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BIG GORILLA COMES CALLING

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BIG GORILLA COMES CALLING 

Sits on my porch

 

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          Have never had a dream like this! I’m at my porch at the house when here comes up from the lane a big gorilla. He walks like a man & has a small waist, other than that, he looks just like the ‘silverbacks’ – huge head, shoulders, arms & legs – I don’t see his back but they call mature males ‘silverbacks’ because the hair on their backs turns silver.

 

          *(GORILLA: Is the lover Jim. This is his ‘lower self’ or instinctive, primitive part. This is his acting on BASIC INSTINCTS, & having FEAR like a wild animal. This might be saying that his behavior has been that of an animal trying to survive, you have to be careful with him because when his fear is aroused he reacts violently. You are trying to acclimate him slowly, get him used to being near you, not to provoke his fear.)*

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          The gorilla strides in purposefully – He reminds me of Shabani, a famous one in Japan who is loved by the ladies because he looks & acts so human.

 

          He walks right up to my porch & parks himself on a railing, which is solid, painted white, it has this decoration that is just like what I have around my doors inside my house, which I had my carpenter fix – they look like Grecian columns on the top, under the cornice. The top of this ‘railing’ or fence is quite wide, plenty of room for a seat – might be two feet wide.

 

          *(PLACE WHERE HE SITS: There are several signs here which say ‘marriage,’ & ‘permanence.’

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          The fact that he arrives – comes to me & ‘purposefully’ says he wants to be with me. The porch, especially the fence where he sits, is white, which says marriage.

 

          The decoration under the top {where he sits} is like that underneath a Grecian column – this would put him as a fixture on top of a column. A column is a SUPPORTING PILLAR so this could be saying he’s a strong fixture here – with me. It seems like it’s only a porch, but there is a reference to this design being INSIDE my house by two of my doors. And so this hearkens to ‘I want to be inside with you, in your house, in a relationship.’)*

 

          What I have to master here is my FEAR. I’ll call him Shabani. I have to be totally RELAXED & not AFRAID. My immediate human reaction is fear, just as I once felt with the bears, but when I habituated the bears, they got over their fear of me & I got over mine.

 

          *(FEAR: What is my fear? It’s of HIM HURTING ME. This says tread slowly, carefully not to FRIGHTEN HIM as he reacts from a primitive instinct of violence. {This is not acted out literally – he does not, in real life, hit anyone or do anything physically violent, but he acts out to me in a REVENGEFUL manner when I did things to make him jealous.} This explains the motive of his brutal actions toward me, the cold heartedness—apparently it is fear based.)*

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          I put great effort into totally relaxing & not being afraid, as that is the KEY to what? To having him here & him NOT HURTING ME while I host his presence. I did try to touch him a couple times – I have to be careful how I do that, one step at a time, slowly, because he might react in a bad way if he’s frightened. When I touched him I felt his nails/claws, don’t want those claws mauling me.

 

          So as we sit here my associates, as they come up, will misunderstand the situation & be eager to kill him because they think he’s dangerous. I particularly see my sister coming up & she’s holding like a basket & in it is a young female, like her child, but a fully-formed human but she’s small enough to be carried like an infant, & I also think she has a gun, which she might instantly point at Shabani & kill him – as she thinks I’m in danger.

 

          I gently but quickly caution her not to shoot him, I am alright with him, he won’t hurt me, I’m acclimating him to be near me. And we are near, close enough, arm’s length – to touch each other. He doesn’t do anything, just sits there like he belongs here.

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          *(SISTER: My pragmatic self. She looks at Lover Jim & his behavior & wants to INSTANTLY END THE RELATIONSHIP – so do my other associates or personalities. They do not want him to hurt or kill me – as a gorilla could do. His appearance as a gorilla also explains his POWER OVER ME IN THE PAST – he had the ability to kill me because I loved him so much & he was cruel, cold & uncaring when he wanted to be. This is a recipe for great harm—people die of broken hearts. And so, all the logical, pragmatic parts of me are thinking of removing him from my life.

 

          But my God Self, the dreamer, has another solution. She has discerned what his behavior is based on – instinctive fear like a wild animal. What does he fear? The same thing I fear – being hurt. He fears my leaving him, not loving him, not caring. When I did stunts to make him jealous this exacerbated his fear & he LASHED OUT from the primitive self, he did not reason it out & do things he should have done, he was like the guy who injures his female when he suspects her of wrong doing. Of course he did this psychologically, not physically.

 

          This dream solves a problem, explains his cruelty. No matter what his behavior, I must not be afraid of him hurting me. I can handle this truth now, as I am no longer in ‘crazy love’ or ‘obsessive’ about him, I am relaxed & becoming more so. Two people cannot both be uptight, anxious & afraid in the relationship – one must be in control, & that one must be me. He is the wild animal, I am the God.

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The dream does portray that he loves me, wants to be with me permanently. Being a ‘silverback’ also bodes the ‘forever’ silver wedding anniversary.)*

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ENOUGH REVENGE?

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HES DRAGGING A CART

 

A man I loved has some heavy baggage.  8-7-20

 

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Interpreted for a friend

 

        There is some sort of date / meeting with my ex-best friend, lawyer Jim. He seems to be well off, in a good social place as we meet – a good catch for marriage.

 

        His Mom is a part of this. I’m talking to her confidentially off to the side, as she sits on a fence of sorts. She feels shaky about the meeting, but I assure her,

 

        “We have to meet to settle this – even if we break up we must meet.”–{Words approx.}

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        She’s thin, dressed in a yellowy with charcoal grey dress like from the old days style, seems WORN OUT– Like people you see in the depression, young parents thin & wrinkled from overwork & poverty. Her hair is medium long, mousy brown/grey.

 

        *(MOTHER: This is his God-self or higher self, his conscience. All his resources have been drained due to his own actions. He’s in a state of neediness & indecision like ‘what do I do next? {re Jane—do I see her or ignore her?}’)*

 

        It’s as if even his God-self is querulous whether we should meet – in real life She would want more than anything for us to get together because it’s the only way he can heal – but this shows his UNREADINESS, UNCERTAINTY, – being ‘on the fence.’)*

 

        Jim is wearing the tweed jacket like the one I had him wear – a sign of affluence.

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        *(LOOKING AFFLUENT, A GOOD CATCH FOR MARRIAGE: This is only his FRONT, we shall see that inside, where people cannot detect, is another story. He is not affluent with joy, he is poor in spirit, an exhausted, drained person who drags a load of baggage behind him, in a pitiful, humiliating condition since or breakup.

 

TWEED JACKET: Symbol of how I dressed him up when I was promoting him, he looked like real class, a GQ gentleman.)*

 

        But now I see him AFTER HOURS in his real condition – the face he showed in the day was a front. In other words, when I was pursuing him, loving him, he appeared as a GREAT SUCCESS—now he’s this.

 

He is dragging a cart like the one I have {that I have DISCARDED} but 2.5 times as big, made of criss cross metal, beige, full of unknown things. It’s HEAVY & he must drag it – I thought he had a HIGH PAYING JOB but his real work is dragging this cart each night laboriously, & it pays little. This job of his is HUMILIATING, not a lawyer but a cart-dragging grunt job. There are ropes around him to drag it. He is PITIFUL.

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        *(CART, HEAVY, DRAGGING, PITIFUL, HUMILIATING:   This is Big Lover’s condition WITHOUT YOU.

 

        The things in his cart don’t look heavy – they’re similar to the see-through boxes you were putting into your hair – they are physically light but this is saying the BURDEN is PSYCHOLOGICAL & IT’S DREARY.

 

        He is burdened by the fact HE HAS LOST YOU. This is shown in the criss cross pattern of the cart – crossing out your liaison, this he is DRAGGING the way Marley {in Scrooge} dragged his CHAINS in the next life – the burdens HE HIMSELF CREATED IN LIFE by his sins.

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        Apparently Lover knows he did wrong in the way he treated you – you brought him all good – he chose the way of the devil; evil, sin & drugs & this is WEIGHING ON HIS CONSCIENCE, HE’S FEELING GUILT & REMORSE. That is his BAGGAGE, the heavy load one carries not physically but psychological, spiritual heaviness. One cannot enter heaven, or one cannot FLY with their soul into Heaven by the weight of their sins. {In the Egyptian Book of the Dead the soul is on a scale, on the other side of which is a feather. If it weighs more than the feather it cannot enter Heaven.}

 

YOU DISCARDED YOUR CART similar to this. This says you gave up the attachment, obsession re your relationship with Lover – his cart or baggage is 2.5 times as big, so much for his saying you were the bad guy chasing him all over town while he was trying to stay away from you.

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COLOR, BEIGE, SORT OF GOLDENY: The cart tells many details, one being in its color. This gives up that he still loves you, is in love, that’s why it’s so heavy, humiliating, & pays little. He’s getting little profit of love from you—‘being paid little for a lot of humiliating work.’

 

Before, he was a LAWYER, a CLASS ACT when you were together, when you held him in high esteem, he received a lot of PROFIT from you loving him – you held him up before all his friends, the world, with your projects concerning him. Part of the respect was WHO YOU ARE – A celebrity among nobodies. He felt like a big deal – his friends also thought he was. Now no one gives him any accolades, except the drug users & losers on Face Book, losers like himself, all holding each other up, praising one another for doing their insignificant music – music which will never go anywhere, but they’re all in the same boat, all trying but getting nowhere, never will get anywhere, all deluded, all giving one another ‘likes’ & saying how HOT the work is, all HUMORING ONE ANOTHER.

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Not so when you worked for him, praised him, actually had him on the way to stardom—he negated all you did for him, accused you of ‘exploiting’ him—thwarted your plans, your love, your hopes & dreams. Opted for a DRUG ENABLER, thought he’d take revenge on you refusing him sex – not speaking to you for a long while, thinking he didn’t need you, he’d be a star through his music—{no such possibility, never will be.}

 

Now years have gone by. He’s done nothing but drug himself & churn out the same music with his homo ‘producer’. He’s been doing this same deal for eleven years & not got anywhere; you’d think he’d learn? He’s still expecting the big time – magical thinking – that by some miracle Sony will see his songs, contact him, a lucrative contract, fame & fortune. He doesn’t have the slightest idea how show biz works or how to make it, the years are ticking by, since he rejected me has been 5 years – he’s gotten not one inch further, never will, he’s had his revenge, has it been sweet? This is the BAGGAGE he’s dragging, with the ROPES on him; he’s ATTACHED to this burden, this pain, this LOST OPPORTUNITY.)*    

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        As for me I am preparing my hair. It’s too flat on top, I am adding some sort of like see-through boxes filled with hair clips, like what I have where I keep this stuff, three such boxes, but my friends say this is wrong. Then I try some sort of pale yellow puffy material with white puffs, to add to the top of my hair to build it up – that isn’t right either.

 

        *(PUFFING UP MY HAIR ARTIFICIALLY: These are things similar to the baggage Lover is dragging. I’m asking if I did wrong by stopping our meetings – should I feel guilty? The answer is no, you did the right thing, don’t add this to your mind.)*   

 

        Earlier in the week had dreams of frustration, not being able to find where I put my white Caddy & not being able to get on the right road. I wanted to reach the city, there was a specific thing I had to do there, but when I set off I ended up on a road way into the country.

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        *(FRUSTRATION DREAMS: These are the lack of getting together with Big Lover, whatever way he’s portrayed, to start our relationship / marriage.)*

 

        Earlier there was also a dream about Lover as Pablo, a lowlife Cretan—he wanted us to get together & enter this POND which looks beautiful at first, like a paradise, but then turns into a black whirlpool.

 

        *(PARADISE INTO BLACK WHIRLPOOL: This is when Lover uses me like a whore—he wants to do this again. The sex seems like paradise, but his ignoring me until the next time is Hell. He treats his drug enabler like the real wife, me like I’m nothing.)*

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        OPEN LETTER TO MY LOVER BOY:

 

        So you see I am spying on you. I can read your mind, I know how you feel. You can’t hide from me, you are vulnerable.

        One question looms—have you had enough revenge? You wanted to hurt me for everything – every little thing I did to make you jealous instead of changing your ways & being right, you decided to hurt me twice as bad. You succeeded – then – it doesn’t hurt any more.

        It doesn’t hurt because I grew spiritually, I overcame my desperation for you, I lifted myself out of it by the grace of God. But you didn’t. You are still hurting, & hurting badly. You are feeling remorse, regret, grief at what you lost. You thought you wouldn’t lose anything when you pushed me out, but you lost the entire good God sent to you.

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        What did you hope to gain? Applause from a bunch of homies – all losers, many druggies, none of them is a success or a high roller, they are small potatoes in a small town – where I found you & hoped to elevate you to the top note.

 

        You had delusions that with this homo producer you’d become a star. Are you one inch closer? Who’s listening? And I might add, I’m listening. Your songs have deteriorated. They no longer have meaning & emotion. When you were with me you hit the high notes, now your songs have sunk into what? Not sure how to explain. A dreary nothingness. The life has gone out of you & so your songs.

 

        Have you had enough revenge? I ask again. It isn’t hurting me any more. You praised your drug enabler, made her your wife. You put her out there as your one & only, me as a nothing – no praise, no thanks, nothing for me.

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        Your revenge is on you. What you did to hurt me hurts you. I am over it, I have moved on. Getting back my energy, my stardom, my self respect – so many things you drained me of, you & your demons.

 

        Do I hate you? Not at all. I pity you & you are forgiven as if you did nothing wrong. I will still help you but you have to come to me, ask for help. You have to get off the drugs, but you cannot do it with the enabler, she’s as bad as you – your parents are in the same boat.

 

        Do I need you in my life, like I did before? No, but you need me. Where will you get without me? Who will help you? There is no one near you or around you who can help in any way – they all need help, it’s the blind with the blind. You’re lost, they’re if not lost, just regular ordinary folk with nothing on their resume. They will not be in history books, they will be forgotten—the same fate calls you if you stay where you are.

 

!!!9@111!!

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SWEDEN WAS RIGHT ON COVID

!!!!! 111!!!9!!!1!1!1

WHY SWEDEN WAS RIGHT ON COVID

 

FROM AJAX THE GREAT

 

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We are sleeping with the enemy.  It is warfare not against any country any more, it is the people – any people.

 

The policy in Sweden (which I had generally been rooting for all along) was to NOT do a lockdown at all, keep nearly everything open, and basically let the virus run its course (thus allowing herd immunity to develop) in the general population while also protecting the most vulnerable members of society.  There were some very modest restrictions to “flatten the curve” a bit, such as banning gatherings over 500 people (later cut down to 50), and (belatedly) banning visitors to nursing homes, but everything else was just voluntary recommendations. And not only did they not require masks anywhere, they actually advised against them since they regarded masks as a false sense of security (the latter claim I am not sure if I agree with).  

 

And while like many countries Sweden did make some regrettable mistakes along the way (particularly with their nursing homes in the earliest-hit areas), which they at least owned up to, their general light-touch policy ultimately paid off in the long run, being virtually virus-free now, with a cumulative per capita death toll still significantly lower than their lockdown counterparts of the UK, Belgium, Spain, Italy, or the ten worst states of the USA.  And the Swedish second city of Malmo, who actually did a great job protecting their nursing homes, boasts a lower death rate than even Copenhagen, Denmark.  

!!!9@!!! 

We can all learn a lot from Sweden and their moderate mitigation strategy.  

 

Interestingly, Belarus also had an even laxer policy overall than Sweden, and one of the mildest outbreaks in the world in terms of death rates.     End from Ajax the Great

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RESPONSE FROM RASA VON WERDER  

 

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They keep us under control by paying salaries to people – they get the salaries from our taxes – These are the people like military, police, bureaucrats, doctors, teachers, researchers, elected officials, etc.  These are then told what to do to us, what to think, how to act, how to make us do things.  

 

Do you wonder WHY Sweden had a policy different from any other country? Does it make you take note that they are NEUTRAL when it comes to WAR? They are outside the WAR ZONE & war machinery of the way the rest of the world is under the power of the WAR MONGERS?

 

          And so, not being under the due influence of the war machinery this says they are able to act outside this system, they are not under its intimidation, they make righteous, pro-human decisions, policies. But what of the rest of the world?

 

         The rest of the world is being ruled by the SHADOW GOVT, sometimes called ‘Illuminati,’ but they are much worse than the people imagine –more deadly, demonic & more ill-intentioned than any human can imagine.

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          This is the throne of Satan – “Satan is the Prince of this World” Jesus said – so it was thousands of years ago, so it is today. My watchword is “Satan rules the world, & he works through men,”—this is Patriarchy, why we work for Matriarchy.

 

          This system, well, let’s say Satan, what Satan & his co-workers want for the human race: He wants UTTER DESTRUCTION. He has NO REDEEMING QUALITY. He is PURE EVIL & what he wants is to control humans, bring them into sin, have them lose their souls & enter Hell for all eternity.

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          This is what Patriarchy does: removes the LOVE out of life, albeit slowly, sneakily, covertly, but that is his intention. It’s done by taking away human rights, undoing all the good that has been done – like undermining the Constitution & all just laws, replacing all that is good with subhuman, cruel laws & policies, stripping people away from all their dignity, self worth, self determination—removing from us all that is righteous, filled with love, kindness, forgiveness, & replacing it with all that is demonic – SLOWLY BUT SURELY YOU SEE THEM ATTEMPTING TO TAKE AWAY ALL HUMAN RIGHTS, ALL JUST LAWS & ALL LOVE FROM OUR WORLD.

 

          This Shadow Govt creates all the wars, the terrorism & all the new-fangled diseases on the planet. It’s not any longer Illuminati against Communists, Asians or Muslims, it is Illuminati, as it has always been, AGAINST ALL PEOPLE, AS SATAN IS, SO GOES ILLUMINATI.

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The patriarchs / demonics bit by bit remove the love out of everything in our world, thereby removing the ‘salt from the earth’ & making it unpalatable

          You wonder how this group of ‘persons’ infused by this spirit of the dark world can operate – by paying people off. By simply giving salaries to ignorant, benighted soldiers, sailors, police, govt officials, doctors & lawyers – researchers, any number of people in charge of others – simply PAYING THEM SALARIES, then IMPOSING THEIR POLICIES ON THEM, MAKING THEM OBEY FOR LARGE OR SMALL SUMS OF MONEY, & thereby they hold the rest of humanity IN THRALLDOM. Yes, this is how we are ENSLAVED BY SATAN, like poor factory farm animals, we are kenneled, controlled, bullied, intimidated & forced to do things we don’t want to do – top of which is PAY OBSCENE SUMS OF MONEY TO TAXES. 

 These  diseases are manufactured & spread by them – it is biowarfare against the people.  They created aids, ebola, sars & this – all the new esoteric diseases.  They  created & spread them, they have patents on them, they have the remedies patented & they do all this to create mayhem, destabilization, fear & insecurity to the people.  I met doctors who are paid to research how the diseases are doing – they do it all with our tax money, destroy us with our tax money.

          By Guru Rasa Von Werder     8-7-20 

 

We have a right to be mad 

 

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   from AJAX THE GREAT again

Thank you very much, Rasa.  Very well-said overall.  You make a great point about how neutral countries like Sweden are not prone to the same tendencies as the war-mongers, hence their logically different approach to COVID-19 as well.  Iceland too. Though that other famously neutral European country that starts with “S”, Switzerland, did do a lockdown at first, they reopened quicker than most other countries and ahead of their own schedule too.  Speaking of which, I found a great site related to the latter country:

https://swprs.org/a-swiss-doctor-on-covid-19/

https://swprs.org/on-the-treatment-of-covid-19/

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Indeed, these COVID lockdowns and related machinations in most countries and subnational entities (including the USA) do have all the fingerprints of the demonic patriarchy (and shadow government) all over them.  And that is certainly no coincidence! 

 

RASA SAYS:   AJAX THE GREAT REALLY KNOWS WHAT HE’S TALKING ABOUT.  HIS RESEARCH IS TOP NOTCH.  SUCH A GREAT CONTRIBUTION TO THE WORK OF MOTHER GOD!

 

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College of God & Love, College of Matriarchal Love, Core Tenets, Uncategorized

BEAT DEPRESSION

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BEATING DEPRESSION

 

—written for a friend

 

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1                  FIND A PROFESSIONAL PERSON TO SPEAK TO IN TERMS OF TALK THERAPY – IF THIS IS NOT POSSIBLE, TRY AN AMATEUR WHO IS SYMPATHETIC, KIND, TO TALK TO EACH DAY FOR 15 MINUTES, SPEAKING WHATEVER IS ON HER MIND…………………………….

 

2           A    FRIEND OF MINE WHO HAD NEGLECT FROM HER MOM SUFFERED FROM ‘ATTACHMENT DISORDER.’  SHE PAID A PROFESSIONAL WOMAN TO HOLD HER A HALF HOUR AT A TIME TWICE A WEEK.  SHE SAYS IT HELPED TREMENDOUSLY.  SHE NEEDED LOVE, ATTENTION, TO MAKE UP FOR THE TRAUMA OF HER MOM’S NEGLECT.

 

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3        A ‘DEAR DIARY’  THERAPEUTIC WRITING SCENE WHERE SHE PUTS DOWN WHATEVER SHE’S THINKING / FEELING EACH DAY AS WELL AS A JOURNAL OF MEMORIES, GOOD & BAD – WHATEVER COMES TO MIND.  THIS IS IMPORTANT. IT UNCOVERS HIDDEN TRAUMAS EVENTUALLY, WOUNDS OF THE PAST.

 

 

4     BEHIND YOUR HOUSE ARE TREES, MAYBE WOODS.  LET HER WALK & SIT THERE EACH DAY DOING WHAT THEY CALL ‘FOREST BATHING.’  NATURE IS A HEALER.

 

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5      MASSAGE:  NOT JUST A RUBDOWN BUT A DEEP MASSAGE FROM HEAD TO TOE.  THIS HAS MULTIPLE HEALING POINTS.  ONE IS BOOSTS CIRCULATION.  SECOND IT MOVES THE LYMPH GLANDS, WHICH ARE THE ‘SEWER SYSTEM’ OR CLEANSER OF THE BODY.  THIRD, IT BOTH RELAXES & STIMULATES THE BODY.   AND FOURTH, IT TRANSMITS ENERGY FROM THE GIVER TO THE CLIENT; IT TAKES AWAY FATIGUE & HOPEFULLY NEGATIVE THOUGHTS……IF YOU CANNOT FIND ANOTHER PERSON FOR THIS, WORK ON IT YOURSELF. I LEARNED TO MASSAGE EXPERTLY BY WORKING ON MY OWN BODY…….MASSAGE DEEPLY EVERY PART OF THE BODY YOU CAN REACH, FROM THE HEAD TO THE TOES. TAKE AS LONG AS YOU WISH, THE LONGER THE BETTER. DO A GOOD JOB ON THE FEET, THEY ARE AS IMPORTANT AS ANY PART OF THE BODY.

 

 

6         ‘SKETCH THERAPY’  – HAVE HER DO SIMPLE SKETCHES OF WHATEVER SHE FEELS LIKE EACH DAY, NOTHING FANCY, JUST WHATEVER COMES TO MIND.  SOME OF THE CONTENTS OF HER UNCONSCIOUS WILL SURFACE & YOU MIGHT GET HINTS OF WHAT IS INSIDE THAT TROUBLE HER.

 

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7                   POSITIVE AFFIRMATIONS:  THESE ARE LIKE PRAYERS OR SELF HYPNOSIS, IT PROGRAMS THE MIND.  WRITE OUT SERIES OF POSITIVE STATEMENTS & REPEAT THESE AS OFTEN AS POSSIBLE.  THE EMOTIONS & BODY FOLLOW THE MIND,  ‘AS A MAN THINKETH, SO IS HE.’

 

 

    WHAT WE THINK AFFECTS THE EMOTIONS, WHAT WE FEEL AFFECTS THE BODY.  THINKING NEGATIVE MAKES PEOPLE ILL – POSITIVE THOUGHTS MAKE THEM WELL.  EXAMPLE, MENTAL/EMOTIONAL ABUSERS ATTACK THE VICTIM WITH NEGATIVITY, THE VICTIM BEGINS INTERNALIZING THESE NEGATIVE THOUGHTS, SOMETIMES RESULTING IN ‘SELF HATE.’  SELF HATE IS THE WORST CONDITION TO HAVE, WHEN ONE HAS ‘THE DEMON OF SELF HATE’ THEY DON’T NEED ANY OTHER – THEY DESTROY THEMSELVES. {THE ABUSERS WANT TO DESTROY THE TARGET.}

 

    SELF HATE MAKES A PERSON SABOTAGE ALL THEIR GOOD FORTUNE, THEIR RELATIONSHIPS & THEIR OPPORTUNITIES.  IT MEANS A PERSON DOESN’T LOVE THEMSELVES.  YOU MUST LOVE YOURSELF IN ORDER TO SUCCEED, TO BE HAPPY, TO PROSPER.  THE OPPOSITE BODES DISASTER ON ALL LEVELS.

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    REMEMBER THAT WHEN A PERSON IS ABUSED EARLY IN LIFE, IT IS NOT JUST WORDS – ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS.  HOW THEY ARE TREATED IS A FORM OF ABUSE.  BEING IGNORED, DISREGARDED, NEGLECTED ARE FORMS OF ABUSE OR LACK OF LOVE, THEY MAKE A PERSON FEEL WORTHLESS, WITHOUT VALUE.  PEOPLE NEED AFFIRMATION FROM OTHERS, ESPECIALLY THOSE CLOSEST TO THEM EARLY IN LIFE.

 

 

8      HYPNO-THERAPY OR HYPNOSIS:   ONE MUST FIND A PERSON THAT UNDERSTANDS MANY THINGS – A BAD HYPNOTHERAPIST WILL NOT HELP.  THERE AREN’T MANY AROUND.  I AM A HYPNOTHERAPIST WHO HAS HELPED MANY, I’M VERY GOOD WITH DEPRESSION.  YOU HAVE TO DISCOVER WHAT IS TROUBLING THE PERSON & GIVE ALL THE POSITIVE AFFIRMATIONS, SUGGESTIONS, TO THEM, WHILE THEY ARE UNDER. 

 

      YOU REVIEW THEIR EXPERIENCES & ASSIST THEM TO SEE THE PAST IN A POSITIVE LIGHT.  THIS IS CALLED ‘REFRAMING.’  I HAVE ALWAYS GOTTEN SUCCESS WITH THIS, THE PEOPLE TELL ME THEY ‘WALK ON AIR’ WHEN WE ARE DONE.  

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        YOU HELP PEOPLE HAVE A POSITIVE ATTITUDE BY BOOSTING THEIR FAITH, HOPE & CONFIDENCE.  HELP THEM SEE LIFE IS WORTH LIVING, THE PAST WAS MEANT TO BE, GOOD CAME OUT OF IT, WHAT WAS BAD IS FORGIVEN & THEN BECOMES IRRELEVANT.  HOWEVER, ONE OF THE KEY POINTS OF THESE THERAPIES IS ONE MUST UNCOVER WHAT IS FESTERING INSIDE, WHAT IS HIDDEN THAT HURTS, – THE WOUNDS THAT HAVE NEVER HEALED, THE PAINS THAT CAUSED RIGHTEOUS ANGER, AN ANGER WHICH HAS TURNED TO SORROW & DEPRESSION, NOT WANTING TO LIVE ANY MORE.   

9        NATURAL HERBS        ST. JOHN’S WORT, ASHWAGANDHA & L-TYROSENE {LOTS IN TURKEY MEAT} ARE THREE I HAVE ON HAND.  YOU WON’T FEEL MUCH IF ANYTHING UNLESS YOU TAKE AT LEAST 3 PILLS OF THE STRONGEST - 300 MG OF ST. JOHN’S, 5 PREFERABLY.  IF UNDER SUPER STRESS YOU CAN TAKE 10-15 OR EVEN MORE PILLS, IT WILL NOT HURT YOU.  I WAS TAKING 15 ST. JOHN’S PRIOR TO EACH LAZER BEAM EYE SURGERY, MY FACE WAS FLUSHED WAS THE ONLY SYMPTOM – IT OBVIOUSLY INCREASED CIRCULATION TO MY HEAD. 

 THERE ARE MANY STRESS REDUCING HERBS, CHECK SWANSON CATALOGS:   800–437–4148 — BOX 2803  FARGO, ND  58108-2803  – THIS IS THE CO I USE TO GET ALL MY VITAMINS & SUCH, THEY ARE THE CHEAPEST FOR QUALITY MATERIAL

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    POSITIVE AFFIRMATIONS TO BE REPEATED OVER & OVER:

 

    LIFE IS WORTH LIVING, MY LIFE IS VALUABLE

 

    I AM VALUABLE, I HAVE A PURPOSE, I WILL REACH MY GOALS

 

    THERE IS MUCH TO LOOK FORWARD TO

 

    MY LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL

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    I AM JOYFUL & HAPPY BECAUSE GOD LOVES ME

 

    GOD CREATED ME TO BE HAPPY

 

    GOD WANTS ME TO ENJOY MY LIFE

 

    GOD WANTS ME TO BE HAPPY ON EARTH AS WELL AS IN HEAVEN

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    THERE IS NO REASON FOR ME TO BE GLUM, BLUE OR UNHAPPY, LIFE IS GOOD

 

    LIFE IS HERE TO BE LIVED, NOT DENIED

 

    THERE ARE GOOD THINGS TO LOOK FORWARD TO

 

    I WILL RECEIVE ALL MY DREAMS COME TRUE

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    WONDERFUL THINGS WILL HAPPEN TO ME

 

    I CAN NEVER FAIL, LIFE IS CONTINUOUS LEARNING, GOOD OR BAD

 

    ALL THINGS TURN OUT FOR GOOD

 

    I HAVE FAITH & HOPE IN GOOD

 

    EVERY DAY IS CHRISTMAS

 

    LOVE IS COMING MY WAY

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    I AM ENGULFED IN LOVE, TRUTH & BLISS

 

MIRACLES ARE COMING MY WAY, I CAN HARDLY WAIT TO SEE THEM

 

GOD IS A GOD OF MIRACLES, SHE CREATES THEM EVERY SECOND – LOOK AT THE UNIVERSE. SHE HAS MIRACLES IN STORE FOR ME, ALL I HAVE TO DO IS BELIEVE.

 

GOD CREATED ME FOR HAPPINESS. NO FORCE IN THE WORLD CAN TAKE THAT AWAY FROM ME, IF I RESIST THE EVIL.

 

I TURN A DEAF EAR TO ALL EVIL SAID ABOUT ME.

 

I TURN A BLIND EYE TO THOSE WHO HATE ME, I FIND THEM IRRELEVANT.

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MY ABUSERS WERE WRONG, I SHUN THEM, WALK AWAY FROM THEM, I DO NOT AFFIRM THEM, HOLD THEM UP TO ESTEEM OR HONOR. I SEE THEM AS THEY ARE & REMOVE THEM FROM MY MIND.

 

I DO NOT DWELL ON THE NEGATIVE, ON WORRIES OR FEARS. I TRUST IN THE LORD TO TAKE CARE OF ALL MY NEEDS.

 

GOD IS A LOVING GOD WHO HEARS EACH PRAYER. I ASK GOD TO PROTECT ME, WATCH OVER ME & TAKE ME TO MY GREATEST GOOD……

 

MORE THERAPIES:

10     HAVE THE CARE GIVER READ TO THE CLIENT FROM SPIRITUAL BOOKS, ESPECIALLY ON THE VIRTUES OF FAITH, HOPE, & CONFIDENCE.

11     READ TO THE CLIENT FROM LIVES OF THE SAINTS – HOW THEY OVERCAME GREAT OBSTACLES, THEIR VICTORIES, THEIR VIRTUES, HOW THEY PREVAILED IN TRIALS.  TRY ST TERESA OF AVILA, ST CATHERINE THE GREAT, ST FAUSTINA, ST PADRE PIO, ST FRANCIS OF ASSISI,  — ALL SAINTS HEROICALLY CONQUERED TRIALS WITH VIRTUES, ESPECIALLY THE VIRTUES OF FAITH, HOPE, CONFIDENCE & CHARITY.

12     PICTURE GAZING:  FIND PICTURES THAT ARE PLEASING TO THE CLIENT, SUCH AS NATURE & ANIMALS, MAKE A COLLECTION EITHER PHYSICALLY OR ON THE INTERNET & GO THROUGH THEM EVERY DAY.  THESE CAN BE ON THE MANY CALENDARS YOU HAVE.  MAKE A PILE – HAVE HER LOOK AT THEM.

13     THE AFFIRMATIONS:  THE CLIENT SAYS AFFIRMATIONS AT VARIOUS TIMES, SUCH AS BEFORE FALLING ASLEEP OR UPON WAKING UP, WHILE SITTING AROUND DOING NOTHING.  BUT ON TOP OF THAT SIT DOWN WITH THE CLIENT & WRITE DOWN EVERY POSITIVE AFFIRMATION YOU BOTH CAN THINK OF.  READ FROM THIS LIST TO THE CLIENT OUT LOUD – ALSO HAVE HER READ FROM IT OUT LOUD EVERY DAY.  THE AFFIRMATION WHICH CALLS ON MIRACLES IS VERY EFFECTIVE.

   

  8-5-20 by Rasa Von Werder

               

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