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Success after Failure–Helping Souls

Success After Failure

*{This concerns one day I DID NOT SAY THE HOLY MASS & ALTHOUGH I PRAYED DID NOT HAVE ENOUGH GRACE TO HELP SOULS!

But the next day I said the Holy Mass & you see me WITH GREAT SUCCESS helping families in Purgatory!}*

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The first dream was miserable, but good followed later.

I had to PERFORM but did not have the necessary equipment. The MUSIC was wrong & I could not get the right music to play. I told my assistant {a male to my right},

“To get the right music {it’s like a Juke Box} you have to put in $7. He showed me some silver change & put it in to play.

{LOOK AT THE PRICE: $7 for the right music/Grace vs these silver coins. I did not hav a large amount of Grace here to help Souls – the assistant must be my Guardian Angel who shows me what we have available.}

My hair was in an up do, something I usually don’t wear. But where were my wigs? That was not the worst part. I had no right costume or dress, had some sort of bikini & on top of it a pullover flat, square robe of sorts – not beautiful or flattering.

{CLOTHES are like ROBES or MANTLES OF GRACE. I did not have enough or the right GRACE to perform/help Souls.}

Then the shoes: I was barefoot but needed shoes. I see 2 pairs here. One’s blue with high heels – we always wear high heels, & they’re pretty. But I sense they might not fit me & I will suffer after a short time dancing. It’s safer to put on the white pair, although they are not as high, only 2” high, which isn’t glamorous, but I know they fit & will be comfortable to dance.

{SHOES: High heels denotes ‘high Cross’ or greater suffering, being blue underscores pain. But I chose the white shoes – good INTENTIONS – heels only 2” – the other was 4” – but less suffering! I knew I’d be COMFORTABLE! Discomfort is pain, I was not willing to take that on! So, LESS MERIT, LESS GRACE! More help comes from God when we SACRIFICE!}

Having no choice but to get on stage, I do so. There’s only a few people waiting – all men. But when they see me, one leaves, then another. There’s only maybe 5 people there. I do my best, the music is awful.

For the finale I do a great stunt. I light up into the air & stand on my head for about 2 minutes! This is a great feat.

But as I exit, no one applauds. I have failed, & I’m sad because I know it was for Souls in Purgatory.

{I FAILED to help Souls because I was tired. I could have said the Mass anyway, but I didn’t, so I failed to help them.}

Time passes. I then dream again.

I have gone out & bought myself the most chic, expensive black pants suit, made of a material satin-like but not as shiny. This is so stylish you could go anywhere or do anything in it. I sort of breeze in, proud of myself for being suddenly conservative instead of the usual colorful flamboyant self {which sis didn’t like.}

{FLAMBOYANT ME: Is the egotistical, braggadocios me, which I am wont to display in public. One of my other personalities – the sister – doesn’t like this.}

My sis had been maybe observing me & disapproving my past. She’s in an all-black suit also. My Mom, a huge woman {tall & stocky—over 6’!} is to my right in this doorway we’re standing, & she’s wearing a black smock, not stylish, a dull material, not fitted, her body is like a huge sack – it seems black is appropriate for this occasion.

*{MY MOM: Is my God Self. She’s huge because she’s a ‘Big Shot’ in Heaven. Notice she doesn’t go into the restaurant with us {Holy Mass} because she doesn’t receive the Eucharist – she’s already perfectly One with God, does not require more Grace. The Soul is PERFECT. It is the human self – the body as well as the INTERFACE or VEIL between us & our God Self, which receives Grace. It’s also the part which gets soiled, tainted, darkened, & must be CLEANSED by Grace before we can see/become God.

We 3 are in black because this means FUNERAL or re Souls in Purgatory.}*

My sis & I then go into a restaurant, & it’s exclusive, the Waldorf Astoria. In real life I know only one restaurant there – long ago used to go to the ‘Bull & Bear.” It was not unusual or classy, nice but ordinary.

But this dream-restaurant is one of the top in NYC. It’s exclusive.

The waitress brings my sis bread & butter. She then gives me butter but no plate or butter knife to put on bread. I say to her,

“Don’t I get a butter knife & plate?”

She seems kind of put off by my request – don’t know why.

She’s a short lady with brown hair, & is wearing vaguely a blue blouse with white dots or specks & seems like she’s trying hard to get things done, maybe she’s frustrated & I’m asking her for something when she’s busy?

*{ME: Now I’m stuck. This could not be a Guardian Angel as they could not fail in any way nor could they have negative feelings like frustration. But could a Soul in Purgatory be waiting on us? Help, Mother God.

MG: It IS a soul in Purgatory, a hint besides all else is the blue top with white specks. She’s in sorrow but has hope – bits of white light on her blouse. She’s helping your 2 personalities to help Souls. Means she’s praying for you, perhaps to improve your behavior – specifically you might say she’s encouraging you to say the Mass.

“Butter” in this case represents comfort, as in ‘which side my bread is buttered on.’ This says you’ve been selfish – as you were yesterday & didn’t say Mass. And you’re complaining re your own comfort, & this frustrates the poor soul! The pragmatic part of you – sis- reasoned it out that it would be of benefit to your own self to say the Mass, as well as for them, but another part of you is greedy & wants more for yourself. So the poor soul is burdened by this – you see her bending forward, as if by a heavy load.}*

I look at the menu. It has so much on it I have no idea what to order.

Then I look around the room to my left. We’re sitting against the wall to the right.

And there is another section to this room behind a divider that’s about 4’tall – & that’s all there is, & I say to sis,

{BEHIND A DIVIDER: This says it well. They are on THE OTHER SIDE which means after death, the next dimension.}

“This place is TINY!”

She tells me it’s not the size of the restaurant that matters here, it’s the standard – this is the highest class there is.

I’d say the place seats only 15 people at the most. And all diners are women with children.

One group of these women is exiting & they pass us. It’s maybe 3 women & at least 2 kids, a family. I see a big woman is wearing a sort of fuzzy green smock, she’s behind the children ushering them out.

*{ME: Mother God, you take over from here. If they are exiting, what are they exiting? Are they leaving Purgatory or leaving one lower state there to a higher one? And how many are actually helped, everyone there, or this one family? Why is this one big woman dressed in fuzzy green? Is she in Purgatory with these children or a Mom or other female praying for them?

MG: Wow, these are tough questions. They are probably exiting a lower state to a better one. The woman in green might be saying she’s alive, praying for these kids who died. Whe we pay for Souls, in a sense, we can descend to their state – we reach them if our prayers are strong. Is it all of them helped or one family?

The one family for sure, the others might have received Grace also but maybe not enough yet to move much higher up – but it seems the children of this woman go higher. She was praying for them, a Soul in Purgatory was praying you say the Mass, & Souls were helped.

These 2 dreams illustrate what happens when you don’t say the Holy Mass & how great it is when you do say it.}* {end}

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Soul in Purgatory & Rasa Diary

Unknown Saint Heals Tubby 1-23-24

Amazingly, that Saint is still in Purgatory!

My cat ‘Blackie’ was healed of a respiratory illness on the 15^th of Jan by ‘St. Martini’ – Rev. Marin Luther King Jr. – his feast day. When I asked him to heal her I heard him say he would.

Then my beautiful Persian ‘Tubby just yesterday, the 22^nd I realized was sick also – probably got it from Blackie. She did not have her symptoms but her behavior had changed. She was sleeping abnormally & not annoying me all the time, had slowed down to a crawl, was sitting on the cellar stairs for hours, seemed lost & forlorn – I knew she was sick. Once in a while a tiny cough & her meow when she wanted to summon me was a whimper I could hardly hear. I asked St. Martini for her healing – he wouldn’t answer.

So I called out to other Saints, saying anyone out there who loves cats? Surely she has done nothing to be ill. Please don’t hold my faults & sins against healing her {I repeated this again & again as it could be an obstacle} – please help poor little Tubby!

Had this dream of great meaning:

I am summoned to the mansion of a great personage. There was a prelude up to this but it’s faded away.

This is some kind of business – I don’t know what. I arrive at the place & there is a female receptionist standing there near the door, welcoming people as if to a place like a museum. She attractive, long blonde hair parted in the middle, thin. She stands to the right of the door & after I walk in, the lady who owns the house appears & the receptionist is not spoken of – which I feel is not respectful as she’s doing her duty. But somehow we are making a documentary/movie of this event & it seemed alright she was passed over. She was not insulted, a gracious person.

{RECEPTIONIST: This is the Guardian Angel of the great person who invited me. This will be a first. A Soul in Purgatory, a Saint-to-be, not yet in Heaven, answering my prayer! Those in Heaven are bereft of their Guardian Angels – they have no need of them unless it’s some very special occasion, like the lady who died in childbirth. Her Guardian Angel was holding the baby in Heaven, the mother died & ran like crazy toward the baby which the Angel handed to her!}

The lady owner takes me up lacquered wooden stairs, ornate. {Later when we return by these stairs I’m surprised the last few steps – maybe 6 – there are no steps, on has to put their feet on the wood squares with frames – the frames stick out. For a few feet one must be agile & athletic to climb up to start on the stairs & then one can just jump the few feet down – again – it’s asking a lot from a visitor, but I can do it easily.}

*{This WOODEN STAIRCASE underscores that this is NOT Heaven but Purgatory, because WOOD is the Cross! And amazingly, this great lady has a MANSION in Purgatory which indicates she is a GREAT SAINT but must have also committed great sins – like King David – & all must be atoned for! This is to be understood – some people are not great saints but they commit few sins, their Purgatory is not long. But some great saints did commit great sins & their Purgatory could be longer, but when they ascend, they will be in a higher place than the one who was not great.

The TRICKY beginning up the stairs & back again tells me that Purgatory is not a place anyone can access easily! There are untold trillions of Souls there, it’s like getting an address in Infinity – try writing to someone housed in Infinity without having an exact address!}*

She tells me all about herself & her activities. She’s middle aged, her hair is medium brown with is it gray streaks? – Pulled back in two large sausages behind her head. She’s slow & thoughtful as she speaks.

{This woman’s appearance also belies her state in Purgatory. If in Heaven she would be YOUNG & BEAUTIFUL. She’s not there yet, still being cleansed, & gray streaks are worry or suffering.}

As we walk down the hall my attention is brought to paintings but I can’t recall what they’re of. The last frame before the end of this hall is a super elaborate brown wooden frame, & within it a thin mirror, only about 4-5” across, but also with a super-elaborate darkish wooden frame. I’m amazed it’s like this but excuse it with the thought,

“It’s all decoration. This is a design.”

{These pictures on the wall & then the mirror on the end, all with elaborate wooden frames, seem to say these are the things of the world this Saint is still attached to. They are fake, ordinary compared to the things of God – like designs or decorations. They could be accomplishments or status, the way the aristocrats have painting of their ancestors on the walls which is supposed to make them important. Going back 500 years to an ancestor who fought for the King & got lots of land & the people on the land who become de facto slaves – this is a heritage they hold onto. It’s all the things of the world which this ‘framework’ is saying, it’s an elaborate concept with nothing inside it – like the last picture is ‘Who am I?’ I am not BIG in reality because I was big in the world – look how narrow the mirror is – my reflection or image is actually small, it’s mere chimera, design or ornamentation. But when one holds onto these things, one stays in Purgatory.}

Was this the prelude?

I’m with someone pointing out to them my land, it’s features. It’s like we’re sailing high above the street – maybe 20’ or so – & we pass by this one lovely field just like the field at the end of our farm {right up against the woods}, near Freehold. At this point I say to my companion,

“This is my PORTAL.”

We pass another wooded area, then the place where my pond is. At first I see only the dry area before my pond & wonder if it’s still there, but then I see water & exclaim,

“And there is my pond.”

{This being the prelude, what would I need my PORTAL for? It’s the Portal to Purgatory, another key to what this is!…..Why this field is portrayed as my portal here? I’ve seen other areas – apartments, dwellings, roads, as my portal. It seems then that the portal can change according to the situation, person or place I must each!}

Back to the mansion:

The lady & I discuss animals. She goes on & on. As I look at her I realize that she made an APPOINTMENT to see me, which this is a PRIVILEGE as she did this out of her important schedule – just to see me.

{This her being ‘of importance’ can be taken two ways. One, indeed, I am grateful that this Soul has brought me into her domain & is answering my prayer! But could it also hearken to the fact that she holds on to her importance on earth?}

Now she speaks about her menagerie of CATS. Not house cats, – large, wild cats. She mentions a word that means ‘entering the enclosure of many wild animals who are under the authority of a person who has raised them, & they are deemed to be tamed & safe, but you have to accept this & not be afraid.”

{There’s the fear, however, that you never know when a wild animal might act up, & then what? They could kill you fast & the owner could not stop it! I recall this happened to a man who came to wrestle a ‘tame’ bear! When they were merely posing for a photo, the bear panicked & attacked & the man was DEAD!}

This reminds me of Cesar Milan, the dog expert, & his great enclosure of dogs, when someone who’s scared of dogs walks in they could be shaking with fear but they have to cam themselves down.

I make a note that I must not be afraid – I believe I mention to her I am a ‘bear lady’ & was once surrounded by 6 wild bears & kept my composure! No, I will NOT BE AFRAID!

She then opens the large wooden gates. I hear wild cats. I expect I will step in, be surrounded by them & face this.

The lady walks in & instead of my going behind the gates, one poor, frightened cat – like a Cheetah, comes out. She’s very much afraid. Now I am given to nurse her, as she needs help – I’m not sure for what.

{ONE FRIGHTENED CAT: This is a symbol of my Tubby. I’ve known her for years now – she’s not mine, a neighbor’s I don’t know which. For years she was afraid & spooked out easily, she’s only gotten relaxed in the last year or so. This shows me her nature or personality.—that it’s about her.}

She’s in front of me, her backside to me. I am given a needle – like a syringe – {isn’t a needle a syringe after all?} which is dark grey with something in it. Now I must administer this needle into her v___ as if its sperm being put in. Don’t know why. I must do this TEN TIMES. At the end I say to my Hostess, is that enough?

I believe it is, like she’s {in my imagination} supposed to have a certain number of KITTENS! – Strange development.

*{This might name the SOURCE of Tubby’s fear. Her being FIXED has deprived her of the instinct of doing sex with the male cats & also of having babies. Somehow, her instincts are not being fulfilled. Could be like a human who’s been deprived of their sex drive & now they have no intimacy or feeling of LOVE from the opposite sex – they are deprived & for some reason, to Tubby, this translates into FEAR.

I am being given the remedy by an Angel I presume, to get her impregnated PSYCHOLOGICALLY or SPIRITUALLY. In other words, HEAL THE WOUND of being deprived of such. Her wound is deeper than a cold or respiratory illness; we are getting to something at the core of her unhappiness.}*

The Lady & I then both descend down the stairs.…………..

{This is leaving a certain part of the premises of this lady in Purgatory, the place where she has the business of the cats. Why did she answer my prayer? I’ve been asking the Souls in Purgatory, during each Mass to pray for/help us on earth. She answered the prayer, but why, I can’t figure out.}

I then get up after my sleep & TUBBY IS WELL! Her same ole’ behavior, including annoying me, & I am so happy, I don’t care. The kitty plates have dry food, cut up chicken pieces, another plate with fish, fresh water & fresh milk – & she is still meowing for something – that’s what I mean by annoying. But go on, Tubby, annoy me, just don’t be sick! {end}

Second Dream:

I see my husband Nick who died of a drug/induced heart attack.

In this dream we’re all encouraged to throw away our trash on a certain day – it’s like a day of amnesty or something where all our garbage is received, we are not in any way fined for it – bring your garbage this day, everyone!

I take my trash & dump it, many others do the same – the place is crowded. I then realize I can see & meet lots of people as they dump their trash, so I hang about a bit as I want to see some of them.

And there, sitting against a wall on the floor, is Nick. I want to speak to him but he AVOIDS ME or runs away if I approach when people are around him. Right now there is a female with a little head – she’s black – hovering over him. Not a good time.

His hair is braided in ‘cornrows’ just like that little black girl’s {refers to soul, not race}. And at intervals there are tufts/knots of the braids sticking on his head. He looks forlorn – empty.

*{HAIR IN CORNROWS: This is TWISTED THOUGHTS coming to knots or blocks, he can’t get anywhere with his mind. His female partner is the same, – he listening to her. Hair represents thoughts as they are coming out of your head. I pointed out in one article on my site how during the time he didn’t speak to me for 9 months, every picture taken of him he looked forlorn & empty notwithstanding he was also on drugs – they didn’t help.

Sitting ‘against the wall’ is helplessness, & on the floor is poverty, or being ‘without’ what one needs In this case, it’s a Mother’s love – mine.}*

I see him twice, the moment is not right.

Finally I see him alone. I go up to him & say,

“Unless you do something {meaning to change your life} you are GOING TO DIE. I can see it on your face.”

The next time I look for him – he’s not there. {end}

MEANING:

{*the Amnesty to throw away your trash is get rid of what you don’t need or what is garbage to your life. God is giving everyone a call to do this – get rid of negative things now &with no impunity. It’s our chance now, not in eternity, to cleanse ourselves, be rid of garbage, which includes addictions.

You got rid of your addiction to Nick – you made yourself get over him. But he did not divest himself of his addiction to drugs or to you – this is why he was FORLORN-EMPTY—Your love was the love that he needed, but he could not get it when you told him ‘This way or the highway – no leaving the enabler, no rehab, no me. So it was the end for him.

This says the main reason was that drug partner/enabler with him, seen as the back girl with the little head. She was influencing him; you could not get to get him away from her & the drugs.

When you finally got to speak to him – your last conversation – you knew it was the end. Unless he did as you bid him to there was no hope – you knew he didn’t have the ability to do what he had to do – it was over.}*

RASA DIARY 1-21-24 Jesus predicted this in a dream – Hardships explained after herbal discussion

I’m now adding the BANANA SKIN to my coffee/tea daily. I eat 1 banana each day, this herb lady said both the banana & the peel is GOOD for you – one of the ingredients it’s strong in is MAGNESIUM. Something else in it I forgot. So each day after eating my banana I get the benefit of the peel, lol. ALL DAY I drink my herbs I collected off my lawn/fields – it is YELLOW DOCK. This might be the secret why my blood pressure went down – it’s still way down, every other day I take NO MEDS for it at all. When I do take them, usually LESS than before. The Yellow Dock seeds I was taking in pill form – not any more. There are MILLIONS growing wild all over.

I also learned about WILD SPINACH, also called ‘Lamb’s Quarter’ from this same lady. When I got wind of it was late in the season, it had all gone to seed. But anyway I collected the seeds with semi-dry leaves, fixed them for freezer storage. My freezer is filled with herbs off the 3 acre lawn of mine: Dandelion, Plantain {cleans blood} – Burdock leaves – & the Wild Spinach. I can never run out of greens all winter even if I get snowed in as my freezer is full of them! And they are more healthy then greens from the store – they’ve done tests.

I recall the Wild Spinach from the farm near Freehold. It’s EVERYWHERE. Have TONS of it here. Never knew it was good, just a common weed. After she portrayed it & I tasted it – delicious! Can’t wait to collect it in the Spring when it’s fresh, green & tastiest. She was SNEAKY & at first, did not NAME it so I could not look it up just showed it growing – I prayed & then saw another herbal video where a man showed it & NAMED IT – the I could look it up & saw more pics, could identify it. And then this sneaky lady, the second time she showed it, she MISNAMED it Wild Lettuce {totally different but also good} & I’m not sure if it was an honest mistake or if she meant to mislead us, so we’d have to buy her book! She said during the depression people collected bathtubs full of this weeks {wild spinach} for their food!

I have had a setback with my health/well being. Both arms have got sprained – the left one excruciating pangs of pain at certain times when I hit certain angles, the right one hurts much less, nothing serious, bearable. If I’m careful I can use the left arm OK as long as I don’t hit that bad angle. This has been going on ALL MONTH. I thought it was from lying on my side so now I lie only on my back {it was incredibly hard to train myself} & great benefits have come from this. For one thing, my deviated septum, for years I have had to hold my nose open as lying on my side the nose contracts & hard to breath – both my thumbs got dislocated from years of this, & pain in both thumbs during the day which I thought was arthritis but it’s not arthritis but the nose-holding. So the thumb pain has stopped. Sleeping on the back might also straighten my back out over time as I have that old-age slump, but lying on my back with a sweater under the ‘bump’ just might make it better over time.

I forgot to say why my arms got sprained. I finally realized it was NOT lying on my side but rather carrying those HEAVY BAGS weekly mostly with ANIMAL FOOD, from the car to the house – many bags weigh 30 lbs each, carry 1 in each hand. This PULLED the muscles. I was warned about this but didn’t know what else to do. Now I know. Separate the items into smaller bags so no bad is over 10 lbs, should be alright. Also don’t let the bags drag down, hold them up as in a bicep curl – that will not pull on the muscles. Live & learn.

And then, the icing on the cake: The CAR TRUNK WON’T OPEN by any clicker & all my animal food is in it – & THERE IS NO KEY HOLE – I swear. Everyone searched for the key hole – there is none.

New Guru Erik told me to ask some teenage boys, who stood behind me in the checkout at the $ store – to help. They protested they knew nothing about cars, but my inner voice insisted they could help. We tried, they stood there unknowing. But then one of them asked me the make & model of the car, looked on the ‘vin’ in front – looked it up on the internet & vallah – there is a way to do it from the back seat. You open the ‘armrest’ & behind it there is an opening, you put your hand in & find a lever, pull it up, & the trunk pops open! Wow, that was a mental burden on my mind for days!

More car shyt!

Car door would not close! Neither one, driver side or passenger side. My new Guru Erik from Sweden {mental reading} told me ‘use your key’ & I did & then I could get it closed!

Then suddenly my oven, I could not get it lit! Erik stepped in again & told me to make sure I hold the clicker down a few seconds – which I then did & it worked. He also showed me why I could not get the broiler to work – as it was on the TOP not the bottom as on most ovens! So I would hold the broiler button & thought nothing was happening – but it was – only it was on top where I did not see it! And now, after 5 years with this oven, I can broil stuff! Which helps a lot as sometimes you don’t want to use the entire oven, just something quicker, the flame closer to the food – I am roasting apples to eat with dinners – like 1 to 2 apples daily – I don’t like eating raw apples for some reason {I should but I don’t.}

A serious problem was my cat got sick {she’s actually owned by my neighbor, like the other cats here – I am simply the recipient of neighbor cats who like being here more than their own home!} & I have no vet & was also snowed in even if I had! She had a nasty cough & was vomiting green flem. This for 2 days. I prayed to St. Martin Luther King Jr on his Feast Day to heal her – HE DID! From that day, no cough or flem, perfectly well.

It sounds like a small problem, but when you love your animals, their illness is your heartache.

Mental heartache:

This started after Lisa Lyon ascended Dec 1 past year.

Lisa’s Guardian Angel told me,

“They wrote you out of female body building.”

Since that time, I’ve been plagued with anguish & what to do about this being written out. I know its Arnold, as he controls, still, much to do with this field. People obey him. In particular, they wrote the history of female body building on Wikipedia & at his command & left me out. They did it on purpose because they also spelled Dan Lurie’s name wrong. I went in & corrected it, & days later, to mock me, they removed his name from the history completely! {They know it’s me who corrected it because anyone can check into the corrections & see who did it – & my presence gives my real name! Their presence gives fake ones! – So they knew I was there, they knew I knew what they were doing & wanted to mock me!}

I don’t have the energy yet to write out & explain all my troubled brain went through, just to say tis: At the end, God told me {& I will obey God}

“Do not seek recognition or worry about it. You wrote your history on your Kellie website & elsewhere, you can put it into your Wikipedia – do nothing more. To hanker after recognition is the ‘glory’ of this world – which Satan tempted Jesus with,

“I will give you all the kingdoms of the world & their glory, if you will bow down & worship me.”

You obeyed God in doing what you did – all your great activities, & they bore fruit. The fruit helped humanity, that’s all that counts. Your glory will be in Heaven, some of it on earth before you die – do not worry about it!”

This anguish went back & forth a hundred times in my head & along with other sufferings, wore me out. It got to a point where I could no longer work or do anything creative. I ignored my dreams, even the Purgatory ones, as I had not the strength to write them out & analyze them. This has been going on for weeks.

I came to the conclusion that right now, I cannot work. But my WORK IS SUFFERING. By suffering I gain MERIT & GRACE. This goes to help Souls.

Yes I thought I had to write, & write, & write. Or else contact people about God. But sometimes, the suffering is the work! This gave me peace. I suffer, Souls get helped! Just like what Jesus did! Consider it. Jesus suffered, He saved us. It wasn’t his writing. He never even had a Church until well after his death. He did good, & He suffered. We do good & we suffer, also to save souls.

And the need for recognition, I must put that torturous desire to rest. It is of the devil – his gospel. And people like A___ are of the world, they follow the world & its teachings. I must NOT lower myself to that level, it is SIN.

“You must follow the Lord thy God & him {her} alone must thou serve!”

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Suffering 4 Souls & I Visit James Brown in Heaven

1-12-24 My Suffering for Souls

—See James Brown in Heaven

Two days ago maybe the 10^th saw James B in Heaven but was too tired to type it. It wasn’t like I expected, quite an ordinary vision. I came near him in celebration & kissed him on the cheek several times, joyfully. He was also joyful, smiling & laughing sort of.

His head was like a pumpkin & the texture of his skin was maybe like the pulp of a pumpkin but there’s a grayness to the light orange color.

MEANING:

*{ME: Help Mother God.

MG: You were disappointed that there wasn’t more of a celebration when he Ascended, so this makes up for it. The pumpkin is like ‘Thanksgiving,’ he’s showing you his gratitude. And you exchange joy, this is the party & he participates, not like last time, when he said he couldn’t.

The dream of yesterday was torturous.

I’m shown a man – looks like Rock Hudson – on a slab of sorts lying there, sitting up partially, suffering so badly I ask,

“Is he dying?”

But then I realize he died long ago.

After viewing him another man is shown again they are all on sort of ‘slabs’ – & he is suffering badly.

Then another man & this is horrible. His nose has grown into what looks like an animal’s leg & hoof, similar to a deer. The deerskin is several colors, a sort of orange rust one piece, then an off-black, then a yellowy then a black hoof & this is the end of his nose, & he has to LIVE like this with this nose.

I am horrified, how could he live this way?

There are 5-6 more cases all on slabs, all men, suffering horribly.

MEANING:

About a week ago Our Lord appeared to you & showed you the bears surrounding you from all angles & he kissed your hand. This was to show you not to be afraid but there would be a series of sufferings coming to you from all angles – but it was from his Grace. You knew it was for Souls.

One of the sufferings was that when you lay down at night your shoulders & upper arms hurt so badly you can only lie on your back – which you’ve not done in years – you hate it. Something happened to both your arms from lying on your sides – muscles pulled or something. This has been really hard & the pain in the arms has also assaulted you from time to time pretty bad even though you’re on your back.

Other things have happened – lots of them – to give you stress & exhaustion but we’ll skip all that & just talk about this.

Our Lord wants to show you this series of Souls in Purgatory, suffering terribly, whose sufferings you are alleviating by yours. Yours is not as terrible, nevertheless, you’re helping them, so it’s all worth it.

Rock Hudson coud be a gay man dying of AIDS.

The man with the deer hoof becoming his nose could be he’s paying for torturing an animal, maybe a hoofed one like this. Could be a cow, sheep or goat he tended on a farm.

A notable symbol is ‘on one’s back.’ Like like you’re helpless to change your position, the Poor Souls are totally helpless where they are, their prayers for themselves bring no benefit, so here, is a good comparison with both your states.

Last night’s dream

Went like this: I’m on a road that no one expected would become muddy but as I drive it does. It’s so bad that the car after me gets into mud & sinks at least 6” & can’t move. – Completely stuck. But what I did was I ascended with my vehicle into the air & got to my destination – a building in front of me, & I’m explaining this to someone. They are amazed that I could fly my vehicle.

{Pretty sure this is the portal or ‘vehicle I use to get me to Purgatory. Someone else wanted to but they could not rise up out of the earthly attachments, seen as getting stuck in the mud.}

Another dream was they were serving food in this cafeteria but I wasn’t hungry, when I got hungry there was scarce food left & all the dishes were dirty. I washed a dish in a nearby sink & went for food. Few items were left. My favorite were chunks of persimmons, which are red sort of berries with red juice all around them – these presented in rolls without their skin somehow glued together. I grabbed as many as I could & wolfed them down before having to move up in the line. I was satisfied with the few items left, no breaded chicken. I thought how many type foods does one need to fill themselves up?

*{Pretty sure about the recent sufferings, a dozen hurtful, & troublesome things which were predicted to me. But I told Our Lord,

“I welcome these sufferings, just help me endure them. I’m not complaining, not sorry for them at all, I welcome them, I’m happy abut them.”

Persimmons look like blood, they are deep red. So that is saying I’m enjoying the sufferings, glad to bear them, as they are FOR SOULS.}*

College of the Gender War, Core Tenets

Loopholes to Matriarchy

William’s Question 1-9-24

LOOPHOLES TO MATRIARCHY

From William Bond–Hi Rasa:

Since the beginning of this year I’ve been attempting to write another book. I have been thinking about how it is possible to create a matriarchal society and it seems to me the only workable system we know off, is that of the Bonobo ape. In a sex war for dominance, men have the advantage of size, strength, aggression and violence. While the only way women can dominate men is through love, sex and sisterhood. So I’m thinking about whether women use similar methods to that of the bonobo ape. It would involve a very radical change of behavior. Women would have to freely give sex to men and at the same time have sex with other women to form a lesbian sisterhood.

An alternative to this, is for women to be like the priestesses of ancient Goddess temples and form a prostitutes collective. So all the wealth and power that comes from prostitution end up in the hands of women and keep pimps and criminals out. So we could either have a new religion, or run it like a business. But whatever way we do it, women will end up trading sex for wealth and power over men. We also know that patriarchy is very anti-sexual and want to control women’s sexuality. an extreme case of this is Islam where women have to cover up their bodies completely and have their clitorises cut off.

I’m now having second thoughts about this and wonder if these proposals might be too radical? Because however you do it, women will end up having a lot of sex with many different men. So would it be realistic for women to use sex. lesbianism and sisterhood to dominate and control men? It’s hard for me to say, as I’m a man so I don’t know what women would think about this idea. So I’m just wondering what you think about this Rasa. William

*{Rasa says: Prositution, though not formal, is exactly what we have been dong all these years ditto Bonobo style touching, feeling & sex. We do this in deference to them whether we like it or not, we are forced. Try being unpleasant to men & you will see revenge that is ten times worse than what you gave out. Merely IGNORING them has brought revenge upon me.

Your first idea – the Bonobo model plus sisterhood will never happen not realistic. As if we appease men Bonobo style, which we are doing anyway, that negates Sisterhood as women become our enemies we compete with them, there is a bad conflict. There’s jealousy, cattiness & hate woman to woman as long as we try to please men. For women to be hetero plus have a Sisterhood & become Lesbians is so unrealistic, no one would believe it. I guess being bisexual is what you’re saying, there aren’t enough bisexuals to pull this off, the majority maybe 75% are hetero & hetero they will stay.

If we take sex out of the equation, like using sex to dominate men, & find economic freedom – then we can continue engaging men for sex for our pleasure, not so much theirs. That is the model I’m working on in the New Religion & Order because it MAKES SENSE.

You are going BACKWARD in making sex the center to dominate men, that is EXACTLY what we want to abolish!

Why not create a book that bears with the facts – that human men have been discovered to be inferior due to having only one X chromosome to women’s 2 X’s, that we see in statistics & reports, & the jail system, that men are generally rogues, that women have held them up for millennia but now this is falling apart. As men go downhill, women are rising. Show this in a few relationships & partnerships, how it affects the individuals. The men are scared; they’re trying to see how they can retain their dominance. The women are breathing sighs of relief but this dominance is hard won as the men are not submitting easily & are fighting all the way. This is conflict. All the ways men take revenge& try to trap women once again; all the ways women are trying to get away from their snares, violence & unfairness. This is the drama a story needs.

The stumbling block of your propositions, in my view, is that women must continue using sex to dominate men. This suits men in general & submissive men in particular but this is what I HATED about being a dominatrix. It is them controlling us from the bottom & that’s what you’re proposing here, are you not? Like “use sex to dominate me.” That’s why I HATE femdom. As it isn’t freedom for us at all.

And oh yes, why not interject women forming ‘brothels’ for ‘Sacred Sex’ as the ancient ‘Sacred harlot’s did? Men come to the Temple of Love, worship at an altar where women preach & lecture then give a donation for intimacy which will help them gain Spirituality – Sacred Sex – Tantra. And these women are respected, revered & they get wealthy so they can be free to do whatever.}*

From Pete:

Indeed, William. In a nutshell, my response upthread was basically that I thought it best to simply to remove all restrictions, shame, and stigma on sexual activity between consenting adults, and let it develop organically. Dr. James W. Prescott would likely concur.

I forgot to add one more thing: it is quite interesting that the slogan “Smash Monogamy” in the early 1970s was actually coined by a group of lesbian Women, not men. Though I would argue that a better slogan would be “Smash Enforced Monogamy”, since it is not monogamy per se that is the real problem, but rather its “enforcement” and “default” status in society. It should be whatever floats one’s boat. Tolerance should work both ways, of course. And it should be the case for both genders, with no “reverse double standard” either.

People can argue until they are blue in the face about whether monogamy is natural or not. But I would say that there are three kinds of monogamy: strict, lifelong, and universal. Pick two out of three. To achieve anything close to all three requires a ludicrous amount of violence and coercion, and/or some sort of “safety valve”. Even Orthodox Jews, arguably the most monogamous people in all of recorded history, who appear to have achieved all three, have always had a convenient escape hatch for men: quick and easy divorce, but only for men. Which, of course, historically left Women and children high and dry, often destitute. (Perhaps that was what Jesus was esoterically getting at when he allegedly prohibited divorce completely. Though banning divorce, as we have seen historically, in practice only trapped Women and children even more in the quagmire of patriarchy.) Pete

Hi Pete

I think the reason why patriarchy talked women into monogamy is that woman are always the ones left, “holding the baby”. So unrestricted sex and love can work for women if they have a powerful sisterhood whom will care for the children. Break up the sisterhood and women then have to rely on men for support when they have small children to look after. In this situation women then need strict marriage laws to make sure the man stays and helps look after his own children.

So the break up of monogamy will bring about very radical changes in how men and women relate to each other. Women then have to form a sisterhood and depend on each other for support. They also can receive the help of men but bribe them with sex to get them to do what women want.

William

*{Rasa says: That is PRECISELY what I’m trying to build in the New Order – a backup system for women with children. We are not left holding the bad when these guys leave us. They want to dumpp sperm then go off & have fun or find another female or dump in multiple women. We need SECURITY. Not looking for wealth & luxury – it’s security, room & board, education, a foundation of security for the family.

This is what Matriarchy was all about, the security of the Sisterhood with child care built in. The nuclear family keeps woman as slaves to the home. How can she go out & work when she has one or more kids? I did that, it was extremely difficult. We need sisters at the home front, caring for children while we go out. That is the FOUNDATION of Matriarchy.}

From Pete:

Indeed, and that’s precisely where some naysayers will speciously claim that we are putting the cart before the horse. But that said, with the advent of modern birth control, paternity testing, and especially the welfare state and its social safety nets (all nonexistent for most of recorded history), these concerns are greatly attenuated as a result. So in recent decades, it’s not really putting the cart before the horse IMHO.

But again, it is best to let it all develop organically rather than impose it from the top down. Done correctly, it will be the ultimate kill switch for patriarchy, as I have noted before. True, journeys are often far more dangerous than destinations, but this particular destination is worth the journey.

(The Tamera ecovillage in Portugal comes to mind, for example. But it also needs to be done within “mass society” as well as best as one can.) Pete

*{Rasa says. What you say Pete, re the welfare system & all that, yes, there are institutions & social agencies & actions in place that do diminish the man’s control over women especially their abandonment & lack of care. That is part of the culture that is evidence of men getting weaker in their stranglehold.

It’s all happening on different fronts in different ways. Abortion is weakening the man’s domination as he can’t always saddle the female with unwanted children. Birth control, all its forms & condoms weaken his hold. But it’s only part of the answer, albeit a good part.

Women’s sexual freedom cannot happen suddenly – like a light bulb came on. By many changes in society on many levels, gradually it will occur. Then it means patriarchy is done.

My Order hopefully, or its blueprint, will help.

The Tamera ecovillage in Portugal – I looked it up. It’s a good start – egalitarianism, equality, all that, it’s not Matriarchy.

I intend to take a BIG PLUNGE into SERIOUS MATRIARCHY with my Order.

As far as your book, in conclusion I saw the two propositions are a no-no. Dramatizing the actual reality that is really happening IMO could be better. Maybe if you focus on the Prostitution as the center of the story with a powerful Priestess/Madame & the men who get involved for good or bad would be dramatic.

And breakup of Monogamy? It cannot be required nor should it be a taboo to break it. You want to be monogamous? Go for it? You don’t? Fine. You want multiple lovers? OK. You want lovers of both genders? Float your boat. Freedom

Sexual freedom for women destroys Patriarchy. The taboos, restrictions, ‘morals,’ have nothing to do with righteousness or God – they are man-made. Women must unmake them. That’s our New Religion}*

From Pete: Good answer overall, Rasa.

Though I would say both of your perspectives make sense in their own way. William may have over-egged the proverbial pudding a bit, but he still makes some good points, as do you.

I don’t think I have much else to add to this conversation, except to bring up the interesting case of the Mosuo people (who are of course Matriarchal and practice a form of “free love”) that both of you have discussed in the past, and that has worked for thousands of years. (Note that sex is NOT used by the Mosuo Women as a tool to appease OR to control men, at least not explicitly.)

And again, in any case, whatever the solution is, it will have to develop organically, and with at least some concessions made to modern times. I had mentioned the Tamera ecovillage in Portugal, for example, but I would further add that even within “mass society” there are (according to philosopher Charles Eisenstein) some broadly similar pockets here and there, such as in parts of Colorado and Western Massachusetts in recent years. Not necessarily Matriarchal, at least not explicitly, but a step in the right direction IMHO. Best wishes, Pete

From William – Hi Rasa:

I think what you are proposing is already happening. There are books about why women are doing better than men in education. We also see the result of this as there are now more female politicians and business leaders. I suppose if things keep on going the way they are, women will probably in a another 100 years time, be ruling everything. The trouble is I don’t think I’ve got anything to say about this. The type of book your proposing should be written by academics who has access to all the facts and figures about this.

https://www.insidehighered.com/news/2013/02/21/new-book-explains-why-women-outpace-men-education

So if Ashley Montagu is right and women are naturally superior to men. Then the only way men can become the dominant sex is to actively suppress women. But once men stop doing this, then women naturally rise to the top and take over and perhaps is is what feminist have been doing. They tell everyone they only want equality but I think they only say this to fool men. I think the feminist do want to take over and rule they world, but are afraid if they say this, as they fear it might provoke a male backlash. So they are working towards this silently and secretly and would prefer us to shut up about women ruling the world.

Yes, I can see patriarchy has been very successful in making sex unpleasant for women. As far as men are concern sex is all about dominance and submission, and this includes femdom sex. Whereas women want sex to be about love making. (Although many men do also want sex to be about love as well). But I agree with the idea of Sacred Sex, I think the problem with femdom is that men are still in charge of it. So to them it is still about dominance and submission and not so much about men worshipping women. So perhaps I have to think about the spiritual side of sex to make this work. William

Pete – Good response, William:

Like I said, I think you are both correct to one degree or another. It is however important NOT to make any solution androcentric (centering men), in terms of appeasement or control. Rather it should be gynocentric (centering Women).

From Rasa:

William, this is what I’m getting now. A novel is a FANTASY. This fantasy can be ANYTHING. My reaction was from my own POV & feelings, which I am LOATH to have to continue USING SEX to appease or control men. I – we women – have done that since the beginning of Patriarchy & myself & I am sure other women are sick to death of it.

And so, I would HATE your book. But you aren’t writing for me, it’s for femdom men & they want it! And it’s also an emotional release for you, you’ve done this many times, you’re good at it, you just need a NEW ANGLE & for that, ask the minds of femdom men what kind of fantasy they like.

For ten years I produced glamour, femdom & fetish videos for men & made a fortune. I received their SCRIPTS & also saw that the more extreme, brutal, cruel we were, the more the videos sold. I had to do what the market demanded, so I exaggerated the action in the ads & also pushed myself & my actors to their limit to act the way the audience wanted – even though it was make believe. I had to demonstrate to these feminine young models how to act like they HATED the guys. I was so effective that one actor was scared & said,

“I’d hate to meet you when you’re drunk!”

And he never showed up again for work, lol.

{I had the same thing happen with a spiritual disciple. He wanted me to appear to him mystically & COMMAND HIM to worship me. He began his devotion, made an altar. Within days I appeared & touched him on the shoulder until it hurt & demanded,

“Worship me!”

he told me the story, then disappeared. Why? He couldn’t handle it.

Most of these guys I dominated had fantasies, such as being sodomized by a big dildo held by a woman. But when it came time to do it, they wanted the dildo smaller & smaller until it became A BUTT PLUG, lol.

I had one male with plenty fantasies but when I pulled out all the stops dominating him, HE CRIED.

What you’re doing is fantasy. So is Peter Rabbit & all the adventures created by Beatrix Potter. So was ‘Twilight Zone,’ So was the ‘Harry Potter’ series, so was Star Trek – thousands of fantasies by thousands of writers & it works, when done well. There’s an audience.

So go ahead & create hetero women who also become lesbians to control men, whatever you can imagine – if it suits the audience! It doesn’t have to MAKE SENSE the way I said, its entertainment!

If you do what I want our submissive men will hate it, if you do what they want I’ll hate it. Do what they want, they are ‘paying your bills,’ lol. Best of Luck with the novel.

PART II

Pete says: very well-said, Rasa.

Fantasy is indeed exactly that, fantasy. It may or may not contain a kernel of truth at times (and of course sometimes that kernel even can be the size of a whole cornfield if one wants), but it NEED NOT be so. Fantasy is really ultimately for it’s own sake.

Best of luck with your novel, William. Pete

Hi Rasa

I wasn’t thinking so much about the femdom scene but more about the bonobo ape and the way female bonobos dominate male bonobos through sex and sisterhood. As far as I know, the female bonobo doesn’t act like a dominatrix.

What interests me is that patriarchy does it’s best to restrict female sexuality. The extreme case of this, is that the Muslims force women to cover their bodes and even their faces and cut off the clitorises of females. Patriarchy also does it’s best to restrict prostitution and make it illegal. So what is it about female sexuality that patriarchal religions fear? That is what I’m more interested in. william
Rasa says: Hi William:

I think we spoke about this before & decided that the ‘kill switch’ to Patriarchy is women’s sexual freedom. I first heard it when channeling St. Martin Luther King Jr. - He said to me when women are sexually free, that ends Patriarchy. It all starts from there.

Think about it from all angles. Women get pregnant from any man they want, no man knows for sure, are these his kids? So he cannot claim JURISDICTION or OWNERSHIP of new people, which DISEMPOWERS him. He canot make the children work for & with him or fight with him! The woman he’s been with will not stay in the dwelling he wants her to – she goes wherever she wishes, she & other women build their own dwellings, huts, cabins etc. Or apts & houses in our ‘civilized’ society & go on welfare &/or work, sisters maybe help one another – Moms, aunts, grandmas, cousins all as One.

When the man wants sex, where does he go? He has to be on bended knee to get it, do as the women wish – work – hunt, whatever. But he cannot intimidate, frighten, abuse, beat up or dominate a woman when she is surrounded by female helpers on all sides. And he cannot gain access to her children to dominate them!

Control over women & their children is ‘the first conspiracy’ as we agreed many years ago.

Men CANNOT create new people – this disempowers them. They are helpless & powerless without women. Women CAN create new people; this gives them ALL THE POWER.

Therefore, it is imperative for men to gain control over the female & her power to reproduce – without it, he is HER SUBORDINATE. All he can do is OBEY & whatever the females want, he must do it if he wants access to them. If he doesn’t obey, he can be pushed to the outer limits of the village or society, he can become unwanted & unattended to – an OUTCAST from the society of women.

For us to follow the model of the Bonobos is better than Chimpanzees or any animal I can think of. The females rule with the help of other females, although some males are stubborn & resist their authority. But for us to HAVE TO HAVE SEX with men to keep them quiet, obedient & well behaved is way too much to expect. If we are AUTONOMOUS we should not have to do that.

That’s the difference between your view & mine. In yours, we have to OBEY THEM by appeasement. In mine THEY HAVE TO OBEY US because WE HAVE THE POWER & THE AUTHORITY.

The model I seek is: “You do as we say or you are out of here. We do not molly coddle, appease, put on an act for you just to keep you here….You either obey or get out.” Rasa

College of Matriarchal Love, College of the Gender War, Core Tenets

Getting Matriarchy Started: How?

How We Get Matriarchy Started

Re an interview Mike Adams & Laura Aboli:

At the END of this enlightening interview Mike Adams presents a form of currency which has GOLD INSIDE it which is increasingly being accepted by merchants he says. The problem with 24 carat gold & silver coins is how do you divide them & spend them? These are divided to spend. He explains the TESTING he did. I TRUST Mike Adams as I trust few people. He personally saved me long ago from this fake’ detox water’ that was being SOLD at huge prices – I bought some as it was advertised on Alex Jones, thought it was authentic. But Mike Adams TESTED it & it was TOXIC! From then on I was his fan. The merchant I bought mine from gave everyone back their money.

What I’m saying is Mike Adams can be trusted. His company even offered me a spot to do videos or pod casts on, to be part of his work. I have not yet even tried to do it for lack of ability to concentrate on what it takes but some day I might.

In this interview – it is chilling – they talk about how the globalists are going to take from us all our assets, stocks, money, cars. They will own everything even if we’ve paid for it. Hard to believe but they explain some of it, it’s eerie, scary, but it’s fact they say. And I believe them.

Am I going to get gold backs? Lol, no plans to do so – too scared. If the world comes to an end I guess I’ll just die with the rest of them. It’s too much for my mind to handle, cold give one a nervous breakdown if one dwells upon this. Maybe it won’t happen. I will stick to just what God talks to me about – Matriarchy vs Patriarchy. I can’t contain in this brain beyond that. I cannot face Hell the way I would if I accepted all of this as going to happen.

I need to pray to meditate on what God wants me to do regards my work. Listening to Mike Adams is so disturbing – Pete you said take all this with a block of salt & that makes me feel better. But still, knowing the facts what the demons are trying to do, I need to evaluate what does God want me to think, feel & work at? What is most productive for humanity? And what about promotion? I’m doing little of that because I simply cannot concentrate on production & promotion at the same time.

Oh yes, I looked up how does Dolly Parton look today – & saw an interview. She must have had comprehensive surgery as her waist is super tiny & not a sign of age on her face. And Jeff Bezos JUST GAVE HER 150 MILLION DOLLARS to do with as she wishes – which when asked she said it will be put to GOOD USE. Indeed, I do trust her more than most others she has spent big money on helping others. But the RESPONSIBIITY of spending this amount of money to help others where would one start? You’d have to have an office & staff doing research. Unless of course she needs all that to maintain her surgeries & wardrobe, lol Her costumes alone are so out there she must have a storeroom the size of Wal-Mart to house them.

From William Bond Hi Everyone:

I also find what is happening worrying as we seem to be now ruled by a gang of criminals. But I don’t think their rule will last long as they are also incredibly stupid. We see this in the way they gave away western technology and manufacturing to China. Yes, by doing this they undermined the power of the working class in the West, but turned China into the most powerful country on the planet.

We also see this in the Ukraine war. The Western elite believed that Russia was only, “a gas station posing as a country”. So they were shocked when they imposed sanctions on Russia to find the Russian economy is stronger than western economies and is winning the economic war. The Ukraine war is also demonstrating that Russia is ahead of the West in both technology and manufacturing.

So I think in the short term, things will go badly for Western countries as the criminals that rule us are destroying both North America and Europe. But if we can get rid of the criminal gang that is ruling us, then we can recover.

This is possible as we saw with Russia. In the 1990s with the fall of the USSR, Russia was a failed state rule by a drunk who allowed mafia criminal gangs and oligarchs to take over. Fortunately Putin then became leader and slowly restored law and order and put some of the oligarchs into prison and the rest capitulated to him. But doing this, in the space of 25 years he restored Russia to a powerful and stable country once again.

I think it is a pity we don’t have a present a viable matriarchal political party. It is in time of social upheaval when new political parties can emerge and take power. But the patriarchal system is always unstable and if we can get something started then patriarchy will in time break down again, giving the chance for women taking over. William

From Pete Jackson Good morning, William:

We have always been ruled by a gang of criminals, basically, it’s called patriarchy. And mostly they have been quite stupid, at least in the long term. And while Putin did (temporarily) restore power to Russia, of course, he is not exactly on the right side of history either. He is an autocratic and authoritarian dictator with lots and lots of blood on his hands, crooked as well, and he too will eventually fall from power as well. Especially as his military quagmire in Ukraine drags on and on (much like the Soviet invasion of Afghanistan, the graveyard of empires, or the American wars of Vietnam, Iraq, and Afghanistan once more). Much like Trump “draining the swamp” only to fill it back up with his own crocodile crooks.

The only way to end this vicious cycle is for Women to take over, basically. Best wishes, Pete

From William Hi Pete:

I feel about Putin the same way I feel about Trump. At one time I thought Trump was terrible, until I realized just how much the mainstream media hated him and then I changed my opinion of him. I think the mainstream media and the whole establishment hate Putin even more than Trump. Which suggests to me these men must be doing something right. Anyone the mainstream media praises, you know is a sell out. William

From Pete:

With all due respect, I guess we will just have to agree to disagree about both Trump and Putin. Though I do think there is at least a kernel of truth (possibly even the size of a cornfield) to what you just said about how the establishment rabidly hates them, it’s really more evil against evil, IMHO. To put it in Dungeons and Dragons parlance, Trump and Putin are both hot-blooded, rogue, “chaotic evil”, and are thus seen as a threat to the cold-blooded “lawful evil” and “neutral evil” psychopaths ruling the world, as well as their self-interested “true neutral” sycophantic lackeys. They are really two sides of the same coin, and the very top ruling oligarchs and their “shadow government” of course play both sides to divide and conquer. Best wishes, Pete

From Rasa Von Werder:

I see all this in RELIGIOUS terms. My mind is on the righteousness of God & how She has put the WOMAN as the Mother/leader of the family & the world. I see the Patriarchal world as the quasiHell on earth which evil men have created.

The various leaders, to my mind, are mostly, if not all, DEMONICS. I know some of them weren’t because no matter the evil they did, they still Ascended into Heaven, as I know for a fact, Richard Nixon is in Heaven because once for several months, he appeared to me daily to assist me in dream interpretation. Why, I don’t know as I never did anything for him, or did I? Maybe because I pitied him when he was being persecuted, don’t know. But I also know he did evil as he signed the ‘Special Virus Act’ funded by Congress with 500M in 1971, which led to the creation of AIDS as biological warfare, & he was also a strong part of perpetrating the Viet Nam war. Those are evil acts but yet, he ended up in Heaven.

And I lump them all, basically into ‘perpetrators or puppets’ of the Big Satan, whoever he is, that works through the Globalists. And identifying all their acts, who the main villains are, is not my expertise, althought I have some ideas, like for sure, know that WHO – World Health Orgaization is 100% Satanic. Because I know they poisoned millions of Africans with AIDS under the smallpox vaccine, & other crimes more recent. By listening to Mike Adams & others I know the names of some of the demonics but don’t know all the details.

You guys study areas I don’t & so you flush out my deficits, which is a good thing for our Cause, & you both see it from different POV’s. The way Pete described it in these letters, I am more in agreement with his view. He does not see any of these Patriarchal leaders with rose colored glasses; I like the way he describes Putin. No matter what ‘good’ these guys do, say, he made Russia strong again, he has ‘blood on his hands’ & other cruel items. So this is reality. Patriarchs are, by definition, evil. What good they do is part of a bigger agenda of evil – they do good in a temporary way, say, for their own country. But in the long run, they are part of an evil agenda which holds down women, abuses & injures women & children AS WELL AS OTHER MEN. This is the intrinsic, fundamental evil of patriarchs. They are part of this doomed game of ‘I will give you all the Kingdoms of the world & their glory if you will bow down & worship me,’ & they are bowing down & worshipping Satan through Patriarchy.

Patriarchy is Satanic, demonic, it is all evil. It has no redeeming virtue at all. What ‘good’ happens is transitory, impermanent, at base, it lacks LOVE & CARING & so it has thrown God out of the equation & its conclusion is HELL.

This is the picture I am concentrating on. But it’s OK if you guys are experts in the individual actions of these guys – I’m not so it’s good that you are!

Thanks for the 3 Kings Day greeting Pete. They are proof that Jesus was a reincarnated Guru from the East – India or Tibet. So they are extremely important in my religion.

BTW I didn’t even know the mainstream media hated Trump & Putin. It seemed to me at least half the media is for Trump, as he gets whatever he wants & looks like he’ll run for President again & maybe make it, according to Mike Adams. There will always be half the media supposedly Democrat & half supposedly Republican. To me, Tweedle de De & Tweedle de Dum like Noam Chomsky says. - Both evil Patriarchic organizations. Even if Hilary had been elected President, she would have been a Patriarch, a dick in skirt as we say. No individual woman elected into office creates a Matriarchy, the senate, Congress & Fortune 500 companies have to be represented by OVER 50% women – that is the PATH to matriarchy {although it will take a couple hundred years to undo the damage men have done} not one single impotent woman who has to do as the charlatans say. Rasa

Love these statements of Pete: “We have always been ruled by a gang of criminals, basically, it’s called patriarchy. And mostly they have been quite stupid, at least in the long term. ”

Rasa says: Patriarchy is Satanic, demonic, it is all evil. It has no redeeming virtue at all. What ‘good’ happens is transitory, impermanent, at base, it lacks LOVE & CARING & so it has thrown God out of the equation & its conclusion is HELL.

From Pete:

I am somewhat surprised that Tricky Dick Nixon (I always thought that was a funny nickname) is in Heaven, lol, but then again, there may very well have been a little bit of Light behind his otherwise dead eyes, that God felt was worth saving for some reason. Lots of gray areas, it seems. (Interestingly, Nixon was politically to the left of Bill Clinton and even Obama on most issues, at least in practice.) Even the WHO, while its leaders are clearly 100% demonic, some good people are nonetheless likely sucked into their vast orbit without realizing just how evil they really are. Best wishes, Pete

Rasa says:

That’s just it, Pete – a lot of INNOCENT &/or non-demonics are SUCKED INTO Patriarchy. Some may be cool or lukewarm toward God, but they are not demonic. And they might get sucked in for physical/material reasons that override any spiritual sensitivity they have. It is extremely difficult for us to know who goes to Hell, who does not. Truly. One example: Timothy McVeigh. Not only did he NOT go to Hell but he did only ONE YEAR TO THE DAY OF HIS EXCUTION in Purgatory {Elvis Presley did FIVE YEARS!}. People screamed at me when I told them that,

“Don’t you know what he did? – The innocent people & children, “etc.

Yes I know. But who am I to judge, or you?

Many people including ourselves get sucked into systems of Patriarchy where our hands are tied. They tell us to jump – we do it. I hate to remind you – the vaccines. So many innocent people who thought they were harmless or even beneficial got sucked in & who knows the consequences?

Then there are taxes. They are ILLEGAL – Income taxes that is. The people never ratified this when a vote was called for. Try not paying your taxes & you will be in jail. {Pete says in fact, it was ratified. OK. Thanks.}

OK being President or Prime Minister is a much bigger scale. They have to sign all kinds of things they might not want to – but if they don’t – they will get impeached or assassinated. Bucking the Globalists can mean death if you’re in a high place & doing big things. Lincoln was going to change the Federal Reserve System, he got killed. {Pete corrects me, he WAS against the bankers but not the Federal Reserve. Kennedy was against the Federal Reserve.}

So IMO the high-up leaders do lots of things they would not do if they had a choice. One should think twice before seeking high offices. But some don’t care, or care little. Thinking of one Governor who shall remain nameless who I don’t think gives a shyt about anyone. It’s that “I will give you all the kingdoms & their glory if you will bow down & worship me” once again. Rasa

Below, the event of preaching for women for equal rights in the military – got into a lot of media – & a thank you letter from President Carter’s Chief of Correspondence saying ‘You have the President’s best wishes.’ – & The speech in front of the White House that ended the Cold War {within a few short years} Also preached in front of the Canadian Parliament Peace Tower in Ottowa, Canada

ME to MOTHER GOD:

My friends William & Pete believe in women entering the political field & taking over. Wouldn’t that be nice? But here’s the rub – they aren’t that much interested in seeking offices! And so what is the route by which we will get to Matriarchy?

MG: There isn’t any ONE ROUTE, there are many roads leading to Rome.

Many people must work on many platforms, wherever they are capable. Some politics, yes. Some, the religious pulpit except we aren’t hearing from women there, are we, {except when Rasa preached before dancing}. Some as authors – there has been great influence here. Some activists, doing pod cast interviews like Laura Aboli with Mike Adams {except they aren’t talking about Matriarchy! It’s that same’ole same’ole waiting for the good guys – the man on the White Horse, the Knight in Shining Armour – all waiting for HIM – not for women!}

Somehow or other we’ve got to break the ice about getting MATRIARCHY ON THE TABLE! It’s NOT TALKED ABOUT on any mainstream TV show & only RARELY in the alternative media.

When Rasa first got involved around 1995 in studying the dissidents, they were not represented by women – they did NOT put the issue of M v s P on the table – ever. She was listening to Noam Chomsky, Howard Zinn, Michael Parenti & dozens of others through ‘Alternative Radio.’ She bought $8-900 of audio tapes. These men never even CONSIDERED the issue!

Now HOW, HOW, HOW do we get Matriarchy ON THE TABLE? Will Rasa be the one to do it eventually? Can she stay well long enough, get back in the mainstream media soon enough? Yes, mainstream, like Oprah Winfrey. Isn’t that how she got BODYBUILDING to take off? Not ALTERNATIVE but MAINSTREAM MEDIA like Esquire, To Tell the Truth, Mike Douglas, & Playboy.

There were a few alternative women doing body building {Pudgy Stockton & circus performers} – but that did not cut the mustard. An idea has to get into the MAINSTREAM.

ME: Mother God, it isn’t me per se, it’s YOU – it’s God. If you steer me to do this of course I must & I will. But I cannot do it alone. There is no one backing me up. I don’t have what it takes without God. I have to have God as I did for my other big ventures, like preaching in front of the White House & Stripping for God. No human could have thought of it or made me do it, it was YOU. And I am asking, are you going to prepare me & then steer me onto Oprah & other such shows? As a human I can only think of why they would NOT permit me voice. But can you make it happen? Or rather, WILL you make it happen?

MG: We shall see. When the time is RIPE is when you will know, not until then. Like all your other endeavors, you were not warned way ahead of time nor did you anticipate any of it – you would have been too scared, lol. We’ll spring it on you when the time comes & if we do, you will proceed.

ME: PS If & when you can empower me to do this, after it is done, I will be written out of the credit such as with all else except ‘Stripping for God’ – that was the only project they could not take from me. Is that how it will be? Suddenly people will be speaking of this issue mainstream & I will be forgotten.

MG: That is not your concern. You just obey & leave the fruits or results to us. So what if you don’t get credit? It’s God who did it, through you. God gets the credit; you shall not have Her Glory. So capish? Just be quiet & when the time comes, maybe when you truly no longer care or when you have passed on you will be recognized. Don’t think about recognition – that is the ‘kingdoms of the world & their glory’.

PS Consider how negative many other women have been with you regarding recognition. As you ou did so much work, they butted in to attack you because they were JEALOUS of any RECOGNITION you might get. They wanted to be the Queen Bee, the Big Banana, the Woman on a Pedestal. You see how WRONG that is?

If a person does what they do FOR RECOGNITION it’s not done OUT OF LOVE. If you do a favor & expect something in return, it’s not charity, it’s a sort of business. Not saying this is always wrong.

But you’re working FOR A CAUSE, the cause of God, for which God sent you to earth. Why do you seek or ask for recognition? You must give this quest up, it’s not living in perfection. You must give your love to God freely & without a price tag! God sent you to do certain things – help others get closer to God & empower women. Do it & let the chips fall where they may. So they ignore what you did, as the speech in Washington. So they wrote you out of female body building. You did it, didn’t you? It bore fruit, didn’t it? Rejoice in that, & that you OBEYED GOD, you did what the Infinite Majesty wanted & trust that She will eventually reward you with Love, if not here, then in Eternity.

Back to politics, from William:

I can remember tricky dicky. Although the Watergate scandal revealed Nixon to be a criminal, he was also Quaker and because of his Quaker beliefs he was against war. So he took the USA out of the Vietnam war. He also made peace with Communist China and tried to make peace with the USSR. This must have alarmed the Military/Industrial complex and I think this was the main reason the establishment turned against him and had him impeached. Had he been allowed to remain in power he could have ended the cold-war in the 1970s.

I think the same is true of Trump. In-spite of all his faults it seems he doesn’t like war. He tried to get out USA troops out of Iraq, Syria and Afghanistan but was blocked by the USA military. He also tried to make peace with North Korea and Russia but again the establishment turned against him. So I think he has made an enemy of the Military/Industrial complex and this is why the establishment hate him. William

From Pete:

Yes there is a lot of nuance, William. Nixon did indeed end the Vietnam War, albeit gradually, after four years of his presidency and lots of bombing. Though perhaps with the military industrial complex (MIC) and the oligarchy pulling the strings of whoever is in power, Nixon in this case, that may have been the best he could have done in practice. (Even Henry Kissinger, his secretary of state, also got credit for ending the war.) And yes, he did make peace with China too.

(The military industrial complex should really be called the “mercenary industrial complex”, since, as the late, great Major General Smedley Butler famously noted way back in the day, “War Is a Racket”. War greatly destroys wealth and lives for the many, but greatly enriches the tiny few at the top.)

I wouldn’t say Trump is anti-war per se, and like any wannabe alpha male he does luuurrrve to bang on his chest and poke every proverbial angry bear he can find, but he certainly took umbrage (and rightly so) at the ridiculous protracted military quagmires of Iraq, Syria, and Afghanistan, and wanted to get us out of those. Ironically, he was the one who made the deal with the Taliban to exit Afghanistan, which Biden inherited, and the rest is history. Like Vietnam, it was a war America lost before the war even began. As for his frenemy, Kim Jong Un of North Korea, who really knows what is going through his head. First they hated each other, then they became buddies almost overnight. So overall, I can see how the MIC and thus the establishment would not like him very much, and consider him to be a rogue and a loose cannon. Best wishes to you both, Pete {end}

College of God & Love, Core Tenets

HELP MOM & INFANT-PREVENT MAN’S SUICIDE

Two dreams – First I prevent a man’s suicide & yesterday help a Mom & infant in

Purgatory at her daughter’s request

above, Klimt “The Kiss”

1-4-24 Party & Suicidal Man

There’s a party of males & females. I see one handsome male – he has a pretty female friend but soon he’s at a table with 3 of them, one has short blonde hair in front, almost frizzy, but very attractive. I was jealous at first but when I saw him with 3 I figured they were all just friends, nothing to be jealous for.

I interview 2 young females. They were partying, meaning taking drugs. They said they’re going home & party some more. More drugs I ask? What about your future, & eternal life?

They said it didn’t concern them. They’re both wearing blue, reminds me of that Cézanne image of a man grieving, all blue & grey. One is sitting on a bench to my left, the other rolling on the floor on her back. I see them as lost souls.

At one point I go to the back wall where there’s a counter. To the left people are doing regular things but on the right, all alone, not communicating, like in a corner with himself facing the wall, bent toward it, sits a thin, lonely male, almost crying, who tells me he’s thinking of suicide.

He’s wearing a white top with vertical off-white strings going from his pants up to his shoulders, not sure if these strings go around & over his front.

I touch his back to comfort him & tell him not to feel this way. Then I get busy & go away to the party.

Before leaving I go back to him to see how he is & he’s the same. I comfort him some more.

Then I’m at another counter & my favorite young male is there to the left. But the new handsome male I mentioned comes over, & gives me a kiss that won’t quit. It’s so long – on the lips,- that I have to take another breathe & wondering why is he kissing me so long. He looks at my main guy – is he trying to make him jealous or impress him that he’s not the only young male that loves me? {end}

MEANING:

*{ME: I have the feeling this new young male is someone I’ve been watching on You tube! And channeling him, surprised how much he likes me & supports me. It’s like we met ‘somewhere in time’ & have an affinity. He’s defensive of me when I speak of those who hurt me, he said something like he’ll deal with them. I was taken aback – have never had a soul speak to me this way while channeling.

And yesterday for the first time I saw him with a good-looking female during his pioneer cabin work – like they were partners, & felt a slight jealousy. Then I see him with 3 females at a table, & the blonde with frizzy bangs sounds like me. And so, this is putting me on an equal footing with the female in his video plus someone else – like saying,

“Hey he likes this girl & someone else but he likes you just as much!”

At the counter when he comes to me & gives me the prolonged kiss is when I was channeling & he surprised me with his warmth. Kissing like that frequently means’ conversing’ as we use our lips, mouth, tongue to converse. And he did surprise me.

Then the ‘main man’ is my spiritual husband Nick. Some consideration, is he jealous as I admire this new guy so much? Souls on the ‘other side’ do get jealous. St. Charbel said he’d leave me if I took up with this young male on earth – so I didn’t. And the saying is ‘God is a jealous God.’

Now who are the loser girls? And who is wanting to commit suicide?

That definitely puts this cast of characters on this side, not in Purgatory. And it seems the person I’m comforting is brokenhearted over an affair gone bad since I see ‘strings.’ The saying being ‘no strings attached – I’m free.’ He has strings is he has a relationship.

So the dream is saying I comforted this soul & relieved his pain so he wouldn’t commit suicide.

I don’t know who the lost girls are, but they’re on earth also & I can’t help them.} {end}*

a girl who needs my help to nourish her Mom & infant sibling in Purgatory

1-3-24 Girl with Veil

Dream is totally different. I see a little girl, maybe 7 years old. She’s wearing a wedding dress with veil, white. Her head has a headdress of small pale pink flowers & from this circle hangs her simple veil. Her dress, from the waist down also has a veil that hands in the back & trails a few inches behind the bottom of the dress in curves, with the edge having the same type florets as her head.

She walks sadly & slowly before us. To her left is a door, closed, the room here is extending outwardly maybe 6-7’ into this mall where we are {like the bow of a ship but not pointed, the front is flat but curved for maybe 8’ or so. The girl describes her Mom, who’s in there & apparently she’s been inside. She tells us,

“Ma is in there with her new baby. All she has is a potato &’….she describes some vegetables & meager food, like one each of this & that say an onion, a carrot.

She says Mom has 2 rooms there & in the room behind the first is a can of oil – not edible – something like Motor Oil.

Have no idea what this is about.

MEANING:

*{ME: Wow, Mother God, do I need help on this.

MG: It sounds like this child’s Mom died from a car accident. She cannot help her because she cannot GET IN the door – Mom’s domain in Purgatory is closed to her – she is not yet able to receive the Eucharist. She walks sadly explaining the case. She’s telling you her poor Mom needs spiritual nourishment.

The ‘wedding outfit’ could also mean this child is in Heaven. When we ascend we are ‘the brides of Christ.’

Could it be she was in the same car that took the lives of Mom & infant, but she Ascended? Even so, the Souls in Heaven cannot directly minister to Purgatory {except in unusual cases} & they need a portal such as yourself to get there.

The veil behind her ‘dragging’ is she can’t do anything for her Mom & the infant – like a person ‘dragging their heels’. Why her veil dragging, not feet or another item? Because the veil represents UNION WITH GOD & she can’t help the persons on that score, needs help.

Now you know where today’s Masses will go.} {End}*

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