THE POWER OF LOVE
Theater of the Mind – Dreams
12-29-20
Many dreams. In one, my ex-Lover is telling me he’s been having ‘a lot of sex.’ He seems to be physically worn out from it – but he’s been desperate for sex since losing me.
I also have an experience with the lady – who he’s having sex with. She comes to me like a friend, confesses to me about him. I see her as two people, one a child, the other grown up. She seems to be close & intimate with me, like she’s in love or infatuated with ME. I comfort her, & send her on her way to him, leave her there & tell her I’m leaving. She & her daughter both have soft, light cocoa skin, it even seems fuzzy, it’s so soft.
*(INFATUATED WITH ME: This is a telling symbol. It says that I am inside Lover Bob through the Mystical Marriage, so when she is intimate with him, she also is with me. She’s relating to me while relating to him. That puts a big stamp of reality to the mystical marriage.
I feel no jealousy. I know this will pass. He’s in desperate need of love, trying to get it, eventually it will fall apart. So I have no worries as to us. This female is NOT his earthly wife – who obviously he doesn’t love.)*
Later on there is something about a young man – we’re in public. He’s very young, I’m old, & for us to publicly be together might create a stir. But we do get together in this glass gallery, in the front row. He’s dressed in fabric, hat & outfit, with little multi-colored flowers all over it. We are talking sweet nothings to each other & I see a man beyond looking at us, maybe jealous.
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12-30-20 – EXPERIENCE NOT A DREAM
My lover appears to me like ‘the Michelin Man’, so puffed up. Puffed shoulders, cheeks puffed up, he’s huge, has a black Mohican haircut, lots hair on top, cut crewcut on sides.
*(PUFFED UP: This is nourishment. Recently I had dreams of his being gaunt, skinny, with bags under eyes, skin wrinkled & sallow. This showed his lack of love nourishment, being empty, starving for True Love. This is the opposite.
We met during the night spiritually & gave one another True Love. What is Love in this context? It is ENERGY, the highest, most refined, powerful, nourishing energy. It is not LUST.
I dreamed yesterday he was doing a lot of sex. This is just fukking. It is not power or nourishment. Hungry for love, he’s found a girl that will let him do it, he’s doing it to her regularly, thinking he will feel relief from his pain. But it isn’t working. You can jack off with your hand or with another person’s body again & again, but without True Love, there is nothing stimulating your Soul – it’s only physical, & it can actually hurt rather than help, in the end. This is what he’s been experiencing, this is why I’m not jealous, because I know it’s shallow.
