THE ACTOR WHO WILL GO WITH ME @ THE END OF THE DAY
1-26-20-Dream interpreted for a friend
This answers a prayer ‘Give me something positive about my male friend Bryun, something honest, truthful, not wishful thinking but happy, re now &/or the future.’
I’m in a building where I go by a large office & peeking in, I think I see an actor friend of mine who’s in the middle of doing a scene. There is some ‘fuzzy’ light around him.
(I SEE AN ACTOR: SEE A MAN DOING A PART, POSSIBLY PRETENDING RATHER THAN SOMETHING ‘FROM THE HEART.’
FUZZY LIGHT COULD BE HIS POV, PERSPECTIVE. HE’S ON STAGE BUT THE LIGHT IS NOT CLEAR, A FUZZY LIGHT COULD BE SAYING ‘THIS CAN’T WORK BECAUSE THE AUDIENCE CAN’T SEE WELL.’ IT MIGHT MEAN ‘DISHONEST PERFORMANCE.’)
I wait outside until the scene is over; I walk in & say to someone who might be in charge,
(I SPEAK TO SOMEONE WHO MIGHT BE IN CHARGE: LAST NIGHT I CHANNELED MY BF’S GOD-SELF. HIS GOD PART WAS PRETTY DISGRUNTLED WITH HIS BEHAVIOR/LIFESTYLE –
REMINDS ME OF THIS STATUE I’VE SEEN IN A MEME WHERE A SMALL ANGEL IS DOING A BIG PUNCH IN THE AIR—A MAN GETS UNDER HIS FIST & SAYS ‘THIS IS WHEN YOUR GUARDIAN ANGEL HAS HAD ENOUGH OF YOUR SHYT.’)
“Oh, I thought this was a friend of mine, an actor I know, but now that I come closer I see it isn’t him.”
(‘IT ISN’T HIM’ MEANS THIS IS ‘NOT THE MAN I KNEW’ OR HE ISN’T ACTING LIKE HE USED TO.)
The man looks happy; he has light brown-reddish hair framing his face with mustache & beard. As I come closer he’s different than my friend, not as handsome & slightly chubby.
(‘HE LOOKS HAPPY’ & REDDISH HAIR ARE OPPOSITES. THE HAIR SAYS PAIN, THE ‘LOOKS HAPPY’ COULD BE DECEIVING—HE’S PRETENDING HAPPINESS. HIS PERSONALITY TO THE PUBLIC IS HE HASN’T A CARE IN THE WORLD, HAPPY-GO-LUCKY—BUT IN REAL LIFE I’VE ALWAYS KNOWN IT’S AN ACT, PRETENDING TO HIMSELF AS WELL AS THE PUBLIC.
I ALSO DON’T RECOGNIZE HIM WITH THE MUSTACHE & BEARD IS THAT AFTER OUR INITIAL DATE, I DID NOT SEE HIM FOR A LONG TIME. I MET HIM WITH LONG CURLY HAIR, CLEAN SHAVEN. YEARS LATER HE APPEARS WITH A CREW CUT, MUSTACHE & BEARD, ON THIS DATE I DON’T KNOW HE’S THE SAME MAN.
BUT THERE IS A SECOND INTERPRETATION OF THE MUSTACHE & BEARD – IT’S A DISGUISE, A MASK, THE WAY GUYS PUT ON SANTA CLAUS BEARDS.
BEING CHUBBY IS GETTING FAT WITH IN THIS CONTEXT, THE FOOD OF THE WORLD. TAKING A FAT PERSON TO HEAVEN IS IMPOSSIBLE, IT’S LIKE THE RICH MAN ENTERING HEAVEN ‘THROUGH THE EYE OF A NEEDLE.’ HE HAS TOO MANY BURDENS OR POSSESSIONS – THE EYE OF A NEEDLE WAS ACTUALLY A GATE JESUS REFERRED TO, WHICH WAS SO NARROW THAT A FULLY-LOADED CAMEL COULD NOT GET THROUGH—YOU HAD TO TAKE OFF SOME OF HIS BAGGAGE. I SUSPECT THIS CONTEXT BECAUSE IT ALSO SAYS HE ISN’T AS HANDSOME AS THE MAN I KNEW – HE HAS SUNK DOWN SPIRITUALLY. HANDSOME OR BEAUTY IS THE SOUL. )
The feeling here is ‘auditioning’ for a part, trying out a part, being tested, but this is all vague, I just know he’s an actor doing something. Oh yes, I do add this,
“My friend was trying to get ahead but he couldn’t get anywhere.”
To this the manager rather agrees like,
“Yes we know, they all try but fail.”
(THIS IS THE SAME MAN, I WILL UNDERSTAND LATER, & I AM REFERRING TO THE MAN I KNEW WHO IS NONE OTHER THAN THIS MAN. IT’S SAYING THAT HE TRIED, IS TRYING, TO GET SOMEWHERE, BUT HE’S FAILED & WILL CONTINUE TO DO SO. HE THINKS & HOPES HE’LL SUCCEED—WHEN I CHANNELED HIS GOD SELF IT SAID HE WILL FAIL AT WHAT HE’S TRYING TO DO, HE’S WASTING HIS TIME.)
Finished with this episode, I go out the back door of this imposing grey building (it is a beautiful building & has trees around near it, a suburb, not a city.
I walk out the back entrance & as I go to the other side of it I see it has more of a ‘front’ entrance & from here that actor boy comes out with his friends. I am ‘bumping into him’ it seems more than anticipated. He’s wearing a long light brown Cashmere-style coat with white underneath. There’s light all around him, his friends, this entrance.
(CASHMERE-STYLE COAT WITH WHITE UNDERNEATH: CASHMERE IS A GOAT, THE FINEST, MOST EXPENSIVE FLEET, IT’S LIGHT BROWN & LONG. IF IT WAS PLAIN WOOL I’D SAY HE’S BEING SUBMISSIVE (SHEEP) BUT GOATS REPRESENT THE OPPOSITE: REBELLION. ON THE OUTSIDE HE IS REBELLIOUS TO OUR RELATIONSHIP, BUT INSIDE, THE WHITE AGAINST HIS SKIN, CHEST/HEART SAYS ‘I AM READY FOR MARRIAGE.’ INSIDE HE IS READY, ON THE OUTSIDE IT’S HIDDEN.
THERE HAS TO BE A MEANING TO THIS IMPOSING BUILDING, IT’S LIKE AN INSTITUTION, A MUSEUM, BUT OLD-FASHIONED. IT’S GREY STONE, BIG TREES AROUND, TWO ENTRANCE/EXITS BATHED IN LIGHT.
MY INNER VOICE CALLS IT A ‘MAUSOLEUM’. I ASK WHY, THE ANSWER IS:
THE DEAD PAST, A BURIAL PLACE, WHAT IS FINISHED.
LIKE WHEN SCROOGE ASKED THE SPIRIT WHAT IS THIS?– THE LONG PAST? & SPIRIT SAID, ‘YOUR PAST.’
THIS CLUE IS SAYING THE PART; THE LIFE BRYUN IS LIVING NOW WILL SOON BE OVER. I EXIT THIS PLACE (THIS LIFE SITUATION) ONE WAY, HE EXITS THE OTHER, & WE MEET, & HE WILL GIVE ME A MESSAGE, SEEN AT THE VERY END.)
Now I’m in trouble as I must get home, I’m in a strange neighborhood with no friends, no transportation, except one thing – the subway train.
I go there & the subway is the last type of venue I want to take (not sure why—maybe it’s not safe) but since I have no alternative I ask people about the schedule.
One lady there does help me out. She tells me the last train out is at 5:25 & it’s now 5am, make sure you don’t miss it she says, & she also writes down for me on a small slip of paper in large letters, numbers. They are something like 19/?/? But this is extremely vague, I might have the numbers wrong, but they give directions.
I bump into the actor again & I commend the lady, saying how important she was to me, she gave me directions to get home.
(GETTING HOME IN THIS CONTEXT IS GETTING TO ONE’S GOAL, WHERE THEIR HEART IS ‘HOME IS WHERE THE HEART IS.’ THE LADY IS MOTHER GOD WITHIN ME PROBABLY.
HOW DO I GET TO WHERE I WANT TO GO, WHICH WAS HINTED AT IN THE BEGINNING, LOOKING FOR MY ACTOR FRIEND. HOW DO I FIND HIM & GET WITH HIM? HOW DO I BEGIN OUR SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP?
I DON’T WANT TO TAKE THE LOWER ROUTE – SYMBOLIZED BY THE SUBWAY. THIS ROUTE DOES NOT SEEM TO BE IDEAL, BUT I SAY IN THE DREAM I HAVE NO ALTERNATIVE.
A LADY, WHO IS NO DOUBT MOTHER GOD, HELPS ME & GIVES DIRECTIONS. SAYS NOT TO MISS THE TRAIN—THERE’S ONE LEFT TONIGHT. NOT SURE WHAT THAT MEANS, SOUNDS OMINOUS LIKE ONE LAST CHANCE. THAT COULD BE NO MORE THAN A FEAR EXPRESSED.)
Now once again I’m standing with the actor with his friends near him—it’s where I noticed his clothes, his coat. We seem to be back at the spot where he exited the building, there again, talking. He seems interested in his friends & I ask him where he’s going & with whom, & he says, smiling,
“I’M GOING WITH YOU.”
(WE HAD A CLICHÉ WHEN WE WERE GOING STEADY. I’D ASK HIM WHAT HE WAS DOING TONIGHT & HE’D SAY, LIKE THE 2ND DATE ‘BEING WITH YOU.’ THEN HE’D ASK ME & I’D SAY THE SAME THING. IT WAS A STANDARD REPLY.)
He has now turned handsome – like the original friend I thought he was. I am a bit flustered by his remark & say,
“I’M FLATTERED.”
(THERE’S A FEELING HERE THAT I THOUGHT HE’D CHOOSE ANOTHER FRIEND TO GO WITH, THE FRIENDS ARE DESIRABLE, BUT WHEN HE SAYS HE’S GOING WITH ME I’M STARTLED.
AND THAT IS THE ANSWER TO THE PRAYER OF WHAT WILL HAPPEN WITH US, WHAT GOD HAS BEEN SAYING FOR YEARS SINCE THE DAY WE MET – THAT HE *IS* MY HUSBAND.)
MEANING:
‘HE BECOMES HANDSOME AGAIN’ AT THE END IS HE CHANGES HIS BEHAVIOR FROM BAD TO GOOD. ‘HANDSOME IS AS HANDSOME DOES.’
IN THIS WORLD, WHERE ‘ALL’S A STAGE’ HE PLAYED A PART OR PARTS HE THOUGHT HE’D WIN AT. WHEN ALL IS FINISHED, HE KNOWS IT WON’T WORK, HE COMES BACK TO YOU.
THE PART ABOUT THE SUBWAY IS AN ANALOGY BETWEEN THE ‘HIGH ROAD’ & THE ‘LOW ROAD.’ THE HIGH ROAD IS HE LOVES YOU, CAN’T RESIST BEING WITH YOU, LISTENS TO YOU & FINDS SUCCESS.
THAT DID NOT HAPPEN. THAT IS TO SAY HE LOVES YOU BUT HE DID NOT LISTEN TO YOU, HE WENT HIS OWN WAY THINKING HE KNEW BETTER.
