11-18-25 At Death’s Door

          This happened over a week ago but I have not had the time/energy to type this or any other dreams for over a week.

          It was so startling, with Nick {twin flame, husband now dead but united to me}I it – the dream told A LOT.

          I’m in this room – Is it the bathroom? Brushing my teeth I guess beause Nick has gone into the bedroom & seems to be waiting for me & is asking,

          “have you finished brushing your teeth?”

          I seem to be eager to go into the bedroom  make love with him.

          I walk into the room – it’s real bright. Nick is on his right side snuggled up with a blanket on top of him which is whitish fur on the inside & a luminous off white light gray on the outside – it’s a foot thick!

          To the right is the wall facing outside with two windows with white transparent curtains over them – the widow are plain, both the same size, not large. And it being so bright I am thinking of going to them & pulling down the shades.

          But my first thought is all that white, & the windows & the curtains or VEILS – all signs of Ascension, so I just blurt out to Nick,

          “Have you ascended?”

          He’s annoyed & irritated & answers,

          “I should have for all I’ve just been through lately!”   {End}

          MEANING:

          *{This dream tells several things, one, I was close to death. Two, Nick, who is with me, will Ascend the same time I do – & three – I & he with me – will not go to Purgatory but straight to Heaven. And four – he is spoiled, not used to suffering. He was a drug addict & got out of his pains by drugging himself – he could not take suffering & still can’t. That shows he isn’t cleansed.

          The brightness of the room & two windows with veils shows these were waiting to take us up. The way he is lying down is the way I finally – after two years on my back – laid down on my right side to avoid some abdominal discomfort – & the blanket on him is just like what I used when I sat up that night except mine was thin. So he is ‘inside’ me so to speak or feeling the same experiences. But he can’t take it – this shows me.

When he asks if I had got done brushing my teeth he’s asking if I’ve wised up re the medication.}*

Brushing Teeth

          This dream will explain to me that I had to learn & realize it was ME that brought me to death’s door – by cutting my diuretic, Bumetanide, in half, now going on five months!

          I had reasons: feeling faint from dehydration & occasional but terrible leg cramps at night – again, from dehydration.

          The feeling faint was the scariest.

          But this brought me to dire straits – which at first I did not realize I caused it. I started feeling as I had after the initial 3 heart attacks in 2017 – terrible symptoms that felt I was going to die.

          As I brush my teeth in this dream I see sort of translucent scrambled eggs being cleansed out of them – & they stink. A scientist has taken a cup of these items & is holding them up high in this transparent cup, smelling them. I tell him it’s an awful smell, how can he stand it?

          But he says he can, he’s figuring what it is by the smell.

          It’s more like flossing than brushing actually.   {End}

          MEANING

          *{The teeth represent WISDOM/understanding in this context & it is when I realized I had done myself in by decreasing the bumetanide medication by half.

          Another person seen as a scientist is SENSING what’s wrong with me. He must be instrumental in SHOWING ME what I’m doing wrong.}*

A Great Healer Comes to Me

          I am in a car which is painted black on the outside. It’s a kind of average car, not too long or fancy, just an ordinary car, more round in shape than square or long.

          I’m sitting in the back seat of this car while there’s a man in front. He I think was in the driver’s seat but now he turns around & faces me & we are touching somehow which is like caressing or kissing but it’s totally spiritual & I can feel the Spirit, not the flesh. Now it progresses & he’ going to climb over the seat & get on top of me & do some regular sex I imagine but I don’t see it.

          He & the car scene disappear & all I see is a vision – a vision so clear as if I am looking with my physical eyes at something physical. This type vision I’ve only had maybe twice before in my entire life. And it goes on for minutes – it seems maybe 3 minutes.

          I see something like a salmon fillet curled into a ball with a hole inside which seems like a symbol of my vagina that this Saint is going to do something with. It isn’t clear & neat, it’s kind of messy & not smooth & there is something black there in a spot & then there’s this white stuff that’s like small white crumbs resting inside. I stare & stare.

          Sense image material is I saw a movie last night “Billy & Molly – an Otter Love Story.”

          At one point the wife calls a vet & says the otter – Molly – doesn’t look well & her tummy is swollen, she needs medicine. She get the medicine, takes a large fish carcass that looks maybe like salmon but it has a spine & both sides have flaps. She puts this white crumb mix into the flax, takes it to Molly & says she will feel better – & Molly gets well.

This was the day I started getting well as I began taking the full dose of the strong diuretic – bumetanide, it was Nov. 10.    {End}

MEANING:

*{the CAR is a HEARSE. I’v been praying ike crazy since this malady hit me. And a Saint has come to heal me. “Making love” in spiritual terms, which includes kissing, touching & intercourse, is the transmission of spiritual energy.

The size of the car is vague. Does it mean ‘it would not have been long?’ Or just an average time before death had there been no healing – say a few months {if I had not gone to the hospital.}

The white crumbs inside the fish are the white pills {bumetanide} that I had to take more of to get well. And the VISION tells me how CLEAR God had to make that to me – make no mistake, this is it – DO IT!}*

          Re the New Religion & its Order for Women – a Matriarchy

Idea for Order                     – part of it or one Nuance of it: “Women Escaping Violence” – WEV  {We’ve or Weave – like women together or women were always the weavers & spinners}

          This gives us the reason why we are sequestered – private – safe space – denying men access – denying men leadership – etc because we are ESCAPING men. So how could we escape them & then grant them access? That is also why we make them go through fine tooth combs to gain admittance to our social gatherings. And our religious gatherings for them are also monitored & from time to time, not every day like for the females.

          This will then make sense to the press & the community – why we are like we are. Instead of claiming superiority – which we do believe in – we speak of the members who have been raped & under threat of violence from men. Or likewise – their children are under threat. So we have to take the greatest precautions to protect them. Then apologies why we have armed officers {not armed with guns but other weapons like tasers, black jacks, maces, brass kuckles} – guard dogs – gates & all the other precautions will not be necessary – we are NOT SORRY we take all these steps – they are a necessity.