Re Fame & Fortune – This World and the Next
Which Path Will You Take?
A good person asked me a question & this is my answer for now & all time. The life of Jesus Christ gives us answers to most of the mysteries of life, & this is one of them, concerning fame & fortune, & what transpired for Jesus could happen to any others wanting to be a Saint.
Before Jesus started his ministry he went into the desert {mountain} to pray – to do a discipline to get close to the God within him – who He called Father. This is done with many hermits & Saints, {St. Antony, St. Benedict, St. Francis of Assisi-many others}, who went into a deserted place, or stayed within their own premises {St Catherine of Siena, St. Clare, St. Teresa of Avila-many others} away from people – to get in tune with that God within.
At the end of Jesus’ fast Satan took him to a high place & showed him all the cities expanded before him & piped,
“I will give you all the Kingdoms of the world & their glory if you will bow down & worship me.”
Of course Jesus told him to scram & that was ‘the Last Temptation.’
Now Jesus was on a Mission – he had work to do. He could have rubbed shoulders with the ‘greats’ of his day. Maybe they could have worked together.
There was Pontius Pilate – a Governor of the most powerful Empire on earth. Jesus could have done miracles for the Romans & received rewards. But He didn’t.
And King Herod had a lot of earthly power. Jesus could have been his right hand man – a spiritual advisor – Herod would have rewarded him – but He would not even SPEAK to Herod.
And the High Priest –Jesus could have hob knobbed with him & worked as a team enlightening the public. Of course the High Priest didn’t know scat about Truth – but Jesus could have influenced him. But he did no such thing.
Jesus went about his business working with no such men – He moved to a different drummer. He did associate with the Great John the Baptist – they were on the same page. And He plied his Mission with those who heard him & OBEYED his teaching – no one else There was ONE WAY to do his Mission, not two ways. What was that way?
It was his spiritual Father – God within – that is who Jesus listened to & worked with. He did not listen to the ‘wisdom’ of the world, which is fake. He listened to the Real Deal – God’s Truth – & did that & only that no matter what the consequences.
You see there are two Voices or Masters – you cannot listen to both, it’s one or the other. If you listen to one you reject the other, if you love one, you don’t respect the other. “No one can serve two masters” – NOT if they’re in conflict – & the WORLD & GOD are frequently in TOTAL conflict!
Let’s say you have your heart set on doing a certain thing. But God inside you – the still small voice if you can hear it – says no. But doing this thing might be a large jump toward success. Which do you do?
If you’re like Jesus you say
“Not my will – Thy will be done.”
If you’re of the world – which is RULED by Satan {Satan is the Prince of this world} you go for it.
Now those who follow Jesus’ ways, they might do things that derail their earthly success or prevent it for a time – but they follow God’s way. {“I am the Way, the Truth, & the Light”.}
One who follows the world might seem, temporarily, to be a winner, but in the end, they are not – Because our success is not determined in time & space. Our life is but 75 years, then gone & before us is Eternity. Our actions determine where & how that is spent – Hell, a long or short Purgatory, then Heaven. Life never ends – there is no death.
Sometimes God makes us do strange things that go against our grain.
Look what God did to Jesus – you can’t get worse than that. But look where He is today! The King of Kings, Lord of Lords – no one is Higher or more respected & loved than He!
The disciples were flabbergasted even though He explained –it fell on deaf ears. They thought Jesus whole ministry had gone down the tubes – all for nothing! He failed – they failed. They didn’t see the BIG PICTURE – Only when the Holy Spirit came upon them did they get it……..
I remember in 1978 I was working at the Playboy Club in Chicago. Every Sunday I had literature that I handed out on the street, religious stuff I had written. But one Sunday I heard the still small voice saying,
“Stop handing out literature.”
I thought this must be Satan, so I kept doing it – but after that NO ONE would take my flyers! So I said,
“OK God, I stop.”
And on the corner was a Cathedral. I went there, sat way to the back & meditated, & I said to God,
“What do you want me to do?”
She said
“Contact every news media, TV show & ask to appear,”
And I said,
“But who will want me?”
And She said,
“You haven’t tried.”
So I then spent every Sunday all day doing research on the media & writing letters to them & preparing to call them, & at the end of this, I got on every TV Show & every newspaper in Chicago including the biggest, & I even got an additional article in Playboy on “Stripping for God.”
That was a blitz that began my road to fame.
Years later I wanted to quit dancing as it was tedious & not leading to any sort of solvency. I experimented with starting a business but wasn’t sure if it would work – God told me to quit dancing & proceed with the business – I did & it was a monumental success – the beginning of my fortune.
BUT eleven years later God told me to QUIT the business – just like that. I again wasn’t sure if it was God & I continued & God appeared to me in nightmares that scared the SHIT out of me – I QUIT!
God wanted to me to leave this business & get married to a man who’d been asking me for years – but I refused. We’d been engaged forever. But God knew something I didn’t – the poor man would die soon. If I didn’t marry him I would not be his heiress & – his sister would get it all & this after 14 years together. Then God seeing my stubbornness told me to do something. I did it & it was a TRICK to get us married & we were.
And just like God knew this man died within two years & left me SOME his sizeable assets – his sister got the rest, & I was secured for life with that & my personal assets. No money worries for life – but you see – this was God telling me what to do – not the world. And it might be important to note – I was celibate during this time for thirty years – & my husband & I never had sex – before or after the marriage.
And I might also add – several rich {& handsome} men asked for my hand – one of them had 200 million – but I refused them all, because it wasn’t the path of God for me…….
One of the most BIZARRE requests or commands God made to me concerned “Stop suffering, quit the celibacy & go out, have fun.”
I took my vow of celibacy May 27, 1978 & thought it would be FOR LIFE. But after 10 years God appeared to me & asked me if I wanted OUT of it. I said no.
Again, ten years later – I thought abut it a couple weeks with anxiety & finally again said no.
Now it’s like over 30 years of celibacy, no kind of dating, making out, none of this or that – I did not even allow my fiancé to HOLD MY HAND.
But this time, God steps in. She says,
“If you don’t do this, you will be outside the will of God.”
That’s how, at the age of 63, I became a cougar! {No God did not say ‘be a cougar’ but the older men I met only wanted GIRLS.}
I still don’t understand the reason God wanted this for me, but I suspect it was because the vow had more than done it’s work, it was time to do something else with my life that would HELP EMPOWER WOMEN. So my Mission would this way continue. I did NOT wish for this. After all Jesus didn’t want to get the Cross, but he HAD TO. I did not want to leave my life of celibacy but I HAD TO.
As I said this event sounds hard to believe but other things God made me do or not do were also difficult but in the end, I know God was 100% correct. And again, it was a sort of TRICK or WHITE LIE similar to when God tricked me to marry my husband – to make sure of my security. {God did not want me desperate for money – She wanted me safe & solvent!} And this was also saying I was to quit celibacy to HAVE FUN – but mostly it was NOT FUN – a bit of it was but there was worse suffering than being celibate. My celibacy had led me to PEACE – that was trashed……
But let’s take a look at another woman who went ‘the way of all flesh’ & where it got her – It was Marilyn Monroe.
Marilyn did not consult God for her behavior or actions. She did what her body said to do – which was have sex with men who could get her forward in her career. Johnny Hyde, the William Morris agent, was pivotal.
Not only did he get her started in jobs but he paid for the surgery that made her the beauty we’re all mezmerized by. She had her nose & chin altered & I believe her lips. No one wanted the young Marilyn before her transformation – she was a bit of a failure. But after the reconstruction she was considered the most beautiful & sexy female of all time.
By following the way of the world, as well as being talented & hard working, Marilyn made it to THE TOP. No woman was more successful than she in her career. But what was Marilyn’s end? Death by suicide. She had overdosed before but her stomach got pumped, this time it was curtains.
And so here is an example how following the way of the world might give us TEMPORARY success, but does not guarantee it for a long run. Had she followed God – she could have lived a long life into her 90’s, & left behind a bigger legacy. Instead she dies age 36 – & mind you – her life was MISERABLE. Yes, she was between a rock & a hard place, there wasn’t much she could do for happiness. She was an ORPHAN with an insane Mom & a Dad deserter. That was the void that was not filled, that was the biggest reason for her misery. She tried to find happiness IN THE WORLD with PEOPLE but failed. People let her down – God would not have.
I think I have made my point. There are two roads – the way of God, the way of the world. I could have been a “star” had I married this one man in show business. But it would have been SHALLOW success, just one star out of thousands, proving what?
God had chosen me & sent me, like Jesus & many other God Lovers – into the world on a MISSION. What was my Mission? Female Empowerment – the Gender War – I was a soldier or maybe a ‘General’ in the fight to turn women into the great Matriarchs they once were.
To do this I did not see the BIG PICTURE, but God did. My only task was to LISTEN to God – hear God & OBEY & what had to be done would get done. God would use me with whatever talents, abilities & looks I had, for this specific mission.
There is no man, no flesh, mine or anyone’s, who could figure out the turns in the road.
First it was body building which helped women gain the machisma they needed to stand up to men – to prove that with muscle power, including the use of testosterone – they could give men a run for their money. Men previous to me lorded over women in body building. We were but cheesecake.
Then there was Stripping for God. Who could have predicted it? Who could have imagined a stripper giving sermons before dancing? What did this so? Prove that such a woman could be inside the Grace of God, not automatically a lowlife slut without morals – on drugs, shallow & stupid. Dorothy Parker said: “You can take a whore to culture but you can’t make her think.”
There were TWO other incredibly important things that CHANGED THE WORLD I did I will leave out of this article & explain elsewhere but let me get to the last part.
In being a COUGAR- doing it, accounting it in books, having proof through my photography – I have created an organized account that liberates women. After all, sexual liberty for us is the lynchpin against Patriarchy to establish Matriarchy – so again, I did God’s will which no one could anticipate.
Now I will leave the FINAL WORD to Mother God. She is God & She is within me. I ask Mother God is this it? No success for me, no recognition, no nothing? I did all I could, I suffered, but no banners flying, no fireworks, no accolades? Just an old soldier fading away?
Mother God: Not so fast. You’re not dead yet. I will reward you with some of the things of the world before you die. I did not put you on a pedestal before because I did not want the fake love of the word to go to your head & curtail or distract your path. It had to be a road covered with thorns. But now the thorns are gone & I will give you some of the joy of success you could have had. There will be a movie made & you will be more famous than you imagined, & before you die you will know the world will not forget you. It’s because you OBEYED God. So hang in there, fasten your seat belt, because a roller coaster will arrive & it’ll be filled with thrills & laughs. Yes my girl, you will have the last laugh. {End}
