORIOUS IN THEIR SPIRITS, WHICH COULD MEAN ON EARTH OR IN HEAVEN.

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          THE TWO MEN, THE BIG HINT IS ONE IS STANDING IN FRONT OF THE OTHER. THE ONE IN FRONT IS A TEACHER, BEHIND HIM IS RAMANA MAHARSHI, WHOSE GOSPEL HE REPRESENTS.

 

          BUT THIS TEACHER, WHOM I CONTACT, LOOKS WORRIED. HIS RECEEDING HAIRLINE, GREY HAIR SHOWS ANXIETY. HE’S AFRAID. I CONTACTED ABOUT WORKING TOGETHER & HE SAID NO. THIS PREDICTS IT.

 

          THIS SAYS THEY CAN GAIN ACCESS TO MY STATE {ROOM} ANY TIME THEY WANT BECAUSE THEY ARE OWNERS & HAVE THE KEYS. THIS MEANS THEY ARE BOTH IN NONDUALITY, AS THEY ‘OWN’ THIS BUILDING {STATE} & HAVE “THE KEYS” {TO THE STATE}.

                

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          HOW DOES THIS THEN ASSURE ME THEY ARE IN NONDUALITY? BECAUSE OF THINGS RAMANA MAHARSHI SAID. HE SAID ‘IT TAKES ONE TO KNOW ONE.’ HE SAID IF YOU ARE A JNANI {ASCENDED SOUL}, YOU KNOW ANOTHER JNANI, ONLY THOSE WHO ARE THERE KNOW WHEN ANOTHER IS THERE, THEY KNOW THE STATE, THEY RECOGNIZE IT, THEY HAVE ACCESS TO IT…….

 

Xxxx ALSO MENTIONED THAT YOU CANNOT ESTIMATE, JUDGE OR MEASURE A PERSON BY OUTSIDE APPEARANCE, THOSE WHO SEEM GOOD, KIND & HOLY SOMETIMES DON’T HAVE ‘IT’ (THE STATE OF ADVAITA OR BEING ‘ONE’ WITH GOD) BUT OTHERS WHO SEEM LIKE STRANGE EGGS INDEED ARE IN THE STATE.

 

OK, SO HERE IN THIS DREAM THESE GUYS ‘HAVE IT,’–THEY OWN THE STATE {PREMISES} – THEY HAVE THE KEYS {ABILITY TO OPEN THE DOOR, THE LOCK, GET INTO THE STATE, SEE SOMEONE IN THE STATE.} THEY CAN OPEN *ANY DOOR* IN THE BUILDING BECAUSE THEY OWN THE BUILDING MEANS THEY CAN SEE INTO THE SOUL OF ANY PERSON IN THIS STATE BECAUSE THEY HAVE THE STATE.

 

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          What they mean is are we OK in the room – do we have what we want & need? And I say YES. (Again, there is so little here, almost nothing, but me just being here, looking out the front picture window, having nothing, but daughter & I are both fine….they were concerned.)

 

          (THIS ANSWERS THE QUESTION OF WHAT DO I-WE NEED? ONLY GOD & HER WILL, DOING HER WORK, DOING WHAT SHE WANTS. THAT IS NONDUALITY – ONE WITH THE WILL OF GOD.)

 

          Now two new people are in the room. One’s a female & she has no pants on, is lying around & I can see her vagina prominently.

 

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Then a handsome young male appears in the room in the same way – no pants (I was thinking could I snag him for a date later on?). He seems to have a book in his hands & as he lies around I also see a vagina prominently on him, not a penis! I’m wondering about that, as you can imagine.

 

          (MY INNER VOICE TELLS ME THESE ARE SOULS IN PURGATORY, READY TO ASCEND, ONE MALE, ONE FEMALE, BOTH ARE PARTIALLY NAKED WITH VAGINAS. THE NAKEDNESS COULD BE ‘NAKED’ OR ‘OPEN’ ‘BEFORE THE LORD. THE VAGINAS REPRESENT PASSIVENESS, WHICH WE ALL ARE TO THE POWER OF GOD – GOD LIFTS US UP TO PERFECTION, WE CANNOT DO IT OF THE FLESH. WHEN WE’RE CLEANSED OF ALL NEGATIVES, WE RISE UP. OUR JOB IS GETTING CLEANSED OF SINS, THEN FAULTS, THEN ATTACHMENTS. WHEN WE ARE DONE THE POWER OF GOD PULLS US INTO GLORY.

 

          THE YOUNG MALE BEING ‘HANDSOME’ SYMBOLIZES THE BEAUTY THAT HAPPENS AFTER WE’RE CLEANSED & ASSIMILATED TO GOD, OR OUR GOD NATURE IS REVEALED.

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          I AM NOT CERTAIN WHO THESE SOULS ARE–I MADE A GOOD GUESS. SOMETIMES ONE WILL NOT FIGURE WHAT SYMBOLS MEAN BUT DAYS, WEEKS LATER.)

 

          Then a knock on the door, I answer. In walk two males, two females, all young & attractive. The females are wearing light green bikinis, they say,

 

          “WE WANT TO TAKE PICTURES.”

 

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The two females seem similar, like they both have sort of ‘textured’ not combed smooth, slightly ‘stringy’ but not ugly hair to their shoulders, the color kind of charcoal grey. They remind me of the images of Brigitte Bardot in bikinis when she was real young. The men also look similar. They just stride in, all four like in a row, faces forward, no smiles, not looking at me, just matter of fact. By their clothing I am wondering is it summer or winter? I thought it was winter.

 

          Then I look down at my outfit. Am I wearing a white, clinging see-through top & brown knitted clinging pants? My outfit somehow seems so CONSERVATIVE compared to the two females in the bikinis & this WORRIES me because will anyone be attracted to me this way?

 

          (THIS SAYS ‘AM I GOOD ENOUGH-BEAUTIFUL OR APPEALING’ COMPARED WITH THESE GREAT-LOOKING SOULS THAT JUST CAME IN, THEY HAVE ALSO BEEN CLEANSED IT SEEMS, THEIR BEAUTY SAYS SO. {The comparison to Brigitte Bardot says so, she was one of the most beautiful women on earth.}

 

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THE CHARCOAL HAIR IS ‘BURNT UP’ THOUGHTS – THEY HAVE GIVEN UP EARTHLY THOUGHTS, THEY HAVE ENTERED THE GOD SELF! THESE MUST BE PEOPLE ON EARTH. I ONLY STARTED YESTERDAY PRAYING FOR PEOPLE TO ENTER NONDUALITY! I CAN’T BELIEVE MY PRAYERS WORKED SO FAST, THEY ONLY TOOK A COUPLE MINUTES! BUT Xxx SAYS WHEN HE WAS IN THE PRESENCE OF THE GURUS HE MET – – HE HAD BEEN WORKING FOR YEARS ON MEDITATION & THOUGHT HE WAS WAY AHEAD. BUT ONE LOOK FROM THE GURU LEAPED HIM FORWARD INSTANTLY.

 

          THIS IS SAYING MY LITTLE PRAYER BROUGHT THESE SOULS ‘INTO MY STATE’ OR ROOM – THE STATE OF NONDUALITY, I AM THEIR GURU WHO JUST LOOKED AT THEM.

 

*{ENTERING NONDUALITY & ASCENDING INTO HEAVEN FROM PURGATORY ARE COMPARABLE STATES. YOU BECOME ONE WITH GOD ON EARTH OR ON THE OTHER SIDE, WHILE IN THE BODY OR HAVING LEFT THE BODY.}*

 

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NOTICE THEY ARE NOT LOOKING AT ME, BUT I’M LOOKING AT THEM! THEY DON’T KNOW WHO I AM, BUT I’M PRAYING FOR THEM!

 

          THE FACT THAT THEY ‘WANT TO TAKE PICTURES’ INDICATES THEY FEEL LIKE MODELS – THEY FEEL GOOD ABOUT THEMSELVES, THAT THEY ARE GOOD ENOUGH. THIS IS SPIRITUAL BEAUTY.

 

AGAIN, THESE FIGURES ARE MYSTERIOUS. I’M MAKING EDUCATED GUESSES; I’M NOT TOTALLY SURE WHO THEY ARE.)

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          There is this underlying thought when I see these handsome males I think of snagging them for sex. Can I? I ask hesitantly.

 

          (I THINK THE SEX I TALK ABOUT IN THIS DREAM IS NOT PHYSICAL SEX, IT’S SPIRITUAL UNION. MANY YEARS AGO I HAD HUNDREDS OF DREAMS OF BEING A PROSTITUTE. I WOULD PICK UP MEN, TAKE THEM TO A ROOM SOMEWHERE & MAKE LOVE. THESE WERE ECSTATIC UNIONS, THEY WERE OF GOD. THEY WERE SOULS IN PURGATORY I UNITED WITH MYSELF & THEY ASCENDED INTO HEAVEN.

 

          NOTICE IN THIS DREAM, THE PLAIN ROOM IS MY GOD STATE, MY LITTLE DAUGHTER ENTERS IT. THEN TWO OTHER PEOPLE APPEAR, THEY HAVE ENTERED MY STATE. THEN FOUR PEOPLE APPEAR, THEY HAVE ENTERED MY STATE {ROOM}. THIS IS THE JNANI-GURU, WHO WITH ONE LOOK INCREASES THE SPIRITUALITY OF THE CLIENT.

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          AND RAMANA MAHARSHI DESCRIBED THAT A JNANI DOES NOT HAVE TO PRAY. YOU GO TO HIM WITH A PROBLEM & IT IS SOLVED. HE DOESN’T DO ANYTHING IN PARTICULAR – DOESN’T HAVE TO. {NOT SAYING YOU CAN’T, JUST SAYING IT HAPPENS INSTANTLY IN MANY CASES.}

 

THIS HAS HAPPENED TO ME NUMEROUS TIMES & I EXPLAINED IT AS ‘THE ANOINTING GOES TO THE PERSON INSTANTLY EVEN IF I DO NOTHING – NO PRAYER, NOTHING – & SUDDENLY, THEY TELL ME THEIR PROBLEM WAS SOLVED, BE IT THEY HAD CANCER, A TROUBLESOME MAN ANNOYING THEM, A GRANDCHILD WITH A STATE NEEDING SURGERY—ETC.

 

HERE IS THE TRICKY PART: HOW DO I KNOW WHICH SOULS ARE LIVING & WHICH ONES ARE IN PURGATORY? THE FIRST SET, A MALE & FEMALE, BOTH WITH VAGINAS, SOUNDS LIKE SO MANY SOULS I’VE SEEN GO TO HEAVEN AS FEMALE. THE FACT THAT THEY ARE ‘LYING DOWN’ ON THE FLOOR MIGHT HINT THAT THEY ARE ‘DOWN’—‘LYING IN THEIR COFFIN’ OR THEIR BODIES ARE ‘AT REST’ {REST IN PEACE.} BUT IT’S NOT A CERTAINTY.

 

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THEY MIGHT ALL BE SOULS IN PURGATORY, BUT YESTERDAY WAS THE FIRST TIME, DURING MY MASS, THAT I ASKED FOR LIVING SOULS TO ENTER INTO NONDUALITY. I HAD NEVER MADE THAT PRAYER BEFORE. AND THE SECOND SET FEELS THAT WAY, LIKE MY DISCERNMENT SAYS ‘THIS SOUNDS LIKE LIVING PEOPLE.’ BUT I AM NOT 100% SURE, MAYBE 75% SURE.

 

THESE FOUR SOULS ARE WALKING IN, SO COMPARED TO THE ONES ‘LYING DOWN’ IT MIGHT SAY ‘THEY ARE ‘WALKING THE EARTH’.)

 

===== PART TWO OF THE DREAM: GOING OUT OF THE ROOM – APPEARING AT A USED BOOK STORE

 

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          Then my daughter & I want to go out & have fun. I was thinking of going ‘downtown’ to bars, vaguely. But on the way there’s a USED BOOK STORE – I strongly want to get a book there, but the thought daunts me WHAT IF IT’S CLOSED? That would GREATLY disappoint me.

 

          The store is on a corner, I climb up a set of stairs. The building I vaguely think is brick. The store looks closed, but I try the door knob anyway, the joy be mine, it opens. I feel it was open JUST FOR ME possibly BY MAGIC.

 

          (THIS STORE OPENING BY MAGIC IS THE COMPUTER. THE STORE NEVER CLOSES, I CAN MAGICALLY OPEN MY STOREFRONT @ LULU, AMAZON OR OTHER PLACES, I CAN ACCESS MY WEBSITES, BLOGS & ETC. ALWAYS OPEN!)

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          When I go in with my daughter, it’s kind of dim. Yes, it’s closed, but I was allowed by Divine Providence, to go in. It’s a modest place, very plain, nothing fancy. Ordinary carpets, remind me of the first apt I lived in in Santa Monica – the beginning of my adult life.

 

(THIS IS MY BOOKS & WRITINGS. WHAT WAS I WORRIED ABOUT IT BEING CLOSED? THIS COULD BE THAT FEAR I HAVE THAT WHEN I DIE, NO ONE WILL CONTINUE SELLING MY BOOKS. IT’S NOT THE MONEY; IT’S THE MISSION I CARE ABOUT.)

 

          There are low shelves here & there – they don’t even have a lot of books, only about two or three hundred I’d say. I was looking for a certain book, when I got it I would leave a note saying I had it – was not trying to steal it. Now I get the feeling of a LIBRARY—borrowing their book, letting them know I did with a note.

 

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          (I AM LOOKING FOR A BOOK PROBABLY MEANS I AM RESEARCHING A CERTAIN SUBJECT, WANT KNOWLEDGE ON IT.)

 

          While I’m there something amazing happens. People see me in the store I guess through the windows. The first bunch is not too swift. Some of them are mixed-race women that give me the feeling of being too much in the flesh, not socialized also, one woman wears a cone on her face – light green cardboard that is folded around her chin, about a foot long, her skin is mulatto with freckles, & somehow she & her group I fear might be making a mess in the room.

 

          I’m concerned about the owners – I opened the door & so people came – my influence – if it’s bringing in people that will make a mess that would be on my conscience.

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          (I’M CONCERNED ABOUT ANYTHING LOW-MINDED MAKING A MESS. THIS WOULD MESS UP THEIR MINDS OR CONSCIOUSNESS. WE WANT TO KEEP A HIGH LEVEL HERE. I WANT TO HELP, NOT HURT PEOPLE. WE DON’T WANT THEM TO STAY IN THEIR LOWER NATURE BUT TO LIFT THEM UP.)

 

          Other people come in as well, & then, because the place has become lively, the two female owners come in.

 

          One of them looks like Patti, who has been reading my book on the Beatific Vision. Her hair is honey blonde, glasses, middle aged, conservative. Both the owners are that age, conservative women,

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(THE TWO WOMEN OWNERS ARE MYSELF UNDER TWO NAMES, ONE, RASA VON WERDER, THE OTHER, KELLIE EVERTS. HERE I’M SPEAKING TO RASA, SEEN AS PATTI, WHO IS READING THE BOOK UNDER THE NAME RASA. I DON’T SEE THE OTHER OWNER, KELLIE, BECAUSE WE ARE TALKING ABOUT SPIRITUAL BOOKS, THE KELLIE BOOKS ARE LESS ON SPIRITUALITY.)

 

& later, when I ask a question about bringing in my books – boxes & boxes of them from my collection, that I’m not reading (they can sell them, I did not ask for any of the money) – the one I’ll call Patti says she doesn’t know if the ‘BIG LADY’ will approve. (This is a lady who actually owns the store, somehow is the Chief, they are renting from her, but she’s the Boss. I know these two women are poor. I’m trying to help.)

 

          (THE BIG LADY FOR SURE IS MOTHER GOD WHO IS MY BOSS OVER EVERYTHING.

 

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THESE BOOKS ARE ‘USED’ MEANS THEY ARE USEFUL – THEY ARE NOT JUST SITTING ON SHELVES DOING NOTHING, THEY ARE HELPING PEOPLE.

 

I’M NOW REFERRING TO ‘BOXES & BOXES’ OF BOOKS THAT I AM ‘NOT USING-DON’T NEED’ – THEY ARE NOT VALUABLE TO ME, SO I AM GOING TO BRING THEM HERE, GET RID OF THEM, MAKE MORE SPACE IN MY HOUSE, & THEY CAN MAKE SOME MONEY.

 

BUT PATTI’S ATTITUDE IS THAT MOTHER GOD DOES NOT WANT MY PRISTINE COLLECTION OF WORK TO BE CONTAMINATED BY SECULAR NON-SPIRITUAL MATERIAL.

 

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THE ISSUE OF SELLING THEM FOR MONEY WOULD NOT EXCUSE THE PRESENCE OF SUCH BOOKS HERE. PATTI OR THE HIGHEST LEVEL, TURNS HER BACK ON ME WHEN I SUGGEST THIS. SHE SAYS NO. MOTHER GOD WOULDN’T LIKE IT. IT HAS TO BE LIKE THAT IMAGE OF THE ANGEL – PURE GOLD, PURE LOVE, NOTHING LESS THAN THAT.

 

I argue with her, like why not? But she goes onto the porch just outside – it has no railing – & stands there with her back to me, like the subject is finished – I’m still talking but don’t think she’s listening.

 

(THE BALCONY WITH NO RAILING IS A ‘PLATFORM.’ REMEMBER, SHE IS SAYING, WE HAVE A PLATFORM, A POSITION, A POINT OF VIEW, WHICH MUST BE HONORED.)

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This reminds me (her standing there) of the image I put recently where way top (at least 10 floors up) on some kind of building is a beautiful angel sitting on the ledge looking out over a city. The angel & everything around it is panted gold, gold everywhere, it’s a beautiful glowing look, & the view down to the city is amazing—it’s night & the whole city is lit up with golden lights.

 

She then asks me what kind of book am I looking for? I tell her HINDU ADVAITA.

 

She bends down by a small shelf – most of their shelves go no higher than the waist – I look all around the room, this one is like a bureau which is no more than two, three feet off the floor. She looks through this but cannot find a book on the subject. The fact that I knew my subject specifically, what it was, what I wanted, was good, but I don’t see her finding such a book.

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(THIS MIGHT BE SAYING I HAVE YET TO WRITE A BOOK ON HINDU ADVAITA, EXPLAINING IT. THEIR VERSION IS SO CONFUSING, HARDLY ANY WESTERNER CAN UNDERSTAND IT. I’VE COMPLAINED ABOUT THE TRANSLATIONS. I WAS THINKING OF WORKING OUT THE HINDU ADVAITA INTO LANGUAGE WE OF THE WEST CAN RELATE TO. I BELIEVE MOST OF THE PEOPLE WHO TRANSLATED THESE WORDS DID NOT GET THEM RIGHT BECAUSE THEY DID NOT UNDERSTAND CHRISTIAN MYSTICISM, ITS TERMS, BUT I DO, & SO, I MIGHT HELP WITH THAT. IN OTHER WORDS, YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND CHRISTIAN MYSTICISM TO SHOW WHERE THE PARALLELS ARE WITH THAT & THE EASTERN TERMS.)

 

Then I’m looking for a bathroom, walking around the floor of this building. I thought I saw one with a naked guy standing in it, a student of the local University I felt, & I quickly left. But then I go back, it’s a couple rooms back, because I really wanted to see him. Then I take a better look at him instead of being shy & walking away.

 

He’s stark naked, nice thin body like most of the boy students have. He walks toward me smiling & as he does so, I look where his penis would be & all I see is a fuzzy grey spot like a small, translucent wad of wool or a little medium grey cloud, about 3” in diameter. Don’t see any penis. This surprised me.

 

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(WHO IS THIS LAST, MYSTERIOUS NAKED SOUL WITH ONLY A SMALL CLOUD WHERE THE PENIS WOULD BE? I SUSPECT IT’S A YOUNG MALE, MAYBE A MONK OR CANDIDATE FOR PRIEST, JUST STARTING OUT, WHO’S TAKEN A PROMISE OF CELIBACY.

 

          THIS BATHROOM IS AN EXTENSION OF THE ‘STORE’ WHICH REPRESENTS MY WORK. THIS COULD BE SAYING THAT SUCH A YOUNG MAN, INSPIRED BY MY CELIBACY, WANTS TO DO THE SAME. HIS NAKEDNESS IS HIS HONESTY, VULNERABILITY BEFORE GOD, A GOOD SOUL.

 

          THERE’S BEEN GREAT TIDINGS IN THIS DREAM. AND I THOUGHT IT WAS ORDINARY & WASN’T EVEN GOING TO TYPE IT OUT! WOW!

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