Jesus brings me sufferings from his Grace
He takes me to a place that is a private residence, out in the country. Is it Autumn? – as all the leaves are mostly golden colors, on the trees & all over the ground. It’s peaceful. All we do is sit in his white pickup truck, in the driveway. The place is also surrounded by woods, golden trees everywhere on this property, but the rest of the woods are a quiet green.
12-26-23 “Husband Visit” – Nick appears in the form of my good husband Richard.
At one point I get out & walk around. I look at the house & see a man in it, who does not come out. He’s wearing a white top. I just relax & lie down in the leaves on my back & rest, then I return to the truck.
At some point rich disappears & I find him in a sort of ‘room’ inside the truck! Behind a large tire or something, looking sort of not sure how to describe it. Not sheepish, just wanted to be alone for a minute. I ask him what he was doing & it’s nothing, just like hands in his pocket.
And again we just sit next to each other. Funny thing is he’[s to my right, yet he’s the driver who brought the vehicle here,.
Then I’m outside the truck & the man in the house comes over. He’s short & thin, very humble & reminds me of this Podcaster called Paul Wallis. I say to him,
“Thank you for allowing us to park here & enjoy ourselves.”
He’s shy with me & says something nice & then kisses my hand. This is done with great humility & respect.
Then start THE BEARS.
First black ones appear – a big & small one with white markings by their throats – in front of us. At first we start to run but inner voice says be still, they will not attack.
Then a bear off to the right, beige. We don’t run.
Then another from the left, grey. We don’t run.
Was there one more? At least 3 but we are told to just stay calm, they will not pursue us. Running might bring out their chase instinct.
MEANING:
I sense after thinking, Paul Wallis represents Our Lord. He did a Podcast about Jesus & his rise from the dead – we agree he had passed out on the Cross, was revived, & went to India where he lived to 81. I wrote an article called “Paul takes Jesus off the Cross.”
OK, this is a message from Jesus.
The bears at the end signify sufferings.
The private property, which Jesus gives myself & husband {Nick} access to enjoy, is his love. The golden leaves prove it – gold is love, leaves are success.
He is here saying when He kisses my hand {after I thank him}
“The next several things you will suffer come from my Grace.”
I took issue with Jesus kissing my hand & my inner voice said,
“He kisses your hand the way he washed the feet of the Apostles.”
This is a type of warning not to ‘run’ or try to escape these sufferings, just bear them & it will be fine.
Indeed it started that very night. My left arm began to hurt so much it took my breath away. My right arm hurt also, not as much. Had trouble sleeping. This is the big & little black bears.
The next night, last night was another bear or bears. The left side of my neck hurt, then my head, my whole left side of my body – {it was NOT heart related.} I also felt some sort of an ‘anxiety attack’. I couldn’t sleep most of the night.
Not sure there will be another bear or bears, but whatever it is I know it’s from God. It’s to do penance for the Souls in Purgatory, pretty sure. I was so exhausted I couldn’t say the Masses, but will make up for that.
What has Nick to do with this coming to me in the white pickup truck? Why does he sit with me & why is he hiding in that room for a bit?
Probably because he’s with me, in my domain or Soul arena, so he’s suffering with me. Him hiding for a while could be reluctance to suffer, escape it, but it’s inevitable, as being with me is some of his Purgatory.
The truck again, it’s from God, his being with me. Why the forest, woods all around, green?
Its life, & it’s all a success, all the leaves of the trees mean success. When God is in the middle of your heart & life, life is Sacred. {end}
