her name: BETTY JANE ALLSUP AKA HONEYSUCKLE DIVINE

Parts from the “Rialto” artice – Michael Gross

11.  Kellie Everts – the Stripper for God (1976-1979)

Betty’s religious calling continued to play an important part in her life: “I often daydreamed of being in a group of nuns working secretly together as strippers – who mysteriously disappear after work going back to the convent.”

In early 1976, Betty met her ideal counterpart, Kellie Everts.

*** {Rasa says:  It was July 1975, I was on AM Washington speaking about the Esquire article – the first national article on female body building.} ***

Everts was a bodybuilder and stripper, who had been Miss Nude Universe 1969 and Miss Body Beautiful 1974.

*** {Rasa says:  Miss Body Beautiful 1^st place 1974, twice Second Place & twice BEST BODY {on stage with Arnold1972 B’klyn Academy of Music}.  Miss Americana 2^nd place & BEST BODY on the same stage with Arnold Schwarzenegger, the Felt Forum.} ***

 She also had a deep evangelical religious conviction and was the self-styled ‘Stripper for God’, an ecdysiast who was also a minister. Everts was the Vice President of ‘One World Light Church’, a small offbeat Christian sect that sought to unite all faiths.

Pease see below permit is given to Betty Jane Allsup…She added my name but she did ALL the work…I was the mouthpiece…See page 2 – the two men who signed it are FISH & LAMB – two HUGE Christian symbols

Betty was smitten with the idea of joining Everts: “I became a student and a disciple of Kellie Everts after seeing her on a T.V. show. I was impressed by her spiritual qualities. I believe Kellie Everts is a Living Saint, and her closeness to God can’t help but cause me to love and admire her.”

When Everts ordained Betty as a minister in February 1976, reactions were skeptical to say the least:

From Cheri magazine (April 1977):

God must be having a nervous breakdown. I dig that his job must be incredibly demanding but Honeysuckle Divine a REVEREND?! I guess the big G does work in mysterious ways but it sure is a sign of the changing times that his newest messenger’s specialty is shooting pickles out of her snatch.

Betty and Everts (right) become close and talked about how stripping could spread the word of the Lord, and how they could set up a boarding home for children from poor homes in Fort Lauderdale, but their relationship was strained by Betty’s frequent busts.

On March 8, 1977, she was arrested for performing at Aquarius Adult Center in Gloucester, NJ – whilst in the middle of playing ‘Mary Had A Little Lamb’ on the horn (“That’s what you get for fucking sheep, I guess!”) This time it was the Camden County sector of the New Jersey Health Department that was called in to inspect all equipment used. As a result her mop, grocery cart, ping pong balls, horn, and stage supplies were confiscated as evidence. Betty was released on a $5,000 bail until a health report could be issued. In the end no report was issued, and the case fizzled out – exhausting Betty’s meager savings still further.

Then Betty was arrested in New York. She had returned to there in April 1977 for an engagement at the Melody Burlesque and stayed with Kellie Everts at her apartment in Brooklyn. Betty’s show was big news, and Cheri’s Peter Wolff came to cover it for the magazine. Other New York-based friends, such as fellow strippers Monica Kennedy, Jacquie Brodie, and Sonja Tokyo, and porn actors Tina Russell and Marc Stevens, joined the crowds eager to see her show again.

But on a Tuesday night, Betty was busted with another act, Wendy Williams (who, as Wendy O’Williams, would later achieve greater fame as lead singer for the American punk band, the Plasmatics). Rod Swenson, Wendy’s partner and a Times Square live show impresario, got them a lot of press, including coverage on the ABC Six O’Clock News.

*** {Rasa says:  On the news, instead of talking about herself, she talked about me!} ***

Another bust came a few weeks later at the Studio Theater at 1632 Market St, Philadelphia where she was given a police citation. 

Betty was keen to prove her value to Everts and to the ‘One World Light Church’, and so on June 16, 1978, she arranged for Everts to preach a message to Our Lady of Fatima in front of the White House with the aim of bringing about the conversion of Russia. Betty Jane got the permit and sent out the press releases to all in Washington. 

*** {Rasa says:  I was impressed by her zeal for God’s work, & the way she handled the promotion.  She wrote things out by hand – not typewriter – xeroxed them – & sent them to all the media including the Russian Embassy, which answered her that they would consider witnessing the sermon!} ***

As a publicity event, it was successful (it was covered the following day on the front page of the Washington Post) 

*** {Rasa says:  There was front page publicity COAST TO COAST in the United States – all the way to the Los Angeles times – where I got a call from an agent about doing a movie on my life.  We were ON THE WASHINGTON NEWS before & after the speech, the Washington Post did a huge article the DAY BEFORE the speech & that’s why we had a BIG AUDIENCE of Washington men in suits & the Washington News there again.  We were called, at the theater by SIXTEEN RADIO STATIONS the day after the speech – from all over the US!} ***  

Betty Jane Allsup

 I knew her fairly well, she stayed with me like 3 months because God told her to “stay close to Kellie” so she called me & asked me to move in.  I said OK & the exorcisms I did on her had not to do with porn or performing.  While she traveled by bus on her way to see me {she called me at each stop from pay phones}, she kept getting psychosomatic paralysis.  I defined this as being ‘from the devil’ trying to stop her from reaching me, & did exorcisms on the phone.  Each time I prayed the paralysis disappeared.

The article says I denied knowing her – that they had contacted me – not true – No one contacted me about her – I have made inquiries even recently but could not get any info. 

Understand that those in the adult trade are working out of necessity to SURVIVE.  They are not IMMORAL – it is not SIN or an affront to the Almighty.  Second, her PERFORMANCE is an ACT, NOT REAL LIFE.  Do not confuse the person with their act or performance as ‘All the world’s a stage, & we are merely players.’ 

     As far as being a person like she said, in spite of her actions, including adult sex therapy, she ‘felt like an angel’ & why?  Because she has a good heart, ‘the pure in heart shall see God’ Jesus said.  She was NOT SINNING as adult trade workers do not sin because of their actions, unless they are hateful, cruel or do something to hurt others.  WHO DID SHE HURT? 

I did NOT like her act because it was demeaning / self deprecating.  But she did it to SURVIVE.  As just a plain dancer, like this says, she was unable to support herself.  She was clever & thought of gimmicks that worked – her finances increased after that.  As this says, she became a star & had big audiences.  I also thought her act was bad for her psyche & life in general, as it was incredibly stressful to get arrested constantly, where in each state she got arrested, in order to clean her record, she would have to return to that state & face charges.  There would be only a deficit not a benefit to her, each time she did this.  The time & expense was so great she missed facing some of these accusations.  So the charges remained on record.

Perhaps because of her good heart, religious background & spiritual intentions, she was CHOSEN BY GOD to set up the occasion of my preaching in front of the White House.  This was the highlight of my life & hers, although this event HAS NOT BEEN RECOGNIZED OR APPRECIATED AS HAVING AN EFFECT ON THE WORLD STAGE.  It is DISMISSED because the women involved were in the adult trade – society is not yet able to see past that.

 Because of Our Lady of Fatima, the Power of her Immaculate Heart, the Polish Pope got elected, then Reagan & Gorbachev.  People did pray the rosary for the conversion of Russia {Betty Jane went to Church daily & said they were praying it as a group in the Church of the Immaculate Conception}, the Pope did consecrate Russia to her Immaculate Heart {after he got shot & the moment he recovered asked to see the papers on Fatima}, then Perestroika & Glasnost occurred.  The Cold war ended, Communism fell because of this event.  And mark this:  the threat of World War III which loomed at that time was AVERTED & nations were not annihilated.  Holy Mary’s Immaculate Heart Triumphed.  See my account:

 http://www.kellieevertsistripforgod.com/fatima.php

 I assert that she should be remembered as she wished – as a spiritual person rather than being limited to the roles she played for a livelihood.  And I might add, many of those in the adult trade love God & have good hearts. Jesus said to the Pharisees ‘The Prostitutes shall go into Heaven before you.’

           Her religious life when young, from the Rialto article:    “as a teen it started to dominate her every thought. Betty didn’t drink, smoke, curse or gamble. She would help the elderly and those even poorer than her. She regularly prayed for the sick and the needy. She was a model Christian girl.” 

2.     The Convent, and the waitress (1959 – 1963)

In summer 1959, Betty had had enough of Rock Island. She was 21, and wanted a fresh, more Godly, start to her adult life.

She left for Philadelphia where she became a postulant at the Grey Nuns of the Sacred Heart convent. (A postulant is the first step in the training to be a nun. After a period of time, a postulant becomes a novice and, after several years, a novice becomes a nun).

The new life started well, but after only three months, Betty had had enough. “I loved the nuns and the convent life, but I couldn’t understand the spiritual lessons they tried to teach me. I felt an inner compulsion to run away.”

One night the devil appeared to her and told her he would kill her if she stayed in the convent. Betty Jane, terrified, climbed out of the window and ran for her life.         

   “At the same time, religion was never far away. As she said to a bewildered Penthouse magazine interviewer in 1975: “I would like to be remembered as a person who believed in St Augustine, and as somebody who was a very spiritual person. I believe in the City of God as opposed to the City of Man. The City of Man is mostly a physical thing but the only time you sin is when you transgress against spiritual things. The free will is a spiritual thing. Censorship is against free will. It is against God.”

From ‘My Bust’, by Honeysuckle Divine, Cheri magazine (October 1978):

“On November 13, 1959, I ran away from a convent in Philadelphia. Once I was gone I realized I’d better call and tell them I was okay. But if the Mother Superior spoke to me, I knew that I’d break down and go back. So instead I called the Missing Persons Bureau and said that if the convent reported me, please tell them I was fine. A police matron came to me and helped get me civilian clothes, and they took me to dinner. Then they drove me to the airport and saw that I got safely back to Rock Island.”

 *** {Rasa says: The article calls me the ‘self styled’ Stripper for God.  I was ordained – {a woman of God, whether or not I had a legal minister license which I did, from the Calvary Grace Christian Church} & gave about 1k sermons during a period of 14 years – 1973 to 1987 when I preached…} ***

Today I have written & published 21 books available on the internet – several on strictly spiritual subjects – Amazon, Barnes & Noble & Lulu Press, most under the name Rasa Von Werder, a couple as Kellie Everts.  I am on Wikipedia, but it is far from a complete synopsis.  Check my life stories Parts 1 to 5 & more coming shortly.  The name of my bios is “I Strip for God” – 5 volumes so far, will be perhaps 3 more. 

          Our Time in Washington before the Speech

 Below:  Hell was shown to the children of Fatima – after that a vision Lucia had while in her convent

We were both dancing that week at the Plaza Theater – she’d got me the gig.  She was not Honeysuckle Divine, the one & only – that was too elaborate, she was ‘Angie Baby.’  She was very pretty, had a nice body, her body language said ‘humble’ instead of ‘confident,’ which did not mark her as ‘star.’{The audience, if you aren’t confident, will devour you.  They might ignore you like you don’t mean anything, laugh at you or even boo you – they might shout insults, they might walk out on your act unless you command s Presence – it isn’t just looks or talent – it’s the energy you transmit.}

So ‘as a woman’ she had no ‘pride’ or ‘self esteem’.  But when she did her ‘Honeysuckle’ act she was perfect as it was SELF DEMEANING /DEPRECATING.  This SUITED HER PERSONALITY, her total humility & self abnegation.  She came out on the stage as a CLEANING WOMAN, with a mop that she used as a joke, & did all sorts of incredibly humiliating, salaciously ingenious things with her vagina.  Her ability to make money came out of this act – it was hit.  She went from $300 a week as a dancer to $1,500 a week doing this.  No woman had ever done the kind of things she did.  They were humiliating, embarrassing & hilarious.  The audience screamed with laughter. 

However, this is important: You cannot judge, measure or define a person by what they do on stage or in the ‘theater of life,’ – as long as it’s not ‘for real.’  What she did was for money / survival.  Boris Karloff was not a monster, though he played Frankenstein & other villains, neither is Anthony Hopkins or Bela Lugosi.  To rivet the mind & focus on the sexually comedic act Betty Jane did on stage is to focus on a part she played – it was in her life but NOT HER LIFE, it was theater.  It was personality, not her soul.  She was not, in her heart, the character she played.  Inside she was a kind, gentle, humble soul who loved God & cared about others.  To focus only on her theatrical act, to speak of it only, is to continue her entertainment, but it is not explaining her true self.  As her act was a form of self-exploitation, for people to focus on that & that alone, is to exploit her again, & to make matters worse, it makes her seem eccentric in a bad way, like she’s crazy.  Her act was ‘crazy’ but she’s smart as a fox……………….. 

I was not gung ho about the preaching part of the week in Washington, but it grew on me as the days went by.  I struggled financially as a stripper because although I was a star, the work was sporadic – {during all my life stripping I lived modestly, week to week, with no money for back up.  I became relatively wealthy when I started my own business making domination & dance videos – within two years saving 200k with which I bought a house in the country, upstate NY}.  Even if you make 1 or 2k a week, if you only work say 10 weeks a year, you aren’t well off.  And so, when Betty Jane procured this gig for me – at less than my usual salary –it was $750 a week where I usually made 1k I was grateful.  I would cooperate by doing the speech because she insisted from the beginning ‘You’re going to preach in front of the White House.’  I looked upon it as my DUTY. 

How Betty Jane came up with the idea of Our Lady of Fatima I haven’t a clue.  I believe God put it into her head.  Obviously it was a Catholic thing – she had heard of it as I had.  I explain elsewhere my background, coming from a country occupied by Communist Russia, being oppressed, my Dad the Professor was a community leader & in all his speeches he stressed removing Communism from our nation.  Yes I heard of Our Lady of Fatima, probably even saw the movie, ‘Miracle at Fatima’ but I did not know word for word what She wanted & had to brush up.  For this I got a booklet somewhere & studied it nightly. 

Betty Jane had six cats & I was impressed by how much she loved them, even cooking fish for them every night!  Daily she’d take some of them in a carry case down the elevator & let them loose outside for an hour, then bring them back, take the other guys down.  Not sure how she got them to walk about & then gather them again to bring them back up.  Not that they were cooped up – the lovely balcony of her apt had plenty of light & they lounged in the sun.

She told me how she wore the same dress several days in a row {she wore silky dresses & looked fetching in them – men paid attention} until one of her cats went into the closet & dragged out a different dress & put it by her feet.

And she spoke of Peter Jennings incessantly – that she had had an affair with him & he was stalking her wherever she went.  I thought it was all imagination /wishful thinking, but I didn’t say anything.  When she came to stay with me maybe a year later she admitted the Peter Jennings thing was a fantasy.

Each evening we drank tea, she ate vegetarian, I could eat but little as one must stay thin – & the highlight every evening was the Holy Rosary, which we prayed with love. 

Then I had a VISION of Our Lady.  Later on I published a book, ‘Mother of the Immaculate Heart’ & have the account on the back of it. 

VISION & DIRECTIVE FROM THE IMMACULATE HEART

June 11, 1978  Washington, D.C.

 *** As I was just about to fall asleep but still awake I saw the Heart of the Blessed Virgin Mary.  It was enveloped in a brilliant white light, & the Heart was in the light, the white light like a cloud of moving light. 

Our Blessed Mother was to the left presenting me the Heart.  She said: 

“I WANT YOU TO SHOW THE WHOLE WORLD MY IMMACULATE HEART.” 

Suddenly the cloud of white light moved more quickly.  I saw a large brown cross in the sky.

The white light went to earth & formed a pool of water on the ground.  This water also looked like milk.  The brown cross went into the water, was dipped in the water, & came back up. ***

Below:  Betty Jane on TV without her blonde wig – her hair went to her waist.  After that Lucia, Francisco & Jacinta, the children of Fatima in Portugal, 1917.  Mother God CHOSE them the way she chose myself & Betty Jane Allsup, to magnify her wishes, to bring about World Peace & repentance for sin. 

To see the entire account of what went on, the speech & its results, please see my website, which is Kellie Everts I Strip for God – Our Lady of Fatima.  

http://www.kellieevertsistripforgod.com/fatima.php

BACK TO BETTY JANE ALLSUP FROM THE RIALTO ARTICLE:

 Honeysuckle Divine: Las Vegas, 1985

Honeysuckle Divine’s name was in lights again, except this time it had been written by someone who couldn’t spell.

‘HONEYSUCK DIVIN’ read the billboard outside the strip club.

Inside the small, hot building, Honeysuckle sat in the cramped backstage quarters looking tired. A local house stripper, Misty Rae, who’d worked with Honeysuckle on a few occasions, remembers that night. It was the last time she saw Honeysuckle Divine.

“She was looking pretty beat after the show, so I said “Tired, honey?”

She barely raised her head, so I asked her if she was ok. After the longest time she said something about finishing. Retiring for good. She must have been about 50 years old, and looked every one of her years.

We got chatting, and Honeysuckle talked about her many years on the road. She said she knew her act was bawdy, rude. Lewd even.

Honeysuckle said: “I’ve always done it because I like to entertain people. Make them happy.

“I used to think I was in on the joke, but now I wonder if that was ever the case. I just seem to be the joke.

“And sometimes I just wonder how I got here”.

 Rasa says:  We all wonder that at times.  Remember Jesus on the Cross, dying, said,

“My God, My God, why hast thou forsaken me?”

 That is called the ‘dark night of the soul’, when our life is clothed in doubt.  What did I live for?  Why did I do what I did?  Only God knows.  God really does know, we know in part.  We did what we had to do to survive & we did what we had to do to help others, whatever way we could.

PS  People do not give credit to Betty Jane & myself for the event in front of the White House – as if it meant nothing, like it was some sort of publicity stunt – as if the results that came out of it had nothing to do with the speech. , the assumption being, God would not choose a stripper & a porno lady to do ‘His’ work. However, God has often chosen the most lowly of people – the poorest of the poor, those who are unlettered, unrecognized, un-heralded, unknown, with no credentials, education or prestige. 

June 16, 1978, Kellie Everts preaches the Message of Fatima with the Washington Press Corps and others listening: “Pray the Rosary for the Conversion of Russia.”

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Why doesn’t the world recognize that Our Lady Of Fatima did what she said she would do? She got the three men elected who were key players in ending the Cold War. The Holy Father was first, but he was Pope for three years, and had not yet fulfilled the dictate of Fatima. Then he was shot. When he woke up from unconsciousness, the first thing he asked for was the papers on Our Lady Of Fatima. He had to almost die to wake up and realize the consecration was long overdue. Even the Catholic Church does not talk about what has happened; they seem to be just as ignorant as the rest of the world. One third of the world gives credit to Reagan, the other third to Pope John Paul II, the last third credits Gorbachev. But it was one hundred percent the power of Our Lady Of Fatima who did what she said she would do. She said that if the Pope, together with all the bishops, consecrated Russia to Her Immaculate Heart that Russia would be converted. In 1984 the Pope finally did what he was supposed to do. In 1985 Gorbachev came into power, and from June 13th 1990 to 1991 all the walls and curtains came down. This ended the possibility of a Third World War, and nuclear devastation of our Planet. The end of Communism was accomplished without bloodshed. It was done by God through Our Lady of Fatima. Kellie Everts was her messenger.

Below – Kellie Everts performs at the Plaza Theater the week of the message – Other images during the speech & right after – Images FAIR USE by Kellie Everts aka Rasa Von Werder

The permit was applied for by Betty Jane Allsup before Kellie arrived….This event, even on the day it happened, revealed itself to Kellie and Betty Jane as a supernatural occurrence of monumental proportions. Kellie has always known that her career as “Stripper for God” found its highest point on this day.

Our born-again President, Jimmy Carter, was in office at the time of the Fatima speech. He was holding the SALT (Strategic Arms Limitation Treaty) talks at this time.

The Washington Post and other news media announced Kellie Everts’ forthcoming speech on Our Lady Of Fatima – every Washington D.C. media covered the speech, the headlines went coast to coast the next day

The Washington Star featured a brief interview after her speech on Our Lady of Fatima in front of the White House. The Star was one of the few entities in Washington DC to interview Kellie only after her speech. Between February 1968 to February 1969, Playboy featured Kellie in various sized articles nine times, highlighting the main events of her life at that time. Kellie wrote to the editor about her speech in Washington, there was an announcement in Playboy.

Pope John Paul II (Elected October 1978), President Ronald Reagan (Elected November 1980) and Mikhail Gorbachev (Elected May 1985) were the instruments of God. The devil must have known something was up because he immediately set out on his trail of destruction, trying to get two of the key players killed, and the third was kidnapped with his life in danger. President Reagan was shot March 30, 1981, and Pope John-Paul II was shot May 13, 1981, in St. Peter’s Square. Without a doubt, the devil was trying to take out all three men…. but God prevailed.

The Other Perspective – How the World Sees the End of Communism

did Kellie Everts speech in front of the White House, the message of Our Lady of Fatima June 16, 1978, have anything to do with the end of Communism in Russia?

While Kellie Everts’ speech at the White House on June 16, 1978, is likely related to the message of Our Lady of Fatima, directly linking it to the end of Communism in Russia requires further exploration of the specific message she delivered and the historical context of both events.

The message of Our Lady of Fatima, revealed in 1917, includes a warning that if Russia was not consecrated to God, it would spread its “errors” throughout the world. Many interpret these errors as referring to Communism, according to Catholic Stand. The apparitions occurred just six months before the October Revolution, which saw the Bolsheviks seize power and lay the foundations for the Soviet Union. 

While the Fatima message and the subsequent spread of Communism are intertwined, Kellie Everts’ speech on that specific date would need to be investigated to understand its role, if any, in the fall of Communism in Russia, which occurred in 1991. 

The fall of Communism in Russia is attributed to a complex interplay of factors including:

• Political Reforms: Mikhail Gorbachev’s policies of Glasnost (openness) and Perestroika (restructuring) aimed to reform the Soviet system but ultimately weakened the government’s control and emboldened independence movements in the constituent republics.
• Economic Stagnation: The Soviet economy suffered from inefficiencies, shortages, and a reliance on oil revenues, which plummeted in the mid-1980s, notes Britannica.
• Military Spending: The ongoing Cold War and the invasion of Afghanistan placed a heavy strain on the Soviet budget, diverting resources and fueling discontent.
• Nationalist Movements: The diverse ethnic groups within the Soviet Union increasingly sought independence, leading to declarations of sovereignty from several republics. 

Therefore, to ascertain the connection between Kellie Everts’ speech and the end of Communism, it’s necessary to investigate the specific content of her address and the context of the Fatima message.

12-18-25 I Am Brought to a Woman to Heal Her of Cancer – (2) the Wonderful House a Lady Friend Rented that Becomes the Center of Huge Gatherings – Parties –  (3) earlier My Mom Regina Tries to Use my Portal!

          A woman is taking me somewhere. I appear at the huge door of a mansion. Were there even steps going up to it the way steps go up to grand buildings?

          *{GRANDNESS such as this can be one of two things. One, wealthy on earth, or two, wealthy in spiritual terms. Can’t determine which this is.}*\

          So I enter & am led upstairs to a huge bedroom & a huge bed. The woman’s name is Rachel who I met before in real life. They have discovered, I find out a bit later – two white particles – is it in her lungs? And she will die of lung cancer unless she is healed.

          *{If this is who I think it is – Rachel is not her name – she had cancer previously – a tiny bit in one breast. The vision I see is two particles, one on each side of the chest. I sure hope she has not had a return of this in both breasts.}*

That is why her friend brought me here – so I would heal her. The friend seems short, somewhat fat & wearing a red sweater & maybe short blue skirt.

*{A friend praying for her has summoned my Anointing to heal. Yes I have had several miraculous healings of cancer. One had throat cancer, – Joe Breitfeld –  the other – George Legeros – in his one lung remaining – both completely healed. Yes I have the Anointing, which I don’t advertise as then peope hound you.}*

          When I approach the bed of Rachel, I call her name & she unfurls the thick blue-with-designs cushiony blankets. And here she is smoking not one but two cigarettes, one with a long black cigarette holder & the other just plain. I see the glowing ember of the one in holder.

          *{CIGARETTES {smoking them} are a symbol of FAILURE. The lady I think this is has NEVER smoked, so this would not be lungs but breasts & it would mean she is doing something that leads to failure. Fire is HATE. Is she HOLDING A GRUDGE because the cigarette– where I see the ember is in a black {BAD-DEPRESSING-DEATH} holder. Now it makes sense. Has her illness come about because I broke up our ‘friendship’ & she is taking it badly – feels hate. That hurts HER – not me. And I will tell her SHE MUST STOP!}*

          I tell her,

          “You MUST stop smoking right now.”

There is an emphasis here that there can be no discussion or argument about this – she must obey what I said instantly.

I don’t know who her lady friend is praying for her but can think of one spiritual person she knows – it’s probably her.   {End}

The IncredibleBuilding I love so Much but the one who owns or manages it has some resentment toward me

I appear in this building upstairs that a female I know has got hold of. I guess she rents it but I wanted to believe she bought it.

I’m reclining in this bedroom upstairs – it’s HUGE. It’s the kind of room I always wanted – huge, with a view. And as I look out the side window, which faces the huge bed – I see below – a few floors down, a chasm & a trench which is all dirt, but it gets filled up periodically the way my creek does in Spring. When it fills up it’s clear, just like a beautiful lake, no dirt or mud, & I have bathed in it with joy.

*{This dream connects with the one above.  The lady in question has entered my ‘domain,’ – ‘portal’ where the Anointing or SPIRITUAL POWER reside.

I never see it myself except now. It is incredible. Us sharing the same bed is she has ‘entered my space’.  The sheets are rosy colors – which means happiness.

The LARGE PURSE under me, safe, is the GRACE I carry  which is FORMIDABLE.

The large TRENCH in the lower area outside leading toward this building – is the ACCESS ROUTE from INFINITY to the earth where help is needed. This route fills up with GRACE so VAST it becomes a lake – in the dream I recall bathing in it.  That eans I’ve been ‘bathed in Grace’ or filled up with the Holy Spirit.}*

What’s also wonderful about this building is it’s near the population – not isolated – but also apart in a way one has privacy. It’s on a street with many buildings, but its set back abut 50’ or so; a courtyard. This makes it not so easy for people to just step on the front doorsteps & intrude, but it also makes it easy for us when we want to go out.

I feel incredible here. Then I get up & see I’ve been in this huge bed that I seem to share with this other lady & I see I have my biggest purse near me – the real leather one Richard bought me long ago. This is good because I have nightmares about people stealing my purse or leaving it & losing it somewhere.

But there’s a probem with this lady.She’s supposed to be my friend – I have no animosity toward her – but she somehow resents me. Here in a room upstairs are two visiting females. They are both wearing conservative green print, tiny specks dresses, sort of loose in a nice way, but covering up to the neck. Both are pretty, with medium honey colored hair in page boys.

They are talking a long time & my friend whom I shall call Alice, has never introduced us or shared a word with them & me. Finaly I realize how wrong this is & I tell Alice,

“You have not even followed the fundamental rule of good manners, introducing us. It is considered rude to be with someone talking, your friend is here – but no introduction.”

She hears me but make no amends & the two females say nothing like they are alright with this. Her contempt seems to have transferred to them.

*{This explain why, aftrr a lifetime of being held in contempt by this lady, I finally stopped taking to her. She has never repented & this shows she looks down on me – like she is respectable, I’m  not – indicated  the dresses of her two lady friends. I’m trying to teach her but she isn’t listening.  And what hurt also was that she convinced other people to look down on me as she has}*

Now time passes – things change. In some ways I’m not happy, in other ways OK with this. This huge building has become a CENTER for what seems like at least a hundred people at a time, coming & going – mostly women They are having a GOOD TIME – like a gathering, I see one woman hugging another one joyfully – just to see her.

As I sit by a counter a really handsome middle aged man sits down across from me & we’re having a good conversation. I know some other women are jealous of this as he’s an ideal man, sort of blonde streaked hair. But then another ‘ideal’ handsome middle aged man sits next to him across me & supplants him – the second one is heavier & darker in hair & complexion, but also the kind that will make other women jealous. I was concerned about the feelings of the first one, being supplanted that way. I love both of them.

As I said, I see many women who seem to be running sort of, hair pulled back – attractive, middle aged, professional type, mostly not paying attention to me.

One of these men is talking to me when Alice is near. I want to show her what love is – that I do not take revenge by her not introducing me – so I begin to introduce her – ‘Alice – this’ but she WALKS AWAY before I can finish it.

*{I do not hate or show revenge for how Alice has treated me  & want to introduce her to one of my important male friends. But she will not receive the courtesy. This hints that she looks DOWN on my friends no matter who they are – like anyone that befriends me deserves the same contempt.

The huge number of people here now are those she has invited mostly – is talking to – they are her friends, not mine but somehow I have provided the space. Must be the Grace extended her, has lifted her up, that she’s SHARING with friends.}*

She is a big lady, tall & maybe 200 lbs, dark medium long hair, wearing a red knit dress with designs, & there’s always this scowl on her face regarding me.

*{Wearing red is PAIN – being BIG or FAT is being close to the world, filled up with it, in this context. Tall is proud, also in this context. Tall could also be spiritual height, but she has none.}*

But there is one couple that I’m involved with.  I see the outside, looking at this building & its surroundings from the opposite view – down from the ‘trench’ that becomes a lake. I was going to tell them the lady friend purchased this building to impress them, but as I begin to speak I can’t lie so I say she RENTED it. I show them the trench explaining how wonderful it is when it fills up – it’s like a lake & we can all bathe in it.

*{Don’t know who this couple is but the telling point is she rents, does not purchase. Could mean she has not fully ACCEPTED that my domain is great, my Anointing is great. She is temporarily USING it but does not fully ‘buy it’ or believe in it – as in her mind, I should be looked down on. That’s her failure, her hate, that I told her MUST stop if she wants to be healed.}*  {End}

1. My Real Mom ‘Regina’

My Mom, sister & I are out doing something, when Mom disappears into a huge theater & we can’t find her.

I go through the theater – every seat is taken. I search & search. My sister does also, to no avail.

Then I get a new idea. Somehow I can put her name into some kind of data base, they find her among the crowd – it works. I retrieve a box of tissues, completely full, open. It’s half light blue, half violet which I guess is lavender.

I was running to people holding up the box of tissues exclaiming her name – ‘I found Regina’ – but there is one glitch.

I tell the owner of the theater that she probably put her purse under her seat & it had a lot of money in it & we need to look again to find it. He scowls as this is hard.

And I put my fingers to my right temple to indicate my Mom is kind of demented – not right in the head.

*{This reflects recent events where Adolf has risen up into Heaven & I have fixed myself to see him as a child of God who now deserves love, not as the monster etched in our minds.

And as to prove my new attitude & resolve I thought,

“Hey, if I can accept Adolf Hitler as a clean soul of God, now in Heaven, I can prove myself like this: Not only will I forgive the ones who hurt me so much – my Mom, brother, Aunt & first husband but I will also love them.

I had said that when I get to Heaven I don’t want to see them although I have forgiven them – that I will shake hands or just ‘Hello – good bye’. But now I said I will welcome you all to spend as much time with me as you need, I will not look at you with revulsion. {I KNOW I am on a much higher spiritual level than they – Jesus showed me in a vision – so the onus is on me whether I want to greet them or communicate with them in Heaven, they are on bended knee to me. Anyone higher than me, I must get their permission to touch them}. This will also prove my sincerity with Hitler that I truly accept him.

Now everything has changed in my mind & in these relationships.  When I think of these people I see pity only, no revulsion & I don’t feel pain – what a relief. And in the end when I indicate my Mom wasn’t right in the head – that she had in common with Adolf. If I can excuse him why not her? After all, God judged them, I am no one’s  judge.

OK what is this dream saying?It’s not easy to discern. I usually go to theaters looking for souls in Purgatory to assist. Let’s assume that’s why she is there. I have invited everyone – including them { family-former enemies} to use my portal to get other souls out. So here she is, trying to do so.

However, she is LOST which seems to say she hasn’t got the ability to do this – it might require some spiritual skill. I do recall Sri Kaleshwar saying he & Shirdi Sai Baba would do a MIRACLE when they got a large number of their clients Ascended using my portal. And I keep inviting Saints but it rarely happens. This could mean it’s difficult.

So my poor, pitiful Mother Regina, in her low place in Heaven – at least tried. But with no guidance or Great Saint or Angel to guide her  she is LOST. I get away to find her & she is represented by this unused box of tissues. These TISSUES probably represent SYMPATHY – she wanted to comfort/help some souls – but she could not find one to help! I have gone down there many times this way – found no one I could transmit Grace to!

And she has LEFT her PURSE/GRACE (& the dream says there was plenty!) under the seat & it is LOST. Can we retrieve it? Somehow not someone tell me.

I can’t explain it all. I do what I do & know what works when it works. I do not know HOW it all works like I use my computer but don’t understand it. It’s complicated- God understands it. Grace does things supernaturally by Gifts, Anointings & Miracles. Most is BEYOND us. But I must give CREDIT to Mom for trying! Bravo – you tried because I asked! Maybe next time you’ll succeed!   {End}

12-13-25 Most Famous Person Released from Purgatory

          I am in with a group of people doing things – not sure what.

          *{In view of the conclusion these must be those who help me in some way to do my work}*

          We move to an area which overlooks a sort of cavern/room – it’s about five feet below us. And down there is Adolph Hitler speaking with a group of his associates. They are gathered around a desk. So we watch them.

          *{We are in Purgatory looking at one of its sections. Notice there are no windows – in Purgatory you never see the sky or the outside word.}*

          Now EVERYONE in my group is AFRAID of Hitler. They would not approach him under any circumstances. I dare them & I tell them I will go down there & shake his hand.

          *{Apparently the others in my group are not anointed or empowered to deal with soul in Purgatory}*

          So off I go, descend into that cavernous room. As I walk toward him moments ago he turned his back toward that desk & the men. I don’t want to STARTLE him so I move a bit to his right so I am not right behind him. He then sees me. And I tell him

          “I’d like to shake your hand.”

*{See below to get the meaning of this scene in detail}*

          He is nervous or frightened & points to the other guys around the desk – that I should shake hands with one of them instead. But I say,

          “It has to be you.”

          At that moment we look at each other squarely. His hair is totally different than life – it hangs down to the bottom of his ears, a combination of blonde & brown – it’s thin & fluffy on the bottom, the hair floats.

          *{His hair is thoughts, which are now LIGHT & PRETTY, not heavy, dark or dull}*

          In his eyes, which are blue, there is FEAR. I sense that one level more & there will be tears. There is NO HATE, nothing evil. Something transpires in this mutual gaze.

          We now shake hands & within our hands I also feel a transmission.       

          OK I now did my ‘great deed’ which no one else in my group could do – & I return to them.

          *{This entire transaction is I have reached Adolf & transmitted God’s Grace to him. He was nervous, scared, because he wasn’t sure if his time was up – his cleansing complete. He defers to some other souls, that I should touch {anoint} them. But I tell him no, buddy, it’s you & only you & he has to give in.}*

          Forgot to say. I was wearing some kind of revealing mauve outfit – like a grayish pink – a bathing suit bottom & loose top. You could see I have a good figure. Later I jokingly told myself I coud have done a dance to entertain their group – all sorts of ballet steps – could have – didn’t.

          *{My outfit – pink is happiness-joy, gray is mental, so that’s what I represent here. My legs are BARE which might be saying I am exposing my MYSTICAL STRENGTH – to travel through dimensions or levels of consciousness. My associates apparently could not do this – notice I dare them but they can’t – I DESCEND into the portal where Hitler exists with some other souls. It is a GREAT ABILITY. As I walk away back to my group I feel a sense of accomplishment, really proud of myself,  lol.}*

          The preamble to this dream is huge preparation, huge stress. I try to gather numerous items from one place I lived to take to the next. Wow, was I working, but it is so jumbled, so confusing details are hard to recall.  It was just ten times more stressful preparation than the average Purgatory dream.

          MEANING:

          *{I realize now that Hitler is the ‘handsome young man’ who I wrote about dated Dec 10, post on my website says Dec 11 but it happened the 10^th.

          He came into an ‘office’ like say a social services office, where they are supposed to help you. It wasn’t big, & he faced a blackish wall made of wood where the attendents were supposed to be – but they weren’t. He was squatting on the floor as there were no chairs. Just two walls to his left & right – nothing else. He’s wearing a light blue jacket. He’s handsome & young, he might have a scowl on his face.

          “Handsome-young” indicates a soul near completion to their cleansing. As you get clean, the beauty of your soul increases & you also regain the pinnacle of youth – say 35 years old. Everyone in Heaven looks like 35 years old.

          In the past I used to ignore such appearances figuring whatever I did for souls would go to whomever God granted. But since one soul named ‘Jen’ {who prayed for me & it helped!} I decided that if a soul unknown appears to me – as an individual  I will dedicate all my efforts to that one soul until they ascend.

          So on Dec 10^th I gave my Holy Mass to ‘the young man with the blue jacket’ & all my hundreds of prayers for him.

          The next day was hard – I was too tired to say the Holy Mass but dedicated all my prayers to the young man.  But he did not appear to me in any way that night – I thought maybe he already ascended without my knowing it.

          So on Dec 12^th I said the Holy Mass but I said to God,

          “If the young man has not ascended yet it’s for him, but if he ascended, the other souls,”

          and I dedicated all my prayers to either him or anyone God designated – left it up to God – since I didn’t know what was going on with that young man.

          And that night I had the dream of Adolph given here. Now the 12^th is Our Lady of Guadalupe, a big day in my devotion. I spent time thinking of her & Juan Diego. Maybe it was meant to be that he asceded this day or maybe the next – today the 13^th. Either way it’s Our Holy Mother who a couple day ago told me to keep saying the Masses – it’s her, God – & me their servant.

          It’s apropos that on the 10^th I had the scene of a GREAT WAR {as Adolf is associated with war} but that war was about so few people left to minister to Purgatory – the rest are SPIRITUALLY DEAD. And I was one of those left who could help.

          And so, Adolf, when he is near completion of his time in Purgatory, seeks help from an ‘office’- there is no one there. So that is when I jump in – as God shows me this – I am aware of it – so I answer the call.

          There are many questions. To Mother God – the last few souls appeared to me near completion of their purgation. Jen – Farrah now Adolph. How much longer would they have been had no someone helped?

          MG: It depends, all different. It could be a year or years. But when you buckle down & give them everything you have that really speeds it up.

Who is Adolf Hitler now?

          Please understand, when I looked into his eyes I did not see the Hitler known to the world. He is not evil any more.

          This is what Purgatory does – it removes from us all vestiges of sin; that includes delusions, false beliefs, pretensions, twisted ideologies, pride, ego vanity – everything that is false & against Truth & Love {Charity}. So we are looking at a new man here, not the man he is famous for being. That has to be thrown out as he is clean of it.

          In Purgatory we ‘become God’ the way Enlightened souls do. Who, what is God in Essence? God is Truth, Beauty, Justice, Righteousness, Perfection. God is kind, gentle when there is call for it, forceful when that is correct – God is all good, God is mercy.

          All sinners go against the qualities which are God, the opposite of those qualities. So instead of Truth – lies, delusions, deceptions. Instead of Love you have hate, the desire to destroy.

          Adolf was SICK – wounded. He was taking REVENGE against the world for what they did to Germany after WWI. He was deluded that this was the right thing to do. He also believed that the Jews were the enemies of Germany & were trying to destroy his country – I got this off Google:

          Racial Ideology: At its core, his belief system was a secular, racist ideology that viewed the state and the Aryan race as supreme. His conviction that he was “acting as the agent of our Creator” in fighting the Jews linked his twisted beliefs to the moral justification he used for the Holocaust.

          So you see, he did not reject God, he believe he was acting “as the agent of our Creator.”

          He wasn’t – but he thought he was – one of his delusions among many. 

          Now most people believe that if anyone is in Hell for all eternity – Hitler is. But we people see from the outside in, God sees fom the inside out. Unless God shows us we cannot see the inside of a person – therefore, we cannot judge them.

          Those who do go to Hell – & there are MANY – more than those who go to Heaven – is because they REJECT God. Either they reject God conciousy, not wanting God in their minds, or they reject God by giving Her no attention – no time, no nothing. They ignore God like She didn’t exist And that is a rejection – that is the Broad Highway to Hell many are on.

          Adolf Hitler was NOT on the Broad Highway to Hell. He was deluded, twisted, & in his beliefs he thought he was doing the right thing. He was sick & wounded, but not an atheist.

          Now he is healed, cleansed, he is right with God, one with God in Heaven. And I thank God. It has haunted me all my life if he was in Hell – I thank God he is not! Amen.

Channel Adolf Hitler

          ME: Adolf, congratulations, your cleansing is complete & you are seeing the Face of God. How does it feel?

          AH:            I am trying to contain my happiness. It was so long in coming. My life was pitiful, so unhappy. I was obsessed. I was sick like you said, deluded, all wrong. Now I am Love – God’s Love. I am well, I am healed.

          ME: During all those nearly 81 years in Purgatory, how much help did you get from people as far as prayers, Masses, sacrifices & all of that?

          AH: There were those who prayed for me, mostly in the beginning. You know how that goes. The first five, ten years after my passing devoted people, caring people prayed. But after many years I was forgotten. Almost no one prayed.

          ME: But finally we met & I am so grateful to God I could help you! If I had not appeared, how much longer would you have suffered?

         AH: A full year, believe it or not, even though I was already spiritually beautiful. Tell the people out there not to give up on souls, pray for them even if they are gone a long time – some of them are not in Hell where you think – some are not in Heaven as you believe – many are desperate. People all thought I was in Hell, no use to pray.

          ME: My friends & I will think of more questions later. Any words for those who did care about you against all odds?

          AH: Tell those who did not condemn me out of hand, who gave me the benefit of the doubt – that I was sick, deluded, confused & all that – that I did not know what I was doing – please tell those good souls I said a huge THANK YOU!    {End}

Adolf Hitler died April 30, 1945 – Ascended Dec. 13, 2025          80 years, 9 months 13 days approx. in Purgatory

Trials on Earth -Finally Purgatory 12-10-25

I have NOT been saying the Holy Mass for about a week now. Why? ‘Been saying it steady for about a year & a half & felt like a break. I’ve been working on a better contact with the God within me – Sofija I call her, like my middle name which means wisdom –  asked her,

“Are you displeased or disappointed in me for not saying the Holy Mass lately?”

She said,

“Not at all. It was your idea to say the Holy Mass constantly – God did not tell you nor did I. You pressured yourself.”

I felt a great RELIEF at this answer. Yes – it’s me, mysef & I pressuring myself – all in my own will & head, I should not be afraid to miss it at times.

Nevertheless, I have not had the souls in Purgatory appearing to me each night as they usually do. As I lay in bed in between sleep this night I noticed, all my travels were outside. There was a sky. That means NOT Purgatory. But at the end of the night it changed. Yes, I’d been praying every day the right prayers {invoking all the Masses & Graces generated on earth for them} praying the rosary prayers {Our Mother, Hail Mary, Hail Holy Queen – others – hundreds of repeats} all night each time I awaken. Did none of that help the souls  I wondered?

          The Great War That Killed Most People

I was outside in huge hilly places, big sky, when a great war broke out & people were being killed all around me.  There was no place to go hide, or escape, it was just happening & there was nothing any of us could do.

Finally it ends. The open hills are bare of most people – it’s just myself & a few survivors standing around. The ones who did the killing are also here – I guess they’re all men & there isn’t any FEELING of violence or emotion, it’s just like matter of fact.

I finally get an answer – How many people were killed & how many survived?

Someone tells me 165 were killed & 6 survived. The ratio is immense.

I sense that somehow – don’t know how – even though they were firing into the people, they could avoid killing certain ones – us. I am puzzled as to how they did this, but here we are. We are CHOSEN to live. So very FEW of us were chosen to live, to do something, but what we are to do I don’t know.

MEANING:

*{Mother God this seems to be about people who are ‘spiritually dead’ therefore CANNOT GATHER & TRANSMIT GRACE – & by this less than 4 people out of a hundred are SPIRITUALLY ALIVE & therefore CAPABLE of doing God’s work. This work requires the SUPERNATURAL – the Holy Spirit. And here 6 out of 165 spiritually ALIVE means less than 4 out of 100.

I  knew the majority of people are unsaved & on the ‘broad highway to Hell’ – Jesus said ‘many go there’ & the Saints say more people go to Hell than not. But less than 4 out of 100 is astonishing & frightening. No wonder the word is such an evil place.

But this is reminding me of the necessity & importance of doing my work – as so few are even capable. Out of the less than 4 who are alive – how many minister to the poor souls?}*

I Descend into the Underground – Finally in Purgatory

Then I am underground on a mission. I’m supposed to help people – we all are. We work steadily. It’s like clinics for the underprivileged, the poorest of the poor. Like if you took everyone who can’t make a living – can’t function – they’re not well – they need help – both men & women.

*{obviously our poor souls. They can’t help themselves.}*

The women are served in a certain section – I believe I was there – & later on the women leave this area & the men enter. The area has many rooms including rest rooms where I seem to be going when at one point; I get caught in there when the men enter.

I feel UNSAFE in this male section like the guys here can be dangerous – they’re on a low level – they might bother me or even try to rape me.

I want to leave – I ask how did this happen? I go left & see a long room with tables with all kinds of fruits – including grapes, apples, oranges etc. {one man is sitting here at the head of a long table} in spite of the fact that this is desolate. A man who seems naked – tall & thin, pleasant – conducts me to turn right for the exit – I thank him.

*{This is a low section of Purgatory which I’m not supposed to be intimate with – all men. I do see Grace – the fruits on the table – being sent to them. And one that is  not as low helps me to find the exit – thank God.}*

There was a lady here earlier who told me

“You will have to quit your other job to work here.”

She meant the job I had in the outside world. I didn’t want to tell her I did not have to work – that made me sound privileged.

She wanted me to continue working here although it was not pleasant work – the need was great I did not want to turn her down & said

“OK let me have some applications.”

*{This lady is not identified. If it’s Our Holy Lady I’m in trouble – lol. I cannot disobey her. And I have not said a Holy Mass for about a week. This does scare me. But you see I do not turn her down. Earlier speaking with my God Self – Sofija – she was saying more or less it’s OPTIONAL – my idea to say the Masses. But this lady implies it is HER WISH that I work here – that I quit my job in the world to do this! I’m AFRAID to say ‘I don’t have to do this’ lol. So I acquiesce by saying to give me some applications. That’s a yes. My ‘day job’ must mean contact with the world. That I should absent myself from it & retain my hermit-like lifestyle. She is rather indirect & gives me a CHOICE. This does sound like Holy Mary; she has such a gentle touch. But does she not give the impression that she DESIRES my working here full time? Full time means every day & night & that again, implies the Holy Masses because only then do they appear to me most every night.

I recall many years ago – it was around 1980, she appeared to me & said she wanted me to go to the ‘bakery’ more often. I understood that to mean Holy Communion at the Church. And my response to that is I went EVERY DAY for THREE YEARS!}*

  I imagined myself being here for a while & rising up to head of management. It seemed likely, I being qualified. I see myself in that position & there’s some kind of small brown towel folded up near me.

The woman that was telling me about the job was bending over near me – we’re looking at documents or papers or some kind of work. {This must be my writing – articles & books} She’d been active here before I came.

*{Someone – maybe my imagination – is saying I am highly qualified to do this kind of work & eventually I’ll be a managerial chief. The folded brown towel is what? It’s not throwing in the towel – then it would be RUMPLED. This is NEAT. BROWN is suffering. So this is saying I resign myself to this job although it requires some effort & I will be rewarded to a higher position spiritually.

The Holy Lady BENDING near me might show some humility – like God has so few friends, so few people doing this work – I am needed! Please don’t slack off!}*

I also recall a handsome young man in a light blue suit coming into one of our official rooms & squatting down. He was facing away from me – didn’t see me. And was someone in the office waiting on him? No – just a dark wall! I could see he was unhappy, needed help, seemed to be frowning.

*{OK here is my next client. His being HANDSOME means he;s close to Ascension – close enough for me to buckle down & help – like when Farah Fawcett appeared to me she was beautiful & it didn’t take long to get her out.

He’s not facing me why? He’s facing the front of one of the offices because I have NOT REACHED HIM! {And there is NO ONE THERE – just a wall or closed wooden windows he’s facing! This cries out there are so few workers he isn’t being helped & yet he’s close to Ascension!} – could be my lack of saying Masses – maybe they would have been for him! I will address him & send the Power. His blue suit is obviously sorrow, ditto his frown.  He must have my Masses – prayers aren’t strong enough!

And squatting could mean no chair – no hospitality. This room where he is hoping to get help has no FURNITURE – which means COMFORTS.

MEANING:

*{If this is not a message to continue the Masses I don’t know what is. Holy cow the Virgin herself asks me to go for it! Sofija, you have been OUT RANKED! It isn’t optional – it’s HER WISH! Her wish is my command!

The dream underscores how few people God has to do Her work. And Holy Mary bends to me – yiikes – God is desperate for workers!

I am shown some of the sufferings so bad I am not to go there. {the men looked terrible!} But God has presented a young man not far from Ascension – go to it girl – say Masses for him!

I am calibrated & I thank God for it. Onward & upward.  {End}

{see last dream re the man}

Irish man Ascends! Celestial being helps me with hearing the Inner God  12-6-25

{see last dream re the man}

          There was a man – {benevolent} – working on inside my right ear while I’m sitting in a chair the way you’d be with a dentist.

          Yesterday I started a new prayer – it goes like this – To the Mother God within me:

          “Mother God, a couple days ago you personally spoke to me & corrected me on some things I was doing that were wrong.”

          {It had to do with my accusing myself of sin – going over everything I’ve done wrong; faults, mistakes & bemoaning it all. She said to stop it – it was not necessary & it was making me depressed. There is no reason for me to dwell on my faults, I should count the good I have done & not my mistakes! Because I have always done my best – I am not a person that seeks to do sin, etc…When she got done explaining I realized that looking at all these Catholic videos on You tube had made me so. Catholics/Christians have a way of putting people on guilt trips – constantly reminding us we are all sinners, we must repent, etc. when the truth is like Aimee Semple McPherson said, we don’t know who’s a sinner & who’s not! I’ve also been listening to Saints as if I didn’t have a Mother inside me – listening to them as guides, like a parent. I’ve been neglecting my own God within!} And she said,

          “There is nothing wrong with communing with Saints – but no Saint is the same as me. I am you, the God within you. I know you better than does any Saint – I know who you are – your ife – what you’ve been through – I am YOU & I am God – no one is closer or more intimate to you than I am. I should be your first line of defense, your immediate Guardian & advisor, your comforter – the one who shows you the next step, the one who explains what you need to know.”

          I then told Mother God that perhaps I have gone astray seeking others is because I can’t HEAR her the way I used to – yes – I ask her advise on dreams but other than that I don’t hear the ‘still small voice’ like before. I told her that in the past long ago I could hear her as clear as a bell & I’d like to hear her again but I can’t RECALL how I got to do that – if I did I would do it again. So how do I do it? How do I hear you like that again?

          This repartee went on for almost two hours.

          Bottom line was Mother God said to me,

          “There isn’t any formula except you pay attention to me. Ask & ye shall find, knock & it shall be opened. Right now you are giving me your attention {& hearing me quite well} & that’s what must be done. Speak to me each day at least one hour & you will get there. It’s about attention, focus & giving me the time.”

          “Yes, I said, it’s about HEARING you. I need to hear you. If I hear you again it’ll boost my confidence to hear you some more. I shall do what you say.”

          And so, this Celestial Being appeared in the night working on my right ear to help me hear Mother God!   {End}

1. I Help an Irish Man Ascend!

Struggles for Purgatory – Me getting ready or trying to perform is always Purgatory – Trying to help souls

Struggling to put together my costume. I’m back stage at a place of performance. I must put together my outfit & for some reason, it’s not easy. I don’t have all my wardrobe with me. So I’m trying to scrape together items that fit.

I have a sort of conservative off-white silvery gown. It’s a stiff material, to the floor, somehow like a suit rather than a gown, but it is a gown. I find gloves – you must have gloves with most of these outfits so luckily I do find matching gloves.

Then I need jewelry. Looking around, I do find a tray like one I have at home that has sparking rhinestone wide bracelets – I am seeking earrings. I see 2 pairs – both dangling. One has more sparkle, the other less so – they tell me the more sparkly ones might fall off, the less sparkly ones are more secure – but I take a chance & put on the more sparkly ones.

Next scene

 I find a black clinging dress {plain but fetching} with bright red sort of ‘wings’ on the sides of the skirt. The men might like this, I know they like black with red negligees.

I have the dress, which I’m going to wear for a performance, in another dressing room. Another female needs a black dress & there seem to be a few here. I say to her,

“You can take anything except the one I’m going to wear.”

I then enter the room & there she is, sitting on a bench against the left wall, wearing my dress! I cry out & literally peel the dress off her, exclaiming,

“Not only did you put on my dress, but you are sweating in it!”

She’s like a sheep, no murmer, no nothing, as I easily peel the dress off her from the top down. *{this is me, my flesh, to the Mother God inside me}*

MEANING:

*{Costumes, clothing jewels, represent Graces, Virtues, Lights – all from God – I must receive these things in order to give them! Silver sounds like prayers – I’ve been praying.

The scene with the black dress baffles me. Mother God, what does it mean?

MG: This was 5-6 weeks ago when you thought you were going to die. That’s why you were SWEATING with fear – sweat shows a LIVING PERSON rather than someone dead as the dress might belie. I quickly took that OFF you – you’re going to live & we’re going to deliver more souls!

Time wise it seems to say your sufferings from that time – which have been FORMIDABLE are what got this Irish soul, at the bottom, delivered.

Yes, you suffered, you sweated re this death scare, & other things but then good came out of it & myself – the God within you  & you – work together. I need you, the clay vessal, to do the suffering & praying, practicing virtue; I get the Grace & transmit it {through your portal} to this soul & others.

What are the red triangles on the sides of the bottom of th dress:

MG: They are WINGS – red is suffering, black is the WORST suffering {in this dream- this symbol varies, take each symbol from the context of the dream}- these sufferings GAIN GRACE which are the WINGS to HEAVEN.}*

The scene changes.

I’m now in a house & my parents are present. There’s a man who’s in love with me & wants to marry me & he has I think spoken to my parents about this. This seems sort of like the old farm house.

My Dad doesn’t look like my Dad at all, like an older Irish man, & he’s jolly & smiling, has sort of reddish blonde tousled hair, a mustache & short beard. He seems happy. But I say to the man who loves me I don‘t think you’ll get a reaction from my Mom – she seems comatose, sitting to the side.

Not sure what takes place but something does.  And I take the man that loves me outside & it’s my upper back yard here, the sun is shining brightly, it’s beautiful.

MEANING:

*{This sounds like an Ascension. A soul in Purgatory loves me & wants to marry me – marriage is UNION. When he ‘marries’ me he’ll becme ONE with me which means I will TRANSMIT my GRACE {God’s} to him. With this Grace, he can Ascend.

Why are my parents here? I think they are symbols of giving approval or permission. Seems like Dad is all for it. Who is he? St Patrick? Lol. Not sure. It might be saying this soul is IRISH.

My struggles with costumes are my struggles to obtain Grace. I have been suffering with a few different earthly problems. Am trying to gain Grace through them, which apparently I do & it is transmitted to this Irish lad.

Taking this man OUT of the house – out of confinement & limitation – is taking him to HEAVEN, where the sky is open, a bright beautiful sunshine.

I never SEE the man – have no idea who he is or how he looked.}*   {End}